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to notice and will you see videos of men? You

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know all they need to grind. You gotta be the

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leader of the house year. Kill an alligator with your

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hands. I want to hear what women want from men.

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like a man was manly, who takes care of

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things that don't need you to kill an alligator

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with your hands. but I need to feel so

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feminine around Deal because you are so masculine that

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I can turn my brain off as I know

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you've got a by trust your intellect. I trust

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her character. I trust that I can close my

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eyes and follow you blindly and I'm going to

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be happy about where I end up. You tell

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me where we're going and were also and we

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live in a time of new age feminism and

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this whole idea that women and men me to

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be the same and. They need to compete

0:41

and it's all from the enemy. It's all

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my. I'm just. Trying

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to mislead just was the off and

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I sit down somebody the first. Your

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whole lot of and. Will.

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A lot of one are missing America. Let's

1:00

some guys welcome back to the George Janko

1:02

show! All I know you guys have been

1:04

really interested in the direction we've been taking

1:07

when it comes to spirituality and I found

1:09

a podcast that I'm a fan of. It's

1:11

called the Girls Gone By Bomb and With

1:13

or Angela and Aerial and I just I

1:16

didn't they that right because of younger she

1:18

likes it. Here earlier: hundred to

1:20

eight area are a hobby. Ari

1:22

Ari yeah I'd What's. The difference between

1:24

Oriole an area was at two different names or

1:27

when we realized. Why not? my name but

1:29

area as make sense. They

1:31

excel. Down

1:34

and restarted. Especially. I did that. Affect

1:37

you so much for coming. They

1:40

go. On last season we were talking

1:42

you and I went out. when are we

1:44

gonna contact through just social media I really

1:46

loved would you guys are doing in nowadays

1:49

on social media like we have other podcasts

1:51

that you know they bring a a type

1:53

of women. And. they they sit there

1:56

they tell them who they are what they're like and

1:58

i feel like is just full of lot of anger

2:00

and rage and a lot of disrespect

2:02

sometimes. And to

2:04

me, I think the point of all that

2:06

was for men to find a good woman.

2:08

Right. And to me to find a

2:11

good woman, I would want to go to a good

2:13

woman. Right. And I feel from the

2:15

display that you guys are putting out,

2:17

I don't know you personally, from what

2:20

your message is, you guys seem to

2:22

be very good girls in this industry.

2:24

That's kind of crazy. So I

2:26

want to take it back and first, like, get

2:28

to know how'd you guys meet? What

2:31

made you guys get into this podcast? And

2:33

were you guys chasing like the acting world

2:35

and then realize like, oh, this may not

2:37

be who I am. Like I really want

2:40

to get to know your guys's beginning of

2:42

this. Yeah. Yeah. Well,

2:45

this is our favorite story to tell. So Ari and

2:47

I basically were both were actors.

2:49

We've been in LA for like

2:51

eight years, eight, nine years. We

2:54

both kind of were in this space

2:56

of like, I've been a Christian

2:58

my whole life. I was, I grew up Catholic.

3:00

My mom loves Jesus. I grew up in a

3:02

house where I went to Sunday school. I did

3:04

all the things, but I didn't have like a

3:06

true relationship with Jesus. We didn't know the Bible.

3:08

We didn't study. I didn't know. I

3:11

could not tell you what was in any book of the

3:13

Bible, but I loved Jesus. I knew I had a

3:15

savior, but because I didn't know

3:17

him, I didn't know his word. He

3:19

didn't, I didn't give him the ability to change me

3:21

in any way. So I went about my life just

3:24

as everybody else in the world does. You know what I

3:26

mean? And so I kind of

3:29

found myself in a space when I got

3:31

into my twenties, I found myself in a

3:33

space of so much darkness and

3:35

you guys know what it's like living in

3:37

LA and you can get caught up really

3:39

quickly in partying, in going out in all

3:42

the stuff. I didn't even go out that

3:44

much. But I did like

3:46

to drink. That was like, that was my thing. I

3:48

really. At what level? Like,

3:51

were you that girl that like there she is? Never. Well,

3:54

here's the thing. I was

3:56

like, I got away with it for such a long time

3:58

because I was never. The lobby of

4:00

is never a nobody. Ever even knew

4:03

that I like to change so much

4:05

but of is an anxiety thing. So

4:07

I developed anxiety when I was in

4:10

my when I turned nineteen twenty a

4:12

started experiencing really bad panic attacks. Really

4:14

bad anxiety for the first time in

4:16

my life. When you're by yourself, are. Yeah

4:19

yeah, I came out when I was eighteen. Dollars or

4:21

the know the time for Yeah so to

4:23

me and this is from what I'm gathering

4:25

it seems to you didn't know who Jesus

4:27

was on a level of like how you

4:29

know your friend right? Yeah and then you

4:31

com are and you're hanging out with people

4:33

that are truly in the absence of crises.

