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slurs. It's
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the night of the 2016 MTV VMAs. Rihanna
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just walked away with the big video
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vanguard of the year award. She's someone
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I've been in love with since I was 22 years old. Oh
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gosh.
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Wait, wasn't this the same night Drake went
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in for a kiss? Yeah, and Rihanna
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dodged that mug. And after
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the show, all the celebs pulled
0:53
up to her after party. It's like a
0:56
VMA after party
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at Up and Down. And I guess it
1:00
was Rihanna's after party. The party's
1:02
at NYC Club Up and Down
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and one of the attendees happens to be Atlanta
1:07
artist I Love Makonnen. And so everybody
1:09
was in the building, you know what I'm saying? And we
1:12
playing music, everybody's dancing, having a good time. Said what's
1:14
up to everybody in there. All the stars,
1:16
everybody who was a thing, right?
1:18
Fashionistas, models,
1:20
influencers, pop stars. The
1:23
room is heavy with the who's who of the music world. The
1:26
lights are dim, bottles
1:28
and balloons everywhere. And Makonnen,
1:31
he's mingling in the back with some of his fashion designer
1:34
friends. They even took strooms earlier
1:36
in the night. So everybody was feeling,
1:38
you know, nice, having
1:40
a good time. Until...
1:42
Drake and Rihanna walk in and everybody
1:45
moves out the way and they got big security. And
1:47
I ain't seen Drake in a minute, you know what I'm saying? So I'm like, hey
1:49
Drake, Drake,
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Drake, what's up? A couple years earlier,
1:53
Drake and Makonnen had made magic together
1:55
when Drake turned Makonnen's viral song Tuesday
1:58
into a Billboard hit. and signed
2:00
him to his label OVO.
2:02
And so then Drake looked at me, I was like, Drake,
2:04
what's up? And then he looked at me like, look
2:07
at next time I see him, I'm gonna fuck you up for talking shit. Although
2:16
Drake and Maconnen had officially severed ties
2:18
months before, it had been a while since
2:21
they'd seen each other face to face. But
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Maconnen still didn't have any reason to think that
2:25
there was any love loss. Whole
2:27
security everybody looking like. You know what I mean? They
2:29
see Drake is like disgruntled, he's about to... So
2:31
they all looking like, what's the target? And they see
2:33
Maconnen in LA, huh? Everybody
2:36
just kind of look confused like, I
2:38
don't know, you know what I mean? That ain't no muscle to
2:40
go and beat down type shit. Like, you know,
2:43
bread look chill. So they just kind of walked
2:45
on and then, you know,
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I just felt like a lot of, you know, like we were
2:50
in it because Rihanna kind of looked at me and was like, what the fuck? Like,
2:52
nigga, this is my night up in this bitch. What the fuck
2:54
are y'all doing? And I was just like,
2:56
look, I don't know what's... I'm gonna just get up out here. And
2:59
with these type of vibes, Maconnen
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realizes it's about time to go. He
3:04
starts making his way to the exit. I don't know what's
3:06
going on. I'm just gonna go ahead and leave because even everybody
3:08
was, what you do to Drake? What you do? I'm like, I can
3:10
do that. Just say, what's up? I
3:12
don't know what's going on. So I was like, all right, let me get out
3:15
of here. So then as I'm walking out of the club, I see other
3:17
OVO dudes and they're like,
3:18
Maconnen, what's up, bro? What's up? I'm like,
3:20
bro, I don't know what's up. Y'all tell me what's up. Your
3:22
man's just chomping me down, he
3:24
gonna fuck me up next time you see me. So I'm
3:26
out. Because I'm not trying to cause
3:29
no problems up in here at this little nice queer
3:32
friendly establishment. So
3:34
I'm a dip. And so I dip and
3:36
then I tweeted out and like, yo,
3:38
I don't know what this is about. And then one
3:40
of his assistants from one of his little fans, I said,
3:42
you should take that down because this and that. And I'm
3:44
like, what are we saying, y'all? It's
3:48
like, I don't have no communication
3:50
with y'all. Right? And
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then when I see y'all in public, it's like, y'all
3:53
want beef. And I'm like, I don't have
3:55
no beef with you. So what is the beef about?
3:58
What is the beef about?
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This question has followed Maconan for
4:03
years, and just about anybody who
4:05
witnessed Maconan's rise has speculated
4:07
about his fallout with Drake.
4:10
It always fell deeper than just two rappers
4:12
on the outs. I feel like there's
4:15
a strong perception that the
4:18
reason that relationship fizzled, you
4:20
know... Was because I was gay? Yeah. Yeah,
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I don't think that's the case, because me and him wasn't talking
4:25
before that. You know what I mean?
4:27
Now, Maconan wasn't out at the time, but
4:29
the way he anticipates the question, it
4:31
speaks volumes. He's heard it a million
4:34
different times, a million different ways.
4:36
And even though it shouldn't matter, the real
4:39
question is why hip hop cares
4:41
so much in the first place.
4:44
Maybe nothing is more clearly defined
4:46
by rap than the fragility of black masculinity
4:50
and the perceived threat to masculinity that
4:52
queerness poses.
4:55
I'm Rodney Carmark. I'm
4:57
Sydney Madden. And from NPR Music,
4:59
this is Louder Than A Riot. Where
5:01
we confront the double standard that's become
5:04
the standard. On every
5:06
episode this season, we tackle one unwritten
5:08
rule of hip hop that affects the most marginalized
5:11
among us and holds the entire culture
5:13
back.
5:14
And one that a new generation
5:16
of rap refuses to stand for. Just
5:19
as Maconan was making it cool to get emo
5:21
in the trap, the industry turned its back
5:23
on him. So we're lifting the veil on the
5:25
story of I Love Maconan and
5:28
grappling with the ways his presence brought
5:30
out rap's worst behavior. This
5:32
is nervous. This is, I'm
5:34
nervous. You nervous? Yeah. Why
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you nervous? You know, this is a lot of conversations
5:41
and thoughts I've had in my own head that
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I've yet to, I guess, express in
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public. On this
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episode, rule number six, real
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niggas go hard. Pause, no
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homo.
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I never forget how I found out about this
6:09
dude. So I'm at the office one
6:11
day at Creative Loafing, my old paper
6:13
in Atlanta, R.I.P. When
6:15
one of my coworkers, the homie and
6:17
former culture editor Gavin Godfrey, burst
6:20
into the office. He just got
6:22
him to the latest rapper, Bubbling
6:24
Up in Atlanta. I'll never forget there was this kind
6:27
of chubby kid with the little S-curl
6:29
thing going on. And right off the top,
6:32
Gavin saw something in the corner. With
6:34
a very loud, neon greenish hoodie,
6:36
it was peacocking. So
6:38
Gavin starts running down dudes' discography for
6:40
me, pulling up videos, playing
6:43
joints off his mixtape, and everything
6:45
about him
6:46
is just hitting different. You saw him and you
6:49
couldn't take your eyes off of him, and so I was like, everything
6:52
I see, I now need to hear what's going on.
