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cats will come to the so I'd smiley
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and of you could hear me smiling or
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see me smiling but. I.
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Just as a says interview and. And
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yes, Delighted by
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it. An energized by Ed
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and inspired by at. I
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love this girl! Were. Continue
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their series on matriarchy, And
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pretty much to do and a
3:19
deep dive into. The.
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Power of beauty and the
3:23
resilience of women who are
3:25
leading. And. Inspiring and shaping
3:27
our world. I said that's all that's
3:29
all we're trying to do here. This
3:32
is a celebration of
3:34
the string and the
3:36
wisdom in determination of.
3:39
Oh why, But consider some of our
3:41
most. Beautiful. Matriarch
3:43
right now. And I mean
3:45
that in the most honoring
3:47
way. The women who are
3:49
showing us. A path
3:51
to were lighting it up with their
3:54
own lanterns. in their own lives, in
3:56
their own choices and. Today
3:58
we have a truly X. Urinary
4:00
Guest really like in every
4:02
way. We have both armor.
4:05
Bizarre. Miss a Shine as here today and if
4:08
you. Know. Where you know or if you love
4:10
her, your lover. Millions. Of
4:12
us do for a reason. Osama is
4:14
not just a corporate power house, is
4:16
literally a force of nature. Is.
4:19
He is a absolute trailblazers.
4:21
She has shattered glass ceilings.
4:23
She has defied expectations she
4:26
has exemplified on a personal
4:28
level what it just takes
4:30
to keep going after. Tragedies.
4:34
Rock. Your world. She is
4:36
the epitome of this
4:38
series. Truly bizarre. my
4:41
face. The. Loss of her husband,
4:43
the cancer when she had just a four
4:45
year old. She's navigate the. Complexity of
4:47
a single motherhood. She.
4:50
Learns and just absolutely embrace
4:52
life with courage with resilience.
4:54
As a fully realized woman,
4:56
I've been watching her and
4:58
learning from her fourth years,
5:00
our first touch point with
5:03
years ago when I began
5:05
going wait a minute. I
5:07
respect her. I admire her see
5:10
his her own selves both. Summer
5:12
is her own self. She is
5:14
at the very very top of
5:17
the ladder. Like. In
5:19
a corporate success space. But
5:21
in all areas of her
5:23
life, she is her. She
5:25
is uniquely her. see his
5:27
powerfully her and I been
5:29
obviously drawn to that some.
5:31
just in case you don't
5:34
know her work, she is.
5:36
A groundbreaking business leaders, she's
5:39
lead marketing. Or
5:41
mega companies. I'm not sure if you've
5:43
heard of any of them and I'm
5:45
in lead Marketing, Chief marketing Officer. To
5:48
see a mouse Apple. Netflix.
5:51
Cooper. Pepsi? sort
5:53
of. You've heard of that mess.
5:56
Seized. Nominated several times over
5:59
for her amazing work, But
6:01
I mean she was just
6:03
recently inducted into the Marketing
6:05
Hall of Fame. She's.
6:08
Won so many awards I literally
6:10
cannot list them all. One of
6:13
my favorites is that in Twenty
6:15
Twenty one she was crowned by
6:17
Forbes. The World's
6:20
most influential Cml. Beyond.
6:23
That. Both. Arm
6:25
as she's a passionate advocate for
6:27
diversity for inclusion. She uses Harper
6:29
her power and her platform. She's
6:31
expanded her service Outside of the
6:34
now she has been named as
6:36
an Ambassador for the African Diaspora
6:38
Special envoy to the President of
6:40
Gonna which is where she was
6:42
born and raised in the U
6:44
and she is to special really
6:47
on every level and I don't
6:49
care he worked this conversation is
6:51
going to move you. we are
6:53
in the the ducks. In the
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bones of real life. Today we are
6:57
talking about Spiegel Woman. In
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this world and what strength means
7:02
and what resilience means what last
7:04
looks like would single parenting lists
7:06
like like this is the A
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human conversations and I mean she's
7:10
at the top. But if ever
7:12
you like to watch any of
7:14
the episodes sets over on my
7:16
youtube channel and. Both. Hum
7:19
It is hard to like. Stunning.
7:22
As beautiful human, this conversation will
7:24
be a really fun ones her
7:26
to watch with your eyeballs, but
7:28
otherwise. Enjoy this.
7:30
Discussion. Lucky me
7:33
to have yet another conversation with the
7:35
absolutely wonderful spills on the St. John.
7:45
I'm delighted to see of. I'm delighted
7:47
to see you. I. Just
7:50
look forward to any minute I ever get
7:52
to talk to you and so happy Or
7:54
here. Thank. You I'm so
7:56
glad to be here! Is a delight in
7:58
I. Love all the conversations. You have
8:00
a feel like there's just so feel. And
8:02
that sounds corny, because everybody wants to be
8:05
real these days, you know, But.
8:07
It's actually very difficult thing to.
8:09
Do. It. Is absolutely.
8:12
Difficult. To be that
8:14
real to ask the questions to, the
8:16
answers said. Speak your mind and so
8:18
I just appreciate the space that you've
8:20
created. With. The lap That kind of
8:23
honesty and truth and mess. You. Know
8:25
that we we are So thank you
8:27
Hm. That's a nice thing to say
8:29
and it's true. Like one thing we
8:32
figure out as women. In
8:34
whatever degree of spotlight, There's.
8:36
Like a real and that put him
8:38
in quotes that it kind of reward
8:41
it because it doesn't threaten the story
8:43
at all. and then there's a real
8:45
real this different that would cause hard
8:48
and there's a cost to it and
8:50
it's disruptive. So that's a
8:52
harder level for sure. into harder
8:54
level. And you're so right Because
8:56
the idea that you can be
8:58
real without threatening is actually than
9:00
what makes people feel. Like oh, you
9:02
know what? That must be easy. It's fine. If
9:05
when you touch with men people. Or.
9:07
Me: Uncomfortable with your real
9:09
mess. Or owners.
9:12
That. Then his side. You know the
9:14
bleep hits the same because you just
9:16
like oh my god. And that
9:18
is what I mean. By like it's difficult
9:21
to be real. it is up and
9:23
somebody. Sees. All.
9:26
It is energy believe me as I don't walk
9:28
into rooms and is this at all fanfare all
9:30
the time? Although that. Would.
9:32
Be. But. We'll talk about
9:34
that later. We know it
9:36
should be one of my
9:38
north stars when I am.
9:41
A feeling like a disruptor. Or.
9:44
It isn't all fanfare as he say what
9:46
can into room is the question they asked
9:49
myself. Is or a school.
9:51
And my ascending and that hims
9:53
to be an indicator of I'm
9:56
either in the right path of
9:58
the wrong path we. I'm
10:00
offending people in power When I'm
10:02
offending keepers of the status quo.
10:05
When I am offending people who
10:07
would prefer me not to change
10:09
or evolve or question the system.
10:12
I'm okay with that. I have
10:14
got it wrong when I have
10:16
stepped wrong, and I'm offending people
10:18
on the margins when I'm offending
10:21
my compatriots. A my or oh. I.
10:23
Got this one wrong? I can choose who
10:25
to offend and that said really tells me.
