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encouraging meaningful conversation. This
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is fresh air. I'm Terry Gross.
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My guess, Mark Maron, has a new HBO
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comedy special called from bleak to
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Dark'. And if the title isn't enough
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of a clue about the tone of the show, here's
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how it starts. I
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don't
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wanna be negative, but I
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don't think anything's ever gonna get better
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ever again. I
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won't bump anybody out, but I think this is pretty
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much the way it's gonna be for however
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long it takes us to polish his planet off.
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There's a lot of bleak subjects Maron deals
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with like climate change, threats from
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the far right, antisemitism, and
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his toxic relationship with his father who
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now has dementia. The darkest
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part of his life has been the death of his girlfriend,
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the TV and movie director, Lynn Shelton,
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before becoming a couple They'd worked together.
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She directed episodes of his series Maron,
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the series he co starred in Glow, and
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the movie sort of trust. She
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died in twenty twenty unexpectedly of
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a previously undiagnosed case of
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acute myeloid leukemia. From
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bleak to dark as Maryann's fifth comedy
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special, his first for HBO. He's
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famous as a comic, but in the past few years,
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he's been acting in more movies, MTV,
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including Glow, where he played the coach
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of a women's wrestling team, Joker,
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where he was the producer of a late night show
1:48
hosted by Robert DeNiro's character,
1:50
and respect, playing Jerry Wexler,
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the famous Atlantic Records producer who
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helped Aritha translate her sound
1:56
and style into solo music hits. And
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now, Maron co starring in the film
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to Leslie as the manager of a
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motel who helps a woman addicted
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to alcohol. Maron
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podcast WTF is the first one
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on one podcast episode inducted
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into America's national recording registry.
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Dark', welcome back to Fresh Air. It is so good to
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talk with you again, and I have to start by saying
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I really love your
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special.
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Well, it's good to talk to you too, Terry. It's been
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a while. It seems to me that
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was not an easy special to
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do. I mean, what's the old expression comedy?
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Is tragedy plus time? So
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when and why did you start thinking it's
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time to turn the worst thing that's ever happened
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to you, the death of Lynn Shelton, into
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something you wanted to talk about in
2:43
a comedy show. Did you feel like if
2:45
you didn't talk about it, you'd be hiding
2:48
an essential thing about who you are now?
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Yeah. Of course. It was already
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public, and and I already addressed
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it on my podcast in a very painful broadcast
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that I chose to do days after
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she passed away, you know, just out of respect
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for what we do and out of respect for her.
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And and and it was kinda
3:07
crazy. So if you listen to my podcast
3:09
and and you were put through that
3:11
raw uncontrollable grief
3:14
that I chose to make public, you
3:17
knew what was going on. And and then
3:19
over time, Yeah.
3:21
I mean, I felt like it would be wrong.
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I mean, I because there was part of me that wanted
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to share the experience, of
3:28
grief or my my
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feelings that I had within grief
3:33
because I thought it would help people. I I wasn't
3:36
it really was something more selfless than
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I think I'd done. I think there is not
3:40
a very broader public cultural dialogue
3:43
around grief. And around loss. And
3:46
it's something that everyone's going to deal with.
3:48
Everyone is going to deal with
3:49
it. You said that when things get
3:51
hard, you go mystical. What have you done
3:54
to get through this period? You're not religious. You've
3:56
been sober since two thousand nine, so you can't have
3:58
a shot or glass of wine or cocaine.
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And during much of the past two years,
4:04
you couldn't even socialize and see friends
4:07
because of the COVID lockdown.
4:09
So what helped you get
4:11
through the initial
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period of
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grief? The the rawest period
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of grief? What did you turn to you? Well,
4:19
it was so isolating because, you
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know, sadly, you know,
4:24
her and I weren't together long enough publicly
4:28
or or in our in our relationship.
4:30
We've known each other for years, but as
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as partners to I didn't know
4:35
her family, really. You
4:38
know, I'd met them at film festivals once or
4:40
twice, a couple of them but but didn't know
4:42
them. There was no relationship there. And it was
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just I mean, what
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I was managing when that
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happened is, like, if I hadn't asked
4:51
her, you know, I I they were
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taking her away, you know, in the
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ambulance when she she collapsed,
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after really a very quick it
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was not even it was like a week of of,
5:03
you know, extreme extreme
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flu symptoms. And and when they
5:07
were taking her away, I said, you know, give me your
5:09
phone, and she said, like, I need my phone. And I said, well,
5:11
give me the code. And I don't know why, but I
5:14
she gave me the code. And and if she
5:16
hadn't done that, I don't know what would have
5:18
happened. I mean, they because she was unconscious
5:20
by the time she got to the hospital and she was fighting
5:22
for her life the rest of that day, and I
5:24
had to get on the phone with an
5:26
intensive care nurse and say,
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well, here's the code, you know, get me
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some shout ins because I don't know
5:33
her people. And when she went into the hospital,
5:35
she listed me as the point of contact, because she didn't
5:37
think she was gonna, you know, die. But
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I felt it necessary to have her her family
5:42
really to to take the lead in in handling
5:45
a lot of this stuff. So initially,
5:48
leading up to her passing was just
5:50
devastating. And then my brother came out
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And, you know, he
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stayed for, like, two weeks, and we had to, you know,
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go through her stuff. So that was devastating
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but oddly engaging and and somewhat
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distracting in the midst of, you know,
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just being shattered and and crying,
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you know, all the time and on and off.
