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strange thing. And it
10:02
was immediately apparent in hindsight,
10:05
is immediately apparent like, he
10:07
never should have let me come out there. He had no
10:09
place for me to be, had no money, had no job.
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He was in debt to people
10:13
who were foolish enough to loan him
10:16
money. Eventually, we left there, went into
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this Geronimo court thing. And
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he had no job. And he was...
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And we
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left, we had been there for a
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couple months, and he got this drive
10:32
away car. And it was very much
10:34
like, he didn't say
10:36
this exact thing, but I understood what
10:38
was happening, which was we were leaving
10:41
while they were away. And we
10:43
were very quickly packing up the car
10:46
with whatever we had. And
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it was a station wagon. I remember
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it was a station wagon with a
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corrugated metal back that he had put
10:54
some cardboard down. And
10:58
just whatever, my suitcase, and
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I had a guitar at that point that I had,
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and some other stuff that I had
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gotten from my Bar Mitzvah. And
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then we loaded it up, we made sure
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to get out there and not
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let anybody see what we were doing. Because he
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was clearly owed a lot
11:17
of rent. I think he was fucking this
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really kind of sad.
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It was very much like the,
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what's her name? Jennifer Coolidge
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character in White Lotus. Very
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much like that, but more alcoholic
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and more like ruddy
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faced and the effects
11:37
of drinking nonstop. Broken
11:40
blood vessels. Yep. And
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just bad skin. And she
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was overweight,
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wore moo moo's. I have
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a character name that
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I put in a lot of things
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that I do in the TV
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shows and movie. And it's called, her
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name is Ms. Santiso and it's
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based on her. And they just have the
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name Ms. Santiso and it's basically her. And
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was her... So her husband was
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the landlord? Yes. Who
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he owed money to? Yes. And he
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was... They were having sex? I'm pretty sure.
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And then in the middle of the night, like...
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No, it wasn't in the middle of the night.
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It was... I remember it was daytime because... But
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yes, we... The whole thing was like,
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do it, be quiet, don't... They're gone. Let's get
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out of here. And then we... So
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he'd gotten the car, we loaded it up. We
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didn't... There were no possessions really, except stuff that
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I brought out there. We... On
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the way out of town
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in Phoenix, we stopped by
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a pawn shop and he took my
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guitar. No. Come on now. Yes. He
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took my guitar. He took... I
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had gotten also a Jade
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Star of David for
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my bar mitzvah. Looked that
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and hocked it for
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gas money. Did
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he tell you that he was doing that? Yeah.
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And it was part of... And I was... I
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still had dad worship. I mean, it hadn't
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worn off yet. I still had like, my,
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this is gonna be fun and awesome. And
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then the
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reason I brought this
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whole thing up is on the drive back
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to Georgia, he... I would... He
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was from England and
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so he had an English accent, but it
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wasn't really strong. It was like,
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you knew that he was English, but it
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wasn't like thick Cockney
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and he was from Leeds. So it
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was that northern kind of sing song
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cadence, but he really...
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It wasn't... He moved to the States when he
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was like 15. So it was... It was
13:49
there for sure, but I would watch him
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when we'd go to a diner or something
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and I would watch him flirt
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with the waitresses and
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the English accent always went up. And
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they preserved the cold milk source that you
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could go to that didn't have the warmth.
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So this mother monkey would attack
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these baby monkeys with these blunt spikes. The
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baby monkeys would retreat for the duration of
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the abuse and then endlessly try to repair
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the relationship with it. They would hug it
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and they would pull out their hair and
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they would try anything they could to repair
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this relationship with this primary attachment, not
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knowing that it was just these fucking
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psychopath scientists with their like random algorithm.
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How are they supposed to know they're
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stupid monkeys? I'm empathizing
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with the monkeys. I think they're, but the
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thought that like, well, if I just get
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it right, then this will stop when it's
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like, no, it's doctor, whoever is the one.
