This episode shares a recent incident in which my boundaries were violated by a roommate of mine.  Sometimes, you think "well, nothing bad can really happen to me because I am spiritually protected." But truth is, the reality is, we still live in a world where fucked up shit happens...period. It is evident - we see our people, communities of color, killed and brutalized everyday. But for some odd reason, I felt like ... the more I pray, the more I am able to be free of these dangers. And although my spirituality serves its purpose for mental and physical healing, we cannot use this as mantel to cover the dirty table (table cloth). Spirituality helps us develop tools to tend to our bodies, and mental health accordingly but it does not dismiss the fact that we will face challenges and tragedies. I am guilty of these ideologies. In fact, my limited ideologies have also played a huge role in how I gaslight and intellectualize my own emotions, trauma, etc, rather than experience, and acknowledge it. I have not grieved. As Brene Brown would say, " I have skipped day two of the healing process." In which, she states is like the mucky waters of we refuse to step in because we are afraid of getting stuck. I am afraid of facing my shadows, and feelings, most of the time because I don't know how to cope with them - at least all the way through. I hope this episode sheds some light on how we, can collectively still be afraid of the bad shit  that is happening and still acknowledge that we are powerful beings doing the best we can. I am choosing to learn, and invest in day 2. I am worthy of healing.