6:54
He plays a song called Too Much.
6:59
And Mcconnell, he's singing over trap
7:02
beats. Not mumbling melodies, but
7:04
straight up singing, like a trippy,
7:07
drippy trap-libber-achi. It
7:10
struck for me, this kid sounds like a weird
7:14
pop star from the 80s. He had these
7:16
tears for fear, his vibe's going.
7:19
And when he played the video for I Don't Sell Molly
7:21
No More, I saw the vision.
7:30
Forget low budget, this video, it
7:33
was zero budget. He's
7:35
rolling through the east side, trapping out of
7:37
vintage ice cream truck, with
7:39
all kinds of strange things hanging out the
7:41
window, mannequin heads and whatnot.
7:44
Talking about, I got the gas and the coke,
7:47
I don't sell my lid no
7:49
more. It was a total tragic
7:52
comedy.
7:53
You know, in Atlanta, our history is like, we really
7:56
celebrate and pride our weirdos,
7:58
right? just out there eccentric,
8:02
have done some of the greatest cool things in the city. Think about
8:04
like 900 or 3000. You think of really anybody
8:06
in the Dungeon Family, Joy, Gip, like these folks,
8:10
they have this kind of vibe, this
8:12
really like, you know, I'm me
8:15
and there's no bones about it.
8:17
Yeah, Atlanta might be known for producing some eccentric
8:19
cats, but no class of AT
8:22
aliens was weirder than the class of 2014.
8:25
I'm talking young Thug, Rich Homie
8:27
Quan, OG Mako, but
8:30
Mcconnen, he almost made everything
8:32
else out of Traplana sound normal in comparison.
8:35
You've been cheating on, cheating on me. So
8:39
I've been cheating on, cheating
8:41
on you. You've been cheating
8:44
on me, Brianna. He
8:46
didn't just sound different. He was coming at
8:48
rap from a totally unique point of view. Mcconnen
8:51
felt foreign, from the vulnerability
8:53
in his voice straight down to his swag.
8:56
To see this kid, especially in hip hop, was so
8:58
much like machismo. He was just like bragging
9:01
about how he was into like the cosmetics industry.
9:04
Before Mcconnen touched a mic,
9:06
he was a bonafide hairdresser. He
9:08
grew up with a beautician for a mom and
9:10
would practice his skills on mannequin heads, dyeing
9:13
their hair in rainbow colors for fun.
9:15
And
9:15
it was while he was at beauty school that
9:17
he stumbled into music. So some of the students
9:20
at the school were doing music. And so
9:24
they let me sort of like tag
9:26
along and learn under them. And
9:29
one of the guys, Eddie Hollywood, was like
9:31
a real trap star. You know what I'm saying?
9:34
Bully Biddin the streets, all that. And he had got in
9:37
trouble with the law and all that. So he was in beauty
9:39
school, doing something positive with his time. And
9:41
then he has sort of like, you know, changed his life
9:43
over and got reborn
9:46
again Christian. And so he started doing like crunk
9:48
church music,
9:49
right? And so I was, that was my first introduction
9:52
to the Atlanta music scene, was through
9:54
the crunk church music. And so this was
9:56
like praising God, having gospel
9:59
music message.
9:59
behind it, but in the trap style. McCone
10:02
started producing beats in his bedroom using
10:05
an old BR-1180 and a keyboard.
10:07
Just messing around. A lot of my first
10:10
early songs were just jokes. Just
10:12
jokey, trolling songs. I'm just in there doing
10:15
a whole radio show by myself. My
10:17
mom would be at work from 8 to 4. I'd
10:19
be in there from 11 to 3 and just going silly. And
10:24
just saying all type of stuff and listening back to it and being like,
10:26
oh my God, this is so stupid. Nobody ever gonna hear
10:28
it. And when he first started,
10:29
he was just producing beats. And
10:32
then I was like, oh, these are good. I'm like, why
10:34
don't you let me sing to some of your
10:36
songs? That's
10:38
McCone's mom and first collaborator, Cosmic.
10:41
She'd been a musician back in the day, so she
10:44
helped him out with recording and even hopped on some of his
10:46
early joints. Because my mom started helping
10:48
me really work on my real
10:50
songs to where she started teaching me
10:52
how to song write and all
10:54
that. In a sense, he really learned
10:56
on his own, but I taught him some
10:59
fundamentals. He really
11:02
wanted to
11:04
produce for others. He's very good
11:06
at arranging and coming up with different
11:08
parts. He has a very good ear and he's
11:11
good
11:12
keyboardist. But
11:14
it was McCone's voice that really set him apart.
11:17
Oh, I thought it was awesome. I
11:20
thought it was different because
11:23
when you come from a gospel,
11:26
R&B, and the way that he
11:30
would sing, I was like, mm. And
11:32
McCone is
11:34
genius in the way that he uses
11:36
his voice because he knows how
11:38
to hit all the notes, but
11:41
he will slide off the note.
11:43
It's his own special way of doing
11:45
where it almost sounds
11:47
off key. But then
11:49
it
11:49
works. Basically,
12:03
Mcconnell was queer in the trap,
12:06
bringing the glitz and glam of pop radio,
12:09
folk music, hell, even opera to the
12:11
streets. And
12:12
within a few years, he found some folks
12:14
in Atlanta who were down with what he was doing, Awful
12:17
Records. There's some fringe people
12:19
that would come around every once in a while because they saw it.
12:22
This is like, this is a very welcoming group, clearly.
12:25
That's Father, the founder of Awful Records,
12:27
a whole slew of young cats who took psychedelics
12:30
like Mcconnell through parties and
12:32
made some of the weirdest, hardest ATL
12:34
hip-hop this side of Outkast.
12:36
Like Father's breakout single, Look
12:39
at Ris, featuring Kia Mcconnell.
12:48
Like someone listening to the crew were also very, you know
12:52
what I'm saying, like moon space
12:54
stars. So
12:56
he kind of was into that group
12:58
of like, you know, just extended
13:00
thought, you know? So
13:03
there was members of the crew that he could
13:04
melt with like that. So
13:07
just free thought, free thought,
13:09
no judgment. What was lesser known
13:12
at the time was that he was collaborating with
13:14
some of the biggest and best known producers coming
13:16
out of Atlanta. Producers
13:18
like Mike Wiel made it, Sonny Digital,
13:20
Metro Boomin. Now these were the cats putting
13:23
Atlanta's trap sound on the international map. They
13:25
were passing Mcconnell around from studio to
13:27
studio, almost like a cheat code. It
13:30
was like the quintessential at that time,
13:32
Atlanta producers, like
13:34
that wow, like, you know, you would come back through
13:37
every so often and then just
13:39
tell us like, you know, just crazy ass tales
13:41
and just random
13:43
industry secrets. And
13:45
we're, you know, we're just all in the living room just like, okay,
13:47
man.
