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0:01
Welcome to bedtime
0:03
stories for grown ups
0:07
in which nothing much happens,
0:11
you feel good, and
0:13
then you fall asleep. I'm
0:17
Catherine Nikolay. I
0:20
read and write all the stories you hear
0:23
on Nothing Much Happens
0:26
Audio Engineering is by Bob
0:28
Wittersheim. Nothing
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Much Happens is a proud member of
0:33
the Curious Cast podcast network.
0:38
Follow us on Twitter or
0:40
Instagram or Facebook for
0:43
more in the way of kind words and cozy
0:45
ideas. Now
0:50
let's get ready to sleep. I'll
0:53
read you a story.
0:56
It's a place to rest your mind, like
0:58
an upturned leaf resting on the surface
1:01
of a river. Your
1:04
mind will follow along with the
1:06
moving current of my voice and our
1:08
story, and
1:11
before you know it, it
1:13
will ease you into deep sleep. I'll
1:17
read the story twice, and
1:20
I'll go a little slower on the second
1:22
read. If
1:25
you wake in the night, take
1:27
yourself back into the story, thinking
1:30
back through any bit you can remember.
1:35
This interrupts your brain's tendency
1:37
to cycle through thought, and
1:41
we'll put you right back into sleep
1:43
mode. It
1:45
is brain training, and it might
1:47
take a bit of practice, so
1:50
be patient if you are new to this. Now
1:54
it's time to switch off the light set
1:58
aside anything you've been looking at or
2:00
working on. You've
2:03
looked at a screen for the last
2:06
time today.
2:08
Adjust your pillows and your comforter until
2:11
you feel completely at ease.
2:16
If you sometimes clench your jaw as
2:18
you sleep, try resting
2:21
the tip of your tongue at
2:23
the place where your upper teeth meet
2:25
the gums on the inside. That
2:29
will help to keep your jaw relaxed. Now,
2:34
take a deep breath in through your nose
2:40
and sigh out through the mouth. Again,
2:46
breathe in and
2:51
let it out good.
2:59
Our story tonight is called the
3:01
Front Door and the back Door, and
3:06
it's a story about a bit of spring
3:08
cleaning inside and outside
3:10
the house. It's
3:13
also about butterflies drawn in
3:15
chalk on the sidewalk, a
3:18
message arriving at just the right
3:20
moment, and
3:22
seedlings waiting for their chance
3:25
to grow. The
3:28
front door and the back door
3:34
the air was fresh when the day
3:36
was sunny. The
3:39
temperature had been sneaking up a
3:41
few degrees at a time for the last week
3:43
or so, and
3:46
finally today there
3:48
was a real warmth in the air. I
3:54
started inside by
3:57
drawing aside curtains and opening
3:59
windows. I
4:03
stood at the kitchen sink, washing
4:06
up after tea and oatmeal, and
4:10
smiling at the feel of the fresh air
4:12
circling around me. Through
4:17
the window, I could hear the movements
4:19
of birds and squirrels, and
4:22
beyond them, a soft spring wind
4:25
coming to dry up mud puddles.
4:29
I could hear a lawnmower in the next
4:32
block over being coaxed
4:34
to life, and my neighbor's dog
4:36
barking through the fence. I'd
4:40
dried my cup and bowl and
4:43
put them back on their shelf. Often
4:48
i'd have turned on music or a
4:50
radio show to follow me through my
4:52
chores, but
4:55
it was nice to do my work with
4:57
nothing but the sounds from outside
4:59
keeping company.
5:03
I hung the dish towel from its hook beside
5:05
the sink and moved into the
5:07
living room, opening more
5:09
windows as I went. There
5:14
was a jumble of books and blankets spread
5:16
over the sofa, and
5:20
as I folded and tidied, I
5:23
stopped to read a few lines from one of the
5:25
books. There
5:28
was a book about Zen, with a
5:30
few poems and meditations.
5:35
The page I opened to just said, opened
5:39
the front door and opened the
5:41
back door. Let
5:44
thoughts move through, Just
5:47
don't offer them a cup of tea.
