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Love now and tomorrow. Love
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is stronger than
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they love you more than anything. They
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still love you. From
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the New York Times, I'm Anna Martin. This
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is Modern Love. This
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year marks the 20th anniversary of the
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Modern Love column. 20
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years, can you believe that? Two decades
1:01
of essays that have made us laugh,
1:03
made us gasp, broken our hearts, reminded
1:05
us of the fundamental goodness of people.
1:08
And let's be honest, a lot of
1:10
these essays should come with tissues. It's
1:13
kinda our thing here, making you cry. To
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mark this big anniversary, we've got a
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conversation with Modern Love founder Daniel Jones.
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Dan has edited around 1,000 essays since
1:23
the first one ran back in 2004. And
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when you spend all your professional time
1:29
contemplating human connection, that work
1:31
doesn't stay at the office. It
1:33
impacts you in profound ways. So
1:36
today, Dan shares the three essays that
1:38
have changed the way he approaches love
1:40
and relationships in his own life. And
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at the end of the show, stay tuned for
1:45
a very exciting announcement about the rest of our
1:47
season. So
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it feels strange to say what I say to... guest
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on the show which is welcome because really
2:02
you welcomed me into this
2:04
universe. So instead of saying
2:06
welcome, I'm going to say Dan Jones, hello,
2:09
and thank you so much. It
2:11
is great to be back here. The
2:13
modern love column has been around for almost 20 years
2:16
which is a long time and I
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do not say this in a rude way but that also
2:21
means that you are 20 years
2:23
older than you were when you started it.
2:26
Is there anything that's happened in your
2:28
life over those two
2:30
decades that has changed your approach
2:33
to the work or reframed
2:35
it in some way? I've
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gone from being young to less
2:40
young over that time. Delicately
2:43
put. I
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started the column with children
2:48
who are now very
2:51
much adults and have gone
2:53
through their own breakups
2:55
and traumas and all of that and
2:57
got out into the world and got
2:59
jobs. My marriage
3:02
of 29 years
3:05
came to an amicable end.
3:09
My father died two
3:11
months ago and there's
3:13
been a lot of tough family time
3:16
since then. I
3:18
feel like my life was pretty
3:21
stable during sort
3:23
of the family, child rearing
3:26
years and then oddly
3:29
timed to the pandemic I have to say. It
3:32
happened to many. It
3:34
just opened up and it was like the
3:37
column was saying to me, okay, you're
3:39
going to experience the whole range
3:42
of what you've been putting out
3:44
there. Funnily
3:47
enough, I feel like working on
3:49
the column for all these years has
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given me sort of touchstones
3:54
and tools and not just
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for me, for other people too, to be able
3:59
to... to navigate difficult
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times in life. It feels
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like this churning reservoir of human
4:06
experience that sort of
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feeds into your veins if you are
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open to it. I
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love what you said that you gave so much
4:15
to the column and now you're in this place
4:17
in your career and your life or it's giving
4:19
back to you. I mean, what a- It's
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like an annuity program. It's like, yeah, it's like
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a 401k. Right, right. It's
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like a Roth IRA. Modern
4:28
love 401k. That's a sexy way to say
4:30
it, right? No, I'm withdrawing. I'm
4:32
getting close to the age where I'm gonna be forced
4:35
to withdraw, so it's a good thing. People are loving
4:37
this metaphor, yeah. Okay, so that's
4:39
where you are now, but when
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you were starting the column, did you see
4:43
yourself as an expert in relationships
4:45
or in romance? I
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wasn't great at romantic relationships. I
4:51
was like, how does this work? How
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does this work? I was really terrible at it
4:55
in high school. I was really terrible at it
4:57
in college. Still found
4:59
it really hard. My first girlfriend in
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grad school. You're
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wild. But very slow learning,
5:06
very shy, but
5:08
I think just the weightiness
5:11
of romantic relationships is a
5:13
scary thing. And I
5:16
wasn't paralyzed with fear or anything. Like I just, I assumed
5:19
I'd get married, I'd have a family. Like
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all those things were just assumptions and didn't
5:23
seem all that hard to make happen in a way. But
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the complications of relationships
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and loss and
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just all those big things, I
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felt like those were things that happened to
5:36
somebody else. Those were out
5:39
there and were these deep dark wells that
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I hadn't really experienced and didn't
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have a sense of
5:48
how to navigate. How
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did the people in your life react when
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you told them like, hey, I got a new gig,
5:55
I will be covering love and relationships
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the New York Times, did people? people, you know,
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how do people react? Some people
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were just, they were surprised that that
6:05
would be my subject. Huh. And
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that would be my beat in a way. To
6:10
me, I don't think of love
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and relationships as being a beat. I
6:15
think of it as being like the center of all
6:17
life. You know, it's like, it's
6:20
not off to the side. Say that. It's
6:23
the center of things. Honestly, I
6:25
don't like the word romance. It just feels like
6:28
shallow and... Schlocky. Schlocky
6:30
and whatever. But the
6:33
word love, like, has it
6:35
all. It's like, that's the
6:37
core of human existence, it seems
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to me. It's the
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stuff of life and loss and death
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and yearning and dreaming and
6:47
all of that stuff. Have
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you come to that understanding of
6:53
these stories about love or really stories
6:55
about life? Do you enter into
6:58
the column, the early days of this column, with
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that understanding or has that been worked out over
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20 years of editing these pieces?
