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Before we begin, we want to let you know there are references
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to violence and sexual abuse against children
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in this episode. Please take care
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while listening. Previously
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on Stolen Surviving St.
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Michael's.
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I am just arriving in Duck Lake and
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I'm on my way to meet my brother, Hal. My
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dad and I were pretty, we were pretty close. My
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dad passed away and the
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only way I can get to know him now is through
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these interviews and these conversations
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with people who knew him better than I did. And
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what did he say happened?
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He recognized him as being one of
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the priests that, and he said, one
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of the priests that abused me in residential
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school. I don't remember the priest.
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Even to this day, they don't talk about what
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happened to them in the residential school. Stuff
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like that, you just try and bear with it. Did he tell
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you?
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tell you who the priest was or anything about him? No,
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you didn't know. I've only just created
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this image in my head of what this person
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looks like. Big, intense eyes.
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You see people who have, like, just hate
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in their eyes, like that. 10 days
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after she
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turned 17, my
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mom woke
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up
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in
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the middle of the night. She
2:35
didn't feel well. The pain
2:38
and cramping in her abdomen was so intense
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it frightened her. She
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went into her parents' room and gently shook
2:44
her mom awake. Mom, I'm getting
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sick, she said. My grandma
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turned over and nudged my grandpa. Dear,
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wake up. This girl is going to have her
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baby.
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My grandpa woke up and went outside to start
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the car. It was a cold,
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snowy night in late March. My
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mom and her dad drove the 20 minutes from
3:05
our reserve to town in silence.
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He hadn't spoken to her since he found out she
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was pregnant. When
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they reached the hospital in the small town
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of Belcaris, my grandpa drove
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past the parking lot up to the brightly lit
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entrance. The doors were
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locked, so my mom rang the buzzer and
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a nurse appeared. Once
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she was inside, my grandpa drove
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away.
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My
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mom was alone in labor in
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a small room behind the nurse's desk
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for 18 hours before I was born.
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At 1.20 AM on March 25, 1979.
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I have
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no idea where my dad was that night, but
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less than a mile away in a nondescript
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one-story building is a police
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station where he worked as a special constable
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with the Royal Canadian Mounted Police.
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Why wasn't my dad there on the night I was born?
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born? Did
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he know my mom was at the hospital? Did
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he visit us?
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Probably not, because even though
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he was only 24, my
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dad already had two kids, and
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he was married to someone else.
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I don't know when he first saw me, and
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it's kind of a sensitive subject with my mom
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so we don't talk about it.
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But after hearing the story of my dad and the
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priest and thinking more about my relationship
4:25
with him,
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I want to know.
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Did he hold me when I was a baby? Did
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he think that I looked like him?
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What did my dad think about me?
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I don't have any photos with him from when I
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was a kid. My parents' relationship
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was on and off throughout my childhood,
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and we moved around a lot. I
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remember bits of all these places,
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and bits of him. But
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I never remember hugging my dad, or
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him showing me any kind of affection. Did
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those things happen and I just forgot? Or
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is it that my bad memories of him have pushed
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the others out of my mind?
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And if I learn more about him, can
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I get any of those memories back? If
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I find out what happened to my dad,
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will it change the way I remember him?
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I'm Connie Walker. From Gimlet Media
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and Spotify, this is Stolen,
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surviving St. Michael's. Where
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was this one taken? Were you
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smiling there?
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Looks,
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well, see, that would go to a lot of these
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elders' gatherings and stuff, eh? Yeah.
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And I'm pretty sure that's from one of them. It's such
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a good picture.
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I'm in my brother Hal's house, looking at...
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a framed photo of my dad.
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The photographer caught him mid-laugh and
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there are deep lines around his eyes and mouth.
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He looks so happy.
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Standing next to me is the person who probably
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knew my dad better than anyone,
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his wife Norlane. This was
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their home before she passed it on to Hal.
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I don't come back here too often,
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but it will always be a part
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of home, right? Yeah.