10:27
I'm. And if I'm on the right path or not, You're.
10:30
Absolutely right. About that you know
10:32
and look. Yes, agreements. Speak.
10:35
Enough a you. Have walked into many
10:37
a room. And
10:39
been. in your full.
10:42
Power. In your
10:44
full authority with. All
10:46
of your credentials and
10:49
your expertise and you
10:51
burned it. And not
10:53
surprisingly, not everybody likes
10:55
that all the time.
10:57
So. You're. At intersections
10:59
can we just start here? Where does the
11:01
which is jump right in the middle of
11:03
the most is are hey. What's
11:06
going on here? Can you are just for
11:08
a minute before we drill into some of
11:10
these ideas. Tell. My listeners
11:12
the ones who inhabit don't already know you in
11:14
a lot of them deal some billions of us
11:16
value for reasons but who don't this kind of
11:19
your deal destroy your at peers. Are people here
11:21
for thing. Yes, Okay,
11:23
well. How. Do I describe
11:25
myself as a really. One. You
11:27
don't? I mean self proclaimed bad ass. Me:
11:30
For people were using bad as them for
11:32
like you know The funny thing is like
11:34
you know I've said it because. It
11:37
was so different. Was.
11:39
Someone who's in corporate America in
11:41
high level positions. To.
11:44
Call themselves a name like that.
11:47
You. Know and he being at
11:49
the top of companies like
11:51
Pepsi and Apple an Ember.
11:54
Endeavor and Netflix. Meant.
11:56
That I had to appear a
11:58
certain way. The I
12:00
would offend people out more on that.
12:02
What was that? A it's what was
12:04
that expectation. This is a really difficult
12:06
to talk about. It really is. You know, I.
12:10
Am. Obviously. A black woman. I.
12:12
Think there were many people and are many people
12:15
who think I should just be grateful. Or.
12:18
The Trinity. For. The
12:20
position. For. The Pack for the
12:22
money. They. Think I should be grateful.
12:25
And. Walked in with gratitude. And
12:28
utility quote unquote. And
12:30
I will say to you it's like when
12:32
you were talking about who to offend. I
12:35
actually pause it on have you thought? But
12:37
I pods though because as let me think
12:39
about that because. If I'm being
12:41
totally honest and. Transmit it breaks
12:43
my heart because sometimes.
12:46
It was not just people in power. Is
12:49
the books on T. My.
12:53
Colleagues. You.
12:56
Know people who. Should.
13:00
Have been cheering me on. Who
13:02
did it? Who. Told
13:05
me that I'm to that. Told
13:08
me that. I'm too outlandish.
13:11
And that is all wrapped up in you know
13:13
the idea of like old? You should just be
13:15
grateful to be here. You know that when you
13:17
other one of one. Or
13:20
one of you. It's
13:22
the oddest thing people really think they
13:24
use a just be so happy to
13:26
be in the space, be allowed in
13:28
the space station do a happy. You.
13:31
Know and instead. I would
13:34
stop myself. You. Know
13:36
and. Even. More
13:38
painfully. Last. Year. I
13:41
released my. Memoir of the Earth which
13:43
can talk about late but right after
13:45
I published said you know is like
13:47
that I came off the high of
13:50
by doing the bookstore and all that
13:52
stuff. I had been out of corporate
13:54
for about a year and a half
13:56
left my chief marketing job. At.
13:58
Netflix to publish my. And if I
14:00
my book and publish it. And I called
14:02
a friend. Who. I really
14:04
respect to the entrepreneur. And.
14:07
I was asking her and there's not a lot of people.
14:09
Can call and ask for really advice from
14:11
don't when you're in the space is very
14:13
few people can trust with your body. And
14:16
I have also. You know over the years
14:18
have found it very difficult to be. Totally
14:21
vulnerable people cause you know folks will use
14:23
it against you So. Any case,
14:25
very little circle, but I called one. Who.
14:28
I trust and asked her
14:30
how she doing it. you
14:32
know how see. Turned.
14:35
Into the Entrepreneur this year's you could as considering
14:37
like maybe I don't want to go back to
14:39
the corporate. Space mean I want to keep going.
14:41
You know, in this direction I'm not quite what.
14:44
And she said to me that. Well
14:47
that's that's really good. You can. But.
14:49
You're going to have to get. Paid.
14:54
She. Did you know
14:56
look frivolous? And
14:58
new hobby too much. And
15:01
you know you're wearing bikinis and your
15:03
boobs or out. It.
15:05
Should cover up if you want
15:07
to be in the spaces and
15:09
it just knocked me off? I
15:12
bet is it because. You. Know
15:14
see the person who is very much out
15:16
women's empowerment like google Google logo, jazz girls
15:18
you know and it was something to because
15:20
you both of my friends. And
15:23
I was like way whole line like do
15:25
you mean. The. Just because I
15:27
pop bottles. You
15:30
forgot that. I also have advised
15:32
the Clintons and the Obamas and
15:34
the Bite. Did I
15:36
get the top of who are
15:39
global companies as a chief officer?
15:41
You from thought that I'm inducted. Into the Parking
15:44
Hall Of Fame. You. Forgot that
15:46
I'm also a single mother to a fourteen year
15:48
old girl at. My husband died of cancer and
15:50
I still when. You. Forgot. Don't
15:54
dare you tell me. The.
15:56
To cry myself. In
15:59
order to be. That the after all of
16:01
that. And
16:03
it reminded me that. It
16:06
is a constant. Conversation.
16:09
For. Me: And. For
16:11
people who look at me. To.
16:13
Always have to rule them. Fit.
16:16
It's okay for us to be a full self.
16:19
This is my game. When we say
16:21
ring a bell south it is difficult.
16:23
It is dangerous. And.
16:25
You can look around you and there are people
16:27
around. You who don't believe you should be able to do
16:30
that. Was like
16:32
how dare you. Tell
16:34
me over here to do it. But I can't do
16:37
it. And so
16:39
that's why I say that. It.
16:43
Is Not. An. Easy.
16:47
Thing. To do. When.
16:50
You say? oh shoppers, your for self
16:52
ring on your Gp Exactly who you
16:54
are is dangerous people keep. Yeah the
16:56
rules for that people hate to quietly
16:58
for that. People. Look
17:00
like a channel for you but as would be my groceries
17:03
and even do that. On the side. That
17:06
is what the reality of the situation is.
17:09
It. Really is and you
17:11
highlight a really interesting.
17:14
Kind of heartbreaking reality which
17:16
is that a lot of
17:19
times in our generation as
17:21
we are. Really
17:23
pushing toward. Pay
17:26
equity and it's. Power
17:28
Differential and are all the
17:30
things that have kept women
17:32
historically. Been grateful
17:34
for the crumbs at the
17:36
table. And this is of
17:38
course, absolutely true that we
17:40
spent a lot of time
17:42
discussing and dissecting and confronting
17:45
the patriarchy. But the patriarchy
17:47
has a partner is devastating.
17:49
In a lot of times,
17:51
it's women. and it's women
17:53
against women. And it's women
17:55
who would. Enforce
17:57
the norms. It. Even if we
17:59
are. In our friends you know less
18:01
and go with if you just would
18:03
wear a bikini. Why? Why?
