0:04

Everybody

0:07

are. It's done.

0:10

That's sunny. Isn't

0:13

that sunny? You've tried to get

0:15

into the long draw today, didn't you?

0:17

I

0:22

A fall of snow by James Turner.

0:24

It happens every year

0:26

about Christmas time. I have only

0:29

to go into a shop to buy my Christmas cards

0:31

and there is bound to be one of boys to

0:33

boggining in deep snow. rather

0:35

old fashioned, I suppose, though

0:37

whether there are fashions in snow falls,

0:39

I don't know. Nevertheless, to

0:42

me, these cards bring it all back.

0:44

There's generally a farmhouse in

0:46

the background, an open gate with

0:48

a robin in his crimson winter coat,

0:51

great swags of snow on the hedgerows.

0:54

In the center of the picture, these

0:56

two boys are flying downhill waving

0:58

their hands, they're faces like red

1:00

apples. Of course, it is

1:02

an idealized sort of dickensian

1:05

picture. For one thing, I'm certain.

1:08

The boys careering downhill in the

1:10

picture would never have had the time

1:12

to wave. They would have been clinging

1:14

too tightly to the DeBoggin. Further,

1:17

it is an ideal Christmas picture.

1:20

at least for my part of the country, Cornwall,

1:23

where we rarely get enough snow to make a snowman

1:25

let alone to Boggin. There'd

1:27

only been one year since I've lived in

1:29

Cornwall when the snow was so thick that I

1:31

was able actually to go onto the beach

1:33

in the bay in my home and make a

1:35

Snow. and throw it into the sea.

1:38

It was nineteen sixty three that a very

1:40

bad and what I did the

1:43

Turner I feel is some sort of record.

1:46

that these kind of christmasy pictures

1:48

are pleasant enough to send to a friend, but

1:51

sketchy real.

1:53

Yet,

1:53

what I remember when I see such a

1:55

card is that it did once happen

1:57

to me. It did once become

1:59

very

1:59

real indeed. And

2:01

the two boys in that far away

2:04

real picture are David, my

2:06

cousin, and myself.

2:08

Of

2:08

course, It's not so much the picture

2:10

of two boys to that causes

2:13

me even today to shiver slightly.

2:15

It is the nature of fear itself.

2:18

for fear is a very odd

2:20

thing. I mean that now, today,

2:23

when I'm so much older, I'm not in

2:25

the least afraid of Snow.

2:27

It's merely a nuisance that has

2:29

to be cleared away from the front door.

2:31

It means cold weather, which I can't

2:33

abide. Yet, I'm

2:35

still afraid of what happened long

2:38

ago, in

2:39

that Snow, in Eastern clear.

2:41

But then that Christmas

2:43

of nineteen twenty two when my uncle invited

2:46

me to spend the holiday at his home near Orford

2:48

in Suffolk. Snow was very much

2:50

a novelty to me.

2:52

It's difficult to explain exactly.

2:54

Most childhood fears are when you look

2:56

back at them from middle age.

2:58

But when I remember that fear

3:00

each year, I can only explain

3:03

it by saying that something was

3:05

waiting for me behind the snowstorm. Was

3:08

it I've often wondered because I was

3:10

fifteen and young for my age, was

3:13

it because snow was so great and novelty

3:15

to me, whereas to David who lived

3:17

all the year in East Anglia, and therefore knew

3:19

the land well, as well as being used to

3:21

snow. Nothing happened? It

3:24

really began when I arrived at my uncle's

3:26

house. had gone straight from school instead

3:29

of going back to Cornwall since my parents

3:31

had gone to New York on business.

3:33

It seemed odd at first to be going to Liverpool

3:35

Street station rather than to padding When

3:38

I left Sussex, the sun was shining,

3:41

but the sky gradually clouded and

3:43

by the time I had crossed London and the train

3:45

left Liverpool Street.

3:47

A light fall of snow covered the station

3:49

roof. I was thrilled. If

3:51

snow did come in any quantity,

3:54

this was going to be a Christmas to remember.

3:56

My uncle's car was waiting

3:59

for me at Ipswich. I felt

4:01

very grandvying whisked through the town

4:03

and into the lanes through Woodbridge. and

4:05

passed the lonely farm houses towards

4:07

Orford. Although this was Christmas

4:10

week, no one else but me in the chauffeur

4:12

seemed to be about in that desolate landscape.

4:15

until we pass the old and secret

4:17

wood of Davaten, where some Edmund

4:19

is reputed to have been martyred by

4:21

the Danes. Then a couple, a man

4:23

and a woman, emerged from beneath those

4:25

gnarled and twisted oak and holly trees,

4:28

the great bunches of red berries in

4:30

their arms. It was a further

4:32

sign of a good Christmas. As

4:34

the car sped on, I looked

4:36

back. They

4:37

were walking in the center of the road after

4:39

us. I

4:40

had the uncanny feeling in

4:42

the warmth of the car that

4:44

neither of them was

4:46

real. and

4:47

then they were gone in the

4:49

turn of the road. So Sharpe,

4:52

however, no snow had fallen here,

4:54

but the lights from the house Every

4:56

window seemed to be illuminated, fell

4:58

on the gravel drive. The lawns

5:00

were glittering with frost. My

5:03

aunt, however, knew what was coming.

5:05

She welcomed me into the hall,

5:07

beside the stuffed bear with uplifted arms

5:10

and paws, on which Leia SilverTrey

5:12

for visiting cards. A

5:14

first words gave me hope, Nikki

5:16

Dear, it's lovely to see you. David

5:18

will be least. And I really believe we

5:20

shall have snow for Christmas day. You've brought

5:22

it with you how clever you are.

5:24

Now you must come at once and get really

5:26

warm. You must be frozen. I

5:29

hardly remembered my uncle's house.

5:31

It's true I had been in it once before,

5:34

but that was in summer. Then of

5:36

course, I had run all over the farms

5:38

helping as I Sharpe the

5:39

animals.

5:40

I'd gone off with David often enough to the

5:43

sea at Orford and Boardsey. And

5:45

I knew of the Merman who had years

5:47

ago come out of the scene stayed a while

5:49

it offered itself. He'd been rather

5:51

a pet with the inhabitants until

5:53

one night he'd slipped away again

5:55

across the marshes to the shore. It

5:57

was said that that the fact that the local

5:59

vicar made him go to church

6:02

and that he could not bear the long sermons

6:04

he was forced to listen to any longer,

6:06

decided him to leave.

