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Today's episode of the podcast is
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kind of intense. I start
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off by talking about the fact that we have
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lice and mice at the house right now. It's
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been that kind of a week. And
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then through a couple of twists and turns, I
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end up talking about the genocide that is
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happening in Gaza right now and
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how to navigate knowing that there's
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terror like that unfolding far away,
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but also so very close to home. How
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can we take care of ourselves? Are we
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allowed to take care of ourselves knowing
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there is such pain unfolding in this
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world? Where are we all
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heading? And what can we do? What
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Okay, I've made it a read
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it. I'm here. Here We are.
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You have made it. You are
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here! Welcome to a brand new
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episode of From the Heart with
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Rachel. Pretend I am so glad
2:41
that. We are all here. I
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have a. Ginormous cup of ginger
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tea by. My side the when I
2:48
see ginormous a means a norm is it's
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almost a liter. Of water? What?
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What's the leader? like? twenty
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four ounces. I just. Pulled
2:56
that out of my. Yeah. I
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have no idea how many else a leader is.
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Wait, let me let me find out. Okay,
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one liter is thirty three
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ounces, so I was. Kind.
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Of close, but not at all. I
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know what what is up with the
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ounces? And. The Fahrenheit I think
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it's so. it's so complicated. It's
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no matter how much time I
3:20
spent I have spent in the
3:22
U S, my life and I
3:24
still I cannot. I can't learn.
3:26
The Fahrenheit and The Imperial. The.
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Imperial system. It does not make
3:31
sense for me anyway. I have
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a liter of T A leader
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is a hundred senate leaders. Ten.
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Deciliter is there. A. Thousand milliliters.
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but look at make so much
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sense that ounces idol. It's just
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weird. Thirty three. Why is
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it Thirty Three? So yeah,
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sorry. welcome to
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the so my my mind as
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all over the place as he
3:55
can tell today i made it
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here it's taken me a little
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Bit of a struggle actually to get to
4:02
recording this show today. I
4:05
have my ginger tea, I have my hydrogen
4:07
water by my side, which has become this
4:09
thing that I bring with me
4:11
everywhere I go. We're gonna have to have an episode
4:13
of the show talking about hydrogen water
4:16
because it's something. But
4:18
not today. And I'm sitting here in
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a really messy bedroom. It's the
4:23
messiest mess of all time. And
4:25
the reason that is is because we have lice. Okay,
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I'm welling up. Like I'm
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actually, I'm welling up. It's
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been a stressful week. Okay.
4:38
We have lice and we have mice. What
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the fuck? Like who decided that?
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Who decided to kick off May
4:48
with freezing temperatures, pouring rain? It's
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literally so cold, we had
4:52
to go back into the barn and get our winter
4:54
clothes again. Like I had
4:56
just put everything away because finally the summer,
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you know, spring was here. It felt like
5:01
summer. It was really warm, amazing. And
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it's middle of May. So it's like, yeah, we
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don't need all that stuff anymore. Middle of
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May, middle beginning, you know, kind
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of middle of May. And we
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had to go back and get all of
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our stuff. Like the really warm sleeping sack that
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Bear sleeps in in the stroller and Leia's
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hats and gloves. And
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yeah, it's just, it's like
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a small thing, but it
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feels ginormous. It
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really is. I feel like I'm starting to
5:30
get really depressed by the weather
5:32
and by a bunch of factors happening
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unfolding at the same time here in this
5:37
little corner of the world. So
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yeah, it's freezing cold. It's
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pouring rain. And then
5:44
like a week ago, we got an in-the-school
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app, like Leia's app has a school for
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information. It has a Leia's app has a
5:51
school. Can you hear me talking? Leia's
5:54
school obviously has an app for information
5:56
and stuff. And they sent out a
5:58
little thing like, hey, just so you know. one of
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the groups has life so
6:02
make sure you frequently check your kid and
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I was like oh hell no oh
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we are not doing that no no no no no
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and I checked her she didn't have anything she hasn't
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been itching like nothing nothing and it was another
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group it wasn't her group so
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I was like listen child like you like stay
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away from that group like
6:23
you can't tell a seven-year-old to stay away
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from from kids at
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school but I'm like if you know
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don't put your head near anybody else's
6:31
head and don't you dare switch hats
6:34
with anybody like I was trying to
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explain to her how life works even
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though I know like it's futile I
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have zero percent chance of winning the
6:43
battle against life in school like we know
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this if
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you have kids you're eventually gonna get like like
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that is just what it is but
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I am really not into it I mean who
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is but I am like no this is a
6:56
nightmare for me and
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a week past I've checked her like every
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day and nothing you know and I really
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like exhale like yeah we dodged a bullet
7:04
it was contained in the other group and
7:07
then yesterday I just caught her scratching
7:09
her head and I'm like that was
7:12
a fluke and then five minutes later she's scratching
7:14
her head again I'm like hey what's what
7:16
you doing over there what's what's
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going on there and the side of your head I
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don't know I'm just really itchy today okay
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and here's the big we had dinner planned
7:28
last night so my brother and his girlfriend was coming
7:30
over my mom was on her
7:33
way over and Finn's
7:35
godmother my best friend was coming over we were
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just having I don't know it's just a line
7:39
it was we're not celebrating anything or anything it
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was just like we're having dinner at the house
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and my friend my best friend called
7:45
she's like hey I have a I have a
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migraine I don't think I'm coming I'm like I'm
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like okay that's fine like you I'm like she's
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dodging this bullet like
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very good good my brother
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lives five minutes away he was already in the car
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and my mom was always almost here And I'm
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like, I'm not going to say anything because
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I really want the help. I
8:05
want them to come help me. My
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brother walks through the door and
8:11
I'm like, hey, before anything happens
8:13
here, before you enter, we
8:15
maybe have life. And
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he was like, okay, bye. Just
8:20
turn around and laugh. Just
8:25
immediate panic, like, bye, no way
8:27
in hell. Goodbye. I
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checked his head before he left. I'm like, hey,
8:31
you've been hanging out here a lot. Don't you
8:33
want like a little check just so that you're sure?