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And then we also had some sort of shiva
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experience happening like the next day
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after she passed, Mikayla Watkins had
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put together like a Zoom thing where people
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it was almost too soon in a way and very
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awkward. And and, you know, it was there
6:23
that I started to feel a certain insecurity
6:25
around my relationship with her because there were people
6:27
that have known her for decades. She has you
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know, AAA husband and a son
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and all these old friends. And I just felt
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like, you know, like, I'm I'm just like, I
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don't I didn't I didn't have that long with her, and
6:37
and I'm the guy that she died with and it felt
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like a horrible weight and
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it just added to the
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sadness and and but
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but ultimately, what
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helped me in isolation and
6:52
helped me deal with things? Is that my
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community reached out in a way that I never
6:56
thought because it was public. And
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I got, you know, I got phone calls from so
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many people that, you know,
7:03
I barely knew you know,
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in in in comedy
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and and show business and and
7:09
everybody really, you
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know, reached out. They sent food some
7:14
people kind of came over
7:16
despite the COVID and, you know, some of
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my, you know, I remember that Alison Brie
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from from Glow, she came over and and
7:23
she, you know, we it was
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it was a weird time because, you know,
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there there was this sense that even hugging
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was somehow life threatening, you know. Yeah.
7:32
And also, I I got into the habit of
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doing these Instagram lives every day
7:36
where where I felt a a need to have
7:38
an audience or to engage because there was no
7:40
way there's no one I couldn't I was
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alone over here. So that became
7:44
sort of essential and peculiar because
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I was doing basically some version of
7:49
a morning show from my
7:51
porch every day. Sometimes
7:54
'From an hour and a half a day, I would
7:56
have, you know, five, six hundred live
7:58
viewers and, you know, we would play music. I
8:00
would be angry. I'd talk about politics. I'd
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talk about grief. You know, I would, you know,
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we you know, play records and, you know, play
8:07
with the cats. And and it I think
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it worked two ways and it also was
8:12
the beginning of the
8:14
process of understanding showing
8:16
up for other people without knowing it. Is that
8:18
know, it is the middle. No one was going out, and I
8:20
had this strange audience of other
8:23
people who were alone in their homes. And
8:25
they they became sort of regulars,
8:28
and they they became very
8:29
grateful, and it became a community. And
8:32
that sort of, like, in a lot of ways,
8:34
you know, got
8:34
me through oddly. Did
8:36
you do things to try to, like,
8:39
send to yourself or calm yourself that
8:41
you'd previously been dismissive of?
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Sure. I I tried meditating. I got
8:45
into routines around
8:48
that. Ultimately,
8:50
it was just it was about sort of staying
8:52
busy and staying engaged and talking to
8:54
people, you know, like my my buddy Sam
8:56
Lipson, you know, with him and I established this
8:58
sort of daily phone call and
9:01
it was sort of a beautiful thing, you know, right from
9:03
the beginning, like, soon after
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she passed him and I would talk on the
9:07
phone every night, you know, 'From, like, at least
9:09
an hour, you know, to keep that connection.
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And I had I had other friends that I
9:13
was in touch
9:14
with, but, you know, Sam really stepped up and and
9:16
we still we still do it really, not as often,
9:18
but pretty frequently. So
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you live alone. And
9:23
you've you've lived alone a long time. And
9:25
I I know even during part of your relationship
9:27
with with Lynn before before
9:30
she passed that you were sometimes living
9:32
alone but being gather most of the time,
9:34
but you had your own
9:35
places. Are you good at being alone?
9:38
Do
9:38
you love it? Yeah. Uh-huh. Talk to
9:40
me little bit about that. About what
9:42
the value is for you of being alone
9:45
and what your need is to connect with people
9:47
and and how you balance all that. I
9:49
I don't know, but to, you know, I've just
9:52
been so fortunate in not having children.
9:54
And and so fortunate in
9:57
in in somehow turning my career
10:00
around at some point that I'm I'm I'm relatively
10:02
financially secure. And also
10:05
I've been through enough relationships and through
10:07
enough things to to kind of know myself,
10:09
you know, pretty well at this point. I imagine,
10:11
though, that yeah.
10:14
Who knows would have happened with Lynn and
10:16
I. But it was really the first time in my life I
10:18
had sort of relaxed into,
10:20
you know, what was an age appropriate relationship,
10:23
was a relationship based on respect and attraction
10:25
and and caring. And and,
10:27
you know, when she was here, she was spending
10:29
a lot of time here because it was the pandemic, and
10:31
it was nice to have a sort of
10:33
home base I imagine
10:36
that her and I in my fantasy
10:38
or or what I thought at the time that I'd really
10:40
found, you know, someone to
10:43
spend spend the rest of my life with. But
10:45
but who knows? So but
10:48
but for me, like, people ask me why
10:50
don't you get a a personal assistant? I'm like, Well,
10:53
what would I do with my life? I
10:55
mean, I I like going the
10:57
post office. I like going the record store.
