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with our favorite writers, musicians,
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artists, and today, a chef.
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Cooking for someone is kind of the
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original way to say, I love you.
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The labor, the time, the care,
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all that chopping and kneading and
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careful seasoning. So
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if food is love, then chef
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and writer Samin Nasrat just might
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be the most romantic person in
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the world. It's sweet,
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it's rich in flavor. It's
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so good. It's so good. It's bringing
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tears to my eyes. It's so good.
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That's Samin on her Netflix show Salt,
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Fat, Acid, Heat, freaking out in the
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best way over some parmesan cheese in
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Italy with the people who spent years
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making it. This is
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Samin and her element, sharing meals and
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laughs and sometimes tears with other people.
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From the vibrant, delicious dinner she hosts for her friends, I'm
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going to put you straight to work. So do you want
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a glass of wine first? Yeah. To making traditional Iranian dishes
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with her mom. with
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some trial and error. Apparently I've been
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doing this wrong my whole life. You're
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not frying it. It was just making
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good, cross-state patty. Okay. To her instructional
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videos showing us how home cooks can
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make cheesy, molten lasagna from scratch.
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Hot, oh my God. It's
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like a piece of lava going
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down my throat. Ha
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ha ha ha! Okay, I hope
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that you get to share this lasagna
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with a bunch of people. I hope it brings a
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little joy and comfort and deliciousness. When we asked
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Samin to pick a Modern Love essay, she knew
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exactly which one she wanted to read. It's
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an essay that involves food, of course, but
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it's also an essay about time, how
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precious it is, and how, just
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like a piece of piping hot lasagna, we
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have to savor it with the people we love.
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Samin Nasrat, welcome to Modern Love.
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Thanks so much for having me, Anna. Okay,
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I worry this is gonna sound creepy, but I'm
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just gonna tell you, we've actually met before. We
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have a friend in common, and one
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time, I tagged along
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on an errand with her. She was
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dropping off a pot she borrowed from
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you at your house. Oh,
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for her chili. Exactly, yes, and I met you
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then. Well, did I still live in my
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little apartment, or did I live here? No,
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it was like a house with a garden
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in the middle. Yeah, yeah, that's where I
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lived now. And you gave me a LaCroix, and
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I fangirled very quietly. Ha
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ha ha ha! That's funny. Okay,
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now that that's over, before we
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get to the essay, I wanna ask
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you a personal question. You are
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so openly emotional on
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salt, fat, acid heat, your TV show,
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and throughout all your other work. You
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have these moments where you laugh
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out loud, or you burst into tears
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because something tastes so good. Have
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you always been that way, with your emotions so
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close to the surface? Hmm,
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I think yes and no. I
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think the feelings have always been there. My family's
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from Iran, and my
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particular family has its own story
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of loss and grief and being
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affected by culture. And
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so in my family, I was not necessarily
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encouraged to express
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my feelings. And so it's taken a
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lot of work,
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a lot of therapy, a lot of sitting
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with it, and also just connecting back to
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who I am. And
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I think part of that's just growing up and
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getting outside of constantly worrying what
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other people think, which I only do it 98% of
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the time now, not 100%. But
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I think instead of being embarrassed about the
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things that rise inside of me and want
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to come out, now I understand that's all
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I can do, and that's who I am. And in a
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way, that's what draws certain
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people toward me, is
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I maybe give permission. Because the
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thing tastes so good. How
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can I contain myself? I just,
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yeah, I have to let it out. It's
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so good. And don't you want to share that
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with someone? Totally. This tastes so good. I want you
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to have some. I mean,
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your emotion invites us in. It
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invites us to feel
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deeply alongside you. So,
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I mean, when we asked you to come
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on the show, you knew immediately which essay
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you wanted to read. It's called, You May
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Want to Marry My Husband by
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Amy Kraus Rosenthal. And
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you said it was because you were obsessed
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with Amy, that you were an ardent fan,
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that you'd followed her intensely for years.