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He does not have life, but a surprisingly dry scalp.
8:38
So he's going to have to deal with that. So
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I'm like, you're very lucky that we checked this out.
8:43
You need to hydrate your skin.
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And anyway, and then my mom showed
8:49
up and she's so like, I don't know
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how many times we've had life in this. I mean, she has four
8:54
kids and she had four kids very separate, like
8:56
far apart. So me and my brother are two
8:58
years apart. And then
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the next sibling arrived like when I was 10 and
9:03
then three years after that, another one. So she's
9:05
done like the batches of kids. It's not like
9:08
we all had life all at the same time
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once in school. And that was that like,
9:12
it's probably been like a couple of rounds, you
9:15
know, because having kids in daycare and school at
9:17
different ages and stuff. So she just
9:19
like, all right, no big deal. Stepped
9:21
in and Leah was so sad in the beginning. She was like,
9:24
I don't want to, it's my fault. Dude,
9:26
this is just life. There's nobody's fault. Like, this
9:28
is just something. It's just like hatching a cold
9:31
or whatever. It's nobody's fault. You
9:33
know, and my mom was like, I don't care if
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I get life. I literally don't mind. Like, I'll sleep
9:37
in bed with you. I don't care if I get
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life. I've had life so many times. It's
9:42
not a big deal. Let's go. We
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checked her out and we didn't find that
9:48
many, but she definitely had it. It
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wasn't like, like my mom was trying to explain to me.
9:52
She's like, when you guys had life, when you were little,
9:54
it was always so far
9:56
gone by the time we realized it
9:58
that like, turn your head upside
10:01
down in the bathtub and comb it out and just
10:03
lice would fall into the tub. But
10:05
with Leia, we almost couldn't, like it took,
10:07
it took like a long time to find a single one,
10:09
and at the end we found two. So I think
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we caught it like right at the very beginning. And
10:15
I, we couldn't find any in my hair. So I'm
10:19
like praying to the God of, I don't
10:22
know if there is some kind
10:24
of like school motherhood family God
10:26
that like protects mothers who are
10:28
very sleep deprived and tired, but
10:30
like, please don't, please, please. I
10:33
really don't want lice, okay? I'm
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tearing up. I'm literally, I'm
10:38
literally crying right now because that's how badly
10:40
I don't want lice. And
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I don't know if you guys know, but I have a
10:44
lot of hair. My mom had this theory, she's like, yeah,
10:47
you don't have anything. You know, I think your hair is
10:49
too thick. The lice, they can't get
10:51
down there. It doesn't
10:53
sound like a very scientific
10:56
explanation. I'm pretty certain that's
10:58
not how it works. But I'm like, okay, I'll
11:01
take it. Bear doesn't have anything. And
11:04
Dennis who sleeps in bed, like him and Leia
11:06
share a bed, they stay, they are the ones
11:08
who close like I sleep with Finn, then I sleep
11:10
with Leia and they share a pillow. He doesn't have
11:12
anything either. So I'm really
11:14
wondering if we like caught it on day one
11:17
and it hasn't exploded yet. And maybe we contained
11:19
it and maybe nobody else is going to get
11:21
it. Like, please, please, please. I so hope. I
11:24
so hope. But you know, it comes with
11:26
the whole thing. At least this is
11:28
what we do and what we were told. I mean,
11:31
since I was little, it's like you have to get
11:33
all the sheets and all the stuff and all the
11:35
fabric like off the beds and
11:37
then put it in the freezer. Yeah,
11:39
I don't know. Is anybody else doing that? We always,
11:41
that's what we do here because
11:44
even five minutes in the freezer kills off
11:46
everything so then you don't have to worry.
