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Hey, everyone, Jen Hatmaker here, your
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host of the For the Love podcast. Welcome to
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the show. This series
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has just been so good.
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We are in the
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Embracing Change series, which
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I can't think of anybody literally in my entire
2:16
life, this doesn't apply to in some way, whether
2:18
you are in change that
2:20
you are choosing or needing to choose
2:22
or change has chosen you in some
2:24
way. We're all there.
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And this episode, I think is going to touch
2:29
your soul in ways that you maybe didn't expect,
2:33
including diving into the healing power
2:35
of writing and reclaiming
2:37
agency in the
2:41
face of constant change and
2:44
uncertainty. You guys, our guest
2:46
today is so remarkable. So
2:48
remarkable. Nezwa Zabian is
2:50
who we have today. She's a poet, an
2:53
author. She's an advocate. Her
2:56
words have been hope for literally millions of
2:58
people in our world. She has millions of
3:01
followers and you'll see why. She
3:03
has quite a story. And
3:05
we were just talking a second
3:07
ago after we had finished recording and I she's
3:10
like, you're such a good listener. And I'm like,
3:12
you're such a good storyteller. I just wanted you
3:14
to tell me more and more and more about
3:16
her life. And I think you're going to find a lot of
3:18
points of connection, even, even if we were
3:21
raised in different cultures and with different
3:23
circumstances, some of the themes of abandonment
3:26
and a lack
3:29
of care and uncertainty
3:32
and displacement are universal.
3:35
So she's going to talk about that today and
3:38
what she learned and how she overcame
3:40
and how words were a part
3:42
of that journey. And really
3:44
guys, stay until the end because we get
3:47
to like the crescendo at the very
3:49
end of this interview where she
3:51
sort of steps into what
3:53
felt like her life thesis. I'm
3:55
like, there, there, look at that.
3:58
So. Let me
4:01
tell you about her a little
4:03
bit before we start hearing her
4:05
story. So Dr. Nejwa Zabian, she's
4:07
a Lebanese, Canadian, activist, author, speaker,
4:09
and educator. She taught her doctorate
4:11
in educational leadership. Nejwa
4:14
began to write in
4:17
an effort to connect
4:19
with and help heal her
4:22
first students, which
4:24
was a group of young refugees,
4:27
which she understood, and you'll find
4:29
out more about that. And
4:31
then come to find out, she began writing to
4:33
heal herself. So she
4:35
is the author of six
4:38
books. She delivered the
4:40
Ted Talk, Finding Home Through Poetry.
4:43
She recently launched a digital school
4:45
called Soul Academy, and also a
4:48
podcast called In the Clear. So
4:50
her latest book is
4:52
called The Only Constant, and
4:55
it's a powerful message, a
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very powerful message of agency
5:02
and autonomy, and being
5:05
able to trust ourselves as the
5:07
primary leader of our own lives.
5:10
You're going to love this. You're going to love her. Reminder,
5:13
if you ever want to watch an
5:15
interview, we video all of them. They're
5:17
over on my YouTube channel because sometimes
5:20
it's just powerful to watch a
5:22
guest tell her own story, and
5:25
Nejwa is powerful to watch in addition
5:27
to being spectacularly beautiful. So that's over
5:29
on YouTube if you'd like to watch
5:31
it in addition to listen to it. So
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I am delighted that she was here and just
5:38
moved by today's conversation. So pour
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yourself a cup of tea and
5:44
get ready to be inspired
5:46
by the absolutely wonderful
5:50
Nejwa Savian. Nejwa,
5:53
welcome to the show. I
6:01
was just telling you how delighted I
6:03
am to meet you. I'm so
6:05
moved by not just
6:07
what you like do in the world, who
6:10
you are and everything else has an
6:12
outcropping of that clearly. And
6:14
so I'm so looking forward to this conversation. Same
6:17
here. I'm really excited to have it with
6:19
you. And I feel like you and I
6:21
are on the same page in so many
6:23
ways. So this is gonna be a great
6:25
conversation. It sure is. I
6:28
wonder before we sort of dive in to
6:30
some of your story and some of your work,
6:32
would you mind just telling my
6:35
listening community the ones who don't know
6:37
you yet, this is kind of who
6:39
I am and this is where I am and
6:42
more or less, this is my deal in the world.
6:44
Yeah. So usually the first
6:46
word I use to describe myself before
6:48
any other title is human.
6:50
I'm a human who's been living
6:54
the human experience and my biggest
6:56
struggle in life since I was
6:58
extremely on like, since before I
7:00
can remember is feeling
7:03
like I'm out of place, feeling like
7:05
I'm a burden, like there's something about
7:08
me that's too much or too
7:10
wrong or too little or whatever. I just
7:12
always felt like I was out of place.
7:14
I struggled with feeling fully
7:17
and wholly embraced and prioritized
7:19
as a human being. That's,
7:21
I think my central struggle.
7:24
I can tell you about my
7:26
abandonment wounds and attachment wounds and
7:29
pain wounds, but really that's the
7:31
story. The story has always been,
7:33
I don't deserve love.
7:35
I don't deserve prioritization. I don't
7:37
deserve, those things are just for other
7:39
people. They're not for me. And
7:41
so having to go through that from
7:44
a very young age, I internalized certain
7:46
feelings that I couldn't put words to
7:49
just because I was so young, but
7:51
it didn't mean that I didn't internalize
7:54
certain messages about myself. So when
7:56
I turned 13, the only friend I had, gave
8:00
me a journal and I started writing in it
8:02
for the first time and that's when I felt
8:04
heard and seen in some way and the beautiful
8:06
part is that I was
8:08
giving myself that voice and I was
8:11
giving myself that crying shoulder. So
8:14
three years after that I moved to
8:17
Canada to join my family. I'd been
8:19
a Canadian citizen before that. I visited
8:21
before but this was the move and
8:24
so that intensified the feeling of being
8:28
out of place, the feeling of
8:30
displacement, which meant I was
8:32
so hyper aware of the way I was feeling
8:34
but I was also aware that there was nothing
8:36
I could do about it. So writing to me
8:39
at that point, journaling, meant
8:41
being reminded of my helplessness. I decided
8:43
I didn't want to write anymore, ripped
8:45
up my journals, never again. Seven
8:48
years go by, I live in what
8:50
I call black and white. I
8:53
meet my first group of students and I
8:55
see on their faces the same look I
8:57
knew I had when I first arrived in
8:59
Canada, just that feeling of what
9:03
am I doing here? I don't belong here
9:05
and I wanted to make them feel like
9:08
they already have a seat at the
9:10
table. So I started writing to inspire
9:12
them and in a way I started
9:14
healing myself and that was the beginning
9:16
of my writing journey that turned into
9:18
me being an author. There's a lot there.
