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This is the BBC. This
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is the BBC. This
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is the BBC. Interesting.
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camera and I loved finding out about how
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things were put together so I made this
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little film which you know my wife came
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up with a title not me so she
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was executive producing even then and I
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didn't even know you could get an Oscar for a short film
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I didn't know there was such a thing and
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it was the Scottish Film Council who
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had given us I think a 22,000 pounds
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or whatever it was to to make
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the film and they called and
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said well it's been nominated for an Oscar so
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suddenly we had to we were we were we
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were heading off to LA and yeah yeah and
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it was all a little bit the
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out of townhouse yeah you know
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we didn't really know how to behave
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but we were very it's
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fantastic you know because you just see all
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these movie stars so how did you behave
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demurely right and with the
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light I
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can remember you see we didn't
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really understand how things worked so
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we would actually we were in our hotel
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on the evening in the evening of the
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Oscars and I got a
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call from Bob Weinstein I like
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to call this is Harvey's brother he's running the
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film company with saying have you got your speech
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ready have you got your speech ready for tonight
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yeah because you're gonna win you're gonna come
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and see me tomorrow right and they were sort
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of in sort of trying to get us to
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go and sell you know to
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go and work with them but of course and then
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he said you got to come to our party afterwards
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which was the party the Weinstein party was the party
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after the Oscars but of course we didn't know that
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so we were certain thanks very much Bob but we've
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actually got we're gonna meet some people from a burger
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or something after it you know so all of that
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stuff we didn't know you didn't do the networking because
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if you are walking around on that night yeah with
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an Oscar in your hand people don't say what did
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you get it for though you're just a person with
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an Oscar in their hand that's you can go anywhere
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in that time on that night yeah yeah
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but you didn't but we didn't The
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funniest thing was coming home because we
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had we'd sort of cobbled
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the money together to
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get to get out there and various people you
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know you know scotch film because it had helped
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and BBC and stuff but it wasn't a big
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we weren't there with a lot of money and
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so we were traveling in economy but
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we got when we flew back and
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I went into the BA chicken desk in
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LAX I thought well I'll just go up
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to the desk and check in and I'll
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pull up my Oscar on
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the desk and see what happens which
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I did and they just and I
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was embarrassed doing that okay but not
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as embarrassed as they were because they
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went I'm really sorry the flight's full
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we can't really do anything but
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they gave us a bottle of champagne okay and then we
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got on the flight with our with our Oscar but of
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course we were like it was like that scene in the
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Titanic you know when they go they go down and
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they discover there's all these Irish
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people make people of mixed cultural
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heritage head to America so we were
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in economy but at the foot of
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it but somebody saw that we had an
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Oscar because we had it out so we
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passed it back everybody said an accordion should
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have come out and then you know people
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could have done you know Irish dancing. It's
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very interesting to me that you decided not I mean
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obviously at that point when you were making that film
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you didn't know it was going to be nominated and
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win an Oscar but was that
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a time in your life when you thought you
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know this acting thing it's not it's not all
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that oh for sure right so you wanted to
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be a director right right then yeah absolutely and
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I loved you know directors and I
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loved you know looking at Ridley
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Scott's storyboards okay seeing looking at
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David Lynch and you know there
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are those such creative people and
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I thought in a way that
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my my skill set was probably
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more suited to that because
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I'd been to arts school I could draw and
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I could visualize things but I also had some
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acting experience so I could understand the
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actors situation so I thought I was so sure in
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and do you feel do you wish you
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had made more of that night or are you quite
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happy you went for the burger with you? Do you
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think, you know, I could have networked more, I could
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have used that moment, I could have... Well, a surprise
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for the burger is just
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the chart show version of the story. The
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real version is that we ended up at
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the Weinstein's part. Oh, you did? Yeah, because
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somebody said you really should go there. Okay,
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good. So we went there and
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saw all the hottest stars of the day
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in real life and God, they're beautiful. They
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really are. I mean, it's unbelievable. You'd never
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see it, I've never seen anything like it.
