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she is. Name either a woman
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hi, how are you doing Well
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You know I'm doing okay. But
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ever since we spoke to this
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week's guest I have had the
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year worm of the century accurately.
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I can get it out of
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my head and all I can
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think day and night is you
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take the good, you take the
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bad, You take them all in
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there. you have the facts of
1:00
life. Lawyers.
1:07
American ally. That's
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a lie. The
1:11
theme song to our gas favorite
1:13
show of all time Advantage of
1:15
Life that the classic. Is.
1:17
A killing you Israelis had now quite
1:20
a while with. It's. Killing
1:22
Me. But it's taking on such new
1:24
meaning because all I do is sing
1:26
it to myself and I keep thinking
1:28
about. All. Of the good
1:31
and bad that I take every
1:33
day as a fact of my
1:35
life. Oh, Yeah
1:37
yeah, uma, how And parenting
1:39
is the number one of
1:41
that? Like. There. Are
1:44
such high highs and such low elo
1:46
crippling Lone Ray So I'm wondering what's
1:48
the good and the bad of parenting
1:50
for you right now? The bad is
1:53
simple and I really nailed it down.
1:55
Over the past five years of being
1:57
a mom knocking him at his that.
2:00
There is no actual
2:02
pause button. Like once you
2:05
start parenthood, it's funny and
2:07
it's also incredibly claustrophobic that
2:09
like there's no time off
2:11
and there's no way to
2:13
like, sometimes I say like, I
2:15
just need to like reset
2:18
my whole entire internal system. And I
2:20
know I can. Cause
2:22
even when in a way I have like guilt
2:25
or I'm thinking about them or there's like a
2:27
running ticker in my head. So I don't know,
2:29
I guess that's the worst part about parenting. Do
2:31
you know what I mean? Yeah. The
2:33
24 sevenness of it. What about for you? Well,
2:35
I mean, I think it's a similar thing. And
2:38
mine is that like, I
2:40
cannot function on no sleep.
2:45
I can't make any good decisions.
2:48
And my kids have lately just not
2:50
been sleeping. So that's like the bad
2:52
of it. Like I'm just like, I
2:56
don't know how to parent you or
2:58
if I'm doing this right or how
3:00
do I get you to sleep? How
3:02
do I convince you to want to
3:04
sleep? How can I sleep? Like, yeah,
3:06
that's the bad. Yeah,
3:08
that's a toughie. I'll tell you what that
3:10
is. That's very high up there on
3:12
my list as well. Yeah. Well, what's
3:15
the good though? So this
3:17
week my son has
3:19
not been sleeping and it has been
3:21
brutal. And I
3:23
was sitting on a chair in his
3:25
room in the dark cause this is the only way
3:28
I can get to sleep. I have
3:30
to sit there in the dark while he falls
3:32
asleep and he had been screaming at me. I
3:34
was like, this cannot be worse if
3:36
I tried. And then all of
3:38
a sudden I hear his teeny tiny little voice
3:40
in the crib and he says, mommy
3:43
poopy butt, daddy
3:45
poopy butt, Violet poopy
3:47
butt. And he's going through the whole
3:50
family and he's just having like the
3:52
time of his life. For
3:54
middle and last, really? Mommy poopy butt.
3:57
I mean, he went through the whole family. He was named an
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aunt. uncles I think you were in there and I
4:03
just thought to myself I couldn't
4:06
love a little creature more.
4:09
That's so precious.
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Especially at the moment when you're
4:14
breaking down. Yeah it was I I
4:16
had just seconds before thought like I'm gonna
4:18
have to leave and start a new life.
4:21
So it was a real swing.
4:24
It was a good and a bad
4:26
and that is the fact of life.
4:28
That's it though it's it's only ever
4:31
operating you know like the one to
4:33
ten scale. I'm at the one or
4:36
I'm at that ten. Yeah. You know me.
4:40
High highs low lows. No
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I've never been a five. What do
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you think that your best part of
4:46
being a mom is? Well I
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think that before I became a mother
4:51
I have always and this is a
4:53
lot of people struggled with
4:56
like enoughness. Am I doing enough? Should I
4:58
be more? Could I get better? Like am
5:00
I enough? Is what I'm pursuing enough? Like
5:02
all this stuff and I think that for
5:05
the past five years like ever since I had
5:08
my children I feel
5:10
this deep-seated peace
5:13
and contentment. Just
5:15
a knowing like this this is
5:18
it. This is everything. This is
5:20
everything I will
5:22
ever find truly meaningful
5:25
and like sustained happiness. Do
5:27
you know what I mean? And I don't know I think that's
5:30
my thing. It's that it's it is the
5:32
best thing you know. Yeah I love
5:34
that. I also really love that you
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have this like really profound thought and
5:39
my best part of being a mom is
5:41
mommy poopie butt. But
5:45
that's probably how I arrived at it
5:47
just hearing yours. Just knowing that brings
5:49
me a lot of
5:51
contentment. Our
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guest today is a mom to two
5:55
boys just like me so she's very
5:57
familiar with the good and bad of
6:00
of being a parent. Yes, she is. Alison
6:02
Rosen is a podcaster, writer,
6:05
and award-winning interviewer. She
6:07
gained notoriety as a news girl and later
6:09
co-host on the popular podcast, The Adam Carolla
6:12
Show. She has hosted her
6:14
own podcast called Alison Rosen is Your New
6:16
Best Friend since 2012, where
6:18
she has candid conversations with various guests.
