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From business and marketing strategies for entrepreneurs
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with soul to loving on her family and to
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planning the ultimate wine travel experience
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for women . As the founder of Black Girls Wine
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, shayla Bernardo is the bestie
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we all needed . She keeps us updated on
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the latest to try and buy and she's
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very generous in dropping a little knowledge
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along the way . Shayla , welcome
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to the City . Groud podcast . Thank
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you for having me podcast
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. Thank you for having me . I'm very excited because when I got
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to know you and lorette about you , I'm like , okay , this , this
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lady's life bio , whatever , like biopic
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. It could be called a scenic route
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. There is almost nothing that
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I have done yet and there's still so
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much left to do . So
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, shayla , what does scenic
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route mean for you ? What was
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the pivotal moments
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looking back so far
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?
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Oh , that's a scripture in
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the Bible verses around
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talents and gifts and
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utilizing all of your talents and
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gifts . It's a parable in the book of Matthew . Right
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, I've read a note
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, to be honest , but you tell
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me , so I believe . Yeah
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, so it is , and so what
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the scenic route means to me
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is like it
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really has been a journey of me exploring all
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of my talents and gifts and putting
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them all to use and
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using everything inside of me . I
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feel like my brief time in
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corporate . I was like , oh my God , I'm
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miserable , and I also realized
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that , like I am so much more than this
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, like , yes , I can answer a phone
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and , yes , I can handle some claims and I
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can do some inspections , but none of that
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is really using any of the gifts
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and talents that I have . I'm
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such a creative . I
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love I love the camera , which
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I discovered as an adult building
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brands , I love being on camera
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and I love putting
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on a face . I love helping people
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with their marketing . I love drinking
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wine and helping people grow their palate
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, and so my journey has kind
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of been it's been the ebbs and
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flows of like using my
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gifts to serve other people .
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Oh , I love this approach of really
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leading with your gifts
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and talents first and
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then kind of like beefed it into the city
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ground and see where it goes . What
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you said like you
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see yourself as a very creative
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person . Was there another
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? What was the another
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? Like maybe surprising gift
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or talent you discovered along the way , and
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what was something you
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were absolutely shit
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at doing that did not work
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out at all .
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That's a really good question . So
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, surprisingly
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, when I first
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started building Black Girls Wine , I
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decided about a year
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into it to start going live . And
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I went live every week
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on Wednesdays at 8.30 for four
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years , and so a lot
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of people discovered me that
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way and I
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was nervous as crap when I
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first started . I did not . I'm
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telling you , it was my mom and my husband and my dad
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and my sister on my very first live . And
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so now when I meet people or I
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see people in the street or I'm like talking
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to the money in the wine industry , they're like oh my God , I
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loved your show and I was like wow
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, you watched it . I didn't think I
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was going to be great
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at it . I didn't know what to expect . I hated
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public speaking in college . When I took it I
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was so uninterested in it , and so
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it has actually made me a
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much better speaker . I have
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a lot more confidence , even if I don't
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necessarily know where
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a topic or conversation or
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like if it's a panel interview , like
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even though you never know how those things turn out . I feel
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more confident because
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of my four years in front of the camera
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of me just kind of trying it out . Something
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that I was really shitty at was running a
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product-based business and a subscription
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box . Oh , okay , yeah
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, I have a feelings of running a product-based business
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, but the subscription box
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I hate going to
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the post office trying to wrangle
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all of this stuff in a box and
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the crazy thing is , like the box did well , it
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was growing and I was like
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I don't do this anymore so I
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shut it down but
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I mean really kudos to you
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for shutting , for shutting something down
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because it doesn't didn't feel aligned anymore
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. It
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was it was . It was hard
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like I found myself
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every single month at the last second , like
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at the post office , packing boxes
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and tissues everywhere and trying to tape
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them and then carry these , all of these boxes
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, and I'm like I know there's an easier way to
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do it , but I don't even have capacity to figure it
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out like I just don't .
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Yeah yeah , that's
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the thing , right . Once you kind of like realize
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, okay , this shit ain't for me , it doesn't
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even matter , like you probably
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could have hired three people to help you
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easily , but then I don't
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know what . Then suddenly you have three employees
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of a business you don't like and you're
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responsible for them too , and it's just
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like more honest this way . If you feel
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like , nah , I gotta pull the plug
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you
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feel like , nah , I gotta pull the plug .
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Yeah , I had to and I think it was really good practice because eventually I ended up having
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to pull the plug on Black Girls Line Society and that
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business , you know was that membership
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. It was wildly successful but motherhood
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called and I couldn't anymore
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and it was made me sad to shut it
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down . That I did grieve having the sunset
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, that business , but it was nothing
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that I could do . I
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was nine months into postpartum and it was rough
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, so I think it was the
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preparation I needed to
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be able to make that decision
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really confidently . I feel like
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I still don't know
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what the ultimate destination
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looks like , or even if there is an ultimate destination
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, maybe it will always be . Life
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is about enjoying the route , because
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it is the yeah and that , wherever
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destiny takes you and where it takes you
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, but you gotta
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enjoy the ride .
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Yes , if you've been here for a couple
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of episodes this . You heard me
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preaching this over and over again , so I'm really
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happy shayla is telling you this
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too . Um , listen
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, if you're , if you're hating on
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the journey , that
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whatever destination you will reach most
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likely will suck balls too . Like it's
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it , it's just not
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. Life is so short
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, and if we're having a like
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, if we have to push ourselves and
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having a really hard time just to get a
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step , step , one step after the
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other , like
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, why bother it's
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hard and I know like some seasons
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are just hard .
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I will say that I do understand . I
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do understand if somebody is like 100
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. It took me a while
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post baby wrestling
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with the fact that I was a mom and
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not knowing what
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that , what would come , what would
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become of I don't want to
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say me , but just like what
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that looked like . Like . What is juggling business
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? What does ?
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Shayla as a . As a way the baby looks like
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mom Shayla .
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How does mom Shayla do everything
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that non-mom Shayla
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was doing , but only more
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like ? How does that happen ? And I
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did . I struggled
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after I had my son trying to like
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find my way . I
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was falling in love with this little human
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, but hating the fact that I was
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no longer me . Oh
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, I can so relate .
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Yes , you're speaking
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out of my heart , for sure . It
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was hard . It was hard .
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Oh God , yeah , I mean anybody who's listening
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, I get it .
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I mean , my kid is five , five .
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Now I don't know how old is your son , or two
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he is two , he's
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amazing and he's so like
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, he's growing so fast and just
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I don't know I was . It
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took me probably almost a year to get
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to the point that I was like , okay , I have to just
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like accept that this is my life now and
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I have to figure out , like , how
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this works and then I just have to change
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the way that I work and I have to change
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the way that I show up . But this is an amazing
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little human is here and I got to
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appreciate it . But it
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was hard at first and I'm so glad to hear you
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say , like you , it
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was hard at first and I'm so glad to hear you say , like you , you get it because
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a lot of moms have a hard time saying that .
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Yeah , it's interesting , right ? We often hear
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uh touch on subjects that
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I don't know . The
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conventional , the conventional way
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would be to look the other way . Um
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, but I don't know
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. I feel there's so much shame
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involved in
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how we
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like , how how we see ourselves to
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be mothers , how our
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partners , how our family has . Society
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sees us as mother's kettle
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, whatever , and
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the more we
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don't talk about it , the more
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it stays in the shadows , the
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easier it is for shame to fester and grow
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. And we can't
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deal with shame . We just
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got to be done with this . It's not helping
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us .