6:08

From my own experience of church,

6:11

I didn't blame him. David

6:13

and I had also explored the

6:15

old castle keep in the numerous

6:17

Martello towers along the coast.

6:20

What I did remember, however, was that the farmhouse

6:22

was a tall and impressive queen

6:24

Anne House, that it had many

6:26

rooms from the huge drawing room,

6:28

the study, the dining room to

6:30

the bedrooms and attics. The maid

6:32

servants, you have to remember that this was

6:34

in the old fashioned days of nineteen

6:36

twenty two when servants were still

6:38

kept. lived in these addicts

6:40

and went down the backstares of the kitchen

6:43

and scullaries, pantries, and

6:45

dairies. the

6:47

first time I had been ten years

6:49

old. Even so, I was conscious

6:51

of the warmth and comfort of real

6:53

wealth Even if farming was in

6:55

a bad state, especially in East Anglia,

6:58

though it was to get even worse later.

7:00

But point was that

7:02

my uncle did not depend on his

7:04

farms' income. That came from

7:06

his business enterprises. I

7:08

didn't know then what they

7:10

were. Truth to tell, I

7:12

didn't care. All I knew was

7:14

that it scarlets it was called

7:16

with its endless acres, its workmen

7:18

and farmers, was to me a

7:20

wonderful playground and

7:22

that David was a wonderful companion making

7:25

up new adventures each day and telling

7:27

the most absurd lies each

7:29

night as we lay in bed in bedroom

7:31

on the first floor overlooking the

7:33

woods back into the heart of Suffolk.

7:36

This evening,

7:37

all nights before Christmas nineteen twenty

7:39

two, what I remembered of the house was quite

7:41

changed. The interior

7:42

was a light with welcome. Whatever

7:44

was to happen outside in the house,

7:47

there was safety and gaiety.

7:49

A staircase was festooned with

7:52

branches of green holly and ivy,

7:54

paper chains and Chinese lanterns

7:56

alternated with bunches of mystical oak.

7:58

and

7:58

the sideboard

7:59

grown under the weight of fruit and nuts.

8:02

Furthermore, the house seemed full

8:04

of servants. It didn't

8:06

take much intelligence to sense all

8:08

the other good things, plump puddings,

8:10

mince pies, your James,

8:13

that missus Hhorzley, the cook, had up

8:15

her sleeve for Christmas day itself.

8:18

While I was warming myself before

8:20

the huge log fire in the drawing

8:22

room, my uncle came in It

8:24

was a short man fixate rather

8:27

dickensian. He was smoking a

8:29

cigar and his first remark was

8:31

what I should have expected of him he

8:33

always spoke in a ponderous manner,

8:35

wearing his words as if everything he

8:37

said was of the utmost importance.

8:40

Now of course, when I look back at

8:42

him, it's easy to see him at the head of a

8:44

boardroom table or deciding

8:46

the fate of the companies under

8:48

his command. but then he was

8:50

a person I should not have cared

8:52

to cross. After I

8:54

had stood up and thanked him for asking me

8:56

to come to stay, shook out with me in a formal

8:58

manner and went on. I regret

9:01

Nicholas, he would never have dreamed

9:03

of calling me Nikki. I regret

9:05

very much the holiday this year has

9:07

few, I might almost say,

9:09

no berries. And and Christmas,

9:11

you'll agree, depends largely for

9:13

its full effect on red,

9:15

holy berries. Actually, I would

9:17

have thought and did even then that it

9:19

was brandy which really made Christmas

9:21

for him. Neither did I dare

9:23

to tell him that I'd seen two people

9:25

emerge from David and Forrest

9:27

near his property with buried

9:30

Holly in their hands. He might have

9:32

sacked one of his employees for not knowing

9:34

the right place to go. Snow

9:36

snow, uncle, I exclaimed, catching sight

9:38

of my cousin David coming down the

9:40

stairs. It was snowing a little in

9:42

London, surely it'll come this

9:44

way Your

9:46

aunt, my uncle said, who knows all

9:48

about winds and weather seems to think it

9:50

will. She's making preparations for

9:52

it too. And with that, he walked

9:54

out of the room and Snow doubt

9:57

thinking that he had done all that could be

9:59

expected of him

9:59

towards a nephew of fifteen.

10:01

shut himself in his study.

10:04

I suppose it

10:06

was just after eleven that we went to bed

10:08

that first night. I was to sleep

10:10

in David's room. We were hardly

10:12

undressed when he said excitedly. You

10:14

are Nick? I had no idea what he was

10:16

talking about. I was not going to show

10:18

myself a Snow in front of him. Yes,

10:20

of course. What do you mean?

10:23

You haven't been here at Christmas before.

10:25

Have you? Well, were gonna raid the

10:27

servants and the young ones at least.

10:29

He was laughing and rolling up one long

10:31

football, stocking into a ball and

10:33

thrusting it into thought of another, making

10:35

a fairly soft primitive club.

10:37

But you might hurt someone with that, I

10:40

said, nonsense, Nick, he

10:42

threw the club across the bed to me.

10:44

He'll only give him a fright, couldn't hurt them.

10:46

He smiled in what I thought was a rather nasty

10:48

manner and brought his warded stocking

10:50

down with a thump on the bed.

10:52

We do this every year he went on. What's

10:54

more they'll be expecting us? And there's

10:57

generally some chap from school staying. None

10:59

of them could come this year, though.

11:01

and felt

11:01

his contempt for me as a substitute.

11:04

He banged

11:05

the wadi as he called it

11:07

down on the bed again. He laughed

11:09

once more. We'll have to be

11:11

careful. We don't get hurt ourselves. Although

11:13

it seemed silly to me, I've followed him

11:15

onto the dark landing. He flashed

11:18

the door Ramp up the attic stairs silently

11:20

and stood outside the second door and the

11:22

right of the corridor. We don't

11:24

have to worry about old Horsley, the

11:26

cook, she's snoring her head off at the end of

11:28

the corridor. Anyway, she never

11:30

wakes up. He turned to me and whispered.

