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When the world has
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gotcha down, and Alzheimer's
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sucks. It's an equal opportunity
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disease that chips away at
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everything we hold dear. And to
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date, there's no cure. So until
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there is we continue to fight
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with the most powerful tool in
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our arsenal. Love. This is Love
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Conquers Alz, a real and really
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positive podcast that takes a
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deep dive into everything.
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Alzheimer's, The Good, the Bad,
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and everything in between. And
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now, here are your hosts Susie
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singer, Carter, and me, Don
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Priess.
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Good afternoon. I'm
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Susie Singer Carter.
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And I'm Don Priess.
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And this is love conquers all
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calls. Hello, Susan.
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Donald, how you doing?
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I'm swell. What is
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the word? What do you don't?
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Well, you know, I mean, that's a
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matter of opinion. But I think
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I'm swell. So
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I am. I am swell
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ish. Yeah, yes. I'm swell ish.
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Yes. Yeah. Well, it's been a
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nonstop and busy and busy doing
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things and like, we're we are
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both busy. But let's see what we
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had. We had my two Rugrats for
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the weekend. I had. I was, I had
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a three year old, four year old
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and my 16 month old
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granddaughters for the weekend,
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and I am exhausted and and like
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the house was like a, like a
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hurricane happened. Like, I
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don't know what happened, I
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think is it possible to have too
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many toys? Apparently,
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it's not. The
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amazing thing is it's literally
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a disaster area within the first
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11 seconds that distribute the
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toys at a rate that is actually
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humanly impossible.
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And yet, and yet
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it's done before our very eyes
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before our very eyes. But um,
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yeah, it's pretty extraordinary
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and skillful. I might add. Yeah,
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so but but loads of fun. We had
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a slumber party. We had, you
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know, so all those fun things,
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girly girl stuff, and, you know,
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all that things. So I enjoyed
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that. And on the on the business
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side, where we're, we're at the
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finish line of our documentary,
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No Country for Old people. And
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we're at that point where we're,
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you know, bravely taking notes
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from strangers and others. And
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so difficult, so difficult to
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hear other people's, you know,
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it's like writing a book or like
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our our guests. That's going to
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be on in a couple of minutes.
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I'm sure he's had the same
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feeling when people come in and
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start chopping your your baby
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up. And you're like,
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wow, stop. And
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that's your opinion.
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Yeah, thank you.
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Yeah, yeah. But, but that's
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where we're at. And we're being
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brave. We're being brave big
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girls and big boys and listening
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with open ears, and open minds
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ish. And that's what we're
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doing. Absolutely. What I will
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remind you that we're still
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raising money for the finishing
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funds, and it's all tax
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deductible. If I'm sure you're,
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you know, if you listen to us,
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you probably know this already.
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But, you know, we would, we're
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taking donations still through
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the national consumer voice for
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long term care. And they are
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incredible. And they are our
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partners, and it's 100% tax
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deductible. And, but we're very
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close to getting this out there
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for everybody. We hope that it
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makes a big huge change. And
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we're proud of our work. So
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absolutely. Because we're not doing this for ourselves. We're doing this for
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you know, the we're trying to
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everybody, save the save
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everyone from going through what
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Susie went through and what what
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countless people are going
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through right now, every minute
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so as
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as we speak, we
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need to change our long term
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care system. Now, so stat,
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right, but that's what we do.
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It's like what when something
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when you go through a crisis of
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any kind or a challenge, and
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then you know, you learn then
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you I think that that is
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important to pay it forward.
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Right? And so that other people
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can benefit from your
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experience, like, guard next
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guest right,
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indeed. So
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Don, why don't you?
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I know, why don't you do a
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lovely introduction, and then
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we'll get into it.
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I will do that.
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Right now. I'm a lawyer by trade
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politician by practice and an
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academic by accident. These are
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the musings of the remarkable
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Max Sherman, a former Texas
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State Senator president of West
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Texas State University and Dean
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of the LBJ School of Public
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Affairs. His leadership roles
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also include President of the
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National Association of Schools
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of Public Affairs and vice
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president of the Harry S. Truman
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Scholarship Foundation. And
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recently, he was honored as an
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80 over 80 recipient. Now a
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young and energetic 89 years old
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Max Sherman's life has been
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significantly influenced by
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women, but one in particular has
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shaped who he is today. In 1953,
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Max was among four high school
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boys conducting a church service
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at a local jail when he first
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laid eyes on Jean Alice, who was
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there with her fold up field
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Oregon, and their love affair
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still thrives to this day. But
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in 2002, Gene Atlas started
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noticing that something was
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different and soon after, was
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diagnosed with Alzheimer's.
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Through the inevitable
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progression of the disease Max
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and Gene Alice's journey
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together is now chronicled in
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the beautiful and poignant
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memoir, releasing the butterfly,
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a love affair in four acts. And
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honest, heart wrenching and
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insightful look at not only the
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disease, but a bond that could
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not be broken. And we are so
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excited to have the author of
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this ode to a 70 year love
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affair with us today. So let's
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say hello to Max Sherman. Hello,
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Max. Hello, Max.
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Hi, Don says we I'm
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delighted to be with you.
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Thank you, we're delighted to be
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with you. Everything about who
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you are, and your your love your
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incredible love. lifelong love
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resonates so deeply with with
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us. And in your compassionate
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caregiving is just so beautiful
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to to read about and to learn
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about and, and just just really
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goes with our, our show love
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conquers all, because that's
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really what you did, you use the
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love, and you're still using the
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love, right?
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When we were together
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just a short time before, we're
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talking here. And we were
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sitting there and she has her
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head there and, and so I've
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learned if in my raspy voice, I
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would sing to her. So I was
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singing old song that everybody
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knows, and I'm not very good at
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it. But I said morning as
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Robocon in the first morning,
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she likes or even raises it up
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and opens those hazel eyes, and
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I just melt. And then we've
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learned in Alzheimer's, you have
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to read different signals. And
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one of the signals that we've
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learned is that the way that we
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kiss now is a little different
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than when we used to kiss on the
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lips. And really, anybody
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talking to it, she will. That's
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three big kisses. I got five of
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those big kisses this morning
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after singing that song. Live
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still goes on. And it's great.
