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note this episode contains discussion
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of domestic abuse and graphic descriptions
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of violence
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i see a lot of stuff i've seen
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a lot of suicides have seen a lot of death
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by see a lot of hurting people
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that's gonna say mind she's a volunteer
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e m t
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pretenders free time helping people access
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mental health services in montana can
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it was one of the the people we talked to
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before traveling to montana i
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then we felt like we basically talk to every
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mental health professional and the mountain west so
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we didn't really need more sources but several
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people mention them and we figured one more call
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couldn't hurt
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started off like all , pre interview
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as we do with experts what do you do
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why do you do what you do yada yada yada
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and things took and unexpected
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turn i'll be honest
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with your eyes
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this is just between us right now i guess i don't
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wanna have dissolved are
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enough bombay there
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was one moment right over after
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i got a lot worse might have my done in my mouth
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in was faltered and
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the anything critical emmy of i would
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look at our that's it
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we hold a we caught off
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guard by dennis confessing this deeply
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personal private thing with me and the
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team and , could hear him as
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he was saying it and and disbelief
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that it was even coming out of his mouth we
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all got off the call the team isn't
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years and maybe like maybe
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day later dennis fell it up and said he
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wanted to share his story on the show
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so we scheduled a formal interview
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and dennis came prepared
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they got all this stuff arabia
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is just
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, i have things and it's is bullet
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points to so i have i don't lose
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mice mice know my when
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i am i know i can terry now i
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am nervous and
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, nervous i'm excited
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and certainly nervous and for that way so
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with every that happen i i
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decided that it's
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right thing to do my wife and me and my
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fact this morning just talked about you
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, she says you know do what you're hardly to do
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and so i am gonna
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do
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what my hardly me do and i'm going to talk about sauce
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that's where i'm at
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okay
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so let's start at the beginning
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enough of a cop he was dealing with the
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worst possible cases you can imagine
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and , seen law and order special victims unit
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i was essentially dennis his life fourteen
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years holy for test
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and child and sexual abuse cases
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yeah he's seen a lot
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of really traumatic service
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and he was doing it without any
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real mental health support in place
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honestly i'd i did see what
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it was doing to me inside be honest with you
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i i , what i did
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then as i just got a priest softer side saying
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okay okay is go
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there you're helping people you see
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the worst of the worst the and
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and it's just part it's how that
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as part of career as as part of a it's part of the
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job for joy for preference
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along him and your preference ,
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tells ya okay your your mind says okay
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since you seem to seem quite
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a bit now and it's real
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the after pouring everything and us
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career that had taken up so much space
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in his heart and soul dennis
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decided it was the for a change
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talk my wife and
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made the decision the decision in go on forces
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mom been some time