11:32

We burst and run straight across the room

11:35

lashing out with our watties and then out

11:37

again like a whirlwind. Don't

11:39

waste any time once we're inside.

11:41

I stood shivering outside the door in pajamas

11:43

and dressing gown, excited at the

11:46

adventure and brought up by

11:48

David's mood. As he

11:50

burst open the door the light went on.

11:52

Far from us just running across the

11:54

room delivering a few well aimed

11:56

blows and out again, we were taken

11:58

entirely by surprise The

11:59

maids were waiting for us, but so

12:02

great was our impetus that we were

12:04

amongst the three of them before we could

12:06

stop. The noise of laughter in Davey's

12:08

wall whoops must have been terrific.

12:10

I felt my club rrenched from my

12:12

hand. I was tripped and fell

12:14

across the bed. The lights suddenly

12:16

went out and I felt myself firmly

12:18

held down. I had no idea what

12:20

happened to David or what was happened

12:22

to me. all I now

12:24

really remember because it was the first

12:26

time it had happened to me, was that when the

12:28

lights went on again, Helen

12:30

one of the housemaids was holding me down and laughing

12:32

at me. I was vaguely aware of my

12:34

uncle shouting at us from below to be

12:36

quiet. I tried to get up from

12:38

Helen's bed, but I was too firmly

12:40

held. Indeed, this was

12:42

David's era of tactics. He

12:44

forgot that all the maids had to do was get hold of

12:46

our arms and we would be helpless to wield our

12:48

weapons. Oh, no, master

12:50

Nicholas. Helen was saying as I heard my

12:52

uncle Rohr again, You've

12:54

lost the battle and you'll have to

12:56

pay like this. I

12:58

felt her hot lips on mine. She

13:00

kissed me three times before she

13:03

released me. sweet, gentle

13:05

kisses. Now go,

13:06

she said, taking away the lovely

13:08

warmth of her and happy

13:10

Christmas to you. I

13:12

remember a ran out of their bedroom between the

13:14

other two beds with all of them laughing,

13:16

my face Turner. The whole

13:18

episode, It shows you the kind of

13:20

escapade that David got up to. It had

13:22

been taken more than ten minutes.

13:25

Nevertheless, even now, cannot

13:27

forget Helen's face that night in

13:29

the warmth of her kisses. Perhaps

13:31

I would have forgotten if the snow

13:33

had not come. And

13:36

while we're asleep, it did come. No

13:38

one heard it, no one was kept awake

13:40

by its coming. But when I looked out of

13:42

the bedroom, we before dressing to go

13:44

down for breakfast. There it

13:46

was. The miracle which

13:48

had begun at Liverpool Street station

13:50

was now clear to us all. was

13:52

caught up in the wonder of it and hardly

13:54

heard David call out. Hurry up and

13:56

Nick can get dressed. Father's driving us

13:58

over to Ollie's farm to get the turkey.

14:00

and I bet we'll be able to to bargain. It's

14:03

colossally thick. I did dress

14:05

quickly no doubt the smell of bacon and

14:07

eggs coming up from the dining room would have

14:09

hurried me anyway. I sat

14:11

down between David and my aunt and Helen

14:13

brought me a plate of beautiful breakfast.

14:15

She was smiling at me as

14:17

if we Sharpe the secret. I

14:18

suppose in a rather schoolboy manner.

14:20

I had fallen in love with her.

14:23

The snow was still a wonder when we got into

14:25

the car the very suddenness

14:27

of it's coming as it were over the

14:29

fields and woods behind the house, the

14:31

amazing difference it's coming made

14:33

to everything. the joy of living inside a

14:35

house and being able to run out into

14:37

a world of icing sugar

14:39

made its arrival the supreme

14:41

Christmas present. To me,

14:43

this landscape of gleaming

14:45

white increased the mysteriousness of

14:47

the countryside. It did

14:49

more. Now

14:50

that I was actually out in it,

14:52

He

14:52

frightened me. Four,

14:54

it was while my uncle was interviewing

14:57

Andrews, his tenanted Ollie's farm

14:59

and examining the fallen roof of one of

15:01

the barns. that David and I

15:03

first got out into this whiteness.

15:05

I was suddenly lost. I

15:07

see that now. That this

15:09

vast, expansive white torn

15:11

away the edges of my familiar

15:14

world.

15:14

Where before I knew my way

15:17

about,

15:17

now everything. The fields, the

15:20

trees, the church, even the cottages on my

15:22

uncle's estate, was strange and

15:24

terrifying. Every

15:26

landmark changed.

15:28

David had, of course, already formed one of

15:30

his mad schemes, the snow

15:32

didn't frighten him. He saw

15:34

nothing at all strange in it, only

15:36

a phenomenon laid on for his

15:38

special benefit. Only a

15:40

natural event against which to

15:42

pity strength. He

15:44

had the idea of pulling out into the

15:46

untrodden snow, the top half of the

15:48

pig's side door and converting it

15:50

into a to Boggin. I went to help

15:52

him lift it to where the field began to

15:54

slope downwards to the valley below.

15:57

Nothing could have made me tell him of

15:59

my fears.

15:59

In fact, I was rather proud that he

16:02

considered me capable of helping him.

16:03

The

16:04

battle we had lost the night before

16:06

was never mentioned. You you

16:09

sit in front Nick, he said throwing

16:11

himself in a professional manner, full

16:13

length at the back. I'll steer,

16:15

but I'm an expert at it. Even

16:17

as I did what he told me, I recalled

16:19

how last night as we stood

16:21

outside the maid's door, his

16:23

confidence had led him

16:25

into error. Our craft

16:28

imbued all at once with a life of its

16:30

own sprang across the snow

16:32

silently and with gathering speed.

16:34

But one crazy moment it

16:36

turned and twisted like a top

16:38

until either under its own weight

16:40

or David's feet, it righted

16:42

its course. We shot

16:44

downhill at what seemed to me,

16:46

a terrific speed. We were

16:48

alone cruising on a white

16:50

sea, a vast opalescent

16:52

ocean, with land before

16:54

us in the shape of a gate opening

16:56

between two ends of a hedge.

16:59

Cold air was tearing into my

17:01

lungs. My

17:01

whole body was ecstatic with the

17:03

cold and the fright of speed. I

17:06

frantically

17:06

grasped the iron ring used to

17:08

open the door when it was in place.