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Yeah , that's one thing that I
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look after years of therapy I
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have . That's something that I'm like
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I'm not feeling ashamed for anything . That I feel
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I'm a human being and I'm entitled to feel what I
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feel . Yeah , so I
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had to find my like tribe
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after having a baby because I was like I need
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people who will keep it real with me , like . This
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is not always easy and I'm not not
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very brief backstory my husband and I have
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been together for over a decade . We never planned
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to have children . He was my
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son was a surprise . He was a surprise miracle
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. They told me it wouldn't happen and
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so when we got pregnant , it was like
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what ?
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What's happening ? What is this sick telling me
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?
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He's like this can't be right . And sure enough , my doctor was like oh no
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girl , all the cysts are gone .
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It's not the little baby in there like excuse
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me , can you run the test again please ?
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you like girl , you that this is never
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real , and so I
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am I . One thing that's really
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important to me , like in telling my story
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, is being really honest about it , because I want
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any mother to know like it's okay
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, I didn't get into this necessarily wanting
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it . Now I absolutely love
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it and it's a
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lot of fun and
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. But at first I was like shit
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, I did not . This is what I signed
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up for .
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Oh my god , I'm like are
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we living parallel lives
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? I don't know , it is very sappy , same
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. We have a partner , we've been together
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for years and
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I mean I had my son at 35
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. And
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until the age of 34 , I was like'm
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never gonna have kids like this
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. That like we like
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I don't know . And then suddenly
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the conversations were like you know , we
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will have a great life whether we have kids
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or not . It will just be different . And
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then , like huh , you know , maybe
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we just see what
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happens if we try , because you
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don't know how long trying is going to last you
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anyway . And
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then I don't know , it was like the second
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cycle and I'm like , if
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I do my math correct , I think
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I'm late . So
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I'm like , okay , sure , okay , so it seems like we're
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gonna do this way . Um
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, and I
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was kind of like the last one
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in my circle to have a baby
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. The others , like , were already on , like
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baby two , or had , or stop
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, a baby one . Um , so
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I I got some of the horror
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stories . No
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, I mean there are horror stories . I
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mean there's blood and gore
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and there's no other way to tell
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it . It's a horror story . And
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I'm thankful for that , because
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in my mind I was kind of preparing
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myself for battle in
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a way , you know , like I knew this time
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will be like challenging . But
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boy , I didn't know , I did not know shit
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listen
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, listen .
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I having kids is a
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whirlwind , and one
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of the things that was hard for me to get
13:28
used to was the fact that everything is
13:30
unpredictable . I've
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accepted it now . It's a part of my life and I'm OK with it . Yes , but we need other
13:36
structures if our life is unpredictable , when
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I say because it
13:41
could be oh , you're
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sick because you were in the daycare and
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now the four calls I
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have scheduled for today have to be moved
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, because life is very
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unpredictable , yes , and
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so that was scary
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to me . I will say some of the horror stories
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I heard . I didn't end up having
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horror stories of my own and I'm
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very grateful for that , because
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I have friends who have some horror
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stories and I was already like the
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video they show you in the classes
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when you're pregnant . Refuse
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to watch the video . I
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refuse . I'm not taking that in , I
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don't want it . It I don't . I refuse
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. Yeah , she was like get into the birthing part
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. No , thank you .
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Yeah , don't go placenta , or
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like diameters or
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like .
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I refuse . She started showing the video and I was like
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, okay , I'm going to go and fix myself
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some food now I'm done .
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Fair enough . Yes , fair enough .
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I mean , denial is a wonderful thing , Listen , and I'm so glad because I
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had a great experience . My soul was born to
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Beyonce playing in
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a war room .
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Oh okay , that is nice . Yeah
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, it was lovely , but we kind
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of had to go from let's
15:06
see what's going to happen to oh
15:08
, you're probably in a pre-Klemse state
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so we probably should get this baby out . Oh
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okay , it
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was all the fun . It was all the fun , but
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I'm
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curious how it was for you or how
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it is for you . We
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said already said it's a
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whirlwind , it might be a horror story
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. It's a lot of fun , it's challenging , it's
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all the things and more . And
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that's I don't know part of why
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I love it , because some of the unpredictability
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is like , yes , I'm living off
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this . Some of the unpredictability
15:49
is like , yes , I'm living off this , but I don't know I wasn't prepared
15:52
how much of my
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own shit would come up
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, and especially in relations
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to with my parents
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. Look , or how I've been raised
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. I've been raised and
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like how I am now
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in a position where I
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almost have to reparent myself
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too while I parent a little
16:16
kid , and
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it's wild .
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What was the major things that were stirred for you with the birth
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of your kid like ? So , everything that you explained
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I experienced as well
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. I knew that I wanted to
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parent my son differently . Um
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, oh , you're one of the circle breakers .
16:41
Yes , yeah , we're the circle breakers
16:43
. Go shut it up
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.
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I wanted , it was really important to me
16:48
to raise a son who is
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not just , uh , emotionally
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aware , but emotionally intelligent , who
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knows how to articulate himself
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and what he's feeling . He understands that
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he has options . Anger is one
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emotion . It does not cover frustration
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, disappointment , resentment
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yeah , and or resentment , like there's
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so many other words , and if you
17:12
learn how to communicate effectively , people can understand
17:15
that and understand where you are and
17:17
you can move forward . I
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wanted it's really important
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to me that my son is emotionally
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regulated , that he isn't a man
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who overreacts or goes to anger
17:29
because he is experiencing something else
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and doesn't know how to express it , and
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I wanted to be a safe space
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for him , that whatever he was feeling
17:37
, he could come to me and I'm not going to shut him down
17:39
, I'm not going to discount his experience
17:41
because it's not like mine . I
17:43
read something that said like it
17:46
is prideful as a parent
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if you compare
17:50
how you were raised in your journey
17:52
to your child , because
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you have no way of knowing what
17:56
they're experiencing , because things are constantly
17:59
changing , and that
18:02
resonated really deeply with me .
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This is also what I'm accusing my mom of doing
18:08
.
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The same , the exact same , the exact same , exact same . And it has been interesting
18:17
because the generation
18:19
that raised us didn't
18:22
have as much access to , I
18:25
guess , what the internet has made available
18:27
all of the information and the lessons
18:29
and the quick things that you can learn
18:32
and intake and shift
18:34
so fast . And so
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, since my husband and I
18:38
both had never , we never talked about kids
18:40
or perspectives because we weren't going to have any . That
18:42
was something that we talked about a lot when I was pregnant
18:45
and we got to talk about a lot post-pregnancy
18:47
reparenting ourselves
18:50
, and it made our marriage much better
18:52
. We , in reparenting ourselves
18:54
, we have gotten much better about
18:56
hey , this is kind of what
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I'm feeling . It has absolutely nothing to do
19:00
with you . Yeah , I am frustrated , and
19:03
so if you see me upset , don't think that
19:05
it's about you . This is what's actually happening
19:07
. Or hey , I see that you
19:10
seem frustrated or you seem like really
19:12
down , what's up ? Right
19:14
, being able to articulate
19:17
that a lot better with each other , it's
19:22
been a game changer . But for me , building
19:24
up my sub-emotional intelligence so
19:27
that he does not fall
19:29
into the stupidity of the patriarchy is
19:31
very important to me .