6:21
I'm a huge, huge fan of
6:23
her podcast. You sure are. She
6:26
also hosts the parenting podcast Childish.
6:29
She is a best friend to all who listen to
6:31
her. She is funny and
6:33
smart and incredibly empathetic and honest about
6:35
everything in her life. And
6:38
she probably learned it all from watching
6:40
her favorite show, The Facts of Life.
6:43
Oh yeah. The show premiered in 1979 and ran through
6:45
1988. It
6:48
revolved around a group of girls who
6:50
live and attend school at the fictional
6:52
Eastland School for Girls, a
6:55
prestigious all-female boarding school.
6:57
There was outgoing Tootie, rich
7:00
girl Blair, Joe the tomboy,
7:02
and the witty, funny
7:04
Natalie. The four main
7:06
characters all lived together and were looked
7:08
after by their house mom, Mrs. Edna
7:11
Garrett. Mrs. Garrett was always
7:13
there to help guide them when they
7:15
needed it, and the show dealt with
7:17
so much, from peer pressure and relationships
7:20
to the serious topics of drug
7:22
use and eating disorders. And
7:24
we're so excited to talk about a
7:26
mom character who's different from what we've covered
7:29
so far. You know, we
7:31
all have people who serve as
7:33
maternal figures in our life, teachers,
7:35
wise neighbors, in my case camp
7:38
counselors, and they are
7:40
so important. Moms
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can't be everything to everyone, so it's a
7:44
dream to find someone like Mrs. Garrett. I'm
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Sabrina Kohlberg. And I'm Andi Mitchell.
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From ABC Audio and Good Morning America,
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this is Pop Culture Moms. We
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were so excited to talk to Allison about her
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love of the facts of life. The
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Mrs. Garrett's she's had in her life, her
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Alison. Hi and welcome to
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Pop Culture! Mom's on as you
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know because eyes message to about
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as many times Sabrina knows our
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entire team as I am. Your
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number one says yes I've been
10:32
listening to you for I want
10:35
to see fifteen years but I
10:37
his least ten years on Alison
10:39
Rosen his new best friend. So
10:41
I know you as your own
10:44
personality. I know you sharing your
10:46
life and being vulnerable and connecting
10:48
with your audience. Directly, and especially
10:51
since he started talking about
10:53
motherhood. I really think that.
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That's open to even a new channel in
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my heart. We you all Braveheart! Thank you
11:00
so so so much Thank you for listening.
11:02
And thank you for your kind words. I'm.
11:04
I think that all of
11:06
this my being a public
11:08
person, is driven on some
11:10
level by just. Wanting.
11:13
To feel like someone hears
11:15
me and is like. You're
11:17
okay with fundamentally that pilot my
11:20
core. We're here now so. The
11:22
fact that I'm bit. You
11:25
and listen to and relate and
11:27
all that mean so much on
11:29
pop culture. Moms were always. Talking
11:31
about motherhood and pop culture and
11:33
what we can learn from shows
11:35
that we love and I know
11:37
you love the facts of last.
11:40
That's all about these. Four
11:42
Girls and a boarding school
11:44
called Eastland and Their Houses
11:46
Mother. Is Mrs. Garrett right? So
11:49
what did you like about sex
11:51
life? So. I cannot remember
11:53
a time that I didn't like. Facts of
11:55
Life. I think I started watching. It when
11:57
I was really young. man
12:00
childhood and into adulthood. I've just had
12:02
such affection for this show. And I
12:05
was trying to think, was it Mrs.
12:08
Garrett or was it the camaraderie
12:10
and the community of girls? I
12:12
think both things appealed to me.
12:15
Because I liked Facts of Life so much, I wanted
12:17
to go to boarding school. In retrospect, I
12:19
was such a late bloomer. I was
12:23
not a tough kid at all. I think I
12:25
would not have done well at boarding school at
12:27
all. So I'm glad that my
12:29
parents didn't entertain that. But there was something
12:32
really like wish fulfillment about
12:34
the idea of being
12:37
independent from your parents in
12:39
that way and just being
12:41
surrounded by friends. And then
12:43
Mrs. Garrett, who was there
12:45
but not in any sort of oppressive sense, she
12:48
was just kind of there when they needed her.