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We've learned to make love in a
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different way. And absolutely
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every moment is just as precious
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as it was when we first started.
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And I had that first little peck
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on the lips that she gave me
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when we were just a bunch of
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kids
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definition of a silver lining,
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ya know, it's, it's
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so beautiful. And it's such a
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great, it's a it is the, the its
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opponent your poster child for
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for the best kind of approach to
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this kind of journey. You know,
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and it took and I know from
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reading your book and also
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listening to you talk on other
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interviews, you know that it is
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a learning curve, right? And
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that, you know, we and it takes
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it takes that, you know, the
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tripping over ourselves and
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realizing that okay, this isn't
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working. Because, you know, I
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always say that when my mom was
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diagnosed, I was I was certain
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that I was going to be the one
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that cures this for you other
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people can't but I will write
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until you realize that that
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monster is way stronger than all
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of us. And now I'm you know
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going to have and then I figured
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out how to lean into my mom into
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every stage and learn how to re
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communicate with her like you're
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doing with with Jean Alice,
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which is like it is so rewarding
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and so beautiful. And yeah, I
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just really, really compliment
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you on on going going the
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distance the way you are.
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She could I maybe just
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pick up on that because is I've
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been asked to talk about the
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book with different groups
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senior citizens and and we live
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in a senior retirement
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community. It's a wonderful
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place. But most people probably
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here because somewhere in their
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lives, either a parent or
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grandparent or someone close has
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been touched by Alzheimer's and
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everyone's afraid Well, it might
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happen to me or it might happen
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close to me. And so I I don't
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think we're ever prepared for
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it. And in is I met with these
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groups. That chapter I think is
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chapter 46. And it's one page in
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the regular page books. And it's
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an another in the large printed
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book. But it's only about three
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pages. It's very short. But it's
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makes the point that you were
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just talking about, because I
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was making all the decisions. I
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picked out the clothes she wore,
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I pick the food that we ate, I
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took us wherever we needed to
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go. I chose what we watched on
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television, I was really trying
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to be the fixer. And I can fix
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this Well, I'm not going to fix
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it, I finally realized. And I
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said that what was happening is
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that I was stealing my love from
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her nibble by nibble little by
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little by doing that every time.
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And I had to learn that I was
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not the drill sergeants. I was
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not the one who said Get In Line
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step up, you're going too slow,
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you're going too fast. And all
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of a sudden, it just shocked me
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that all I needed to do was just
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shift gears. Nothing big. It's
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like making love and then the
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world of Alzheimer's is shifting
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yours. And mine was Jeannie,
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would you like chocolate or
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vanilla ice cream? Would you
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like to watch the news? Or would
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you like to watch a musical
11:21
tonight? Would you like to wear
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this blouse or this blouse? It
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almost always she would say, Oh,
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you decide. It wasn't up. But
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the most important thing, the
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most important thing, the
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headline of that chapter is she
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wanted to be asked, because she
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was cine she was teen Alice. She
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was not a child. She was not a
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person in the army 100, the
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drill sergeant, she hit her
11:49
unique personality. And that to
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me is the chapter in the book
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that was my wake up call that I
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had to do it differently. And
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all it was is shifting gears in
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love making is shifting yours.
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And the little is a kiss just as
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much as a big smack around the
12:09
lips. It's a beautiful kiss. I
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love every one of them. I would
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not ever take one of them back.
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And it's different than it was
12:19
but you put your finger on it.
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I love that. Yeah,
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wow. Yeah, I think I think
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there's a lot of consistency in
12:26
that journey with people that
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have, you know, decided to step
12:31
back. And really take a look at
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at how we're interacting with
12:35
our person with the person that
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we love. And looking to find
12:40
them at the stage that they're
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at, like I could find my mom, I
12:44
could still, you know, we shared
12:47
music too. My mom was a singer.
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And so music became really
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important like you did with you.
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And Jean. So I think that, you
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know, I related to that as well.
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And that it is like you said
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it's magic. And you know it is
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it lasts till the very bitter
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end. And and it made my mom so
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happy. And it really was our our
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love talk, you know, and then we
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also shared a sense of humor.
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And so we, I would always come
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in with something, you know, to
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catch her off. And she'd give me
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that big old smile, like, you
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know, even when she lost her
13:22
ability to just to articulate
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words. But she was talking to
13:25
me, I saw it. I knew it. I just
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I would I became I became the
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words for her. Right? Yeah. And
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that's and that is it. There's
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nothing more beautiful than
13:40
that. Because, you know, when we
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accept as we accept the person,
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and also what you said, like
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acknowledging that they are
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still who they are, is their
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soul as who they are inside. And
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so we need to we can respect it.
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We don't need to, but we can,
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and it's better.
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When you know you,
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again, you've probably had this
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experience with your mother. But
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one of the things even again
14:07
this morning, when we have these
14:07
moments where we're really
14:10
connecting in that way, and it's
14:10
all of a sudden, she doesn't
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talk now. But all of a sudden
14:15
she's really talking, making
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attempts to talk getting
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something out there. Because you
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can tell that you've resonated
14:22
you touch something. And the
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same is true. And the reason
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that I started this morning by
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saying to her is that she's a
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pianist. She's an organist.
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She's a beautiful musician, and
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music actually reaches in and
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when those things happen, she
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responds. In our senior living
14:44
facility last night a woman did
14:44
a series of things, composers
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and played the beautiful piano
14:49
and finished up with a Scott
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Joplin number 10 He used to play
14:52
Scott Joplin all the time. And I
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would always ask her what play
14:57
the entertainer in Boy, she
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would pound that piano and play
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the entertainer. And probably
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one of the, if we play the
15:04
entertainer, she perks up and
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gets up and looks in the mirror
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looks at me, and she's right
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there with you. And I think that
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I think we don't always grasp
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the potential of music is
15:16
reaching into mind that we don't
15:20
understand. As I understand it,
15:20
we don't now know how it all
15:25
works. We have some ideas and
15:25
sciences worked on it. But we're
15:29
still trying to figure it out.
15:29
But you do know, there are
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certain things that connect, and
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those are there be treasured.