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Oh God , yes , yeah , all
19:39
of this , including the relationship
19:42
part . I
19:59
mean having a kid , I mean it's probably hard on any relationship , I think , because
20:01
you have more needs to take care of and it's very it's been challenging . A lot of
20:03
it gone . You got there at the beginning with this
20:05
constant crying and milk and nappies
20:08
and whatnot .
20:11
That baby phase was not fun . I know some
20:13
people think it's cute , but that was my least favorite part
20:15
. I am really enjoying 2 , and I
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know I've enjoyed 3 , 4 , 5 , 6 , 7 , 8
20:19
, 9 , 10 , because it is no longer .
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That baby phase . Yeah , I
20:24
mean , I
20:26
feel that the baby phase was very interesting
20:29
because it was physically
20:31
so draining , but
20:34
I was so bored
20:36
at the same time , like I was
20:38
like I need mental stimuli
20:40
. I'm like , can I do
20:42
like I don't know a crossword or
20:44
something ? I'm like please
20:47
tell me someone what's going on in the world . Like
20:49
I , yeah , I
20:52
feel all I felt like all my brain was kind of like
20:54
rotted , rotting away . Um
20:57
, and now it's
20:59
like nanny
21:01
started kindergarten last year and I feel like I have some
21:03
of the capacity back because
21:06
like , okay , we're getting into like
21:08
rhythm , as much as that's
21:10
possible anyway . But now
21:13
and this is a cool phase , but it's
21:15
also challenging in other ways we're
21:18
in the getting up , but like
21:20
I don't know having the
21:22
mom when
21:24
will I die ? Questions at six o'clock
21:27
in the morning . And you're like I'm
21:29
not ready . I'm like , okay
21:31
, okay , let's
21:34
like rewind and
21:36
like all these like deep shit questions at six
21:38
o'clock in the morning . And I'm like , okay
21:41
, sure , yes , let's , let's
21:44
talk about death and dying . Sure , like here
21:46
for it . Let's talk about death and dying . Sure , like
21:50
here for it . Or , yeah , she suddenly started
21:53
about like
21:56
how , if
22:00
the kids lose their toys when there
22:02
is a war , you know , and you're like all
22:06
these things . I'm like , wow , yeah
22:08
, I'm like you don't . Yeah , honey
22:11
, well , most likely , yeah , they do . But
22:13
it's like I
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mean I would try to like give
22:19
him age appropriate , like
22:21
not telling him something like , oh , there is no
22:23
war , there is no patriot
22:25
, but kind of like make it age appropriate
22:28
war
22:31
. Or there is no patriot , like , but kind of like make it each appropriate
22:34
. But then again , oh man , how I do like a explain each appropriately the war
22:36
in ukraine , or like the genocide in palestine , and I'm like you gotta
22:38
send some notes over , because I have no idea
22:41
how you explain this oh
22:43
god I'm . I'm swimming in the deep
22:45
here , like I have no idea what I'm doing , but
22:48
yeah , it's really interesting . And what
22:51
a major one
22:53
also for me was how
22:56
relationships change
22:59
and like the
23:01
relationship with myself , yeah
23:04
, and all the others too
23:07
. Like there were people who
23:09
I I thought they're in my life forever and
23:12
they're poof , yeah
23:14
, and there are people who were like , oh , they're
23:17
nice , like whenever we see each
23:19
other , we have a good time , and they really stepped
23:21
up their game and I didn't expect it . What
23:24
was your experience with relationships ?
23:27
um , very similar to yours . Some of my friends
23:30
that I
23:32
have a . I feel like I have a quite
23:34
a even balanced
23:37
circle at times . But
23:39
as I've gotten older , I'm
23:41
friends with a lot of single moms and some
23:43
of my friends I really expected to
23:45
be there for me completely
23:47
disappeared and they weren't . Um
23:50
, and then some of my friends
23:53
really , like you said , stepped
23:55
it up . I will say , at one
23:57
point I did feel abandoned by some
23:59
of my close friends because I feel like when
24:01
they had children I was there , um
24:04
, or you know , I made sure to come and
24:06
see them , I made sure to make sure I could
24:09
come and help and you know , whatever
24:11
it was , and some of my
24:13
close friends , I think , just didn't know how to , how
24:17
to be there because some of them
24:19
didn't have any kids . So
24:21
it's been interesting navigating friendships
24:23
, most motherhood , because
24:26
it really is like this is a major
24:28
life change and and people either
24:30
have to get with it or I'll
24:33
see you in 20 years , I guess , like when
24:35
he goes to college and he's , you
24:37
know , out in his old and maybe we'll be friends again . I
24:39
don't know , but it's like
24:42
in this season it
24:44
it's about him and it's about my husband , and
24:46
when I have the time , I
24:48
am more than ready
24:52
to hold space and capacity for my
24:54
friends and to be there for them , and
24:57
that's something that I really enjoy . I do deeply
24:59
value friendship because I recognize that
25:02
, you know , our parents won't always be here . They are
25:04
family . They
25:12
are family , um , and so I tried my hardest to be there , um , but some people just
25:14
fell by the wayside . And I also have found and I don't know if you've had this too
25:16
, but I also have found that , like post-motherhood
25:19
, my give a f meter
25:21
is also very , very low . Like
25:24
if you can't , if
25:26
you can't rally and understand that I have to
25:28
bring my kid to dinner or we just got to go
25:30
another time , then maybe we
25:32
can just call this another time . And if another time is 20
25:34
years from now , then so be it , because I'm not going to dance
25:37
with you every evening
25:39
and every weekend .
25:40
I don't know what to tell you . Yes
25:42
, I feel like
25:45
that has laid
25:47
out the most ruthlessly that's
25:50
the proper English in my business
25:52
, Like
25:55
I , and it has paid
25:57
off because so far I've never
25:59
had any
26:01
difficult clients
26:04
who couldn't understand
26:06
why I had to push a call , whether
26:09
that had been for health reasons or
26:12
because it related
26:14
something , something . Yeah
26:19
, If you don't
26:22
. Oh , I only had that once . I was
26:24
invited to come on a podcast podcast
26:26
and interestingly
26:29
enough , this person who invited
26:31
me was a
26:33
dude like
26:36
or not
26:39
, we're not , we're not going there
26:41
for now , um , anyway , so
26:43
we , we had
26:45
, because of the time difference , us
26:48
and and Europe , it was already
26:50
kind of tricky to find a meeting . And
26:54
then we found a spot and I told him yeah , that's okay
26:56
, I can do Sunday evening it's
27:00
not usually a time I do
27:02
any kind of work related things but sure , okay
27:04
, let's , if that's the only thing that we can
27:07
swing . Sure , and
27:11
then the day my kid got a fever spike and
27:13
I was like , okay , like I , just I can't do it
27:15
. He's like mommy , mommy , and I'm like
27:17
, okay , no , um , right
27:19
, or these , um . And
27:22
I said , and I wrote him like
27:24
I think , two hours before , like look , this
27:26
is either a super last minute or like maybe
27:29
he'll be fine in two hours because , but
27:31
I just want to like be respectful of your time as
27:34
possible as I possibly can . Um
27:36
, like we have to reschedule
27:39
. I think it's like I
27:41
understand this
27:43
is your decision . I wish you the
27:45
best in life . Then Then he blocked me and
27:48
I'm like well , I mean fair play to
27:50
your boundaries , sir , love
27:52
it .