9:21
I mean you just tapped down
9:23
on some pretty big chapters of
9:26
your life. I'd love to go
9:28
back a little bit and examine
9:30
those pieces a little bit closer.
9:32
First of all, you
9:35
did a lot of your childhood years
9:38
separate from your parents, right? Yeah,
9:41
can you talk about that a little bit? Where you
9:43
were, where they were, why were you apart? How did
9:45
that feel? In what ways did
9:47
that childhood
9:50
distance affect you? Because it certainly
9:52
must have. Absolutely.
9:54
So to set
9:57
the context, I
10:00
am the sixth child
10:02
in my family of six. So
10:05
the youngest, but also the youngest by
10:08
many years. Long story short, my
10:10
parents are originally from Lebanon. They met
10:12
and got married in Canada, had five kids,
10:14
decided they wanted to move to Lebanon, and
10:17
that's where I was born. So I
10:19
immediately was born into an environment
10:21
where my parents had already had
10:23
the five kids. They were done
10:26
raising children, and I came
10:28
as a surprise. And so I was
10:30
surrounded by people who were so much
10:32
older than me from a very young age,
10:34
which pushed me to mature a lot
10:37
earlier than any kid
10:39
around me. I literally remember looking
10:41
at kids who were my age, or even
10:43
a little bit older, and looking at them
10:46
as kids, and I didn't see myself as
10:48
a kid. So from
10:50
a young age, my dad was
10:52
heavily involved in politics. My mom
10:54
was just working really hard to
10:56
take care of us, and I
10:59
remember my mom started traveling to
11:01
Canada once my older
11:04
siblings started turning 18 and
11:06
moving back here. So she would come
11:08
to stay with them, and then I
11:10
would stay in Lebanon with my dad. And
11:12
my dad thought for many periods of time
11:14
that I was better off living with an
11:17
aunt or an uncle, or an uncle
11:20
who had a wife, and who could take
11:22
care of me, and feed me, and do
11:24
my laundry. And what that
11:26
meant was that I was constantly moving
11:28
from place to place with my backpack.
11:31
Like I didn't feel like there was
11:33
a consistent home that I could go
11:35
to, for I felt emotionally safe, or
11:38
I felt like I could talk about
11:40
my day. I already felt like
11:42
my feelings didn't matter. I was always extremely sensitive,
11:44
and so kids would bully me in school, and
11:47
teachers would bully me in school, and there was
11:49
no one to talk to at the end of
11:51
the day about it. And when I
11:53
got the opportunity to talk to my dad, my
11:56
dad is extremely stoic, and he
11:58
would look at me like, you're better than me. and
12:00
don't let them get to you,
12:02
but that meant that my feelings
12:04
weren't tended to. And I learned
12:06
with time that, you know, this
12:08
was honestly within the last three
12:10
or four years, I've learned that
12:12
neglect isn't just about not
12:14
getting your basic needs met. Sometimes
12:17
neglect is, I think the
12:19
most harmful neglect is not
12:21
getting the things that you do need. And
12:24
I needed that emotional attunement. I
12:26
needed to feel like my feelings
12:29
mattered. And I also needed to
12:31
feel like there
12:33
was an open chest to welcome me with
12:35
a hug at the end of the day
12:37
where I would feel that love, but it
12:39
was, I always felt so distant from me.
12:42
Like I would only see it in other
12:44
families. And there's one
12:46
really powerful theme in
12:48
my life during
12:50
those years when I lived far
12:52
away from my parents, I was living with
12:54
my aunt and uncle. And
12:58
what I experienced there was a
13:00
lot of exclusion and
13:03
not only exclusion, but feeling like it
13:06
was my fault that I was being
13:08
excluded. There's one story I vividly remember
13:11
that I talked about in Welcome Home.
13:13
And I referenced it as the only
13:15
constant as well, where it was the
13:17
night before a major celebration we have
13:19
in our culture. And me
13:21
and my cousins were playing in
13:24
the playroom and my aunt came
13:26
and looked at her kids and
13:28
said, let's go downstairs, it's family
13:30
time. And she looked at me and she
13:32
said, you stay here. And I
13:35
sat there and I remember hearing them open
13:38
gifts. My uncle had arrived from Canada the
13:40
night before and they were opening gifts and
13:43
they were all so happy and they're laughing.
13:45
And I would have been
13:47
eight or nine. And I remember that's
13:49
when the question first
13:52
appeared in my mind that said, why
13:54
can't I have that? Like, what is
13:56
it about me that
13:59
causes me to... not be
14:01
part of that love and
14:03
that laughter and that inclusion and
14:05
that prioritization. Somebody actually thinking about
14:08
whether I'm happy or not, every time they would
14:11
go out somewhere like, you know, in
14:13
Lebanon where we lived, it was like
14:15
a tiny village. So the nearest McDonald's,
14:18
for example, was like 40 minutes away.
14:20
So anytime they would plan these trips, like
14:22
on the weekends to go to a place
14:25
like McDonald's or to go to
14:28
a beautiful part
14:30
of nature, my aunt
14:32
would make sure that somebody came
14:34
and picked me up and took care
14:36
of me. It didn't matter who it
14:38
was. And if I couldn't get ahold
14:40
of my dad or another uncle
14:42
or another aunt, she, like I
14:44
would feel her pressure
14:48
on me, like, like figure it
14:50
out, figure it out because we have to go.
14:52
And so I would
14:54
say that happening.
14:58
And the fact that I
15:00
couldn't speak to my parents about
15:02
it and about how hurtful it
15:04
was left me feeling alone in
15:06
the experience and feeling like I
15:09
needed to figure things out on my own. I needed
15:12
to protect myself on my own. I needed to,
15:14
and at the same
15:16
time, I needed to not say anything
15:18
because that could mean further exclusion. That
15:20
could mean further not getting the little
15:23
breadcrumbs that I would get of inclusion
15:25
if they got certain kinds of snacks
15:27
that I wanted. So
15:31
during that time period between the age
15:33
of about eight to 16, I felt
15:35
like I
15:38
was like a 30
15:40
year old person, at least in
15:43
whatever age body I was.
15:45
And a lot of
15:47
those patterns of abandoning
15:50
myself in order to feel included
15:53
by somebody else are trying to
15:55
prove my God, the
15:57
race I had. That
16:00
I was running to prove my worth.
16:03
Ended very recently in my life
16:05
and they're still. Like.