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I agree. You know,
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I loved what you in your book,
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when you talk about, you know,
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there's parts that you spoke
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about your wife on in the
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beginning stages, and her
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experience of the those
15:50
beginning stages and how she
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described them. And I always
15:53
find it fascinating because I
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used to say, my mom and I were
15:57
so close. And I would I wanted,
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I missed I kind of missed my
16:00
moment, because I was such an
16:04
throes of it have to really sit
16:04
down and say, What are you
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feeling? Like? What is this?
16:07
Like? You know, and you talked
16:10
about the fog and that
16:10
connection? You know? Can you
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tell our audience like that part
16:17
of it? What, what's your wife in
16:21
the beginning stages she
16:21
starred, she really articulated
16:24
a lot of what it felt like when
16:24
she would get lost, or right.
16:28
And that I found that I think
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that's so important for us who
16:31
don't have to really understand
16:31
that the fluidity of it because
16:36
it comes and goes in the
16:36
beginning, correct? Well,
16:40
I think so I think, you
16:40
know, she really was the one who
16:43
put her finger on it about 12 to
16:43
14 years before it hit like a
16:48
tsunami. And just overpowered as
16:48
she said, you know, we we built
16:55
a new home when we both came to
16:55
Austin, Texas. I was needed the
17:00
LBJ School and she was head of
17:00
the Conference Center. And we
17:03
had very active lives. So we in
17:03
December usually had about five
17:08
different events in our home
17:08
where we had different groups in
17:11
from academia from, from
17:11
business from law, because I was
17:15
a lawyer in the early days, on
17:15
and on. So we had these
17:19
different groups in large
17:19
numbers, and the house was built
17:23
to entertain. And after we sat
17:23
down to have a glass of wine,
17:28
about New Year's Eve of 2002.
17:28
She said, You know, it's the
17:32
first time that I've had time
17:32
trouble remembering all the
17:36
names, and she could remember
17:36
hundreds of names and new people
17:39
come in, she would greet them by
17:39
their names have their first
17:42
name. And she said all of a
17:42
sudden is the first time. And
17:46
it's the first time I've felt
17:46
the pressure of getting prepared
17:50
for these events. Because she
17:50
used to just love it as we had
17:54
our assignments. And she did get
17:54
put the food together. And my
17:58
job was to clean the windows and
17:58
polish the floors and do all
18:02
that. But she said it's the
18:02
first time so we were able to
18:08
get an appointment at the Brain
18:08
Health Center in Dallas, in 2003
18:12
in January. And we went up and
18:12
they did a two, two day
18:17
evaluation. And so they had all
18:17
this material. And the main
18:22
doctor, there is a very
18:22
distinguished doctor at
18:24
Southwest medical school. And
18:24
he's the one that supervise and
18:29
so out of that we started doing
18:29
regular checkups, but she would
18:33
always every year we would met
18:33
with Dr. Hart. And he'd been
18:37
asked questions and he had about
18:37
four interns with him to teach
18:40
him how to work with people who
18:40
were struggling with dementia
18:43
and Alzheimer's. And he's a
18:43
great, great, great doctor. And
18:49
so I got a chance to watch it
18:49
over the years a very thing you
18:52
asked him about. And one of the
18:52
things he said that to me is
18:56
critical is he said, you know,
18:56
she shouldn't be getting worse,
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but she's not. She still has
19:01
impeccable appearance. When I
19:06
asked her a question, she looks
19:06
me right in the eye. And he said
19:10
as long as that's there, they
19:10
said we're rare, maybe issues
19:14
where she takes the
19:14
grandchildren to school and gets
19:18
lost. Or she's going to meet
19:18
some friends and takes a turn
19:21
the wrong way. So those were the
19:21
little signals and she talked
19:25
about those. But in by and
19:25
large, she felt competent. And
19:29
then she is an organist in our
19:29
church. The Oregon there is
19:33
actually named for her because
19:33
it's a big, big beautiful Oregon
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and she was a great church
19:37
organist. And we dedicated it on
19:41
her birthday in 2014. And we had
19:41
the fella who does a Watermaker
19:48
orgy at Oregon and Philadelphia
19:48
it came down to play for it. And
19:51
she was in the audience of
19:51
church was full of people
19:54
friends from yours from our
19:54
church. She was in her element
19:59
and And we did two events with
19:59
friends musicians, one time
20:03
friends and x. And then one
20:03
month later, is when all hell
20:09
hit. And then suddenly, the
20:09
ticker flare up because she had
20:14
been Ojai going strong, loving
20:14
every moment of it, boom, all of
20:20
a sudden, that whatever triggers
20:20
in the mind hit and that's when
20:25
I shattered a femur and had to
20:25
go to the hospital for three or
20:29
four weeks to recover. And get
20:29
back to it, our kids had to make
20:33
the decision for her to. And I
20:33
think it's important for your
20:37
listeners, because I think I am
20:37
a person who's done things I am
20:43
a fixer. And I probably if I
20:43
hadn't shattered the femur, we
20:47
might not have made the move we
20:47
did for her to have good
20:50
professional care, I might have
20:50
tried to put it off and put it
20:53
off and put it all. But all of a
20:53
sudden, I'm not there, that our
20:57
kids had to deal with it. So I
20:57
think one of the dangers for for
21:02
all of us here are caregivers is
21:02
that we think we can fix it. And
21:07
I will have to admit, I plead
21:07
guilty. I plead guilty. I plead
21:10
guilty. I thought I could fix
21:10
it. And, and all of a sudden, I
21:16
had to realize I could not fix
21:16
it. But I had to live with it we
21:20
had to live with we had to love
21:20
with it. And you talk your
21:25
program is about love. Love is
21:25
so critical, absolutely critical
21:30
to how you deal with a person
21:30
who's struggling as you're
21:34
struggling. In many ways. We
21:34
both thought that maybe life was
21:38
over. And maybe I'm talking too
21:38
much. But the first thing I
21:43
wrote very first thing I wrote.
21:43
I'm on hospice, I'm on her
21:50
deathbed. My family's all around
21:50
me, because I thought our lives
21:54
were over. And and they asked me
21:54
some question. And I'm not
21:59
really sure what I'm saying. And
21:59
this is all fictional. It's just
22:02
in my mind. And all of a sudden
22:02
I see a stage floating overhead.