5:52
I smiled down at the words, has
5:57
that happened to you? You
6:00
read just the right thing, at
6:03
just the right moment, not
6:06
in that false way where
6:09
you have to force a match, but
6:12
where there is just a flash
6:15
of serendipitous harmony. It
6:20
feels like being winked at, but
6:23
you're not sure by who. I
6:28
tucked the book under one arm
6:30
and went to the front door and
6:32
drew back the bolt. I
6:37
opened it wide and let sunshine
6:39
into the front hall. Through
6:44
the screen door, I saw the kids
6:46
in the yard across the street. They
6:50
were writing their names and drawing
6:52
butterflies and caterpillars and
6:54
pastel chalk across their sidewalks.
6:59
I went straight to the back door, a
7:02
sliding glass door that gave out to
7:04
the back patio, and opened
7:06
it as wide as it would go. Dried
7:11
hydrangea blooms from last year or
7:13
shifting in the breeze, I
7:17
felt like I could practically see the grass
7:19
growing. I
7:23
read the line in the book again and
7:25
dog yeared the page before closing it
7:27
up and sliding it back onto its shelf.
7:33
With a dust cloth in hand, I
7:35
worked my way around the room,
7:38
shining up the tops of tables
7:41
and the faces and picture frames in
7:46
the front hall beside
7:48
the open door. I stepped
7:50
into my shoes and took
7:52
the dust cloth out to shake over
7:54
the edge of the front porch. My
7:58
neighbor's doors were open, too, and
8:02
I thought a bit more about the line
8:04
in the book. I
8:08
shook the dust cloth and watched the particles
8:10
catching in the sunlight as they fell. I
8:15
went back inside to drop the cloth in
8:17
the laundry basket and wash my hands.
8:23
Some people, I thought, have
8:25
their front door closed nothing
8:28
gets in, they
8:31
feel unreachable. And
8:36
some people have their front door open, but
8:39
the back door is closed. Everything
8:43
gets in and nothing gets out.
8:48
Letting things come and go, thoughts
8:53
rise up and move on without
8:57
pouring them a cup of tea,
9:00
without clinging or ruminating.
9:04
It was a tricky skill, and
9:08
one I guessed we could all use some practice
9:10
with. I
9:14
thought of people I knew who had doors
9:16
closed, and reminded myself
9:19
that it's always easier to
9:21
see these things and others,
9:24
and that likely we were all both
9:27
types of people. Many times
9:29
every day, all
9:33
we could do was try to open the places
9:35
that had been shut, to
9:39
turn on the lights once we'd realized
9:42
they were spent, to
9:45
let things come and let
9:47
them go with
9:51
a house and order. I was
9:53
eager to get out into the yard. There
9:58
were hours left on this sunny day,
10:01
so I rummaged in the garage until
10:04
I found my gardening gloves started
10:08
to work my way through the beds. I
10:12
hadn't cut much back in the autumn, as
10:15
the falling leaves and drying stalks
10:17
of plants gave shelter to the little
10:19
creatures that shared the garden.
10:24
And because I'd read that pruning
10:26
stimulates growth, tell
10:29
me about it, I thought, and
10:32
spring was a better time for that. So
10:38
now there was quite a bit too clear those
10:42
dried Hydrangea blossoms and
10:45
last year's broad pale hasta
10:47
leaves and twigs and pine
10:50
needles. I
10:53
worked my way around the house and
10:56
into the back yard, where
10:58
I had a few raised I'd
11:00
built the year before. The
11:05
soil inside was dark and
11:07
fortified with compost. I
11:11
turned it over with my trowel and
11:13
pulled out stray leaves and
11:16
a helicopter seed from the maple overhead
11:20
that was already sprouting roots. I'd
11:25
been growing seedlings for the last month
11:28
on an upstairs window sill, and
11:32
soon, maybe in another
11:34
week or so, they'd
11:36
be ready to go into the beds. I'd
11:41
spent a few dreary winter days
11:44
carefully reading through seed catalogs
11:47
and making charts of germination periods
11:50
and hours of likely sunlight. I
11:55
crossed my fingers thinking about
11:57
the seeds I'd picked. I'd
12:00
be a bit adventurous,
12:04
figuring I could buy carrots and tomatoes
12:06
and beans at the farmer's market, so
12:10
I'd give my bit of space over
12:13
to more exotic eats.