12:50
I love that Mrs. Garrett that
12:52
we're talking about a mom who's not just like
12:55
a biological like gave birth to mother. I think
12:57
there's a lot of value in talking about just
12:59
mother characters, mother figures. Did
13:01
you actually ask your parents if you
13:03
could go to boarding school? Were
13:06
they like, oh, let's not even start this conversation. I
13:08
think I did. And I think, yeah, I mean, they
13:10
were hesitant to even send me to summer camp. And
13:12
the truth is I did go, I convinced them to
13:14
let me go to summer camp. And I went to
13:16
summer camp for six days. And it was six
13:19
of the worst days of my young life. Oh, no.
13:21
I did not have a good time. I mean,
13:24
it was just very, it was very
13:26
rustic. Very rustic. Yeah, too rustic. There
13:28
was vaulting. Do you know
13:30
what vaulting is? It's like gymnastics on
13:33
top of a horse. So you like get
13:35
on the horse's back while it's moving. And
13:37
then you like put your leg out and
13:39
like imagine one synchronized swimmer on the back
13:41
of a horse. Now how old were you?
13:44
I was 10. This is a lawsuit waiting
13:46
to happen. I know. Putting a kid vaulting
13:48
on a horse. Was it supposed to be
13:50
six days or did you ask to go
13:52
home early? It was supposed to be six
13:55
days. It was just a short session. So
13:57
you made it the whole time. Yeah, I
13:59
did. Yeah, I
14:01
fantasized about writing
14:04
a letter to my parents and
14:06
having them pick me up. I don't even think, there
14:09
was a phone on the camp somewhere, but
14:11
I don't know what kind of strings you
14:13
had to pull to get access to this
14:15
phone. But I just kind of
14:18
shut down and just went through the motions. I probably
14:20
peed, I think I peed like once
14:22
the entire time, which is crazy because
14:24
I pee once an hour now. It's
14:27
not okay. All
14:30
of that is to say, yeah, I
14:32
wasn't cut out for camp and I wouldn't have been cut out
14:35
for boarding school. And I think I did talk to
14:37
my parents about it and they were just like, no,
14:40
you're too young. You
14:42
wouldn't like it. Well, I
14:44
think that Sabrina and I talk about this a lot
14:46
that I think we would
14:48
have benefited from going to an all
14:50
girls school. I think there's like a
14:52
lot of value, especially we were both
14:54
bigger gals when we were in
14:56
middle school, high school. And I
15:00
think there's like a painful
15:02
self consciousness and contortion that
15:04
goes on for all girls.
15:06
But maybe I'll just say for us, like
15:08
I can say specifically that we felt like
15:12
you didn't want to be too smart to like raise
15:14
your hand all the time. You didn't want to be
15:16
seen. And
15:18
I think there's some comfort in
15:20
being around all girls and getting
15:23
to explore different things.
15:26
Like, you're in the play. Like just so many things
15:28
that I think the awareness of
15:30
the other, which is males at the time
15:32
was just too, I think
15:35
overwhelming to me and like made me
15:37
even more painfully self conscious. What do
15:39
you think? I also
15:41
was a bigger gal, kind of up and
15:44
down, but I had
15:46
been bigger all throughout kindergarten through
15:48
eighth. And then I
15:51
went on, sometimes need a trigger warning just
15:53
in terms of like disordered eating and stuff. I
15:56
had a lot of anxiety about diet and the summer
15:58
after sixth grade. couple years
16:01
but not entire years, you know, where I like had
16:03
lost weight and then I would come back to school
16:05
and everyone was like, wow, Alison, you know, and then
16:07
I would sort of gain it over the course of the year and
16:09
then just like that forever. But
16:12
I remember feeling
16:15
intensely self-conscious in eighth
16:18
grade. It was raining,
16:20
so we had to eat lunch inside.
16:22
And I remember just sitting there
16:24
trying to bring my sandwich or my
16:27
apple or whatever it was to my
16:29
mouth and like I
16:31
just felt like my skin was on fire.
16:33
I was so self-conscious and
16:35
I just could barely, I could
16:38
barely like swallow. That
16:41
being said, I don't know that it was because there
16:43
were boys there. I think it had to do with
16:46
everyone. I was self-conscious around girls
16:48
too. When
16:50
I was reading about Facts of Life before
16:52
this interview, I said, I'm
16:54
surprised I remember weight being a topic
16:56
on the show. Piece of celery,
16:59
say your thoughts. You
17:01
kiddie, I'm going on a
17:03
starvation diet. I'm going to lose
17:05
10 pounds by Saturday if it kills me.
17:07
The girls were trying to lose weight or
17:09
Mrs. Garrett once he came back and had
17:11
obviously lost weight, right? I'm on a diet.
17:14
My name will be 30 years.