27:53
And I'm like okay
27:56
, sure , that's one
27:58
way of I feel like these things don't
28:01
happen to me , because God in
28:03
the universe knows . I will snap
28:07
Sir sir , Because
28:10
you know he can't
28:12
possibly have children , Because I feel like it's
28:14
impossible to have kids Like someone who
28:17
is just really like mothering
28:19
his kids and him . And he's
28:22
not involved . It's gotta be that , because there's
28:24
no way that you can have
28:26
children and not develop
28:30
a level of grace . Yeah
28:33
, for people , because you
28:35
cannot control infants
28:38
and babies and toddlers . You
28:40
can't control , right , really
28:43
nothing . Who are you ? Kids
28:45
are just the wow factor that come along
28:47
with it . You can not
28:49
control . You know what I'm saying ? Like stuff that happens
28:51
. So
28:54
, yeah , he must have hated me kids .
28:56
I know , but it was like
28:58
back to my business . It was really nice
29:00
to be very strict with my boundaries
29:02
and , in turn , having
29:05
the clients who are like yeah , sure I get it , let's
29:07
reschedule for like , sure I get it , let's reschedule for like whatever . I
29:10
love that and it's
29:12
so important because otherwise , I don't know
29:15
, I would have loaded
29:17
in my little tiny
29:20
suitcase even more . Oh
29:22
, that brings me to a good topic . Oh
29:25
, mom , guilt .
29:36
I feel like , how
29:39
do you deal with mom guilt , shayla ? I don't know , I don't know . I
29:42
feel like I I don't
29:46
so my mom guilt is around
29:48
, feeling bad when I need a break and I'm over
29:50
it . That's when I have mom
29:52
guilt , because then I feel bad . That are your
29:55
own needs and
29:58
that's when I'm like , oh , and my husband is very
30:00
good about no , going
30:02
downstairs doing their nails , going downstairs
30:05
, you know , go go
30:07
somewhere on saturday , go to brunch , take us
30:09
up to brunch like . He's really good
30:11
about encouraging me
30:13
to take breaks and take stuff away
30:15
and I feel
30:17
bad for wanting them . But
30:20
between him and my best friend , who's a single mom , my
30:22
best friend is like , is it ? You don't get out of there ? Your husband
30:25
told you get out . You need't get out of there . Your husband
30:27
told you get out , you need to get out and
30:29
go . She'll be like
30:31
and stay away all day .
30:36
Change your cell phone number . She
30:39
is like I'm serious about it , I love
30:41
her . Why
30:43
do you think that is , though , that you feel bad
30:46
for your own needs ?
30:49
It's probably a little over the door for my own mom
30:52
, probably Feeling
30:55
like I have to be there and that I have to
30:57
be the one that's present
30:59
and does all the things , what it all
31:01
actually would be . I don't have to .
31:03
An eternal image of what
31:05
has been modeled to you .
31:07
Mm-hmm , mm-hmm
31:09
, and I think that that's
31:11
probably a big part of it . It's
31:14
something that I'm working through well
31:16
, I don't know .
31:17
we're always working through some shit . We
31:20
are , we are . Shall
31:23
we do like a couple of motherhood unplugged
31:26
ones ? Oh yeah , do you want to start off easier ? Shall we
31:28
do like a couple of motherhood unplugged ones ? Oh yeah , I have . Do
31:30
you want to start off easier
31:32
or do you want to go right in
31:35
the deep end ? Go right
31:37
in , okay , oh
31:39
yes . What
31:42
do you feel are some like topics
31:45
related to motherhood you feel
31:47
are still like taboo
31:50
or not really
31:52
discussed as openly as they should
31:54
?
31:59
I feel like it's not talked about enough
32:01
actually how hard the
32:03
first year is . I feel
32:05
like there's a lot of um and I can't think
32:07
of the psychological , like the term
32:09
they use in psychology but it's like a lot
32:12
of like , uh over , like
32:14
, making it sound like it's oh , you'll
32:16
be okay , oh , everyone
32:18
goes through it . No , gaslighting
32:21
, gaslighting , gaslighting . Yeah
32:23
, there's a lot of gaslighting
32:25
around the first year and
32:28
and maybe it's not everybody's
32:30
experience , I don't know , but mine was trash . Okay
32:32
, I didn't enjoy it , I didn't like
32:35
it , it was not fun , it was really
32:37
hard and it really has
32:39
nothing to do with it . For me , it
32:41
didn't have anything to do with my son himself , it was
32:43
me navigating this new person
32:45
, this new life , like so
32:47
much is different , like we're not even talking
32:50
about the physical part of it , like just
32:52
life in general and adjusting and
32:54
adapting . And I'm I've
32:56
been an entrepreneur for years now , so
32:58
it's like figuring out the direction business
33:01
is going to go and everything
33:03
. Like it was a lot all at once and
33:06
it was trash . And I feel like not enough people
33:08
talk about that and especially
33:10
, I can only imagine how challenging
33:12
it has to be for people who go back to work , working
33:14
for somebody else . That's got to be hard
33:16
, yeah , and I feel like we don't . We
33:19
there needs to be more space held for
33:21
women . Like I know , in other countries
33:23
they get a year off you need a year
33:26
off .
33:27
Oh god , yes , I mean we get , I
33:29
got . Oh no , not
33:31
well , we got , we get three
33:34
months off , which is better
33:37
than nothing , but I mean three months is
33:39
just you recovering to
33:44
a level where you like barely
33:47
functional again ? I mean
33:50
not that it's a green light , I
33:52
was still like more
33:56
time is needed .
33:57
I feel like that's one of those things that needs to be talked
33:59
about and I think it is absolutely
34:01
not . I feel like I don't hear anybody talking about
34:03
it or offering any advice for the
34:05
couples . Like your
34:07
post , your relationship
34:10
, post baby , it
34:13
is so different . My
34:16
husband and I were that couple that went on dates every
34:18
other weekend , every single month . Yeah
34:21
, I could probably count
34:23
on one hand how many dates we've had the last
34:25
two years , because it's
34:28
just different . Where are we
34:30
going to put him ? Who's ?
34:31
going to watch him . So , boys
34:33
and girls , take it from your wife's
34:35
friends here . A
34:38
baby will not fix your relationship
34:40
At all At
34:43
all .
34:43
If anything , it makes it way more
34:45
challenging .
34:46
And if you don't go into parenthood
34:48
like consciously , like okay
34:51
, I'm gonna probably have to repair myself in some
34:53
areas yeah , I'm gonna fuck shit up like
34:56
we're gonna hate each other's guts at least a
34:58
couple times a day , but we'll wake
35:00
up at the end yep
35:02
, exactly , and it's definitely
35:05
the sex part I
35:07
feel like I'm gonna talk about in that way .
35:09
Sex is very different for the woman post-sex
35:12
, post-baby Like . Even sometimes
35:14
the mental load of
35:16
running a family can
35:19
impact your sex life and that's not
35:21
talked about in the gender . Yeah
35:23
, it's not no conversation about like okay , now
35:26
I feel weird because I am like I breastfed for
35:28
18 months . You kind of can't tell
35:30
me 24 .
