This is a shortish experience of my love life.

For future me listening, from this I want you to take:

1. It's okay to ask someone to have their actions match what they're saying. It's fine.

2. When that doesn't happen, know that there isn't anything wrong with you an that's a fault of theirs. Stop blaming yourself.

3. Know your value and add tax.

4. Stop blaming yourself and accept your past and the things that have happened and know that they're dead and gone.

note: #3 was in a year-long relationship, my mistake.