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to said figure out when
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i wanna do the
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within six month period of me leave and
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and before and after that
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, finally finally
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i was certain to struggle
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the new dennis was leaving law enforcement
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for the sake of has mental health it
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was was transition i
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mean he was suddenly waking up with
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so much time on his hands and know
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somewhat idea what to do with it routine
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even a sad and i live in one
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is comforting losing that
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can throw everything into question
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then if eventually found himself at a breaking
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point i
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was
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this really on a hard day i
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can't even remember the details of the day
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but i know i would
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probably wasn't fun to be around
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and i was so
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angry at the world and
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they got to the point where i said life
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this is now worth anymore and
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i decided i'm going back to the bedrooms warehouse
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and
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i'm gonna i'm gonna be done
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that my gun
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and know
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, a forty caliber weapon it's it's
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it's firearms a firearm
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see don't get much chance you can take the
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boards back right arm
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and i made us as the
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a decision this at one point don't
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know why i
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, but again in my mouth arms
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my wife
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and daughter must have heard something and
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, came back into the back bedroom i
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had i done in my mouth mouth
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had my finger on the trigger which has
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long for saucer near put your finger near put trigger i'm
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ushered in a suit it though
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i'm lucky i'm
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, that didn't go off because it so
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easily easily put a one off ah
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i'm something happened where i
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must have heard her my daughter's
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the cry and or whatever and
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i put the gun down
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when we talked again as he kept mentioning
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the impact that this experience had
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on his wife and daughter
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who walked in to find
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ten with a time in his mouth when
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i heard economic
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he can't imagine it seems
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he would have caused them that he died
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that day a hand
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it so easily the could have
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gone that way
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then he feels free fall and
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conflicted and the whole
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thing is still so complicated
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even now he's not totally
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sure how to frame the story
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i would never say that was his who sent survivor i
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sell our time think about that that
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i truly believe i i guess i am
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and here i am i'm a second guess myself
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maybe to
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to that is a processor you know your i
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don't want to be either be either want i'm
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not i don't want to be weak the oh
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that's another thing is stigma is people
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don't want to talk about suicide because
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you're , then then people
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that are known as known that
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were live in and
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night attention
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to what was going on with yourself so
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i think i learned that
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, boy all
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can fall into that trap and i fell
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into a trap
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over the last two seasons are big
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question has been how do you make
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it through a moment of crisis even
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if specifically how in the world
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do you make it through a moment of crisis when a gun
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is involved like we heard
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so many times before sire
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the are defined to be as
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a lethal as possible that's