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We started that way a little
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intentionally. We made it clear that
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the stories were not just about
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romantic relationships. It was of family
7:14
relationships and friendships and parenthood
7:16
and the whole sort of gamut
7:19
of human love and bonds. In
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coming up with the title, Modern
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Love, we wanted an
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umbrella that was sort of wide
7:29
enough to encompass love
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and the modern part of it could
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mean a lot of things. To me,
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it meant something that was contemporary,
7:38
like a way we connect that we didn't use
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to, a way we use technology, the way we
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have children that we didn't use to, all
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of those ways that are now.
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And we just thought modern would cover that piece
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of it. Okay, so
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another big part of the column is
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that it's totally based on reader
7:56
submissions, meaning anyone can send in Their
7:58
idea for a story and you can do it. You select
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the ones you want to edit and
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then publish. Why did you go with
8:04
that submission model as opposed to like.
8:07
Commissioning stories from famous writers
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or other well known people.
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I. Just thought, let's just open the
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floodgates and see what comes in. I
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didn't realize the time. What a great
8:19
idea that one. I
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realize later I'm a junior suffered frickin'
8:24
just is pursuing a flipper minutes and
8:26
I'm not much like it's some kind
8:28
of new idea, but for for this
8:30
kind of a forum. It
8:32
was essential and. As
8:35
an example, just a few weeks
8:37
ago, we published a story. By.
8:40
A Bangladeshi immigrants who'd been a
8:42
taxi driver who New York is
8:45
an arranged marriage from Bangladesh and
8:47
one of the visa lottery and
8:49
moved here than they settled in
8:51
Queens the had a daughter, she
8:53
became a doctor. And
8:55
I asked him what made you rights
8:58
dismissed for he a love story from
9:00
thirty years ago and making bring it
9:02
up to now yeah what made you
9:04
submit as we said oh I've been
9:06
reading Modern Love with her twenty year
9:09
and off you know everything at every
9:11
week and he he he wasn't a
9:13
writer he just been really Mccollum file
9:15
I have a story. All
9:18
these people who have stories. They read stories
9:20
to think, what about my story. And
9:22
that's something. I was a late and realizing
9:24
that it was just. It had
9:26
drawn stories out of people who otherwise would
9:29
not have told them. It
9:31
felt like a safe space for them.
9:34
They. Thought about other people have done it.
9:36
Totally know I could do it to. Let
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me come back Dances. As the three
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the first essay you want to talk about? Yeah,
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so this is an essay. It's called
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One Bouquet of Fleeting Beauty, Please. And
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the writer is named Alicia Gorder.
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So this is a story that begins with a
11:59
young man. woman working in a
12:01
flower shop describing the kinds
12:03
of customers who come in, the kinds of
12:07
flower bouquets that they buy and for
12:09
what reason. And you think you're
12:11
in this sort of light, airy story
12:14
about a flower shop and then
12:16
about halfway through it takes
12:19
a plunge into this really troubling
12:22
backstory where her high school
12:24
boyfriend had died by suicide
12:26
at age 18
12:29
and throws this what
12:32
she's talking about at the flower
12:34
shop into a whole new context.
12:38
And in the end it turns
12:40
into a meditation of why flowers?