17:11

In a mad dream of pleasure

17:13

and terror, I heard David's

17:15

voice giving the command as it

17:17

were from the bridge. I'm gonna

17:19

steer through the gate. Don't move.

17:21

Hold on and keep your feet

17:24

in. The

17:24

sun, low over the approaching hedge,

17:27

was burning with one great eye at

17:29

me. The frail craft that we

17:31

were adrift upon tore across the

17:33

snow and with an immense

17:35

surge of power drilled its way

17:37

through the hedge opening. Through

17:39

the massive banks of Snow snow,

17:41

shooting up the far hill, came

17:43

to a stop. It was then that I

17:45

felt the pain in my leg and the terror

17:47

in my mind, Of the two, the terror was the

17:50

worst. I bit back a cry,

17:52

Davout is already off the wooden door and

17:54

preparing to drag it back up the hill for a

17:56

second ride. he looked at me

17:58

where I was still lying in the

17:59

snow. Hey, he said contemptuously.

18:02

Get up Nick. Help me pull this thing

18:04

to the top again. I'll show you something

18:06

even better. I was astonished that

18:08

he could be so calm that he made no

18:11

reference to what I had seen. For

18:13

surely, he must have seen it

18:15

too. I

18:15

I can't, David. I said, I'm afraid I can't. It's

18:18

my

18:18

leg. Something happened when we shot

18:20

through the gate.

18:23

one

18:23

brief moment, I saw the look of anger

18:25

on his face, and then either

18:27

from the sight of so much blood on

18:29

the snow or because of the sharpness

18:31

of the pain. I fainted. I

18:34

gather because David told me afterwards that

18:36

I called out to him, get help for

18:38

Helen. She's by the gate.

18:40

I

18:41

don't remember back to my uncle's house.

18:44

David told me the day my uncle and

18:46

Andrews from the farm carried

18:48

me to the car.

18:50

And it turned out that I hadn't broken my leg after

18:52

all. There must have been an iron spike on

18:54

the gate concealed by the snow, and

18:56

it had ripped a long deep

18:58

wound in my cough as we shot through. It

19:01

bled

19:01

profusely. My

19:03

aunt's doctor

19:03

came and put in twelve stitches.

19:06

But when

19:06

I woke in bed in one of the guest

19:09

rooms, not in David's, woman

19:11

protected, it was not

19:12

the accident to my leg which

19:15

worried me. It was what had happened to Helen.

19:17

She was lying against the hedge as we rushed

19:19

through a widening pool of blood

19:21

issuing from her head and

19:23

matting her hair, her eyes were staring as

19:26

if she were appealing to me for

19:28

help. She was

19:29

wearing a thin summer dress.

19:31

In

19:32

the short time, I saw her, I was not only horrified

19:34

by her accident, but also

19:36

by

19:36

the fact that she was out in this cold

19:39

weather with no Snow She

19:41

must have been walking across the field, though

19:43

why? When she would have had more than her

19:45

share of work back at the house with everyone

19:48

so busy? and slipped in some way and hit

19:50

her head on the same iron projection which

19:52

had ripped open the calf of my

19:54

leg, she, like

19:54

me, would have fainted from loss

19:57

of blood. But

19:58

now here in bed,

19:59

I knew with

20:00

a certainty I could not deny

20:03

that Helen was

20:05

dead. that

20:06

help did not come

20:07

in time to save her. I

20:09

had expected something horrible to

20:12

happen. I was convinced that

20:14

this miracle of snow which

20:16

had so excited me when I could look at it from the house

20:18

of the car, was malevolent.

20:20

The unnaturalness

20:21

of it to one who was not used to it

20:24

was frightening.

20:25

it, the snow, did

20:28

not want me out in it. I

20:29

was

20:30

uneasy the moment I went into it with

20:32

David. Unlike him, I was not

20:34

master of every situation nor was

20:36

I able as he was to create

20:39

situations which I could command. He

20:41

would never have felt that something was hidden in this

20:43

all obscuring white blanket, suffocating,

20:46

waiting to rush

20:47

out at him in the same way

20:49

that an open door at the head of a

20:51

dark staircase may conceal something

20:54

ready to spring out your approach.

20:56

I

20:57

can explain it no other way, but from

20:59

the second,

21:00

the Tiboggin began to rush downhill.

21:02

I saw the features

21:04

of this threat rushing

21:07

up to meet me as I was rushing to

21:09

meet it, and then there

21:11

was no stopping. And

21:12

indeed, I had been right for

21:14

here I lay in bed. when

21:15

I should have been enjoying the final preparations

21:18

for Christmas. And

21:20

Helen was dead. I

21:22

was too acutely embarrassed to

21:24

being such a nuisance I almost wept at

21:26

the thought that by my ineffectiveness or

21:29

stupidity as David would have called it. I

21:31

was

21:31

spoiling Christmas for everyone

21:33

else. I

21:33

didn't know that my aunt paid me several visits before I

21:35

came out of the anesthetic, but she

21:37

was beside me when I did. Is it

21:40

very painful,

21:40

Nikki Deere, she asked,

21:42

Because

21:42

if so, the doctor says that you can have

21:45

a pill to ease it. No,

21:47

aren't I was propped up

21:49

on pillows and I dare say

21:51

I looked white and one. I put

21:53

up my hand and touched hers. As

21:55

if by so doing, I could

21:57

grasp her protection. For

21:58

this

21:59

was the whole

21:59

point of what had happened.

22:02

The pain in my leg did not matter.

22:04

I wasn't going to let her think that I

22:06

couldn't stand it. But

22:08

please, I asked, Did

22:10

they get to Helen in time? Was she

22:12

still alive? My

22:14

aunt smiled. She must have

22:15

thought that I was still wandering under the

22:18

effects of the anesthetic.

22:20

Helen dear? There's nothing wrong

22:21

with Helen, at least I hope not. We

22:23

depend on her a great deal at a time like

22:25

this. She's a good girl.

22:27

but

22:28

she was there in the snow. I

22:30

saw her. She'd had an accident

22:32

she'd hit her head.

22:34

Where did it? by

22:36

the gate. Just as we rushed

22:38

through, it was horrible. She was lying there

22:40

in a pool of blood. But Tidanco

22:42

managed to save her.