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Without giving away too much
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of the story before listeners hear it, can you
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tell me why you're so drawn to her? I
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probably first encountered her work maybe
5:49
like 2005, which was a time
5:51
in my life when I was reading
5:53
a lot of blogs by artists and
5:56
creative people. I was really
5:58
deeply unhappy in my own. pass
6:01
as a restaurant cook and I wanted to become a writer
6:03
so I would sort of spend all of my time filling
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my spare time with like creative
6:09
juju and I saw
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her book. I think it's called encyclopedia
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of an ordinary life It
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was a memoir written in this amazing format
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of encyclopedic entries But I'm just
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ordinary things in her life And
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I just thought it was so clever and
6:25
smart and so I started following her online
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and she was always doing projects that invited
6:30
strangers in and so she
6:32
had an event that she documented and turned into a
6:34
short film called the beckoning of
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lovely and The internet was already
6:38
starting to turn dark, you know and
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it was this thing where it was
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like in time of so much darkness and Disconnection
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like she was offering a beautiful
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way to connect. Mm-hmm. I
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know that video. I've watched it several times
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Amy Krauss Rosenthal called this project the
6:56
beckoning of lovely as you said because
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her whole sort of ethos was Beckoning
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in calling in light and
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joy and connection So
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she had all these strangers show up to make art together
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at 8 8 so October 8th
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2008 at 8 0 8 p.m. Oh, I forgot to 808 Mm-hmm.
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It was just this beautiful thing to
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witness This movie was so joyful and
7:22
special and magical and innocent and like
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I wanted to do things like that I wanted to be
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part of something like that. It was so inspiring Absolutely
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inspiring her work was
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so playful and the modern
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love essay. She wrote also has that quality
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But at the same time it is a total
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Teardroker like this essay makes me cry
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Before you read I want to pose
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a theory to you I feel like there
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are two types of people in the world There are
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the people who like a story
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that makes you cry and there
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are people who avoid it like the
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plague And you, in Peking
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this essay, you just went right for
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it. You went directly into the
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emotion. So I want to
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know, like, why do you think you're not afraid
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of the sad when a lot of people
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are? Hmm. I
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think sadness has
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always just been a part of my life. And
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yet, like, you know,
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in my work and in the world, like, I'm so
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deeply associated with joy, and
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you can't have one without the other. I
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think my orientation toward joy is because
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I have so much
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sadness inside. I
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mean, this essay has both. It has the joy
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and it has the sadness. I
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completely see why you were so drawn to
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it, and I can't wait to hear you read it.
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Okay, great. You may
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want to marry my husband by Amy
8:51
Krauss Rosenthal. I've
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been trying to write this for a while, but the
8:57
morphine and lack of juicy cheeseburgers —
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what has it been, five weeks without real food? —
9:02
have drained my energy and interfered with
9:04
whatever prose prowess remains. Additionally,
9:08
the intermittent micro naps that
9:10
keep whisking me away mid-sentence are
9:12
clearly not propelling my work forward as quickly as
9:14
I would like. But they
9:17
are, admittedly, a bit of trippy fun. Still,
9:20
I have to stick with it, because I'm facing
9:23
a deadline. In this case, a
9:25
pressing one. I need to say
9:27
this and say it right while I have,
9:29
A, your attention, and B, a
9:31
pulse. I've
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been married to the most extraordinary man for 26
9:35
years. I
9:38
was planning on at least another 26 together. Wanna
9:43
hear a sick joke? A
9:45
husband and wife walk into the emergency room in
9:48
the late evening on September 5, 2015. A
9:52
few hours and tests later, the doctor
9:55
clarifies that the unusual pain the wife
9:57
is feeling on her right side isn't
9:59
the no-biggy appendage. in the site as they suspected,
10:02
but rather ovarian cancer. As
10:06
the couple head home in the early morning of September
10:08
6th, somehow through the foggy
10:10
shock of it all, they make the
10:12
connection that today, the day they learned
10:14
what had been festering is also
10:16
the day they would have officially kicked
10:19
off their empty nestering. The
10:21
youngest of their three children had just lived
10:23
for college. So
10:25
many plans instantly went poof.
10:29
No trip with my husband and parents to South
10:31
Africa. No reason now
10:34
to apply for the Harvard-Lobe Fellowship.
10:37
No dream tour of Asia with my mother. No
10:40
writers' residencies at those wonderful
10:42
schools in India, Vancouver, Jakarta.
10:46
No wonder the word cancer and cancel look
10:48
so similar. This
10:51
is when we entered what I came to think
10:54
of as plan B. That's B-E. Existing
10:57
only in the present. As
11:02
for the future, allow me to introduce
11:04
you to the gentlemen of this article, Jason
11:08
Brian Rosenthal. He's
11:10
an easy man to fall in love with. I
11:13
did it in one day. Let me explain. My
11:16
father's best friend since summer camp, Uncle
11:18
John, had known Jason and me separately our
11:20
whole lives, but Jason and I had never met.