16:08
They're still glimmers of and I'm aware of
16:10
it and I try to put an end
16:12
to it. I always felt like I needed
16:14
to prove. That. I'm a good
16:16
person that I deserve. love, that
16:18
I deserve inclusion, that I deserve
16:20
to be looked at as where
16:23
are the in general? And that's
16:25
all of those stories from my
16:27
childhood. Ultimately, Led
16:29
to that. And. To.
16:32
Be com the adult that I am
16:34
right now. Meant. That I
16:36
had to go back to those
16:38
younger versions of me And. Correct.
16:41
A lot of the things that the adults
16:43
at the time it didn't even tend to
16:45
like. I discovered so much that I went
16:47
through that I. I think I just
16:49
buried it and it was all on top of each
16:51
other because it was like. I
16:54
was unaware that it was that. My
16:56
life. That's my normal. So yeah, during
16:59
those years of living far away from
17:01
my parents are really internal. I've a
17:03
feeling of. I'm. Responsible
17:05
for my own safety, For
17:08
my own protection. I'm responsible
17:10
for. Whatever. It is that
17:12
happens to me and I never felt like I
17:14
had a strong back home that I could fall
17:16
back on. Oh
17:19
that's so Chainsaw share. With
17:22
any of that for you
17:24
and we obviously that. Is
17:27
going. They ended create a deep
17:29
sense of instability. And
17:31
dislocation and. A
17:34
lack of belonging. And still have
17:36
those inside feeling sick. To your
17:38
point, you're still. Working out as
17:40
recently as three years ago. still.
17:42
Any of that does it
17:44
create and you any. External
17:47
emotions in responses have he
17:49
battled with was that the
17:51
minute have you battle with
17:54
anger. this can go in
17:56
and that you go out both are good and
17:58
for bad i'm curious how the out Felt
18:01
in your body and in your responses.
18:03
Yeah, I will say
18:06
those emotions that I used to
18:08
label as negative ones Were
18:11
ones that for the longest time I
18:13
didn't allow myself to feel or to
18:15
express because I was conditioned
18:18
To believe that being a good person
18:20
being a good girl meant you
18:23
never ever assumed that a person
18:25
has bad intentions You
18:28
you are always the bigger person You're always
18:30
like I said teachers would bully me
18:32
and my dad would say you know
18:35
that has nothing to do with you Like
18:37
that's them and it's like there
18:39
was always this invitation to
18:41
not allow myself
18:44
to Experience anger
18:46
because it was a negative thing, but
18:48
now I realize there's healthy anger. There's
18:50
healthy resentment There's healthy there's healthy
18:53
ways and it's also healthy to
18:57
Project those feelings outwards. Otherwise, they're
18:59
inside. They're somewhere inside of me
19:01
There's a story about resentment that
19:03
I shared actually in the only
19:05
constant It's interesting to
19:07
me because my parents left the Lebanon this
19:10
morning and it's always an emotional It's
19:12
always a very twisted feeling
19:14
I have because I love them so much and I
19:17
know they love me and I I cried
19:19
writing about this and the only constant because
19:22
there's one line where I say You
19:25
know You can't see me right now that I'm actually
19:27
bawling my eyes out as I'm writing this
19:29
because all I ever really wanted was to
19:31
Just be loved for who I am. I
19:33
love them for who they are. I don't look at
19:35
what choices they make for themselves I
19:37
love you as you are. That's all I've ever
19:40
wanted. So there's one story But
19:42
I refer to in the only constant
19:44
as the airplane story. This
19:46
was back in When
19:51
I had decided I no longer wanted to
19:53
wear the hijab for those who don't know
19:55
Muslim women Many of
19:57
them just that's the traditional cover
20:00
And I didn't see myself that way anymore.
20:02
I changed as a human.
20:05
My value system changed. And
20:07
so I decided I no longer want to wear
20:09
it. And so the first time I brought it
20:11
up to my parents, my dad said, don't even
20:13
think about it. And I
20:16
know my dad is a very open-minded person. I
20:18
knew it wasn't coming from a place of him
20:20
thinking that I needed to wear it. Because I
20:22
remember when I first started wearing it, he said,
20:24
are you sure you want to do this? Like
20:26
I don't really care if you do. So
20:29
and I insisted, I was really young. I was like
20:31
13. So fast forward to
20:34
me being 27 years old and I'm saying
20:36
I don't want to wear this anymore. I
20:40
knew that he was worried about me,
20:42
but he didn't use those words. So
20:44
months go by, I stuck to my
20:46
decision. I really wanted to move forward
20:48
with it. And I was hard set
20:50
on it. And
20:53
my mom calls me and she says, your dad wants to talk
20:55
to you. So I said, if
20:58
something happens and I'm not comfortable, I reserve
21:00
the right to get up and leave. At
21:03
that point, another thing I had done was to
21:05
move out of my parents' home before being married,
21:07
which is a big thing in our culture. So
21:10
I go visit. We sit at opposite
21:13
ends of the couch. My dad is
21:15
extremely, extremely stoic. I can count on
21:17
my fingers the number of
21:19
times in my life that we had
21:22
that emotional connection. So
21:24
he starts talking very gently and he says,
21:26
you know, when you first told me about
21:28
your decision, I was really worried
21:30
because you'd been wearing it for so long. And
21:33
out of the blue, you said you don't want
21:35
to. And I worried about you. I
21:37
thought like, what's happening? Is she
21:39
having an identity crisis? And he said,
21:41
and you just started
21:43
writing and you made your name in
21:46
the world as a writer who looks
21:48
a certain way. And he said, I
21:50
don't want people to think that you
21:52
are shaky in your identity, that you
21:55
don't know who you are. He's like,
21:57
it's just like when an
21:59
airplane is. taking off, it's very
22:01
important during the takeoff that it's
22:03
steady and straight and it doesn't
22:06
make any big changes in the
22:08
direction or the whatever. And
22:10
then he goes, but then I really thought
22:13
about it and I realized that you're no
22:15
longer just taking off. You're already up there
22:17
in the sky. You know who you are.
22:20
You know what your values are.
22:22
So I trust you in whatever decisions you
22:24
make for yourself. And I sat there. Wow, I
22:26
have a goose bump. So I did not express that story to
22:28
go that way. Right. I
22:31
cried a lot, Jen, I'm not gonna lie.
