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Do it . Welcome
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to Ask When everyone Today
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I have Reza with me and Reza
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just was switching it up on
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you people Reza just offered
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to interview me and
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this is in the time span
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of two minutes . We were going to
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talk about his story and
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mental health , but because
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you guys don't know
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about my story my
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story is very complex and
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those of you who have listened
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to my work and I know I've got
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a lot of new subscribers
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here and so I
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will let my guest who's
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taken the mic and interview
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me and then we'll get into
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his story . We're going
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to do part two
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part well , one of his
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story . part two of his story
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. part three , because he's
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a mental health advocate
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and someone can let Reza
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take my spot and I'm
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going to be the interviewee
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because you guys don't know
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about my story and I thought
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it would be fun . Reza just
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presented me with this idea
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and I'll take a challenge on .
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Amazing . Well , hi , wynn , i love your
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shirts , i
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love your outfit today , looking nice
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, looking awesome . Both of us . We're killing it today
1:30
, aren't we ? Yeah , thanks
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for the intro . My name is Reza . Everybody and
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I know Wynn from Clubhouse , and
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so that's kind of how we met . We were in a podcasting
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room So , yeah
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, i guess , wynn , we
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didn't really talk much , just aside from
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talking to her assistant to get this podcast
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started . I'd love to know
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what it is about your
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mental health lived experience
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, because I don't know much about it .
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So Well , my
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mental health , lived experience
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. I hit
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rock bottom in
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2019 . That
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was my rock bottom point
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in 2019 . I
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hit rock bottom in 2019
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after losing my
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father , almost losing
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my house to
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the state of Colorado , and
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I managed
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to save my own life
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by moving to
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Phoenix , arizona . But during
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that time I hit rock
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bottom and I
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will never forget when
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I hit rock bottom and
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realized that
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this
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is not good for me , this is not
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a healthy environment
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for me to be in . I
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am also a lads back . So
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being around the cat 24
3:09
seven didn't help . And
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being around going
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to grief and then going
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through and
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I admit that
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my the
3:24
friend that was living with me
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and I'll call them the
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friend that was living with me and I
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don't care if my family
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listened to this , they know this and
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I don't care if my friends listened
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to this they also
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started to notice The friend
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that was living with me did
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not take care of me , did
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not help me , did not
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do much of anything
3:50
. She was
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working . She would leave
3:55
me with AIDS eight hours
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a day and expect the
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AIDS to take care
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of me And , on
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top of it , she expects the AIDS not
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only to
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take care of me , but
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but
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also help her
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manage my house , which
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I
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took care of . My own
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father for nine
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days when he
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was diagnosed
4:32
well , we would
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try and figure out what was
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wrong with him . It
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was undiagnosed stage
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four lung cancer and
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all of the hospital at the time couldn't
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figure out what was wrong with him . So
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they sent him home for nine days , whereupon
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my friend , who
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calls herself my stepmom she's
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not really my stepmom , she
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that's the homeless story and stuff
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, and why she calls herself my
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stepmom , i don't know And
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she's trying
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to be friendly , friendly with me and I've
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given up on the
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stepmom mentality because
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she's really not my stepmom And
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so she
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went to work for nine days . My
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father was struggling
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emotionally and physically
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. I landed up taking care
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of my father for
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nine days , nine days in total
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. We finally
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decided as
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a family to
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kick him back into
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the hospital . He
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got transplanted by
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an ambulance to a bigger hospital
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. Yes , i have learned
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that I did not
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know this , that most
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patients typically
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you don't fight , you
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don't fight being airlifted out
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. But he said I refuse
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to be airlifted out . And
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of course my
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stepmom was so oblivious
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that
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she didn't . She
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put in all the efforts
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that she could , but
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at the end she's like , okay
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, dude , you get whatever you want . And
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I thought he
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was in diastrates with
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stage four lung cancer
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And he died six
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days after diagnosis in
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every
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rehab center with
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because he was so drunk they
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didn't want to do anything And
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because he was so
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God , i love him . He
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was so controlling of
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me and he made
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me housebound . He
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made me housebound because
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, even though
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my aides wanted
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to take me out , he said no , i'll
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take a win out , i'll take a win out , i'll take
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a win out . He wanted
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me to be around
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And I have been working on my mental health
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since then
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, so I
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know that he was controlling
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me . Since then
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I have . I
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am as fun to now since
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he died , and
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I'm happy to be living
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in Phoenix Hills on the island
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of selling his house and
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I ended up making
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the decision to move to
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Phoenix Hills . I'm . At the time
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I was getting ready to move
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to the East Coast , where
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my family is , where my
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network is , where my
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everything is . The
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East Coast was gonna be my home base
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, but I got
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this amazing housing opportunity
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in Phoenix Hills
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I don't know Whereupon . I
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decided to move
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to Phoenix , arizona . It
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has been the best decision
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I have ever made
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in my life . I
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had to get out of keeping up
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with the Joneses mentality
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of asking call on on . I
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had to get out of the state of
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call on all . Call
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on all is generally expensive
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Nowadays . So
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I , to save
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my mental health and to save
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my physical
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health , i had to get out of call
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on all .