13:55
Even though he was making a name for himself and moving
13:58
fluidly between the city's mainstream in
14:00
other ground scenes, but
14:01
Conner was still struggling to break big in Atlanta.
14:04
By 2014, he was on the verge
14:06
of giving up. Then one
14:08
night while he was at Mike Wills' studio with
14:10
the duo Ray Schremmurd and some more industry
14:12
cats, a song just flowed
14:15
right out of him. I ended up
14:18
freestyling Tuesday right there because it was
14:20
Monday night and turned into Tuesday
14:22
morning and I was like, we got the little clubhouse, we got the
14:24
little clubhouse, my guys out in the clubhouse, shit. I'm
14:27
like, hey, you know, the little club going up on Tuesday.
14:30
I started going with
14:33
it, and I just made the whole little song right
14:35
there on the spot.
14:36
Got the club going up on
14:39
a Tuesday. Got your girl
14:41
in the car that she choose. Got
14:43
your club going up on a
14:46
Tuesday. Got your girl
14:48
in the car that she choose. When
14:51
he dropped Tuesday on SoundCloud in the
14:53
summer of 2014, the song
14:55
was so addictive it caught fire quick.
14:57
It started, it took off. You know what
14:59
I mean? It was really going crazy to where it's
15:01
like, it's a local legend and
15:04
everybody who on the ends is hearing
15:06
it. And Tuesday was so Atlanta off
15:09
jump because
15:09
here's the thing about the trap capital.
15:11
Everybody's got a side hustle. It
15:14
ain't just the doughboys and the dancers. Even
15:16
the real estate agents got a trap mentality. Everybody's
15:19
fueling the underground economy one way or another.
15:22
One person's work week is somebody else's weekend
15:25
and the party don't
15:26
end. Like
15:29
Atlanta, we don't have a party, right? And I feel like
15:31
we can find
15:33
an excuse to turn any day into
15:36
an event. And I think Tuesday
15:38
really got it that. But I think it was also
15:41
like, you know, weirdly, I remember
15:43
hearing it was a good nod to like service industry people
15:45
in Atlanta who actually their weekend is a Monday or
15:47
a Tuesday. So they felt
15:49
like scene for the first time. And I also think it was
15:52
just like, you know, a maconan
15:54
again, it's such this weird kind of oddball
15:56
guy. So it makes sense that it's like,
15:58
yeah,
15:59
party on Tuesday. why not get caught
16:01
on a school night rather than the weekend
16:03
because that
16:05
just seems like something so
16:07
weird that I should probably embrace that, right?
16:11
So I was becoming local, you
16:13
know what I'm saying? You
16:15
a champ here, you got the song, it's dope,
16:18
it's real, it's authentic. We really coming
16:20
out on a Tuesday now, it's really a movement
16:23
for the community. This shit is really
16:25
hitting us. We really live in
16:27
this one. And so Atlanta
16:30
just started, you know, just going, we just started
16:32
having the best time, you know, like every, every,
16:35
every week on Edgewood and all that, wherever
16:37
at, we just having a great time.
16:41
McCone had been on the bubble in Atlanta for
16:43
a minute, just waiting his turn. But
16:45
now that he had a club banger in his back pocket,
16:47
it felt like he was about to blow.
16:50
And then like Wiz Khalifa and them start playing it. And
16:52
like, you know, like it started to get in the industry and people
16:54
was playing it. And then
16:57
somebody texts me or I
16:59
got a tweet and it was like, Drake and McCone and fire.
17:01
I was like, bruh, Drake and McCone would be for her, huh? And
17:04
then I saw the next tweet and it was like
17:06
from OVO sound, it was like, have a wonderful Tuesday.
17:09
And it was like Drake, I'll McCone
17:11
and bring it Tuesday. And so I was like, oh shit. And
17:13
so I started playing it and my friends pulled out their cameras
17:16
and they reacted and I was like, like,
17:19
no, like what? Like,
17:20
what the fuck? This is
17:23
Drake. This
17:25
is crazy. This
17:29
is crazy. What
17:33
the fuck? There's
17:38
no way this is real right now. There's
17:40
two big cameras. Nobody
17:48
flipping packs now. I
17:50
just did three in a row. Now,
17:53
I understand this was the era of the Drake. feature.
18:01
You knew you were out of here when
18:03
Drake hopped on your joint and Atlanta cats
18:05
were already basking in it. He giving
18:07
Migos their first breakout hit when he jumped
18:09
on Versace a year earlier.
18:16
He done the same for an artist on the come-up
18:18
named Future when he hopped on Tony Montana.
18:21
Now
18:21
it was Maconans time to
18:23
feel the Drake effect. It
18:29
was amazing. I was so happy and I was like
18:31
damn I gotta get in touch with them. You know what I
18:34
mean? I ain't never even talked
18:36
to him about this but he done blessed
18:38
me with the with the version of that song
18:40
going crazy and now like shit my
18:43
stock done went up overnight. With
18:45
Drake on the first verse, Tuesday went from an Atlanta
18:48
thing to a national thing.
18:50
Maconans was popping up everywhere. Power 106
18:53
with J. Crews and Justin Credible. Lift
18:55
off Power 106, Crews and Creddy.
18:58
Maconan is on the lift off.
19:00
The Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon.
19:06
Even Nardwa.
19:07
Who are you? I am. I love Maconan.
19:10
Maconan, welcome. The song was doing numbers.
19:12
It climbed to number 12 on Billboard's Hot 100
19:14
and when Maconan officially
19:17
met Drake for the first time he
19:19
finally felt like he was on the inside
19:21
and Drake saw Maconan is more than just a one-off
19:23
too.
19:24
By September that same year,
19:26
Obio signed Maconan to a single deal and
19:29
they re-released his EP under the label. Now
19:32
this was a different story. This would
19:34
be the part where he launches in the Superstardom
19:37
but this ain't that story because after
19:39
his signing it felt like all the
19:41
hype behind Maconan just came
19:44
to a standstill. There's
19:46
probably a lot of stuff we don't know but I
19:48
remember there wasn't in a
19:50
moment it was more just like where's the music? Again,
19:53
Gavin Godfrey.
19:59
I thought, okay, if Mcconnan,
20:02
if you could actually just sit him down,
20:04
take that hustle, give him the resources
20:06
that an OVO and Warner Brothers or whatever
20:08
it was at the time could provide, you
20:11
could really, really tap in and make him this superstar
20:13
that people were saying that he could have been, and that didn't happen.
20:16
He was just kind of sitting there, and I always
20:18
thought that was really weird. Something had to have been up if
20:20
they weren't trying to come up with
20:23
the next Tuesday. You know what I mean? Just
20:25
like Gavin, I was feeling for another hit
20:28
of Mcconnan too. So
20:29
where was the music?