18:06
Why? Why?
18:10
Why? It's and so the
18:13
patriarchy have a as a
18:15
partner in women to are
18:17
willing to. Box. One
18:19
another in and say. That's a
18:21
bridge too far. With Jet.
18:25
And amazing thing is it's like you know
18:27
and love that you said the partner in
18:29
Patriarchy because we have to recognize that. And
18:32
we have the call of and I did
18:34
call it out. He did. yeah I did
18:36
because I didn't do it in the moment
18:38
though. so hurt Jenna Direct phone and I
18:41
write i'm sorry but real hot tears by
18:43
just. Ride. At
18:45
least question myself. You.
18:48
Know had to. I
18:51
didn't say. That they get
18:53
this straight because now I'm sanded down and look
18:55
you have a com us have a bad ass
18:57
with as not all the time. I
18:59
won't lie and pretend like there's and doubt that creeps
19:01
in my mind. Sometimes I'm just. In
19:03
so that one time when I was dancing like.
19:06
that too much put on internet. I
19:10
questioned our life time I says that must
19:12
say so have asked that question could move
19:14
a little tough. Fight. As
19:16
I don't question so. And
19:18
in getting the affirmation.
19:20
From another francis agree but a set up. Get
19:23
off this phone and go like those fears. You.
19:25
Know and I was like oh, snap to
19:27
the phone and call home girl back. And.
19:30
I was I say look I wanna talk. About
19:32
this because I would you says metaphor makes
19:34
are you know what it is it she
19:36
said to me. And.
19:39
With that, one of those moments where suffice, Oh My.
19:41
god, Why didn't. Mean to say that like bad or
19:43
a death of when I met his sister I'm concerned
19:45
about you just missed that. The death. And
19:47
in that moment again I realize
19:50
that you know when we talk
19:52
this way. Sometimes.
19:55
It really is our subconscious. All the stuff
19:57
that we've learned. Growing.
19:59
Up. You know all of the words that
20:01
have been said. Swear to tell us the tone
20:04
it down to tell us sustain our place, to
20:06
tell it to be grateful for. The spaces were
20:08
in that you don't even realize. That.
20:10
Those are the word that you're saying that are inflicting
20:12
on somebody else. And so very much
20:15
like the way I see racism. Or
20:17
sexism? homophobia that.
20:20
You. Are just repeating
20:22
things that have been embedded seeds?
20:25
In. Your mind is the with my Dad. Are you set?
20:27
The staff? Who. Need
20:29
it The and women. Are
20:31
you races? know what he time? I have
20:33
black friends along with my daughter. Teachers are. You.
20:37
Don't like all of these things that
20:39
we say and so when we recognize
20:42
that in a friend. We.
20:44
Have to call it out. We. Have to
20:46
tell that to. This is not just
20:48
about getting on a stage or platform
20:50
or one on a march and saying
20:52
no Down with the Patriarchy Know down
20:54
the racism. And
20:56
you have to address them. That is
20:59
hard to do because you recognize. How
21:01
much they love you? or how much they
21:03
respect you? But they still. Want. To
21:05
say some. this sounds crazy. And
21:08
so for me, that has probably been the
21:10
hardest thing. Is. To correct.
21:13
People. Who have direct access to
21:15
me? Who. Have a straight
21:17
into my heart. Who can bring
21:19
me down a peg are too. Because.
21:21
They are repeating things that are called
21:23
as taught them. And then how do I
21:25
continue to? Defend myself against it back his
21:28
actual battle. That where it. Gets.
21:32
Interesting as. I'm listening to
21:34
talk. I'm thinking I'm turn in
21:36
the mirror inside. The some
21:39
of the interior worker hopelessness issue because.
21:43
It's easy and it's It's not expensive
21:45
to just say yarmouth him in as
21:47
yes, I'm an anti racists. I'm an
21:49
allied to my Belgium France, but.
21:52
It. It's also interesting. To note
21:55
where our. Power.
21:58
And our proximity. The power. That's
22:00
because. It's
22:02
almost an innate. Instinct.
22:05
To protect our. Privilege.
22:09
Whatever. It is whether or me
22:11
of why so I have instant
22:13
access to that privilege. Whether it's
22:16
socio economically or it's racial, or
22:18
it's gendered or whatever it is,
22:20
we all have access somewhere which
22:22
could be a blind spot. Deep
22:24
ties, Privilege.
22:26
Is. It's a
22:28
reliable enemy of equality.
22:32
Reliable. And it is.
22:34
It is sometimes insidious the ways
22:36
the links will go to protect
22:38
it because we're benefiting. Were
22:41
benefiting. Still, Even if we
22:43
would say no and I'm I'm out
22:45
in front of this is possible that
22:47
you get on a call with. Your
22:49
girlfriend who you love was
22:51
powerful. And resilience. And you
22:53
take her down. And not because
22:56
you're protecting those areas. it's. It.
22:58
Can happen. And it does happen. It
23:00
happens all the time to be open
23:02
to. The. Correction.
23:06
And. Times you become so defensive of
23:08
the position. That. It's hard to
23:10
be open to the correction. And that
23:12
is. A. Area where it's like
23:14
the mirror attorney inside of By be open
23:16
to the correction. You. Know all right
23:18
on time and yes he has it
23:20
been intense as we. Guess what? your
23:23
results. Were. Damaging. As
23:26
always, impact matters more than
23:28
intense. As always fascinated with
23:30
I want to talk about.
23:33
Some. Of the various.
23:36
The Reds that have. Turned.
23:39
You created in New.
23:42
The qualities that you possess, The
23:44
reason that you can. Sexual.
23:47
In actually say I am a bad ass
23:49
new have had strict. Built into your
23:51
life the way that it's typically belt
23:54
which a sheet the system boat which
23:56
is their suffering. Hate that hate that
23:58
I wish it was just. Happiness
24:00
and joy that made us into
24:02
bad asses. Turns out.
24:05
A. Lot of it is the
24:07
places that we have lost and
24:09
suffered and greens and had to
24:12
rebuild and reimagine. It's can you
24:14
talk a little bit about how
24:16
you can pick from a zillion
24:18
spite you had paid and you've
24:21
struggled and wonder if you can
24:23
just put that in as a
24:25
backdrop. For my
24:27
listeners to understand. This
24:30
would not have handed to you. Oh.
24:33
Yes, Yes, hard one. Part
24:35
of one. And. That's
24:38
what I even start. You're right. It's like a
24:41
zillion places to start, right? You.
24:43
Know and something that I've learned a long. I.
24:46
Would say in the last like year
24:48
since I published my book is that
24:50
often sensible want to compare grief. You.
24:53
Know they wanna say like suffered more
24:55
than me or alive our haven't had.
24:57
in which you gone through so for
24:59
you know and it always bothers. Me
25:01
because I'm just like this is Not this. You.
25:04
Know it, You'll have to have had the
25:06
same losses I've had or like suffered the
25:08
same way I've sought. To.
25:11
Prove that you are worthy of
25:14
the scars that should bear. You.
25:17
Have them and it's okay with all.