10:59
I'll shop at two or three supermarkets a
11:01
day. Sometimes I'll book, you know, for hours,
11:04
just for myself or or for the
11:06
the woman I'm seeing now. I like
11:08
doing little things around the house. I
11:11
play guitar, I listen to records. All
11:13
I know, and and then I'm interviewing people
11:15
for the podcast is that by the end of any
11:17
day, I feel like I've had
11:19
a pretty full day by myself and
11:22
a pretty satisfying day generally by
11:24
myself. I just engage
11:27
with life. I like running errands. I
11:29
like going on hikes. don't know. It
11:31
doesn't it feels totally
11:33
satisfying. So I don't
11:35
know what that means about me. I can't,
11:37
you know, present myself as some
11:40
emotional wizard or some psychologically
11:43
stable person in
11:45
terms of relationships. But
11:47
I I just I
11:50
do a joke. Did I do it? I don't
11:52
think did it in the special where I say, look,
11:54
I know, you know, I'm self centered
11:56
person. I know I'm I'm over sensitive.
11:58
I'm a little paranoid. I'm not great at intimacy.
12:01
I know I can I'm prone to anger sometimes.
12:04
I know all these things about myself. I don't know
12:06
why I would need someone in my house telling me
12:08
them every couple of days. So
12:11
So you dropped in that answer, that you feel lucky
12:14
that you didn't have children. And
12:16
in your special, you talk about not having children
12:18
and that you never really wanted them and you say,
12:21
if you have kids, I can't begin to
12:23
tell you how great it would be if
12:26
you didn't. And I thought that
12:28
was really funny. But I was wondering when you wrote
12:30
that, did you think, like, I'm going to lose every
12:32
parent in my audience if I say
12:34
this? No, because
12:36
I I really believe, as I said,
12:38
I think, in the next line or two, that that
12:40
paradigm is sort of shifting in
12:43
that the people that don't
12:45
have kids. We're sort of looked at as sad,
12:47
you know, freakish people. But now, I can't
12:50
imagine what it would be like to have kids and try
12:52
to you know, give them any advice to
12:54
navigate this world that you know, most adults
12:56
don't even understand. And I don't I
12:58
I just I find that
13:01
it must be difficult and it must be
13:03
difficult every day. And and for
13:05
me, when I say that, I think it gets
13:07
a good laugh. I don't think I'm losing an audience.
13:09
I think that every parent, I
13:12
would say, probably eighty or ninety percent of
13:14
them really need relief from
13:17
parenting. And the fantasy of not having
13:19
kids on any given day is probably, you
13:21
know, pretty exciting and exciting prospect.
13:24
Not a possibility any longer, but
13:26
an exciting idea to to to have
13:28
a moment of of
13:29
reprieve with. When
13:31
you look at your friends who do have kids, what
13:33
do you think you may be missing out on?
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If anything. I think that
13:38
there is something that, you
13:40
know, stifles my emotional growth because
13:42
I don't have kids. And I
13:44
think that there's something about the selflessness
13:47
necessary and the type of love
13:49
that's available there that I'll never experience.
13:52
But I have sort of
13:54
a difficult time experiencing love with humans
13:57
in general. And so So,
14:00
like, I'm still kind of, like, trying to let
14:03
myself, you know, love in a way
14:05
just just to have a relationship. But
14:08
I I'm so terrified of it
14:10
and guarded in certain
14:11
ways. I mean, the the people that really get the best
14:13
of me are are audiences that I walk away
14:15
from.
14:15
Yeah. But that's that's crazy. You
14:17
know, like, because you're so intimate with audiences,
14:19
you reveal so much about yourself. But
14:21
it sounds like you have trouble doing that in real
14:24
life with somebody who you're actually
14:26
trying to be intimate
14:27
with. Trying to have an intimate relationship with.
14:29
You know, it's Dark'. And I do it with guests
14:31
too. It's like, really, if I didn't do the podcast
14:34
or comedy, I would have very little emotional
14:36
life.
14:38
So that yeah. Why why does it need
14:40
to be mediated
14:42
through you know, like a microphone
14:44
or or a
14:45
stage. That's one way to look at it. That
14:47
that it's the mediation. That's the benefit.
14:49
I I don't know. The benefit might be they leave.
14:52
So so I'm not sure
14:54
I'm not I'm not sure it's the public nature
14:56
of the expressing vulnerability, but that like,
14:59
okay, nice nice meeting you
15:01
people. I'm gonna go. Yeah.
15:03
Kinda like nice meeting you and don't really
15:05
know know who you are and you don't really
15:07
know who I am. Exactly. And we don't really have access
15:09
to each
15:09
other. That's right. This has been great. Good
15:12
night. Yeah. Yeah. Good night. I'm glad you
15:14
got so much out of that. I'm gonna go spend the other
15:16
twenty three hours of my day. But
15:19
But no, look, man. I mean, I
15:22
I'm I I am sort of getting
15:24
older and and something is giving
15:26
way and and I am trying to
15:29
to be a little more able
15:34
to allow myself to be
15:36
open and vulnerable. But I, you know, there's
15:38
a problem because I don't have yeah.
15:41
I grew up with with very
15:43
faulty emotional boundaries So
15:45
I couldn't keep anybody out. And, you know, and
15:47
my sense of self was threatened, you
15:50
know, for most of my life, you know, either
15:52
by, you know, my parents' needs or
15:54
or the relationship that I got into that were
15:56
destructive. So it's I really had
15:58
a shutdown at some point
16:00
in a fairly conscious way. And
16:03
now that sort of giving away and certainly
16:05
losing somebody you love in
16:09
the way that I did and that was really a different
16:11
type of love for me is kind of, you
16:13
know, force something open.
16:18
I don't know what exactly it
16:20
is, but you certainly look at life differently
16:22
when somebody passes like
16:25
that and and does so tragically.