22:44

I

22:44

suppose what I was saying must have sounded

22:47

melodramatic to my aunt.

22:49

She smiled again and pulled the sheets up to

22:51

my chin.

22:52

Nikki. to

22:53

worry about such things. You've

22:55

been

22:55

dreaming, nasty dream I

22:57

agree, but when one hurts oneself and

22:59

loses a lot of blood as you have

23:02

and then anesthetic. You

23:04

do have funny dreams.

23:06

She got up from the bed. All you

23:08

have to do is get strong again so that we can have

23:10

you with us on Christmas day.

23:12

But

23:12

Arnd, I did see her. I did, and she was

23:15

hurt. Well, we

23:16

can soon prove it was all the dream my

23:19

dear.

23:19

Besides, weren't you and David up in the

23:22

maid's room last night? He made

23:23

a great deal of noise, and I'm not sure

23:25

that I've proven it at all. I

23:27

suddenly remembered how Helen had held

23:30

me then,

23:30

the warmth of her arms. Now

23:33

she was dead. I couldn't

23:34

hold back my tears. It

23:36

was

23:37

obvious that my aunt felt me too weak to be

23:39

told the truth. I'll send her

23:41

up with a couple of cocos she said, that'll do

23:43

you good, you see. As she shut the

23:45

door, I don't think I expected to see

23:47

Helen come in, a kind of

23:50

resuscitated corpse. In

23:52

my still fuddled state, I thought my aunt too was

23:54

playing a McCarbrooke joke on

23:56

me. It must have been ten minutes

23:58

later that I heard the knock on the

23:59

bedroom door. I

24:01

shrank back into the bed clothes with fear.

24:04

Helen came in carrying a tray.

24:06

I must have stared at her in

24:08

my frame.

24:08

Turner Nicholas, she left. Whatever's the

24:11

matter. You look as if you've seen

24:13

a ghost. She

24:14

put the tray down beside my bed as I gas

24:17

pound.

24:17

Is it really you, Helen? Of

24:18

course, it is Nicholas. Here, take my

24:21

hand. You'll soon find out.

24:23

I did take a hand.

24:24

Warm and strong. She

24:26

was laughing, she had laughed the night before. There

24:28

she said, I'm flashing

24:30

blood, aren't I? But but

24:32

I

24:32

stand it out realizing that what my aunt had

24:34

said was true it was

24:36

all a dream. I had not seen Helen

24:39

in the snow covered with blood

24:41

dead. She was very much

24:42

alive.

24:44

but

24:44

nothing. She said, you worry up and get that leg well

24:46

again or Christmas will be spoiled. And

24:48

hey, let go my hand. I've worked

24:50

to do, you can't

24:53

lie about in bed all day like some I

24:56

Helen, I ask Helen. It was

24:58

last night David and I played that silly joke,

25:00

wasn't it? It was very

25:02

silly too since we knew all about

25:04

it and expected you.

25:05

And

25:06

you did kiss me, didn't

25:08

you?

25:08

Three times. Well,

25:10

master Nicholas, was all a bit fun really, wasn't

25:13

it? I noticed that

25:14

she was blushing. Then

25:16

I begged leaning towards her.

25:18

Kiss me once again. It's

25:20

important to me. She patted my

25:22

hand gently. Whatever next

25:24

she loved. Just suppose your aunt was

25:26

to come in while we're at it. She

25:30

won't, I said, and even if she did, I

25:32

think she'd understand. Well,

25:34

she laughed again, knowing nothing of

25:36

my reasons for asking her to kiss me. If

25:38

it will make you better quickly than here, she

25:41

leaned over and kissed me as warmly

25:43

as she had the night before. When

25:45

she had gone, I closed my

25:48

eyes. So after

25:50

all, it was only hallucination.

25:53

What still worried me, however, was the strangeness

25:55

of the occurrence

25:57

and why I should have dreamed

26:00

and

26:00

I saw something in the that wasn't there, the

26:02

semblance of Helen dead.

26:04

Because my life up to then had

26:06

been completely normal.

26:08

I was a normal boy who often trembled in

26:11

mock fear of the supernatural because

26:13

for all my art

26:15

said, for

26:15

all heaven's kiss.

26:17

I

26:17

was not deceived. I

26:20

knew that I had seen her in

26:22

the snow as the iron cut

26:24

into my leg. Like

26:26

any other boy, I expected those stories at

26:29

Christmas. That was the time for them.

26:31

What I had not expected and

26:33

now feared. was

26:35

that such things should actually become real,

26:38

could come out of some secret

26:40

place and threaten every

26:42

thread of normal life. I

26:44

was convinced as I sipped the coco Helen had brought

26:47

me, but for a moment in the

26:49

snow out there,

26:51

I had touched

26:54

the

26:54

rim of another hidden

26:56

world, which had nothing to do with such

26:59

things as school life holidays.

27:01

friendship. I was beginning to see in

27:03

a very immature way that there

27:05

were other realities beneath the life I

27:07

lived so unthinkingly. I

27:10

hardly heard my aunt say when she came to visit

27:12

me again. You know what,

27:13

Nikki? The snow isn't

27:15

Snow to last long. I'm so sorry

27:18

we this change back to the south.

27:20

Far from missing any

27:22

festivities, I became what my uncle in

27:24

his ponderous way called the

27:26

center of interest. Even went so far

27:28

as to suggest that that was a bit of a hero, and

27:31

David himself was almost a bit not

27:33

quite put in the shade. As

27:36

I fell asleep the night before, when

27:38

my aunt left me with her weather

27:40

predictions, the house was full

27:42

of noise. I heard my uncle go to

27:44

the front door and invite inside the

27:46

company of weights who we're doing their best

27:48

with, noelle. David

27:50

told me that his father had brewed a special bowl

27:52

of punch for them. Two female

27:54

cousins had arrived and already a

27:56

dance for New Year's Eve was being

27:59

talked about. In

28:00

the excitement of presents, the Christmas

28:02

tree, the huge Turner,

28:04

which my uncle carved is so much

28:07

skill, I

28:07

forgot what had happened two days

28:10

ago. When Helen and the other maids were

28:12

ushered in by missus Horsley to drink the health

28:14

of the company, Snow no longer worried what

28:16

I had thought I had seen.