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the point usually don't get
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a second chance when a gun is involved how
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for this last episode of season three
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going to hear from the survivors
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of , lived there
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he the
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no human and i was watching
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jon stewart shell
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they were doing an episode on guns
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worse , worse if it wasn't really really
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situation that was warranted lose custody
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of your gone for a month but
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it's not a way to save some
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how is that even in question
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the argument you get a lot of signs
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is it is star year with with
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full and back sun rises here take this
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guns away in these situations and you just come up with
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another situation week heavens and then another
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as the in a nail
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the slippery slope it's not a slippery
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slope were already at the bottom of the
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hill that people
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ross talking to john c
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empower advocate cannot paulson went
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on the show to talk about gun violence
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and america and i was
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totally blown hey i
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both of them like dennis
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these two women have survived terrifying
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moment of crisis and ,
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case the gun wasn't in their hands
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it was in the hands of their abusers
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abusers this is a big deal
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and we haven't yet addressed the seasons
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that nearly two thirds of intimate
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partner homicides are with goons
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domestic violence and is five times
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more likely to be killed when
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their abuser has ought to athens
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and just in case you need one more her as
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extent than in the us twenty
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i'm more likely to be killed by
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than than women and other high
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income countries twenty one times
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but it
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you have relationship given as obvious
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as it might seem even
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when you're in the middle of one
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hi fi you know now that everything's
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and folded people always kind of they thought
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that i would been someone who could
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have quote unquote seen it coming
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that's because april new more
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than most she'd spent years
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and law school helping survivors
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a domestic violence secure protective
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orders after graduating
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she eventually landed a job as a prosecutor
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around that same time i was still dating my
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high school sweethearts and
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shortly after me getting out of
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law school we got engaged
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and married our relationship
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was always
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a bit tumultuous nasa
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the that i recognize as abuses
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at the time but probably would have
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called a little bit unhealthy mean
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even toxic and at
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the moment that he proposed to me i'll be
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honest with you my my
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instincts my and sauna we as and was
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you know oh shit you know this know this really
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works
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i don't know if i really want to but
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let you know you're kind of you
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, trained in any kind of programmed
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as a woman that that's what's yours useful
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to strive to to married
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having a family and ah settling
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down and sell this was to me
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my best shot in i didn't really
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are probably the best self esteem if i'm being
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honest and thought that i wouldn't
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ruin find anyone else and even though
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he didn't see the dance i also thought maybe the
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mares to be a reset you know some of
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the behavior that was harmful and hurtful
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was are dating years things
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didn't work out i gave us a lot
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in fact marry my spot
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on mauritius her husband became
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increasingly manipulative controlling