17:19
But like, apparently there was a
17:21
lot of like weight issues on
17:23
the set. Like that they at
17:25
one point brought a scale in and like
17:28
the girls would weigh themselves and realize that
17:30
that's actually negatively impacting them. There was like
17:32
a lot of like just on screen and
17:34
off. Weight was like a real
17:37
issue. I remember hearing about that. I think it was
17:39
maybe it started in the later years
17:41
of the show because it ran forever. And I
17:43
don't remember this, but I've heard about it. They would
17:45
be referred to as the facts of life. Oh,
17:48
I haven't even heard that one. I know
17:50
some of the actors said that it was
17:53
tough being on air during their most awkward
17:55
years because they were going through puberty on
17:57
air and then just how how
17:59
cruel. cool listeners could be. But
18:02
I remember an episode, they
18:04
confronted bulimia and
18:06
it starts by there's some
18:08
conversation, one of the characters, or maybe
18:11
it's like an ad or something and it's like,
18:13
you could be skinny as a pencil.
18:15
And then Natalie, who was always overweight
18:17
on the show, was like, I would
18:19
rather be a chubby magic
18:21
marker or something like that. But
18:24
I don't know how
18:26
much I myself was
18:29
aware of their discussion of weight
18:31
on the show. But in
18:34
retrospect, I will say I probably
18:37
felt better watching a show where
18:39
they had normal bodies. If
18:41
it had been a show where everyone was stick thin, I
18:44
don't know that I would have felt as
18:47
comfortable watching it. Like I wouldn't
18:49
have, you know, related to them as
18:51
much as I did and imagined myself
18:53
as the fifth friend. And
18:55
then did you have a Mrs. Garrett? I
18:57
don't think I did. I had
19:00
a young mom, not like teenage mom, but
19:02
she was 24 or 25 when
19:06
she had me, which is totally normal for the
19:09
time. But now it seems like, wow, that's so young.
19:12
Her parents, so my grandparents, they
19:14
both died when I was six.
19:16
And then my dad's parents were
19:19
alive for a lot longer. But none of
19:21
my grandparents were particularly nice. So
19:24
I didn't have that, like what
19:26
we think grandparents are supposed to be. You
19:29
know, honestly, I would say my Mrs.
19:33
Garrett's have come in
19:35
the form of therapists.
19:38
I've been very lucky to
19:40
have therapists that I really
19:42
liked and that have really made a huge
19:44
difference in my life. And they've all been older women.
19:47
So not necessarily
19:49
in the Mrs. Garrett mold,
19:52
but those are, I think
19:54
the way that I can most like accept
19:56
that kind of wise maternal
19:59
energy as well. like in the form of a
20:01
therapist. I had this experience
20:03
recently. I volunteer in my son's class once a
20:05
week, and I love it. It's like my favorite thing I do.
20:08
And there's this kid in his class who
20:11
has taken an interest in me, sounds
20:13
wrong, but like just become my little buddy.
20:16
He wants to sit next to me, and he
20:18
just really wants to be near me, and
20:23
he came up to me
20:25
the other day, and he's like, I
20:27
really missed you. It's
20:29
so sweet, yeah. But
20:33
I was asking my own therapist,
20:35
what do you make of this?
20:38
And she said it sounds like he is
20:41
looking for a maternal
20:43
figure, which I don't know anything
20:45
about his home life, but
20:47
I think I might be his Mrs.
20:49
Garrett. Oh, that's exciting. You
20:51
have a really big momma. You
20:54
do, like you have a natural warmth.
20:57
So I mean, I can imagine why, but
20:59
that must feel really good too. It does.
21:01
You're putting out a good energy that if
21:03
these little kids who need it are coming
21:06
up and they're keeping it at home. And
21:08
then I was on, so like they get
21:10
out at 225, and I would say like
21:12
210. I can't
21:14
figure out what the pattern is, but on some days then they
21:16
go out to the yard, and
21:18
this one kid was like
21:21
chasing this other kid, and the other kid was
21:23
clearly in distress. So
21:25
I intervened, and then later
21:27
it happened again, and that kid kind of
21:29
came, it was kind of like hiding behind
21:31
me. And then I
21:33
was thinking, all I have is
21:35
a lanyard. Like I'm not licensed, I don't have
21:38
training. I'm not other than just being the end
21:40
of being. I need to be
21:42
careful that I'm not overstepping my bounds, but at
21:44
the same time, I'm witnessing something that seems like
21:46
bullying, or if not bullying, like there's a kid
21:48
who's being bothered, and I don't want to just
21:50
let it go on. So then I mentioned to
21:52
the teacher, and then she kind of stepped in,
21:55
but yeah, I have decided that I work at
21:57
this school now, and I've taken on a lot
21:59
of work. a lot of responsibility. I'm
22:02
gonna find my own whistle. I
22:04
mean, maybe a stopwatch. You're like
22:07
Mrs. Garrett class monitor. Exactly.
22:10
I'm like Citizen School
22:12
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22:14
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24:00
mom to two kids, you just mentioned
24:02
your son, and you were very open
24:05
about your difficulties when you were conceiving.
