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Like I couldn't physically, I
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was having a very physical response to
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needing to release whatever
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that is that builds up in my brain. Veronica
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doesn't just find her constant
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horniness distracting and physically consuming.
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It can be awkward. I
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have to rein it in or I end up
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just sort of going glassy-eyed in the middle of
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a conversation with someone else that's about, you know,
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building materials or something completely separate to sex.
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Or what's happened before is I have ended up coming
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out with something in real life
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that's extremely inappropriate because my brain has
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gone off on a tangent
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that is obviously not happening in real life. So
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you say something out loud. Yeah.
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Or I'll make an innuendo or
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a dirty joke or something because that's
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the mode my brain is in. When
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obviously that's a very inappropriate thing to be
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saying to someone that I'm hiring to put
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jip rock on my walls. When
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it comes to understanding female desire, there's
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definitely one expert to have on your
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speed dial. New York
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Times bestselling author and expert on women's
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sexual wellbeing, Emily Nagoski. Hello. We had
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a late night emergency Zoom call with
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Emily to try to get to the
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bottom of what's going on in our
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bodies and our brains when it comes
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to horniness. First
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up in our lesson was revision on the
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dual model of sexual desire to get a
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grip on where our horniness springs from. As
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the name suggests, the theory
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is two-pronged. The first part
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is the sexual excitation system or
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the gas pedal. It notices
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all the sex-related information in the
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environment. That's everything you see, hear,
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smell, touch, or taste. It
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notices all your internal bodily sensations
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and it notices everything you think,
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believe, or imagine. Anything
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that it codes as being sexual. sex-related, and
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it sends that turn-on signal that many of
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us are familiar with. Right, yes,
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the spark in the underpants feeling.
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So, Emily, what's the flip side
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of this accelerator? Fortunately, you also
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have that second part, which is
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the brakes. Then notice all
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the good reasons not to be turned
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on right now, which is all the
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same senses. Everything you
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think, believe, or imagine that your
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brain codes as a potential threat,
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and it sends the turn-off signal.
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So the process of becoming aroused
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is this dual process of turning
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on the ons and turning off
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the offs. What
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Emily is saying here is that in
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order to get the vehicle moving toward
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pleasure and orgasm, your sexual accelerator has
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to be on. And
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things that turn you off have to be
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quietened or not exist in the room. We
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all have different things that will turn us on and
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off. It's not just what's
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going on internally that comes into play
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when it comes to sexual response. It's
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also about the messages we've been
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absorbing since birth from our cultures
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about how we should be responding.
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It is always the interaction of
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whatever is innate in us and what
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our culture taught us. So even if
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a woman has a really sensitive accelerator
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and a really not sensitive brake, if
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she has been trained her whole life
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to feel ashamed of how interested she
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is in sex, even if her
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brakes aren't that strong, it's going to keep her brakes on
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a whole lot and interfere
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with things. So there's always going to
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be an interaction between the innate sort
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of sexual personality
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and what that person was
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taught about the meaning of who
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they are as a sexual person. These
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messages that we receive are in
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wild conflict with each other. Be
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sexy, but don't want sex too
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much or too overtly. Sure,
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embrace your agency, but know that it can
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be. taken away at any time. There's
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a very long historical
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underpinning for these complicated and
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contradictory messages about women's sexuality
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grounded in the historical reality
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that women's bodies were the
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properties first of their fathers
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and then of the men
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who, you know, purchased them
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from the father. And
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even now, let's be honest, we are
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expected to accept many sexual behaviours without
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really ever being asked whether we're into
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them or not. So
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let's get to what goes on for
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women who are dead set horn dogs.
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There's got to be a downside, right? I
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mean, apart from saying weird things and getting
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glassy-eyed while talking Jip Rock? Women
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with low sensitivity breaks
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tend to be the ones who
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engage in higher risk behaviours because
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they don't have a powerful break
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preventing them from engaging in behaviours
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that they know intellectually have a
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higher risk of unwanted consequences. I
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have a lot of shame about things I've done in the past.
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This is Veronica again. I
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think one of my biggest moments of shame is
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when I've not been as safe
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as I could be, either sort
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of in where I'm having sex
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and also not properly using contraceptives,
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which has resulted in me falling
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pregnant when I was 17, which
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was really hard. Not
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that I have any shame about being pregnant at a
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young age or the decisions I made following that, but
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I should have made decisions that haven't put me in
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that position in the first place. In
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the past, Veronica's voracious need
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for sex, her horn, dragged
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her vulva first into some
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very bad choices. I
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have ended up making some terrible mistakes
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with other people and hurting people, hurting
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my friends because of things I've done,
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and also losing friendships because my friends
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are just sick of hearing about it.
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You know, I did have one point a friend of
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mine stopped inviting me to parties because the first thing
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I do is turn up and Scour
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the room for the person I could most
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likely sleep with Which
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is you know, not a good friend
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No one wants to be that
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friend, but Veronica often finds that
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horniness just overwhelms her I'm
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assuming other people can just sort of switch it
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off or not be bothered by sex sometimes That's
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just not in my world And so I
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can't comprehend how that feels for the people and I
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can't expect other people to comprehend how that feels for
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me either Veronica it sounds like
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you feel very alone in this experience
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of high sex drive So
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the beginning of relationship especially with men they
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all go. Yeah, it's fine. I can totally
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keep up with you. That's cool I can
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go like a Juris el bunny or whatever
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but then give it two months and
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they've had enough. I Mean there
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has been a few cases where I've actually injured
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people without meaning to I
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didn't even know you could break a banjo string until I was
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in my 20s, but apparently that is a thing Can
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you explain what you just said? So
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the tiny little bit of skin between
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the head of the penis and the shaft there's a
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little Tight bit of flesh
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there and you can snap that
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So was it just too much friction on it I Think
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so maybe overuse I'll just go again and
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again and again When
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Veronica became pregnant with her now
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son for the first time since
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puberty the thought of sex repulsed
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her It
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was like the horny raging in
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her brain. Finally went quiet. I
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Could have happily been celibate for the rest
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of my life and the idea of anyone
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else touching me felt Disgusting.
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I don't want to go anywhere near anyone in that
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context at all and that didn't
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stop until about
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