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and hurtful eventually april
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had had enough so honey fourteen
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they split up
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that's operation ah led
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me to feel like oh
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this this this is not amir's i think
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i'll take into abu of really sell free
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and i can't breathe for the first time in
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a long time and so on
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the weather long after was i lost him that
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i decided that i wanted to the prominent
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in file for divorce i
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believed that even
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though he was is playing some alarming behaviors
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ultimately that we were working out
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what was gonna end up being an amicable divorce
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we didn't have children out ah
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the only property we aren't with the house which house
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which agreed to give him and of and i'm in
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the joint bank accounts ah my sister
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was ready to give it all up i just wanted to be
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free and to start mile
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finally april and her husband came
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to an agreement about the divorce them
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into a bank i know the necessary paperwork
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that it notarized and , as
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they were walking back to their cars for
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has been announced that he had a gift for her she
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handed her handed paperback
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what would inside was to toil plastic
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water guns you know me
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wanting told me that i'm it
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, up to media you know make the first mover
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since we pull the trigger on
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and it was all for sharing of course
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that he wanted you know you're telling me
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and maybe and not so subtle way now looking
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at it that he is that he for divorce
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the that you know that
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would be source the beginning
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of the end the
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time
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april just shrugged it off it
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didn't feel like a genuine threat
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how p filed the divorce papers
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as planned few days later
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she was driving with a friend on a strange
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beat up car pulled up
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the didn't know at at the time there
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was her husband armed and
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ready to ambush the
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time i recognize he was
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even
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the window of the car a me
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talking about a split second
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before the time i saw him to
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the mama he was raised in advance and i'll tell
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you probably the only reason i'm alive in the
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always now was shot three times as because
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the passenger my car ah
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who someone i'd known for i had known for wow
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hi antibody and blast and he that
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six times
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what i was shot in in the face in that
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the bullet went through my jaw ah
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and , was also sadness on right
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forearm and then at the that kind
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of slumped forward in in the third time
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when when my back and hit me
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in me in up
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here my next which left
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knee paralyzed from the chest down
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a few hours later april's has been less and
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he had died from a self inflicted gunshot
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wounds
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i don't think april ever could have imagined their
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story ending this way even
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with all the red flags it
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didn't look away these relationships
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are typically portrayed because
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she wasn't sure if it was bad enough
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she say and the tried
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to make it work that even
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though it didn't start with physical abuse
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a home and eat at an unspeakable
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finance saturday
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she's working to redefine abuse
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so that people can identify the signs and
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get help earlier isn't
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doing this work alone
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after the break we meet janet a
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woman is joining her in the fight
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you might have heard of nine eight eight the new national