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Yeah , no , when that's Arizona
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, great things about Arizona I've always heard
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. So you know , good
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decision , That's a lot . And
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then obviously the
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mental health stuff . And
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then , aside from the mental health stuff , what is the
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are you okay to talk about ? like the
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physical stuff ? Yeah , Because
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I don't know about that either .
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Physical stuff . The physical
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stuff I have asthma
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, i have osteoporosis
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. I have
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asthma , osteoporosis
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and CP
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, all under the auspices
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of cerebral palsy . Cerebral
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palsy is a lack
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of oxygen entry
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at birth , so I acquired
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cerebral palsy at birth
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I also , hence
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the cerebral palsy . I
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also have a bad back , which
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bad back is
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being worked on
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as we speak , you guys , and
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so bad back will
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either stay the bad back or
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be worked on . And
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it's interesting because
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11 years
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ago I
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had scoliosis
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surgery . I thought the scoliosis
11:14
surgery was going
11:16
to be successful , but
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it turned out not . So
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now I'm 11 years later
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, i am looking
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at , looking
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at a potential
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back surgery And I
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have what they call filled
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back surgery . And now I'm
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dealing with bad
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back and due to
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the cerebral palsy , and
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so that's my physical disability
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in the nutshell .
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Wow , okay . So I
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actually knew a guy
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in Utah when I was
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going to school . I think he had cerebral
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palsy as well . His
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actually was more extreme than yours , i
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think , just because maybe
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it was a different thing , but correct
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me if I'm wrong but he had how
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do I explain it ? Like he couldn't
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even , like you're
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still , you know what I mean . Like he had
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how do I explain it ? But like
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he was like bent over
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kind of thing , but the smartest
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guy . It's crazy . So he taught
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he would help me with chemistry , believe it or not
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. And so I would
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.
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I would have to buy that .
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Yeah , very smart people . I think something
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about it .