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And then they would never go to the
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milk source, the safe milk source that they
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didn't have the attachment to. And when you're
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talking about dad worship and that kind of
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thing of like endlessly coming back, it's Lucy
34:51
and the football again and again and again,
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but you just have to repair it. It's
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so important. Until you realize. I
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was the first kid to go. Cut bait. Yeah,
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fuck this guy. Good for you. And then,
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and my sister, I have two sisters. The
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youngest one never really had any relationship with
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her. I mean, he, she, he
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was gone when she was five and I
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mean, he never reached out. He never called.
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He never, you
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know, he never, he
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was a deadbeat dad too. Never
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a, what's it called when
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you give money to provide. Yeah. Mandated.
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Oh, oh, oh, child support, child support. Yeah. Never,
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never any alimony. Never sending money. And,
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and another story that I'm not going to get into, but
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I, when I was at Phoenix with him
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and he had no job and he had
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to do something with me, I couldn't just
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leave me wherever we were at the time.
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I, so I went into the
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city and I went into like city hall
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or wherever it was to a court thing
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where he went in
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front of the judge and there's a
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lot. straight
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with her. I can be, I don't really
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lie about
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anything. I'm pretty, you know, and I treat her as an
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adult and she
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should be coming up from work now. She's
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working? Yeah, in a coal mine. Oh, like
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a plant? Oh, a mine. Yeah, mine. I
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know, those are pretty antiquated. They don't even,
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you probably have to look, really? Yeah,
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there's big seams in West Virginia. You
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have her working in West Virginia. When you say come home,
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you mean she's like, like across the country?
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Well, no, I don't live in LA. I live
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in New York. So there's no time difference. So
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it's, you know. Is
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it like a factory whistle and then she has to go, how
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old is she? Seven. She's
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seven. Yeah. What's
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the black lung situation? I think they
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go out on tour. No,
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no, no, I'm not talking about the band Black Lung. I'm talking
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about with your daughters inhaling a lot of coke
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and smoke and, you know. You
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love the band Black Lung and your daughter works in a
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coal mine? I know, isn't that cool how
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that worked out? I don't like it at all.
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I think it's kind of neat. I don't think
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it's cool. I hate it. Just to be clear,
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she's not, she
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doesn't have a pickaxe. She's actually, she's
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literally like the canary in the coal
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mine. She's in a
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cage. They dangle her. They cage your daughter
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to see if there's enough oxygen for the
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miners. Yeah, if there's any not just
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gases and all that stuff. And then, I mean,
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it's not like a cage cage. It's, you
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know. What's it look like? Just describe
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the structure of it so I can, because when
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you say it's not a cage cage, it's hard
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for me to understand what a cage, what a
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nine cage cage would be. Okay, it's cage shaped.
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It's all I needed to know. When you
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see it, you're going to go, oh, that's a cage. Yeah, that's a
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cage. It's got like
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a micro fleece. It's
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plush on the bottom? Yeah, they got some micro
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fleece in there. There's a couple books, Bluey Books.
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Bluey Books? Yeah, she loves Bluey. Did she have to
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buy them with her own money that she made from
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the coal mine? From the company store, yes.
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When you know the thing you should
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say and you say something else, the
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thing you should say echoes in your head for
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the rest of your life. I feel like it's
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so painful. Well, give me an example. There
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was, I'll keep it a little bit vague. When
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I was in elementary school, I
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went to see Dumbo, Operation
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Dumbo Drop at the Dollar Theater
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where they showed like third run movies
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and this floor was like
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fly paper. It was so sticky
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with Sprite in Bucks County, Pennsylvania.