4:35

So being in a group and and of

4:38

facilities maybe a community like the Bible, study

4:40

the church your you might not know Jesus

4:42

but your would uses people exactly their behaviors,

4:44

a substantial different view or you and gallon

4:46

So unless your store is more more like

4:48

everybody else upon a com says the city

4:50

and. Loses. Their values that are not that

4:52

I'm say that you. Are. Like gone with the

4:54

wind, but like or it's. Especially a

4:56

young lady like you're eighteen by yourself. As a

4:58

young woman from a yeah that's a very oh

5:00

where are you know I'd sell our that ago

5:03

York City. As as shit her raising.

5:05

Was. Like was you? These issues an adult and

5:07

are raising eighties on an adult like you're still

5:09

a kid. If you haven't done real life things,

5:11

you're not an adult. Yes, I'm sorry to cut

5:13

you off, I was just are. Not. Allowed cutting

5:15

you off, but yeah, year that. Exercise.

5:18

I diagnosis know that and it is. It's

5:20

so common. Said I used to have done

5:22

your license to go to church every Sunday

5:24

entire then your family but you actually don't

5:26

know anything about like you don't even know

5:28

the word and you don't know the first

5:30

thing about Jesus but you call yourself a

5:32

crusader minutes. So common in my I've been

5:34

there and I know. Thousands. Or

5:36

millions of people. That's their situation, you

5:38

know. Yellow true. Definitely. and his power

5:40

in his name to so just even as

5:42

a bare minimum of like knowing him right

5:45

like i'll give you an industry standpoint of

5:47

it rights are you know somebody who's very

5:49

very powerful in in your field small you

5:51

guys might just be on a first name

5:53

basis rights by being on their first name

5:55

basis is very different from not even knowing

5:58

each other at all so if you are

6:00

welcome into his facility with his people, at

6:02

some point you may have not known Jesus,

6:04

but Jesus does know who you are. And

6:06

there's a significant difference of Jesus knowing who

6:09

you are, versus not now she's not with

6:11

us. Because he knows your road, right? That

6:13

little separation between you guys wasn't him being

6:15

like, she's not from me, get out of

6:17

here. I said this in the last

6:19

episode, I go, and I'll make

6:22

it very quick, because I did just say this, how

6:24

I picture you is like how I picture me.

6:26

You came to a playground with your heavenly father.

6:28

You're playing with other kids, your father goes, hey,

6:30

hey, come back, come back. Don't act like them,

6:32

they're not from our family. If

6:34

you're gonna go play with them, go play with them, but

6:36

hold your values. And a lot of people come up to

6:38

me and they're like, well, I'm a Christian, so I don't

6:40

know if I should be in this industry. Well, I'm a

6:42

Christian, but I don't know if I should be here and

6:45

there and this and that. And my mom would always tell

6:47

me, she goes, don't ever give me that excuse. If

6:49

you're not strong enough to be in that room, your

6:51

excuse shouldn't be I'm leaving, your excuse should be I

6:53

need to get stronger. You don't

6:55

need to run away. If your God is stronger

6:57

than anything that you could imagine, you

7:00

shouldn't fear the room. You should know, okay, well, I'm

7:02

here, which means God let me be here. So

7:05

if he let me be here, then there's two

7:07

things. One, there's a lesson I need to learn,

7:09

or two, there's a person that I need

7:12

to save. Because remember,

7:14

this is a rescue mission. If you are reflecting

7:16

his light at any given moment, your

7:18

friend leaves, but doesn't know who God is, we

7:21

know how big of a big

7:23

deal that is. He can light up any

7:25

room. Absolutely. Yeah, so what were you saying

7:27

about, well, no, and I agree with you

7:29

completely. I totally disagree with the

7:32

idea that if you're a Christian, you shouldn't

7:34

be in the industry. If you're a Christian,

7:36

you should absolutely be in the industry. And

7:38

there is a revival happening in Hollywood right

7:40

now. God is truly, he's taking it back,

7:43

he's taking over. You guys should see, I

7:45

don't know if you know anything about acting,

7:47

but the stats right now with the faith-based

7:49

films that are being made is skyrocketing. First

7:51

of all, they're making so much

7:54

money, like insane. Angel Studios is

7:56

taking over, you have no idea.