11:49
Luckily, we have this like barn old
11:52
barn freezer. It's actually really
11:54
lucky because we have this old barn freezer where
11:57
I really want to put all of our
11:59
meat and fish. and stuff like I like
12:01
to keep things separated so I have it organized because
12:03
we have two freezers in the barn and
12:06
I really need to get rid of all of
12:08
last year's produce that we still have in the
12:10
big like storage freezer. So
12:12
I've been asking Dennis for like a week please can
12:14
you like get all the meats and all the
12:16
things and put it in the other barn for
12:19
me so that we can organize and he
12:21
just has been procrastinating it which is something he
12:23
does for everything and it's
12:25
like one of our biggest my biggest pet peeve like
12:27
one of the things that annoys me the most
12:29
about being married to this man is how much
12:31
he procrastinates but this
12:34
time it really served us because we
12:36
had this whole freezer empty so
12:38
we could literally just pull out the drawers
12:40
and we put we put sheets from three beds
12:43
because we've been kind of sleeping around in
12:45
these different beds puzzling sleep
12:47
and kids and we
12:49
put three beds worth of sheets
12:51
into the freezer overnight and
12:54
yeah you know doing all the laundry
12:56
like rounds and rounds and rounds of
12:58
really hot laundry doing
13:00
her hats and jackets and then I'm trying
13:02
to like not make too big a deal out
13:04
of it either because it's just life it's not
13:07
the end of the world but you really don't
13:09
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13:11
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13:13
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15:00
don't fuck around with life. Like
15:02
no. So we
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got the gentlest version of the toxic
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thing. It's
15:08
like for sensitive skin and
15:11
babies. And yeah,
15:13
we did the treatment for Leia.
15:15
And let's just like hope that
15:17
this really, really, really, really, really
15:20
works. And then
15:22
at the same time, like I'm
15:24
like, this sucks, but this is like,
15:26
this is where I'm living. Like
15:29
I just see something like on the floor, like it's something
15:31
like, like a black little thing. And I'm like, is
15:33
that a mouse dropping like randomly in the kitchen?
15:35
No. And
15:37
then I didn't think about it anymore. And then I
15:39
like go over to the other side of the kitchen
15:42
and I see Bear's chair, you know,
15:44
where he eats and obviously like throws food everywhere.
15:47
And even if we clean the chair, you know,
15:49
a baby, a baby seat, it's always the grossest
15:51
part of the kitchen. Like it's always the least
15:53
sanitized part of a kitchen. And there's
15:55
always like little food left and crumbs and stuff. And
15:58
there's just mouse dropping. So. all over his
16:00
chair. And it's, well,
16:06
and it's okay. We don't
16:08
live in a major city. It's not like
16:10
New York and it's rats. No,
16:13
it's like little country mice. Okay.
16:15
They're really cute. They're very cute. They're not like
16:18
they don't look gross, but we know they're gross.
16:21
We know, we know you don't want, you don't
16:23
want your baby eating off a
16:25
tray where mice walk around.
16:27
Like no, nobody wants that. Even
16:30
talking about it makes me like a little bit nauseous.
16:33
And it's so weird because I was really trying to think of it
16:35
like, Hey, if we were out in the woods, if we were a
16:38
hundred meters away from our house and we
16:40
stood in the woods on the corner of
16:42
the land and we saw a little mouse,
16:44
we would be like, Oh my God, so
16:46
cute. So cute. They're so cute. They're like
16:48
big brown, you know, brown eyes. They're so,
16:50
so adorable. But then you find them in
16:52
the house and it's like, Oh my God. No,
16:54
no, no, no, no. We don't want rodents
16:56
eating our food and no. So
16:59
then having to deal with that
17:01
and it's like, it's, it's, it's,
17:04
people keep telling us to get a cat. I'm
17:07
really allergic to cats. So we could never
17:09
have an indoor cat. And
17:11
I kind of wanted like, I don't
17:13
know. I wanted an outdoor, like
17:15
a barn barnyard cat. Like, isn't
17:18
that totally normal? But
17:20
then when I ask around, it's not so
17:22
cool to have, keep outdoor cats, obviously
17:24
in the wintertime. So they need to live
17:26
inside in the winter, but there's, yeah, I don't, I
17:29
don't know how to do that. So
17:31
anyway, one thing at a time, but it was
17:33
so great to wake up this morning. I'm like,
17:36
we have lice and mice. Like
17:40
perfect, perfect timing of
17:42
everything. Overall,
17:46
overall, I'm also on my moon. I'm on
17:48
my period for the, I think it's the
17:50
third, my third
17:52
cycle since pregnancy, my
17:54
third cycle postpartum. And
17:57
this week I just kind of fell into a
17:59
hole. with it. I
18:01
don't know if it's the it could also just be the
18:03
circumstances of the fact that we're not at all
18:05
sleeping again. It's really, really, really, really bad.