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Cerebral palsy is on well-at-tom
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. It can go from mild
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to moderate . I
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am moderate . I
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just have worked
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on it over the years
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And , as a matter of
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fact , i have a project
13:10
going on Right
13:12
now . I'm in the middle of a project
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that I'm
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in the middle of , a project that
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will improve my cerebral
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palsy , my cerebral
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palsy slash , my motivational
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speaking , and I will let you
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guys know when that happens
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And
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I am super excited about
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. I have support
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on that . It's not
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like I'm doing this going
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alone . It's not like I'm often
13:45
. Often , by any means
13:47
, people think , oh the poor
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often . Oh , the poor , often it's
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functioning . Oh , the poor often
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gets out every single day
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. See , i travel with wheelchair
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. I am a motivational speaker
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. So when I hit
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bottom in 2019
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, i decided to uproot
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my life , move to Phoenix And
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I was going to get a better quality of life
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and deal with the
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disability to the rest of
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my abilities And
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, thank God , i have excellent medical
14:22
care five minutes away from my house
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, and so that
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is what
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is going on . But
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I am working on
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a project right now to
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not only support cerebral
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palsy but support
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my motivational speaking
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career as well . I'm also
14:45
working on a nice project
14:47
simply to support my
14:50
motivational speaking career
14:52
nothing to do with
14:54
cerebral palsy And that project
14:57
will get rocking in early in
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August . And actually that project
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that I can tell you guys , i'm actually
15:04
looking at a book about
15:06
podcasting , because
15:08
you guys keep asking me How
15:12
do I do it ? How do I do it . So
15:14
I finally hooked up with
15:17
a publisher and I'm
15:19
working on a book I'm
15:21
having and I'm making
15:24
this book truly
15:27
my dream book to speak about
15:29
podcasting , and
15:31
so that's going to help my motivational
15:34
speaking career . The other
15:37
project is something
15:39
I've been wanting to do
15:41
for years but haven't had
15:44
time to do it , and
15:46
I need to get back
15:48
to
15:51
do it and I will keep you
15:53
guys updated on that . I
15:56
will let the cat out of the bag as soon
15:58
as I figure
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out how
16:03
to do it . There's
16:05
a lot of moving pieces to
16:08
this project and I just need
16:10
to bury
16:12
myself into it and figure out
16:14
how to do it .
16:16
Yeah , no , i'm sure . Yeah , once you get the , you
16:18
know , once you just hit the start button
16:20
it'll click . I'm
16:22
sure you're doing a lot .
16:25
It will click .
16:27
Yes , I'm sure .
16:29
And once I hit the
16:31
start button , this other
16:34
project will fall into place
16:36
.
16:36
Yes .
16:37
And I am super excited because
16:40
I'm going back to something
16:43
I need to work on for
16:45
my mental speaking of mental
16:47
health for my mental health and
16:50
for my physical health , so
16:52
that I can be a better motivational
16:55
speaker .
16:57
Amazing . No , you've got a brilliant story
16:59
of resilience , and the fact
17:01
that you're able to do all this , you know
17:04
, with all the challenges
17:06
that you face every day , is a
17:08
superpower to me , and that's why
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you know , i
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define , i use
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the term . I think it's very important
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, not only in terms
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of fighting the stigma associated
17:20
with any kind of disability , but
17:23
it's important for our well-being
17:25
to reframe
17:28
in a positive way and
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to embrace this disability and
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call it a superpower . I mean , i learned this initially
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from Kanye West how he defined
17:38
bipolar disorder as his
17:40
superpower , and so I'd
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love to kind of get into that , if you
17:44
, if we may , yeah , yeah
17:46
. So I
17:49
think , embracing it . So I
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think the way it's a superpower for you , the way
17:53
I see it is again just how
17:56
you've been able to just be
17:58
such a strong person and to
18:01
do the things that you do every day despite all
18:03
the challenges . That , to me , is a superpower
18:05
, and anyone who's listening to this
18:08
right now , we
18:10
me both me and you are so
18:12
much stronger , right , as
18:16
a result of that , those challenges
18:18
. Imagine we didn't have
18:20
some of these challenges . Perhaps
18:24
I don't know if we would be as strong . So
18:26
that's one reframe that
18:28
I make every day in my mind . But
18:31
yeah , anyways , I'll
18:33
give the ball to . This is your podcast
18:35
, so I'll kind of you know
18:38
, let it be in your hands . What you
18:40
want , ask me and stuff .