28:19

Time as always on Christmas day

28:21

when I was young passed so swiftly

28:23

that I hardly noticed it. Almost

28:25

before I realized that my aunt was ordering

28:27

me back to bed,

28:29

My

28:29

uncle and David carried

28:31

me upstairs. I

28:32

fell asleep at once. It

28:34

shows what a normal kind of boy I was for

28:36

it never occurred to me. that

28:38

I should any further bad dreams.

28:40

When I woke, I lay

28:42

for some minutes listening. Something

28:45

is beating against the window James.

28:48

I was conscious

28:49

too something was missing

28:51

and yet at

28:52

the same time I was filled with an amazing,

28:55

overwhelming happiness.

28:57

I

28:57

looked at the chest of drawers where the presence

29:00

I'd been given was spread out like a shop

29:02

window. But the

29:03

explanation of my happiness

29:05

was not there. It

29:06

was some greater miracle. I

29:09

got up and with great care put my

29:11

injured leg to the floor.

29:12

I could walk haltingly.

29:14

clutching the edge of the table.

29:17

I

29:17

drew myself to the window.

29:19

I caught my breath at the side which met

29:21

my eyes for magically it seemed

29:23

the snow had disappeared. ears, and

29:25

the noise I had heard was rain.

29:27

A warm wind was blowing.

29:30

Everything, stables the church, the chimney

29:32

pots of the cottages, the trees themselves

29:34

were clearly outlined under the

29:36

dawn light. My aunt had been

29:38

right, as if someone had

29:40

pulled off a white dust sheet from a

29:42

roomful of urniture, the

29:44

countryside, again

29:45

visible. Now there

29:47

was nowhere for anything to look,

29:49

no spots or obscured by snow that

29:51

it could hold a threat, Once

29:53

again, the world was familiar

29:56

and

29:56

safe. I pulled open the

29:58

window and leaned

29:59

out into warm rain which you

30:02

sometimes get in late December.

30:04

I watched the curl of smoke rise from

30:06

a cottage chimney. Someone

30:08

had lighted a fire Christmas,

30:10

but

30:11

nothing really bad could happen

30:13

had even defeated Snow snow itself.

30:15

By the middle of January, I was

30:17

back in Cornwall. I spent the next

30:19

two Christmases with my parents who had

30:21

returned from the states

30:23

In fact, one Christmas day, it was

30:25

so warm that I bathed in

30:28

Treannion Bay just below our

30:30

house. I hardly remembered the contrast from the

30:32

Christmas of nineteen twenty two. Now,

30:35

it was the summer term of nineteen twenty

30:37

four. I was beginning to enjoy school

30:39

and had recently been made a prefect.

30:42

probably as I was seventeen and already

30:44

thinking of following David to

30:46

Oxford, not before time. I

30:48

think it was a Thursday in the middle

30:50

of July when Thompson, the head of

30:52

my house and a great friend, called

30:54

out to me as we passed in the long study

30:56

corridor. See your uncle's

30:58

got his name in the telegraph, What

31:00

do you mean?

31:01

Well, he laughed and walked

31:04

on.

31:04

Seems he's been killing off his

31:07

maids.

31:07

Iran to the papers which always

31:09

laid out on the table in the common room.

31:11

There it was on the

31:13

front page. I recognized the

31:15

picture at once. I'd seen

31:17

it before, though then snow covered that

31:20

particular field. And although the

31:22

photograph did not show much of

31:24

her face, I knew at

31:26

once that it was

31:28

Allan. I recognized there's

31:30

some address she was wearing as she lay

31:32

beside the gate. In

31:34

death,

31:34

she was

31:35

that small, well begun figure I had

31:37

seen in the snow over two years

31:40

ago. The body of Helen

31:42

Simpson, I read, unable to repress my

31:44

shivering holding onto the

31:46

table tightly. So vivid with the

31:48

pictures of what I had once seen in

31:50

the snow. A

31:52

maid servant in a household of Sir Thomas May,

31:54

the financier, was found at

31:56

about eleven o'clock yesterday morning beside

31:58

a gate that all excised Sharpe

32:02

owned by sir Thomas, by his

32:04

tenant, mister James Andrews.

32:06

A farm hand assumed

32:08

to be her lover has been arrested and

32:10

charged with her murder. The police are

32:12

anxious to interview a boy of

32:14

about fifteen who mister Andrew

32:16

says ran off as he approached

32:18

the body of the

32:20

girl. Everybody

32:28

So that

32:32

was a

32:34

fall of snow by

32:37

James Turner. blushed

32:38

in staircase to the sea in

32:39

nineteen seventy four. James

32:41

Ernest

32:42

Turner was born Turner in Kent

32:44

in nineteen o nine.

32:46

After attending the University of Oxford,

32:48

he trained as a gardener. And in nineteen

32:50

forty seven, leased a piece of land in

32:52

Norfolk to workers. The

32:54

land in question was the size of the former

32:57

bally rectory, double to the

32:59

most haunted house in England, and the

33:01

location of multiple reported

33:03

ghost sightings and instances of pultiguiced

33:06

activity. Whilst

33:06

living there, Turner and his wife,

33:09

Lucy, several

33:11

unexplained phenomena and Turner was involved in

33:13

excavations at the site of Boseley

33:15

Church, which uncovered bones

33:18

buried under the altar. Turner

33:20

had some success in the early nineteen forties as

33:22

a poet and published a number of

33:24

novels throughout. Sixties.

33:26

actually He

33:27

also wrote a book about Bolly and edited the fourth

33:29

ghost book, part of a series established

33:31

by Lady Cynthia Asquith in

33:33

the nineteen twenties. A

33:36

fall of snow was published in a

33:38

short story collection staircase

33:40

to the sea the year before

33:42

he's seventy five. Despite

33:44

his publication, long after the golden age

33:46

of the ghost story in the late nineteenth

33:48

and Turner twentieth century, it has

33:50

a feel of this earlier time and

33:52

is extremely effective and who wrote

33:54

that was Tanya Kirk. The

33:58

Tanya Kirk wrote

33:59

that well. because Tanya Kirk edited this collection

34:02

called Sunless Solstice, strange

34:04

Christmas tales for the longest nights.