22:07
And I say, Well, maybe that's
22:07
it. And all of a sudden, I
22:12
decided I can write about it in
22:12
fiction is not in reality. So I
22:17
took the stage and I took
22:17
Thornton Wilder's play our town,
22:22
and I created myself as George.
22:22
And I created Jean, Alice's
22:26
Emily. So almost everything that
22:26
was written originally was
22:30
written for fictional
22:30
characters. And the psychiatrist
22:34
or the therapist was really the
22:34
stage manager out of our town,
22:39
never dreamed it, never thought
22:39
I would do that. And all of a
22:42
sudden, it becomes the vehicle.
22:42
And you have to find a vehicle,
22:47
that how you live with it, and
22:47
how you make it work. And it
22:52
evolved. And maybe a little
22:52
later, as we talk, I'll tell a
22:56
story because one of the things
22:56
that scares the hell out of me
23:00
Excuse my language, is that the
23:00
stigma that no one wants to talk
23:04
about it. No one wants to talk
23:04
about it. So we say oh, she's
23:08
just forgetting, oh, she didn't
23:08
remember. And we kind of put it
23:12
off and we put it off. And then
23:12
all of a sudden, you realize
23:17
it's more than that. I can't fix
23:17
it. And I'll come back to the
23:21
stigma question in a moment. But
23:21
I'm gonna rattled on for a
23:25
while, but I just think those
23:25
are critical, critical issues.
23:30
Right? No, and
23:30
that's exactly why I made my mom
23:33
in the girl because I was there
23:33
was. I mean, and I think also
23:38
there's the stigma comes from
23:38
misunderstanding and a lack of
23:42
education, and a lot and that
23:42
lack of education comes from
23:47
ageism, and because people don't
23:47
want to look at it, and it
23:50
frightens them. And so it's
23:50
easier to just to
23:52
compartmentalize it and say,
23:52
well, they don't remember. So
23:56
that's it, you know, I mean, I
23:56
talked about my brother when
24:00
Mama was first diagnosed, and
24:00
you know, he would say, I'd say,
24:03
why don't you come and see her
24:03
more often what she doesn't
24:05
remember, you know? Well, I'm
24:05
sure you understand how silly
24:11
that is, you know, it's like,
24:11
yeah, and it's, they they do
24:15
remember, they remember here,
24:15
and so, it's very important for
24:21
them to have that support. But
24:21
but it's also so misunderstood.
24:26
You know, it's just looked at in
24:26
such a surface way. And so that
24:32
it's easy to dismiss and it's
24:32
also I you know, and I
24:34
understand that it is difficult
24:34
for people to face it. Some
24:38
people aren't strong enough, I
24:38
guess right. Now give
24:42
you an example if I
24:42
may, because it's a different
24:48
area they were talking about,
24:48
but it was my wake. It was what
24:51
helped me to work through it. I
24:51
was asked to moderate a panel
24:56
between Bill and Judith more
24:56
years in there. nerves are set
25:00
and cope. And it was at the LBJ
25:00
Library here in Austin, at the
25:05
LBJ School in LBJ Library. And
25:05
we had 1000 people in the
25:10
audience. And they were in there
25:10
that evening, the issue was to
25:13
talk about addiction. And how
25:13
people become addicted because
25:18
Coke, Moyers and becoming
25:18
addicted, almost died in Harlem
25:23
in a crack house. And he's
25:23
written books about it. It was
25:26
all their own the point of
25:26
stigma. Judith Moyers told a
25:31
story that night, that was a
25:31
wake up call for me. When she
25:35
talked about breast cancer. She
25:35
said for many, many years, no
25:40
one would talk about breast
25:40
cancer. And all of a sudden,
25:44
people did. Eddie Ford, Gerald
25:44
Ford's wife talked about having
25:48
breast cancer. Judith Moyers
25:48
talked about having breast
25:52
cancer. So what happens today,
25:52
we have six granddaughters, no
25:57
grandsons, all granddaughters.
25:57
We have one more in the hopper
26:00
right now, a great grand coming.
26:00
Another girl have all these
26:04
girls. What did those young
26:04
girls do to whoever may have
26:07
just finished college last year,
26:07
they come out and put
26:10
fundraisers on, they put on
26:10
their pink sweaters, they pink
26:14
shirts, and they have a month,
26:14
and they dedicated to raising
26:18
money for breast cancer. And
26:18
there was not there was a time
26:22
when no one would talk about it.
26:22
If you can get if you can get it
26:25
out of the closet and get it out
26:25
there, then I believe it's going
26:29
to be up here. I think I commend
26:29
what you guys are doing and been
26:33
doing it for 25 years, get it
26:33
out of the closet, talk about
26:37
it. And you're gonna help find
26:37
ways eventually to deal with it
26:42
for the caregiver, and also for
26:42
the person needing the care.
26:46
Definitely,
26:46
definitely. Yeah, I mean,
26:49
that's, that's what we aim to
26:49
do. And I think there's a lot of
26:52
us now than there ever was
26:52
before. You know, I know, my mom
26:56
had Alzheimer's for 16 years.
26:56
And when I first you know, heard
27:00
of it, I was I had preconceived
27:00
ideas and stereotype, you know
27:06
about it. And I thought, Oh, my
27:06
God, my, my, I thought I had to
27:10
protect my mom, they people
27:10
would not be understanding. And,
27:15
you know, I, I learned, it took
27:15
me a little while but I learned
27:20
that people you know, when you
27:20
when you educate people, they're
27:23
much more they there. They are
27:23
understanding they can be
27:27
understanding and more than you
27:27
think that they are or would
27:30
ever be. And so that was very,
27:30
that was enlightening and also
27:37
reconfirming for me to find out
27:37
how many people were actually
27:41
much more empathetic and
27:41
compassionate than I thought
27:44
that they would be. And I think,
27:44
you know, so it really showed me
27:46
that if you educate people give
27:46
them opportunity to to step up,
27:52
they will.