18:08
And it's been like he's almost 11
18:10
months now. It's a
18:12
really long time. I really thought we would hit
18:15
some sort of milestone. He's almost one. And that
18:18
things would change and we're going to start sleeping, but
18:20
maybe not like he's going to magically sleep through the
18:22
night and everything is going to be like, you know,
18:24
fairy tale, sleep land. No, but I
18:26
thought it would get better and it's
18:29
not better. You guys, okay. I want
18:31
to cry again. It's just not better. It's
18:35
worse. And
18:37
I think just the accumulation
18:39
of just almost a year of
18:42
sleep deprivation and
18:45
then my period, which normally,
18:47
and this is, this is my kind
18:49
of normal, but it's been so long since I
18:51
was in my cycle. So it's, I've
18:53
just kind of forgotten that I tend
18:55
to fall into a little hole, like
18:57
a tiny little depression hole just
19:00
for a couple of days. It's like one or two days
19:02
where it's really bad. Usually it's
19:04
right before I get my period, but this
19:06
time it happened when my period arrived. I
19:09
just all of a sudden find myself so
19:11
sad. I feel so sensitive. Everything
19:14
that isn't, that's not going well feels like the
19:16
end of the world instead of just little things,
19:18
you know, the way they are like in
19:21
the normal week where I'm just, Oh, you
19:23
know, everything is so beautiful and we have
19:25
so many blessings and it's
19:27
like life is great. And then these
19:30
little setbacks happen all the time, but you gotta think of
19:32
it's life. When I end
19:34
up in this hole, all of a sudden it's
19:36
like, it's reverse, it reverses.
19:39
It feels like everything is terrible. Everything
19:41
is the end of the world,
19:44
but there's like little glimpses of good,
19:46
right? And it's so bizarre because my life
19:48
is the same and it's yeah,
19:52
that dark place
19:54
that my mind
19:56
can go to, it turns
19:59
really quickly. And even
20:01
though I know, because it happened when I was
20:03
already bleeding, it's like, I know this relates. I
20:06
know this connects. This makes sense.
20:08
It's not out of the blue. It's not because
20:10
something is terrible and wrong. You
20:13
know, it's like, this is where I
20:15
am. It's just part of how I feel once
20:17
a month. But it doesn't really
20:19
help knowing that.
20:22
And I do feel a difference, like
20:24
before I changed my diet and I
20:26
changed my lifestyle and all
20:28
of the things. I used to feel way more fatigued
20:30
when I was on my period. And I used to
20:33
feel like that pit of anxiety
20:35
was to last a longer time. Now it's like
20:37
a day or two kind of, or over the
20:39
past, yeah, the past two cycles that I've had
20:41
anyway, it's been like that. But
20:45
it's also, you know, not to forget that
20:47
there is an actual active
20:49
genocide happening in
20:53
this world that we are
20:55
reading about and watching on
20:57
the news every day. And
21:01
I really think for anyone, for all
21:03
of us to take in that
21:05
knowing, to walk around just
21:07
knowing that there is active, willing
21:11
slaughter of human beings, of
21:14
women and babies and civilian
21:16
and good people
21:19
and men, like let's not forget about the
21:21
men, just the dads and the
21:23
regular human beings of this world who are not,
21:26
who didn't enlist to go to war. That
21:30
is unfolding every day. And
21:33
where we are now with what is happening
21:35
in Zafar, it really, really, really,
21:37
really it
21:40
feels so intentional now to
21:42
gather a whole population of people in
21:45
a safe zone and then demolish
21:48
it and have the whole entire world look
21:50
on. Yeah, it's really reminiscent
21:52
to something else. You know, it's like we've seen
21:55
this before. And
21:57
knowing this, and I know there's, yeah,
21:59
I haven't I had a lot of these
22:01
conversations here on the pod because I'm sitting here by
22:03
myself just sharing what's
22:05
on my heart and on my mind. And I am
22:08
of course no expert in any of this. And
22:11
anytime you open your mouth to say anything, there's
22:13
going to be a hundred different opinions and why
22:15
that's wrong and why that's uneducated
22:17
and what about this side of things. And
22:19
it's like, I think we're just
22:21
at a place now where if
22:24
you're not seeing what's unfolding,
22:27
if you're justifying what's unfolding
22:29
by saying, but what about,
22:33
you're intentionally closing your eyes to it. It's
22:35
not just you're not seeing the
22:37
other side of the story or not
22:39
understanding or having a different background that
22:41
led you to believe something. It's like
22:43
if you're not acknowledging this, if you
22:45
can't see it, it's because you're choosing
22:47
to close your eyes. You're making an active
22:50
choice to not care. And
22:54
it's beyond fucked up. It's beyond.
22:58
And it really feels like probably
23:02
this is because I'm
23:04
speaking from a darker mindset this
23:07
week, but it feels like we have crossed
23:09
the barrier. We've reached a point of no
23:12
return on this
23:15
earth. Genuinely
23:19
if you look around, does it feel like things are getting
23:21
better in any area
23:23
or does it feel like we're just slowly
23:26
descending as humanity?