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This is where your siblings
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raised, this is where your dad lived. Like
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daddy, you know, so it'll always... And I'm glad that,
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you know, Hal took it over. I knew that
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he wouldn't
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disturb anything that your dad had already
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said, you know? But this
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boy's not much of a
6:43
housekeeper. I
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love Norlane. She's always been so
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warm and welcoming.
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And when she married my dad a few years after
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my mom and I left,
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she embraced becoming a stepmom to
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all of my dad's kids.
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And they had four more together, including
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Hal.
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They raised them here in this house.
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I saw the best of my dad in the 26 years
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he was with Norlane.
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They were together until he passed away.
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Yeah, so I was here with Hal yesterday
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for a couple hours and then I went to
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Auntie Ivy's last night. Oh yeah. And
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so it was nice to...
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Connect or even make those connections
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again. And remember, I think, as well.
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Yeah. So what are you working
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on? What are you doing? Yeah,
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so I'm not sure
7:33
yet. I get to start the first test thing. Before
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coming home, I messaged Norlane
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and asked if she'd meet me for an interview.
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I told her I was thinking of doing a story about
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my dad. She and I hadn't
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talked in a few years, but she responded right
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away and said absolutely. And
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then Hal shared that post about
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dad when he was in our CMP
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constable and pulling over
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that priest.
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And that was like...
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So I'll say and I
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wasn't sure you know I got to
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that point because I was I was
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seeing him Drinking
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yeah when when he was when he was drinking
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and it was it was a different Howard
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Yeah, you know then
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the one that swept me off my feet
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kind of thing Yeah, we were good when he was like
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that, but it was different when he was drinking and
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I saw what I wanted You know,
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I was having feelings, but yet I was scared because
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I knew his his history Norlane
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says she knew my dad was violent in his previous
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relationships But he
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never tried that with me. Oh You
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know the physical really no,
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I asked him I said how come you
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know, you never beat me like that You
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know, and then he said he said
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I
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lost two families by
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you know Then I didn't want
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to lose another family You
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know, and he said he knew he had
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to stop that, you know
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Me and my mom and my two younger siblings
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were one of the families my dad lost I
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Was seven years old
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we picked up and left in a day. We
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didn't even get to say goodbye. I
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Didn't see him again until I was 14 This
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is the first time I'm getting insight into
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what my dad felt the first
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time I'm hearing of his regret Because
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your dad talked about that, you know, he hadn't he
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hadn't seen you guys for years
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and years. Yeah and
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I know what weighed on him, you
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know, but you guys were always
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talked about, you know, because you were part
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of the kids Yeah, like that it
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so that our kids grew up
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knowing you guys If
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my dad missed us, I didn't know
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it
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for me. It felt like seven years of silence.
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I
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I feel like I have a memory of him sitting
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on a chair like that, like a big
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kind of chair that was like rocking
12:06
almost, eating a bag of radishes.
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Did he ever- Oh yeah, oh yeah, yeah,
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he ate. Because
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he could just sit there with a bag of radishes in
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DC or a cucumber and salt.
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You know what's happening.
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It's a small thing, this memory of my dad
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eating radishes out of a bag.
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But it feels significant.
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Because it's one of the few memories of him that I
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have.
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It feels like Norlane is validating those
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impressions that I've held onto.
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And it's nice to be able to ask her more about
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my dad's life. Do you know much
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about dad's experience in the RCMP?
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Wait, I'm going to check this cabinet here because
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he had- Norlane gets up and walks out to the
12:49
porch to grab something to show me.
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Maybe
12:53
he'll put it- Oh wow. Because
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he had- his badge was
12:58
here, but his badge- There's
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a wooden cabinet there with glass doors, where
13:03
she's kept a lot of my dad's RCMP stuff.
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She digs out an old beer mug engraved with
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some dates. See look, your
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dad was right here.
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He was in Belcarres first I think, eh? And
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then Shelbrooke. Oh okay, okay.
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So what does that cup say? The sweet- H.J.