35:32
Mm-hmm , like it
35:34
was a little , did you know ? My midwife
35:36
told me this and I was like that
35:39
, like she
35:42
. They say you're
35:45
fully recovered from
35:47
putting a child into this world
35:49
. Like fully
35:51
recovered , in the sense of your hormones
35:54
are back to the way they were before
35:56
. Okay , roughly
35:59
12 to 18 months after
36:01
you stopped breastfeeding .
36:05
I mean , and
36:08
the guy , there's a guy I don't
36:10
know his name , he's not american
36:13
, but he has a huge following . I
36:15
found him when I was pregnant and he
36:17
said that a
36:20
woman's body takes like years
36:22
to recover after baby like
36:24
, and for everything to regulate
36:26
and get back to a new normal . It
36:29
takes years , if ever I've heard
36:31
that .
36:31
I mean my feet are a size bigger .
36:33
Now I don't think they'll freak again right
36:36
, like so much , stuff changes and I had
36:38
heard that it takes a while and it is
36:40
after you start breastfeeding , so , like it
36:43
hasn't been a year , for me , now that
36:45
we look , now that we're talking about it , hasn't even been a year . But
36:48
yeah , stuff is still regulating
36:50
and and it's
36:52
a new normal that your body has to figure
36:54
out , yeah , yeah I
36:56
feel , another taboo topic
36:58
in .
37:01
I mean , we're slowly talking about
37:03
things like mental load , at least
37:05
over here , very slowly , very
37:07
slowly , but just
37:09
the whole like
37:12
somatic experience
37:14
of it I
37:16
don't know , like
37:20
how traumatic it is for the body and
37:23
like how giving birth is probably one
37:26
of the most like intense
37:28
experiences or like dangerous
37:30
experiences you can have and
37:34
like just all the
37:36
I don't know the blood
37:38
and the guts and everything , like
37:41
I'm like I
37:43
don't know , maybe I should have watched that video .
37:47
Look , I couldn't watch it . I couldn't watch it .
37:50
I'm like , yeah , it's not a sanitary
37:52
thing , but and
37:54
I mean , oh , you
37:56
know what ? I would have wished that
37:59
someone would have told me what
38:01
? Should we go there
38:04
? Yes , we should , no , no
38:06
, dad . Well , I mean , I had
38:08
a C-section , so that might be different . But anyway
38:10
, if you have a C-section , I have a C-section , so that might be different , but anyway , if you have a C-section
38:12
, I have a C-section , yeah . So if you have a C-section
38:14
, make sure that before they reel
38:16
you in , you get one good
38:19
last dump , because
38:22
the first time you have to take a
38:24
number two after it's
38:27
shit , it's bad
38:29
.
38:31
It's really bad .
38:32
I don't even remember , oh no
38:34
, I remember , because I had I
38:36
lost . I lost a little blood , um
38:39
, because some things didn't rip as they were
38:41
supposed to , whatever , um
38:43
, and so I
38:45
had to take iron . And I'm like
38:47
, listen people , I
38:50
know how this iron thing works . If I
38:52
have to do tablets , then
38:54
I'll be constipated until
38:56
the end of time , but
38:59
your levels are not low enough for an IV . I'm
39:04
like I have no capacity
39:06
to argue now . Okay , sure , sure
39:17
, I was so constipated that first dump
39:20
was harder than actual fucking childbirth , like I kid you not . I wish someone would
39:22
have told me . I'm trying to remember I was . It was
39:24
so bad , and then I talked to you , remember
39:26
they all had like similar experiences
39:29
, so I felt like this should be on a manual
39:31
somewhere for c-section so
39:34
actually like so I remember during
39:36
pregnancy .
39:37
So when I was pregnant , my
39:40
a good friend of mine was pregnant and
39:42
my husband's sister and
39:44
first cousin were pregnant . We were all pregnant at the
39:47
same time and they all
39:49
speaking of horror stories had their babies literally
39:51
within a two-week time span before
39:53
I had my c-section and all
39:55
of them went in for vaginal births and ended up having c-sections
39:57
. So I was like , excuse me , I'm
40:00
not going to schedule a c-section yeah , we're not going to do that
40:02
. We're not waiting . Yeah , so
40:04
I ended up scheduling it . But what I remember
40:07
during pregnancy is like I actually
40:09
was PMI more regular
40:11
than I was beforehand . So I
40:13
don't remember . I don't remember afterwards
40:15
. Afterwards I feel like I was too
40:18
busy like drowning and breastfeeding
40:20
and figuring out , so a lot of things get blurry
40:23
yeah , I'm
40:25
very I have . I wish I had written
40:27
. I have it on
40:29
my list of things to do now to start
40:31
a journal for
40:33
my son . I want to start writing for him and
40:37
I wish I had started earlier because there are some things that
40:39
are just blurring Like it
40:42
was hazy the not sleeping
40:44
, the not . Yeah , I feel like we're just
40:46
getting into his molars are coming in
40:48
, so some of the nights the last couple of
40:50
weeks have been a little rough . Oh don't . Yeah , I remember't
40:53
for the most part . Listen , it's been
40:55
rough for the most part . He's like sleeping through
40:57
the night now , and so
40:59
it's been like
41:01
it's much . It's much better . My
41:03
sleep is off and I don't know if it's permanent
41:06
, but at least he
41:08
is sleeping through the night . Um , that
41:10
is good it's been different .
41:15
I mean , we have like a family bed , co-sleeping kind of situation , and
41:19
like I'm wide
41:22
awake when he just makes
41:24
as little as I
41:27
don't know , it's something biological . I
41:29
cannot turn this off . I'm
41:32
awake . Awake , yes . What
41:34
do you need ?
41:34
water bottle , like I got you covered
41:37
I'd partner with his end of the same
41:39
I . I kicked . Now
41:41
that was one thing I didn't want to do because I was like I
41:43
don't want him in bed so we can come
41:45
out . We co-slept for a long time
41:48
and then I only get about nine
41:50
months and we're like all right , you gotta go in your
41:52
room , so um so
41:54
did you manage that ?
41:56
we fail like or we do with that , just
41:58
we try girl , I
42:00
love my man .
42:01
I needed my man next to me .
42:03
This is very true this is very
42:05
true and what I need .
42:06
My man everywhere else , but just the bad
42:09
during night is tricky what
42:12
I told myself was one day this
42:15
little boy is gonna come up to me and go
42:17
mom , I love her and I want to marry her , and
42:20
at that point , is my marriage
42:22
reflective of what he's gonna work
42:24
, or will
42:27
I have sacrificed my marriage to
42:30
have this baby in bed with me ? Yeah and I was like
42:32
you know what ? No , he gotta go he
42:34
gotta go so . But I am
42:36
very quick to be like , um , he's coughing
42:38
, yeah , leave a needle with us
42:42
.
42:43
It's right , it's always these . I
42:45
, I , just , I like every year . Um
42:47
, I'm in a kind of co-working network group . We
42:50
all work in a mode , but once a year we get together and
42:52
hang out , be social for a couple of days . I
42:54
love it . I know it's
42:57
our non-work work trip . We
43:00
don't talk shop . So last week we
43:03
went to Ireland and
43:06
it's like it's
43:09
bliss . I can eat
43:11
all of my food in the
43:13
pace I want .