20:41
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It wasn't super clear why the music started slowing
22:09
up at the time. But looking back,
22:12
there was one interview that feeds into the
22:14
most persistent rumor. A
22:17
few months after OVO re-released Macon and
22:19
ZP, he made an appearance on
22:21
Hot 97 with Ebro. He's
22:24
professing to not selling drugs anymore. And
22:27
he's turning up on Tuesdays. Macon's
22:30
his name, give it up for him.
22:34
Even though it was supposed to be a coming out party
22:36
for one of rap's hot new emerging artists, it
22:39
turned into something weird. Ebro,
22:43
who's known for testing first timers, he
22:46
starts off fairly friendly. You
22:48
gave Drake a pass, keep it real. I mean, it
22:50
was Drake. It was, I mean, he took
22:52
it to a, he
22:55
took it to another level, you know what I'm saying? And it was
22:57
great. Then Ebro
22:59
gets in his bag a little bit and brings up
23:02
the fact that Macon didn't work as a cosmetologist.
23:05
So cosmetology school was your way
23:07
to be around women. Cause you know, a lot of times
23:09
we here do go into cosmetology school, we
23:11
think, you know, he's
23:14
a part of his game. Let's just say that's
23:16
how we see it. Now I know some straight dudes that do hair,
23:18
but that's not common. Yeah, well,
23:20
I mean, I like to say it's a new day
23:23
in age. I hear people from my ancestors
23:25
need to open up. I think the cosmetology thing
23:27
threw me for a loop. I'm in the beauty.
23:29
Listen, I am in the beauty. I'm in the beauty industry.
23:31
Listen, I'm gonna be real. I thought
23:34
maybe you was a gay artist. Now understand, Macon
23:37
wasn't even out.
23:38
So Ebro's getting all worked up by even just
23:40
the idea that Macon might
23:42
be gay. And dude just won't know.
23:46
Yeah, but that's so cliche. It's too
23:48
simple, right? Yeah, it's too simple. It's too simple. It's
23:50
like, I mean, come on. So
23:52
then if somebody start up wearing pink, oh, they're good. It's
23:55
like, we passed all that, y'all. Like, that's what I'm
23:57
saying. We gotta grow the fuck up and be grown.
23:59
Yeah, but skirts and fingers. It was almost like
24:02
Ebro was trying to yank Mcconnell out the closet.
24:04
No, I'm not saying, but there are individuals. I think that I didn't
24:06
know they'd have a skirt on with some fingernails.
24:08
There's some fingernails in the museum. Just to fuck the guy. But
24:11
he said he wasn't gay, so what I'm... Exactly, he ain't gay.
24:13
What does it matter if he was gay, or if anybody
24:16
was gay? Like, what are they talking about?
24:18
Mcconnell saw right through what Ebro was trying
24:20
to do at the time. And he still does,
24:22
nearly a decade later. When we
24:24
sat down to talk to him in studio, that
24:26
interview was one of the things that came
24:29
up. He still sees it as a prime
24:31
example of hip-hop's masculinity
24:34
being threatened. Just stop, because
24:36
you the one that's holding on to this ignorant masculinity
24:38
bullshit that's fucking up the community right here.
24:41
You the voice on radio right here, Mr.
24:43
Ebro been up here all this time, and you trying
24:45
to push a stupid ass narrative on these young
24:47
kids out here like, oh, you gay. Was hip-hop
24:49
obsessed with whether or not you were gay from
24:51
the start?
24:52
I think so, but hip-hop's been obsessed
24:55
with that. Mcconnell should know. He
24:58
was a 90s baby coming up in LA just
25:00
as rap was starting to traffic in those gangster
25:03
tropes.
25:04
The same tropes that he was surrounded
25:06
by on his block. And so I'm
25:08
just like a child, and I'm
25:10
just seeing, you know, just the 90s. So, you
25:12
know, gang activity starting to take
25:15
off. And so my cousins will be coming bloods
25:17
over here on my dad's side, and then my brother's
25:19
a crib, and he over there with my grandma. I
25:22
would see my gangbang cousins getting to a lot
25:24
with my uncles and stuff like that, and they'd
25:26
be fighting over this masculinity on who ain't a man
25:28
type shit. And it's like, we over here gangbanging,
25:31
and we doing pushups, and we fighting to shoot motherfuckers.
25:34
We men, but then my uncles,
25:36
and then it's like, motherfucker, I'm taking care of seven
25:38
of my kids, my nephews, my aunts,
25:41
my uncle, my mom, my pa, his uncle.
25:44
I'm taking care of the whole family, and we come
25:46
from real gangbanging damn near. And
25:48
you know what I'm saying? So it's like, we men.
25:50
So I'm just watching this sort of clash
25:53
of masculinity happen in my house, you
25:56
in the streets, gangbanging, hip hop, all this
25:58
shit, we men, you know, young.
27:53
in
28:00
the world and express himself as a man.
28:03
You know, I was burning with curiosity
28:05
about why you would want to speak to me. That's Cosmic,
28:08
McConan's mom again. I know that McConan
28:10
has done interviews, you know, and
28:13
I can understand why, but nobody has ever
28:16
asked to interview me, so I'm just wondering,
28:18
yeah, why would you want to speak to me? What
28:21
is this about? We're
28:22
talking to Cosmic because she's the first
28:24
person who introduced McConan to the beauty
28:27
industry. So I would take him to work with me,
28:29
you know, even when I was teaching
28:31
at the school, at the salon,
28:34
you know, so he's been around,
28:37
you know,
28:38
cosmetology for
28:40
most of his life. Cosmetology,
28:43
the same industry Ibro would call him out for
28:45
being a part of, but this was
28:47
also the place where he learned how to counterbalance
28:50
all the mess he was picking up from the men
28:52
in his life. Oh man, I learned
28:54
everything from beauty for a mom. You
28:57
know, I found that beauty is in the
28:59
eye of the beholder and beauty is now where everybody
29:01
sees. I just saw a lot of caring, nurturing,
29:05
loving, you know what I'm
29:07
saying, and support. Again
29:09
that gave him an audience too to perform, I guess,
29:13
you know, because of people, you know,
29:15
loved him. Like
29:17
I said, he's very friendly and expressive
29:20
and so, you know, these are the type of characters
29:23
that you find in a beauty business. I mean, very
29:25
expressive character.
29:27
Everybody is a star in the beauty business. Even
29:29
though we are creating, you
29:31
know, stars, we're grooming them,
29:33
we're helping people with their self-esteem.
29:35
So he grew up in that culture,
29:38
I guess you can say, where, you know, we
29:40
help one another to feel better, you
29:42
know, we tell stories, you
29:44
know, we do dance,
29:47
we sing, you know, you go to the salon
29:49
and barbershop, you know what it's like. So, yeah,
29:52
from a very young age, he was there.