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Cameron. From 1978 to 1979,
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so this was when he was in Shelbrooke. I'm
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surprised to find out that my dad was only
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an officer for a brief time. He
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joined the RCMP in 1977 and left in 1979. So
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there's just a two year window when he could have
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pulled over the priest. And there are only
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two places where it could have happened.
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Norlane tells me that he was first stationed in Belcarres.
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And before I was born, he transferred
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to Shelbrooke, and was there until he left
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the force. Okay. So
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do you think that's where he
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pulled over that priest? I think so. Because
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it would have been because-
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because that would have been a priest
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from the surrounding area, I would think. Right?
14:05
Yeah. Shelbrooke is only about 30
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minutes away from Duck Lake, so Norlaine
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thinks maybe my dad pulled over a priest who
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lived nearby. Did he ever say who
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it was? No. No.
14:16
Did you ever hear the names of anybody
14:19
from?
14:20
I've never heard him mention
14:23
names of, you know,
14:25
a priest or whatever that, but
14:28
I knew he had stories.
14:30
Norlaine and my dad were together for decades,
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despite their closeness. She says
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my dad rarely talked about residential
14:38
school. He didn't really talk
14:40
a lot about the experiences,
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but, you know, it wasn't very
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good. You know, he was abused. You
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know, he was abused physically.
14:50
He was abused, like, sexually. That
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part he never really talked
14:55
about, but I know it happened because
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he told me it happened. Didn't
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go into detail. That's all I wanted to know,
15:02
but it made me understand,
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you know, better.
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Yeah. I actually, I want
15:10
to try to find, I mean, I don't know if I'll be able
15:12
to, but I want to try to find out who
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that priest was. And
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I want to find out or try to find
15:19
out, like, if he was ever,
15:21
if we could find out who
15:23
it was, like, if he was ever held
15:25
accountable for anything that happened.
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Yeah. You know, have you talked to Auntie Margaret?
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No.
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She would know. Yeah. Because
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I'm, you had talked to her,
15:36
like, about everything. Yeah.
15:40
If she doesn't know, then
15:42
Uncle Harris or Uncle Dodgy would know. Yeah. She
15:45
was very close with those and she shared a lot with them too.
15:50
When I tell her that I want to try to find the
15:52
priest, it's the first time that
15:54
I'm saying it aloud to someone in my family.
15:57
Finding the person who did this feels important.
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to me. I don't know what
16:02
will happen if I do,
16:03
but maybe it's a chance of getting some kind
16:05
of accountability. Norlane
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encourages me to keep going, to
16:11
talk to my dad's brothers and sisters. I
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want to ask them about their memories of my dad,
16:16
about what happened in residential school, and
16:18
ask if they've heard the story of my dad
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pulling over the priest. Maybe
16:23
they even know who he is.
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You might have to talk
16:32
a little louder than normal. Okay,
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yeah, I'm fine with that.
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I think I'm losing my hearing.
16:40
Oh, really? Not
16:43
that much, but a lot.
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That's my Auntie Margaret.
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At 76, she's the oldest Cameron,
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and the most traditional.
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Before I turned on my microphone, I
16:54
gave her a pouch of tobacco, and she
16:56
said a prayer in Cree. Can you
16:58
introduce yourself in Cree? Oh,
17:02
yeah. I
17:04
didn't even know what my name
17:06
was until
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I went to the residence. Really?
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What did they call you at home before that? Natanes.
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Natanes. Yeah. And
17:28
that means daughter? Yeah. Oh,
17:30
Natanes. Yeah, because
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I was the only
17:36
girl in the Cameron
17:39
family for a while,
17:41
for a long time. Did my dad
17:43
have a nickname in Cree? Tikine.
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Tikine. What does that mean? Crazy
17:49
one. He
17:53
played ball, he played
17:55
hockey, and... Anything
18:01
he needed, I used to supply
18:03
it. He
18:06
was crazy. LAUGHTER
18:10
My Auntie Margaret is ten years older than my
18:12
dad, and she helped raise him. Him
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and I
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understood each other, and
18:18
he'd come and sit in the kitchen. Yeah.