24:07
What was that experience like, and what
24:09
was it like sharing it with so
24:12
many people? So, I did IVF. I
24:15
have endometriosis, and I
24:17
had endometriosis surgery in 2011 where
24:19
they removed
24:22
endometriomas, which are cysts that were on both of
24:24
my ovaries. What I didn't
24:27
know is that surgery can
24:29
affect fertility quite a bit because
24:31
anytime they're cutting into the ovary,
24:33
they're removing eggs. So, I
24:35
don't know if it was my age or if
24:37
it was that surgery or if it's just endometriosis
24:40
in general that made it so that it was
24:42
very difficult for me to get pregnant. I
24:45
was a product of DARE, and I was a product
24:47
of all the safe sex
24:49
conversations, and I just
24:52
had it in my head that
24:55
the goal of being
24:57
sexually active is to
24:59
not get pregnant. So,
25:01
I thought that once you stop preventing it,
25:04
it just happens. And I would like, when
25:06
I first became sexually active, which was, I
25:08
was a late bloomer, so I was 20,
25:11
I remember even
25:14
though we used a condom, I still
25:16
took a pregnancy test. That's how much I
25:18
was so sure. If someone ejaculated
25:21
two blocks over, I'm like, uh-oh. It might
25:29
have found me. So,
25:33
it was news to me that it was going
25:35
to be difficult for me and that it was
25:37
difficult for me. And my
25:39
gynecologist at the time said,
25:42
try for six months and then if you
25:45
can't get pregnant, go to a reproductive
25:47
endocrinologist and you'll give them a lot of money and they'll get
25:49
you pregnant. So, I believe that's how it worked. And
25:51
then when we finally did go to
25:53
the reproductive endocrinologist, that's when I
25:55
found out you can give them a lot of money
25:58
and you still might not be able to have babies.
26:00
Like I had to entertain the idea that
26:02
there's no guarantee that this will work. I
26:05
feel so, so lucky that
26:07
we were able to have kids
26:09
because a lot of it was really
26:12
trying to accept that this
26:14
might not work. So
26:17
in terms of the process of being open, it
26:19
just I can't imagine
26:23
another way. So yeah,
26:25
it was helpful for me. And
26:27
then I got feedback from other people that appreciated that
26:29
I was talking about it too. Since it's at
26:31
that time, I think not that many people were that open
26:33
about it. Yeah. I mean, you did when you
26:37
say you covered it, like, I mean, every
26:39
week you had like an update, you were
26:41
going through it in real time. Like nowadays,
26:44
I guess sharing because of social media, it's
26:46
so everywhere that people
26:48
are open about things. But I think that
26:50
was especially vulnerable because now that I've had
26:52
children, I'm very aware of just the
26:55
hormonal ride of how
26:57
raw you feel like a raw nerve.
26:59
So it's like very admirable to be
27:02
sharing that in real time for the sake
27:04
of like, you know, transparency. And then also,
27:06
yeah, you are helping
27:08
other women that probably do feel
27:11
isolated and like they don't
27:13
know what's going on or is something wrong with
27:15
their bodies or is it going to happen? I
27:18
don't know. I think that honesty is always helpful in
27:20
that way. Right. I mean, it seems like people wait
27:22
until they're like six months pregnant at this point to
27:24
announce it on social media. I don't know when I
27:26
actually announced on social media, but because
27:28
I had brought the listeners along on
27:30
the whole journey, as soon
27:32
as I got a positive
27:34
pregnancy test, so we're talking about
27:36
like days into it, I told
27:39
everyone because I felt like I
27:41
owed them that. And
27:43
also, I felt like it'd be weird if
27:45
I'm telling everyone what's going on. And then
27:47
suddenly I go silent, it's going to become
27:50
clear. Yeah. And then when I did announce
27:52
that I was pregnant, and I knew that
27:55
there's no guarantee that I'm not going to have
27:57
a miscarriage. Like it's I'm announcing it early, but
27:59
I just. I decided the thing
28:01
is if I do have a miscarriage,
28:04
I'm gonna wanna talk about that too. So
28:07
I may as well just be open. But I remember getting
28:09
direct messages from listeners like
28:12
in the middle of the night, that night, because the
28:14
episode went up that evening. This being like,
28:16
oh my God, I'm crying. I'm so happy for you. Like I feel
28:18
like we all felt like we got pregnant. Yeah,
28:21
yes, yes. And I
28:24
wonder like just normally
28:26
being a mom leads to so much guilt.
28:28
And sometimes you're like, I hate
28:31
this. And then you feel
28:33
guilty that you hate it. But with your
28:35
circumstance where you were trying so
28:37
hard and you wanted it so bad,
28:39
do you feel guilty on days when you're
28:41
like, I don't want to be a mom
28:43
today? Before that even, I tried
28:46
so hard to get pregnant and then when I
28:48
was pregnant, I realized, oh, I hate being pregnant.
28:50
I don't like this. I like-
28:52
Oh, it's the worst. Yeah,
28:55
like I like that I was pregnant.
28:58
Both because I wanted a kid and because
29:00
it was like, yes, it works. We spent
29:02
all that time and it worked. Thank God.