43:15
I can go to the bathroom when
43:18
I want , all by myself
43:20
for me it's
43:22
I can take my time and do my makeup
43:24
without any interruption
43:26
oh , that's nice too .
43:28
Yeah , yeah , I
43:30
have my . I could do my nails , or I can do
43:32
my hair or whatever . It is
43:34
that makes you happy uninterruptedly
43:37
.
43:38
Uninterrupted . I had my first brand
43:41
trip since I had a baby this past
43:43
literally this past weekend and
43:45
it was amazing . It
43:48
was amazing Like , yes , the sleep was great , but
43:50
in confession I still had his little monitor on . You know , I still have the app was great
43:52
, but in confession , I still had his little monitor on . You know , I still have the app
43:54
on my phone , so I still had it on miles
43:57
away , but I , at least
43:59
, um , was able to
44:01
, like , take my time and get ready . I'm
44:04
the primary parent because of whether
44:06
my husband has to go to work so literally every
44:08
morning , I don't look like this . I look
44:10
insane in the morning because I'm trying to get him
44:12
ready so I can get him to stay here
44:14
. I look crazy , and
44:17
so it was nice to be able to
44:19
have the weekend to like , oh , I'm
44:21
gonna do my makeup every
44:23
day
44:26
and yeah , and
44:28
yet you already mentioned it .
44:30
We're living in this weird parallel
44:35
thing where we're like , oh
44:37
, freedom , independence , but
44:40
I miss this teeny tiny , warm , ugly
44:42
face . Yes , right , is that
44:44
you really have
44:46
to break the the black
44:49
and white thing ?
44:50
it it's all of this
44:52
at the same time and it's , it
44:54
is so much every day , it's every day
44:56
it is I feel like every day I I take
44:59
him to school and I'm like , oh , I'm so glad he's in school and
45:01
usually by the end of the day I'm like I
45:04
can't wait to see my little bud do
45:09
you ?
45:10
do you have any ? Like I'd
45:13
say they're . They're
45:15
not weird per
45:18
se , but no fear is
45:20
weird . All fears are legit , but
45:23
I've I sometimes
45:25
some weird fears creep up
45:27
on me , like , oh , I
45:30
don't know . Like , for example
45:33
, where he
45:35
was little , he was like tucked away
45:38
safely in his stroller and
45:41
there was , we were walking over a bridge
45:43
and I'm like what
45:46
if a gush of
45:48
wind comes now and
45:50
throws the stroller over
45:53
the bridge ? What
45:55
a stir . What am
45:57
I going to do ? And
46:00
then I'm like what ? This
46:03
is like mom brain on steroids , like
46:06
this is not going to happen . I
46:08
definitely had that .
46:11
There's a oh my God
46:13
there . There's a terminal , there's a term
46:15
for it , my I
46:18
can't think of what the word is , but
46:21
I definitely catastrophizing
46:24
. I definitely catastrophize
46:26
, um , and it's even worse
46:29
because I'm a alone and
46:31
I've never thought about my own death so much
46:33
, which is probably very morbid and weird
46:36
, but I've really , I thought about it a lot because
46:38
it can also help to make you
46:40
prepared .
46:43
It is very .
46:44
I mean , we're practically here , okay
46:47
, listen , I'm like I gotta make sure
46:49
he he has everything he
46:51
needs in case something happens to
46:53
me . And so like , yes
46:55
, you always say thank you when someone gives something to you
46:58
, and when a woman is walking
47:00
by , you need to open the door for her . You
47:02
need to be kind to people . If
47:04
you offend someone , it's okay to say sorry
47:06
, even if you don't understand . Right
47:08
Like it's all of these like important
47:11
life lessons again .
47:13
What can I squeeze out of my brain ?
47:15
that I'm like you need
47:17
right now , every day . Um , so
47:19
I feel like that's probably probably
47:22
the weirdest , the weirdest thing that I
47:24
have thought about it . I try not to think about it much
47:27
. Um , we recently lost
47:29
a classmate and
47:31
she has a study to her own
47:33
and oh
47:35
thanks it was . It was sudden
47:38
and it was really , and so last week
47:40
I thought about it a lot because
47:42
I was just like that and it was a car accident
47:45
like it's something that could happen to
47:47
anyone . It wasn't anything crazy , it was
47:49
a car accident . So it's just like you
47:52
know . It just makes you think about how
47:54
much you've done , how much you you poured
47:56
into this little person , but then also I
47:59
don't want to leave them . It's
48:01
a big part of it . I'll just I don't want to leave them
48:03
and never
48:06
loved a little person so much I
48:10
know they're so little and then
48:12
our love for them is so big . They
48:17
really is .
48:22
I am . Oh , okay
48:26
, we're going to end with one , with one interesting
48:28
one , because I have some
48:30
stories and I'm sure you have some too . Have
48:33
you ever experienced mom shaming
48:35
? Have
48:39
you ever been shamed for the way you parent
48:41
your kid , or apparently parent
48:43
your kid by some random stranger you've
48:46
met , or something ?
48:49
I haven't by a stranger and I would advise
48:51
no one ever do that
48:53
Very solid advice . Yes
48:55
, look , I don't have the capacity and
48:57
I will probably say yes .
49:00
Yeah , I have . My tolerance
49:02
for bullshit is very low these days .
49:05
Very , very low . I feel like I
49:07
have felt the mom shamed by
49:09
relative at
49:11
times because I am
49:13
choosing to parent differently and
49:17
the choices that I make
49:19
may not necessarily be what
49:21
was done when I was a child .
49:24
So I have felt mom shame well , I mean
49:26
, house prices are not the same , egg prices are
49:28
not the same since then , so why should we parent the same
49:30
just ?
49:32
exactly , and that's literally always my
49:34
point , like everything is literally
49:36
different . It's yeah , 20 times
49:38
the car .
49:39
I know so much more about childhood development
49:41
and trauma and brain development and like
49:43
wait , wait , wait . Should we keep on doing shit that didn't
49:46
clearly didn't work , because we are all in
49:48
therapy ?
49:50
when I say me and my friends talk about that all the time
49:52
Like clearly it didn't
49:54
work because all of the millennials are in therapy , so stop
49:56
judging us for the way we're choosing
49:58
to parent .
50:00
Oh no . Then comes the killer argument . Well
50:04
, we suffered through , we lived through
50:06
, this through , and it didn't hurt us . We're still
50:09
here kicking .
50:11
And it's like , if that's what you base your parenting
50:13
off of , then if that's your baseline
50:16
.
50:16
Awkward , you're barely
50:18
surviving is like your baseline , sure
50:21
?
50:22
listen . It's
50:25
been , and so
50:27
I had to work through my feelings on
50:29
that a lot and
50:32
I'm saying my most recent therapist was amazing . I one
50:35
thing I will do that . One thing I've learned
50:38
was like learning how to just be
50:40
okay with my feelings . And if you
50:42
are bold and bad enough to question something
50:45
I'm doing with my child or with my husband
50:47
, then be bold and bad enough to receive
50:49
my response , because
50:51
I'm going to respond . I'm not holding it in
50:53
. I'm not having most women , like
50:55
so many women , die of heart attacks . I'm not dying
50:57
of a heart attack . I'm not holding in stress because
51:00
I'm upset because you offended me or
51:02
you hurt my feelings or you
51:04
know . If you're bad enough to comment
51:06
on what I'm doing , be bad enough to hear
51:08
back my response . That's
51:10
really bad , bad .