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psychiatric crisis line that's launching in july
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but our country psychiatric emergency systems
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are already struggling to meet the needs of the most
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vulnerable and historically marginalized communities
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how can we make sure that nine they can reach
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all americans to offer aid
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that's right a kennedy satcher center for mental
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half later
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i
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was married for fifteen years
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and the last five
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years and he
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was kenneth spiralling out
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of control
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janet paulson she lives in acworth
19:32
georgia about an hour north of atlanta
19:35
she's a mom of two twin boys who
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both play college baseball today during
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, last five years of marriage her husband scott
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started dealing with some significant mental
19:44
health and addiction issues he didn't
19:46
get help and help took a lot
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of it out on jan
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i wasn't physically abusive a sexual
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abuse this emotional abuse
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he was just flat out mean
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and as his alcohol
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consumption increase
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it just got off the chain the
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chain knew what is he gonna do next
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to nothing
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got behavior just got more
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and more erratic
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my boys they're twins they were thirteen
20:17
at the time and they came to me and they said no
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he's drinking with us in the fact that the truck
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that was like white
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then he would pick them up from football practice
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and even go and get spencer
20:30
beer anyone part in the graveyard
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emma hundred
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thirty years my children in the back of a far
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the dark and
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he threatened them and she go to your mom
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or else and when
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they came and told me the episode
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i try to get a medical science they
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try to get him into bs
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he the us wanted and
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i was willing to leave everything behind when
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i went in and i said
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the seen as a single
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after single after time you're not happy i'm not happy
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it's time for a city the covenant getting it worse
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lean back in a shirt he looked at mean it is
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why don't you go upstairs and train
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take the boy he went out
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and see it the
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report right thing
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that stops and the trinity
21:23
them from ubiquity joint custody in agrees
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with scaring me
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then i kept trying to be escalate
21:30
the situation because skirt
21:33
was getting desperate and she knew
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she was armed he was
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a gun enthusiast any had
21:40
there are firearms a
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my home that it concern
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me and i had actually
21:47
not down to his gun safes
21:49
when i and i taking pictures
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of all the firearm sinensis
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my
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having time and change the company sends
21:57
they can get into it but i can figure at it
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but anyway a he ended up leaving that
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night and he told
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my parents and he told my
22:07
father that if that if i was gonna
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divorced him i had another
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thing comments and he was gonna kill me
22:15
the i picked up
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my children from school and
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i called some of my girlfriends and
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i said any to the meet me at the department
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please or and
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i'll never forget the police
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officer that took my poor he said
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well
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it's report elements million and around
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he , your dad can be here tomorrow crying
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and you've made up and let
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me a canada are
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you don't understand i'm not going home
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i'm going to a hotel we're
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way past that point
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god it and we wonder
22:57
why so much domestic violence goes
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unreported in this country jan
23:02
it was in danger there was no
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way that she would willingly go back
23:06
to where her husband and his many
23:08
guns could get to her
23:11
jan i went to a hotel and are two
23:13
boys want to stay with a friend i
23:16
now she had done everything and
23:18
her power to protect herself and
23:20
her family it found the right report
23:23
that the right legal counsel she looked at the kids'