23:29
We're just slowly losing sight
23:33
of everything that's important, of
23:35
everything that's real. I
23:38
don't know. I just, like we
23:40
are living in an age where we have
23:43
more access to information and technology
23:45
than ever before. And
23:48
you can wrap your mind around World
23:52
War II and the
23:54
Holocaust and somehow,
23:56
even though it's absolutely incomprehensible,
23:58
it's also like but most people
24:00
didn't know what was happening until it
24:02
was too late. Like
24:05
that's what you hear all the time. And
24:07
it's like, yeah, well, there wasn't TV, there
24:09
wasn't the internet. There wasn't, there
24:11
wasn't this access to information the way
24:13
we have it now. It would take so long
24:16
for information to reach people. And then
24:18
it was filtered through really poor quality
24:20
radio or newspapers, you
24:22
know, that were really limited in their
24:24
reach. It's like a whole different, like
24:26
a different planet back then. And
24:29
now we're living in this, in this
24:31
age where every single thing that happens,
24:34
it unfolds in front of our very
24:36
eyes in live, real time.
24:40
So how, how
24:43
can we be so blind? How can
24:46
we allow it to happen? Cause we are not
24:49
saying it's you and me, it's our fault. Like
24:52
we're, we're doing this, it's not our
24:54
doing, but as humanity, as a people
24:57
who live on this earth, like
24:59
we're allowing atrocity after atrocity to
25:02
just happen to
25:04
innocent people, to nature. I
25:08
mean, it's yeah,
25:11
when you look at it from that standpoint,
25:13
it really feels like we're
25:16
living in some real dark ages. We,
25:18
we really are. And I
25:21
felt it was so dystopian,
25:23
you know, to, to
25:25
sit here, some sitting here on my phone
25:28
and I'm getting image after image. It's like a,
25:30
it was like a mix of every other image
25:32
on my screen and my feed was
25:35
either the Met Gala, which
25:37
felt so dystopian, just these
25:39
mega celebrities who
25:42
have so much, like it's
25:44
just, it's so much
25:47
money and wealth and power wrapped
25:49
up in this super
25:51
elite. And
25:53
they're posing on this carpet for
25:55
the cameras in ways, you know,
25:57
that just, it felt so. Like
26:00
what are we watching here? And I get it. Yes art
26:03
super important fashion really amazing There's
26:05
of course like goodness in art
26:07
and all forms of art. But
26:09
come on We're
26:11
looking at like size 0 Botox
26:16
people who've had surgery and who have
26:18
access to every single thing
26:20
they need to look as young
26:23
and as Uniform
26:26
as possible like you don't see a single
26:28
wrinkle in that whole entire event like everyone
26:30
is just squeezing themselves
26:32
forcing themselves into this mold
26:35
of being thin
26:37
and not aging and being beautiful
26:39
in the eyes of What
26:41
society has decided is beautiful and what they
26:43
decide together with the media is beautiful and
26:45
we're looking at that It's like this is
26:48
something to mimic Right, like
26:50
this is the height of success. This is
26:52
the height This is the epitome of everything
26:54
that we should want right? It's this wealth
26:56
and this fame and this beauty and this
26:59
being looked at and being adored and it
27:01
and then at the same time It's like hey,
27:04
these people are are dying and It's
27:07
happening by will it's not a natural
27:09
disaster that we're watching Having
27:12
unfold and it's like oh who knows who's to
27:14
blame even though we know we are to blame for
27:16
most things every
27:18
flood every Drought every
27:20
whatever thing happens like oh, you know,
27:23
it's nature It's whether even even if
27:25
we have a hand in it or not, but
27:27
this is like it's it's willingly
27:29
happen happening It's funded by major
27:31
governments. It's it's someone
27:33
is calling the shots here and deciding
27:36
that this genocide should take place And
27:39
we're all watching the Met. We're
27:41
all watching Fucking
27:44
celebrities like I I know I sound very
27:46
cynical and very negative but I I It
27:50
is the most dystopian shit it
27:53
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29:25
What's happening in Gaza? It's
29:27
going to look dystopian no matter
29:29
what you do. If it's like you're
29:32
taking a walk in nature, having a peaceful time or you're
29:34
on your yoga mat or like you, you're in the bath
29:37
now. Like that looks dystopian. If
29:40
you put it against these people
29:42
who are refugees and
29:45
forced to flee to a so-called safe
29:47
space and are now being murdered in
29:49
front of the whole world looking on.
29:52
And it's like, yeah, that is true. Like everything that
29:54
is safe and good and normal in
29:57
contrast to this genocide
29:59
is. that looks dystopian, looks fucked up.
30:01
It's true. But me
30:04
lying in the bath isn't
30:06
distracting the majority of
30:08
the public eye from the genocide happening, which
30:10
is what the celebrity
30:12
world does and
30:14
what something like the Met Gala does. Especially
30:17
like that could be an amazing
30:19
opportunity to speak, to
30:22
take a stand, to do
30:24
something, right? Like everyone's watching. And
30:28
when you look at the millions,
30:30
the billions of dollars involved, that
30:32
is not the same as me taking a bath. Like
30:35
you or me or anyone listening or anyone
30:37
just trying to live a regular life, anyone
30:40
of us doing what we need to do
30:42
to regulate our nervous system as this unfolds
30:45
is not a bad thing to do. And it's
30:48
not something that either we should feel guilty about
30:50
or bad about, although I know we all are.