29:54
And even then, that was when I started to see
29:56
trans and gays and, you know what I'm saying, lesbians
29:59
and all these things.
29:59
different orientations and then
30:02
I got to really be around them and like
30:04
you know spend every day with them and learn them
30:06
and like love them and be able to accept them.
30:09
So it really resonated with me
30:11
through a lot of different things in my life of
30:14
the world of being able to dial in into
30:16
the beauty business and see that. I
30:19
learned how to treat
30:21
women. I learned how women act
30:24
and how women are and why women
30:26
you know are the way they are and
30:28
it was like it was really a full
30:29
women study you know for
30:32
me.
30:32
Whatever internal tug of war McConough was feeling
30:35
between these different ways of being only
30:37
intensified as he fell in love with hip-hop.
30:40
That's
30:40
when he started to realize keeping it real was
30:43
mostly just an empty slogan.
30:45
Once hip-hop entered the picture for you
30:47
how did that start to shape your
30:50
your views around what it
30:52
meant to be a man or you
30:54
know what have you.
30:56
Yeah that's when it really got confusing
30:59
you know because it's like I'm seeing
31:01
I'm
31:04
thinking my gangbanging cousins them as men you
31:06
know I mean so they go to jail and they
31:08
came out and they still buffer you
31:10
know I mean and I'm like damn like them
31:13
men
31:13
you know and then when I'm seeing hip-hop I'm seeing
31:16
a lot of people emulate
31:18
the life and like where the
31:20
thing and start having a look but it's like
31:22
I can tell like
31:23
a lot of them ain't really
31:25
from it because I I've seen
31:27
my family from it to like you know I've seen
31:29
I've seen
31:30
the tragedy of it and
31:33
it's not all that glistly to
31:35
play everybody on there making the scene you know
31:37
like it ain't fun to be running around
31:39
red flagged up
31:41
the way the videos be showing because it's like I'm
31:44
seeing drive-bys in my neighborhood and stuff
31:46
like that and so as hip-hop was coming
31:48
in and like yo these the men these the dudes
31:51
and I'm just like
31:53
I mean I guess I
31:55
don't know I'm still a kid
31:57
who am I to say what a man is you know I mean and
31:59
so
31:59
I'm seeing my older brothers and them rock
32:02
to the Jay-Z and all this stuff and
32:04
be out here flossing and doing the whole, you
32:06
know, I got the car, I'm a man.
32:09
I got the car, I got the girls, all this. But
32:12
then I would
32:15
know these people, right? And so I would see my brothers
32:17
and them and the way it was like
32:19
a facade. I'm not seeing no man stuff,
32:21
you know what I mean? But I'm do seeing that
32:23
you quick to jump up and go out with your boys again
32:25
to go hang out with the so-called man.
32:28
So when you around the house, I'm not getting no
32:30
man quiet. You over here calling me a faggot, you
32:32
know what I'm saying? You dissing me because I'm, I
32:34
guess, not as
32:36
masculine or buff. Black
32:38
masculinity has always been challenged because
32:41
of white supremacy, right? And this
32:43
sense that white supremacy feminizes
32:47
black men,
32:47
right? There's been this idea that,
32:50
you know, the performance of black men has to
32:52
be uncut so that folks that
32:54
have not any questions about what black
32:56
masculinity is, right?
32:58
That's Mark Anthony Neal, a renowned academic
33:01
and cultural critic who's writing on black music
33:03
and pop culture deconstructs the ways
33:05
we define manhood.
33:07
But when we talk about masculinity or femininity,
33:10
right, this is a social construct of
33:12
what that is, right? So that's the clothes
33:14
that we think men should wear, how
33:16
men should talk, what kinds
33:18
of language they use, how
33:21
they walk. I mean, this is all stuff
33:23
that's not coming directly from a biological
33:27
effect, but specifically from
33:29
young folks, babies, you know, growing up to
33:31
a adulthood, reading the
33:33
signs of gender and how they're
33:36
supposed to act as a man, you
33:38
know, and playing out gender in that kind of context.
33:41
This facade that Mcconnell and Mark are talking
33:43
about is one of the scales we use
33:45
to measure ourselves
33:46
within the culture. You know, when you
33:48
think about, you know, legible, something that
33:50
you can read, you can recognize it, and
33:53
there's certain images that when we see them, we
33:55
don't even have to process them because they're
33:57
so legible to us.
33:59
The way Mark explains his concept
34:01
of legibility, it's as simple as the
34:03
difference between seeing a black man with a basketball
34:06
versus seeing a black man with a violin.
34:09
One image is so familiar you wouldn't even question
34:12
it. Whereas the other, you might give
34:14
you pause for a second, just because it isn't
34:16
the stereotypical image you might expect.
34:19
And if you think about hip-hop circa 2000, right? Jay's
34:24
look is what Diddy's look. We
34:27
could go on and on, right? Jaru's
34:30
look, right? Nas's look, right? They
34:33
all look like they're hip-hop, right? Even as
34:35
they're doing very different things, they're different skill
34:37
sets. It is the look of hip-hop
34:39
which allows it to be easy to be able
34:41
to market them, right? And they take that basic
34:44
image, right? That's so
34:45
accessible to folks, that's so legible to folks. And
34:48
then they build out different kinds of personas
34:50
and sensibilities out of that. Part of keeping
34:52
up the front of legibility was distancing
34:55
yourself from anything that was seen as
34:57
other. And the easiest way to prove
34:59
you weren't gay was by being homophobic.
35:02
I think when we talk about queerness broadly
35:04
in the black community, but also in this case in hip-hop,
35:07
it really has to do with optics. If
35:11
black queer men or black trans men
35:14
are too prominent and visible, it
35:17
is a comment on the failure of black
35:21
men, quote unquote, real strong
35:24
heterosexual black men, and by extension,
35:26
the black family.
35:28
To produce men in that way.
35:31
Hip-hop took that kind of notion to a different
35:33
kind of level by presenting
35:35
to us these readily available images
35:37
of not just masculinity, but hyper-masculinity.
35:40
Yeah, if you're from a certain area of hip-hop like me,
35:43
you might remember how ingrained homophobia
35:45
was in the music. I mean,
35:47
it's almost hard to know where to begin. You
35:50
could damn near play a game of pen to tell on
35:52
the rapper Blindfolded, and still
35:54
be guaranteed to land on flagrant offenders
35:56
spread throughout the last several decades.
36:00
The irony of the prevalence
36:03
of homophobia in hip-hop is
36:05
that rappers, how do I say it?
36:19
Gay as hell? I mean rappers
36:21
were okay with hanging with the homies,
36:24
making music in cramped studios overnight
36:26
with the homies.