11:24
I went to college out East and took my
11:26
first job in California. When I
11:28
moved back home to Chicago, John, who thought Jason
11:30
and I were perfect for each other, set
11:32
us up on a blind date. It
11:35
was 1989. We were only 24. I
11:38
had precisely zero expectations about this going
11:41
anywhere. But when he knocked on
11:43
the door of my little frame house, I
11:45
thought, uh-oh, there's something highly likable about this
11:47
person. By the
11:49
end of dinner, I knew I wanted to marry him. Jason?
11:53
He knew a year later. I've
11:57
never been on Tinder, Bumble, or eHarmony, but I'm
11:59
gonna create a- general profile of Jason right
12:01
here based on my experience of coexisting in
12:03
the same house with him for like 9,490
12:05
days. First,
12:09
the basics. He's
12:11
5'10", 160 pounds with salt and pepper
12:13
hair and hazel eyes. The
12:16
following list of attributes is in no particular
12:18
order because everything feels important to me in
12:20
the same way. He's
12:22
a sharp dresser. Our young adult
12:24
sons, Justin and Miles, often borrow his
12:26
clothes. Those who know
12:28
him or just happen to glance down at the
12:31
gap between his dress slacks and dress shoes know
12:33
that he has a flair for fabulous socks. He's
12:36
fit and enjoys keeping in shape. If
12:40
our home could speak, it would add
12:42
that Jason is uncannily handy. On
12:45
the subject of food, man can he
12:47
cook. After a long
12:49
day, there's no sweeter joy than seeing him walk
12:51
in the door, plop a grocery back down on
12:53
the counter, and woo me with olives and some
12:55
yummy cheese he has procured before he gets to
12:58
work on the evening's meal. Jason
13:01
loves listening to live music. It's our favorite
13:04
thing to do together. I
13:06
should also add that our 19-year-old daughter, Paris,
13:08
would rather go to a concert with him
13:10
than anyone else. When
13:12
I was working on my first memoir, I
13:14
kept circling sections my editor wanted me to
13:17
expand upon. She
13:19
would say, I'd like to see more of this
13:21
character. Of course, I would agree.
13:24
He was indeed a captivating character. But
13:27
it was funny because she could have just said, let's
13:29
add more about Jason. He's
13:33
an absolutely wonderful father. Ask
13:35
anyone. See that guy on the
13:37
corner? He'll tell you. Jason is
13:39
compassionate and he can flip a pancake.
13:43
Jason paints. I love his artwork.
13:46
I would call him an artist, except for
13:48
the law degree that keeps him at his downtown
13:50
office most days from 9 to 5, or
13:53
at least it did before I got sick. If
13:56
You're looking for a dreamy, let's go for
13:58
it, Travel Companion. Is man.
14:01
Also has an affinity for tiny things
14:03
taste or spoons. little jars of many
14:06
sculpture of a couple sitting. On a
14:08
bench which she presented to me as a
14:10
reminder. of our family began. Here's
14:13
the train. A man Jason is. She.
14:16
Showed up at our first pregnancy ultrasound.
14:18
With flowers. This is
14:20
a man who because he is always
14:22
up early, surprises me every Sunday morning.
14:24
By making some train of oddball smiley face
14:26
out of items near the coffee pot. A
14:30
spoon a mode of banana. This.
14:33
Is a man who emerges from the mini mart
14:35
or gas station and says give me your palm.
14:38
And well off a colorful Dumbo
14:40
appears. She knows I love all
14:42
the flavors. Polite. My.
14:49
Guess is you. Know enough about him now. So.
14:52
Let's swipe right. Wait,
14:55
Did I mention that he's incredibly handsome?
14:57
I'm gonna miss looking at. That face
14:59
of his. If he
15:01
sounds like a prince and our relationship seems
15:03
like a fairytale, It's not too
15:06
far off. Except for all the
15:08
regular stuff that comes from two and a half
15:10
decades of playing house together. And.
15:12
The part about me getting cancer. Bless.