16:28
And and and you realize how, like, impermanent
16:30
things When somebody die suddenly
16:33
and unexpectedly, you're you're totally
16:35
unprepared for it, So
16:37
did you make changes in your life after
16:39
thinking about how
16:42
how vulnerable people are and how
16:45
fragile life is and how impermanent? Sure.
16:49
I I think a a lot more about,
16:52
you know,
16:53
random ways I can die. Oh,
16:55
that's helpful. Yeah. Yeah.
16:58
Congratulations. That's just what you need. I
17:00
just really is already paranoid. Yeah.
17:03
I needed to grow like that, Terry. I needed to
17:05
really expand my imagination. So
17:07
every moment awake
17:10
is terrifying. Well,
17:13
I I think certainly coming through
17:15
it and and living
17:17
with the grief I do
17:20
believe that I'd like to find some joy.
17:22
I've I've really put a lot more thought
17:24
into, you know, stopping the compulsive
17:26
nature of how I work to live
17:29
in a way that's present and and has
17:31
some happiness in it because I don't know
17:33
that I I ever really did that.
17:35
So in that way, I think
17:38
that it makes me little more open
17:40
and little more available for
17:42
for some joy if if
17:44
if I'm capable of it. Because
17:46
Lynn was like like Lynn was
17:48
just exuded a sort
17:51
of positivity and joy and
17:53
was so charismatic. And
17:55
and and so kind of like all
17:58
about, you know, just living
18:00
and and showing up
18:03
and just excited, and she was
18:05
such a great laffer, you know.
18:07
And the fact that,
18:09
like, she loved me
18:11
because I didn't believe it for a long time. You know,
18:13
I really fought it. I fought her on that.
18:16
And but she
18:18
kind of persisted and and broke
18:20
me down and and I finally accepted
18:22
it. But I don't
18:24
think I'd be doing some of the stuff I'm doing
18:27
without her and my life. And and it
18:29
just so so happens that that some
18:31
of those things are are some of the things that
18:33
are you know, kind of, you
18:36
know, bringing me joy now. And I and I don't
18:38
think I would have felt confident to do
18:40
them without without her in my
18:42
life. What
18:42
kind of things are bringing you joy?
18:45
Well, you know, playing music
18:47
Yeah. Because you're performing now with your band.
18:49
Yeah. Didn't used to perform. I
18:51
was terrified of it and it was it made
18:53
me feel very vulnerable. But, like, I I got
18:55
some guys together. Jimmy Vovino plays with me
18:58
sometimes. Ned Brower Jonathan
19:00
Schwartzill, you know, these guys who
19:03
Flanagan over at Largo hooked me up with,
19:05
and and we, you know, we do shows there. You know, we've
19:07
done several shows where I kinda play
19:09
covers and sing, and and these guys
19:12
are are great musicians. And and it's just
19:14
I don't know. You know, it's made a big difference in my
19:16
life, but like Lynn, was
19:18
always telling me to play. We used to sing
19:20
together her and I sometimes, and we were
19:22
gonna do it more. And and
19:25
she loved it when I I used to sit in, like,
19:27
my friend Dean Delray used to do a evening
19:29
of ACDC once a year and I and
19:31
I would go jam. But she always was like, you gotta
19:33
play you gotta play more. And and, you
19:35
know, and now I'm doing it, and I really think it was
19:37
her belief and and her pushing me
19:40
to make me feel confident. And it's the same with acting,
19:42
you know. I I don't think that I
19:46
would have been as,
19:48
you know, I I don't think I would have had the courage
19:50
to do the acting in the way that I'm doing it.
19:53
Without Lynn's belief
19:55
in me. And even comedy, I mean, you know, Terry,
19:57
she directed the the two specials
19:59
before this one. And
20:02
you know, I trusted her implicitly with with
20:04
everything, you you know, I fought her sometimes as
20:07
a as a director because I'm a baby. But
20:10
but, you
20:10
know, she you know, she directed and
20:13
and informed n
20:15
times fund and and too
20:17
real, which were the two Netflix
20:20
specials before this HBO special.
20:23
Mark Marron's new HBO comedy special
20:25
bleak to dark is streaming on
20:28
HBO
20:28
Max. The show's theme music is performed
20:30
by Mark's band with Mark on guitar.
20:33
Here it is.
20:57
After a break, I'll be back with Mark Maron,
20:59
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22:07
Let's get back to my interview with Mark Maron.
22:09
His new HBO comedy special is
22:11
called Dark' Marron from bleak to
22:13
dark. It's streaming on HBO Max.
22:16
Maron has also been doing stand up comedy
22:18
for decades, but he's also now becoming
22:20
known for his acting. He played a version
22:22
of himself in the series, Maron, Co
22:24
starred in the series Glow as the coach of a
22:26
women's wrestling team. In Joker,
22:28
he played the producer of a late night TV
22:31
show hosted by Daenero's character In
22:33
the aretha biopic respect, he played
22:35
Jerry Wexler, and now he co stars
22:38
into Leslie. His new special
22:40
is very funny about very dark things,
22:42
climate change, supremism, anti
22:44
semitism, his toxic relationship with
22:46
his father, and the death of his girlfriend,
22:49
Lynn Shelton, in the spring of twenty twenty.
22:52
So I wanna talk with you about being Jewish but
22:54
not religious, and you have a really funny
22:56
bit about being Jewish in
22:58
your comedy show that I wanna play.