18:41
Well , one of the things I
18:43
want to ask you
18:46
and we'll go , we'll go into
18:48
this . Yes , i have Liz's
18:51
permission to talk
18:54
about this . You were hospitalized
18:57
for mental health
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And let's like this stigma about
19:02
that , because I
19:04
think And
19:08
I'm actually speaking
19:10
about podcasting
19:12
on July 7th And
19:14
one of the things I
19:16
say is people
19:18
may listen in
19:20
my speech And this is after
19:23
I got the text message from
19:25
Bethesda saying he was hospitalized
19:28
for mental health , and
19:31
so I took that to heart
19:33
and I am really
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impressed that you're
19:38
doing what you're doing on
19:41
this podcast today And
19:43
I'm really impressed
19:45
that you're doing
19:48
so well after being hospitalized
19:51
, because after being hospitalized
19:53
for mental health , god knows
19:56
what you come out
19:58
looking like . But , that
20:00
being said , talk
20:02
to us about that . Talk to
20:04
us about you rock bottom moment
20:07
, because one of the
20:09
things I said in my speech is
20:12
that people may consume podcast
20:15
on a daily
20:17
basis And then they may go back
20:20
to listen to it when
20:22
they have the rock
20:24
bottom moments and they
20:27
have , they
20:29
need to pick me up . So talk
20:32
to me about you , walk by
20:34
the moment and talk
20:36
to me about being hospitalized
20:38
for mental health .
20:40
Yeah , so I'll go in a little chronological order
20:42
here . I think it's important to just give context
20:44
to my story a little bit . Initially
20:47
I had a job at a tech
20:49
company I'll just leave out the name
20:51
of the company for I don't know
20:53
, you know , privacy reasons . It
20:56
was a major , major tech company . A
20:58
major jump in my salary . Let's
21:00
just say my salary went
21:03
double when I got that job . So imagine
21:05
you're making 40k , my salary
21:07
went to 80k per year . So
21:10
naturally I think anybody would get a little bit excited
21:12
about that . So I would go
21:14
to work with little sleep and
21:18
wake up at like 4am , you
21:20
know , buying all these expensive suits
21:22
looking like a million dollars
21:24
every day . And I
21:26
was also very grateful , right , and
21:28
when I get grateful I would go to church
21:31
. I would , you know when they bring in the basket donation
21:33
, give $20 bills right
21:35
, right and left . And when I go to
21:37
clubs and bars I would . What's the
21:39
name of the people that work in the bathroom ? I forgot
21:41
the name , but do you know there's
21:44
these like bathroom attendance , let's just call them . I
21:46
would give like crazy tips
21:48
to them , like it's just like I would pick up trash
21:50
from the floor , i would stop my car And
21:53
whenever I saw garbage on the ground
21:55
, i would pick it up . So
21:58
it turns out all these things that I was doing
22:00
is considered hypomania . So
22:05
I was hospitalized initially in
22:07
2018
22:09
, 2019 , that timeframe It
22:12
was actually the first day of the Persian New Year
22:14
, which is very ironic to me , right ? The
22:16
New Year Persian No Ruz
22:18
is what it's called And
22:20
to be hospitalized in
22:22
that day was just such a disaster . Because
22:25
here's the thing , everybody that's listening to this when
22:28
you have bipolar disorder or
22:30
other sort of mental health illnesses
22:32
where you're involuntarily hospitalized
22:35
, it does feel like
22:37
you're going to jail Legitimately . It's
22:39
like you're going to prison , okay
22:41
, because you can't get out . You
22:45
know they remove your , your technology
22:47
, they remove your phones from you . Oh
22:50
my gosh , oh my gosh . I don't even . Anyways
22:54
, all that stuff . you can't smoke cigarettes . This
22:56
is why I'm just embracing
22:58
my freedom right now , smoking
23:00
cigarettes . Well , on this podcast
23:02
, i'm not trying to promote smoking or anything , but
23:04
you've got to realize the hell that I've been through
23:07
. That was the first time And
23:09
then came out
23:11
of that . I was given really bad medications
23:14
bad as in . It
23:16
would make me depressed . I've never been
23:18
