This is episode two of a multipart series where Julie talks about her addiction and recovery. This episode explores "what happened" after that fateful moment where she came out of a blackout staring at herself in the mirror. Julie and JP talk about the shame and despair of coming out of a blackout, the ways and reasons we blame others for our problems, and why it's so hard to take responsibility when you have been in a blackout. There remains more to the story, but this is a raw look inside the experience of someone struggling to surrender - both when they don't, and then, when they do.