30:52
It's just not unless you're
30:55
ignoring it unless you're putting your head in
30:57
the sand and choosing not to give a
30:59
shit. It's like we somehow have to go
31:01
on and do what we need to do
31:03
to take care of ourselves and our families
31:05
and feed our babies and do the thing
31:07
so that we can go on like that
31:09
in and of itself is not a
31:12
bad thing. It's actually, it's like
31:14
we have to. We have to. And can
31:18
you take
31:21
that bath or go for that walk or take that yoga
31:23
class and then keep watching, right?
31:25
And keep talking about
31:27
it and keep being outraged and keep protesting.
31:29
This whole week
31:33
I felt like fuck, I haven't been to a single
31:35
protest and I've had this excuse like I'm,
31:39
hey, I live far away. There's nothing happening
31:41
in my area. I have bear. I couldn't
31:44
bring bear to a protest. I couldn't, you know, I should
31:46
be. Yeah. But Hey, I have friends just
31:50
fucking were fucking marching every time
31:52
every day. And I'm
31:55
not there. And I really think each of us could
31:57
be there. doing
32:00
more. I could be doing
32:02
more. I should be doing more.
32:04
And I've shied
32:06
away from talking about it too much. Like I
32:08
share, I go through cycles where
32:10
I listen a lot and I take in
32:13
a lot of information and I'm there and
32:15
I really feel like I can stand in
32:17
this and know that this
32:20
is unfolding and I can cope with that and I
32:22
can share what I see. Like I come across something
32:24
and I just share it online.
32:27
That's like the bare minimum. You
32:29
know, there's not some amazing great feat to
32:31
like press a button on
32:33
your stupid screen to share something that's
32:35
unfolding and happening in real people's lives.
32:38
Not that far away, but
32:40
somehow, I don't
32:43
know, I've felt really burnt out from
32:45
the like fights and the
32:47
comment sections and the DMs
32:49
and you know, somehow
32:52
that criticizing a
32:56
political decision made by
32:58
government, like criticizing a
33:00
government, like that's the same thing as
33:02
somehow criticizing a religious
33:05
belief. Like those are two separate, like
33:07
they don't align at all, but
33:09
it's sort of become this thing now where if
33:11
you say, Hey, I'm against this genocide.
33:13
I'm against what the Israeli
33:16
government is doing to these
33:18
displaced people to some of
33:20
the most marginalized people in the world.
33:22
I am against that. I don't
33:24
want that to happen. Oh, but then
33:26
you're anti-Semitic. It's like,
33:29
oh, haven't we come
33:31
further than that? Like, is
33:33
that the argument really? It's
33:35
just, yeah, and after
33:38
a while, it's really tiring to hear
33:40
that when these things are just
33:42
completely separate and
33:45
it's actually, I think it's shameful
33:47
to use anti-Semitism to
33:49
justify a genocide. Like, are you kidding? No, no.
33:53
And there are many, many, many
33:55
good solid humans out there who
33:58
are so, so
34:00
against anti-Semitism, who want the safety
34:02
of every Jewish person in this
34:04
world, who read
34:07
and know a lot about the Holocaust,
34:09
and who really care, and who have
34:11
friends with that faith, and who have
34:13
that faith themselves, who are
34:16
so appalled and so absolutely
34:18
against the killing of these
34:20
innocent people. And
34:22
I would love to say that that's most of us, but even
34:24
though it feels like most of us, it's not stopping.
34:27
And it's continuing
34:29
to be funded by the US government, and
34:31
it's like that's a
34:34
lot of you listening, that's your taxes, that's your money,
34:36
you know? You're working really
34:38
hard to make a difference
34:41
for your community, and at the end
34:43
of the day, that's where your tax
34:45
dollars go. Like, I get the outrage
34:47
happening. There should be more. There
34:49
is more, and we're not seeing everything that's out there,
34:51
but I don't know.
34:53
I really feel like in the
34:56
past few months, I go
34:59
between centering myself in my little
35:01
bubble, where I look
35:04
out at the world and it's like, it's a scary place.
35:08
It really is. And I think
35:10
of that from every angle. It's scary how
35:13
little forest we have left. I
35:16
think about that every single day of my existence.
35:19
In Sweden, we pride ourselves of
35:21
being a country of forest. Like, we have no
35:23
forest left. We have plantations of trees. The
35:26
real forests are all gone. They're gone. But
35:30
right where I live, like if I look at the window
35:32
now, there's like some beautiful trees there behind
35:34
our barn, and it's like, hey, well, I can
35:37
tend to this. I can tend to this
35:39
land. I bought
35:41
60 trees and berry
35:44
bushes at the garden, one
35:46
of these garden, little garden stores that I love.