15:16
In my most recent memoir. Written entirely
15:18
before my diagnosis, I invited readers
15:20
to send in suggestions for matching
15:22
tattoos, the idea being that author
15:24
and reader would be bonded by
15:26
inc. I. Was totally
15:29
serious about this and encourage submitters
15:31
to be serious as well. Hundred
15:33
Sport in. A
15:35
few weeks after publication in August, I heard
15:37
from a sixty two year old library and
15:39
in Milwaukee named Paulette. She
15:42
suggested the word more. This
15:44
was based on an essay in the book where
15:47
I mention that More was my first spoken word.
15:49
True. And now it may
15:52
very well be my last. Time
15:54
she'll tell. In.
15:56
September Paulette drove down and meet me at
15:58
a Chicago tattoo parlor. She
16:00
got hers her very first on her
16:02
left wrist. I. Got mine
16:04
on the underside of my left forearm in
16:06
my daughter's handwriting. This. Was
16:09
my second tattoo. The. First is
16:11
a small lowercase j that has been on
16:13
my ankle for twenty five years. You can
16:15
probably guess what it stands for. Jason.
16:18
Has one too but with more letters.
16:21
Ha are. I
16:25
want more time with Jason. I
16:27
want more time with my children. I
16:30
want more time sitting martinis at the
16:32
Green Mill Jazz Club on Thursday nights,
16:35
but that is not gonna happen. I
16:37
probably only have a few days left
16:39
being a person on this planet, so.
16:41
Why am I doing this? I'm
16:44
rapping was up on Valentine's Day and the
16:46
most genuine non vase oriented gift I can
16:48
hope for is of the right person reads:
16:50
this finds. Jason's and another love.
16:52
Story begins. All
16:56
leave this intentional empty space below as
16:58
a way of giving you to the
17:00
fresh start you deserve. With.
17:04
All my love. Amy.
17:11
I. She was just herself. Me:
17:14
Entire time she was alive since
17:16
just always and fully a me
17:18
crossroads know. I. Think that's what
17:20
struck me on around us and the strikes me
17:22
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thank you so much for reading
19:19
Amy Krauss Rosenthal's essay. You did
19:21
an incredibly beautiful job. What
19:24
did it bring up for you? I
19:26
remember when I first read this in the paper I
19:29
was surprised I had not seen anything
19:31
from her in a while
19:33
and I actually think she died shortly
19:35
after just a few days after it
19:37
was published. And so
19:40
it came with that note and
19:43
it was just such a shock because she was
19:46
so young and so alive like aliveness was
19:48
at the core of what I associated with
19:50
her. And yet
19:53
still in this story
19:56
she's still so fully herself and
19:59
everything that that I had been drawn to
20:01
from the beginning about finding beauty
20:03
in the ordinary and
20:05
finding ways to bring people together comes out here.
20:11
She's doing it here. She's
20:14
inviting people into her life and
20:16
her husband's life. She tells the
20:18
story of connecting with her readers
20:20
and getting a tattoo. And
20:22
there's just this way where it's
20:24
so deeply moving and so beautiful
20:26
and so sad. And I think
20:29
you just can't have one without the other. You
20:33
know, you mentioned that in your work
20:35
and your sort of public persona, you are
20:38
known for your joy, which
20:40
is, I mean, your laugh is like
20:42
a golden beam of light to me,
20:44
like invigorate me. And I know so
20:47
many others, and you're talking about the sadness too
20:49
that you carry. And I guess, I
20:51
wonder how you approach holding both of those. You
20:53
say you can't have one without the other. I
20:56
wonder how you carry both at the same time.
20:59
I mean, I am a
21:01
depressive person. I've been like deeply overwhelmed
21:03
by loss and sadness throughout
21:05
my life. And even as I
21:08
sit here talking, like I can just feel the like
21:10
core of sadness in my heart. And
21:12
also sometimes I have to wallow in it. And
21:14
at other times, I think it's
21:16
just been a conscious decision for me. It's almost
21:18
like a survival mechanism that I
21:21
can't stay there. I can't live
21:23
there. So I can feel it and I can
21:25
acknowledge it and I can let it be there.