25:19
it's that even when compared to somebody else
25:21
is car that's. Bigger. Than
25:24
you know my girlfriend Chris and cause
25:26
it's the suffering Olympics to like. There's
25:28
no winners, the zero gold medalists. We
25:31
need a trademark that have a sense
25:34
of regular. Because he and it's
25:36
amazing to me because. He.
25:39
Knows you're right. bet I witnessed. I certainly
25:41
was and look I've had many houses my
25:43
god about this return. Same. I.
25:45
Could mine. You. Know some
25:48
lessons or that I could. You.
25:50
Know feel deeper or that I
25:53
could be more resilient. Not.
25:56
Some suffering. Know. If I saw
25:58
of them just by lot. Have I not alone? The
26:00
not like it's Well, I think I'll
26:02
pass this particular glass or really wants
26:04
a pottery please? You don't? I mean.
26:07
Yeah, he set aside. Is
26:10
the reason why I wrote my book Birds
26:12
and Life Because. I had already.
26:14
You know, like I said, achieved all of
26:16
the same record or already been in that
26:19
sense a half a might already been to
26:21
see among several companies that are ready like
26:23
that. Somebody's gotten so many accolades and all
26:25
of that. and the book that people wanted
26:28
me to write was like how to be
26:30
a bad ass one on one. Get
26:33
into the corner. sweet girl. You
26:35
don't have your boss. six. Flags.
26:38
That were going on Doing that. I'm I'm not
26:40
doing stuff because. I don't think it's worthy in
26:42
cook the books that have been written like that.
26:44
Kudos you! Great job. But I thought
26:46
it was more important for me to write
26:49
about. I am this way. You
26:51
don't to document the. Events
26:54
in my life. This have led to
26:56
this point. And that is
26:58
why I don't like to participate in
27:01
the suffering Olympics because I'm like look
27:03
everybody has gone through something you know
27:05
just because. I I can
27:07
talk about my college
27:09
boyfriends. Death. By suicide.
27:12
Or. The of my first daughter because
27:14
of pre o'clock am Cia and having
27:16
her die the same day the she
27:19
was born or my husband's battle with
27:21
cancer that was only six months. Before.
27:24
He died yes I can talk about
27:26
although those things in the lessons I
27:28
learned from that. But the greater lesson
27:30
is that every time I have com
27:32
against. A
27:34
loss. Of grief. Whether.
27:37
That was the loss of a human. Or.
27:40
That was a loss of a
27:42
job. Or. A haiku
27:44
aggression or a macro aggression. Or.
27:48
At the day I walked into my daughter's
27:50
elementary school in there were like oh, where
27:52
is the baked goods You supposed. To bring and
27:54
I was I would be good. I. Miss
27:56
the email or my back and has. A month
27:58
of the push you don't. It makes a
28:00
run back to the school with his you know
28:02
but the cookie. All of
28:05
those things. Are. The.
28:08
Reason why I am who I am.
28:10
And I'm living my life in a
28:12
way which. Is in
28:15
defiance. Of
28:17
these tragedies and losses
28:19
in Greece. I'm
28:22
absolutely the finance. You
28:24
look at me like all this woman's
28:26
fierce bosses. that is tenants. You know
28:28
what? You're seeing is it is not.
28:31
Business is defiance. I visited. Fierceness.
28:34
His eyes. Yes, I'm Q. And
28:37
I know it and everybody get
28:39
outta my way. And I was
28:41
laid down, no money to finance.
28:43
It is like you pushed me down. I
28:45
stood up and look teaching the that is
28:48
defined. That's. Where them by. Side.
28:50
You try to tell me that I couldn't climb
28:53
the ladder the way that I am. I am
28:55
the fight against that I was. So you. What
28:57
can. You. Wanted to tell me
28:59
that because my husband died of cancer,
29:01
I'm supposed to sit down and be
29:03
afraid of life. And supposed to
29:05
get some. I feel Love love I am
29:08
defiance. In. That face. Everything
29:10
that has happened to me. I am
29:12
a defiant person and so the bad
29:15
as this shows up in that way.
29:17
And so yes I will be on the yacht.
29:20
Have them bottles in my bikini.
29:23
Okay, Cause I am defying is
29:25
against the image that I I'm supposed to
29:27
show up in a gray suit with my
29:29
say are tied back. And
29:31
say nice words the people Because that's
29:33
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Got a brand of strength that is. Different
31:21
from what is easy just to lay down on
31:23
a page like. You He spoke
31:25
recently about. Your
31:28
strength not necessarily meaning
31:31
hard. And like
31:33
rigid you talked about that
31:35
street can be pliable and
31:37
a. Shortlist of
31:39
this: It's if you have fun Side
31:42
to silly side, the fierce side the
31:44
smart side that loving said, the tinder
31:46
side like there is a strength and
31:48
that I'd like to hear you talk
31:51
a little bit more about that sense.
31:53
Of pliable and flexible string being
31:56
actually stronger than the hard rigid
31:58
kind. Yes, Yes, Yes! What
32:00
other com face as having with lovey a
32:02
guy jones who we both know. A
32:06
lot of them. Her. Oh My.
32:08
God sees the great. It.
32:10
Came about because. I
32:12
think yet again I just felt so exhausted.
32:15
By. The thought that.
32:18
Strains. Is
32:20
determined by how are you can
32:22
be. Una. Mean
32:25
that I felt that com. And definition
32:27
and understand that you must be
32:29
hard. At there.
32:31
Is. A
32:34
certain unbreakable. Miss. About
32:37
strength but you have to have Nord for
32:39
some ice it will. She's a strong know
32:41
a thing brought her down you know and
32:43
it's just so much. Stronger.
32:48
To be able to so the
32:50
vulnerability. That. Allows
32:53
you to release, feel,
32:56
All the impact. And.
32:59
Then bounce back. You.
33:01
Know it's like when you're watching like a
33:03
superhero movie. Him. And
33:05
yet prices impressive when that like laser
33:07
disc the laser at the superhero in
33:09
it hits them in the chest and.
33:11
They just stand there like you know,
33:14
But. Don't sue feel a little more
33:16
excited. For the superhero. Who gets like
33:18
knock back onto the wall. And
33:21
then sand. That. That's what would
33:23
are. You know me? So
33:26
it's like use I flew. By then you
33:28
but you can feel it. You. Can feel
33:30
my youth a bad move. You know you
33:32
cringe like oh my god actively the I
33:34
hit so hard the miraculous. Say.
33:37
Why blast the dust off their
33:39
space? And the. On
33:41
their hands and knees. and then they stand up again.
33:44
That. Is the kind of strength. That. We
33:46
should be actually apply. And so the
33:48
pipe bomb. This for me is that. It's
33:51
like yes, I've been knocked down by many
33:53
things. But. I'm still
33:55
standing up am still get know. He
33:58
didn't mean that some have a got it right away. The.
34:00
Strength means that sometimes I really did
34:03
have to lay down their. Mates.
34:05
Even play dead like girl Not
34:08
nobody could be any the minute.
34:12
Details in a few a minute, You know? The
34:16
beauty of strength of being high
34:18
a ball is that even in
34:20
that brokenness in that hurts. That
34:23
there for me is the
34:25
way to. Get.