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I mean, they are just genetically
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sort of perfect, absolutely
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beautiful and fun. And
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very well dressed. Very, very well dressed. And of
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course, if you've got an Oscar there, we'll talk to
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you. Yes. Even if it's just for a little short
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film. But then, but you see, that was confusing. You
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wouldn't know, I didn't want an Oscar for being an
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actor, which would have been, would
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have then propelled me into all these other... I
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want an actor to have been a director. But
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you wanted to be a director. I wanted to
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be a director, yeah. And in common with very,
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very many people who have scripts and development and
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who are, you know, courted
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by film companies, who are considered to be the
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next big thing, you know, this guy obviously has
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got creativity, he's interesting, bit of an edge, all
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that stuff. It didn't work out. The Weinstein thing
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didn't work out. You think you're
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the next big thing, because they're talking, they're using
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sums of money that you're not, you're not used
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to. But to them, that's not
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huge sums of money. So you're sitting in meetings
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and people are saying what? What
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have you got? What ideas have you got? What do you
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want to do? We want you. We want to be in,
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we want to be in the Peter Capaldi business. Oh
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my gosh, did they? Yeah. And I had
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a script that I worked
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on a bit and then they started, there was
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a kind of slight bidding war that started between
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a couple of companies about that. But
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we ended up with Merrimax and I thought, well, that's me away
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because they paid me a lot
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of money for the script and then we
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were going to make it and spent a year
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kind of working on the script and then they
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decided not to make it. Which is entirely normal.
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That is something that happens a week in,
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week out, hundreds of writers and directors but
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if it's happening to you it must
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be an intensely, first of all
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I'm guessing intoxicating, we want to
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be in the Peter Kabalpe business,
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intoxicating and then feel
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like you're kind of dropping in a list that's
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only going to the basement. Yeah because it's over.
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It's over. It's over. And
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you're 37 or whatever. And a year after the
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Oscars, because it was
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Oscar Day, I still get a slight shift.
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I was standing in a field in Rickmansworth
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up to my knees in mud directing
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a dog food commercial, not a
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national dog food commercial, a local,
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for a local television station because
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they didn't make my script, I
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didn't have an acting career because I turned my
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back on all that and
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the door sort of did slam quite fiercely
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on that. I had
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no work so I had to divvy
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around with my little short film that won an Oscar as soon
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as there's any work I could get and
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so I got a job from an advertising agency directing
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a couple of commercials and they
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weren't big expensive ones, they were
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little cheap ones but I thought wow that's show
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business and of course the Americans, you know Americans
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are lovely, they're
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lovely to you when you're successful but when you're
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not, it's really over, they have
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no time for you. What would you
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tell yourself if you could go back and have
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a conversation with the guy up these auster's in
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mud directing the pet food commercial? I would say,
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and I think this is absolutely, and I've thought
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about this because
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it's what happened. You know one of the things is
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when you talk about going back and giving yourself advice,
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most of the time it would have been... Well you
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wouldn't have listened to anything. I wouldn't have listened to
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any way if this... That ruins the show. Let's not
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talk about that. But
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there are occasions when things happen when you call well...
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I'd known I would have
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behaved differently. And the
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consequence of that event
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of winning that Oscar and
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all of that stuff and how wonderful that was and
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then it all ebbing away was
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that I sort of went into grief. You
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know, I kind of... For your imagined future. Yeah.
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Yeah. And also for
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making a living because there was no,
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I wasn't making it. I wasn't. My
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hotness was over. Yeah. It
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was still cold. I was still cold and
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I was lucky to get a dog food commercial.
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But what happened that was bad and I
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would have advised myself against
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was that I misplaced
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my mojo. Okay. And
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I just went into grief. I just
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thought of... Wow. Okay. I
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kind of... No, I understand what you're saying. I
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don't know who I am or what do I do here? What
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do I do here? Just like a year
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ago, I was a big short or
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the edge of big shortary and now I'm not.
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And now I haven't got a job and I've got
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a family and how does this all work
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now? Why do they
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don't want to give me a good act? I can't get a good
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acting job. And
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I could have, I guess, put my shoulder
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to the door and just sort of tried
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to get
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my scripts... All the scripts get tied up.
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Every time you work with an American company,
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they tie up legally. So
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they're there. They've got your
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property. I
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couldn't do anything and I sort of did
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lose my sense of having
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any creative force. So
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I would say to myself, who cares? That's
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what I would say. Who
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cares? It's just a thing that happens. Wear it
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lightly. Yeah. It
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doesn't matter. Don't waste your time
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worrying about it or grieving over it. It's nothing. That's
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not a bad thing to happen to. It's just a great thing.
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in your life and to have that experience, you
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know, to have the experience of being exposed
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to all those wonders and that delight and
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then to have it taken away. Well that's,
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you know, life. Thanks
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