27:54
I think it may be in in
27:54
the book. But one of the another
27:59
wake up call for me is that when
27:59
Jean Alice was first down there,
28:03
I was told to follow in I'm a
28:03
lawyer, I've given a lot of
28:07
advice to people that they
28:07
didn't follow. And then they got
28:10
in trouble. And then they really
28:10
needed me and I made a lot more
28:13
money. But because they didn't
28:13
follow professional advice. So
28:18
when I was advised not to see
28:18
Jean Alice when she went down to
28:21
memory care. So for three
28:21
months, I did not see her three
28:26
months. In later when COVID
28:26
comes along, we go six months
28:30
without seeing each other six
28:30
months. It's one hell of a life
28:34
to have to live through. That on
28:34
the first go round. I called
28:38
every morning at 10am Every
28:38
evening and 6am what I was told
28:42
what happened happened, oh, Max,
28:42
Max, Max, you got to come and
28:46
get me I shouldn't be here, I
28:46
should be with you. I have to
28:49
get my clothes packed. I
28:49
couldn't be with you. And
28:52
there's a story in there by a
28:52
judge who had with his mother,
28:55
she wanted to be birth. So you
28:55
have to learn to let it happen
29:00
and let her realize that that is
29:00
her home. We still are there
29:04
every moment in love and spirit.
29:04
But you have to learn that, that
29:08
that's where she is. But when I
29:08
used to go down there were three
29:12
women who said in wheelchairs.
29:12
And they always had their heads
29:15
down. And you thought well,
29:15
they're, they're not
29:18
incompetent, or they're sleeping
29:18
or whatever. And we had a little
29:22
Shih Tzu dog. And so the church
29:22
organist in our church got her
29:27
to go down and play the piano
29:27
with him one time when she was
29:30
much earlier stages. And so
29:30
they're playing the piano to
29:35
have them sitting side by side
29:35
in the activities room. And I'm
29:39
sitting by one of those women
29:39
who never raised her head. I've
29:43
never seen an eraser head. Do
29:43
you not know when she can raise
29:46
her head? And I'm holding this
29:46
little black lemon pounds hits
29:50
the dog in my arms. And all of a
29:50
sudden, someone is petting the
29:56
dog. There's a hand petting the
29:56
dog, and I'm scared to death, no
30:03
idea what's going on. And it's
30:03
that woman who did not raise her
30:06
head, how she knew that dog was
30:06
there, I do not know. But
30:11
there's something going on in
30:11
the mind of all those people
30:14
that we do not understand. And I
30:14
think if you can allow yourself
30:19
to experience the mystery, of
30:19
not knowing, because we're
30:24
people who want to fix things,
30:24
but if you can allow yourself to
30:28
experience it, let them pet the
30:28
dog, all of a sudden, they pet
30:33
the dog, all of a sudden, the
30:33
music comes on and they pop up
30:37
in the head comes up, they heard
30:37
music, they didn't know. Or if
30:40
they like visuals, when maybe
30:40
they see a picture they didn't
30:43
know. So be open to the
30:43
possibilities, I just think it's
30:48
critical aspects that I've
30:48
learned is to be open to the
30:51
possibilities of the unknown.
30:54
Right? Right.
30:54
That's great. That's such great
30:58
advice. How did you find, you
30:58
know, how did you personally
31:03
find your strength during during
31:03
all of this, like resilience,
31:07
because, you know, it can be
31:07
really just debilitating at
31:14
times, you know, when, you know,
31:14
the disease can manifest in
31:17
different ways. And as much as
31:17
we love the person that we're
31:21
trying to understand, but you
31:21
know, there's agitation, there's
31:24
these kinds of, you know, even
31:24
just simply like not recognizing
31:29
you for a second or not, you
31:29
know, I remember my mother
31:31
saying, when, when I had her
31:31
when she was living with me, and
31:34
my daughters were there, and she
31:34
said, Oh, I'm, I'm sorry, you
31:38
have friends over, I won't
31:38
bother you. I was like, Mom,
31:41
these are your granddaughters.
31:41
You know, for that moment, she
31:45
didn't see them as
31:45
granddaughters. She saw them as
31:47
my friends. And so those are
31:47
things right, that you have to
31:51
figure out. How do we start
31:51
breaking? It is? How did? How
31:57
did you find your strength?
31:59
Well, you know, the way
31:59
that the way that releasing the
32:01
butterfly starts, is that we're
32:01
sitting there watching
32:05
television, and when we've had a
32:05
glass of wine, and we've just
32:09
had a good evening, and all of a
32:09
sudden she looks over at me and
32:13
says, What are you doing here,
32:13
you shouldn't be here, you're
32:16
not my husband. And she just
32:16
exploded and starts rushing to
32:22
the door. And, and I started to
32:22
have socks on. That's when I
32:26
shattered the femur and had to
32:26
go to the hospital. And there
32:29
were a number of we were in a
32:29
favorite place of ours in
32:32
Montana. And we rushed out to
32:32
see the birds fly. And all of a
32:39
sudden, she looks at me and
32:39
says, Who are you? What are you
32:41
doing here? So those are moments
32:41
that would crush you. Unless you
32:46
need no. And I think it's the
32:46
great thing about your program.
32:51
Love conquers. And I think if
32:51
you realize and you reach out
32:55
with love, because, you know, in
32:55
the next moment, she says, Would
33:00
you hug me? Would you give me a
33:00
kiss? And it's not? It's not the
33:06
end of the world? It's
33:08
a moment. It's a
33:08
moment that Yeah, and you just
33:11
have to know it will pass. And
33:11
there'll be more, but you can't
33:16
let it define your relationship
33:16
or who they are defined.
33:19
Or defined the
33:19
person. Right? Yeah. You know,
33:22
because I remember telling my
33:22
mom later, when she was, you
33:26
know, out of the agitation
33:26
saying, Mommy, you know, that
33:29
hurts the girl's feelings. What
33:29
did I say? I tell her Oh, I
33:34
would never say that. And she
33:34
would cry. Make it it made her
33:37
very, very upset. So number one,
33:37
note to self never tell mom
33:42
again when she did something
33:42
because that was hurtful. She
33:45
can't help it. Right. And so
33:45
yeah,
33:50
I think that's an
33:50
excellent point. Because I think
33:54
we all owe you remember, so and
33:54
so? Or, Oh, you haven't seen
33:58
this or why? You don't? You just
33:58
live in the moment. And you
34:02
realize that in my judge friend,
34:02
he wrote the deal. I learned the
34:07
value of the little white lie.