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And we were able to talk to each
18:25
other. Mm-hmm. My
18:28
brother Hal, he shared
18:30
a post about... I asked her if she's heard about
18:32
my dad pulling over the priest. And
18:35
the person who was the driver was a priest
18:38
from the residential school who
18:41
had abused him.
18:44
Oh.
18:45
And he told Hal that he
18:48
beat him up.
18:51
Oh. Huh?
18:54
Yeah. Did you ever hear about that? No,
18:56
never heard about it. So
19:04
my Auntie Margaret doesn't know the story, but
19:06
Norlane also said to ask my Uncle George,
19:09
or Dodgy, as my family calls him.
19:11
Did you know
19:13
that story? Yeah, he told me that, yeah.
19:16
Really? What did he tell you happened?
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Well, you know, I think the rage came out in
19:20
him, because of the straps
19:23
and the lichens and stuff, and
19:26
being in the position that he was in. So
19:29
he kind of had the upper hand, whereas in
19:32
residence the priest had the upper hand. Did
19:35
my dad tell you which priest that was
19:37
that he beat him? No. No. My
19:41
Uncle George is a year older than my dad.
19:43
When we lived in Beirdes, I remember we spent
19:46
a lot of time with him.
19:47
He and my dad were close.
19:48
He was rough and tumbly. Drinking
19:54
and stuff, and playing ball, and
19:56
hockey.
19:59
I did that too, you know. I
20:02
have so many memories of being at the ball diamond
20:05
as a kid,
20:06
hanging around while my uncles played.
20:08
And then after the game, seeing them all sitting
20:10
around the dugout with a case of beer. Sometimes
20:13
the post-game drinks turned into a weekend-long
20:16
bender.
20:17
My dad did that too. And when
20:19
he drank, he sometimes turned
20:21
violent. He was a harsh,
20:25
harsh individual and your mum will attest to
20:27
that and probably has attested to
20:29
that.
20:30
My mum told me that one time she
20:32
took me to my Uncle George's house when my dad
20:35
was being abusive. My dad followed
20:37
us there, but my Uncle George went outside
20:39
and told him to leave, to go sober up.
20:42
My mum was grateful when he listened to him.
20:46
I didn't realise that my dad's family
20:48
knew how abusive he was and
20:50
they not only witnessed it, but
20:52
maybe understood it.
20:54
Because they knew where it came from.
21:00
But yeah, your dad would have been strict too. He
21:03
was very strict. Yeah. And
21:05
mean. Short fuse. Oh
21:08
man. Get mad
21:11
like that.
21:13
That's my Uncle Bill and his wife, my
21:15
Auntie Lorraine.
21:16
My Uncle Bill is my dad's oldest brother.
21:19
He's 75. When I
21:21
visit with them, my Auntie Lorraine has cooked dinner.
21:23
Ribs and rice. Help yourself
21:26
there, Connie. Thank you so much. This is so
21:28
nice. As we eat, my Auntie
21:30
Lorraine tells me that it wasn't just my dad. All
21:33
the cameron men were stern. She points
21:35
to my Uncle Bill. And then now
21:37
when we'd sit around the table here
21:40
and have supper with our kids,
21:42
he used to be so strict with
21:44
those kids. You finish
21:46
what's on your plate.
21:47
Don't drink while you're eating. Don't drink while
21:49
you're eating. Like being... You got elbows
21:52
on the table? Being overly
21:54
strict with the kid, with our kids. I
21:57
feel like that's how my dad was when I was a kid. It
21:59
was like...
21:59
You had to be really careful
22:02
about how you were. You couldn't
22:04
sit like this. They're all the same. My
22:07
Uncle Bill is so different now, but
22:09
I know exactly what my auntie is describing.
22:13
Meals with my dad were also tense.