12:17
Up on the sill, several varieties
12:20
of chilies were sprouting. Perhaps
12:23
it had been the cold of the winter that
12:25
made me crave spice. I'd
12:30
also planted cantalope seeds
12:33
and watermelon radish,
12:37
and tiger nuts and mouse
12:39
melons, because why
12:42
not, I
12:46
thought the planting could be away from
12:48
me to practice, keeping my doors
12:50
open and my tea to
12:53
myself. I'd
12:56
do my work, then
12:59
step back and
13:02
let whatever happened next happen.
13:10
The front door and the back
13:12
door. The
13:16
air was fresh and the
13:18
day was sunny. The
13:22
temperature had been sneaking up
13:25
a few degrees at a time for
13:28
the last week or so, and
13:32
finally today
13:36
there was a real warmth in the air.
13:42
I started inside by
13:46
drawing aside curtains
13:49
and opening windows.
13:54
I stood at the kitchen sink, washing
13:58
up after tea and oatmeal, and
14:02
smiling at the feel of the fresh air
14:04
circling around me. Through
14:09
the window, I could
14:12
hear the movement of birds
14:14
and squirrels, and
14:17
beyond them a soft spring
14:20
wind coming to dry
14:22
up mud puddles. I
14:27
could hear a lawnmower in
14:30
the next block over being
14:33
coaxed to life, and
14:37
my neighbor's dog barking through
14:39
the fence. I
14:44
dried my cup and bowl and
14:47
put them back on their shelf. Often
14:55
I'd have turned on music or
14:58
a radio show to
15:01
follow me through my chores, but
15:05
it was so nice to do my work
15:08
with nothing but the sounds from outside
15:12
keeping me company. I
15:17
hung the dish towel from its hook beside
15:19
the sink and moved
15:22
into the living room, opening
15:25
more windows as I went. There
15:31
was a jumble of books and blankets
15:34
spread over the sofa,
15:38
and as I folded and tidied, I
15:42
stopped to read a few lines
15:44
from one of the books. It
15:50
was a book about Zen, with
15:53
a few poems and meditations.
16:00
The page I opened to just said open
16:03
the front door. And
16:06
opened the back door. Let
16:10
thoughts move through, just
16:15
don't offer them a cup of tea.
16:21
I smiled down at the words, Has
16:25
that happened to you? That
16:29
you read just the right thing
16:32
at just the right moment, Not
16:39
in that false way where
16:42
you have to force a match, but
16:47
where there is just a flash
16:50
of serendipitous harmony. It
16:56
feels like being winked at,
17:01
but you're not sure by who. I
17:07
tucked the book under one arm
17:10
and went to the front door and
17:14
drew back the bolt. I
17:19
opened it wide and
17:22
let sunshine into the front
17:24
hall. Through
17:29
the screen door, I
17:31
saw the kids in the yard across
17:33
the street. They
17:38
were writing their names and
17:40
drawing butterflies and
17:42
caterpillars and
17:45
pastel chalk across their sidewalks.
17:52
I went straight to the back door, a
17:57
sliding glass door that
17:59
gave out to the back patio, and
18:04
opened it as wide as it would go.
18:10
Dried hydrangea blooms from last
18:13
year were shifting
18:15
in the breeze. I
18:20
felt like I could practically see the
18:22
grass growing. I
18:27
read the line in the book again and
18:31
dog yeared the page before
18:34
closing it up and
18:37
sliding it back onto its shelf. With
18:44
a dust cloth in hand, I
18:46
worked my way around the room,
18:50
shining up the tops of tables and
18:54
the faces in picture frames. In
19:01
the front hall, beside
19:03
the open door, I
19:07
stepped into my shoes and
19:11
took the dust cloth out to
19:14
shake over the edge of the front porch.