34:07
You know, when I was talking to
34:11
her on the phone, and she wants
34:11
me, you gotta come pick me up. I
34:14
said, Well, you know, I'm still
34:14
in rehab. I mean, I've got to
34:17
get my leg fixed. So I've got a
34:17
doctor's appointment. I didn't
34:21
have it was a lie. And then I
34:21
have another friend who came in
34:25
this is not didn't make it into
34:25
the book, but she always her
34:29
husband was in dimension
34:29
Alzheimer's for eight or 10
34:33
years. She would come in every
34:33
week and get his clothes and get
34:37
them cleaned and pressed and
34:37
everything. And one day she
34:42
brought them in, but I'm not
34:42
wearing those anymore. Those are
34:48
not my clothes and she was just
34:48
stunned. And all of a sudden the
34:51
light flicked in her mind. And
34:51
she says, Well, let me get some
34:55
more she walks out in the hall,
34:55
waits for about two minutes or
34:59
three brings the same clothes
34:59
in. And he hugs her and kisses.
35:03
And it's okay. So you begin to
35:03
realize that this moment may be
35:09
hell. And the next moment may be
35:09
resurrection. And so I think he
35:13
just want to keep those things
35:13
in mind as you work through it,
35:17
because and then there may be a
35:17
moment where it doesn't recover,
35:22
as he thought it would have been
35:22
recovering. As you may recall,
35:25
in the book, we have talks him
35:25
we're having a good visits, and
35:28
we have breakfast, and we have
35:28
meals, and they go on and all of
35:32
a sudden, begins to deteriorate,
35:32
it's not going to be a long
35:36
meal. And all of a sudden,
35:36
instead of a 45 minute meal, you
35:40
know, it's gonna be five
35:40
minutes, and you better call
35:43
helper to come and take her back
35:43
to memory care. And so it
35:48
evolves, both negatively and
35:48
positively. And I think on the
35:52
positive side is what we're
35:52
having right now. We meet every
35:56
morning and every afternoon,
35:56
twice a day. And some moments
36:02
aren't as good as others. You
36:02
don't want to expect today, what
36:06
you had yesterday. And I think
36:06
it takes for the caregiver, it
36:11
takes the ability to let go. And
36:11
just just to let go and expect
36:21
the impossible. And, you know,
36:21
whenever the curtain comes down,
36:26
it's down. And that's okay. And
36:26
that's where it will be. But I
36:30
think up until then you say the
36:30
curtain may come up tomorrow, it
36:36
may rain tomorrow, the butterfly
36:36
fly may fly tomorrow. And so
36:41
hold open the possibility.
36:41
Right,
36:43
right. And
36:44
that's so and that's
36:44
so healthy for not only them,
36:48
but for the caregiver, it takes
36:48
out that insanity, which you
36:53
feel like sometimes you're in it
36:53
normal, it's like it's taking
36:57
away all expectations of what
36:57
should be of what's going to
37:01
come next what makes sense,
37:01
taking all of that out of the
37:04
equation. And that takes away.
37:04
So all of that confusion that
37:08
call that the caregiver, and
37:08
frustrated frustration, and
37:13
therefore in that and that and
37:13
your attitude. Now, they can
37:16
sense that they can sense when
37:16
you're upset or agitated. And so
37:20
it's a win win for everybody.
37:20
Yeah,
37:24
I had to make a little
37:24
talk recently. And I can't do it
37:28
from memory too well, but a very
37:28
good friend of mine. He's
37:31
president of a small liberal
37:31
arts university college,
37:35
university. And his father was
37:35
was a oilfield worker, not a
37:40
writer. And he read the book.
37:40
And he determined that, that
37:45
head of that his mother had a
37:45
right for a variety of
37:49
Alzheimer's. And he had taken
37:49
care of her for years, she's now
37:52
been dead for a long time. So
37:52
here's his father, who has never
37:56
written anything. He writes two
37:56
beautiful poems that he talked
38:01
about was going to the doctor
38:01
and how it wasn't his
38:05
experience. It was hers probably
38:05
from 20 years before, when he
38:09
took her there because he was
38:09
putting it into a poem. And then
38:12
he talks about what it is to be
38:12
in that and, and so all of a
38:17
sudden, he just realized that
38:17
even even the caregiver who's
38:21
lost a spouse lives with it
38:21
after it's over, you know, so
38:27
you've got to be prepared to
38:27
allow for that possibility to
38:31
because you may not right now,
38:31
we're fortunate, we're both
38:34
alive. I'm 89 and Jenny's 86.
38:34
And we've been married almost 63
38:40
years. And we still are
38:40
together. But when we're not,
38:44
we're still together. And I
38:44
think whatever your religious
38:47
belief is, there's some way that
38:47
that that mystery takes place,
38:52
and you still have that
38:52
beautiful love that held you
38:56
together, keep you together will
38:56
hold you together. And I think
39:00
that's extremely important.
39:00
Right?
39:04
Yeah. And, to Dan's
39:04
point, it's like, it really is
39:09
the the epitome of this bit of
39:09
living Zen, because you're
39:13
living in the moment. And that,
39:13
you know, really, you know, on a
39:18
spiritual level, that's really
39:18
the highest way you can live is
39:21
to live in the moment and enjoy
39:21
each moment. And because that's
39:25
all we have is this moment, this
39:25
moment, this moment. And so, you
39:30
know, and as hard as we tried to
39:30
hold on to it, it's gone. It's
39:34
gone, right? So we can only just
39:34
keep that moment that we are in
39:38
now and treasure that and
39:38
because my mom is and you know,
39:44
I've said this before, but my
39:44
mom when I would go to visit her
39:47
even in her late stages, and I'd
39:47
say mommy, how are you? Today?
39:51
She go, I am great. I'm alive.
39:51
And the alternative sucks,
39:56
right? So because she was she
39:56
loved life. And she was very
40:01
much in the zoo. And I thought
40:01
that was such a beautiful
40:03
sentiment because it is really,
40:03
it's beautiful to be alive. It's
40:07
a gift. And here we are the
40:07
three of us and we are
40:11
communicating. And you know, and
40:11
this is it's this is what it is,
40:15
it's now. And that's what it was
40:15
with my mom. And that's how it
40:18
is with you and G now is that we
40:18
you go in and you just embrace
40:22
it for that
40:23
season,
40:24
you probably take
40:24
the worst moment, you probably
40:26
take the worst moment with your
40:26
mom right now, wouldn't you?