23:02
I guess I should make it clear that we have found
23:04
recently that there is actually something
23:06
that brings most people
23:07
together. It's anti Semitism. And
23:12
yeah.
23:14
And I'm saying that as a Jew. And as
23:17
it's you, I'm saying that we will
23:19
replace you. It's
23:28
It's happening. We're all part of it. We're doing
23:30
it. We're all doing our bit. You
23:33
you there's an app now we can replace you with.
23:36
And it's a commission thing. And how we get a
23:38
certain kickback
23:40
for the number of you replaced. I
23:43
talked to my brother last week, he replaced, like, seventy
23:45
six last week. And
23:47
every quarter, we get a check from global
23:50
control HQ. It's
23:52
got the cool logo with the planet and
23:54
the star David,
23:56
gold. Leaf around it, signed
23:58
by George Soros. It's
24:02
kinda cool. It's almost framable, but we
24:04
cash him. So And
24:08
I don't know. Like, I'm I'm not religious. I'm a
24:10
Jew. So And
24:17
there's a difference between Jews and Christians. Obviously, I
24:19
mean, I think if the relationship with God is different
24:21
if you look at the the the
24:23
testament, the old testament, it seemed like the
24:25
relationship with Jews in God was basically
24:28
what?
24:30
What what do you want me to do? Now.
24:36
Alright. Alright. Don't yell. Don't yell.
24:41
I love that. think that is so funny.
24:44
And I gotta be honest with you, Terry. I think I've been
24:46
doing some version of
24:48
these jokes since I've been doing comedy
24:50
and and since it's so
24:53
weird to me because for years, I
24:55
didn't even identify as a Jew on stage because
24:57
I didn't think there was a way to do it that wasn't
25:00
stereotyping. That, you know, all I
25:02
could see is, you know, like, you know,
25:04
like you know, like, Jacky Mason sort
25:06
like, a Jew when he goes on vacation, just
25:08
needs a place to sit up, you know. So
25:10
it's, like, I can't do that. And I can't but
25:12
all my heroes were were were those guys,
25:15
not him particularly, but Jewish comics.
25:17
And then at some point, it just became about,
25:21
you know, going over the top with
25:23
what non Jews believed conspiratorily
25:26
Jews were up to. So this theme and
25:28
even in end times fun, it's always sort of
25:30
been there because I think it's important
25:32
to identify especially
25:36
in the face of of antisemitism being
25:39
normalized culturally as
25:41
something that just exists among
25:44
us and that's
25:45
that. So I get
25:47
I get aggravated. And everybody's
25:50
upset. Like, you don't have to be Jewish about
25:52
Jews will not replace us. I mean,
25:54
it's just part of a larger trend
25:56
of, like, the normalizing of hatred
25:59
and racism and sexism
26:03
Yeah. Did your parents talk to you about anti
26:05
Semitism and were you dismissive because
26:07
you didn't necessarily see any around
26:09
you? Well, I think, you know, it was
26:11
always sort of drilled
26:14
in. I mean, I did go to Hebrew
26:16
School. We were conservative Jews. I was
26:18
BarMets foot. And we did,
26:20
you know, we were shown those movies
26:23
of, you know, piles of hair and
26:25
and
26:26
Of a pile of some kits. Yeah. Yeah. So
26:30
it was it was it's always been in
26:32
there. And and the the few times that I'd
26:34
encountered it was usually at a
26:36
a non Jewish summer camp. Where
26:39
we all had to bring AAA
26:41
patent boots and were assigned a horse
26:43
and a
26:43
gun. So I
26:46
have that part of my Jewish
26:48
You were a sign of a horse and a gun? Yeah.
26:51
Well, they were shooting. We we learned I I can
26:53
I know how to work a a shotgun shell loader,
26:55
and I can shoot at twenty two pretty good?
26:58
I grew up around guns because New Mexico,
27:00
they they kinda came with the territory. But, yeah, I
27:02
did go to a camp where you had to you had
27:05
to bring the Stetson, you had to bring boots,
27:07
and you were assigned horse, and you were gonna
27:09
shoot guns, and tie flies, and
27:11
fish for trout. Yeah. I I did
27:13
that. A brush ranch baby.
27:15
Brush ranch. How did it feel?
27:18
Fine. But I also went to a Jewish
27:20
camp and I also went to a music camp. I I've always
27:22
lived in these two worlds, Terry. Like, I
27:24
I went to that camp one summer, and then
27:26
I went to a tennis camp. And my parents just
27:29
wanted us out of the house. They're they would send us
27:31
to two camps in a summer. But I've always
27:33
had these two parts of me.
27:35
Well, you know, you and I were in the same
27:38
episode of finding your roots
27:39
the Henry Lewis Gates PBS show in
27:42
which they trace your ancestry through the help
27:44
of your DNA and also through these great
27:46
genealogical experts, they
27:48
do a lot of deep research. And this
27:50
was basically, like, finding your roots due
27:53
edition. Yeah. Exactly. It
27:55
was Yumi and Jeff Goldblum and the
27:57
the theme of the show was it was
27:59
called Beyond the Pale and it referred
28:01
to the Pale of Settlement, which was basically
28:03
the really large ghetto during the Russian
28:06
Empire in which Jews were allowed to live. And
28:08
it included parts of what is now like Belarus
28:10
and Ukraine and Poland. And
28:12
that's where all of our grandparents were
28:14
from. Yeah. Me and Jeff Goldman.