51:11
That reminds me of one
51:14
of my pregnancy stories . Yeah
51:18
, it was , I
51:20
don't know two or three weeks before I gave
51:22
birth and it was like
51:25
super hot . It was like end
51:28
of June . It was super hot and sweaty
51:30
, it was gross . And I was on the bus
51:32
we do buses here in Europe and
51:35
I was on a bus and then there was this elderly
51:38
lady , I don't know , early
51:40
70s or something like that , and
51:42
she came up to me and was
51:44
like I know , I know , you're only like oh
51:47
God , girl , don't tell me more . Anyway
51:49
, she came up to me and she's
51:51
like oh , pregnancy is such a miracle
51:53
. And then , while
51:56
she said that , she put
51:58
her hands on my
52:00
belly and
52:04
I , fucking , I lost
52:06
it . I'm like , excuse me , I'm
52:09
not fucking public property , and
52:12
I touched her boobs . I
52:16
was like is this feeling comfortable
52:18
, me touching your boobs
52:20
? Yeah , this feels
52:22
great . Or like I don't know , is this the kind
52:24
of media you like ? I snapped . I
52:27
snapped in the entire bus . I went like ballistic
52:29
no , that's so good
52:31
. I couldn't Like . I was just like it was
52:34
hot , I wanted to go home , I was
52:36
thirsty , I was hungry , I was so
52:38
not regulated . And then
52:40
the audacity .
52:46
That would have made my day .
52:48
Did not sign up for this .
52:50
That would have made my day . I don't understand
52:54
the world's obsession
52:56
with commenting on pregnant women's bodies
52:58
. I really don't understand .
52:59
I mean women's bodies in general Women's bodies
53:01
Before , after , during .
53:05
Because even when people are like , oh my God , you lost
53:07
so much weight and blah , blah , blah , I'm like , okay
53:10
, I was diabetic
53:12
, I didn't have a choice . So it's not like
53:15
I'm just this mom that's like oh my God , yeah
53:17
, I'm super , like I'm trying to modding
53:19
up on insulin . So this
53:22
is not normal though . So don't think that
53:24
this is it's okay , and I tell
53:26
people that all the time , like what
53:28
? Regardless of what happens at the baby , worry
53:33
about your mental health first . You can get to the physical body right , like it's the constant
53:35
commenting and comparing women like oh , she
53:37
bounced back , she's so skinny
53:40
oh , she's getting a lot of weight and I'm just like why
53:43
? and the touching ? You handled
53:45
that perfectly because , like
53:49
, I don't like to be touched when I'm not pregnant , so
53:51
I can't imagine what I would have done if somebody had done
53:53
that really .
53:54
And then somehow you become public property
53:57
and all the people tell you
53:59
their pregnancy stories , whether
54:01
you want to hear them or not , and you're like
54:03
, and
54:05
you hear stories of , like , how they lost their
54:07
babies and like , like I'm super , super
54:09
sad this happened to you , but
54:12
this is no . I
54:14
do not want to hear about your miscarriage
54:16
, like a week before I'm scheduled to give birth
54:18
. Thank you very much .
54:21
Yeah , I'm not a and
54:25
I'm wondering and I don't know why
54:27
people do that either . I'm very
54:30
much like oh you're pregnant . Congratulations . That's
54:32
it . That's all I have to say .
54:33
Yeah , if they want to share more , I'm
54:35
happy to listen . They want to ask questions
54:37
? All right , yeah , no unsolicited
54:39
advice , no unsolicited stories .
54:42
I'm not giving unsolicited advice or unsolicited
54:44
stories because you may not want to hear it . Your
54:47
experience might not be mine . Like
54:49
a lot of people , people I never
54:51
share my birth story because so many people
54:53
have horror stories and my birth story
54:55
was great , so like I
54:57
keep it to myself because it's just
55:00
like I don't . I didn't like that when I was pregnant
55:02
, like people imposing their experiences
55:06
on me , and so I am
55:08
. I try to be very thoughtful , even
55:11
with I'm like other moms
55:13
with their newborns , with their whatever I'm
55:15
like . If you have questions , you
55:17
can come ask me . Otherwise I'm
55:19
going to stay over here because I don't . Every
55:22
child is different and what works for
55:25
one won't work for another . Right Like
55:27
, so it's just like I
55:30
wish the world would learn to mind their business , but
55:34
I don't think social
55:36
media is really helping them ?
55:40
Yeah , probably not . And
55:43
I mean God . Yeah , oh
55:46
God , the amount of unsolicited
55:48
advice I got when , one time
55:50
, I shared a picture of
55:52
baby wearing .
55:55
Thank you .
56:00
Thank you all , random strangers of the internet
56:02
, for the concern of the posture of
56:04
my newborn , I
56:06
guess .
56:09
I don't share any pictures of my son Now
56:11
that he's older .
56:12
So now that he's older or something , now
56:15
that he's older , occasionally I'll
56:17
have , like you'll see , the back of his head exactly
56:19
the back of the head , or a hand or a feet or
56:21
a foot or something like that , or
56:24
like him , but like his face has like
56:26
a smiley sticker on it or something like that . But
56:29
children are not your content yep
56:31
, they have their right to their own picture
56:34
or something like that . But children are not your content , yep . They
56:37
have their right to their own
56:40
picture and if they cannot consent you ?
56:41
Exactly , that's exactly why I didn't . I
56:43
was like you know what ? He is his own person , he's
56:46
his own autonomy , and that was something that I
56:48
learned , I
56:50
had to learn and repair myself on . Because
56:53
it's up to him
56:55
if he wants to participate in
56:57
social media , it is up to him if he wants
56:59
to and even my husband
57:01
laughs and jokes about it . But , like , I give him
57:03
choices for a lot of things . Um
57:06
, partially because I want him to be in very
57:08
independent , but also because
57:11
I want him to know that it's
57:13
okay for him to be who he is . He
57:15
does not have to be who mommy wants him to be , daddy
57:18
wants him to be . You be who you are
57:20
. If you like it , you like it , if you don't , you
57:22
don't . So that's our
57:24
. That is how I parent
57:26
, very like , everybody has their own
57:28
autonomy and so , yeah
57:31
, yes , like 100 like
57:33
we , we also
57:35
do the doctor's visits .
