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far away on the other side of a television screen.
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I Saw the TV Glow is a new film
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from indie powerhouse A24. And
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lucky for us, we've got the writer and
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director behind the film, Jane Schoenbrunn.
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I think about my own youth in
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the suburbs, both very nostalgic and also
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kind of haunted. I
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Saw the TV Glow is a coming of
1:18
age horror film following two teens, Owen
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and Maddie. They're both outcasts
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in their 1990s suburban town and
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their lifeline is a TV show
1:27
called The Pink Opaque. The
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Pink Opaque is a late night sci-fi
1:34
show about two teen girls with a
1:36
psychic connection who fight off the monster
1:38
of the week. Think Are You Afraid
1:40
of the Dark crossed with Buffy the
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Vampire Slayer and Goosebumps. It's
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creepy, kind of mystical, and just
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a little too scary, which is
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exactly why they love it. As
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they grow up and the show gets canceled, Owen
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and Maddie's lives shift in unexpected
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ways. Their obsession with
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this TV show almost becomes... a
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fixation or a way of hiding
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from darker things in their real
2:04
life until they've realized that perhaps
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the show is more
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real than the reality that they're existing within.
2:11
Today on the show, Jane and I are getting
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into the new metaphors they've brought to the silver
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screen and why it's both
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compelling and potentially stifling to keep
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turning back to the past. Jane,
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welcome to It's Been A Minute. Thanks for having
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me. Jane, I have to say
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I love this film. I really enjoyed
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watching it. One thing I really appreciate
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about it is many of the movies
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today being made about identity
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feel more like explainers
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or essays, but
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you take a more emotional approach by
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really leaning into metaphor. The
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film shows how something feels as opposed
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to telling the viewer what
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something is. How did
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you land at that approach? This is my second feature
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film. I made my first while
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searching for language to talk about
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a feeling that I had always
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had why my life and my
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reality felt like it
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hadn't quite started yet. I ultimately
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very organically through that process had my
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egg crack moment, which is a term
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that we use in the trans community
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for the moment when this thing that
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maybe you've subconsciously always known to be
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true, which is that you're trans, finally
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becomes unavoidable and unavoidable in a way
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where you can't go right back into
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the closet and rerepress it. It was
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also I think an instructive
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creative process in that I wasn't
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worrying about good representation
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when I wrote it. I was
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worrying about trying to articulate a
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feeling that quite literally I didn't
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think there was a word for,
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which is very different. Good representation
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feels primarily concerned with people who
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aren't from your background.
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It feels like in my case, good representation
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would be like making a film so
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that cis people could understand. the trans experience,
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whereas what I was doing as a trans
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person was just trying to articulate the things
4:05
that felt oblique about my
4:07
own experience. It's interesting.
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Explainers kind of presuppose
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that you have all the answers is that you
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understand everything about yourself or understand
4:16
everything about your own experience, but
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trying to communicate a feeling that's
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very different. I think it's also
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the role of the artist to be interrogating
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things that feel unknowable
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or not yet known.
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Right? It's like if I had all of
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the answers and I was giving you a
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lecture on the realities of the human experience,
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I don't think I would be an artist.
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I think I would be a lecturer.
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Yeah, or a dictator. To
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me, like so much of the joy of art is
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about being with mystery. Hmm. Being
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with mystery. I like that. You
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said in another interview that, to quote you, staring
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at screens is probably the thing that we do
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most, that we make art about least.
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The screen becomes such a beautiful
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and malleable metaphor to talk about
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how it feels to be alive and
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especially to be alive in a world where
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you don't quite feel like you fit
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in. Talk to me more about that. Like,
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how did you want to use the screen
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to show that in this film? In
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this film, Owen and Maddie see
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something on a screen that is, Maddie says,
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early in the film feels more real to
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her than real life. It's
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not that this signal that she's
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caught is necessarily like God's holy
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text. Yet she sees something in
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that signal that shows them a
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magic or a thing that they
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can emotionally invest themselves in that
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they aren't finding in everything
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else around them that they're being told
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is real life. And the film is
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very much not coy about this. That's
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gay stuff. The
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show, you like a lot of shows from the
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early 90s, like kind of queer coded. It's about
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these two teenage girls who fight
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monsters, but it's about two girls who
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don't feel like other girls. And it's
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about two girls who have this special
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psychic connection that makes them a little
6:08
bit different from everybody else around them.