12:44
Why are these the things that people
12:48
rely on for these important transitions
12:50
and moments and life and
12:53
comes to a wisdom
12:55
at the end that has just stayed
12:57
with me ever since? And
13:00
longtime listeners will remember that this essay
13:03
was featured on the podcast years ago
13:05
back when we had celebrities and
13:07
voice actors read the essays. Let's
13:10
hear a part of this one performed I
13:12
think really tenderly by the actor Carrie
13:14
Bache. There's a picture
13:17
I took of him just days before
13:19
I left for college, two months before
13:21
he died. It
13:23
was the summer of chips and guacamole dinners
13:25
we shared sitting on the living room floor.
13:29
He's standing in the kitchen wearing a
13:32
white t-shirt and jeans, one
13:34
perfect half of an avocado cradled in
13:36
his hand. His
13:39
face is turned away, hidden from
13:41
the camera, but I
13:44
like to think he's smiling. I
13:49
remember the song we were listening to, the chatter
13:53
of frogs through the screen door, my
13:56
bare feet on wood, precious
13:59
moments made. all the more
14:01
precious by the fact that they have
14:03
already come and gone. Now
14:08
I measure months by what's in season.
14:12
Sunflowers in July,
14:14
dahlias in August, rose
14:16
hips and maple in October, pine
14:19
in December, hyacinth in March,
14:21
crowd-pleasing peonies in May. A
14:28
favorite of mine is tulip magnolia,
14:31
the way the buds erupt into blooms
14:33
and the blooms into a litter of
14:35
color on lawns, all in a matter of
14:37
weeks while it's smelling cherry blossoms. How
14:40
startlingly beautiful impermanence can
14:43
be. You
14:49
said that it's that ending and
14:51
in fact it's that final line that
14:53
really speaks to you. Can you tell me what you
14:56
learn or take away from that line? It's
15:00
sort of grown on me how startlingly
15:02
beautiful impermanence can be. It's
15:06
not that love or connection
15:08
is beautiful and
15:11
impermanent. It's beautiful because
15:14
it's impermanent. And the
15:18
fleeting nature of any connection
15:22
is what makes it precious and what makes it beautiful.
15:25
And the way that she saw
15:28
this in petals on the
15:30
ground that are soon to dry up
15:32
and go away, but the beauty is
15:34
in that it won't last. I
15:37
mean there's this section I think a
15:39
little bit earlier than that when she even poses the
15:41
question quite directly like, why flowers? Why do we give
15:43
these things that are going to shrivel and die? You
15:46
have to throw away, yeah. And I love what you're
15:48
saying. It's not despite the
15:50
impermanence. It's really loving because of
15:52
it, because our time is. That
15:54
is the arc of life. It's
15:57
shortened with flower blossoms but
15:59
that is it. It sometimes lasts
16:01
a long time, sometimes a short time,
16:04
but it will always feel fleeting in a way, that
16:07
level of beauty. What
16:10
does this essay make you think about in
16:13
terms of your own life or your
16:15
own relationships? To me,
16:17
it's about, I mean, it's a buzzword we always hear
16:19
about, but here it really comes home to roost as
16:22
presence, as being present. And
16:24
it's always the hardest thing for
16:27
me, for a lot of people, appreciating
16:29
what you have now
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and not
16:34
thinking about what you're building toward
16:36
and what you're accumulating wealth for
16:38
and what's to come, but
16:41
the connections you have now that are
16:44
beautiful in the moment and not fearing
16:47
that you're going to lose them because you are.
16:51
It's a certainty, but just
16:53
being able to be present and
16:55
appreciate them. And the fact
16:57
that it's this young woman who
16:59
was able to artfully, in the
17:02
midst of grief, compose
17:05
such a beautiful piece that teaches
17:07
that was just miraculous
17:09
to me. You
17:12
mentioned earlier that your dad
17:14
recently passed. Did you
17:16
return to this essay then? Was it in the back of
17:18
your mind as you were processing all that? You
17:21
know, it must have been because I was
17:24
scrolling through the archive and saw
17:26
that illustration and clicked
17:29
on it. And
17:32
I did see it in sort of a new way.