29:06
But then the actual feeling
29:10
of being pregnant, I did not like
29:13
it. I gained a ton of weight both times. And it
29:15
was just, you know, it's uncomfortable. And it's like, you
29:17
feel nauseated and all of that. And
29:20
so then I really felt weird
29:22
complaining about it because it was
29:25
like, I got this thing
29:27
that I have wanted for so long and
29:29
here I am now, this wine,
29:32
I felt like I was whining, you know? So that,
29:34
I felt guilty about that. And then yeah, I
29:36
had a rough birth with Elliot that he's my
29:38
first, really rough and
29:42
kind of traumatic. And then I had postpartum
29:44
depression, which for the longest time, I
29:47
just thought it's just baby blues. And
29:50
then I remember he was born in February and
29:52
around July, I acknowledged
29:54
this is more than that. And at
29:57
that time I was not in therapy.
30:00
Um, so that's when I found
30:02
my therapist that I still go to now and
30:05
she's Amazing and helps me
30:07
so much and I also
30:09
for the first time I went on I had never
30:11
been on an antidepressant I was sort of fearful of
30:13
them. I don't know. I just had like these hang-ups
30:16
But I was like i'll do I just want to feel better like
30:18
i'll do anything I think it's probably time like
30:21
I acknowledge that something. Yeah, I
30:23
am crying all the time
30:26
I feel sorry for myself. I
30:28
feel young and
30:31
lonely Like I remember
30:33
saying I feel like I'm
30:35
just like alone On
30:37
an iceberg in the middle
30:39
of nowhere and the world
30:42
is a cold Scary like
30:44
bad place like that's where I was
30:46
mentally And so much
30:48
of that is being tired, but it was
30:50
it was more um But
30:53
I mean once I asked for help as kind of
30:56
cliche as this is Very
30:58
quickly. I started feeling better and I
31:00
noticed it in things like oh i'm singing to my
31:02
child like I don't think I sang It
31:05
for so long So then
31:08
that was sort of like my my
31:10
journey back to feeling okay But
31:12
you know something about social media and
31:14
people sharing now Especially
31:16
on tick tock a lot of people talk
31:19
about how difficult motherhood is I
31:21
think that's kind of the norm at least on my feed
31:24
But at the time there wasn't
31:26
that much talk about how difficult those
31:28
early days of motherhood can be I
31:32
imagined I was going to be
31:34
in the room where I delivered and they were going to hand
31:36
me my baby and I was going to look down And
31:39
be overcome with like this is a feeling
31:42
unlike anything i've ever had and this is
31:44
a love that is deeper than anything I've
31:47
ever had And
31:49
that was not at all how it
31:51
went you know, they had to
31:54
Rush him to the nikkyu So
31:56
They like handed him to me for a second,
31:58
but he was swaddled like. That is good to
32:00
scare that I had like and button my gown pick
32:02
it has been described as guess ah I'm. I
32:05
felt I just felt numb at I didn't
32:07
get to hold him for real till the
32:09
next morning which was. The. Weirdest like
32:11
was awful thing and then I was looking
32:13
at him for a long time like once
32:15
your home and see like who is this
32:17
little person. I. Don't
32:20
feel. Like. Of course I
32:22
love him and I want to protect him and take care
32:24
of him. But. I don't feel
32:26
this shift inside that I was
32:28
told I was going to feel.
32:31
Young. See expectations versus the real in.
32:33
it's like it just speaks to. Even
32:36
if you have a very healthy
32:38
mindset, we have. Thoughts.
32:40
About what we sink a good
32:42
selfless are there is and feals
32:45
and acts like and I think
32:47
that. I. Really think
32:49
every mother at some point hopefully it
32:51
occurs sooner rather than later. Like has
32:53
to come to terms with like. I
32:57
am not the mother I saw was
32:59
the best mother. I am not for
33:01
selfless and it's not a bad thing
33:04
to realize this, but it does feel
33:06
crushing when you have to like, kind
33:08
of admit that to yourself that like
33:10
this, this unhealthy, frankly idea of like
33:13
what a good mom is is like.
33:15
so unrealistic, unattainable, like it's impossible, know
33:17
and stealing. It's like there's a lot
33:20
of an. Unraveling.
33:22
The has to have been. I think it really is like.
33:26
Even. If you go in and you're
33:28
like I'm gonna be normal about this like
33:30
I can't be a superhero, still think you
33:32
can be a superhero like he still would
33:34
like to present that way. That's a good
33:36
point. I'm so glad you mentioned that I
33:39
had forgotten about that. I did have to
33:41
confront a lot of belief that I had
33:43
that I wasn't even aware I had. You
33:45
know, I had a really. Opinionated
33:48
Dad. I guess I'm of course
33:50
because of the very close to
33:52
him. I just internalize a lot
33:54
of his ideas about what makes
33:56
for a good mother and. A.