40:30
Over? Oh, yeah. Not happy? Yeah,
40:30
you know, you have to realize
40:33
that when you're also
40:33
experiencing those horrible
40:35
moments, that this is better
40:35
than the alternative, you know,
40:39
let me share one
40:39
experience because I said, we've
40:44
been here now 13 years, and it's
40:44
an absolutely fantastic
40:49
retirement place. And so but
40:49
memory care, we've had friends
40:54
and people who've been there,
40:54
they're no longer with us. And I
40:58
think it's not only you and your
40:58
mom and me and Jean Alice, but
41:02
you also could be available for
41:02
some of the other people there
41:06
that may not have you and have
41:06
me. And I think of two instances
41:11
of people that I got to know
41:11
because I would never have known
41:14
them had done that been in the
41:14
same area that my wife was. And
41:19
so on two different occasions,
41:19
they were both women. And I only
41:24
knew them casually from being
41:24
down there. And, and they had
41:28
been ill. But what I remember so
41:28
vividly is one of them, both of
41:33
them in different ways. But
41:33
similarly is that they weren't
41:37
talking and they weren't, I
41:37
wasn't her husband. And I would
41:41
hold her hand in his I would
41:41
talk she would squeeze my hand,
41:48
she squeezed my hand, squeeze my
41:48
hand. So even though I was a
41:52
stranger in one way I was there.
41:52
And I think that it's not
41:58
insignificant, to be there to be
41:58
there not only for your mom, and
42:02
not only for me to Jean Alice,
42:02
but to be there. For others who
42:06
may be there may be for the
42:06
caregiver, not we're talking
42:10
about it because we can, there
42:10
are a lot of caregivers that
42:13
can't adult, and they may just
42:13
need someone to hold their hand
42:18
and to be there. And I think
42:18
that's where ministers and
42:22
priests and people of all
42:22
various backgrounds who helped
42:25
people is this to be there in
42:25
the presence and maybe the hold
42:30
the hand and feel it squeezed
42:30
and say you knew something was
42:34
going on because if I went and I
42:34
was just jabbering, I know how
42:37
to jabber and, and all of a
42:37
sudden, she squeezed my hand,
42:41
squeeze my hand, squeeze my
42:41
hand. So I think the squeeze of
42:46
the hand is is a very good
42:46
symbol because it tells someone
42:51
is there. There's someone there.
42:51
Yeah.
42:53
Yeah. 100% Yeah, I
42:53
mean, and that's, that's the
42:58
that is that's the way that's
42:58
the language, right? That's the
43:02
language that that person was
43:02
capable of. And she's telling
43:06
you so much and that squeezes
43:06
the hand. You know, and I would
43:11
my mom would do that towards the
43:11
end she would squeeze and you
43:14
know, she would smile and I go I
43:14
hear ya, I hear ya. I hear those
43:18
words coming. I know what you
43:18
think. And you know, I would try
43:21
to fill in for her because she
43:21
couldn't say the words so I
43:27
would really pay attention and
43:27
also you're so right and you
43:30
know when it comes to being
43:30
there for other people and I
43:34
also think that it it not only
43:34
serves them it serves us because
43:38
there's nothing better than
43:38
making you know that feeling
43:42
when you're there you walk out
43:42
and you realize like you just
43:45
made so many people feel
43:45
acknowledged and feel you know
43:52
that they're alive and they are
43:52
you know, you're giving them
43:59
you're justifying them and it's
43:59
beautiful and you you can't have
44:03
a better feeling than that I'm
44:03
telling you I highly recommend
44:06
it. I do it i mean i Who would
44:06
have thought that you could feel
44:11
so good leaving you know a
44:11
facility even a nursing home
44:15
where there's very you know,
44:15
people with high acuity but you
44:18
sing songs and people are so
44:18
happy and and by the way you
44:22
don't have to be the best singer
44:22
they'll be appreciative. That's
44:25
like you know join in everybody
44:25
and it's it is a beautiful
44:28
thing. Really.
44:33
And Max's Cat
44:33
Stevens is on point let me tell
44:37
you his this morning Yeah, we'll
44:37
cheer up everybody so well
44:42
morning is broken
44:43
is is is a old it's
44:43
actually an old where does it
44:46
come from the original? Do you
44:46
know Max?
44:50
I don't really know for
44:50
sure No. Okay. Because
44:52
I know it's like I
44:52
think it is some it's from a it
44:56
might have been from a A
44:56
religious poem or something I
45:02
just I know he wasn't original
45:02
when
45:05
we're talking about the
45:05
music, but in the early stages
45:09
it's not as true now, although
45:09
about every once in a while I
45:13
try to because when I was trying
45:13
to court Jean Alice when we were
45:17
college students, I knew she
45:17
would love to English literature
45:22
and music and and so when we
45:22
would meet I actually memorized
45:27
Shakespeare sonnet and then the
45:27
Shelley cited, you know,
45:31
Shakespeare sonnet. Let me not
45:31
to the marriage of true minds
45:36
admit the impediments. Love is
45:36
not love which alters which in
45:40
alterations finds, or bends with
45:40
the remover to remove all No, it
45:46
is an ever fixed mark, that
45:46
looks on Tempest, and remains
45:50
unshaken is the start ever
45:50
wondering Bard whose worst said
45:54
known, although his high be
45:54
taken, love alters not with his
45:58
brief hours and weeks, that
45:58
stretches out even to the edge
46:02
of doom. But if this be era, and
46:02
upon me proved, and ever read,
46:09
No man ever loved, but I think
46:09
that's one of the classic pieces
46:14
of poetry. But what does it
46:14
focus on? Love, love. And it
46:20
tells you that love is so
46:20
powerful. I don't think we ever
46:24
realize how hope and love and
46:24
peace are things that reach
46:28
deeply into the soul of a human
46:28
being in a way that you can't
46:34
explain. It's a mystery. And I
46:34
just think we don't give it
46:39
enough credit.
46:40
I Amen. Amen. Amen
46:40
to that. We really believe that.