a depressed person in my life . I've always been . This
23:20
is the way I am now Very happy , enjoy
23:23
life , you know , to the fullest
23:25
kind of guy . I remember going to Mexico
23:27
with my family And you
23:29
know , come on , who gets depressed when they're
23:31
in Mexico at a resort , all
23:34
inclusive , go eat what you
23:36
want , go drink what you want , and I wouldn't get out of bed . That
23:38
to me . I'm like this . This medication
23:40
is just killing me , destroying me And
23:43
finally just weeded myself off of it
23:45
. You know my doctor approved that
23:47
. Come off the meds . And
23:49
then I got this other exciting tech company job
23:52
at , you know , one of these like fancy
23:54
shamancy tech companies where , you
23:56
know , they give you a lot of free shit . I don't know
23:58
if I can swear on the podcast , maybe
24:01
not , i can , i
24:03
can , okay , so you know
24:05
, like those . And
24:07
, by the way , i'm an Apple guy . So for me
24:09
, every little thing gets me excited . So
24:12
the fact that I was going into this company with like a MacBook
24:15
and like , yes , apple products
24:17
here . So
24:19
you know , i got a little over excited again . And
24:21
this time the mania , so to speak
24:23
, was more , i guess
24:25
, more psychosis based . So
24:28
again , some people might be listening
24:30
to this bipolar disorder
24:32
. It's different for everybody . I have the type
24:34
one . The type one as
24:36
is not so much the stereotypical
24:39
up and down that people think it is . It's not
24:41
like up down , up down , it's not like that at all . That's
24:43
type two . With
24:45
type one , you , i really don't get
24:47
depressed , i really don't . It's
24:50
weird , off meds , on meds
24:52
, i don't get depressed . I just
24:54
get a little bit too high in
24:56
my state . So this time
24:58
I was experiencing
25:00
a little bit of psychosis , like in the sense that just very
25:02
, very connected to internally
25:06
, to like spirituality , almost
25:08
sort of thinking that , thinking
25:12
that I
25:14
don't even know what the stuff I want to talk about , but like
25:16
very close to Jesus , you know
25:18
, acting like in my mind
25:20
Jesus , and
25:23
then I find myself climbing up a sort
25:25
of a tree just , and
25:27
then long story short , and
25:29
end up in the hospital again . And
25:33
this time , like I actually went to the cops myself
25:35
, asked them for a ride home , go
25:37
home , my parents actually go to
25:39
my parents' house , then we go to the hospital
25:41
And then this time this
25:43
was my second house hospitalization . Now this
25:46
time I was there for two months because
25:48
I refused to
25:51
get medicated , because the first
25:53
round of meds were so bad that
25:55
I was so afraid to
25:58
go depressed again that I was
26:00
refusing . So that's why I was there for such a long
26:02
time Turns out , one of my inmates
26:04
for lack of a better word this
26:07
other guy , he was in a rock band . He's a very
26:09
well-known guy in a rock band And
26:12
you know , he told me one thing And
26:14
, by the way , he's the person that I inspired
26:18
me , or enlightened me rather , towards
26:20
Anglican Christian , because
26:22
that's what I am now . I'm
26:25
coming from a Muslim background . I'm
26:27
now Anglican Christian , working on
26:29
baptism for us with the priest . But
26:31
he's like Reza , this is the
26:34
happy drug And we're talking about
26:36
something called a billify . He's
26:38
like Reza , don't worry , this
26:41
is the happy one man . When he
26:43
said that , i was like
26:45
ooh , okay , thank God , i trust
26:47
you , man . So I went on that and
26:50
turns out he was right , believe it or not . At
26:52
least for me this wasn't so bad this
26:54
time right . Of course , there's always tight
26:57
effects . Like you know , my left arm
26:59
was feeling a little numb at times , but over
27:01
the years I was on it for quite a while And
27:04
I got used to it . Now
27:06
, after a
27:08
few years , i thought
27:10
I'm gaining a lot of weight . I'm like , okay
27:13
, and I go to my doctor
27:15
, i'm like , hey , listen , doc , i
27:17
can't , i can't do this anymore . Like
27:20
, no matter how little I eat , i'm
27:22
gaining weight . So
27:24
, with his permission , we decide