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And I was the guest, the invited guest of
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the little brother of the birthday girl. The birthday
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girl was older and she was going with her
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friends, but he was allowed to bring one friend
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and I went with them. And
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then afterwards, we were at this ice cream parlor. I
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just thought of one by the way. You did? What
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is it? No, no. Continue and
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I'll... So we're at this ice cream parlor and
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all these older teenage girls are, well, they're not
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teenagers, they're probably like 11 or 12 and I
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was maybe eight or
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nine or something. And I'd sprayed a
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little bit of green spray, like Halloween green
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hairspray in my hair because I thought that
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would endear me to these older kids because
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that's cool to have a little bit of
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green hair. And then they
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started talking about somebody, someone
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they knew that I was very close to. And
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they started saying really
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cruel stuff about this person and they
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went on and on and on, just
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kind of like ridiculing them. And then they
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looked to me knowing that I had... And
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then they went, you don't care, right? You
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don't mind we're talking... Like someone was like, you don't care.
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And I was like, no, no. And
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then I remember going home and going to
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my mom and being like, I
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didn't... I didn't do... I
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just let it... I co-signed it. I
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rubber stamped their hatred. I can't imagine I
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used the phrase rubber stamped their hatred, but
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whatever the sad little good version
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of that is. And to this day,
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even just telling it now, I
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feel the kind of clench of like, like,
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it's, you know, I don't know,
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what about you? There,
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I would have been
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in fourth grade, I believe, maybe
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fifth grade. And
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it was in Georgia. And
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there was a guy, you know, redneck, tough
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kid, redneck, tough kid,
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smoked, one of those guys, who
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was the boyfriend, quote unquote,
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of this girl that
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I somehow insulted
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by accident. I
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don't remember what the thing was or said,
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I liked her to somebody, whatever the thing
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was, when you're in fifth grade. Whatever thin
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pretext for fighting, yeah. So this,
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no, I'm serious, phony. I'm
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being serious here. So he was,
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just like that classic elementary school
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thing, he's
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gonna beat me up after school at the bus stop.
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And it's why I had all day
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to be like, oh my God, what am I gonna do? And
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this is
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so awful. And
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I know that I'm gonna get, you know, beat
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up. And there
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was an, you
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know, I was, there weren't a lot
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of kids that looked like me, you know, and it
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was very white, the Baptist,
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kind of, that
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kind of crew and not
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very diverse school, almost, you know,
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it was almost all white. And,
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you know, I had a Jew throw and broken
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glasses with tape on them and, you know, but
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it just didn't look like
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the other kids, so. Thank God your
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dad had hawked your, your, your,
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your. And so I was, so we got, Hmm.
1:06:01
You don't like the South then?
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I love the South. Well, that's
1:06:06
just the... I'm a huge... I
1:06:10
actually haven't spent that much time
1:06:12
in the South. And
1:06:16
I went to... I used
1:06:19
to do these touring improv shows
1:06:22
with the... Oh, with the cup and then you
1:06:24
pretend the cup is in a cabinet.
1:06:26
That's it. And then you pretend that you
1:06:28
have to put some pretend stuff in it. People would go ballistic
1:06:30
for it. They flipped out and
1:06:32
they loved it. You're a good pretender.
1:06:35
Thank you. We
1:06:39
did one show this was... Pretend
1:06:42
you have a suit on. Oh, thank
1:06:44
you. That
1:06:47
requires very little fanboy. Well, you're a
1:06:49
good pretender. Thank you. Pretend
1:06:52
you have a little less hair than you do
1:06:54
now. Just a little. Spot
1:06:58
on. Do
1:07:02
you think... I want to ask a question from before. If
1:07:06
your father had had fans like you had, people
1:07:09
coming up to him on the street being like,
1:07:11
hey, love your stuff and had
1:07:13
periodically been able to have the
1:07:15
novelty of going to strange cities and having
1:07:17
people cheer for him, do you think it
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would have topped him off enough self-esteem wise
1:07:22
that he then would have been able to
1:07:24
return to a kind of... Oh, it's just
1:07:26
such a strange hypothetical. It's just a completely
1:07:28
different... If you would come up
1:07:31
to him and been like, love your stuff. What
1:07:33
stuff did they love? Bathing suits. Look.