36:28
The shirtless and sweaty on stage
36:30
with the homies, basically spending every
36:32
week an hour being intimate with
36:34
the homies. They just didn't want
36:36
the homie to be gay. It's
36:39
a fear that says way more about the fragility
36:41
of hypermasculinity than it says
36:43
about the object of their fear.
36:46
So despite rap's homoerotic tendencies,
36:49
this was the no homo era when
36:52
rappers like Cam'ron took distance in
36:54
themselves from all things seemingly
36:56
suspect to a whole new level
36:59
of absurdity. Let me just say something. Are
37:01
you gay? Not at all. Far
37:03
from it. So like, why do people feel
37:05
like they need to keep reinforcing
37:07
that over and over? I mean, it isn't
37:09
about being gay, it's about saying something
37:12
gay. For instance, my man Jim Jones said
37:14
I'ma beat you with that till all the white stuff come out
37:16
of it. That's why a homo told somebody else that.
37:19
No homo, he ain't tell me that. You understand what I mean? That's
37:21
a perfect example. Oh my god.
37:23
This is crazy. I'm
37:26
never gonna understand it. My thing
37:28
is like. But this isn't even about being
37:30
gay. This is about saying something gay. This
37:32
is about letting someone know that you're not gay. Who
37:35
cares, right? No, this is about saying
37:37
gay things by accident. No homo.
37:40
This isn't about a person really being gay. We
37:42
know that they're not really gay.
37:43
We are going to rock the mic next hour.
37:46
Cam thinks rock the mic. That's
37:48
a good rock the mic. No homo. You
37:51
see? Now rock the mic is homo if you
37:53
know what I'm saying. No it's not. In
37:56
a world where no homo is the default, association
37:58
with anything seen is
37:59
or become suspect too. So
38:02
when Ebro started questioning Mcconnell's sexuality
38:05
in that interview,
38:06
it could put anyone affiliated with him in
38:08
the line of fire, especially
38:10
Drake. Drake is an artist
38:13
who's always been challenged by these questions
38:15
of authenticity. Again, Marc
38:18
Anthony Neal. Because his
38:20
style of rapping, his
38:23
affect... You know,
38:25
obviously he got some bangers that
38:27
folks say that's a hip-hop record, right? But, you know, most of
38:30
the time, he's doing this kind
38:32
of weird sing-singy, I'm
38:34
not quite a singer, but I sing better than most
38:36
rappers who try to sing. And
38:39
there's an emotiveness.
38:41
This is a key point, right? You know... Audiences
38:45
don't know what to do with black
38:47
men who are too emotive. Part
38:49
of the polarizing response to Drake has
38:51
been all about that sad boy emo-ness that
38:54
he injected in the rap.
38:56
I still remember when the late DMX voice, his
38:58
opinion on Drake on the Breakfast Club. What
39:00
about Drake? You like Drake? No. My
39:03
man. He even said he... That's
39:06
my guy right there. That's
39:08
why X is necessary in the game right there. Now,
39:10
why don't you like Drake? I don't like anything about
39:12
Drake. I don't like his voice. I don't
39:15
like... He talks about... I don't... I
39:18
don't like his face. I don't like it. He
39:20
walks like nothing. I don't care if I... I
39:22
might just... Let me shut
39:24
up. I'm gonna stop right there. The same way
39:27
DMX can't quite put his finger on it. There's
39:29
something about Drake that just punctured
39:31
rap's hard exterior. Because we
39:33
think about women being expressly
39:36
emotive. And in hip-hop, where
39:39
emotiveness other than anger... and
39:43
rage... right, and
39:45
in some extent reflection, there
39:47
weren't a whole lot of range of emotions that
39:49
you could express in hip-hop. And so Drake comes
39:51
along,
39:53
and he's so emotive, right? You can't
39:55
think of another rapper ever...
39:58
who begs. to leave
40:00
it off that way. Nah.
40:06
Each do I get an invitation or something,
40:08
a statement or something. Ask
40:11
a boy that you would say it was nothing.
40:13
Through all the missed calls from exes
40:16
and broken hearted ballads,
40:18
Drake presented a type of masculinity that
40:20
went against the grain at the time. He
40:22
was illegible to rap's hardcore sensibilities.
40:25
Too sensitive, too soft. And
40:27
it was risky for him to break
40:30
the mold of how much emotion that he could
40:32
bring into his music and to his credit. He
40:35
became Drake because of that, because he
40:37
was an outlier. I think because
40:40
there is this kind
40:42
of anxiety
40:44
about Drake's performance of hip hop
40:47
and masculinity. There's still cats who still
40:49
won't admit that he's a hip hop artist. There
40:51
are cats who say that he was the death of hip hop.
40:54
Because he brought this whole other kind, so
40:57
you get the weekend, you get all this. You get a
40:59
sound, this emo sound in hip hop
41:01
that had never existed before.
41:03
Which is exactly what made Drake and Mcconnen
41:06
seem like a collaboration made in emo heaven.
41:09
Together, they were making softer aesthetics
41:12
a little more legible than rap. But
41:14
if your authenticity is already under attack,
41:16
like Drake's was, you could also make
41:18
a collaboration like this a liability.
41:21
I think because he's already kind
41:23
of a question to some folks, Mcconnen
41:27
becomes an interesting challenge for that. Because
41:30
had he been a more kind of traditional
41:33
hardcore hip hop artist, I
41:36
think you can withstand Mcconnen being in your
41:39
universe. When you're Drake,
41:41
that's a different kind of challenge. Now all this was
41:44
going down at the same time that Cracks and
41:46
Mcconnen and Drake's relationship were starting
41:48
the show.
41:49
The EP was sort of like just automatically
41:52
even happening. You know what I mean? But then I think it
41:54
was like a second one afterward. And so
41:56
the first one went good and I got to go do the loudest
41:58
of loud tour. I went around.
41:59
Europe and the US play festivals,
42:02
everything was going good. I came out
42:04
on Drake's set at
42:06
Wireless,
42:08
but that's when I knew something was weird. Because
42:10
when I came out on set,
42:12
everybody
42:14
was kind of like, eh. And I started losing
42:16
weight too, right?
42:17
And
42:19
Drake had made a little joke, like, oh, you little Eric
42:21
Bonet looking at me, you know what I'm saying?
42:23
And then like, haha. And
42:25
then I just started to feel this vibe, like
42:28
a
42:29
little, you know what I mean? Something was said about
42:31
me, but we not, I don't know. So
42:33
I'm like, okay. And so then when we go out to do the song,
42:37
I'm just doing the hook. And as I was supposed to go into
42:39
my verse, they just cut it. And I was like, oh,
42:42
okay, thanks. And
42:44
I just got off stage. But I was like, this
42:47
is crazy. Like the crowd is going crazy right now. They fucking
42:49
with me. Like, they ready to hear, you know what I'm saying? I
42:51
was working on it. And they just shut it off. And I was like,
42:53
all right. So then I left that.