17:35
I like remembered how
17:38
much I appreciated it at the time, but
17:41
I was able to hold it together here. When
17:45
I read it aloud to a friend who was
17:47
sitting there when I was rereading
17:50
it, I just couldn't get through
17:52
the final lines. I was really broken up by
17:54
it. It sounds like
17:56
this piece resonated with you and
17:58
spoke to you in... in a
18:00
different way years later, which is
18:03
really powerful. Do
18:05
you want to talk about the next essay? Yeah,
18:09
so this one is called Nursing a
18:11
Wound in an Appropriate Setting. It's
18:13
written by Thomas Hoeven,
18:16
who is a doctor. He's not a
18:18
writer, but you would never know
18:21
that. No, you would not. Reading this incredible
18:23
essay. And
18:25
I think about
18:27
this essay all the time. This was published in 2013.
18:32
He describes his relationship with
18:34
his longtime girlfriend before he goes
18:36
to medical school. They knew each other for 12 years. They
18:39
were both the children of divorce and of
18:42
unstable households that were scary.
18:46
And they gave each other a
18:48
sense of safety. He describes
18:50
their relationship as being no fighting. Fighting
18:54
was what their parents did. Fighting would threaten
18:56
their equilibrium, yeah. Fighting would threaten their love.
19:00
And so it was sort of
19:02
a flat, safe relationship. They
19:05
were together for 12 years. They
19:08
got engaged. He was about to head
19:10
off to medical school. And
19:15
then she abruptly broke
19:17
up with them. I think there were only a few
19:19
weeks from their marriage. I
19:21
think three. Three weeks. Three
19:23
weeks, okay. Wow. And he
19:26
was just devastated. Doesn't
19:29
begin to describe it. And
19:32
he goes off to medical school
19:34
for his residency. And
19:36
it's sort of his boot camp in feelings
19:40
and complications
19:42
and devastation and
19:45
real life. Like real
19:48
life. And
19:51
then after this sort of time in
19:53
the wilderness in his residency and going through all
19:55
this, he learns what real
19:58
love is. Yeah,
20:00
I mean his idea of what real love
20:02
is at the end of the
20:04
essay is so powerful. This
20:07
essay was also featured on an
20:09
early season of the podcast. So
20:11
here's Jake Gyllenhaal reading Thomas Hoovin's
20:13
essay, Nursing a Wound in an
20:15
Appropriate Setting. Yeah,
20:17
this one is so great. My
20:20
ex and I are not in touch. Our
20:24
relationship so long in the
20:26
making and so quick to end was
20:29
like an ornamental piece of crystal.
20:33
Aesthetically pleasing but lacking
20:35
resilience and once
20:38
shattered, irrecoverable.
20:45
Looking back at the various romantic and not
20:48
so romantic dating experiences I
20:50
had afterwards, it's
20:52
hard to separate my growth as an
20:55
emotionally conversant partner from my
20:57
development as a capable physician. Both
21:01
happened simultaneously
21:04
and gradually through
21:08
stretches of triumph and sorrow. There
21:12
were no eureka moments and
21:16
neither ever really ended.
21:21
The turmoil I experienced as an intern left
21:23
me with a deeper understanding of how pain
21:25
works, how
21:27
it feels, how it
21:29
ends, and how
21:31
it leaves you less naive. I
21:35
also learned to open up to important
21:37
facets of life that my previous relationship
21:39
had locked out. Unhappiness,
21:44
uncertainty, regret,
21:49
comfort around feelings like
21:51
these is crucial in
21:54
both medicine and
21:56
intimate relationships. basis
22:01
of empathy. I
22:05
didn't understand that before my ex left me,
22:08
and I learned it the hard way. By
22:16
the time I met my wife, I
22:18
was a changed man, and
22:20
a real doctor, and
22:23
our love developed differently from any
22:25
I had ever experienced before. Just
22:30
like a crystal vase, more
22:32
like a basketball, our
22:35
relationship is made for bouncing, for good
22:38
and sometimes rough play that
22:41
modern professional lives generate. We
22:44
do have fights, oh yes we do,
22:47
but they do not threaten our
22:49
foundation, they deepen it.
22:54
Tell me what you take away
22:56
about Thomas's articulation of what
22:58
real love is, what is he saying? Well,
23:02
this is one of these essays that
23:04
I feel like mirrored my experience in
23:07
a way. I
23:09
didn't come from a family of turmoil, but
23:12
I'm afraid of conflict, total fear of
23:14
conflict, don't like to fight, like to
23:16
argue. My
23:18
idea of a successful
23:21
romantic loving relationship
23:24
was being in a harmonious space
23:26
all the time. Or not
23:28
all the time, sometimes you'd be bored, but you wouldn't be fighting.