34:07

And You

34:08

may not know, but you may know that the British library

34:11

has been sort of tales

34:13

of the weird little,

34:15

nice little paperbacks. And I think I

34:17

said this in the previous thing. They they

34:20

are finding all these

34:22

stories that have in their collection and putting

34:24

them together some undiscovered

34:26

or forgotten. And in some cases,

34:28

quite well documented in

34:30

this Tony, in this collection rather.

34:33

And so it's pretty good.

34:35

They're lovely set and they're sort

34:37

of very collectible. So and the

34:39

the eight ninety nine, I them from

34:41

ninety nine. And what happens is I go to GRASMARE

34:43

on a Monday, and I usually

34:46

to Sam Reed's bookshop there.

34:48

and I don't need anymore books because I have piles of them. But they have these

34:51

they have these collections and I think, oh, well, I

34:53

just I just get a few because you never know they

34:55

could got a print. Couldn't I?

34:58

and this is always my

35:00

big worry with

35:01

books that justifies

35:02

me buying them.

35:04

One

35:04

one just doesn't want. Snow

35:07

I she did Tanya Kirk

35:09

has been editing, and she isn't the only

35:11

one Lucy Evans, and they are curators in

35:13

the printed heritage collections team at

35:15

the British library. and

35:16

it says, the amount of the eighteenth nineteenth century

35:18

books and curated the children's literature

35:20

exhibition, marvelous and mischievous, Tanya's

35:24

lead curator for the period sixteen o one nineteen

35:26

hundred. She killed

35:27

curated the exhibition terror and wonder

35:30

the Gothic imagination and

35:32

is

35:32

and is edited edited. election spirit

35:34

of the season and chill tidings. I

35:36

don't think I've got. I've got this

35:38

one. Chill tidings,

35:40

I don't I'm not sure I've got spirits

35:42

of the season, so I must go out and buy it.

35:44

And this similar sauce this I've

35:46

got. I've got chilled tidings as well.

35:49

So So

35:50

there we are. Now

35:52

the introduction makes me spark

35:54

off loads of things. It reminded me

35:56

of Roman Briggs is the Snow

35:59

particularly the animated version, which, of course, I don't know if you still watch

36:01

it at Christmas, but I'm particularly like

36:03

the nineteen eighties

36:06

Nineteen eighties David Bowie going up to the loft

36:08

of that and the attic of

36:10

that old house and finding his scarf, his

36:12

snowman's scarf. Bowie was really good.

36:15

we went to a Debbie Bowie tribute

36:17

band. We've seen two Debbie Bowie

36:19

tribute bands recently.

36:20

the And venience

36:22

that man was. They didn't play any of his latest stuff

36:24

from lazarus and dark star, but they still

36:26

had loads of the great great good ones,

36:28

so that was a lot of fun.

36:32

suddenly missed mister Bowie.

36:34

Wren Briggs

36:34

two passed away this year. He

36:37

even used to

36:38

grumpy old fellow, wasn't he, but he

36:40

That is apartmentally magical, and there are certain traditions that I like to keep

36:43

to. One is watching the BBC version of

36:45

the box of Delights. by

36:47

John Mayfield. Do you remember I started to

36:50

do the midnight folk by John

36:52

Mayfield, but

36:53

had interest Snow accounted

36:56

for taste, but yeah, I'll

36:58

probably watch that and I watch else,

37:00

I listened to I have a collection of

37:02

Chris is Carol's in stories, somebody the

37:05

Albian band. And there's also Mike

37:07

Goldfields on the horseback, which

37:09

is in particular Christmas. to

37:10

me and my kids, we listen to that. So

37:12

they're all all these

37:13

Christmas traditions. I missed the days when the

37:15

girls were young when we used to Christmas have a

37:17

Harry Potter to

37:20

go out. I never read any of the books, but I used to like the movies,

37:22

particularly when I went with my kids because they were

37:24

delighted by them. For

37:25

Christmas, by

37:26

the time you hear this, it will be

37:29

in December. It's a back end

37:31

of November now and

37:33

rainy. And of course, certainly where I

37:35

live on the West Coast

37:38

of the the main island of Britain. It's it's

37:40

primarily Snow even

37:42

that cold,

37:42

really. I mean, it is pretty chilly.

37:45

but

37:45

it doesn't freeze that often. In fact,

37:48

much less than a use do I remember.

37:50

But perhaps, I'm remembering when I lived in other parts of

37:52

the country because when I lived in Mid James,

37:54

which was pretty much in the

37:56

center of the

37:56

island and in London. And places like Edinburgh

37:58

and Hexham where I've

37:59

spent time very cold on the

38:02

east side, but

38:04

on the west side, wet and warm usually. So rarely do we get

38:06

and I lived a lot of my life by

38:08

the sea. So rarely do

38:10

I get a Christmas

38:14

Christmas Christmasy Christmas with Snow, but

38:16

there we are, but maybe this year, but maybe not

38:18

who Snow. But you never

38:20

know idea.

38:20

and The

38:22

other thing, this is set in Suffolk, and

38:24

I have a story to say about Suffolk.

38:26

You may know I'm

38:27

actually doing another website

38:30

and about

38:30

so called true hauntings. And I haven't written anything

38:32

about Bawley, which is in Essex, although I visited

38:34

the Bawley side when I steal my ghost.

38:38

tours.

38:38

And also, I stayed a couple of

38:40

times at the Crown in Biddersden

38:42

in Suffolk, which is a pub,

38:45

which is I

38:46

remember I maybe said this on the podcast because I've done so. I've like two

38:48

hundred plus episodes on Bound to Repeat myself,

38:50

particularly as I'm getting on in years.

38:53

because that's what happens, of course, you repeat yourself. Or is it? Or

38:56

maybe it's just me. But anyway,

38:58

so the crown

39:00

at Bilbistan,

39:00

the But when

39:02

it was red hot, it was June, it was really really hot. And

39:04

I stayed in one of the rooms

39:06

and I got in the bed. I

39:09

was tired. We'd been

39:11

round around having ghost tours and stuff

39:13

and historical discounting the other very pretty

39:15

villages around that part of

39:17

world without that. She's in Lavender and all sorts of

39:19

stuff. It's famous for it's Lavender, to be honest.

39:22

Anyway, the crown of Bilberson.