42:55
And then it just started, you know, it was just
42:58
like, this is getting weird. When we talked to
43:00
McCone and he made it clear that the whispers he was hearing
43:02
weren't about his sexuality.
43:04
It was mostly stupid stuff, like years old
43:06
tweets, dissing Drake and calling them names.
43:09
People under your dad's comments saying, y'all need to drop
43:11
him. Cause he said that Yo
43:14
Song practice was lame back
43:16
in 2011. And then he called you a red Elmo back
43:19
in 2010. So you need to stop fucking with him now
43:21
in 2015. Was that one of the tweets? And
43:26
I even told you when that happened, I was like, it
43:29
could have been any popular name. Like, that's
43:31
what motherfuckers do. Like we fucked up in the game,
43:33
bro. Our little outlet.
43:34
That's our only way of attention. You
43:36
know what I mean? So it ain't nothing personal.
43:38
But maybe the clearest evidence that things were falling
43:40
apart was McCone and Tim Westwood
43:43
freestyle,
43:44
where he spent almost 20 minutes freestyling
43:46
and dropping hints about his shaky label situation
43:49
over nothing but Drake beats. It's
43:52
like, okay, Tim Westwood playing all these Drake beats and
43:54
I'm over here freestyling, you know, I'm rapping,
43:56
I'm eating shit up. And so now people are like, oh,
43:58
you talking about Drake?
44:00
He going after Drake. The motherfucker said, I
44:02
got dropped. Haha, that's a
44:04
motherfucking hip hop shit. You
44:07
know this motherfucking lie. Only place
44:09
I drop that is in my goddamn pants size.
44:11
Ugh, big stunning shit. And it's like,
44:13
okay, so I can't, you know what I mean? It's like, and then he turned the comments
44:16
off on it, because then they start saying, this a trash
44:18
freestyle. They been freaks, because I done freaked out for like 20,
44:21
30 minutes over all these different type beats. So
44:23
everybody, you know, it's like, you going out the drain,
44:25
you bit the hand that fed
44:27
you and all this shit. And so I'm
44:29
just like, okay,
44:30
who do I talk, where's
44:32
my outlet to say, this
44:35
isn't what it is. And I was like, all right.
44:37
And then I posted, I did my next EP, right? And
44:40
nobody promoted it.
44:42
Drake didn't put it on the thing and it
44:44
just felt like it was dead. So I was like, you know what, I don't want
44:46
to be over here. I know he
44:48
said that he wanted to leave. And
44:51
I was like, you want to leave? Why? It
44:54
seemed like he wanted to leave. So I'm like, well, if
44:56
that's what you want to do.
44:58
You can do it. You know,
45:00
but I know if look, if you're in a situation
45:02
where you're wanted and you're valued,
45:05
you know, and you're respected, you
45:07
probably won't want to leave that situation.
45:09
That's when I left and went to Portland
45:12
and started doing all my internal stuff
45:14
like that. I was like, you know what, maybe
45:16
it's me, maybe I need to come out and be
45:18
honest with myself and all this other stuff.
45:21
I'm expecting other people to be honest with me out here.
45:23
And so maybe people looking at me like, you fraud,
45:25
you fake nigga, we know you're gay and you ain't out.
45:28
So like, all right, well, whatever. I'm going
45:30
to go ahead and come out and let's see what
45:32
that do.
45:34
What did it do? It
45:36
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In early 2017, a few
46:31
months after his move to Portland, Mcconnell
46:34
took the tour to say what was on his mind. We asked him
46:37
to read those tweets.
47:00
Word about Mcconnell's announcement spread
47:02
fast. When
47:29
I came out of the gate, everybody who I
47:32
was working with, my whole community, from Atlanta, not
47:34
even just from Atlanta, because at the time, my
47:36
Atlanta relationship got strained because they
47:38
felt like, oh, you ran off with Drake and now
47:40
you love the home team. So it's like, okay.
47:43
But y'all know Atlanta, y'all know I'm being the realest Atlanta
47:45
motherfucker in this game right now. I'm just coming doing
47:47
this, coming out of this gate. And so it's like,
47:50
we all gonna be silent on that. Ain't nobody gonna
47:52
really say shit. You know, we gonna
47:54
try to work with you because maybe that gay shit
47:56
might work. But we ain't
47:58
really trying to, you know.
47:59
and work with you. One group
48:02
that had something to say was his one-time collaborators,
48:04
the Migos.
48:09
In an interview with Rolling Stone, the group
48:11
questioned McConan's credibility, calling
48:13
it a contradiction that he could somehow rap about
48:15
trapping and selling molly while
48:18
simultaneously being a gay man.
48:20
According to McConan, no one from the label
48:23
ever reached out privately either. When
48:26
we reached out for this story, an
48:28
OVO rep hit us with a no comment.
48:30
They've never spoke to me or spoke
48:33
on any of this stuff with me, so I
48:35
just feel like OVO has been down
48:37
with me since Tuesday. You know what
48:40
I mean? We ain't never really had no,
48:42
let's do some shit with you, because I'm just me from Atlanta.
48:47
I
48:49
represent that, and I guess they're only
48:51
looking for a certain type of representation
48:54
to be around. And so I guess it's the
48:56
more harder thug, I go to jail
48:58
type shit, I'm a thug motherfucker from
49:00
Atlanta. I feel like they feel like that's what they can associate
49:03
with, and then when they was trying to associate with
49:05
me, it was like, I guess I am
49:07
the thug motherfucker from Atlanta and all that, but
49:09
I also am gay, and if you really know
49:11
thug motherfuckers in Atlanta, you really know they're good.
49:13
I knew that this was gonna piss
49:16
everybody off more to make everybody happy.
49:18
I knew that more people were gonna leave me than run
49:21
towards me, you know what I mean? And that's why I did it. You
49:23
know what I mean? I was like, I can't handle this fake shit no more.