21:28
And also the way I
21:30
have to exist in the world is
21:32
by looking for beauty and looking
21:34
for joy and looking for connection. And
21:37
I'm not an actor. I wish,
21:39
sometimes I really wish I could
21:42
act. But the joy that I
21:44
emit and I represent is also
21:46
like very genuine. It's not
21:48
an act, but also I have to
21:50
leave room for the other part
21:53
of it. Because
21:56
genuine joy and genuine
21:58
sadness coexist together. It
22:00
sounds like you've come to a
22:02
place in your life where you really
22:04
deeply acknowledge that. And
22:06
in its own way, I think the essay
22:08
does too. You
22:11
know, there are so many beautiful things
22:13
that Amy writes about her husband,
22:15
Jason. And one of those things
22:17
is that he cooks for her. She writes, after
22:20
a long day, there is no sweeter joy
22:22
than seeing him walk in the door, plop
22:25
a grocery bag down on the counter and
22:27
woo me with olives and some yummy cheese.
22:30
And I feel like you are the queen
22:32
of this. I mean, sort of indisputably
22:34
the queen of expressing love for cooking,
22:37
of wooing people through food. What
22:40
is the last thing you made someone to show
22:42
them your love? Oh,
22:46
I know. Caesar salad dressing. With
22:49
the real anchovies. Yeah, with the real anchovies. Like, tell me
22:51
the ingredients. I just want to hear you say it. It's
22:53
like ASMR. Literally,
22:55
I'm going to bed to this tonight. I
22:59
think that time I used eggs. Sometimes I make
23:01
the mayonnaise with aquafaba with the chickpea water. But I
23:03
think I made it with egg and olive oil, a
23:06
ton of lemon juice and lemon zest,
23:08
ton of Parmesan cheese, ton of anchovies
23:10
and garlic. I always add a
23:12
little Worcestershire sauce. And then I also
23:14
add usually some vinegar too, like
23:17
white wine vinegar, salt and
23:19
pepper. I think that's everything. Worcestershire
23:21
is that like a secret ingredient? I never put that
23:23
in my own. You know, Worcestershire sauce is
23:25
just like white people fish sauce, basically. Say
23:27
that. You can
23:30
say that again. So sometimes I'll add a little
23:32
bit of fish sauce. But
23:34
either one is just sort of a little secret kick. But
23:37
I think it does sort of go back to like
23:39
maybe the 50s or maybe I don't
23:41
think it was in the original Caesar salad from
23:43
Tijuana, but it is a classic ingredient. That's
23:45
a love letter, isn't it? That's a love letter.
23:49
How does food as
23:51
love show up in your day to day
23:53
life? I mean, to me,
23:55
I think a lot about
23:58
it as time. You know,
24:00
in some ways, actually, this relates back to
24:02
this story and like, and also
24:04
my own sadness and loss, which is, I think,
24:07
a thing I've been thinking a lot about in
24:09
the last few years. My dad died
24:11
and like, that was sort of just horrible
24:13
to watch for a million reasons. But a big
24:15
part of what sort of washed over me when
24:17
I was watching him die was
24:20
how sad and horrible the circumstances
24:22
of his death were. And
24:25
I kind of was left
24:27
with this feeling of this
24:30
is not what I want to look back
24:32
on when I'm dying. And it
24:34
sort of helped me really focus
24:36
on what I
24:39
want to think about at the end
24:41
of my life, which is like, I want to
24:43
look back and see a life that was full of friendship and
24:45
joy and laughter and beauty and
24:48
nature and puppies and,
24:50
you know, art and
24:52
connection. And so there has been a
24:55
sense I've always had in my life
24:57
of I think this has a lot to
24:59
do with being like an immigrant kid and having sort of save,
25:02
save, save and work, sort of the work
25:04
ethic drilled into me. But like, there's
25:06
just been a sense I've always
25:08
had of like saving things
25:11
for later. And you know,
25:13
I'll work really hard now so that one day I won't
25:15
have to or I'll save up
25:17
all my money so that one day I'll be okay.
25:20
Or I'll say no to all of
25:22
these sort of things that I could
25:24
be doing because I should be home
25:26
working or doing something, you know, productive.
25:29
And I think as I watched my
25:31
dad die, it
25:33
finally sink in like you only get
25:35
one life. And there's only the time
25:37
that there is. And actually, the
25:39
very most precious thing that we have is
25:42
time. The only thing like we can't get
25:44
more of the only thing I can't buy
25:46
the only thing I can't, you
25:48
know, is time. And so there was
25:50
just almost this like overnight change in
25:52
me of, you know, I always joke.