22:15
No elbows on the table, hold your fork
22:18
properly, eat all the food on your plate.
22:21
And now as I'm sitting across from my dad's
22:23
brothers, I'm struck by how much
22:25
they look like him and sound like
22:27
him, and that so many of the things
22:29
I remember about my dad from childhood, their
22:32
kids would have gone through too. My
22:35
Uncle George tells me they still live with regret
22:38
about the fathers they were to us. Your
22:40
dad was not the nicest guy, you know. He
22:43
had a lot of issues that he
22:45
had to deal with, and just
22:50
like me, I guess. I
22:54
had
22:57
a hell of a time expressing love. And
23:05
it's only in the last that
23:08
I was able to say
23:12
to my kids, I love you, my grandkids.
23:16
But with my first wife, there
23:19
was a disconnect there, and
23:24
that's
23:27
the same thing I think your dad went through. We
23:29
had to be tough, I guess, really. That's
23:31
what we...
23:35
Not to be... Not
23:37
to show that we were broken, really, I guess.
23:42
From the residents and from
23:44
those experiences? Yeah. Like
23:50
in residents, boom, you know, you get the strap.
23:53
So you learn to just
23:56
take it, eh? Mentally,
23:59
I guess.
23:59
it toughened you up to the point
24:02
that it broke
24:04
you inside.
24:16
Coming to talk to my dad's siblings about
24:18
him has reminded them of their
24:20
own experiences at residential school,
24:22
which I know is difficult. When
24:25
I spoke with my auntie Ivy and auntie Leona,
24:28
they made it clear that they never really talked about
24:30
what happened there. This
24:32
silence is part of my family's history
24:34
on both sides. And it goes all
24:36
the way back to my grandfather, my mom's
24:39
dad.
24:40
In university, I took an Indian Studies
24:43
class. And one of my assignments was
24:45
to interview a family member to record
24:47
their oral history. I decided
24:49
to interview my grandpa,
24:51
the one who was mad at my mom for getting pregnant
24:53
with me.
24:55
We ended up being extremely close. And
24:57
in many ways, he was a father figure to me.
25:00
When I was a kid, my grandpa was my bus driver.
25:02
And then when he got older, I drove him around.
25:05
We spent so much time together.
25:08
But it wasn't until I was interviewing him for my
25:10
class assignment that he told me
25:12
he went to a residential school when he
25:14
was six years old.
25:16
He told me how when he was a kid,
25:19
he was also really close to his grandfather
25:22
and that he died when he was in residential school.
25:25
My grandpa remembered that he wasn't allowed to
25:27
go home for his funeral
25:29
and that he cried underneath a staircase.
25:33
I don't think he had ever told anyone about that before.
25:36
And if I hadn't had this assignment, even
25:38
that story would have gone with him when he passed.
25:41
I wish I could go back and talk to him again,
25:44
that I would have taken the time to learn more when I had
25:46
the chance.
25:48
I never talked to my dad about residential school
25:50
either.
25:51
But now I feel like I do have a chance
25:54
to not let the questions go unasked, even
25:56
if my dad isn't here to answer them.
25:59
There's still time. to learn the truth,
26:01
from his siblings.
26:03
Like me, they knew him at his darkest moments,
26:06
but
26:06
they also know what came before.
26:09
We all grew up at the residence.
26:13
I entered something like kindergarten,
26:17
and I stayed there till I was 16. But
26:23
boy, did I ever miss my family.
26:30
All of the Cameron kids went to the St. Michael's
26:32
Indian Residential School. Michael
26:35
Bill says that when he started, it
26:37
was the only place for kids from the reserve
26:39
to go to school.
26:40
Do you remember? Going
26:42
there? Yeah, vividly.
26:46
We went by a horse and buggy. How
26:50
did you feel?
26:51
Lonely. Your
26:54
whole family structure is taken
26:56
away, you know?