35:48
It's like, hey, I'm going to plant, I'm planting
35:51
now 25 new trees here
35:53
on the land. And
35:55
I'm just going to continue to plant. I'm just going
35:57
to continue to grow things. to
36:00
this space that I can tend to, right? And
36:02
then I don't think that
36:04
much about the deforestation happening and how
36:06
we're actually ripping the lungs of
36:09
the earth out of the soil at a
36:12
rate that we could never ever, ever repair.
36:15
Not while humanity still
36:17
exists anyway, like it's just I
36:20
can't think about that too much. You know, I just,
36:22
okay, I focus on planting
36:24
trees where I am. And sometimes that
36:26
feels like the healthy thing to do. If you
36:29
think if you care about the forest,
36:33
everybody should care about the forest. I mean, if you
36:35
care about breathing, you should care about the forests of
36:37
the world. It's like if you
36:39
if you care, you should you should know you
36:41
should take in all the information, you should learn
36:43
what's happening here, where you live,
36:45
wherever that is in your local area, you should
36:48
learn about what's happening in Sweden, and what's happening
36:50
in Canada, and what's happening in the Amazon and Brazil
36:52
and what's happening, you know, all across. But
36:56
then I'm like, Hmm, I can't really exist
36:58
in that space. I can't move
37:00
through my day today and actively think
37:02
about how that
37:04
is happening, how people are
37:07
choosing profit over life every day,
37:09
every second of every day, how literally
37:11
capitalism is tearing our whole world apart.
37:13
Like I cannot think about that. So
37:16
then I just, I focus all
37:18
of my attention inward, and
37:20
to myself and my family, and this
37:22
area and this land, and I just
37:25
go about growing things and I go
37:27
about planting trees. And I do that
37:29
for a while and I feel and
37:31
I feel okay, I feel good, I
37:33
feel better. And then something comes up, you
37:35
know, and my attention goes back out there. And
37:37
it's like, it's too much. So
37:39
there's this oscillating sort of
37:42
happening between just seeing
37:45
my own two feet, and
37:47
then taking a step back and zooming
37:49
out at the world and then getting
37:51
immediately inundated with a sense of very
37:54
real panic. And
37:56
then it's like, hey, let's go back, come back, I look
37:58
back at my feet and I look back. back at the
38:00
earth here and I look back at the
38:03
beauty that exists and the fact
38:05
that there is so much good and all the stuff.
38:07
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38:09
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38:15
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38:19
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I'm using the forest just as an example because
39:01
it's something I'm very passionate about.
39:03
And it's also much easier to,
39:06
it's easier to digest the
39:09
grief of what we're
39:11
doing to trees than it is to digest the grief
39:13
of what we're doing to babies. I
39:19
can't put that grief
39:22
into words and still speak. But
39:29
we know. We know
39:31
the real victims of this genocide are
39:33
the children. And
39:38
I read
39:42
this past week about
39:44
the mass graves that
39:47
they continue to uncover.
39:50
And I read about a dad who
39:54
pulled his child from a grave and
39:56
he said, it felt
39:59
like I was pulling my own heart out
40:02
of the earth." I
40:05
think about that quote all
40:08
day, every day. I
40:11
mean can you imagine pulling
40:13
your baby, pulling your little one
40:15
from a grave,
40:19
like pulling your own heart out
40:21
of the earth. It
40:24
is maybe that's why, maybe that's
40:28
why we have
40:31
to oscillate, we have to
40:33
shift from taking in
40:37
the grief and the pain and the madness and
40:40
then getting really stuck in our own bubbles
40:42
and not talking about it at all because
40:44
it's too overwhelming
40:46
to hold, it's
40:49
too overwhelming to think about. I
40:53
think about that dad like
40:55
all the time. I think
40:58
about those parents all the time, I think about
41:00
those children all the time but
41:04
talking about it, this happens, right?