19:19
My neighbor's doors were opened too.
19:23
When I thought a bit more about the
19:26
line in the book, I
19:31
shook the dust cloth and
19:34
watched the particles catching in
19:36
the sunlight as they fell. I
19:41
went back inside to drop
19:43
the cloth in the laundry basket and
19:46
wash my hands. Some
19:51
people, I thought, have their
19:54
front door closed nothing
19:57
gets in, they
20:00
feel unreachable. And
20:05
some people have their front
20:07
door open, but
20:09
the back door is closed. Everything
20:13
gets in and
20:15
nothing gets out. Letting
20:21
things come and go, thoughts
20:26
rise up and move
20:28
on without
20:33
pouring them a cup of tea,
20:38
without clinging or
20:41
ruminating. It
20:45
was a tricky skill, and
20:50
one I guessed we could
20:52
all use some practice with. I
20:58
thought of people I knew who
21:00
had doors closed, and
21:04
reminded myself that
21:07
it's always easier to
21:09
see these things and others. I'm
21:12
that likely we
21:14
were all both types of people.
21:17
Many times every day. All
21:23
we could do was
21:25
to open up the places that had
21:28
been shot to
21:31
turn on the lights once we'd
21:33
realized they were spent, to
21:38
let things come and
21:40
let them go with
21:45
the house and order. I
21:48
was eager to get out into the yard. There
21:52
were hours left on this sunny day,
21:56
so I rummaged in the garage until
22:00
I found my gardening gloves and
22:03
started to work my way through the beds.
22:10
I hadn't cut much back in the
22:12
autumn, as
22:14
the falling leaves and drying
22:16
stalks of plants gave
22:19
shelter to the little creatures
22:21
that shared the garden. And
22:25
because I'd read that pruning
22:28
stimulates growth, tell
22:32
me about it, I thought, and
22:35
spring was a better time for that. So
22:42
now there was quite a bit
22:44
too clear those
22:47
dried Hydrangea blossoms and
22:51
last year's broad, pale,
22:53
hostile leaves and
22:56
twigs and pine needles.
23:03
I worked my way around the house and
23:07
into the back yard, where
23:11
I had a few raised beds
23:13
i'd built the year before. The
23:19
soil inside was dark and fortified
23:21
with compost. I
23:25
turned it over with my trowel and
23:28
pulled out stray leaves
23:31
and a helicopter seed from
23:34
the maple overhead that
23:37
was already sprouting roots.
23:42
I'd been growing seed leans for
23:44
the last month on
23:47
an upstairs window sill, and
23:50
soon, maybe
23:53
in another week or so, they'd
23:55
be ready to go into
23:58
the beds. I'd
24:02
spent a few dreary winter days
24:06
carefully reading through seed
24:08
catalogs and
24:11
making charts of germination
24:13
periods and hours
24:16
of likely sunlight. I
24:20
crossed my fingers thinking
24:23
about the seeds i'd pick'd out. I'd
24:29
been a bit adventurous, figuring
24:33
I could buy carrots and tomatoes
24:36
and beans at the
24:38
farmer's market, so
24:42
I'd give my bit of space over
24:46
to more exotic eats.
24:52
Up on the sill, several
24:54
varieties of chilies were
24:56
sprouting. Perhaps
25:01
it had been the cold of the winter that
25:04
made me crave spice. I'd
25:08
also planted cantaloupe seeds
25:11
and watermelon radish,
25:15
and tiger nuts
25:17
and mouse melons, because
25:20
why not. I
25:24
thought the planting could be away from
25:26
me, to practice keeping
25:30
my doors open and my
25:32
tea to myself. I'd
25:37
do my work, then
25:40
step back and
25:45
let whatever happened next
25:47
happen. Sweet
25:52
dreams
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