25:54
I'm like, oh, now I'm fully YOLO. But
26:01
it is true. Like I say yes to,
26:04
you know, when people are like, oh, do you want to
26:06
come to this thing across the country next week to be
26:08
with your friends? I'll say yes now. And
26:10
so to go back to your question, like when
26:14
that even has shown up for me in
26:16
my cooking, and
26:18
a lot of sort of what I'm conscious of as
26:20
a person who writes recipes and wants to encourage people
26:22
to cook is that time is really precious
26:24
and that a lot of people don't have the time
26:26
to cook. And to me
26:28
I'm like, oh, if we can shift something
26:31
in the way that we look at this thing
26:33
that we do every day to nourish
26:36
ourselves and to nourish the people around us
26:38
who we care about and
26:41
understand that this time is a
26:43
gift, right? Like I'm pouring my
26:45
time into making you something. And
26:49
that is me sharing like my
26:51
most precious currency with you. So
26:55
it's not about making the most
26:58
like fanciest things. Sometimes
27:00
you know, I'll make like I make chili crisp and
27:02
that's a project that takes a day or a day
27:04
or two and I make it once a year. And
27:06
then I give that away. But then the gift is
27:08
more than just that jar. Like I'm giving you all
27:10
of the time and energy and thoughtfulness that I put
27:13
into that. I mean, my most
27:15
tangible thing that I do is that
27:17
for now, like I think three or
27:19
four years, a small group of my friends and I
27:22
have dinner together every week. It's
27:25
truly our Sabbath. Like it's our thing that
27:27
we all look forward to every week. Sometimes
27:30
I'm testing recipes, but sometimes like we
27:32
order empanadas. Sometimes we just have a
27:34
pot of beans and cointotos. It's
27:38
not like necessarily some sort of
27:40
a culinary thing, but it's about
27:42
creating this ritual for ourselves and
27:44
the kids and investing
27:46
that time with each other. Now
27:49
I just talked longer than the essay. Sorry.
27:53
And by the way, you just gave us the
27:56
title of the episode, which is Now I'm
27:58
Fully YOLO. A
28:00
conversation with some people's drugs.
28:05
Which is just like perfect. But
28:10
what you're saying is so spot
28:12
on and in a way it's
28:15
so directly aligns with I
28:17
think one of the takeaways from the essay
28:19
is when she's talking about the idea of
28:21
more. She wants more time with her
28:24
husband. She wants more time with her kid. She
28:26
wants more time sipping martinis. I mean it's
28:29
this idea as you're articulating of
28:31
our most precious resource being
28:33
time. And
28:35
it almost seems too simple, right? But it's so
28:37
true. Amy
28:40
Krauss Rosenthal died 10
28:43
days after this essay was published.
28:46
And her husband Jason later
28:49
published his own modern love essay as a kind
28:51
of response piece
28:54
to honor her. And in it
28:56
he wrote, Amy continues to
28:58
open doors for me to affect my choices
29:00
to send me off into the world to make
29:03
the most of it. And
29:05
I have to say, you know what I mean, I feel like
29:07
Amy has done this for you too. What
29:09
about this essay do you carry
29:12
with you? I
29:15
think the main thing that I carry
29:17
with me is the kindness and love
29:19
and generosity with which it
29:21
was written and the idea of I
29:25
love this person so much and
29:27
I want to give them permission
29:29
to go have a full life. And I
29:32
want to sing the praises of them so
29:35
that everyone else can understand. You
29:37
know, in some ways she's not
29:39
the main character of her own story.
29:42
He is. That sort
29:44
of sense of generosity and kindness
29:48
is what I think of when I
29:50
think of this, that even in like,
29:52
as she suffered this like sad, horrible
29:55
illness, she was able
29:57
to look outward. I
30:02
think that's, to
30:05
me, like my loneliness
30:07
and sadness often
30:09
threatens to sort of pull me inward and
30:13
make me close myself off from the world. And
30:17
this is a nice reminder that ultimately the
30:19
best way to be and the most fruitful
30:21
way to be is to
30:24
open up and connect. I
30:30
mean, thank you so much. Oh,
30:33
thanks for having me. And we
30:36
should say thank you to Amy Cross Rosenthal
30:38
for these words. Yes. Thank
30:40
you so much to Amy Cross
30:42
Rosenthal. Next
30:55
week, I talk with the star of the Netflix
30:57
show You. And of course,
30:59
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31:26
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