49:26
The way Mcconough sees it,
49:27
it's like rap's growth is stunnin'
49:29
around some real archaic ideas
49:32
of masculinity. And hip hop,
49:34
as a result,
49:35
has been slow to evolve. It's
49:37
like hip hop's about to turn 50 or so, and
49:39
so I was like, let's imagine if hip hop
49:41
was a person, and let's look at
49:43
all the transitions that person went through, and all
49:46
that stuff is like, were we considered that
49:48
a real motherfucker, or
49:49
were we considered that the fakes motherfucker round? Now
49:54
we got babies out here, we got Lil Nas X and
49:56
all these other Lil's again,
49:58
we got new group of Lil's again. and ain't and those
50:00
that done grown into fathers and grandfather
50:03
y'all still ain't saying nothing what's going
50:05
on with hip-hop in the years since
50:07
splitting from ovio mcconnell's
50:09
often written off as a one-hit wonder but
50:12
that's furthest from the truth in
50:14
a lot of ways his influence is more
50:17
present now than ever the
50:20
truth is he's become something of a cult hero
50:22
for a lot of artists on the rise his
50:24
emotive sound cut a path for one of the biggest
50:27
generational shifts in music the
50:29
rise of the sound cloud era from
50:31
lil yachty to
50:36
trippy red
50:40
and six dogs to
50:43
juice world
50:47
the sound cloud era gave us more of the
50:49
fields than almost any in the genre's
50:52
history it was time for tears
50:54
and turning up
50:55
these were artists who didn't abide by rap static
50:57
rules of masculinity they
50:59
brought nail polish with their face tats
51:02
it was likely to shop at hot topic as
51:04
they were at footlocker one of
51:06
the torchbearers was the late emo rapper
51:09
lil peep
51:14
before it's untimely passing peep
51:16
and mcconnell dated briefly i had
51:19
a you know relationship with him and then he ended up
51:21
coming out as bisexual to his fans and that
51:24
gathered him a whole new support and was able
51:26
to give healing to his fan
51:28
base before he ended up passing on but
51:30
it still has helped them heal
51:33
you know because it's like somebody else is able
51:35
to show that it's okay to be us they even worked
51:37
on a whole album together that peep once described
51:40
as one of the most legendary albums of all
51:42
time
51:43
it still hadn't been officially released but the single
51:46
sunlight on your skin it gave a peek
51:48
into their relationship
51:49
where i want to be again
51:52
and again Whether
52:02
the industry wants to acknowledge it or not, McConan
52:05
queered the trap. His sound,
52:07
his style, his voice.
52:10
Hip-hop might not have been ready for it. It
52:12
might have popped out his chest and said no homo.
52:15
But that couldn't erase his impact. Like
52:18
so many queer artists before him, McConan
52:20
laid the groundwork that others are dancing
52:22
on now. What's your
52:24
hope for queer
52:28
artists in hip-hop in the future?
52:31
And whether or not the
52:33
culture and the industry has space
52:36
for them?
52:39
It's always has space. We've just been in the back. It's
52:42
just the background space. But the
52:44
queer, they definitely always been here. But hopefully
52:46
now they can get more accepted and move into the forefront.
52:49
You know what I'm saying? We're
52:51
appreciative and thankful for your achievements
52:53
and your
52:56
efforts that you provided to the
52:58
hip-hop culture, which
53:00
allowed us
53:03
to keep being diverse and keep thriving
53:05
and accepting these new acts
53:08
and new artists and these new groundbreaking things
53:10
that we've been able to enjoy since
53:12
then. It's OK to be yourself.
53:14
It's OK to be an individual. And
53:16
it's OK to go and support those individuals.
53:19
You know what I'm saying?
53:32
The biggest
53:32
thing I walked away with after spending
53:34
a couple of days with McConan
53:36
is this. Dude's good.
53:39
And I mean that in every sense of the word. The
53:42
music he's making now, the life he's
53:44
living in Portland, even the freedom
53:46
that he clearly feels in his own skin.
53:49
It's easy to write his story off as an OVO
53:51
tragedy. But that's just a footnote
53:54
in a career that didn't start with Drake
53:56
and definitely didn't end after.
53:59
I live out here now. I've lived here
54:02
five years. I love Portland. I love
54:03
the scene. I love all y'all creators out here. I
54:06
love you, man. I
54:08
love my side to dance. Every
54:10
time I know somebody,
54:13
no more.
54:14
Since I've came out as gay everywhere, I've walked
54:16
through. Everybody has bowed down to
54:18
this gay shit, so it's like, it
54:20
don't feel like it's just Portland. It's the whole world now.
54:23
You know what I mean? I haven't had an issue being gay.
54:26
Now it's like, oh shit, we listening
54:28
and stuff. It's making stuff. Good, thank you. Because
54:31
last time everybody just wasn't here. It's a
54:33
gay. It's a gay. It's a gay. It's not a dude. It's like, dude,
54:35
get off of that. Move on. And I feel like the people
54:37
here have been moved off from that, and they don't
54:40
care. They're into the music and
54:42
stuff like that, and the arts and the expression
54:45
of the person. You know what I mean? And
54:48
so, yeah, it's been very good, and I want that to
54:50
go worldwide. And I feel like it is.
54:59
I'm in. I'm in it again. So
55:01
I'm spinning. I'm spinning, spinning. I'm
55:04
spinning, spinning, spinning. I'm spinning.
55:07
I'm spinning again. I'm spinning. I'm spinning, spinning.
55:10
I'm spinning, spinning, spinning.
55:13
Next week, queer aesthetics
55:16
take over the mainstream. I had
55:18
a level, and I was like, no. I
55:20
got my own career, my own entity. I'm talented,
55:23
and I'm going to make this work. Saucy
55:26
Santana takes us through rule number
55:28
seven. It's on the next
55:30
episode of Louder Than The Riot.
55:36
Louder Than
55:36
The Riot is hosted by me, Rodney
55:39
Carmichael and Sydney Mad. This
55:41
episode was written by Rodney Carmichael
55:43
and Mano Sunderesin. And it was produced
55:46
by Mano Sunderesin. Our senior
55:48
producer is Gabby Bogarelli, and
55:50
our producers are Sam Jay Leeds and
55:53
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55:55
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55:58
additional editing by Sam Jay Leeds.
55:59
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56:02
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56:05
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56:13
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56:26
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56:28
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56:30
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56:43
From NPR Music, I'm
56:45
Rodney Carmichael. And I'm Sydney Madden. And
56:48
this is Louder Than a Riot. I
56:52
made Tuesday at Mike's producer's
56:54
house, Mars and the other eardrummers. And
56:57
Ray Shrimmer was there. And they wasn't even fully
56:59
formed yet. They
57:03
were still, you know, getting their foot in stuff. And
57:06
I remember when they first met me too at that house, they
57:08
came downstairs like I was Kanye West or somebody. And I was like, I don't know
57:10
what Mike is telling motherfuckers out here. But
57:13
y'all are goddamn acting a little too crazy. I'm like,
57:15
bro, I barely got a quarter tank of gas
57:17
outside. Y'all looking at me like I'm,
57:20
you know, somebody.
57:21
How did they come downstairs? They was like, oh, shit,
57:23
McCall, brah. Oh, man,
57:26
like, yo, big fans, brah. And I'm like, big fans,
57:28
like, I don't even have nothing out. Like, what's some
57:30
people talking about? He was
57:32
like, no, Mike, show the tits, Mike, show the tits. And
57:35
they just spirit and their eyes was just so
57:37
like, yeah. And then they was like, all right, McCall and the boys
57:39
are working. They was like, all right, man, we finna sit back
57:41
here. And they just sat in the back and was just like, look
57:43
at it. Like, oh,
57:45
shit, he about to do it.
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