Talking about painful topics,learning how to be a friend when you’ve been the worst possible friend, and finding her own empathy in the midst of pain. Hope tastes like Oreos.

Thinking about depression

May 19th, 2022 3m 18s

On depression, in-patient therapy, unconditional love, and Hello Fresh litter.

Cry for help

May 18th, 2022 1m 46s

Where do you balance what you have done to hurt your partner vs. the wounds she brought in. Does it matter? Or is our duty to love someone unconditionally as a hypothetical god would do?

Reflection on how past neglect poisons everything I do and stand for now.

May 17th, 2022 2m 56s

Discussion of anti-racism devolves into shame for having neglected my family.

More on therapy.

Dec 7th, 2021 11m 58s

Stories we tell ourselves, and what individual therapists can learn from couples counselors.

Journal entry 10/6/21

Oct 18th, 2021 6m 13s

Are you a leader or follower? Most of us are a little of both.

Journal entry 10/4/20

Oct 13th, 2021 3m 30s

A peaceful morning reflecting on peace, meta, I know.

Journal entry 10/3/21

Oct 7th, 2021 8m 26s

What does it mean to be “known”? Are we going to be ok?--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

Journal entry 10/2/21

Oct 6th, 2021 3m 50s

When are you most spontaneous? I discuss vacation planning, date nights, and when it listen back I start to think: “am I really a control freak?”

Journal entry 10/1/21

Oct 5th, 2021 6m 18s

My first journal entry was pretty raw and unfiltered and I apologize for the disturbing images it might evoke. Further entries will be tamer. Maybe.

Quick update

Sep 28th, 2021 7m 44s

Cathy’s IOP is “meh”, business is booming, marriage is healing, still need to start a proper podcast.

Helping a depressed spouse

Jul 14th, 2021 13m 3s

Cath and I’ll have been dealing with the pain and trauma of my years of betrayal and dishonesty. We love each other and want to make it work, so are working on ourselves and our marriage. Today she goes for a medication management appointment t

52 Weeks of Conscious Contact by Melody Beattie, Week 11, Day 1

Feb 23rd, 2021 11m 14s

Acknowledge and share your darkness. It gives others the permission to do the same and it’s freeing. Also, scavenger hunt!

Dealing with conspiracy theories and intrusive thoughts.

Jan 20th, 2021 15m 26s

Dealing with conspiracy theories and intrusive thoughts. Response to fellow podcaster.

In-between episode: should I try to make a podcast with more mass appeal?

Jan 6th, 2021 4m 27s

Thinking about going away from the belly-button gazing to do a podcast with more interesting content.

52 Weeks of Conscious Contact by Melody Beattie, Week 10, Day 7

Jan 5th, 2021 8m 18s

Final thoughts on nurturing. It shouldn’t be scary. Be kind to yourself. Also, I think I’m on the spectrum. And I feel ok about it.

52 Weeks of Conscious Contact by Melody Beattie, Week 10, Day 6.

Dec 23rd, 2020 13m 3s

Gratitude focus on people who have shown us kindness. My wife is an inspiration. She has suffered so much from my choices and yet still finds joy in her work with animals, and is determined to make our lives together work. She is my best friend

In-between chapters. Uber accident on date night.

Dec 16th, 2020 15m 45s

Nice romantic date. Nice to be relearning each other after 31 years. Great conversation, mediocre food, 5 stars.

52 Weeks of Conscious Contact by Melody Beattie, Week 10, Day 5

Dec 15th, 2020 18m 37s

To the sex and love addict, a nurturing façade can be a weapon to manipulate others. Part of the “nice guy” syndrome that says if we get along and don’t cause waves, we’ll get our needs met. Instead, let’s focus on honesty with others, and prac

52 Weeks of Conscious Contact by Melody Beattie, Week 10, Day 4

Dec 7th, 2020 12m 48s

Thoughts on attachment style (opposites tragically attract), being raised by a narcissist father and having limited opportunity to build a relationship with mom. Nurturing - not my strong suit, but willing to learn.

52 Weeks of Conscious Contact by Melody Beattie, Week 10, Day 3

Dec 3rd, 2020 15m 56s

Nurturing can be genuine or strained and false. What is the line? More questions than answers, as usual.

In-between episode 12/2/20

Dec 1st, 2020 5m 42s

Just thinking about by therapist and my dad. I need to keep a promise I made to have a final check-in with my therapist before going off with no more regular visits. And considering talking to my estranged father before his dementia gets any wo

Happy Thanksgiving?

Nov 26th, 2020 4m 13s

My weird life. We are headed down to the Austin area to rehome a yearling buck whitetail deer that has been living with us, and have Thanksgiving with all the kids, gathering at the home of our oldest. After TG, I’ll head home alone to hold dow

In-between episode.

Nov 24th, 2020 5m 7s

Today the boss asked me (again) to consider buying the business. Very interested, but I’d have to cobble together a down payment. And convince my wife.