57:37
Like we explain it , look like you gotta like
57:40
you get the vaccines now , um
57:42
, and he was always a good sport , um
57:45
, but we always talk
57:47
to the doctor and just kind of like , well , and
57:49
we have a very good pediatrician . She
57:52
always asks like , look , I'm gonna do this
57:54
now . Is this okay ? Um
57:56
, and if not , we would have gone
57:58
back another time because , yeah
58:01
, like I mean there
58:04
, he knows that there's certain things where
58:06
we have to kind of like overrule him , like
58:08
when it comes to health decisions , because he cannot make them himself
58:11
. But he chooses
58:13
what he wears , he chooses the length
58:15
of his hair , and he knows
58:17
, now that he has blonde
58:19
long locks , that he gets mistaken
58:21
for a girl all the time , which is something he has
58:24
to live with . But then he's
58:26
like I'm not a girl , I'm a boy . Fair
58:28
enough . That
58:34
reminds me of one of the mob shockers
58:36
, or like it probably was a grandma
58:38
, I don't know , don't want to judge , and anyway
58:41
, we were in the playground . He
58:43
was like maybe two and a half at a time , or
58:45
yeah , two and a half , and
58:50
it is this blonde lock , like angel lock , like super curly
58:52
, like little pigtigtail , and then she's like , oh , oh , this lovely
58:54
young girl . And then
58:56
, with the blonde locks , um , I think
58:59
I
59:04
did another one of my snap moments . I
59:06
was like , well , his
59:08
name is finn and he is a boy
59:10
, until he tells
59:13
us otherwise . She's
59:15
like widely
59:18
removing herself from the scene and I'm like
59:20
bye-bye , good
59:22
riddance .
59:25
Those are my little pockets of joy where
59:27
I'm like , yeah
59:30
, it
59:32
can be hard to tell at times what
59:34
is all of it . Could I be an ass ?
59:38
Just ask if you're not sure . I mean , if
59:40
you're not sure of someone , before you assume
59:42
somebody's gender or
59:45
sexuality
59:47
, religion , just ask , like , what's the big
59:49
deal ? Ask , what are your preferred
59:52
pronouns ? I
59:55
don't know , but anyway , that's it . I
59:59
just thought of one last question . No
1:00:01
, actually the second last , it was the same Second
1:00:03
last . What's the most
1:00:06
useful shit you
1:00:08
bought for your baby ? Oh
1:00:11
, that's a good question
1:00:13
. I mean , we're not giving unsolicited
1:00:16
advice . You're still here , so this is solicited . What's
1:00:20
the dumbest shit ? You bought the most useless
1:00:22
shit , most
1:00:24
useless . I don't care about useful
1:00:26
, I care about the most useless . Oh , useless
1:00:29
, yes , useless . Oh , I mean , you can also share
1:00:31
me the most useful . But
1:00:33
the useless is always more
1:00:35
interesting because you buy some crap that you
1:00:37
think you're going to need because I
1:00:40
don't know . You scrolled TikTok
1:00:42
at 3 o'clock in the morning and then you bought something
1:00:44
on Amazon and you're like nah , I
1:00:48
would not say this happened to me .
1:00:51
We did not have to buy a lot
1:00:53
of stuff , but some things that
1:00:55
we did not use was probably
1:01:00
we
1:01:03
ended up with a whole bunch of bad stuff
1:01:05
, a lot
1:01:08
of like random
1:01:10
stuff that I recently packed
1:01:12
it all up completely and opened and sent
1:01:15
it off to the grills . We
1:01:18
had a lot . We had two Baptists . We had a lot
1:01:20
of extra stuff , though . I
1:01:25
the baby washcloths . I hate them
1:01:27
. We use them on this face now , but
1:01:31
they're like small and
1:01:33
they don't sun now , but they're
1:01:36
like small and they don't sud and they're weird . My mom made
1:01:38
a ton of washcloths for him and
1:01:40
we love those because they're normal size
1:01:43
and they suds
1:01:45
really well . Um , so I really like
1:01:47
the one she gave us . We did not not use
1:01:50
and we had a lot . I probably
1:01:52
had at least 50 wash balls , baby wash
1:01:54
balls Wow , and I'm like what
1:01:57
Are people actually using these ?
1:01:59
We didn't use them . I know
1:02:01
we had them too and I'm like , yeah
1:02:03
, we even , I don't know as a babe over your shoulder
1:02:05
if they break our hand .
1:02:06
Yeah , like I didn't , we didn't use them like
1:02:08
that . Probably the most useful
1:02:11
thing which my
1:02:13
family it grows my family out , but
1:02:15
it was very helpful . Someone
1:02:17
that knows everything , oh
1:02:19
yeah , and so good .
1:02:21
I love that thing . I love helping my baby
1:02:23
. It was , it's so weirdly , a fantastic . It's
1:02:25
so gross .
1:02:27
I know right , and my husband was like I'm not doing
1:02:29
that .
1:02:30
I'm like wait , no
1:02:33
, we were actually kind of fighting about it because we're also both
1:02:35
like oh , there's a pinball , Can we like push
1:02:37
it . So we're both like
1:02:40
but it was your turn
1:02:42
last time , it was
1:02:44
my night .
1:02:47
I was very excited to do it . Every time
1:02:49
I'm like , oh , I get to clear your nose out , I'm
1:02:51
happy to help .
1:02:53
I mean , how much stuff does fit in those tiny
1:02:55
noses ? It's amazing .
1:03:00
I'm like where is this coming from ?
1:03:01
You're not that big , no Like
1:03:04
is your whole belly filled with snot . I
1:03:07
have no idea . It's still one of the big mysteries
1:03:09
of life , like I have no idea . It's one of the big mysteries of life Like
1:03:12
I have no idea .
1:03:14
It really is .
1:03:17
Oh , my god , I could talk to you about
1:03:19
Motherhood Unplugged for a
1:03:22
long , long time , shayla . I
1:03:24
could too . Before
1:03:29
I let you go , let
1:03:31
us know where can people find you . If people
1:03:34
be like oh , I want to see
1:03:36
the all the other sides of shayla , not
1:03:38
just the mom side , where can people find you ?
1:03:41
uh well , I am on social media
1:03:43
at shayla bernardo or at
1:03:45
black girls wine , if you're a wine lover
1:03:47
, and whoever can follow my journey .
1:03:51
Perfect . I'm
1:03:56
such a wine snob Like
1:03:58
I just drink . I have
1:04:00
friends who are very good with wine , so I'm
1:04:02
always trusting their opinion and
1:04:05
if it's a Portuguese wine I'm like yeah
1:04:07
, sure , whatever , that's fine . And
1:04:11
one last question before I let you off the hook . It's
1:04:13
a question I always ask what
1:04:18
book are you currently reading , or what
1:04:20
?
1:04:20
audiobook . Are you currently listening to Potty
1:04:24
Training ?
1:04:25
Oh , or what episode are you currently
1:04:28
on ?
1:04:29
A little bit . I'm like I am currently reading
1:04:31
Proven Five
1:04:33
Steps Potty Training in One Weekend
1:04:36
.
1:04:37
That's a little messy . I mean , that's
1:04:39
very important .
1:04:42
I am trying to master potty training but other
1:04:44
than that , scale
1:04:46
or fail , oh
1:04:48
, scale or fail , oh okay
1:04:50
. I am taking the digital
1:04:53
marketing agency to the next level , working
1:04:55
with new clients
1:04:58
, exciting clients , and want to scale the
1:05:00
business . So PLR fail that
1:05:02
sounds good .
1:05:03
We're going to list those on
1:05:06
the show notes and in a scenic
1:05:08
library . So if you're ever
1:05:10
short on reading what to read next
1:05:12
or you have to polytrain a toddler , you
1:05:15
know where you find a literature to do it . Sheila
1:05:19
, it has been a blast
1:05:21
. Thank you so much for joining me on a scenic
1:05:23
route .
1:05:25
Yes , thank you for having me , Jennifer . This was a
1:05:27
lot of fun .
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