34:28
Up. You. Know
34:30
of my own volition. This
34:34
and a certain amount of strength that it
34:36
takes. To. Get up of your
34:38
own volition. Because. Again,
34:40
this is one of the things. That is so difficult
34:42
enough. You've ever had a friend or somebody
34:44
in your life. Who. Has fallen
34:46
down and you just want them to get up
34:49
and your time to get all the advice in
34:51
the world you try to you about your legs.
34:53
let me help you can help it's and they
34:55
just can't do it and then you just get
34:58
frustrated Gov that. You know,
35:00
didn't Come on. You. Know and it's
35:02
so frustrating. But the thing is they. I.
35:05
Think the strength of that person. Is.
35:08
Their ability to get up of their own
35:10
volition. The. Nasa. The end up just
35:12
because you said so. Say my for Zakat.
35:14
The don't fall right now know. You.
35:17
Know and will. It takes a certain amount of
35:19
your own will. To. Say I'm going to
35:21
stand up again After been knocked. And
35:24
didn't you stand in here? And.
35:26
Then maybe even tried sick a step forward. But.
35:28
That. Is real strength. And
35:30
so I think of it out. the superhero.
35:33
You. Know it's not. It's not The hardness of
35:35
it is that I've been knocked down by that
35:37
Families are. And in have to sam
35:39
back up again. That's
35:41
the kind of stirring said. Everyone.
35:44
Is drawn to. Because it's it's true.
35:46
As his sentiments, there's plenty
35:48
of people who. Put
35:51
on as if they're that hit me in
35:53
the trash. Didn't even bugs me an edge.
35:55
But it's not true. I don't believe it.
35:57
I don't believe that. I do Not believe.
36:00
That a single person is.
36:02
Never knocked back or down by
36:04
life and so I believe. The.
36:07
People who go down to the ground and go.
36:09
I'll get up when I'm ready. But
36:11
I will get up. And then what
36:13
happens is when you get up your
36:16
own volition, when you'd like dust yourself
36:18
off and you stand back up, you're
36:20
teaching your future self that you can
36:22
do that again. We become our
36:25
own mentor. You. Become your
36:27
own mentor and use.
36:29
So your future self we can
36:32
do this and then the next
36:34
time you can. Say. It's
36:36
not that it's easier, but you
36:38
know with possible and so it
36:40
may happen even a little sooner.
36:42
And it's not cause any outside
36:44
forces other than our own personal
36:46
story said, we've done it before.
36:48
Oh, do it again. We've got
36:50
this where we have it inside
36:52
of a some we do. Everyone
36:54
does. I don't think that you
36:56
have to be born with a
36:58
certain personality or with this outward
37:00
facing power that's easy to identify.
37:02
Or to recognize. I think we all have
37:05
this in service no matter who we are.
37:07
Yes, possible. Yeah. It is possible
37:09
say no center. Same made me think of
37:11
not a walk situation but you know for
37:13
some motherhood. Journey A message
37:16
you. Know. My first daughter
37:18
was born. At thirty
37:20
two weeks I had pre eclampsia
37:22
I was not aware. You know
37:24
is just five minutes in where
37:26
we know we don't talk enough.
37:28
I think an especially professional spaces
37:30
where. You. Know motherhood is in
37:32
Sonoma mean any honest about. Be.
37:35
Suffering. In. Madison,
37:37
you know, or pregnancy. That.
37:40
Is almost feel shameful like I revised do
37:42
It And so therefore if I can see
37:44
faith a problem of sense. Or
37:46
know that maybe you're not. Good.
37:48
Enough for like. A
37:51
Wrong with you. And. So I
37:53
just didn't know at know and
37:55
when my daughter was born. And
37:57
then subsequently died. I was.
38:00
Carmen that I want to be a mother. It.
38:03
Through that process, actually when I first got pregnant, I
38:05
wasn't sure that I want to be a mother. Be.
38:08
Totally honest, right? I was
38:10
afraid that pregnancy would get in the way of
38:12
my career. As. A
38:14
daughter a child would slow me down.
38:17
You. Know I'm thinking of those things.
38:20
And then when she died I was I have
38:22
no no no with will.by the I know I
38:24
should do on the amount that I would like
38:26
to have a baby. And.
38:28
When. I got pregnant with Leo.
38:32
I had a better sense.
38:35
Of. What to look out for? You.
38:38
So I first became sex. With.
38:40
Preeclampsia with ease at. About
38:43
twenty weeks. With. Mail and
38:45
I became sick that eight weeks. And.
38:50
Having been through the experience with Eve,
38:52
I knew what to look out for
38:55
layout. And. So
38:57
the example that you just gave
38:59
about. Sometimes. Those.
39:02
Hard lessons are those losses.
39:04
Allow you to stand up. Faster.
39:09
Not necessarily that I was like
39:11
oh yeah I can body this
39:13
pregnancy. That's what do I got?
39:15
this snow girl love you. But
39:18
I knew better of what to look out
39:20
for. I knew. The. Questions
39:22
to ask, The. Doctor is
39:24
I understood what to look out for and
39:26
my own body. At. So
39:28
even though I was still fearful in
39:31
my pregnancy. The. Fact
39:33
that I had been through such a loss.
39:36
Allowed me to be them much
39:38
more powerful place with my and
39:40
Nc. You. Know. And and
39:42
each. Of. Their.
39:45
The community of people around me
39:47
of course specialist know that allowed
39:49
me to be able to have.
39:52
You. Know a child who lived. But.
39:54
Girls you wanted Thirty four. You.
39:57
Know and so a wet
39:59
of. That know like him and
40:01
another Alameda. another two weeks. It'll.
40:04
Pass the time with Eve so. I
40:07
do think that even in the
40:09
cases. When we're not necessarily talking about
40:11
the corporate environment to I like, you
40:13
know, You've been fire it is. Now
40:15
you can stand up again because you know
40:17
how you know it is is applies to
40:20
every part of our it's life. the threat,
40:22
everything. Everything apartments gratitude.
40:24
It's such a complicated thing.
40:27
As complicated thing because. It's.
40:29
Like the and is how we started cafes and rights
40:31
I want to have to be Have gone through the
40:33
loss of a daughter and I do appreciate the next
40:35
one. Wants
40:38
that. But. At
40:40
the same time I think about it and. I
40:42
thought on a few occasions us all men
40:44
like. The. Way that
40:47
my pregnancies. Happened.
40:50
I would have been able to have both daughters. You.
40:54
Don't Became. A pursuit
40:56
eve early and as painting three
40:59
months after that. So.
41:01
It is a C D Day. And
41:04
had eve I would have Leo. And
41:08
so how then do you reconcile that
41:10
in grad. Very
41:13
very complex things. The sometimes
41:15
even it's part grieve for our
41:18
struggles. You recognize the complexity
41:20
of being. What? You pads
41:22
even though last the other thing and
41:24
yes you would want it it's yes
41:26
it would have been the greatest thing
41:28
ever but also. You. Lost
41:30
that and you have this. Whereas.
41:33
The gratitude and how the south
41:36
of things. That. Can
41:38
lead to sleep. See doesn't always doesn't
41:40
balance out in this obvious and
41:43
clear way. And holding
41:45
that complexity holding that nuance
41:47
is it can be a.