23:32
So this idea
23:35
that fighting can
23:37
bring you closer is revolutionary
23:40
to me. It
23:42
still is revolutionary to me, not only that
23:45
it can bring you closer, but it's the only
23:47
thing to bring you closer and the only thing
23:49
to deepen your relationship. Fighting
23:51
can lead to end the relationship, definitely, but
23:54
the only way forward and
23:57
the only way deeper is through
24:00
conflict and resolving conflicts to a
24:02
new understanding of the relationship
24:04
and who you're with and the person you're with and getting
24:06
to know them better and all of that. And
24:10
I don't know what business he has writing
24:12
this well about. It's
24:14
not fair to be like a doctor.
24:16
And I know and also to be
24:18
able to write this well about and
24:21
understand love this well and
24:24
loss and conflict and
24:26
depth. It's
24:28
remarkable. So
24:30
are you like fighting all the time now? No.
24:35
I still need to learn how to fight better. Let's
24:39
talk about the final essay. This
24:41
is an essay by Elizabeth Fitzsimmons.
24:44
It's called My First Lesson in
24:46
Motherhood. Can you tell me what that essay is about?
24:50
Yeah. So this is a piece that ran on Mother's
24:52
Day way back in 2007. And
24:57
it's yet another one that takes a
24:59
really dramatic turn, several dramatic turns. And
25:03
it's an essay about bravery
25:05
when you didn't think you had
25:07
the capacity for it. It's
25:10
a couple who are having trouble
25:12
getting pregnant and decide
25:14
to adopt the baby girl in China.
25:18
And they specifically
25:21
fill out forms
25:23
saying like we're new parents.
25:25
We don't want any any
25:28
disabilities. We can't deal with
25:30
anything basically except for
25:33
just a perfect little healthy baby. And
25:36
they get a baby who's
25:39
chosen for them by
25:41
the time they get there and meet
25:43
with the baby and are
25:45
alone with her for the first time. They
25:48
discover sort of alarming physical
25:51
problems, a really
25:54
bad rash and a scar at the base
25:56
of her spine. And
25:59
he's a really good person. hear a
26:01
horrifying diagnosis that the child will
26:03
be paralyzed from the waist down,
26:06
will be in the continent, will
26:09
have serious, serious
26:12
problems. And unbelievably,
26:15
they talk to the agents
26:17
from the adoption agency and they say,
26:19
oh well, you know, we're
26:21
sorry about this, and
26:23
essentially offer a swap for
26:26
a different baby. Yeah,
26:28
that's a moment that is kind of unbelievable in
26:30
this piece. The view
26:33
of human life in that circumstance.
26:36
So this essay was read by
26:38
the actress Connie Britton in 2016,
26:40
and you can just hear the
26:42
emotional stakes of the story in
26:44
her performance. Let's listen to it.
26:46
Yeah, she's really perfect for this one. I
26:50
pictured myself boarding the plane with some
26:52
faceless replacement child and then explaining
26:54
to friends and family that she wasn't
26:56
Natalie, that we had left Natalie
26:58
in China because she was too damaged, that
27:01
the deal had been a healthy baby and she
27:03
wasn't. How
27:05
could I face myself? How
27:07
could I ever forget? I would
27:09
always wonder what happened to Natalie. I
27:17
knew this was my test. My
27:19
life's worth distilled into a moment.
27:23
I was shaking my head no before they
27:26
finished explaining. We didn't
27:28
want another baby, I told them. We wanted our
27:30
baby, the one sleeping right over there.
27:33
She's our daughter, I said. We
27:36
love her. Yet
27:39
we had a long fraught night ahead, wondering
27:41
how we would possibly cope. I
27:44
called my mother in tears and told her the news. There
27:48
was a long pause. She said, Oh
27:54
honey, I thought. She
27:58
waited until I caught my breath. It
28:00
would be okay if you came home
28:02
without her. Why
28:05
are you saying that? I
28:08
just want to absolve you. What
28:10
do you want to do? I
28:13
want to take my baby and get out of here,
28:15
my dad. But,
28:17
my mother said, then that's what you
28:19
should do. I
28:28
mean, I'm tearing up. Me too. So,
28:31
the lesson in
28:33
this piece to me is sort
28:35
of about a test. It's really a
28:37
test. It's like, what are you
28:39
capable of? Like, what kind
28:41
of devotion? What kind of sense
28:44
of responsibility? What
28:46
are you going to take on? And
28:49
they have to decide in the moment, are
28:52
they going to, you know, stick
28:55
with this child with this horrifying
28:58
set of health complications that
29:00
could control their lives
29:03
forever? Are
29:05
they going to push that baby
29:08
aside and accept a healthier
29:10
baby? And then, you know, how do they live
29:12
with themselves if they do that? Neither
29:14
choice is an appealing choice. No.