34:00
A lot of those are antiquated
34:02
and not realistic. And
34:05
my mom didn't work, she stayed home
34:08
with us. And so I never thought
34:10
through how am I
34:12
gonna work and have a kid? Like I
34:14
just figured I'm just gonna hold my baby
34:16
in one arm and I'll like, you know,
34:18
write emails and do my podcast with the
34:21
baby and all that. So I
34:23
felt really guilty about
34:25
getting childcare, which is
34:28
so silly. Like to anyone
34:30
who is pregnant and also works
34:32
or even just wants sanity, like line up some
34:34
childcare. You're gonna wanna be able to take a
34:36
break. So I felt
34:39
guilty about that. And then even getting, you
34:41
know, we have a nanny now, she's
34:43
in New Zealand right now and I hope she's having a
34:45
good time. Everything's falling apart. I'm just
34:47
kidding. Let's be nice. We're
34:50
fine. But yeah, I felt really
34:54
guilty about getting a nanny. And
34:59
I wouldn't even, on air, I wouldn't even
35:01
refer to our nanny as I would recall
35:03
her a babysitter because I thought
35:05
that sounds less, whatever negative
35:08
thing, having a nanny sounds. Like a
35:10
babysitter is just coming over for a few
35:12
minutes. You know, you can pretend and you're
35:14
like, no nannies there more. And I remember
35:16
feeling the first time we had childcare and
35:21
I left the house, because of course there was that period of
35:23
time where like I have someone come over in the afternoons and
35:25
I was afraid to leave the house. The
35:27
first time I ever, I went to the grocery store
35:29
and then I just like sat in my car for
35:31
a while. And I think I did an
35:33
Instagram story about it. And someone
35:35
was like, oh yeah, that's totally a mom
35:37
thing, sitting in the car at a grocery store. And
35:42
I felt guilty about it then, but now
35:44
I don't even, I mean, thankfully that's, I
35:46
think the thing about also anyone in the
35:48
early stages of motherhood, if you're
35:50
struggling, it gets so much easier. It gets
35:52
better and you get stronger and you get more
35:55
used to like how hard it is. So
35:57
It's like the strength training. The
36:00
more you left similarly less like Se.
36:02
But I just I think that's very
36:04
true. Like you, I think. If.
36:07
Someone's listening and they want to have
36:09
children. but they don't yet. I think
36:12
they're probably like is easy sound, candid,
36:14
jaded, but it's like talk to. Any
36:17
mom this is. This is the
36:19
truth that like it is really
36:21
hard you have to confront what
36:23
you thought you would be with
36:25
what you can be and want
36:27
to be. and like I think
36:29
everybody it's definitely changes. There's always
36:31
something that changes I think. Also
36:33
what's interesting to us is how
36:35
your relationship with your mom changes.
36:37
So how is your relationship with
36:39
your mom seems to before you
36:41
had kids to what it's like
36:43
now that you have children. I'm.
36:46
I think. In. General I'm
36:48
probably. Gentler on
36:51
her now. Ah,
36:53
There's some things where. I'm.
36:56
Like I can't believe my parents did
36:59
that. I would never and I'm more
37:01
convinced that they were unfair or this
37:03
her bat now that. I have my own
37:05
kids. I watch how I handle it with them versus how
37:07
they handled it with. Me mostly like. You.
37:11
Know I had a pretty volatile every volatile
37:13
house with my dad had a temper and
37:15
my mom also. she was more calm but
37:18
she would lose her cool with us. So
37:20
ah I'm. In some ways I feel
37:22
like yeah that was not the best environments and I
37:24
wish I have a different and more convinced of it
37:26
now that I see how I am with my own
37:29
kids. But also I think I see the ways in
37:31
which I. Thought. My mom fall short
37:33
and I realize now and I'm more.
37:36
Okay with the fact that snowshoe the
37:38
human being. She. Was trying her
37:40
best and and was pretty good. Where
37:42
their minds that you realize that mom,
37:44
I want to be like that mom.
37:46
I mean I thought a least Keaton
37:49
was pretty good. From. family ties
37:51
is no yes yes he was
37:53
mob yeah although the ideal they
37:55
also allowed her to be pretty
37:57
human because one of my favorite
37:59
episodes I cannot remember the name of, but
38:03
Mallory auditions for a commercial
38:05
or something and then they
38:07
really like Elise, the mom.
38:10
And so they have her do a
38:12
commercial. And action! And
38:15
it's really hurtful to Mallory and she
38:17
tries to sabotage the commercial and it's
38:20
very hilarious. Cut! What is it?
38:24
Sorry, Mom, can I
38:26
have the ice cream at least? Right
38:29
behind the turtle. Sorry.