27:00
It was tough. There was a lot of
27:03
loneliness, but
27:08
we didn't complain. We
27:11
never questioned. I
27:13
entered residential school at five years old,
27:17
and then it was five months before I see my
27:19
mom and dad for Christmas, and then it was six
27:22
more months before we seen them again.
27:27
I want to know what it was like for my dad
27:29
and my aunties and uncles at St. Michael's, and
27:31
I'm listening for any kind of insight
27:34
into the priests who round the school.
27:36
The longer we sit and talk, the more they
27:38
share.
27:40
The swap they used to give us, they
27:42
eat. It's unbelievable. I
27:45
said I wouldn't even give it to my dog. Then
27:49
after classes were over, they
27:51
were supposedly supposed
27:54
to have been given a snack. Yeah. And
27:57
it was apple peels or breadcrumbs.
29:24
to
30:00
the priest and he
30:02
came and he whipped
30:05
me with the belt about
30:07
that wide. Sometimes
30:13
it's hard to talk about it. I
30:16
blocked it out for years and
30:19
years. Then
30:21
one day I
30:24
remembered it. And
30:29
at that time when I was being
30:31
beaten, I don't know if I cried. But
30:35
when it came back to me, I cried
30:38
and cried and cried. How
30:41
do you feel talking about it now? Are
30:43
you feeling okay? Mm-hmm. You're okay?
30:46
Yeah. The
30:49
one that had beaten me, his
30:51
name was Father Duham.
30:55
My Auntie Margaret says this happened to her more
30:57
than 60 years ago and
30:59
she still clearly remembers that priest,
31:02
Father Duham.
31:04
Hearing the name of a priest
31:06
is a reminder that the abuse my family
31:08
endured wasn't at the hands of some
31:10
institution.
31:12
People carried out this abuse against
31:14
the children they were supposed to take care of.
31:17
That's stuff we had to go through as kids.
31:20
It's unbelievable. I wouldn't even
31:22
consider my grandchildren going through
31:24
that. No. Like, put your daughter
31:27
in there. No, I can't
31:28
even imagine. My
31:30
daughter is 10 years old and hasn't been
31:32
away from us for more than a night or two in her
31:35
entire life. I don't even want
31:37
to think about her having to go to a residential
31:40
school.
31:41
Then my Uncle Bill and Auntie Lorraine
31:43
tell me that one of my dad's brothers was
31:45
sent away even before he had to go to
31:47
St. Michael's. Uncle I won
31:49
and something happened to him.
31:51
He was at Fort Sand
31:54
from three years
31:56
old.
31:59
My uncle Ivan got tuberculosis
32:02
and was sent to a sanatorium four hours
32:05
away.
32:06
At just three years old,
32:07
he had to stay there by himself.
32:09
They'd go and visit him, but he
32:13
didn't know. That's where his parents
32:15
were. They
32:17
say he forgot how to speak Cree,
32:20
and that when he got home two years later, he
32:23
didn't recognize his own family.
32:25
Ivan
32:30
was a stranger, you know? He
32:33
didn't know anybody. He didn't know anybody. I
32:36
think he had it tougher than anybody
32:38
else. Does
32:41
anybody have to come home and go to residential school?
32:44
Yeah. And he's
32:46
the one that said he got really, really
32:50
bad treatment that the residency
32:53
was sexually abused by
32:54
a priest.
32:55
Oh, no. Mm-hmm. Yeah.
33:02
Did he say which priest? Mm-hmm.
33:06
Is it Goji? Goji. Father
33:08
Goji. G-A-U-D-H-I-E-R. I-E-R,
33:12
yeah. Oh. What
33:14
was his first name? Father... Dylus?
33:19
Glascocia? No, I
33:21
don't know. I
33:24
forget. I don't care. Mm-hmm.
33:33
My dad wasn't the only one in his
33:35
family who was sexually abused
33:37
by a priest. His younger
33:40
brother, my uncle Ivan, was also
33:42
abused at the same school. I'm
33:46
left with the same feeling I had when I first
33:48
heard the story about my dad and the priest.