22:34
I was really, really moved
22:37
by, you know,
22:39
my extremely stoic father's ability
22:41
to express himself in that way
22:43
and to me specifically. And I
22:46
spent some time like really honoring that
22:48
moment. I still do, but something weird
22:51
happened after that that had never happened
22:53
up to that point. It
22:55
was this resentment that bubbles up from
22:57
within me that said, why
23:00
on earth do I always have to
23:02
work so hard to
23:05
get a moment like this? Why
23:07
do I have to make a decision
23:10
for myself, get all the opposition in
23:12
the world and have to
23:14
stick to the decision myself and get
23:16
through it alone and be made to
23:18
feel like something's wrong with me and
23:20
like I'm being excluded. And then when
23:22
I finally just get to a
23:24
point where I've made the decision, I've moved
23:26
forward with it. I'm at peace with myself
23:28
and with my decision. That's when
23:32
they come back in and say like
23:35
these beautiful things that I would have
23:37
wanted to hear at the beginning.
23:39
This resentment came up and
23:42
I couldn't, like I
23:44
sat there with myself and I'm like, is
23:46
this what people refer
23:48
to when they say like, you become
23:51
like so full of yourself and you're
23:53
so arrogant and People's feelings
23:55
don't mean anything. Like I Started
23:57
judging myself for a few moments.
24:00
Sure how many times that down
24:02
your whole life so that ah.
24:05
So. I just I
24:07
sat with myself with that resentment
24:09
and I remember just. Writing
24:12
a letter to. To.
24:15
The resentment and. explaining.
24:18
What Is it that? Led.
24:21
Me to pilot up for
24:24
so many years. And what
24:26
purpose? It serves me.
24:28
What? Purpose does it serve for you? It's
24:31
protected. Me is is it gives
24:33
a sigh. Carried. That feeling
24:36
of resentment without doing anything to
24:38
change the situation. If I left
24:40
it at feeling resentful, Better than
24:42
that meant that I didn't express
24:45
myself in a way that could
24:47
lead me to lose the bond
24:49
I have with someone for the
24:51
connection I have with someone. So
24:54
the resentment served as the. Kind.
24:57
Of like a buffer to keeping
24:59
those connections and place. But.
25:01
It was only hurting me and I
25:03
also was not presenting myself as authentically
25:05
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like to talk about what
27:22
it was like for you. It's
27:25
a pretty big deal to move to Canada
27:27
at age 16. It's such
27:29
a precarious age
27:32
and having already
27:35
experienced a
27:37
childhood where you felt excluded
27:39
in many cases and
27:42
kind of abandoned really and overlooked,
27:45
not seen, not heard, not loved. And
27:47
then a complete sea
27:49
change to another country where
27:52
your family, a lot of your family was
27:54
already established and so their trial along along
27:56
I can imagine with their relationships
27:58
that they had created. It it in
28:00
their life that they had filled and
28:03
then you hop in. The language is
28:05
every the audience across the board. I
28:07
I'd love to hear about that transition
28:10
that. Change and was sacked created
28:12
inside of you to because all
28:14
of this ultimately became words on
28:16
a page that you know years
28:18
in a powerful. Way and so how
28:21
did that season of your life matter? Season
28:26
of My Life Matters. Because.
28:30
It. Was. Been. Seven years.
28:33
Between me arriving here and
28:36
need beginning to write again.
28:39
Like I said, I'm in. I'm in Black and
28:41
White. What that meant to me was I lived
28:43
in survival mode. I just followed the rules. Of
28:45
everyone around me, I know for a
28:47
fact that. They're sheltering. I
28:50
experience from my family was
28:52
extremely protective. I know it
28:54
wasn't that they aim to.
28:57
Stop. Me from having
28:59
experiences. Or that they didn't trust me
29:01
with more. Like we know the world more than
29:03
you do So. You're you're going
29:05
to be very sheltered. So I
29:07
I wasn't allowed to go out
29:10
in the evenings or go out
29:12
and socialize. It was a very
29:14
isolating experience. Oh, is just schoolwork.
29:16
schoolwork schoolwork and I went to
29:18
University right away. I was always
29:20
a high achiever and. I only
29:22
in cook time where three four
29:24
years. Literally. Realized.
29:27
That. That was aside from my worse,
29:29
that's all it ever was. Of
29:31
course. Yeah. So maybe if
29:33
I get these high grades my parents will
29:35
look at me with cry on. The only
29:38
one of my family. Who.
29:40
Went. As far as I didn't school I have
29:42
my doctrine. Education. I just graduated two
29:44
years ago. I'm the only one of
29:47
my family who you know and such
29:49
a young age I I really. Have
29:51
made a name for myself where
29:53
I know I help million people
29:55
worldwide. When. Somebody asks
29:58
me. who
30:00
do you think you are? Those aren't the things
30:02
that I go to. It's like,
30:04
I forget all the things I've accomplished and
30:06
I really have this existential
30:09
crisis of, it's
30:11
like I've been taught that
30:13
if I take pride in my
30:16
accomplishments, that means I'm a bad
30:18
person. Well,
30:21
during those years, I just, it
30:23
felt like everyone
30:25
around me was so much ahead
30:27
of me in life. My brothers
30:29
and sisters were, my sisters were
30:31
married when I was extremely young.
30:34
My brothers got married, everyone's married,
30:37
they have their careers, they're done
30:39
school. Meanwhile, I'm following in
30:41
the footsteps that I think I need to
30:44
follow in. So I just followed the rules,
30:46
never really knew who I was. I can
30:48
tell you the reason I worked so hard
30:50
was that if there was ever a moment
30:52
that I wasn't working towards something, I
30:55
would sit there and be like, I would be
30:57
agitated. I need something to
30:59
make me feel like I'm actually
31:02
accomplishing something in my life.
31:04
So during those years, being
31:07
sheltered and being led down
31:09
a certain path, like
31:11
these are the rules you need to follow.
31:15
You hang out with those
31:17
people, you go to school for
31:19
this program, you get these grades,
31:21
you display these manners, you're just
31:23
a good part of this family and you're
31:26
gonna reflect well on us in front of
31:28
everybody. I never really
31:30
experienced joy and I never really
31:33
experienced like deep sadness. It was
31:35
more like I was always numb.
31:39
I was always aware that I wasn't really
31:42
living. Like I would look at everybody else
31:44
around me and I would see them experience
31:46
certain things and I knew deep within
31:49
my soul, that's not for me. So
31:52
those years, I
31:54
think what they served is like, when a
31:57
seed stays in the ground for a really
31:59
long time. time, like it's dormant
32:01
before it starts growing
32:04
into something. That's it.
32:06
It needs like, it needs some kind
32:08
of a catalyst. And the catalyst for
32:10
me, sadly, was seeing
32:14
suffering in other people.
32:18
That was my catalyst to start
32:21
writing and helping
32:23
them see the value that they have.
