A Nihilist: A person who believes that there is no meaning or purpose in existence

Have we become nihilist? We don’t really know. Does it matter? Probably not.

This episode was recorded on a whim one evening, inspired by a conversation on the state of the world and the constant question that plagued our minds: What does it all mean?

In all honestly, this was something I (as in Holly) had struggled with since the beginning of the pandemic. Is this what life is all about? Am I meant for more? Does any of it actually mean anything? Slowly I could feel myself slipping into a depressive state. I felt washed up and all out of potential. I wanted more. So, I tried tuning into moderen spirituality with full force. However, no matter how hard I tried--yoga, chakra alignment, life coaching, manifestation, crystals, shadow-work--nothing was giving me the results I was promised. 

Until one day I rejected all of it. Decided that I had put too much pressure on myself to be "somebody". But the thing is, I am already somebody. Who I am, is enough. And who YOU are is enough too.

So long story short, I gave up on putting too much pressure on myself to have a specific identity. Tossed out this notion that I had to be a certain way to find meaning and happiness. 

The peace that I miraciously found is this: Life, in a lot of ways, is meaningless. But what is meaningful to YOU? Then that's what matters. It's your life. 

So are we nihilist? Maybe--or, maybe not. Does it matter? Not at all.