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And when I was 12 years
6:13
old, I tuned into Buffy and it quite
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literally was my first love. I put so
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much of myself into that show through my
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adolescence to the point where I cared more
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about who Buffy was going to prom with
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than going to my own prom. And this
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is sort of the parasocial relationship that I
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was trying to get at through the work
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in the way that I think a lot
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of adolescents who don't fit easily into the
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quote unquote real world will find
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these relationships through fiction. I
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think it's about this process. Who makes
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who? Does our fiction make us or did
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we make our fiction? And the answer to
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that question, I think isn't so straightforward. Hmm.
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One of the things that really
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struck me about Owen's relationship to the show,
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The Pink Opaque, through one of the lead
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characters from The Pink Opaque Isabelle, she
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kind of presents a vision for
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Owen of relation, possibly how to be
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in the world or possibly an aspect
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of his personality or being that he's
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like still wrapping his head around. But
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she's idealized in his mind. Like when
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he's watching the show as a kid,
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she looks like a 25 year old supermodel, right?
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But when he goes back and watches the show
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as a grown up, he's watching
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it and all of the characters from the
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show look like ordinary children.
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That vision of Isabelle from
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Owen's childhood is perhaps even
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more important to him than how she actually
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was on the show. And what's
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that about? That is ultimately about
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how love and
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identity and emotional
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investment in the thing is so
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much more about who we
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are and like the side of
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the prism of our lives that we're gazing
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from than it is about the
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actual thing. This TV show that was
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his only real connection to a life
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source that felt... akin to
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love, it's been bled at something.
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And this ultimately became a way
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for me to talk about, like, yes, our relationship
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to media, but I think also in a wider
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sense, our
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relationship to nostalgia
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and our relationship to possibility and
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identity and the ways in which
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the same things that in youth
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felt so imbued with magic and
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possibility can also become
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traps. If we don't evolve
8:30
that possibility out
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of the screen, I
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look back on the
8:37
ghosts of my youth, a lot
8:39
of complicated feelings about them, just
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how weird it is when time
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passes. Trans people have complicated relationships
8:45
to the concept of time, and
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that's very embodied in the film.
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Hmm, hmm, hmm. It felt like it
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was being made from the perspective of somebody
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who grew up in the suburbs as
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I did and watched a lot of the same cable TV,
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obsessively, that I did.
9:01
And that kind of haunting quality
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does tinge many of
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my memories about growing up. And
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you make so many references in this film
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to seminal 90s kids TV. Nickelodeon's
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Pete and Pete, Are You Afraid of the Dark?,
9:17
Buffy, Alex Mack, I think back to
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how they made me feel, a
9:21
big part of that was I felt like
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they took seriously what it felt like to
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be a kid, like the strangeness of
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being a child. What did they
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speak to for you? There's always a
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weird TV show for kids on TV.
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You know, I do think that's a time honored tradition
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that we still have today, but I do think there
9:39
was something in the water in the early 90s. It
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was also hinting towards an
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underworld to the American suburbs that I
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had sensed at that point and that
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these shows sort of introduced me to.
9:52
I think they were also though, feeding
9:55
us back an idea that the
9:57
American suburbs could be a place.
10:00
of magic and possibility. But
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I think in another way, these were like
10:04
corporate products from an ideology that
10:06
was reinforcing something about the environment
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that I was being told was
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the epitome of normal and safe.