32:26
And that's what led me to realize
32:28
that I needed to do that for
32:30
my 16 year old self. And then in
32:32
the most recent years, I realized I had to
32:34
go further back than that,
32:37
from that 16 year old person.
32:39
So during those years, I
32:42
was in a dormant phase and survival
32:44
mode. But I was also forming my
32:48
view of what I was allowed and
32:50
wasn't allowed to do with my life,
32:53
how I was allowed to live and how I
32:55
wasn't allowed to live. And it's only been in
32:58
the last four or five years
33:00
of my life where I've realized that
33:03
if the only reason I'm living my
33:05
life a certain way is to
33:07
be looked at by certain people as
33:11
she's a good person, I'm still sacrificing
33:13
myself. I still don't know who I
33:15
am. I still don't know how I
33:17
want to live my life. So
33:20
really, that period of my life, I
33:22
think, served as a reference
33:25
point for me to reflect back on
33:27
every time that I'm like, oh, there's
33:30
this area that I need to explore.
33:32
Because during those years, I learned things
33:34
about this that I know now aren't
33:36
true. I want to talk
33:38
to you a little bit about writing
33:40
and what words have meant to you.
33:42
You've talked about finding solace
33:45
in poetry, in
33:47
journaling, the stories from your father's
33:49
bookshelves. You zeroed it out
33:51
there for seven years. I'd like
33:53
to hear you talk about your
33:56
discovery of language and
33:59
words and how they, well,
34:01
I won't put words in your mouth. You tell me what they
34:04
became to you, what poetry became to
34:06
you, because then I wanna pick
34:08
that back up later because of course now this
34:11
is your life's work. You
34:13
are now building a life out of
34:15
meaningful words. And so can you
34:18
talk about the onset of that sort of
34:20
the origin story? And then let's
34:22
fast forward because you just mentioned your
34:24
students, but this is a
34:26
part of your story I really wanna
34:29
hear more about. So my earliest memories
34:31
of exposure to language was with my
34:33
grandma who was no longer
34:35
with us. She passed away in 2007. It
34:39
was the year after I fully moved to Canada.
34:42
And where we lived in Lebanon, our
34:44
home was the family home. So my
34:47
grandma, my dad's mom lived with us.
34:49
And Lebanon, where we
34:51
lived, it was a very peaceful
34:53
life. So part of
34:55
that experience was that we didn't
34:57
have power for half
34:59
the day. So it was
35:02
four hours on, four hours off. So it
35:04
was every other night that you had power.
35:06
So that meant every other night
35:08
you had access to TV and
35:10
every other night you didn't. So I remember
35:13
sitting with my grandma
35:15
on our balcony or
35:17
next to the fireplace if it was
35:19
winter time and she would just tell
35:21
me stories of the
35:24
prophets or stories
35:26
that she heard from her mom
35:28
to stories that had meaningful
35:30
lessons. We also lived
35:33
right next to a mosque. And
35:35
for those who don't know, the call to prayer
35:38
comes out five times a day. And in
35:40
certain parts of the world, if the majority of
35:43
the population in the area is Muslim, right
35:45
before that call to prayer, they will
35:47
play a few verses from the Quran.
35:49
And the Quran is
35:52
extremely poetic, like extremely poetic.
35:54
There's a lot of play
35:57
on words and I would share it in
35:59
Arabic. the Arabic language
36:01
is extremely powerful in
36:03
the weight of the words. So
36:07
my grandma would explain certain things
36:09
to me and there's a lot
36:12
of verses on patience and being
36:14
a good person and expressing
36:17
yourself to people in a better way
36:19
than they express themselves to you and
36:21
just always being pure hearted. So I
36:24
would hear that and then when
36:26
I would get into the car with my dad, he
36:29
would have songs by like
36:31
really old singers who back
36:34
in the day they sang
36:36
poetry like it was
36:38
so huge to have a poet
36:40
who's really well known right of 15
36:43
minutes song for you or a whole hour song
36:45
and so my dad had that on all the
36:48
time. So I would listen to words and then
36:50
my dad had a whole wall in our
36:52
house from, you know, from
36:55
the top of the wall to
36:57
the ground. It was just books upon books. I
37:00
would sit on the floor, grab any book, had a
37:02
lot of like history books, philosophy books, poetry books. And
37:05
again, the Arabic language is
37:07
extremely poetic. So I would read
37:10
poetry. I would read history. I would
37:12
read fiction. And
37:14
my dad was really good at just
37:16
always buying me books. And so that
37:19
was my first exposure. And
37:22
then in school, because
37:24
I attended also an Islamic school,
37:26
which it's really interesting how that
37:28
kind of propelled my
37:31
journey into writing like the
37:33
poeticness. But at
37:35
the same time, I'm discovering so
37:37
much conditioning that there are layers
37:39
that I've shed from that education.
37:43
But the one beautiful thing that
37:45
I carried on was the
37:47
poetry, the strong meaning
37:50
that words can hold and the power
37:52
that words can hold. So
37:54
I would have these classes where certain
37:56
verses would be explained and it was
37:59
like breathing. to me to
38:02
hear words being like
38:04
talked about, about their history
38:06
and where they came from and when
38:08
they were first used. And so
38:11
when the time came for
38:13
me to start
38:16
writing about my own story and my
38:18
own suffering, my own experience, it
38:21
literally felt like this
38:23
was something I'd known how to do for
38:26
the last hundred years.
38:28
Like it didn't feel like I
38:31
had to sit and learn. People get shocked
38:33
when they know that I did my undergrad
38:35
in science. I didn't take
38:37
language. I took a couple
38:40
of language courses, but I
38:43
didn't take anything that taught me
38:45
how to write. So spending time
38:48
being exposed to the language and also
38:51
being able to hear
38:53
the music that was coupled
38:55
with the poetry and just
38:57
getting that, not
38:59
just a feeling of being heard,
39:02
but also a feeling of, wow,
39:04
like I can express myself that
39:06
way. That really
39:08
built me as a writer
39:10
over the years. And I didn't see
39:12
myself that way. Even after I published my
39:15
first book, I didn't
39:17
see myself as a writer because to me it
39:19
was like, this is just who I am. This
39:21
is how I think. Totally. And
39:24
so when you moved to Canada
39:26
and you hung up your pen for seven
39:29
years, did you miss it? Did you
39:31
miss it? Did you miss writing? Did you, or
39:34
were you in such a survival
39:36
space that you couldn't even access
39:38
the things that you loved? I
39:40
was really in that survival space
39:43
where I don't remember missing writing.
39:46
I remember actually actively
39:48
avoiding being in that space.
39:51
The closest I got to it was
39:53
listening to music that helped me feel
39:56
like I was heard and seen, but that was it.