28:16
Yeah. And
28:17
Rachel, I mean
28:18
Yeah. They
28:19
were able to track he said they were able to track
28:21
my paternal lineage back further
28:23
than they ever got into the pellet settlement.
28:26
And I I found your lineage, like, so interesting
28:28
because on one side, your
28:30
your great great grandfather worked in,
28:32
like, the oil business. And I'm thinking of the
28:34
oil business. It was an oil business.
28:37
So apparently, like peasants which
28:40
probably included Jews were
28:43
allowed to do things like slip
28:45
the oil in in wagons or
28:47
something. And the oil then was used to
28:49
let grease wagon wheels. It
28:51
was in Galizia.
28:53
Yeah. Yeah. And then on the other side
28:55
of your family, it sounds like your great grandfather was
28:57
something of a a scoundrel or
29:00
Yeah. And
29:00
and what was it in South Carolina or something?
29:02
South Carolina. Yeah. Yeah. And so
29:05
he was in business with his son and his
29:07
son sued him, and one the
29:09
sun won fifty thousand dollars. And then there were about,
29:11
like, a dozen other lawsuits against your great
29:13
great grandfather for things like horse
29:15
lebri and selling
29:18
liquor illegally. And
29:21
I I wonder what it was like for you to find
29:23
out that you had
29:23
a, quote, colorful past.
29:27
To me, like, it it it kind of filled in
29:29
the gaps around my father's bipolar
29:31
behavior. I'm like, oh, this
29:33
is where he got it. From his great, great
29:35
grandfather on his mother's side, you know.
29:38
Because it seemed like the the behavior, you
29:40
know, it wasn't like he was running around robbing bank.
29:42
But it all seemed like stuff that could happen
29:44
in a manic episode. So
29:46
I I decided to frame it that way.
29:48
Oh, yeah. I refer to
29:51
it in the
29:51
special, you know, that that my my
29:53
void started in the heart of
29:55
it. Oh, yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Well,
29:57
the idea is that, you you know, if you have
29:59
an emotional void where your where your heart
30:01
should be able pass down, you
30:03
know, through generations and I say my void,
30:06
you can track your void on twenty three and me.
30:08
I found out that my void began
30:10
in the in the chest of a tailor's wife in
30:12
Belarus in the eighteen
30:13
hundreds. It's a ninety nine point nine percent
30:15
Ashkenazi void
30:17
We've all
30:17
been sitting in it for an hour. Yeah. And
30:20
Ashkenazi is a branch of of
30:22
of Jews. Yeah. So yeah.
30:24
Yeah. No. No. That that was great. Okay. I need
30:26
to reintroduce you again. So here
30:28
it comes. My guest is Mark Maron, and his new
30:30
HBO comedy special is called bleak
30:33
to
30:33
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30:35
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31:13
There's a story that you tell. In
31:17
oh, that actually, this was in one of our interviews
31:19
years
31:19
ago. I think
31:20
it was in the two thousand interview. What you
31:22
were telling a story on stage, a funny story
31:24
about somebody who seemed to have a very
31:26
unfortunate job. It was a miniature golf
31:29
TV show, and he was like -- Oh, yeah. -- the
31:31
host of it, you were thinking, like, how how awful
31:33
is this? Not even, like, golf. It's, like, miniature
31:36
golf. Yeah. And you and you make a joke about
31:38
who how he probably one home wanted to
31:40
kill
31:40
himself. Yeah. And somebody ran up
31:42
and tackled you on stage.
31:44
Yeah. And then was waiting for you afterwards
31:47
after the show and basically threatening
31:49
to beat you up. And what
31:51
you did was you put your arm around him,
31:54
took him aside, and
31:55
said, let's talk. And
31:57
you did. You talked. And you
31:59
resolved it. You asked him what was
32:01
so upsetting. He told you his brother had just
32:04
recently ended his life
32:06
by suicide. You told him
32:08
how upset you were to hear that.
32:11
He apologized to you, and you ended as,
32:13
like, to human beings being able to talk
32:15
it out. And I'm thinking with
32:17
all with, like, comics
32:20
being tackled on stage now, but also
32:23
just being canceled on Twitter. Like,
32:25
you can't take somebody on Twitter aside
32:27
and have a nice talk with them and resolve
32:29
it as like human to human. Somebody
32:32
cancels you on Twitter and then everybody retweets
32:34
it and suddenly everybody's canceling you
32:37
without any real human
32:39
interaction. So I
32:41
don't know. That's just my lead in into
32:43
wanting to get some of your thoughts about
32:46
cancellation and some of your friends being
32:48
canceled.
32:49
Yeah. I look,
32:51
I I don't it's scary ultimately,
32:55
especially you know, on Twitter,
32:57
you you know, if someone digs
32:59
up an old joke and it's taken out of
33:01
context --
33:02
Mhmm. -- and and some insanity
33:05
is created around it. Like,
33:07
look, I know that I'm saying a
33:09
lot of heavy stuff, you know, about,
33:12
you know, Christianity, about
33:14
whatever, the climate, but ultimately,
33:17
they're jokes. I think around
33:19
those tweets especially that
33:21
if someone does a joke, that is
33:24
insensitive to to trans
33:26
people or to gay people or to
33:29
race, that you have to
33:31
assume that the comedian was being
33:33
insensitive, but is not necessarily
33:36
a Nazi or someone who is,
33:38
you know, trying to to start
33:40
problems and they should be able
33:42
to speak their piece. And I've I've seen things
33:45
get out of control like that, and and
33:47
they don't get an opportunity to speak their piece.