1:07:36
Yeah. Was
1:07:41
he funny? He was. He
1:07:45
was very... and completely
1:07:48
the opposite of my mom. My mom is
1:07:50
very book smart, not
1:07:52
very street savvy. My dad was
1:07:54
street savvy, not very book
1:07:57
smart, didn't read. My mom
1:07:59
read voracious. He
1:08:02
was very jovial, very goofy,
1:08:05
fun, life
1:08:07
of the party type guy. He got me
1:08:10
into Abbot & Costello
1:08:12
and different comedy
1:08:14
stuff. He was very social. Did
1:08:23
he know you were funny? Did
1:08:25
I know? No, did he know you were funny? Not
1:08:29
that I am aware. He knew
1:08:32
that I liked that stuff and I
1:08:34
had stand-up albums when I was a
1:08:36
kid. I
1:08:41
don't know how funny I
1:08:44
was until later, I don't
1:08:47
know. I don't know how funny it was when
1:08:49
I was 9 or 10. Really? Yeah.
1:08:54
When you were talking about him and then
1:08:56
Trump and the validation thing, I saw this
1:08:58
one thing. It was
1:09:01
like back when, I guess it was in the 2020
1:09:05
election and Trump
1:09:08
had just had COVID and wasn't vaccinated or
1:09:10
something and he wouldn't, Biden wouldn't demand
1:09:12
him because he was like, I don't want to get sick. I don't
1:09:15
remember all the details, but Trump had a
1:09:17
town hall. There
1:09:19
was the weirdest moment that happened where
1:09:22
this woman got up in the town hall and went,
1:09:25
Donald, Mr. President Trump, whatever.
1:09:29
I just wish you would smile more. She goes, you
1:09:32
look so handsome when you
1:09:34
smile. The weirdest
1:09:36
thing happened where he got this smile. I've
1:09:38
never seen it before since. He
1:09:41
looked kind of pleased and embarrassed and
1:09:43
he looked like a little kid all
1:09:45
of a sudden, like a kind of
1:09:47
happy, vulnerable little kid. It fucked me
1:09:50
up real good because I was like, I
1:09:53
just think of him as being kind of this
1:09:55
character or whatever, but seeing
1:09:57
a moment where it was like. Oh,
1:10:01
he's shy. He's having a moment
1:10:03
of shy delight. It was so
1:10:05
weird. Well, now we got a vote for
1:10:07
it. That's it. That's all it took? That's all it took? The
1:10:10
humanity. But did you ever see it? Would you
1:10:13
see stuff like that? You might not
1:10:15
want to talk about your pops anymore, but last question. Did
1:10:17
you ever see moments where it was something penetrated
1:10:19
his kind of razzamatazz, his
1:10:22
manipulation of people? Did
1:10:24
you ever see a moment where he was like
1:10:26
the little boy version? No, I don't think so.
1:10:29
I don't think so. Got it. Okay. I'll stop
1:10:31
asking about this, but I was just curious about that last thing. Yeah.
1:10:34
Okay. Sorry. No, it's all right. Okay.
1:10:37
No, Zach, I... What? What do you
1:10:39
want? I
1:10:42
end every show with
1:10:44
a question to
1:10:47
my guest from my daughter, my
1:10:49
seven-year-old daughter. From
1:10:52
her cage. From her own
1:10:55
cage. And so... Yeah,
1:10:58
I will say this. The other day, she
1:11:01
tried to convince me that pumpkin pie is
1:11:03
good for your voice. I
1:11:06
can say intuitively that makes sense. It's like it
1:11:08
coats the... It's like throw a coat. Pumpkin
1:11:11
pie? Yeah, Louis
1:11:13
Armstrong went before he had pumpkin pie
1:11:16
sounded just like a boring, you know, just
1:11:18
like, ugh, like a lounge singer, but then
1:11:20
he'd get that bump. So,
1:11:24
maybe that's what you meant. Yeah, that's the... Yeah, she had... I
1:11:26
guess, yeah, the context is everything. Louis Prima,
1:11:28
all those guys, the big pumpkin heads. Okay.