39:58
So let's... fast forward
40:00
then seven years later, when
40:03
you say, I had my first
40:06
group of students. So these were
40:08
specific students, students that you understood,
40:10
students whose stories made sense to
40:12
you. And so let's
40:15
pick it up there with both this
40:17
new space in your
40:19
life. And then
40:22
also the onboarding of writing
40:24
again. So
40:27
these students were refugees from
40:30
Libya, the war had just broken out
40:32
there, they came, they didn't speak a
40:34
word of English, there were eight of
40:36
them. And it was my first year
40:38
of teaching. And I remember exactly where
40:40
we were standing in the hallway of the
40:43
school where the principal
40:45
said to me, these kids are your responsibility for
40:47
the year, you're going to teach them the
40:49
language, you're going to teach them everything about
40:52
life in Canada and in the
40:54
Canadian classroom. And I remember just looking
40:57
at them and they're just, they're looking
40:59
up like I
41:01
had a feeling like they were
41:04
saying, save us.
41:06
Of course, how old were they more
41:09
or less? They ranged from grade two
41:11
to grade eight. So
41:14
there was a whole range of them,
41:16
almost every grade in between. And all
41:19
over from all over the world. So
41:22
all of them were from Libya, they were two
41:25
families. Yes, there was one
41:27
family of two and then the
41:29
rest were all part of another
41:31
family. And the oldest one in
41:33
particular, the grade eight student, I, you
41:36
know, I still keep in touch, her
41:38
name is Tess Neem. She is so
41:40
intelligent. And the struggle she
41:43
had was that she
41:45
was always the top of her class back
41:47
home. And now she was in this place
41:49
where she didn't understand the language. She
41:51
couldn't prove to her teacher that she was
41:53
really good at math. She
41:56
couldn't really prove that she was
41:58
good at language or that she was good
42:00
at writing because she wasn't being tested
42:02
in the language that she knew. And
42:06
so I resonated with her
42:08
experience quite a bit because I felt
42:10
like I knew so much about
42:12
life. I knew so much about feeling. I
42:15
knew so much about the right way that
42:17
things could be, but I felt like because
42:19
I was so young, who's going to listen
42:21
to me? And so that
42:23
fight to prove that I know things,
42:25
I resonated with that with her. And
42:29
so sitting down every
42:31
day, seeing those kids go through
42:33
these experiences where they were
42:35
being treated very
42:38
visibly, like differently from
42:40
everybody else, I
42:42
was like the activist. I stepped
42:44
into that role to advocate for
42:47
them, to make sure
42:49
that no one hurt them in
42:51
any way, that no one treated them as
42:53
less than other people. And
42:57
like I said, I was doing that
42:59
to myself, to younger versions of me
43:01
without being aware, but it clicked one
43:03
day, that that's what I was
43:06
doing. So seeing
43:08
them every single day and holding
43:10
the emotions that they had coming
43:14
into school and leaving school and throughout
43:16
the day woke
43:18
me up to the fact
43:20
that education never really was
43:23
about learning facts. Like
43:25
you are looking at human beings and
43:27
you are, it's your
43:30
responsibility to make
43:32
sure that they are treated fairly
43:34
and justly and that they are
43:38
equipped with all the tools to be
43:40
able to reach whatever it is that
43:42
they want. It's not just about grades.
43:45
It's not just, so it transformed me
43:47
as an educator, but also transformed
43:49
me as a human.
43:51
So when I started writing these short
43:53
snippets to inspire them and other
43:57
reflection on my day with them, I was sharing
43:59
that with you. them on a blog and
44:01
then you know here and there
44:03
I would share them on my Facebook page and
44:05
it's so funny to look at now because like
44:07
some posts have like three likes you know and
44:10
somebody would look at that now and
44:12
be like really like wow but
44:15
then I had certain teachers and certain parents
44:17
say like we love those writings we
44:19
just wish they were all in one
44:21
place and so that's when I was like
44:23
okay maybe all self-published I had no
44:25
knowledge of the publishing world
44:28
I was doing my master's in education
44:30
at the time I didn't think I'm
44:33
a writer but I took that step
44:36
and yeah and the rest is history
44:38
now my sixth book just came out
44:42
yeah I mean that's
44:44
quite a leap from the
44:47
self-published book
44:49
of writings that got three
44:51
likes on Facebook to what
44:53
you have now and you
44:55
have built not just a
44:57
writing career you've built a community you
45:00
have built a space online that
45:03
is gotta be beyond
45:06
what you could have
45:08
imagined the scope of your influence
45:10
the scope frankly of your leadership
45:12
I know poets don't like to
45:14
say think of it in terms
45:16
of leadership poets are poets but
45:18
it is leadership and you are
45:20
leading people toward their own healing
45:22
process toward their own sense
45:25
of reclaiming autonomy and
45:27
I'd like to hear writer
45:29
to writer how
45:32
that felt and what
45:35
happened from a self-published
45:37
first book how did this catch
45:40
how did how did you catch this lightning in a
45:42
bottle it
45:46
was social media I
45:48
remember the first few months
45:50
I sold like a few hundred
45:53
copies of my first book Mind Flatter
45:55
and then I remember one day waking
45:58
up and I had like ten thousand new followers.
46:00
And I was like, well, where did this come
46:02
from? I think at
46:04
the time, Leanne Rimes had
46:06
shared a page from my
46:08
book. And Lisa
46:11
Rinna, who's one of the Real
46:13
Housewives of, she
46:15
also shared a page from my book.
46:17
And then Hilary Swank
46:20
followed me and, and
46:22
I sent her a copy of the book. So it was like,
46:25
it felt like it
46:27
was meant to happen because
46:29
it happened organically. And
46:32
all I needed to do was
46:35
put the writings out there. And, and as
46:37
long as people read them, they were going
46:39
to share them with the people that they
46:41
cared about or that they thought this, this
46:43
would resonate with this person. And it
46:46
just, over time, it just
46:48
snowballed. And that's
46:51
when I started taking things more and more
46:53
seriously. And I remember when
46:55
I first got contacted by a publisher, the
46:59
first offer that they sent me, I
47:01
remember laughing at it because I
47:04
was making more money per month than
47:06
their offer. And
47:09
it just, with
47:11
time and up to this point, I'm like, wow,
47:14
I was really good at what I was doing. You know,
47:17
it was just, I feel like it was meant to
47:19
be. And I know some people
47:21
don't like to hear that, but that
47:24
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you talk about the
50:03
internal work you had to do
50:06
in order to step into
50:10
your own agency. You've talked about how
50:12
that was just something withheld from you,
50:14
really your whole life. You just did
50:16
not have autonomy. You didn't. You
50:19
didn't have independence. So much was
50:21
out of your control, virtually everything.
