In this podcast episode, I discuss the life of Jane Attwater - a lay Baptist woman whose archive of diaries provides insight into the life and experience of a Baptist woman. Her diaries are characterised by constant introspection; she oscillated frequently between spiritual encouragement (through hearing sermons) and un-assurance of her 'salvation' due to her poor spiritual condition. Concern was especially heavy regarding people: she feared placing her mother, daughter, and husband as idols in her life.