38:34
Here Mallory. Now
38:37
please don't interrupt. I won't. I'm
38:39
sorry. Can I just
38:41
get a spoon? No. But,
38:45
you know, that was a blind spot
38:47
for the mom, I think, to get
38:49
so carried away in the casting
38:53
directors taking an interest in her that she
38:55
didn't realize that it was hurting the feelings
38:57
of her daughter. And then, of course, you
38:59
could have a debate about what's the right
39:01
thing to do there. But
39:04
you know what's funny is I'm
39:06
saying I thought she was a good mom, but
39:08
I can definitely remember the episodes where she
39:11
put herself first and I
39:14
think I have this feeling that that wasn't the
39:16
best, but maybe that's still expecting her to be
39:18
an ideal mom. Now, Allison, you've
39:20
been so generous with your time, but
39:23
before we let you go, I need
39:25
to circle back to our original TV
39:27
show, The Facts of Life, and hit
39:29
you with some rapid-fire question. You
39:32
know how everyone's always trying to say they're the
39:34
Carrie or the Miranda or the Samantha of Sex
39:36
and the City? What I
39:38
want to know is if
39:41
we're talking Facts of Life, are
39:43
you the witty Natalie, the mischievous
39:45
Tootie, the tomboyish Jo, or the
39:47
fashionable Blair? I think I'm the
39:49
Natalie. She
39:53
was sort of sarcastic and
39:55
a writer, so
39:57
yeah, I think I'm right here. Would you ever send your
39:59
kids to boarding school? school? No. No.
40:01
Because I want them with me. I can't
40:04
imagine, you know, having
40:06
them leave the house sooner. I know, it's
40:08
hard. Now, is there a
40:10
fact of life that you, is really
40:12
important for you to teach your kids?
40:14
Yeah, one that I never was
40:17
taught and I would
40:20
love for them to internalize
40:23
is like, what do
40:25
you think about it? That's really all that matters. Great
40:28
fact of life. Excellent. And you never
40:30
hear that. Because you
40:33
really want to instill like
40:35
a trust in oneself. So
40:38
that's a really good one. There was one
40:40
day where Elliot had gotten
40:42
two fruit salads at school or something
40:44
and the kids were kind of
40:47
making fun of him. And I
40:50
was saying to him, like, well, what
40:52
do you think about taking two fruit salads? And he's
40:54
like, I don't really think it's that weird. And I
40:56
was like, yeah, I don't either. I don't know why
40:58
they thought it was funny. But and also the idea
41:00
of like, not everyone has to like you, which I
41:02
struggle with to this day. Oh, well,
41:04
come back on and teach me that
41:06
one. We need a full hour for
41:08
that one. I don't have enough time
41:10
today because that's my that is that's going
41:13
to be my life. We've a
41:16
lot more to get into some other time.
41:18
But thank you so much. Thank you so
41:20
much for having me on. You guys are
41:22
the best. Thank you. That
41:26
was our interview with Alison Rosen, host
41:28
of the podcast. Alison Rosen is your
41:30
new best friend. Oh,
41:36
man, she was so fabulous. Oh, God. You
41:38
know what? It's like I've been listening to
41:40
her for over a decade and I just
41:43
talking to her it was like even better
41:45
than all the fantasies I've had about going
41:47
on her show. No, and
41:49
she had such a great fact of
41:51
life. Oh, totally gonna steal
41:54
that as something to teach my kids. Yeah.
41:56
And pretend you made it up. What's
41:58
the fact of life? if you want to teach your
42:00
kids. Oh, God, this
42:03
is a toughie. I think it's that we
42:06
all have something like when we're growing up that
42:08
we feel a little
42:10
bit bad about or a little bit of shame about.
42:13
And a lot of
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times just saying that aloud to someone that
42:17
you love or feel close to is a
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way to get out of it. It's a way
42:22
to stop feeling less
42:24
than or to feeling shame. Because
42:27
as Brene Brown tells me, shame can't live.
42:31
Wait, is that what she says? Is
42:33
that what she says? I think
42:35
so. So I think that's it. Yeah. That's
42:37
a great one. What's yours? I
42:40
mean, there are a lot of them, but
42:42
one that I constantly have to remind myself,
42:44
so I'm hoping to teach them, is that
42:46
like nothing is
42:49
forever. So like
42:51
if you're feeling so bad
42:53
about something, it's gonna pass.
42:56
Like we can keep moving forward and it's gonna get
42:58
better. I'm Andy Mitchell.
43:01
And I'm Sabrina Kolberg. Thanks
43:03
for listening. Next week
43:05
on Pop Culture Moms, we're talking
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to ABC chief meteorologist Ginger Zee
43:10
about what covering the weather has taught
43:12
her about parenting and mental health. Pop
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Culture Moms is a production of ABC
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Audio in partnership with Good Morning America,
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hosted by me, Sabrina Kolberg. And
43:23
me, Andy Mitchell. Our show is
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produced by Camille Peterson, Asala Sanahore,
43:27
Sabrina Kolberg, and me. Music
43:30
by Evan Biola. Special
43:32
thanks to Emily Schutz, Susie
43:34
Lu, Josh Cohan, Ariel Chester,
43:37
Liz Alessi, and Simone Swink,
43:39
the executive producer of GMA. Laura
43:41
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want to tell you about a show I think you're gonna love. Enter
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