33:51
Like I can't look away. I have to do
33:53
something. I'm here as a daughter
33:56
and a niece, but also as a journalist.
33:59
And now, I know...
33:59
I know the names of two priests who
34:02
were alleged abusers at St. Michael's. Father
34:05
Gauthier, who my Uncle Ivan accused,
34:08
and Father Duhaine, who my Auntie
34:10
Margaret accused. Were
34:12
they at the school at the same time as my dad?
34:16
Did one of them abuse him?
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Okay, I'm just arriving at the Provincial
35:39
Archives of Alberta, and
35:42
I'm here to look at the oblates records for
35:45
St. Michael's.
35:46
Father Gauthier
35:49
and Father Duhaime were members of the Oblates
35:51
of Mary Immaculate, an order
35:53
of Catholic priests.
35:55
The Oblates ran 48 of Canada's
35:57
residential schools, including St. Michael's.
35:59
Historically,
36:02
they've kept their residential school records private.
36:05
But survivors have been fighting for transparency
36:07
from the church and government for decades.
36:10
In recent years, the Oblates pledged
36:12
to be more open about their role in the residential
36:14
school system. They say they're working
36:17
to ensure their records are available to survivors,
36:19
their communities and families. In 2018,
36:23
the Oblates gave hundreds of thousands
36:25
of pages of their records to the provincial
36:28
archives in Alberta, making them accessible
36:30
to the public. That's where I am
36:32
now.
36:35
I said that I can record, so
36:37
I'm rolling. Before
36:40
coming here, I requested 21 boxes of records.
36:43
The archivist wheels them over on a big cart,
36:46
and I see just how many there are. Each
36:48
box is filled with file folders, which
36:51
are filled with pages and pages of documents.
36:54
I know that I can't read all of this in one
36:56
day. So my plan is to take as many
36:59
photos as I can and look through them later.
37:02
It's like a time capsule
37:04
of what went into the day-to-day running of
37:06
a residential school.
37:08
I'm looking at attendance records for over 100
37:11
years at St. Michael's. I see
37:13
family names that I recognize from Beirdies.
37:16
Gardupi, Sisukwesis, Yapays
37:19
and Gamble.
37:20
The federal government paid the Oblates
37:22
for every student that was in their care,
37:24
so the priests kept extensive
37:27
records. But
37:28
there's no mention of neglect, hungry
37:30
children, straps or abuse.
37:33
The horrors of residential school that
37:35
I heard from my aunties and uncles
37:37
aren't reflected in these pages.
37:40
But I find their names written on attendance
37:43
sheets. Ivan, Ivy,
37:46
George, Margaret, Bill. And
37:48
finally, I see my dad's name.
37:53
Howard Cameron. With
37:56
a number next to it. 829-819-821.
37:59
It's on an enrollment form dated May 5, 1961. He
38:04
was six years old.
38:06
It's heartbreaking to think of him being so
38:09
small when he was sent to the school.
38:11
And I can't help but wonder how long after
38:13
he arrived did the priest abuse him.
38:20
My dad was at St. Michael's for the 1961 to 62 school year,
38:24
and then he seems to have left.
38:26
By then, other schools had opened up nearby
38:28
that weren't residential schools. I
38:31
find my dad's name back on the St. Michael's
38:33
attendance records from 1967 to 1968.
38:38
And then when he was 13, he transferred to
38:40
LaBret, another residential
38:42
school run by the Oblates a few hours away.
38:45
He was there for a year and a half.
38:48
I asked my uncles if they thought the priest
38:50
could be from LaBret, but they said
38:52
they were treated much better there. And
38:54
one of my uncles said that my dad told him
38:56
the priest he pulled over was from
38:58
St. Michael's.
39:00
The records show my dad overlapped
39:03
with eight priests during the time
39:05
he was there,
39:06
including the two my family named,
39:08
Father Duham and Father Gauthier.
39:11
They were listed as the principal and vice
39:14
principal in 1968 when my
39:16
dad was there too.