1:11:36
Do I have snot coming out of my nose? Nope.
1:11:39
Good. So, here's a
1:11:41
question from my daughter. Okay. Yeah, it's a question. No,
1:11:43
no, no. Just a bit about the snot, because I
1:11:45
feel like there's snot coming out of my nose. Is
1:11:48
there a little bit? No, I don't see any.
1:11:51
Don't look at me. No? No.
1:11:54
Okay, CGI. Okay,
1:11:57
Zach, how does
1:11:59
Santa come to... some kids' houses if
1:12:01
they don't have chimneys. I'm
1:12:05
glad she asked that. He
1:12:08
has to come through whatever ventilation system
1:12:10
that they have, but it's incredibly painful
1:12:12
for him because he either has to
1:12:14
kind of wedge himself in through the
1:12:17
vent or departiculate in this way that's...
1:12:20
Departiculate, goodness. Yeah, like he can
1:12:22
become broken up into little portions, but
1:12:25
he screams. It's
1:12:27
so painful. It's
1:12:30
so awful and he'll wedge himself through and
1:12:32
he's screaming and screaming and he's crying, but
1:12:35
he's committed. He has to get those gifts in. And
1:12:38
one of the things that the real important
1:12:41
takeaway is there is it is very important
1:12:43
that your parents have wealth because if they
1:12:45
don't, you're torturing Santa. Like
1:12:48
they need it. If you're wealthy enough to have a
1:12:50
fireplace, then you're doing right by Chris. So
1:12:53
if he's going to the projects... God
1:12:56
help him. ...the Robert Taylor home. Sure. Lord,
1:13:00
that's excruciating. It's terrible. Sometimes I'll have
1:13:02
to go through window units, like people
1:13:04
who have a
1:13:06
season, he'll go through the window unit
1:13:08
and it just by the end, he's covered.
1:13:10
If you ever see the real Santa,
1:13:12
he's covered in scar tissue, just all
1:13:16
over. It's like... Wow. So
1:13:18
that's how he does it. Okay,
1:13:21
I'll let her know. It's a... Yeah,
1:13:23
this is if you want to know, if you have a house that
1:13:25
doesn't have a fireplace, look at your
1:13:27
events on December 25th and if
1:13:29
there's just trace amounts of blood
1:13:32
at flesh, you'll know, hey, you
1:13:34
were a good kid this year. He
1:13:37
hopes that you're a bad kid if you don't have a fireplace. Yeah,
1:13:39
I guess so. So
1:13:43
I would... Then
1:13:45
it stands to reason that he thinks,
1:13:48
hopes, wishes that wealthy
1:13:50
kids are good kids and
1:13:52
poor kids are shitty kids. Yeah, there's
1:13:54
a kind of unconscious bias that's been
1:13:56
sort of braided into his... Yeah.
1:14:00
But also, I don't
1:14:04
know, yeah, I don't know how much he's aware of
1:14:06
that as a bias, but he probably feels that way.
1:14:08
I know I do. Yeah. I
1:14:11
know I do. Yeah, well, it's been proven.
1:14:13
Show me a rich kid, I'll show you a good kid. All
1:14:17
right, Jack, thank you so much for
1:14:19
coming down. Thank
1:14:22
you for having me. It was a
1:14:24
treat. Sense is Working Over Time is
1:14:27
a Headgum podcast created and hosted by
1:14:29
me, David Cross. The show is edited
1:14:31
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to Demi Druchen for our show art
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and Mark Rivers for our theme song.
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For more podcasts by Headgum, visit headgum.com
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or wherever you listen to your favorite
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shows. Leave us a review on Apple
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Podcasts and maybe we'll read it on a future
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episode. I'm not going to do that. Thanks
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for listening. That was
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a Headgum podcast.
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