29:18
This essay, I mean,
29:20
all of these essays bowled me over. And this one
29:22
just made me, I mean, I quite literally
29:25
called my mom after this. It is
29:27
such a moving
29:30
testament to
29:32
just the completely inexplicable
29:34
immediate bond of between
29:37
parent and child. I just like, I... Yeah,
29:40
I'm still not crying. I mean, it's just,
29:42
it's remarkable. Tell me what you're taking. I
29:44
mean, you are a parent. Like, tell me
29:46
what you're thinking about when you read this
29:49
essay. Well, first
29:51
of all, I'm thinking, I think
29:54
anyone reading these things, what
29:56
would choice what I have made? Of course. And
29:58
you would like to think that you... would make the
30:02
choice of keeping the child. But
30:04
honestly, one of the most moving
30:06
things and tragic
30:08
things that happened in the wake
30:10
of publishing this essay is we
30:13
got emails from people who'd faced this
30:15
choice and made the opposite choice and
30:17
either left with a healthy baby and
30:21
struggled and struggled and struggled with having
30:23
done that. More common
30:25
was giving up on adoption entirely and
30:27
just walking away, walking away
30:29
from that child or any child. But
30:32
she's just like, I'm going to walk
30:34
into this, like I'm going to just
30:36
walk forward into this and it's going
30:38
to be what it's going to be.
30:40
And miracle of miracles, like
30:43
within a year or so, all that stuff has
30:45
gone away. I know the kid
30:48
is fine. I'm going to cry again. It's like
30:50
after making this decision, they go
30:52
home and she heals. Yeah.
30:56
And she recoiled it thinking that
30:58
was a reward for making the right choice. Like
31:01
she said, it's not about that. It's not about
31:03
like we were generous or
31:05
we were good and therefore our child
31:07
turned out fine. It's not that
31:09
at all. It just happened
31:11
that way. But it's yet another lesson
31:14
in you can't
31:16
predict the smooth path. You
31:18
just have to sort of walk
31:20
forward and be brave. I
31:24
often say with modern love stories
31:26
that are really
31:28
about choices and hard choices
31:31
and how it's sort
31:34
of ordinary people being incredibly
31:37
brave. I mean, I often wonder
31:39
what creates the
31:41
person who can make the
31:43
brave choice versus the person who shrinks from
31:46
it. Like, well, what is that magic sauce?
31:48
Or what is that childhood experience? Or what
31:50
is the parenting that they have? Because
31:53
there is a divide. Like there is a divide
31:55
often in those circumstances that
31:57
we saw in the outpouring after the
31:59
essay. We
32:02
see instances of bravery in all three
32:04
of the essays that you've shared today.
32:07
Bravery to embrace the brevity
32:09
of love, bravery to engage
32:12
in fighting in a relationship, bravery
32:15
to make a choice. Would
32:17
you define bravery as
32:20
like a core act of love?
32:24
Yeah, a core act of love and
32:26
a core act of life. People's
32:29
bravery has been my biggest takeaway
32:32
over 20 years of doing this work. It's
32:36
never a person who says, I am brave.
32:38
It's almost the opposite. It's people
32:40
who say, I'm not brave. I'm a
32:42
coward. And
32:45
the lesson, just sort of the lesson
32:47
of that, like life,
32:49
it's going to be a mess
32:51
one way or the other. Like you just sort of choose
32:53
your mess, but that is what
32:55
it is. That is life. You're
32:58
not going to avoid it. There's
33:01
such a school of life that
33:03
is about trying to make your
33:05
life as clean and tidy as
33:07
possible. And it's really
33:09
a struggle to do that. And
33:12
I'm not sure it's well-directed energy.
33:16
What do you think we should direct our energy to?