39:18
Before coming here, I asked if they had any
39:20
files on Gauthier and Duham.
39:22
The archivist told me there are personnel files
39:25
for each of them,
39:26
but that the Oblates won't allow those to be
39:28
released until 50 years after
39:30
a priest's death for privacy reasons.
39:33
For 50 years, whatever is inside of
39:35
them will remain a secret.
39:37
Instead, the archivist hands me two manila
39:40
folders, one for Gauthier
39:42
and one for Duham.
39:44
They're filled with personal photos and mementos
39:47
collected by the Oblates and given to the
39:49
archives. OK,
39:52
this folder says, Gauthier
39:56
Father Gillis OMI.
39:59
What's inside?
39:59
looks like the contents of a drawer in someone's
40:02
desk, postcards, photos, and
40:04
keepsakes.
40:06
Father Gautier has a lot of photos of himself,
40:09
and most of them look like professional portraits or
40:11
headshots. In one of them, he's
40:13
wearing chaps and leather gloves with a
40:15
bandana tied around his neck, and
40:17
he's holding a Stetson hat. Looks like he's
40:20
in play, playing a cowboy.
40:21
Oh,
40:24
my God. What is that? A
40:26
picture of
40:28
him walking down the street giving
40:30
a piggyback to a Native
40:34
kid? It's weird. The
40:37
picture looks like it was taken in the 1970s,
40:40
Gautier's smiling at the camera.
40:43
He's not wearing a priest's collar, but
40:45
has a large silver cross dangling from
40:47
his neck,
40:48
and on his back is a teenage boy.
40:51
He looks indigenous.
40:53
I find it kind of disturbing.
40:56
It's a priest who has been accused of sexually
40:58
abusing a boy, giving another
41:00
boy a piggyback ride.
41:02
But it doesn't compare to what I find
41:05
in Father Duham's folder. This
41:07
is, it says Father Andrew, Antonio
41:10
Duham. Ah.
41:12
Father Duham's folder looks a lot like Gautier's,
41:16
except he's kept a sheet of negatives.
41:19
I can't quite make out what I'm seeing, so
41:21
I hold them up to the light. But it looks
41:23
like there's like one, two, three, four, five,
41:26
six, seven of them
41:28
getting dressed or getting undressed, including
41:31
one guy who looks like he's in his underwear. There
41:35
are two photos of teenage boys changing
41:37
in a locker room. Oh my
41:40
God. One guy looks like he's completely
41:42
naked in this picture. But
41:45
why would he take pictures of them undressing?
41:51
There's not a single mention of abuse at
41:53
St. Michael's in these archives, but
41:55
there is this picture of a naked boy
41:58
in a priest's file.
42:00
These are the records the oblates were okay
42:02
to release to the public.
42:04
And even though I set out to find an abusive
42:07
priest, I'm surprised to see
42:09
something so explicit sitting right
42:11
here in one of their files.
42:14
The records I found today
42:16
show that Father Gautier and Father Duhaim,
42:19
both alleged abusers, were
42:21
at the school at the same time as my dad.
42:24
They knew him and he knew them.
42:32
Next time on Stolen, Surviving
42:34
St. Michael's.
42:38
I've been trying to find out who
42:40
that was, you know? You don't want to, Connie.
42:43
No? No. Why? Well,
42:45
because I feel like a big part of
42:49
my understanding of residence. Because I
42:51
think I know who it is. But I know it's
42:54
not. I'm not going to say it on this
42:56
thing.
43:11
Stolen, Surviving St. Michael's is a
43:13
gimlet media and Spotify original
43:15
production. The show was hosted and
43:18
reported by me, Connie Walker. Additional
43:20
reporting by Betty Ann Adam. Producing
43:23
and reporting by Chantal Bel Richard, Max
43:26
Green and Anya Schultz. Our supervising
43:28
producer is Ellen Frankman. Our
43:30
editor is Devin Taylor.
43:32
Our consulting editor
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