41:50
Real. Gift and I'll see what
41:52
else. As a guest is Ben
41:54
I'm in know that it was
41:56
by watching you apparently. L for
41:58
years of course. The always been
42:01
a delight to watch. your relationship
42:03
with her is. Hilarious!
42:05
And your special? It's a
42:08
special it's always been about.
42:10
I'm a recent. Recently.
42:13
Also now a single mom, which I hadn't
42:15
been. And I've always
42:17
had a partner and that it had
42:19
a divorce I didn't see can mean
42:21
it's and then all of a site
42:23
in. I've got five kids. And
42:25
I'm I'm the lead parents. On
42:27
the full time parent on the lead,
42:30
Perry on the home, parents and. All
42:32
of a sudden I'm looking around out
42:34
women that I respect and admire who
42:36
are doing it as you were one
42:38
of other animals like. She's.
42:41
To knit this is a possibility.
42:43
For me. it's like we're not
42:45
doomed. There is life. On
42:48
the other side of this and
42:50
I learned a lot from you
42:52
and I love the way that
42:54
you parents I'd like to hear
42:56
you talk a little bit about
42:58
all these are speed a single
43:00
mom. And what
43:03
you have learned,
43:05
what you value,
43:08
What you cherish, what you decided I'm not
43:10
going to hang on to these things are
43:12
not in the let this and this it
43:14
a sick this is what I'm going to
43:16
cherish. Because I'm just telling you I'm. Like
43:19
I'm out try to catch everything out
43:21
atmosphere that I care about. The all.
43:23
Every possible. That is impossible.
43:26
Know, you know I. I always say
43:28
this, I got a sucky club to
43:30
be a part of. you know, like
43:32
okay worthy or you don't expect like
43:34
the best of it appear when are
43:36
you got it out because I'd really
43:38
do appreciate it She said, you know,
43:40
unexpected. Divorce in or
43:42
unexpected single parenthood. Why?
43:45
I guess I don't think any have a seat. None
43:47
of us alive who well know? there's a few, but.
43:50
A lot of us. Going to dislike Oh
43:52
you know what? Yes, I want a partner. Who.
43:54
Is point he is. Equally
43:57
responsible. For it's
43:59
system. You know, like somebody I can count
44:01
on and when I need to go take a nap.
44:03
He got it. You. Know. Didn't
44:06
always work out that way. Even when you are
44:08
in a marriage. To. Really talk
44:10
about that but you know it's like that is
44:12
this as well. So sometimes I'm like girl you
44:14
in a marriage but you a single bear. You
44:17
know that I picked up. That. Is
44:19
very real. And it is
44:21
rust trading because of course like
44:23
I know thing until recently. We.
44:26
Were really able to talk about.
44:28
You know, not being a hero. As.
44:30
A mom. And
44:33
because the thing is, it's been
44:35
just so. Upheld that
44:37
like if you are of mom is
44:39
like you know float when mother they
44:41
comes around he and how many cars
44:43
and like you. Are amazing and you
44:46
are the best super human mom ever!
44:48
A new that everything and I'm literally
44:50
sin. They're. Like oh my God. this I.
44:52
Dread it because. I.
44:56
Appreciate that you love my relationship and
44:58
the way that I parent. But
45:00
at the same time as I, I'm not perfect. You.
45:03
Know I am doing
45:05
what I'm doing for
45:07
my side. You. Don't and I
45:09
can do it. And. I
45:12
recognize and thankfully. In
45:14
I recognize this pretty early by
45:16
peter past week when lifts or.
45:18
And. Destroying. Lighted cell
45:20
is that. He. Really was
45:23
the one who wanted joke. You
45:25
know I again I won't lie to you.
45:27
I really was. Whether or not this is
45:29
the path of wanted you know. But.
45:32
Then we lost Eve and then a hadley
45:34
out with my shoes worn. It was like
45:36
that with me. Worms is what have I
45:38
done. You know, enemy lines autopsy here Now
45:40
she's gonna leader. You
45:42
don't have prepared and anxiety if I
45:44
were hold on a what are here
45:46
but then also why does. And
45:49
what at the way? She.
45:53
Was sleeping in my bed. Or
45:55
and was like, you know, Long after the
45:57
castle does that come in and people Fact.
46:00
That now. In all aspects. And
46:02
I was lane any her Emmy to have
46:04
to be almost dawn brow sleepless analysis looking
46:06
at her think installed a helmet was a
46:09
do this. But
46:11
are you serious right now? After this, He
46:13
Must happen. Met
46:15
her and feeling all the anxiety and
46:17
feeling like there's no way. That.
46:20
I'm able to l you know how to do that says no
46:22
I told my husband. And
46:24
I chapter on the So Color.
46:26
Cipro. Await. Odyssey mommy feel
46:28
for whatever you know so far away. I
46:31
actually said sewer to sort out the
46:33
said hey look. I
46:36
don't know what I'm doing. An.
46:39
Acid the tell me. What? You
46:41
need. And. Need it.
46:44
Because I just, I don't know and I'm
46:46
at a cost Them a thorn saab, And
46:48
sign and I said that's worth And the funny
46:51
thing is that like I grab him to that
46:53
day but it was yesterday. Look
46:56
at me issue like okay. We're
46:58
basically. An easy thing
47:00
is that like of course the south completely
47:03
insane to say that were four year old
47:05
they expect by some sort a reasonable entertained
47:07
you know. It's.
47:10
Her: okay, Gave
47:12
me the permission. To.
47:14
Not know what? the hell out, don't. Intend
47:18
on her. To tell me. And
47:20
it really did change my view of motherhood.
47:22
I was no longer like oh, I'm the
47:24
one in charge and at. Your
47:27
The thing is that like it's not I see. Run
47:29
Me Around and nino the house
47:31
is like completely insane because Run.
47:34
But I didn't recognize that
47:36
the relationship she and I
47:38
were going to have was
47:40
not built me being insights.
47:43
It was going to be a relationship that
47:45
felt like a partnership. In that, I'm
47:47
going to have to depend on her. To
47:49
tell. Me what she needs. I would have the. Little
47:53
person. To. Be honest with me, but
47:55
that method I had to make room. For.
47:57
Her honesty. I to make room
47:59
for. He the truth. You're.
48:02
At home for her to express to
48:04
me when she needed something I was
48:06
in providing it. And so that's
48:08
why it's like even as. Like I was
48:10
trying to get back on. My feet and
48:12
get back into the corporate swing of things
48:14
we moved from New York to And legs
48:16
I got and. It. And
48:18
then we were acquired by Apple and as a
48:21
bad to fly from L Latest to Cupertino every
48:23
single day of the week. And
48:25
even said she had just turned five
48:27
and I said swear, hey look. I'm
48:30
when we run around a lot. Of
48:32
that a calendar. Of the
48:35
things you need me to. Attend or be
48:37
at Uni to tell me. You
48:39
see methods consists of five euro but
48:41
upset if my bad has been to
48:44
the system for us. And
48:46
so even. At fourteen
48:48
gone off as should be seen. a couple of
48:50
the league's. See. Knows.
48:53
That. When she need something from me. She.