23:25
teachers about what was going on and
23:28
even ask them to not let scott pick
23:30
them up from school the
23:32
all the while he continued to bombard
23:34
her were threatening phone calls
23:38
the my that the police department and
23:40
my attorney both me to get
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the to order
23:45
your head a cheap yeah it's a temporary protective
23:47
order it says she is in an emergency
23:49
so i had to go in front of a family child's
23:52
play my case i had brought
23:55
all this picture is that as firearms
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i gave him the location so than i
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had all the please the report with me and
24:01
in this guy in it
24:04
the temporary protective order was just
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that temporary the
24:08
gave her some semblance of safety
24:11
unfortunately that was shirt last
24:15
he violated the protective order the
24:17
very next day by putting the center surveillance
24:20
he activated tracking app on my phone
24:22
and my children some
24:25
the janet went your app again at the sheriff's
24:27
department to filed a felony tpl
24:29
violation the statically name's
24:32
scott violated the temporary protective order
24:34
so now he'd be placed in jail until
24:36
their court date the request
24:39
was ultimately denied the
24:41
judge said there was no way to prove scott
24:43
had set up the surveillance maybe
24:46
it was someone else using a sound cause
24:48
that's and ah the time once
24:52
again janet was left to fend
24:54
for herself and , all
24:56
of this was happening she was also doing
24:59
everything in her power to get scots guns
25:01
out of the house this was it
25:03
was project because he had seventy
25:06
size as them seventy
25:08
size she ,
25:10
to get seventy four locked away in a safe
25:12
until the sheriff's department some pick them up but
25:15
there was still one last
25:19
what about the leninist check because
25:21
, always carried in his vehicle an
25:24
honest person and she said well
25:26
said can't really get that line a gray
25:28
area man that
25:31
cpl the mindset property
25:34
that trick is sitting is sitting driveway in
25:37
my county which unlike those anything
25:40
towards her as a product for can be test
25:42
and the ppl the stipulates
25:44
a fair to confiscate all check
25:47
coming
25:49
she let
25:51
him leave it on his tracks any
25:54
shot me with a five days later
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after the break janet walk us
26:03
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her name with janet paulson
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october thirty yes twenty fifteen janet's
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one her case for case temporary protect the
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order against god and , sheriff's
27:31
office an issue that gpl has
27:33
just confiscated at the seventy four guns
27:36
in their home of let him drive
27:38
away in
27:43
then went back to my that the police apparent and
27:45
to say hey he violated a protective
27:47
order i don't know you guys know
27:50
the here's the deal and a police
27:52
officer said i hope
27:54
is his paper and any peace paper unemployment
27:57
like does he took his pen a
27:59
shabby
28:00
the paper was holding it any
28:02
, the paper
28:06
is your gps image and
28:08
and a boy you need arm
28:10
yourself the overly
28:12
worried about this day
28:16
it is for
28:18
, mean how many times
28:20
this system sailed chance
28:23
chance again they were putting the responsibility
28:26
back putting her follow
28:29
the author the dice an armed
28:33
hell
28:34
thursday nov fifty thousand and fifteen
28:37
i marched right back at the same
28:39
coils that about that tpl
28:42
i apply for concealed carry permit
28:47
immediately after leaving the courthouse that
28:49
day she stopped by the cost the door
28:52
and then headed back home
28:54
oh and by the way janet was
28:56
back at house which felt a little safer
28:58
now that the guns were gone
29:01
i think i pulled in around six forty five
29:04
am i pulled my car into the garage
29:06
i've been to hit the button for the girls to come
29:08
as soon as i mean i sat enix hit
29:10
up and , with it's weird
29:14
and so do the job for
29:16
at least in my says the mirror
29:18
and see is not in the
29:20
garage when i opened the door and he
29:22
was leaning against the garage wall
29:25
three feet for me and he was coaching that done
29:28
i was like
29:30
i don't get a get out of course your day
29:33
get up his branch the
29:36
i play my head down i
29:39
had that can reverse and i hit the gas
29:41
it's hard to say could and i thought
29:43
city the garage door because it was still in the
29:45
process coming back down behind me
29:49
i'm trying to get his straight and get away
29:51
back , i wasn't looking of so
29:53
scared us and ussr mean the head i
29:57
hit a tree or my neighbor's yard and it
29:59
blew out my that window and
30:03
i looked up in here in here walking
30:05
down the driveway and that gun
30:07
pointed at me and my about that good weekend
30:09
streak it's good to street or keynotes
30:12
is your death and so
30:14
essence just go for the little that for
30:16
the hit the gas to hurt so assists a circle
30:19
and south korean back over my driveway
30:22
and i smashed into a bunch trees and the
30:24
my house and kind
30:26
of on an incline
30:28
the in here he is couple feet
30:30
from my driver's side window at
30:33
that time is somehow i
30:35
doubt that pasture side door a
30:37
fan i tumbled out and i started
30:39
running through the woods screaming for help
30:42
her paw ha hi
30:46
and i thought singing in my abdomen
30:49
i knew i could say never like this
30:51
invoices sites true nature
30:54
he the is worth few you're
30:56
gonna die trying to the neighbor's house
30:59
they try to like ran back
31:01
at that embankment
31:04
the across my driveway to get to the neighbor says
31:06
ancient mean the leg
31:08
and i have no and and then he showed me again
31:11
over and the middle of my driveway
31:15
meanwhile what i didn't know is that oh my
31:17
neighbors well or and nine
31:19
one one and watching a from
31:21
their house
31:24
my my emergency i just heard
31:26
shots six years or so am i just shot
31:28
fired shots why filed
31:31
for divorce last you say house
31:33
is not allowed to for house not allowed
31:35
in the neighborhood he had to give us these guys we're
31:40
mainly for concerns and i thought santa shop
31:42
on in his car and you were born on your flag
31:44
a lot
32:00
the and i fell over in the driveway
32:03
i phone kinda the edge of the driveway
32:05
made a to see for me and i watched
32:08
him sit me two more times i'm
32:11
a long shot i knew hit my
32:14
spinal cord because i felt this jolt
32:16
of electricity go through my body
32:18
and mean i knew immediately as well as i just
32:21
kept talking to myself like having
32:24
, you can even within the surface
32:26
and big deal to sift through
32:28
which you have to do the survive
32:32
and he ever
32:34
khamenei sit over me my
32:38
hand up to block his phase because
32:41
i didn't want that to be the last thing i had to
32:43
see if his kind of sit me down and
32:46
i just said like don't sit many more i'm
32:48
dying any said
32:51
walk , stairs
32:53
path the guy he put into this had any
32:55
pulled the trigger that it clicks
32:57
because here it clicks the ammunition
33:00
and the cliff firing at me
33:03
oh did i know
33:05
he was going to reload time
33:09
and empathetic driveway how
33:11
i played by please you know i didn't come
33:14
back over here to me these you can
33:16
occur to me and
33:18
instead he went lay down sympathy
33:20