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Another thing I really appreciated about the film
10:16
was the metaphor that you created to show
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what it feels like to be trans,
10:21
but not transitioning. Like instead of
10:23
stuck in the closet or stuck in
10:26
the wrong body, you
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liken it to being buried
10:30
alive. Talk to me more about
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this metaphor. It was the
10:34
first thing that I had when I started working on
10:36
the film. It's not a perfect
10:39
metaphor, but I do feel that a lot
10:41
of the trans people that I know are
10:44
constantly trying to find language. We're
10:46
trying to find language to talk
10:48
about this very ephemeral feeling that
10:50
we call dysphoria, this feeling
10:52
that I think has been misrepresented
10:55
in a lot of the media about
10:57
trans people, but the
10:59
actual feeling of dysphoria and
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the feeling of being trans,
11:04
but not quite accepting it
11:06
yet or not transitioning and
11:08
becoming yourself. It's
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an internal feeling of very
11:13
deep existential wrongness that
11:15
we carry with us. And that if we don't do something
11:17
about it, is going to rot
11:19
us out and give us not only
11:22
a shortened life, but a life
11:24
that doesn't quite feel like a life. And
11:26
so this metaphor became
11:28
my attempt to talk about how that feels. My
11:33
producer, Liam, he said that this spoke to
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him as a trans person, but also that
11:37
the experience of becoming a new
11:40
person and living a new life because the old life was
11:42
slowly killing you is something that a
11:44
lot of people have experienced, that that metaphor
11:46
could easily apply to people who are going
11:49
through divorce or recovering from
11:51
addiction. Like it's something that has a
11:53
broad resonance. Yeah, I do really like
11:55
the trans author, Torrey Peters, talks about
11:57
the relationship between divorced women and trans
11:59
women. as some kind of spiritual union
12:01
in the way you're talking about. And yeah,
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you know, it's funny because the film is
12:05
obviously coming from a very specific
12:08
context that, like, I
12:10
am very proud of in that it
12:12
is a movie made at
12:15
a level and with, I think,
12:17
a degree of honesty and candor
12:19
that you don't often see from
12:21
trans people talking about their own
12:23
experiences. But on the other hand,
12:26
in the same way that when
12:28
I watch a film by, like,
12:30
my favorite Iranian filmmaker, Abbas Kirastami,
12:32
I'm not, like, I understand
12:35
every part of the context that he
12:37
is speaking to from his existence as,
12:39
like, an Iranian man born in the
12:41
1940s. I
12:44
know that a lot of the context is going
12:46
to go over my head, but that
12:49
doesn't mean that we can't find
12:51
commonalities between us. You also said
12:53
in the previous interview something about TV static
12:55
that I thought was so interesting, the kind
12:57
of black and white, scrambling static that used
12:59
to show up on old TV sets and
13:01
that glow that sticks around on the screen after
13:04
you turn it off. It's something that shows
13:06
up throughout the film. And you
13:08
said in this previous interview that
13:10
static is a kind of imperfection
13:13
that's a beautiful wrongness. What
13:15
does that static represent to you? I think
13:17
about a different time
13:20
with something that feels the way that
13:22
I feel about my own youth in
13:24
the suburbs, both very, like, nostalgic and
13:27
also kind of haunted. I'm a big
13:29
fan of the theorist Mark Fisher, who
13:31
talks a lot about this term hauntology,
13:34
which is kind of like the darker
13:36
side of nostalgia, perhaps, would be a
13:39
simple way to put it. His theory
13:41
is that after the Cold War history,
13:43
at least in, like, the American Western
13:45
context, kind of ended. We
13:48
no longer had a future to strive
13:50
towards. The future has arrived and we
13:52
can just all enjoy stability. Of course,
13:54
that doesn't hold. And of
13:56
course, like, from 9-11 on, what I
13:58
think we've actually been experiencing for much of
14:00
this young century has been gradual
14:03
decay. And Fisher talks
14:05
about how increasingly we find ourselves returning
14:08
more and more to the past. And
14:12
that is, you know, like
14:14
Stranger Things and the 10
14:16
million Star Wars or Marvel
14:18
movie, obviously. But there is
14:20
a darker side to it, sort of
14:22
like a psychic spillage that can happen. And
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I think that's where my work comes
14:27
from, this feeling not of longing necessarily
14:29
for the past in an uncomplicated nostalgic
14:32
way, but of feeling haunted by it
14:35
as you would be haunted by a specter. I
14:38
have one last question for you. It's a little bit of a departure.
14:41
You've said that Mattel, I
14:45
guess I'm Barbra Mattel, reached
14:47
out for an interview for you
14:49
to work with them, I'm guessing, and you turned them
14:51
down. You said to quote you, the way
14:53
that those companies right now are operating,
14:55
the artist is middle management. The
14:58
artist is completely disempowered and the artist has
15:00
to fit into a larger mission and
15:02
has nothing to do with individual vision. Why
15:04
is it so important to you to
15:06
preserve your freedom and individual vision
15:09
as a filmmaker and artist? Because
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I don't want to be rich
15:13
and depressed. That would suck, you
15:16
know? Like my people, like
15:18
trans people, are like not
15:21
rich and depressed. They're poor and
15:23
depressed. Or
15:25
they're poor and doing their best. And
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I'd rather be one of them than
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be some isolated person in Malibu who
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has to go to a job every
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day that they hate. Although Mattel, if
15:37
you're listening, Barbie Two, I
15:39
will make an exception. I will even take
15:41
a meeting if you give me final touch,
15:43
carte blanche, and just think about
15:45
this, Barbie One, that movie ended at
15:48
the gynecologist. Barbie had
15:50
a sex change
15:53
operation. What's
15:56
more trans than that? Oh my gosh,
15:58
oh, the places you could go with. Barbie too. I would
16:00
love to see it. Jane,
16:03
thank you so much. This was a fantastic
16:05
conversation. Yeah, this was lovely. Thanks for having
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me. Thanks again
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to writer and director Jane Schoenbrunn. I
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last week we asked our listeners for
18:03
great things to do for Mother's Day
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or memories around the holiday. We
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got a few responses but I'm just going to share two with you.