48:55
Is allowed to say it and
48:57
I will respond in the way
48:59
that knowledge is her and respects
49:01
her needs. And that is
49:03
why I feel if I'm able then
49:06
to honestly be the kind of. Executive
49:09
and Mom that was. Yeah.
49:12
Because like, look, I'm not at every volleyball game.
49:15
A lot of times I miss bedtime. I
49:18
will forget. When. There's a tests
49:20
that is coming. Girl.
49:23
During the pandemic I was not good at
49:25
math and o'clock Now I can talk about
49:27
it. Is so then as
49:29
i grow which need to your have
49:31
a fantastic consider. hey if I were
49:33
that sooner if he is up. The
49:36
that totally and for me.
49:38
My and seeing. Has.
49:41
Changed because I need to make. Space.
49:44
For. Her honest with me about what she
49:46
needs to that I can be. The.
49:49
Mother this She needs. Not. Necessarily
49:51
the mother that I think is needed.
49:54
That just means so much for me. To her.
49:57
you talk through and I I. Think it's gonna need
49:59
a lot to live. People are thing. I
50:01
have a big did demographic of
50:03
the single moms in this community.
50:05
Some of us. By.
50:08
Choice some by force. most
50:10
of us unexpected just as
50:12
you mentioned and I have a
50:14
non traditional. likes to travel
50:16
a lot. I worked demand.
50:18
A and some on the road. I've
50:20
always been. An airplane's I discussed his
50:22
death. My. Career explained as long as
50:24
that's what my kids grew up with,
50:27
that's what they know and then add
50:29
the sort of lost a lot of
50:31
a partner switch in the lot of
50:33
ways made that piece manageable. The seventh
50:35
on someone's home and an alternate wasn't
50:38
attained. And we just had
50:40
recalibrate everything. And so now
50:42
my youngest is eighteen! A
50:45
disappearing or so differently. But I'm like
50:47
this is how our family works. so
50:49
it's not a template and it doesn't
50:51
Other families who operate in maybe a
50:54
little bit more of a conventional setting
50:56
would that look at it and how
50:58
is is working on an injustice for
51:00
us? Like this is our family dynamic
51:03
as it works. Because we constantly talk about
51:05
it. Are you okay? What? Is
51:07
going on? What do you need
51:09
right now? What's the push and
51:11
pull here of you're learning autonomy
51:13
by. You still live in my
51:15
house? yeah it's decreed that doesn't
51:18
suggest by death as idea need
51:20
the line that point. You.
51:22
Know, Which is that we also need to
51:24
trust them. Solicitors, You.
51:28
Mean when you say what do you need. He.
51:32
Did trust that presumably can articulate
51:34
it. And it's that it's asked to.
51:36
And I think like if you
51:38
approach it that way. No
51:41
one sack over you. You. Know. What
51:44
I mean. The suicide? Will? You still are
51:46
in charge of the house? You still are.
51:48
The decision is still the one who gets
51:50
to make the rules. But. Think
51:52
you'd be really surprised. By
51:55
what it is that the actually need
51:57
when they built Spitzer asking them insincerity.
52:00
Image of. Believe. That many tell
52:03
you. Know. If
52:05
I think sometimes me approach it
52:07
with scepticism. Or. As if I will
52:09
if I ask us is just gonna say she
52:11
gave us a million dollars to go shopping with
52:13
her friends but is gonna say this outs of
52:16
two am and know because the curfews eleven. And.
52:18
If I know actually without some what it is
52:20
to five, what do you need? What? What does
52:23
that? You might. You. Don't Fight!
52:25
We just had a a big breakthrough cause I
52:27
left my daughter go to court Zola. Without.
52:29
Me: She. Went with a
52:32
woman who used to be my sister a few
52:34
years ago. I new some of layoffs friends were
52:36
going to be there. began Remember lay a fourteen
52:38
years old. you know. And her
52:40
favorite artists who started the career. When
52:43
the lineup came out issues like oh my God
52:45
will believe that can be a coach Allah and
52:47
I'm looking at her my gruesome lots of their
52:49
mind if you think I'm a ledger. In
52:51
I'll hear. With all that said he thought
52:53
out there that you know, how does that
52:56
all an odd you said you know you
52:58
don't need it. And.
53:00
Fit It held my first reaction. The
53:02
Fabiani enough for Christmas. And
53:04
then you know side the week went by
53:06
and I could see that you know she
53:08
was trying to bring up the whole Tyler
53:10
thing and it you know again this is
53:12
all the work in. Progress right? The has
53:15
reminds us either a bait and the
53:17
real confrontation. So. At dinner
53:19
one day I'm not a am I. What? What Is
53:21
it? The jets you want? but what is that you
53:23
want? To. I know I know you mongol could
53:25
to go cello but like tell me exactly what is
53:28
it as you want from Kojo. You know
53:30
you want Isler is that it? Or you just want to
53:32
go with my thing out of friends. Like? what does that
53:34
mean? And. Talking. Through
53:36
it out like you know where as he
53:38
was he was is an outrage. Was.
53:41
He was isn't like you know to
53:43
go imparted We am every night. T.
53:46
V don't want to see Lana. Del Rey smiles.
53:48
It's as leaders must don't get. And.
53:50
Am I. As I
53:52
bet. Okay, let me let you go with the mighty I
53:55
trust. And let's see now we'll We'll
53:57
keep talking about this. And so when she was
53:59
by her. She. Was
54:01
shocked because again we get it
54:03
to little quote Okay. So. I'm
54:05
not perfect, but. You know,
54:09
And. I for for us was
54:11
bad for you know another have it
54:13
goes use ice. Thank you for trusting
54:15
me. Go.
54:18
And. I think again he says. I'm
54:20
hopeful anyway bit as we approach this
54:22
new time. And for a guy, Where.
54:26
You know, the teenage years can
54:28
be aggressive. But I'm an
54:30
alibi. As as I hope
54:33
that. What? We have established
54:35
as a foundation. In
54:37
you said, I know this won't always
54:39
come to me with everything. But.
54:42
I hoped I'm brave enough. To
54:44
always ask her what is it needs is me.
54:47
And. That I will be able to figure out a
54:49
way to provide. So. That She truck. The.
54:52
Way that she needs to be my third. That
54:55
So then there is something
54:57
special about treasure in. Our
54:59
kids growing independence, giving them
55:01
some room, To
55:03
spread their wings a bit and to
55:05
say I believe in you and. I I
55:08
trust. I trust her. Word. Here and
55:10
my. Experience: Having
55:12
raised. By teenagers my youngest is
55:15
eighteen. Is that it
55:17
happens. But it's rare that
55:19
they abuse that trust because
55:21
they're so grateful. Habit there.
55:23
so something shot. That. I
55:25
said yes, you can do this. Here's
55:27
the guard rails, but you can do
55:29
this. That they're like oh hell, I'm
55:31
not gonna mess this up. I'm gonna. I'm. Gonna
55:33
run this operation like I said I was
55:36
going to and I'll get a repeat. And
55:38
the right. Here right? That's
55:40
how it works. Teenagers are not evil. i'm
55:43
telling ya mom says are behind their
55:45
like some so scared for this sweet
55:47
little baby to turn into had he
55:49
not like up sooner kids they don't
55:51
turn into a new human they're just
55:53
bigger they smell were split stats your
55:55
kid and the what is like a
55:57
wonderful good about them just is still
55:59
in there. Don't worry about it. So
56:01
I actually think parenting
56:03
teenagers is fun. Now, 14
56:06
is ideal. Frankly,
56:09
really 12 and 13 was. I don't know how you did at
56:11
12 and 13, but I was like,
56:13
Jesus, the rapture.