50:24
The adults in your life made decisions for
50:26
you with or without your input
50:28
or whatever. And
50:31
so this idea that all of a sudden,
50:33
as a young adult, I mean, you were
50:35
in your 20s, all
50:37
of a sudden you are working
50:41
from a place of clear autonomy. I
50:43
mean, even mentioning moving out of your
50:45
parents' house, which was a cultural break
50:48
from the norm. So I
50:50
just like to hear that whole thing because
50:53
nobody could do that for you except for
50:55
you. There's not enough external validation to make
50:58
that all work. I know even
51:00
though that is a temporary solve, it won't
51:02
do the deep stuff. So what
51:04
was that process like for you? Yeah, I
51:07
was having a conversation with my friend,
51:10
Safan, not too long ago where he
51:12
said to me, I honestly don't think
51:14
you realize what
51:16
you've been through in your life. He's like, I
51:18
look at your life as an outsider. And I
51:21
think, wow, she
51:23
moved out. She took her hijab
51:25
off. She wrote a book
51:28
and another book and another book and
51:30
another book and another book. She changed
51:33
her whole career path. She stood
51:35
up against a whole community of
51:37
people who were trying to bring
51:39
her down for speaking her truth. He's like,
51:42
I really don't think you realize how much
51:44
courage you have. And I
51:46
remember when he said that to me, I
51:48
started crying because to me,
51:54
there was no other choice in
51:57
those moments. It was always. I'm
52:00
either gonna do this thing or
52:02
I'm gonna completely suffocate. I can't
52:04
exist in this environment anymore with
52:07
this reality. It felt like I
52:09
got to a point where it was my breaking point
52:12
at every single point
52:14
where I made these really big decisions
52:16
when really, and I reflected about this a
52:19
lot and the only constant is I
52:21
always had a choice. It was just
52:23
easier for me to say, this
52:26
is the only choice I have to
52:28
not own my decision because I thought
52:31
owning it meant that I'm
52:34
admitting what the
52:36
accusations from the outer world was.
52:38
So to me, it was like, no, I had to
52:40
do this. I had to do it for
52:42
my own survival, but it's like, no,
52:44
Nezul, you chose the right thing for
52:47
yourself, own it.
52:50
So I think what happened, because I
52:52
worked a lot with my therapist, I
52:54
worked with a somatic therapist on
52:57
just tuning in and understanding what
52:59
it was. And we isolated
53:01
that what it
53:04
was that was present at
53:07
every single moment when I made a big
53:09
decision like that for my life was
53:12
my inner wisdom, my
53:14
authenticity stepping forward and
53:16
saying, I'm taking the lead right now.
53:19
It was my inner knowing of what
53:21
was right for me, my inner trust
53:24
of what was right for me. And it
53:26
was like, that was a non-negotiable thing.
53:28
I wasn't willing to sit
53:31
with anybody and negotiate certain things
53:33
about my life, which is weird
53:36
because my whole life,
53:39
I look at myself as a people
53:41
pleaser. I look at myself as somebody
53:43
who's like, I can't handle disappointing someone.
53:45
I can't handle disappointing my family. I
53:47
can't, but it got to
53:49
a point where I
53:51
was definitely willing to do
53:54
that because I
53:56
knew that any other path, I was
53:58
so aware. that continuing
54:00
to live my life in a certain
54:03
way meant that
54:05
I was gonna be suffering so much
54:07
and I wasn't willing to suffer in
54:09
that way. I
54:11
read something you wrote, I think it was on
54:13
Instagram, but you said
54:15
something like, this
54:18
is a terrible paraphrase, I'm so sorry. It's okay,
54:20
it's okay. Fix it at will, but something like,
54:23
let your world revolve around you because
54:25
if it doesn't, it will end up
54:27
revolving around everyone else. And I thought,
54:29
oh my God, that's how it
54:31
works. You said it exactly right. Did I?
54:34
Yes, you did. As such a
54:37
powerful truth, and
54:39
as girls and women,
54:43
I mean, even though you and I were raised
54:45
in two different cultures, I for sure got the
54:47
message that my life was not supposed to revolve
54:49
around me. That was
54:52
selfish and that was
54:54
myopic, that wasn't for the greater good,
54:56
but the truth is it actually is for
54:58
the greater good because
55:00
when we are operating
55:02
authentically and living
55:05
out of that deep sense of
55:07
truth and what is
55:09
right and what is good, that's good for everyone around
55:11
us. It's better for
55:13
them, frankly, than whatever version of
55:15
ourself when we are just contorting
55:17
to everyone's expectations. And
55:19
so I would like to hear
55:22
you talk before we go about
55:24
The Only Constant. This is your most
55:26
recent book. And
55:28
tell us about it. And how
55:30
is this one unique? What about this
55:33
one do you love the most? And what are you
55:35
hoping that your readers get
55:37
to walk away with? Yeah,
55:39
so let your
55:41
world revolve around you. It's actually
55:43
one of the sections in The
55:45
Only Constant that I wrote about.
55:47
And another one is be the
55:49
center of your attention. To
55:52
me, The Only Constant represents
55:55
not only an invitation to
55:58
come back to yourself. That was also... an
56:00
invitation and welcome home. The
56:02
only constant is also about
56:05
inviting you to
56:08
navigate your way in the world
56:10
where you know that
56:12
based on your actions, the people
56:14
around you are going to react a certain
56:17
way. They're going to resist your
56:19
growth. One other point is
56:21
don't negotiate your change with people who want you
56:23
to stay the same. Let
56:26
go of past versions of you
56:28
that hold you to
56:30
an inauthentic version or to
56:33
an inauthentic reality of yours. To me,
56:35
the only constant is about not only
56:37
learning to navigate a change that happens
56:39
to you or the change that you
56:42
choose or a change that you need
56:44
to make in order to live an authentic
56:46
life, but it's also about how do you
56:49
stick to that change and how do you
56:51
make it with conviction and how do you
56:53
navigate going on a path
56:55
that you've never navigated before and trusting
56:58
in your ability to get through
57:01
it? How do you navigate the
57:03
uncertainty? How do you navigate the
57:05
fear? How do you look
57:07
at yourself as the leader of
57:09
your life? The most empowering
57:12
message that I hope
57:15
if a person walks away with anything after
57:17
they read the only constant, it's this.