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Chicago. She says, My
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husband makes a donation in my name to
18:16
Black Momma's Day bailout. I can't imagine a
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better way to celebrate Mother's Day than making
18:20
sure other moms get to be with their
18:23
kids. Ah, so thoughtful. And then
18:25
this next one comes from Allen and
18:27
I believe it's pronounced doozak but please
18:29
correct me if I'm wrong from Alameda,
18:31
California. He says, When I was
18:34
growing up, I'm 75 years old now. My
18:37
mother was not a fan of Mother's Day. Perhaps
18:39
it was because she was a down-to-earth
18:41
practical person and felt it was too
18:44
commercialized or, and I hope this wasn't
18:46
the case, she felt she didn't deserve anything
18:48
special. I loved her dearly and
18:50
hounded her about what she liked for Mother's Day. She
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responded, Okay, what I really like and need is
18:54
a can of motor oil. And that's
18:57
exactly what I gave her. The following year,
18:59
I again begged the question. She
19:01
said, since I grew up on a
19:03
farm and enjoyed target practice, I like
19:05
a 22 caliber rifle. Yeah,
19:08
my siblings and I pitched in and bought her
19:10
one. She was so darn happy. So much
19:12
for brunch and flowers, huh? Thanks
19:15
for helping me bring up this memory. Well,
19:17
Alexis, thank you so much for relating those beautiful
19:19
stories to me. Marissa and Allen,
19:21
thank you so much for calling in
19:24
with these incredible reflections. And Allen, that
19:26
is one heck of a story. I
19:29
don't know how exactly a rifle would
19:31
go over with my mom for Mother's Day,
19:33
but you know what I say, whatever mom
19:35
wants, that's what mom gets. And
19:37
mom, not my mother, myself. I think that mothering
19:40
is one of the most incredible
19:42
things that the human race is
19:44
capable of. And I think celebrating
19:46
that is just a beautiful thing. However,
19:48
I will say, okay,
19:51
and this is me speaking from outside the mom club.
19:53
Okay, so take this with a grain of salt. I
19:55
will say, I think the way that we think
19:59
about Mother's Day celebration. celebrations, we
20:01
might have it backwards. On
20:03
Mother's Day, instead of like bringing mom
20:06
breakfast in bed or taking
20:08
her out to brunch, why don't
20:10
we instead give
20:13
mothers the day off to do what
20:15
they want to do? I've seen a
20:17
few TikTok videos where moms are
20:19
talking about what their ideal
20:21
Mother's Day would be. Usually
20:24
it involves maybe perhaps
20:27
having breakfast with their family, but
20:29
the real highlight of the day seems to be them checking into
20:31
a hotel. Possibly getting
20:33
some type of massage, but mostly ordering
20:36
room service, maybe having a glass of
20:38
wine or two. I mean,
20:40
I don't know. I don't have any kids. When I
20:42
think about, you know, an ideal day for me that
20:45
involves no responsibilities and obligations,
20:48
I don't know. I'm also seeing a hotel
20:50
room. I'm also seeing maybe a four-hour nap.
20:53
I'm also seeing a Nancy Meyers marathon in
20:55
a nice cushy hotel bed. But
20:57
that's just a little brain food for
21:00
you to chew on as you're thinking
21:02
about what you're gonna do for your mom.
21:04
Now all that being said, I don't
21:07
currently have hotel money for you, mom,
21:09
my mom. So I
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hope you enjoy the floral arrangement you have coming. Anyway,
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thank you so much to those who
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Day. Now if you want to be heard
21:22
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21:24
a topic I know some of you out
21:26
there can help you with. But to give
21:29
you some background info, next week we have
21:31
director and author Miranda July on the show
21:33
to talk about her new book, All Fours. It
21:36
is a juicy read. It follows
21:38
a middle-aged woman on a journey of
21:40
self-discovery in pyramidal pause. So
21:42
for the next Hey Britney, I want to
21:44
know from you all, what do you like
21:46
about middle-aged? What do you hate about it?
21:48
And if you're not middle-aged, how do you
21:51
imagine it? Let me know. I am over
21:53
here trying to get the juice, trying to get
21:56
the secret. Fill me in. Send
21:58
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