56:15
Can we pause and just
56:17
acknowledge how amazing you look
56:20
at art? Thank you. Can
56:24
we get
56:26
that as the rule book
56:28
or whatever? We need that. I feel like
56:30
that's the thing we all need. What
56:33
I'm doing, hello. Go ahead.
56:37
I'm proud of you. Listen,
56:40
I probably operated at about a 61%
56:42
rate. It's passing enough. That's
56:44
how I see it though.
56:47
I'm way past the optimistic
56:49
idealistic. I'm going to do
56:51
this perfectly. I'm going to
56:53
control all the outcomes. Oh hell. Oh God.
56:55
We're way beyond that. We've had wage
56:57
mini like f ups. So now we're
56:59
just like, you know what? We're all okay. We're
57:02
all right. That's good enough. We're okay.
57:04
We made it. We're alive. We're
57:07
alive. Oh my God. I'm telling you. I
57:09
think literally sometimes the miracle of it. I'm
57:11
just like, we still here. We made it
57:13
through. You know, it's like, yeah,
57:15
the Monday after Coachella, I was like, Oh God,
57:18
thank you Jesus. We made it
57:20
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57:22
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57:24
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done and now you know, like expectations
1:02:44
be damned. You know, like level A? Whatever
1:02:46
they want to say. okay and if I I
1:02:48
guess added it, you know, And
1:02:50
the most amazing thing
1:02:52
about. Being. Human.
1:02:55
Is. How and. Credibly. Hide
1:02:58
the are to each other. In
1:03:00
which their socks me. You.
1:03:02
Don't hate to be so like
1:03:04
small about it, but I really
1:03:07
was the site. Okay, Well, maybe if
1:03:09
you've been through all the things I've been through,
1:03:11
then you don't get it. And
1:03:13
so I am Sox time I
1:03:15
wanted to. Anybody who is nothing
1:03:18
like me. I
1:03:20
girl I sobbed well as reading your book And Emma
1:03:22
you did. Why? You.
1:03:25
Know and see. If
1:03:27
a bar human condition. Has
1:03:30
a sweets other in ways that
1:03:32
is unexpected and it is a
1:03:35
beautiful thing that. Even through
1:03:37
our pain. We. Are still
1:03:39
tied together as human beings, And
1:03:41
so when I do see the devastation that
1:03:43
it's happening in the world and the challenges
1:03:45
in the conflict that we have. With each
1:03:48
other. And just I'm still. On
1:03:50
by our humanness in it. At
1:03:53
like as there are you know certain factions
1:03:55
of doing things that we with people would
1:03:58
do. But. The majority. of
1:04:00
us, a majority of
1:04:02
us are tied together because we have this
1:04:04
shared experience. And so it
1:04:06
gives great hope for humanity. It gives me
1:04:08
great joy at meeting strangers and
1:04:10
being like, girl, yes. And then what'd
1:04:12
you do when you had to separate from your husband, girl,
1:04:15
let me tell you what I did. You know, like,
1:04:17
and we don't have anything in common, but
1:04:19
I love that. And it's a reminder
1:04:21
again, that I'm
1:04:23
going to use your friend, Kristen, right?
1:04:25
Her, her words about Olympics,
1:04:28
because it reminds me again that
1:04:31
we don't have to compete for who
1:04:33
has suffered more or more is
1:04:37
that we are all living this experience,
1:04:39
which is happiness
1:04:41
and sadness and triumph and
1:04:44
defeat and anger and, and
1:04:47
all of the things, and that we really are
1:04:49
tied together as humans. And that
1:04:52
pushed to continue living
1:04:54
my life in this way because
1:04:56
it is connected to everybody else.
1:04:58
And so I'm not out here
1:05:01
singular and alone in my experience.
1:05:04
None of us are. That's just
1:05:06
such a beautiful way to end this. What are
1:05:08
you doing right now? What's on your plate? Well,
1:05:11
after the phone call I had with my friend,
1:05:13
I still call her my friend. I
1:05:16
am pursuing what it looks like
1:05:18
for me to be an entrepreneur
1:05:20
outside of, you know, the corporate
1:05:22
environment. And so that's what I'm
1:05:24
doing. I'm, I'm building it's
1:05:26
scary as hell, but I am very
1:05:28
energized. Yeah. Oh, I
1:05:31
can't wait to see what you're putting your hand to with
1:05:34
all that you have to dump into that
1:05:36
bucket from your varied experiences. I'm
1:05:39
excited. I'm going to round up
1:05:42
all your things, all your links, all your everything
1:05:44
for my readers so they can just one click
1:05:46
and find you and follow you and buy
1:05:48
your book, which they'll be so moved by
1:05:51
because to your point, yes, you include the
1:05:53
particulars of your story, but embedded in that
1:05:55
is a universal
1:05:57
experience of law. and
1:06:00
hope and recovery and resilience and
1:06:03
family and relationship. That's all, that's
1:06:05
everyone, it's human. So, hey,
1:06:08
I'm so happy to see you and I'm
1:06:10
just completely delighted in you as a human
1:06:13
and so grateful for everything
1:06:15
that I've learned from you but also
1:06:17
just to be a woman
1:06:19
at the same time as you and
1:06:23
just hopeful, so hopeful for what
1:06:26
it is that we get to
1:06:28
build and the next generation watching.
1:06:30
I'm just, I just
1:06:32
am stubbornly optimistic about it and
1:06:34
so thanks for being on today.
1:06:37
You, thank you. Again, I started off by
1:06:39
saying I appreciate this space but
1:06:42
you are wonderful in being able to use
1:06:44
this gift that you have in
1:06:46
this way. It is really a gift. Not
1:06:48
everyone has it, so thank you for using
1:06:50
it for this purpose. All
1:07:01
right, guys. Oh,
1:07:04
I love her. I love her. I
1:07:07
learned from her. I'm proud of her. What
1:07:10
a time to be a woman. Again, I know
1:07:12
I just said it but I'm so hopeful. We
1:07:15
have more to come in the Matriarchy
1:07:18
series, just a celebration
1:07:20
of women across the board. I
1:07:23
wouldn't want anything
1:07:26
other to be a woman in this world and
1:07:30
I love our
1:07:32
community with so many women of strength
1:07:36
who are leading us and loving us and
1:07:38
serving us so well and Bozama
1:07:41
is certainly one of them. As promised,
1:07:43
if you go over to jenhatmaker.com under
1:07:46
the podcast tab, I'll have this episode, the
1:07:48
link, the show notes if you'd like to
1:07:50
share it and then all
1:07:52
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1:07:54
follow her on social. If
1:07:56
you haven't already subscribed to the show, do it. Subscribe
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wherever you get your. That
1:08:01
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