33:18
And now this is just truly me asking you because
33:20
I want you to give me life advice. If not
33:22
to cleaning up our life. I'm not an advice
33:25
giver. I know, but just please put on
33:27
the hat for one second. Like if not
33:29
to direct our energy towards cleaning up our
33:31
life in your 20 years of doing this
33:33
work, like what is the more worthwhile thing
33:36
to direct energy towards? This is not
33:38
exactly new advice, but
33:41
it's really the wisdom from
33:43
Alicia Gorder's essay, which is
33:46
be in the moment. Value
33:48
the people you're with now. Don't
33:51
think I'm planning for 10 years from
33:53
now. Put your 401k
33:55
out of your mind. Contribute to
33:57
it, but put it out of your mind. It's now.
34:00
It's the now, that is
34:02
the work. Dan, I love that.
34:04
It's the now. You
34:07
know, I feel like so
34:09
many listeners right now are clinging to every
34:12
word you've said, trying to figure out what you're looking
34:14
for in a modern love essay pitch. And
34:17
by the way, you can
34:19
send those submissions to modernloveatnytimes.com.
34:22
Dan, can you give us a few quick tips
34:24
on what makes a story stand out in your
34:27
inbox? Well, like
34:29
a bad subject line is modern love submission.
34:31
You're like, you know, 80% of people who submit. And
34:37
a good subject line would include
34:39
sort of an attempt
34:41
at a title, which would be like,
34:43
please, Lord, let him be 27. Please,
34:46
Lord. And I read that, yeah, I read that
34:49
subject line. It was
34:51
funny, it was smart, it was vulnerable.
34:54
I just prayed the essay would deliver on that
34:56
promise. And it did
34:58
deliver, we actually featured it on the podcast a
35:00
few seasons ago. So
35:02
a good subject line is very practical advice,
35:05
but what about the essence of a
35:07
story? Like, what are you looking for there? Harder
35:11
to define quality is a
35:13
sense of humility. Like, there's
35:15
a sense that you're not the smartest
35:17
person in the world, but you do have something to offer. And
35:20
in the world of pitching and
35:22
of trying to get published, there's
35:25
an overriding sense that you have that
35:27
confidence, you have to sell your
35:29
product, you have to say,
35:31
this essay is going to be perfect for you. And
35:34
that's just the wrong approach. That
35:37
kind of confidence is not what
35:39
a hard experience leaves you with. It
35:41
can leave you shaken, it can leave
35:44
you wise, but it doesn't leave you
35:46
cocky. And I think it's
35:48
important that the stories aren't really about answers, they're
35:50
about a search for answers, and
35:52
they don't need to come to a conclusion, but
35:56
they need to present a problem in an interesting way that
35:59
makes you think about it. Well,
36:01
now you're going to get even more
36:03
submissions that can fuel the next 20 years of Modern
36:06
Love. Dan, thank you
36:08
so much for the conversation today. Thanks,
36:11
Anna. That was a lot of fun. So
36:18
listeners, at the beginning of this episode, I
36:20
told you we have an announcement about the rest
36:22
of our season. In honor
36:25
of 20 years of Modern Love, we're
36:27
launching a special series that's really an ode
36:29
to the early years of the podcast that
36:31
so many of you love so much. Starting
36:34
next week, our favorite actors,
36:36
musicians, writers, and artists will read
36:38
hand-picked essays from the Modern Love Archive and
36:40
we'll talk with them about how those essays
36:43
relate to their life and their world. We've
36:46
got a truly incredible lineup that we can't
36:48
wait to share with you. So
36:50
happy anniversary, Modern Love listeners.
36:52
We are so excited for
36:54
this season-long celebration. See you next
36:56
week. Modern
37:01
Love is produced by Julia Botero,
37:03
Christina Joseph, Reva Goldberg, and Emily
37:05
Lang. It's edited by
37:07
Jen Poient and Paula Schumann. Our executive
37:10
producer is Jen Poient. This
37:12
episode was mixed by Daniel Ramirez. Our show
37:14
is recorded by Maddie Maciello. The
37:17
Modern Love theme music is by Dan Powell. Digital
37:20
production by Mihima Czablani and Nell Gologli.
37:24
All thanks to Larissa Anderson, Kate
37:26
Lapreste, Davis Land, and Lisa Tobin.
37:29
The Modern Love column is edited by Daniel
37:31
Jones. Mia Lee is the editor
37:33
of Modern Love Projects. I'm Anna
37:35
Martin. Thanks for listening.
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