46:44
Wow, this, this was so fast.
46:44
She's, do
46:48
you want to, you know, I just want to touch on the fact that, you know, you've
46:50
took everything that you have
46:53
learned and experienced over the
46:53
years, and you did create this
46:56
amazing book, releasing the
46:56
butterfly, a love affair and
47:00
four acts. And I mean, I think I
47:00
think you told me before we
47:07
started, actually, that you, you
47:07
wrote this for yourself
47:10
initially. Correct? Right? It
47:10
was nothing you were planning on
47:16
letting the world see.
47:18
Yeah, it was my
47:18
therapy. It was for me. And it
47:21
evolved. And as people learned
47:21
that I was doing it, they asked
47:24
me, How are you dealing with the
47:24
questions when they ask and I
47:28
try to relate or maybe in
47:28
answering your question. I would
47:31
tell them I've written something
47:31
last night about the horror of
47:36
it. And you know, I don't know
47:36
that. There's a chapter that I
47:39
wrote in there that it was based
47:39
upon a really life experience of
47:45
ours. But when we were leaving
47:45
Amarillo, Texas, where we had
47:49
lived for many years, and our
47:49
mutual friends all came
47:53
together. And they had a quilt
47:53
and they each had a square and
47:57
the quilt and some memory of our
47:57
time there. And we had the quilt
48:02
and they gave it to us. And this
48:02
was a true story. All really
48:05
true. But I kept trying to
48:05
understand what, what's going
48:09
on. Yeah, I was still trying to
48:09
be the lawyer and they figure it
48:14
out. And so we take the quilt,
48:14
and we fold it up and take it
48:20
out of town, a little Volkswagen
48:20
and put it in the backseat, and
48:23
I reach in to get my car keys.
48:23
And I don't have them. So I
48:29
think well, these are very close
48:29
friends. We've been here I go
48:32
back in there probably for
48:32
somewhere. So I go to the door,
48:37
and all the lights are out. No
48:37
one answered the door. No one
48:43
hears the knock. There's no one
48:43
there. And that was my fictional
48:51
way of trying to understand
48:51
where Jean Ellis was. And I
48:56
thought that wouldn't be one
48:56
hell of a position to be in when
49:00
there's no one there. And what
49:00
we're talking about here, and
49:04
we've talked about the last
49:04
several minutes, is it's
49:08
absolutely critical to be there
49:08
for someone to be there. Because
49:14
in that mind, which I don't
49:14
understand, I'm not a scientist.
49:18
Oh, I read tons and tons of
49:18
stuff, but I'll never understand
49:22
it. But I think it's the the
49:22
horror. And there's no one
49:26
there. It says he was there for
49:26
a mother and their preteen
49:30
Alice, I was there for two
49:30
strange women that I didn't know
49:34
well except casually, but to
49:34
hold the hand. And so I just
49:38
think that that's something we
49:38
do not want to lose.
49:43
I agree. I agree
49:43
wholeheartedly. That's a
49:45
beautiful metaphor that you just
49:45
said because that is I mean it
49:51
is the to think about knowing
49:51
you forgot something but then
49:56
not knowing where it is or what
49:56
it is that you know, I think at
49:59
some point in Alzheimer's it
49:59
becomes what is what is it? Even
50:03
right? And then having no one
50:03
there to, to help you through
50:08
that is is so frightening it you
50:08
know that? I mean, I get
50:13
frightened, I'm sure you have
50:13
the feeling to if you forget a
50:16
word, or you forget something
50:16
that you know, you know. And you
50:20
know I as the daughter, the
50:20
genetic daughter of my mom, I
50:24
think it's happening. That's it.
50:24
That's all. And my daughters
50:30
have to remind me, Mom, we
50:30
forget every day, don't worry,
50:34
we forget things every day. You
50:34
know, so but you know, just
50:38
imagine if you could if it was
50:38
you were in that situation, I
50:42
agree with you how frightening
50:42
it would be to be alone? No, it
50:47
would be so frightening. I
50:47
agree. You're a tremendous human
50:52
being will
50:55
read to get to know
50:55
you. I've had a lot of good
50:57
opportunities, or blue collar
50:57
kids who grew up in a blue
51:01
collar town and it had
51:01
opportunities we never dreamed
51:05
we would have. And this is one
51:05
of them. We never dreamed we
51:08
would live this long. And we
51:08
never read we will be talking
51:11
about this subject. And we are.
51:11
And I hope that somebody
51:16
benefits and says yeah, there's
51:16
a way we can make this thing
51:19
work.
51:20
I love it. I love
51:20
it. And I love how vibrant you
51:23
are and how you just, you just
51:23
did a wonderful role model and
51:27
your romantic to boot. And you
51:27
say and you do a great guy, you
51:32
know anybody's gonna do
51:32
Shakespeare for me? I'm in?
51:36
That's good. Of course, of
51:36
course, is there any last piece
51:43
of advice that you want to give
51:43
the audience if they are dealing
51:46
with somebody, or maybe at the
51:46
beginning stages, something that
51:49
you said you garbage dropped a
51:49
lot of beautiful things, but
51:53
anything else we didn't? You
51:53
wanted to say?
51:57
I would just say that.
51:57
I think we undervalue the value
52:02
of a great big O genuine hug.
52:02
Just hug me. Put your arms
52:08
around me.
52:11
Yep. I'll go with
52:11
that. Well, you've
52:13
heard us today. I
52:13
mean, yeah, you've hugged us and
52:16
our whole audience, I tell you
52:16
definitely. Definitely. You can
52:20
just feel it. You just emanate
52:20
love. And that's, you know,
52:24
that's everything. Is
52:24
everything. That's, that's why
52:30
you know why,
52:30
Susan? That's because,
52:34
well, love is
52:34
powerful. Love is contagious.
52:37
And love conquers all. So we
52:37
thank everyone for watching,
52:41
listening today. We thank our
52:41
very, very special guests, Matt
52:44
Sherman. Please do go look for
52:44
his book, releasing the
52:48
butterflies, a love affair and
52:48
for x. And we'll have all that
52:54
information online. like us,
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52:59
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52:59
Take care. Thanks again for
53:04
listening. Take care everybody.
53:05
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