41:07
And then all of a sudden it's like, I don't
41:10
know, like it
41:14
becomes very challenging to continue
41:18
carrying a conversation or to continue caring
41:20
about your day but
41:22
then isn't that literally
41:24
our responsibility? Isn't that literally
41:27
our job? If
41:29
we are in a place where we are safe and
41:31
whole, we are
41:34
picking up our children from their cribs
41:36
and from bed and from the kitchen
41:38
floor to hold them in our arms
41:40
and play and eat and you
41:43
know we're not picking up our children
41:45
from graves, isn't it our job? To
41:48
hold that pain then and
41:51
to keep listening and to
41:53
keep reading and to keep being outraged
41:56
and to do something even
41:58
though none of us know what that is. something is
42:00
like we don't know. For
42:03
me that's something is just
42:05
having this conversation with you right now like
42:07
this is all I know what to do. We
42:10
can donate money yes continue doing that
42:12
keep sharing what you see yes continue
42:14
doing that sign the petitions do the
42:16
thing go to the
42:18
protests march like do all the things but
42:22
like what can we do and that
42:25
futile hopelessness of
42:29
knowing there's major powers
42:31
at play who don't
42:33
have people's interests
42:35
at heart who
42:37
don't have this planet in
42:40
their hearts who don't yeah
42:44
like where are we going and
42:47
maybe this is all maybe
42:49
this is all part of a
42:51
big shift happening you know
42:54
I think in the spiritual community you hear a
42:56
lot about about
42:59
change coming and dark
43:02
forces being exposed
43:04
and change happening
43:06
and maybe that is true you know
43:09
what if this is the last what
43:12
if this is the last we'll
43:14
see they'll never be
43:17
an injustice like this ever again this is
43:19
the one I just
43:22
from where I'm sitting now it doesn't feel that
43:24
way but
43:28
then again next week next
43:31
week will feel different for me because
43:33
I live here in the safe place
43:35
where I can plant trees and grow
43:37
my food and hug my
43:39
babies every day maybe next week we
43:42
talk about regular life things like yeah
43:45
going to the gym and making
43:48
herbal medicine and taking
43:51
care of our mental health and
43:53
all the things that are really important
43:55
to this life There
44:00
are people now. So many people
44:02
who live a completely different reality.
44:06
And I just. I.
44:08
Wish I had the answer. of how how
44:10
to make things They really did. I really
44:12
do like a new something a had of
44:15
recipe for. Here is what we do now.
44:19
And I guess. All
44:22
I can do is this for know.
44:26
To. Talk. And
44:28
share my feelings as
44:30
they come and. Hope
44:34
that by listening to this
44:37
podcast you. Feel
44:39
something to. Maybe
44:41
we all live with our hearts a little
44:43
bit more in our sleeves, not just for
44:45
the pain that we experience and our own
44:48
life, but for. What
44:50
is happening to real people in the
44:52
world? And though we
44:54
don't know them and even though it feels
44:56
far away and even though are so many
44:58
even those. And it's also
45:00
like. Cats.
45:04
Are all our children? We
45:06
know that. We know
45:08
that these are all. Our
45:10
children. And
45:13
maybe we are going to seal
45:16
this. Low
45:18
level of back where of things Id.
45:21
For as long as this continues. P.
45:24
The it's part of just being a a
45:26
person in the world today that we. Feel
45:30
a little bit anxious? All the time.
45:32
or a little bit depressed a
45:34
whole the time. Or a little
45:36
bit like something's not right said
45:38
the length of so so so
45:40
many of us like something's not
45:42
right. Maybe that's because something is
45:44
not right through something. That's wrong.
45:49
So that's so wonderful to spend
45:51
some time thinking about what could
45:53
be how beautiful the slave could
45:55
be for all of us. Helmets
45:59
Abundance. Are actually
46:01
gives them the capacity
46:03
that human beings have
46:05
for compassion and peace
46:08
and joy and palais
46:10
him he know this
46:12
utopia that absolutely is
46:15
possible. Could. Be. That.
46:18
Not as some of us have. A good
46:20
life, but that all of us have
46:22
a good place like that's that's not
46:24
an impossibility. Like we
46:26
don't have to, will have to have the world
46:28
look the way it. Does. It'll.
46:31
Have to have steam thousand
46:33
children. The high. While.
46:36
We look at Botox. People walking down
46:38
a runway are like a red carpet.
46:41
Like what? What? We do It. Seriously.
46:45
What are we doing? What are we wasting time with?
46:49
Him. Thank you for
46:51
listening. To
46:54
this podcast. About place and
46:56
mice. And inside. One
47:01
of fucked up. For.
47:04
I am going to
47:06
spend some time to
47:08
regulate a nervous system
47:10
today. The
47:13
i'm on a close With that they want
47:15
a close match us something that we can
47:17
do a remembering that that that's the first
47:20
up. There's. Nothing that said, Com
47:22
before a home before regularly
47:24
the herself nothing not helping
47:26
our kids regulating our kids
47:28
like we can't do that
47:30
with where this regulated for
47:32
regulating or cells is one.
47:35
And however you'd to that whatever
47:37
works for us. It's a bath
47:39
or a sits raids, running of
47:42
the treadmill, or picking up a
47:44
front of the phone to call
47:46
a friend or. Going
47:49
for a dip in the league or
47:51
body of water? or rolling out your
47:53
yoga mat or putting your hands and
47:56
the soil, planting some seeds like whatever
47:58
regulates you'd do it. Not
48:00
just your birth to to
48:02
take care of yourself to
48:05
responsibility. If you can
48:07
see get to do it. says.
48:10
To settle the mind, the
48:12
heart, the body, Them
48:15
from the air. The
48:18
next right thing. Look. At
48:22
the wisdom I have for today.
48:24
Regulate and then you'll know that
48:27
next. Great Thanks. So
48:30
thanks for listening! I love you!
48:33
Can. Thank
48:38
you so much for listening to this
48:40
week's episode. If. You enjoy the show, make
48:43
sure you listen, rate review and follow all
48:45
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48:47
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48:49
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