33:49
But also, when you do say
33:51
things, there are consequences and
33:53
and there are reactions, public
33:55
reactions that can pick up momentum. And
33:58
sometimes you have to factor in
33:59
that, the fact of that
34:02
when, you know, you you say things.
34:05
Do you find yourself thinking about past
34:07
material that you wouldn't
34:09
say no because the culture
34:11
has changed, the language has changed,
34:14
you've changed? Yes. Absolutely.
34:17
And and I don't think
34:18
that that that there's anything wrong with that. No.
34:21
It's good to change. I mean, it's good to change
34:23
when you look back and think, like, I should I don't
34:25
believe that anymore. I don't think that
34:26
anymore. Yeah. Well, it's it's like it's just
34:28
it's not even a belief or think. It's like,
34:31
you know, jokes or jokes. And there was a time
34:33
in my life where I was of the
34:35
belief that you should be able to joke
34:37
about anything and you should do it. And
34:39
it doesn't matter how shocking it is.
34:42
This is our job is to push this envelope.
34:44
I've been in that zone when I
34:46
was a younger comic. And I made, you
34:48
know, I I would say definitely insensitive
34:51
jokes, but I I also thought there was
34:53
some craft to them. But there are certainly
34:56
jokes that
34:58
I grew to learn. Like, I have
35:00
been in my past I've
35:02
been called out by
35:05
by people who saw me it shows
35:07
'From doing an Asian
35:10
voice that
35:12
was not me it was me doing somebody
35:14
doing it who I had an experience with in
35:16
a cab, but her point in
35:18
the email was that you're still getting
35:21
the laugh from that
35:22
voice. So it it's still in
35:24
it's still wrong. I
35:26
have been called out for a trans
35:29
joke years ago before any of
35:31
this stuff
35:32
that was, I was told, was insensitive
35:34
in which I believed and I stopped doing it.
35:36
I had been called out by
35:39
someone. These are usually through emails of people who
35:41
see me as shows 'From exploring the
35:43
r word in
35:45
an in an earnest way. And
35:47
I was schooled on that, that it's not,
35:49
you know, it's not about the people
35:51
who are mentally challenged or intellectually challenged
35:53
or whatever the correct word
35:56
is now. It's really about everyone who
35:58
loves that person and everyone in that family
36:00
that when you say the r word,
36:02
it hurts all the people. Who
36:05
have someone in
36:07
their life who has those challenges.
36:10
So, you know, I have taken the risks
36:12
and I have honored the
36:15
the feedback. And I have I those were
36:17
the consequences. Is that that is the dialogue.
36:20
You should rethink
36:20
this. And I did, and I stopped doing it.
36:24
So I I have one more question for you, and it's
36:26
kinda heavy and kinda personal, but
36:28
it's in the spirit of your new
36:31
comedy show on HBO from
36:33
bleak to Dark'. So this is dark. When
36:37
when your girlfriend, the director
36:39
Lynn Shelton, was
36:41
taken to the hospital. And
36:44
you didn't know she was dying, but
36:46
she was. She certainly
36:48
didn't know it either. And then
36:50
you got the call from the hospital saying, get
36:52
over here right away. We're taking her off the
36:55
life support machines. And
36:57
of course, by the time you got there, she
37:00
was already gone. And they
37:02
they said, one, you know, why don't you go in with her
37:04
and you can spend a few minutes with her,
37:06
so so you did.
37:09
And I'm wondering if the
37:11
image of her face after
37:15
after she had passed stays
37:17
with you And if
37:19
you
37:21
if you're glad you have that image, I don't
37:23
mean glad, but, you know, if it's a good thing
37:25
that you have that image or if that image haunts
37:27
you,
37:30
Yeah. I, you know, yeah, I talked
37:32
about that pretty specifically in
37:34
the special and So the doctor
37:36
was offering me this opportunity. And
37:38
it was like, there was no way was
37:40
gonna get there in time. It wasn't
37:43
about being there for when she
37:45
passed. It was just about him
37:47
offering me the opportunity to to
37:49
see her, you know. And it seemed like
37:51
when he offered me that opportunity, he knew that she
37:53
was gonna be gone. But
37:56
I I don't I don't go there
37:58
really when I think
38:00
about her
38:03
passing. I I do not regret
38:05
going down there and and having an opportunity
38:08
to get that type of closure and
38:11
and say goodbye in that way. But
38:15
usually when I think about that
38:17
day and the day before, I just
38:21
you know, it it really becomes
38:23
about, you know,
38:26
did did I show up for her enough? You
38:30
know, who was I, you know, that week?
38:32
You know? You know? Because I
38:34
just hope
38:36
that I was showing up for
38:37
her in
38:39
a in a caring way Yeah.
38:44
Mark, I I really it's so good to talk with
38:46
you again, and I'm really grateful for your
38:48
comedy special. It really
38:51
made me laugh a lot and that felt really good.
38:53
But it also is really very
38:57
thoughtful very reflective and
39:00
emotional and to do all of that at
39:02
the same time is a balancing act
39:04
that is really hard to
39:05
achieve, but you did it. So thank you for that.
39:08
You're welcome, and thank you for talking to me.
39:11
I I really appreciate it, and I have
39:14
nothing but love and respect for
39:15
you, Terry. Oh, that's how I feel about you.
