I recently turned 26. I don't 26 on November the 20th.  So I was in a place of self evaluation, but not of an evaluation where OK, what could I do better but self evaluation where I'm not good enough, I haven't done anything. 

It was like, oh, I'm now this new age. I'm now on the other side of twenty five, how do I feel? And I went back to self reflection again. But this time I wasn't self reflective. I put myself down. It was like God reminded me, regardless of everything that's happened this year, look at everything I've also done for you. The wounds in my heart was opening up again to a point where I was becoming offended with God for no entire reason. I took a breath and I just started crying. I wasn't crying out of sadness. I wasn't crying out of anger but I was actually crying tears of joy.It made me realise that it's not about me anymore, it's not about what I want, or when I want things, but it's about what He wants! Im finally saying YES it what you want me to do, i'm saying YES with my heart open and eyes focused on him!