57:21
It is true that life is constantly
57:23
changing. The only constant in life is
57:25
change, but there is
57:27
one truth that the only constant in
57:30
your life is you. You are the
57:32
person who's been with you since the
57:34
moment you were born. So if there's
57:37
one person whose experience you should sit
57:39
with and have compassion for, it's yourself.
57:42
If there's one person who you need to believe
57:44
in, it's yourself. If there's one
57:46
person that you need to trust in
57:48
leading you to a certain destination, it's
57:51
you. And if there's one person that you need
57:54
to give grace to when they
57:56
mess up, when they get to the wrong
57:58
destination, they need to make a change. change,
58:00
they need to take a detour, whatever it
58:02
is, it's you. If
58:04
there's one person that you need to say,
58:08
you know what, we're going to
58:10
work on you right now. We're
58:12
not going to work on trying to change how
58:15
everybody else thinks of you. It's
58:17
you. So to
58:19
me, the only constant is
58:21
a guide to navigating those
58:24
three big types of changes. Changes we don't
58:26
choose, changes we choose, and changes we need
58:29
to make. And how
58:32
do we actually transform our entire
58:34
life into one where change
58:37
is not only something that we
58:39
have to deal with, but something
58:41
that we choose for ourselves, something
58:43
that we celebrate, something that we say,
58:47
this is something that I actually enjoy.
58:50
Yeah. So good.
58:53
So powerful. There's nobody in
58:56
the whole world for whom that
58:58
doesn't apply. No one. Every
59:00
one of us will experience change by
59:03
choice, by force, by necessity,
59:05
picket, but all of them. So
59:08
this is timely, just
59:10
such a good message. I'm so
59:12
delighted that you keep
59:15
putting your gifts into the world because it's a
59:18
labor. It's a labor. It's not just a labor of writing
59:21
and tasking, and it's an
59:23
emotional labor because you dig
59:25
deep for all of this. And this comes
59:28
out of your lived experience, which
59:31
is a lift, sometimes a really
59:33
heavy lift to go back into to
59:36
parse out for your community and for your readers.
59:38
And so I see that and I understand that
59:42
cost and I'm
59:44
grateful that you are
59:47
courageous enough to continue to do it. So
59:50
will you just tell my folks before
59:52
you sign off, where's the best places
59:54
to find you, to follow you, to get
59:56
a hold of everything you've written, all of
59:58
that. Thank you. The first I
1:00:00
just wanna say you are so kind
1:00:02
and I really appreciate you taking the
1:00:05
time to speak to me And I
1:00:07
also really appreciate the work that you
1:00:09
are putting out into the world because
1:00:11
it's. Very. Very necessary and I
1:00:13
see. The millions of
1:00:15
lives that you've definitely change so
1:00:18
I hope you are proud and
1:00:20
kill people can find me. Wherever.
1:00:23
They are on social media. My handle
1:00:25
is at Nas was a the and.
1:00:28
He. Can find the only constant wherever books
1:00:30
are sold them. You can probably find so
1:00:32
many of my videos wherever you look for
1:00:34
them. So if you feel like anything helps
1:00:37
you, if you like my voice you can
1:00:39
listen to the books as an audio in
1:00:41
my voice and yeah and I hope it
1:00:43
changes your life. Save
1:00:45
our round all that up for you
1:00:48
in one spot of hurdling capsule everything
1:00:50
for your one stop shop of a
1:00:52
very left for said everybody gets this
1:00:54
every guest, every series against or however
1:00:56
you want There's what you can answer
1:00:59
it sincerely and earnestly or just outrageously
1:01:01
an absurdly and it's dealer's choice at
1:01:03
bar this question from a pre sale
1:01:05
of and she said. What?
1:01:07
Is saving your life right now. You.
1:01:11
Know the first answer that came
1:01:13
as soon as he finished that
1:01:15
question one me. Me:
1:01:18
My authenticity. It's.
1:01:20
Not easy. Because.
1:01:23
I feel that. With
1:01:25
the awareness of your work.
1:01:28
And. The awareness of the kind of life
1:01:30
that you know you want to live in.
1:01:32
You deserve to live. You.
1:01:35
Will become extremely sensitive.
1:01:37
To environments and people that don't serve
1:01:39
the back. Which means you're going ago.
1:01:42
I had a bit of emotional turmoil
1:01:44
and you might be made to feel.
1:01:47
Like. That means something is wrong with you.
1:01:49
Why are you reacting so much? Go.
1:01:51
Back to yourself and
1:01:53
actually think. That part of
1:01:55
you that is saying. This. Is
1:01:58
not for us. So. I feel for. that's
1:02:00
what I'm going through right now.
1:02:02
That is good. That is
1:02:04
a strong ending. Perfect.
1:02:07
All right. Well, I am just cheering
1:02:09
for you and I hope this is
1:02:11
your most successful book yet, that it goes far
1:02:13
and wide. I'm so excited to put it in
1:02:15
the hands of my readers and my community. And
1:02:17
just thanks for your time today. Your time
1:02:19
is so valuable and I'm so grateful to
1:02:22
have spent an hour with you. I just
1:02:24
am going to be thinking about so many
1:02:26
things you said for so
1:02:28
long. So thanks for
1:02:30
being here. So kind. Aww, thank
1:02:32
you for having me. All
1:02:45
right, you guys. Didn't I tell you
1:02:47
like they're kind of at the grand finale
1:02:49
when she was talking about change and being
1:02:51
the leader of our own lives and trusting
1:02:53
her. I'm like, I wanted
1:02:55
to wave my hanky. Like there it is.
1:02:57
Like that's it. That is
1:02:59
it. Really powerful
1:03:02
lessons from a really
1:03:04
truly lived life. And I
1:03:06
always trust storytellers who
1:03:08
have lived it. Didn't just
1:03:11
learn about it. Right. So
1:03:13
as promised, if you go to jenhatmaker.com
1:03:15
under the podcast tab, I'll
1:03:17
have this whole episode. This is a good one to
1:03:19
share, but I will round up
1:03:21
for you everything Nejwa related all
1:03:23
of her socials links to
1:03:26
her books and her
1:03:28
academy and her podcast, just everything.
1:03:30
So you can find everything in
1:03:33
one place and looking forward to
1:03:35
hearing back from you on this one and
1:03:37
what you are learning and how this, how these
1:03:39
types of lessons are finding you at your
1:03:41
stage of life. We always love your feedback.
1:03:43
We read everything that you say, every
1:03:47
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1:03:55
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1:04:00
serve you and I hope that you are loving this
1:04:02
series on change as much as I am. It's moved
1:04:04
me truly and meant a lot
1:04:06
to me right now and so thanks
1:04:09
for being here you guys. We sure do love you and
1:04:11
we'll see you next week.
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