39:17
I'm so grateful for our microphone rep
39:19
-- Okay. -- relationship
39:22
mediated by microphones, but -- Yeah. -- really
39:24
important to me.
39:26
Oh, good. Okay. Yes.
39:28
Mark Marron's new comedy special bleak
39:31
to dark is streaming on HBO
39:33
Max. After we take a short
39:35
break, Ken Tucker will review the new
39:38
seventeenth volume of Dylan's bootleg
39:40
recordings released by Columbia Records.
39:43
This is fresh air.
39:45
Columbia Records has released volume
39:47
seventeen of its official Bob
39:49
Dillon bootleg series This
39:51
one is titled Fragrance Time
39:54
Out of Mine Sessions nineteen ninety
39:56
six to nineteen ninety seven, and it
39:58
provides an extensive new look at one
40:00
of Dylan's most acclaimed albums, The
40:02
Grammy winning time out of mind.
40:04
Rock Credit Ken Tucker says, this package
40:07
of five CDs offers a wealth
40:09
of new ways to experience McDillon's
40:11
most moving music.
40:25
Some of us turn off the lights
40:27
and we live in
40:31
the moonlight shooting by.
40:36
Some of us scared us into
40:40
the dark. Debbie
40:43
with the engines flying.
40:48
When time out of mine was released in nineteen
40:50
ninety seven. It was Bob Dillon's first
40:52
album of original material in seven
40:54
years. He'd just turned fifty
40:56
six and had survived a serious heart
40:59
problem health scare. In
41:01
interviews, Dylan and producer Daniel
41:03
Landois admitted to a long, often
41:05
contentious recording process that
41:07
took place in California and Florida.
41:11
By the time the collection won album of the
41:13
year at the nineteen ninety eight Grammy's,
41:15
the narrative around time out of mind
41:17
had
41:17
gelled. Here was Dylan's
41:20
comeback, his don't count him out
41:22
resurgence.
41:25
If it's different the way, we
41:27
won't be alive. Your
41:30
days are numbered. So
41:32
am I Tired
41:35
is filling up. Which other
41:37
enemy screen? Well, I'm
41:39
not still left,
41:41
Trish. See,
41:43
there's just a joke about games
41:46
to play. Patching
41:48
all everybody gotta get away.
41:52
That was me. It's in the country. They
41:54
were getting themselves.
42:03
That's Mississippi, a song that was left
42:05
off time out of mind. It eventually
42:07
appeared on two thousand one's love and theft
42:09
in a tame b movie western
42:11
version. Here, however,
42:14
with the organ of AUGY Myers and the slide
42:16
guitar of Cindy Cash Dollar greasing
42:18
the melody, it's a slinky roadhouse
42:20
blues. This collection
42:23
fragments contains five disks including
42:25
a remix of the original album and
42:27
many outtakes and alternate versions.
42:30
There's one disc devoted to live performances.
42:33
Some of these are very rough. On
42:36
one or two, you can overhear people in the
42:38
audience talking to each other. You
42:40
can also hear Dylan really enjoying
42:42
being on his so called never ending
42:44
tour, hurling himself into these
42:47
performances. The
42:49
version of Till I fell in love with you
42:51
recorded in Buenocera's Argentina
42:53
in nineteen ninety eight is raw
42:55
and funny. Very rock and rolly
42:57
with a great instrumental section in
43:00
its center. Day.
44:39
The more you listen to Dylan working changes
44:41
on what were then fresh new songs for
44:43
him, The old way of hearing time
44:45
out of mind falls away. This
44:48
isn't about Dylan and Landois trying
44:50
for a comeback or a hit or a Grammy
44:52
Award, I mean, it is,
44:54
it probably was, but who cares
44:56
about any of that now? The
44:58
songs outlast and exceed their
45:00
initial framework.
45:03
Time out of mind is an album about effort,
45:05
about work, about trying hard,
45:08
laboring to be understood, and to be loved.
45:11
In song after song, Dylan is walking
45:13
down a dirt road trying to get to a lover,
45:16
but she's a million miles away.
45:19
Or he's twenty miles out of town
45:21
in cold irons bound, but he's
45:23
not giving up. He's
45:25
transfixed by earthly love even as
45:27
he's trying to get to heaven. He's
45:30
sick of being in love, but he's helplessly enthralled
45:32
to it. He has a long talk with
45:35
waitress in a roadside diner that only
45:37
convinces him he has to continue to try.
45:40
And so he keeps on in a song
45:42
that didn't make the album, Dark' into
45:44
the city.
45:46
Soundflex, I've fallen. On
45:51
my head, I
46:04
haven't hit you. And
46:08
I seen you in mind. Everything
46:13
can hear me now. That's
46:17
your time. Once
46:21
I had a minute ago,
46:23
she did me wrong. I'm
46:25
closer to the city of Us. The
46:30
atmosphere Dylan in Lanhua achieved
46:33
remains eerie and vital. A
46:35
rhythm that skeletons might dance to in
46:37
a graveyard using a few discarded
46:39
bones for percussion. Dylan,
46:42
with his crypt keeper rasp, has
46:44
the last laugh.
46:46
Kent Tucker reviewed fragments, time
46:48
out of mine sessions the Bob Dillon
46:50
bootleg series. Our technical
46:52
director and engineer, Asadu Benfeng.
46:55
They are challenger directed today's show.
46:57
I'm Terry Gross.
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