39:23

So I went I woke in the middle

39:25

of the night and I remember

39:27

thinking, oh, this is freezing

39:30

and but didn't associate it with

39:32

anything

39:33

supernatural. Colds round

39:35

fully dovet around myself and went

39:37

back to sleep.

39:38

In the morning, it was

39:39

warm again because it

39:42

was stifling. Snow it had been stifling hot all that time

39:44

and in the middle of the

39:44

night it had dropped down to a

39:47

very cold level. So

39:50

got

39:50

a ghost in Suffolk. So yeah,

39:52

you

39:52

can enjoy me from my ghost

39:54

too. Anyway, there we are. was

39:57

reading that from a print copy, of course, so you may have

39:59

caught some of the rustling of the pages. The

40:01

other noises you may have caught are, I should say,

40:03

where I record this in

40:05

our house. And up at the top, on the third

40:08

floor, there are dorm windows of when

40:10

we come VLux windows in the in the

40:12

roof space. So it isn't dark,

40:16

but It's not insulated. So in the summer, it's boiling hot

40:18

appear and I have to sit and

40:20

record. And so don't you

40:22

probably don't want us I want that image

40:24

in here. in your

40:26

head. But yeah, it's true.

40:28

And in the winter now, I'm

40:30

freezing cold, so I go down after a day

40:32

up here and I'm kind

40:34

of shivering. but because it's not insulated, there's a scrap

40:36

yard, you know, where they get

40:38

metal and they grind it up. So during

40:40

the day, the scrap man is

40:42

at work And that

40:44

stops me. You may sometimes catch

40:46

you, scrap metal work in the

40:48

background. And then on the weekend, which

40:50

it is now to Saturday, there's a

40:52

football pitch.

40:52

football pitch

40:54

to you.

40:54

So what I say to you to the

40:56

to the American people who are listening, but

40:58

to everybody else is football.

41:02

So Yeah. Well, and they they get very excited to make a noise, so

41:04

you may hear that. And then, of course, when it

41:06

rains, I I do some

41:08

kind

41:08

of

41:10

main

41:10

noises, and I put them in from recordings, but these are

41:12

real rain noises. And so you may kind

41:14

of I think I'm doing a a

41:18

long a Christmas story. I'm doing the charms by Dickens,

41:20

which is quite a long story, not as long as

41:22

a Christmas Carol which I've obviously done.

41:26

It's

41:26

another of his Christmas stories. It is probably not as

41:28

good to

41:28

be fair, but it's it's quite political actually. But

41:30

it's sad to rain in the middle of that

41:32

and I feel like I've got to stop but

41:35

it's really

41:35

long now. I'm doing that as a commission

41:38

for Cosimo

41:38

Medici. He knows who

41:41

he is.

41:42

And I I still not

41:44

Sharpe I'm Michelangelo, but Cosimo Franky for the commission.

41:46

So that's gonna come out either

41:48

Christmas day or Christmas Eve.

41:52

I'm gonna do I've done one of my own

41:54

Christmas stories. We're we're doing a live Christmas

41:55

Christmas go stories.

41:57

This is a Christmas go story

41:59

I've done. and I

42:02

have a particular formula for Christmas

42:04

ghost stories, which is I can

42:06

write some I try and write some pretty

42:08

horrific stories sometimes. They're

42:10

scary.

42:11

But this one my

42:13

Christmas bit whimsical because to me

42:16

Christmas is not a time

42:18

for terror. MR

42:19

gyms may disagree. And, you know, we should take his advice, but

42:21

I don't. So, you know,

42:23

it's it's it's a term

42:25

for nice things. So

42:27

this is a very whimsical. Two, I've

42:29

got a short

42:30

one called the piano, which I did last year, which

42:32

I don't think I broadcast on the

42:35

on the podcast. and

42:36

this one's gonna be called the ghost of Christmas past or

42:38

possibly the ghost

42:39

of Christmas is passed because I'm

42:41

getting together a new

42:44

collection Snow.

42:46

but

42:46

surely, which will come out as a book. I don't know what else I've

42:48

got to tell you.

42:48

There'll probably be something when I finish this. Anyway, I

42:51

hope you're all well, and I

42:54

hope I particularly

42:56

like this part of the winter. There's

42:58

not much of the year I don't like.

43:02

I like when the snow dropped to come back in at

43:04

the end of January, and then we get the

43:06

croakuses in February and I watched the

43:08

spring flowers, the the daffodils, and the

43:10

selendine, and

43:12

the woods. as this as the year wakes up again. I love

43:14

that. I love spring,

43:16

May time.

43:16

can

43:19

autumn autumn, which we we had

43:21

a funny autumn this year. It it some days

43:23

we're at winter and then the next day was

43:25

autumn, you know. and that was lovely. And then I love this build

43:27

up to the turn of the year, to the Solstice and

43:30

the Snow Year. And

43:32

I

43:32

and and love and

43:34

just the feeling of it, but then it goes very

43:36

grim in January and

43:38

February. But

43:40

let's not dwell on that because we've got a

43:42

lot of nice things to look forward to. I hope

43:45

you have to

43:47

Yeah.

43:47

So I've

43:49

bought a grade

43:50

my you know, so I bought a Roadshowcaster. That the

43:52

voice went off because I was looking at it, which is

43:54

a a kind of a a very super

43:58

duper duper

43:58

ish interface. Not the best, best,

43:59

best, but it's better than what I had. The

44:02

only problem was

44:04

I'm struggling

44:06

had an old DBX strip,

44:08

which is bigger and old fashioned, but it had

44:10

a good noise gauge on it. And I thought that

44:14

this roadshowcaster would have a

44:16

better one. So but

44:18

III can hear the gate opening and closing

44:20

and you maybe

44:22

can to Still

44:22

not sure about the settings of that. And I

44:24

hope I hope it doesn't

44:26

mean I've spent more

44:26

money to end up in a worse position.

44:29

But that wouldn't be the first time in my life I've done that. So

44:31

anyway, anyway, anyway, beautiful, beautiful, love

44:34

love. Hope you're all

44:36

well. And

44:38

yeah,

44:38

just enjoy yourselves. That's my call to action. You

44:41

stay happy. Okay? And

44:42

we'll

44:43

I'll

44:44

speak to you soon.

45:37

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45:38

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