for me and i heard a gunshot a
33:23
huge often a chess
33:29
i didn't die right away
33:31
the paramedics finally arrived they
33:34
loaded janet and to one ambulance
33:36
and scott into another the replete
33:39
features
33:44
i just remember telling myself paramedic
33:48
he does everything the teeth in are you today
33:51
anyway he would eventually get
33:54
him and they both sides sand
33:56
or ten minutes south and i repeat of act the
34:00
mm general
34:03
time and
34:05
i can enter enter didn't ever
34:07
, about my children and reflect
34:10
know eighty so those not
34:12
happening
34:14
and i remember what happened after that
34:17
and ever
34:20
after an athlete player from a coma
34:23
he had shattered my right femur
34:26
shattered my left knee added
34:29
during during i say added
34:31
during during the afternoon he
34:34
took out a third of my right arm
34:37
and the last from the miles two
34:40
vertebrae sell have an incomplete
34:42
sign of forced entry
34:46
the spinal cord injury like april's
34:48
left her in a wheelchair for the rest
34:50
of her life that
34:53
died at the shortly after surgery
34:57
then i was there are recovering for six weeks
35:00
until she was transferred to the shepherd
35:02
rehabilitation center
35:04
and i took my air the paramedics
35:07
told that i made it and
35:11
every fighter i see them on
35:13
my floor shepherds and they were
35:15
like crying they were like oh my god
35:17
the cannot believe you are a
35:19
me up the baffin island will check to see
35:21
them or thought he suffered as
35:24
a road we thought he'd severe acute sense
35:27
in this happening either an extra
35:29
crying and they told me never
35:31
that fits within a sad if
35:33
you for taking that he is critical issue
35:36
at made it
35:38
we think of shooting are you listening to
35:40
fudge with you a secret
35:42
trauma surgeon to
35:45
santa between you read prankster
35:48
to get access to the heart the
35:50
claimed my order he shocked if it's
35:52
electrodes and then a mothers'
35:54
my horse and his hand and it started
35:57
back
36:04
now the trimesters and is my hero cydia
36:06
think someone for saving your life that
36:09
i saw him
36:11
and he was just so thrilled
36:13
employees like you
36:16
are mere fall he now i'm
36:18
a hundred times we try and say someone
36:21
doing that procedure the ever
36:23
went
36:27
that bad about a hundred people
36:29
standing in a circle holding hands
36:31
look in each other like to sit and update
36:34
and him at me
36:40
this is an incredibly
36:42
heartwarming story about
36:45
a patient and the doctor who saved
36:47
her life
36:49
that a miracle shouldn't your
36:51
best bet for survival
36:55
so many moments and janet in april story
36:58
where things could have ended differently
37:00
for them and their husbands their
37:03
to stories of domestic abuse he
37:05
was a series and simplify
37:08
so much of what we've covered the the
37:11
those of these men were dealing with untreated
37:14
mental illness janet has been
37:16
struggling with alcoholism both
37:18
are experiencing huge transitions
37:20
and relationship issues which are
37:22
, risk factor for suicide and neither
37:25
had any coping skills or access to mental
37:27
health resources and this terrible
37:29
combination of risk factors less
37:33
easy access to guns made these
37:35
men lethal to their partners and
37:37
themselves part of
37:39
what makes all of this truly unfair
37:42
is that these stories could have gone completely
37:44
different ways had janet in april
37:46
list in a different state because
37:49
that is how gun laws work
37:51
and america like georgia
37:54
is one of the few states that does not comply
37:57
with federal laws when it comes to domestic abuse
38:00
you can be charged with a domestic violence misdemeanor
38:02
or have an active protective
38:04
order against you and still
38:07
keep your guns in georgia janet
38:09
happens to live in a company that will remove firearms
38:12
if noted on your tpl that
38:14
you heard her story when you're in
38:16
a state that doesn't take doesn't take seriously
38:18
your local sheriff night not either
38:21
they might just let your abuser to live
38:23
off with man in his truck and that same
38:25
sheriff's office might try to solve
38:27
an existing gone problem with more
38:30
time
38:31
remember janet applied for a
38:33
concealed carry permit because a police
38:35
officer suggested that would be
38:38
the only way to keep her and her
38:40
family safe
38:42
that in healthcare for a man came
38:45
in the mail and mail was in was coma nine days
38:47
later fighting for my life
38:51
an air that how scared
38:53
i live
38:55
and i'm sorry i can
38:57
i access that's your
39:00
thoughts as saying safe in
39:02
honor of a shot you are
39:05
i'm trying to fight fire with fire
39:07
isn't just dangerous it's also
39:09
totally impractical there's
39:12
april again
39:13
i would you know not only half
39:15
and know and have some experience to
39:18
handling firearms but i have to be
39:20
ready to work on to almost military like
39:23
the problem with the amount of pressure
39:25
an end and precision you would need
39:27
to survive and sells his
39:29
to say that the answer is
39:32
you just need to arm yourself you're
39:34
not speaking i'm of ab fab
39:36
place a reality
39:38
i'm
39:41
hearing a lot of that
39:44
don't seem to be steeped in reality
39:46
the way to solve gun violence is
39:49
more guns ceo
39:51
of the and are and wayne lapierre famously
39:53
said one thing a violent rape
39:55
us deserve to face is face good woman with woman gun
39:58
which is a real the man
40:00
on the have good guy with a gun argument the
40:03
answer to domestic abuse arm
40:06
women the answer to school shooting
40:08
arm teachers and these ideas
40:10
are actually getting traction
40:13
that are being baked into legislation
40:15
republicans in ohio just gonna
40:17
build up a governor that would allow teachers
40:19
to carry a gun in the classroom
40:23
in a time where guns are now the leading
40:25
cause of for children that
40:29
is reality you
40:32
know we , the season
40:34
time and to figure out how we can
40:36
make people safer in a country with
40:39
so many guns
40:41
and after and year as pounding the pavement
40:44
with pavement string of particularly horrific
40:46
headlines over the past few weeks
40:49
past few it is possible for
40:52
janet her call to action
40:54
team from a hospital bed in the shepherd
40:57
rehabilitation center april
40:59
wheeled into her room one day in
41:02
reduced herself as a pure supported by sir
41:05
and , that first visit iced
41:07
is janet would join her and advocating
41:10
for domestic violence victims victims
41:12
didn't know exactly how they would do it
41:15
but she felt like they had to do
41:17
something
41:22
okay to see me
41:24
thank you wanna get on board with this
41:26
as such as i i away oh
41:30
it the
41:33
one that didn't make it
41:37
we all went to the ones who didn't make
41:40
the we also i went to every survivor
41:43
that includes
41:44
the net an april and dennis
41:47
beat the odds and last it
41:50
also includes all of the others
41:52
drivers we met the season the
41:54
parents who lost their children
41:56
to firearm suicides and homicide
41:59
who who are living with the trauma
42:01
the shot in time the
42:03
neighborhoods that have been hollowed out
42:06
and galveston that are rampant times
42:10
we only you all of them
42:13
yeah it's going to take
42:16
to take of time and uncomfortable
42:18
conversations and it's going
42:20
to take everyone gun
42:22
lovers and gun haters are like we
42:25
, have our reasons to come to the table
42:28
and we can bring all of our biases with
42:30
us as long as we're willing to
42:32
start from it's place as reality
42:35
and agree the defenseless
42:37
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