27:27
. He said okay , you know what , reza , we'll give it another
27:29
try . And at this point I still
27:31
was kind of in denial
27:33
about bipolar being something
27:36
that I have right , bipolar disorder . I
27:38
was still in denial about it , Turns
27:40
out , and I told him . I said , hey , listen , i'll stop drinking
27:42
alcohol , stop cannabis , i'll stop drugs
27:44
, everything . I'll be sober . Can
27:47
we go off the meds now ? He's like , sure , try
27:49
it , try it for a year , dude . But
27:51
he's like , listen , i'll bet you anything , reza
27:53
, that it's going to . You're going to have a
27:55
relapse again , you're going to have an episode . I said , no , i'm not
27:57
. Turns out , after
27:59
a year of being completely sober from
28:01
everything this
28:04
was just a few months ago I started
28:06
having And anybody
28:09
who might have followed my Instagram
28:11
you might have
28:13
seen some of this stuff But
28:16
yeah , so I experienced some stuff
28:18
again . Now , this time
28:20
, i also start doing
28:23
cocaine and I start doing
28:25
that . So
28:29
, long story short , i was hospitalized four
28:31
times within the span of two months
28:33
or so . Right , i go into
28:35
the hospital , come back out , go in again
28:37
And
28:39
, long story short , i overdosed on
28:42
cocaine . I'm very
28:44
open about this . On my Instagram
28:46
. I have a video and I'm open
28:48
about it because I
28:51
feel that it's important for people
28:53
to hear these kind of stories
28:55
in order
28:57
to save themselves from
28:59
it right And
29:02
from a harm reduction stand
29:04
. If you are unable
29:06
to stop , if you're doing this stuff , don't do it
29:08
by yourself . I always say , but this is
29:10
not about drugs . We can have another episode about
29:12
that if you want . But back to the mental
29:14
health stuff . So , in terms of the hospitalization
29:17
this time , this
29:20
time I was very much more grateful about
29:22
everything . Thank you to the doctors , thank
29:24
you to And
29:27
trust me , it takes a lot
29:29
of growth to reach this point . It
29:32
takes a lot of growth to , first of all
29:35
, be open about the diagnosis
29:37
, like I am . I
29:39
know not to toot my own horn , but
29:41
this is something where it took me . I
29:44
was always so concerned when
29:47
, back when I lived in Utah , i would
29:49
go into the bushes and I would
29:51
smoke a cigarette because I was so afraid of
29:53
judgment . Now I've reached a point where
29:55
I'm smoking cigarettes on this podcast , so
29:59
I've come a long way , and
30:02
so the fact that I'm now open about the diagnosis
30:04
. I just figured , you know what , when
30:06
you only live once , we're going to die
30:08
in the end , who knows when
30:11
. Why would I keep this a secret
30:13
? Why was I so so
30:15
afraid of dating women
30:17
and then them finding out
30:19
about it ? I was so scared of that
30:22
And now I've reached a point where , if you don't
30:24
mind , is it okay if I
30:26
play you part of my song that
30:28
I made , or no
30:30
. Maybe not .
30:32
We're going to have to do that another
30:34
time . The next episode
30:36
.
30:36
Okay , okay , cool , yeah . So
30:39
anyone who wants to listen to the song , it is on my Instagram . It's going
30:41
to be available on Spotify and all of that
30:43
stuff all those platforms very
30:45
soon , because I actually purchased the music
30:48
rights in order to release the
30:50
beats of it And , of course , my vocals
30:52
. I made this song
30:54
and it's really a song about
30:56
embracing your disability
30:59
and quotations and , you
31:02
know , reframing it as a superpower , and for
31:04
me , this
31:06
means a lot of things that happen . I received
31:08
miracles and , trust me , i'm not crazy
31:10
. It weren't just in my head , i
31:14
was . I received miracles from God , and
31:17
this wasn't necessarily during my manic
31:19
phase , because right now I've been on
31:21
meds , i'm fine and I
31:24
still remember things
31:26
were very real , and so I'm
31:29
very much a strong
31:31
Christian , believe in God a lot
31:33
, very much . So go
31:36
to church every Sunday when I can And
31:41
I'm embracing it to
31:43
the fullest And I think I will .
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