7:58

Yeah, I have a job with them. That's awesome. Yeah,

8:00

no, they did the the last movie the

8:02

freedom. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Hey

8:05

guys Just a reminder that the merch

8:07

is out for a few more days So if you haven't got

8:09

a chance to go to the heart of David's apro go ahead

8:11

and click the link in my description Or you can shop on

8:13

YouTube. Thank you guys so much. And I hope you guys enjoy

8:15

the rest of the podcast Yeah, I mean so

8:18

when I basically long story long when I

8:20

came to LA I I started

8:22

experiencing spiritual warfare And that's why a lot

8:24

of our podcasts and our ministry is so

8:26

much Healing based because

8:28

God did Miraculous healing in our lives like

8:30

the way that he used to do in

8:32

the Bible back in the day when he

8:35

was on earth He still does that today

8:37

and he did that in our lives and

8:39

I was experiencing so much spiritual warfare not

8:41

knowing what it was falling victim

8:43

to the enemy and his schemes all the

8:45

time not knowing that the Reason

8:47

I was having such bad anxiety is because I

8:50

was living in so much Darkness

8:52

around me in me and so I basically

8:55

I got in

8:57

contact with a pastor in Florida who changed my

8:59

life He basically discipled me. He started praying for

9:02

me. I called him I would call him every

9:04

single day and be like I need you to

9:06

pray for me I need you to pay for me my

9:08

anxiety so bad. I'm drinking as Self

9:10

medication. That's what I was doing. I wasn't drinking

9:12

because I wanted to like go out and party

9:14

It was the only thing that made me feel

9:16

better. It's the only thing that took the edge

9:18

off that calm the thoughts I've said it before

9:20

but like you'll never find hope or peace at

9:22

the bottom of a bottle or at the bottom

9:24

of a blunt Or whatever you're smoking or doing

9:26

like and it's not even about The

9:29

substances as much as it is like we're

9:31

looking for Jesus in these things I was

9:33

looking for Jesus in alcohol or in anything

9:35

that would make me feel better that would

9:37

like numb the anxiety and calm it down

9:41

But you know I was in 2019 I

9:44

started praying for the first time over myself I

9:46

would like go into a little church by myself

9:49

all day long bawling my eyes out Looking

9:51

up being like Jesus. I'm asking you please

9:53

please take this away from me Please heal

9:56

me if you heal me I will serve

9:58

you for the rest of my life Life

10:00

As long as you get the side of me and

10:02

you make me the way that I used to be

10:04

when I was joy, full and happy and I didn't

10:06

have this. Addiction over it was

10:08

like an addiction it was. It was a O

10:10

C D with all these things are my your

10:13

dog is on my side. If it's you to

10:15

figure my life. To.

10:20

Mobile game. Releases

10:22

Day Thanksgiving Two thousand and nineteen. where

10:24

are you drink for the last time

10:26

And then I never drink again. And.

10:30

I didn't know a not moment but I was

10:32

delivered that God had met me, That the months

10:34

and months opinionated happen overnight. Like as

10:36

a prayer and are delivered me for

10:38

my issues with a month. Or paying

10:40

for myself hurting. Other people prefer me

10:43

that met me when the time was

10:45

right, when he was ready, and he

10:47

was ready supernaturally. We came together in agreement

10:49

you to pick the drink. And

10:52

then I picked up a bible one day and I read

10:54

it and my life was. Done.

10:57

To gone out whatever life I thought I

10:59

was go live with over the you know

11:01

her that ah now wow yeah so so

11:03

you buy your best. Friend after your first

11:05

and us to fix. Yeah, the I have nothing

11:07

about a you wouldn't give it to you when

11:10

you were broken because he wouldn't redirect. Oh

11:12

yeah I know, I mean I he couldn't

11:14

give me anything during that time there. How

11:16

did you guys meet if you think we

11:18

were friends for like our whole lives They've

11:20

only been friends for a year and he

11:23

any area or as a human hair. So

11:25

I grew up catholic abu always believed in

11:27

god but I didn't know ham and so

11:29

I was so I didn't grow up and

11:31

as and a family where I was taught

11:33

face or that we have this father that

11:35

loves us and as always there for us

11:38

and care for us. So I would say

11:40

I lived most of my life and. Fight

11:42

or flight with worrying died he just and

11:44

complete see and I couldn't even get from

11:46

my back to the shower. That's how broken

11:49

I was. My friends couldn't get through

11:51

to me, my family couldn't get through to

11:53

me and I just I'll never forget it.

11:55

I was driving, I was sleep deprived I

11:58

hadn't even like. ten days later. And

12:01

I'm there. was this little Catholic church

12:03

by my house and I pulled then

12:05

and I went in there and I

12:07

just. Fell to my knees and I

12:10

are just some fake. I looked up and I was

12:12

like who am I supposed to be? Where do you

12:14

want me to go? I don't know what to do.

12:17

And a non moment I had south this.

12:20

Overwhelming. Piece.

12:22

Does love that I truly have

12:24

never felt before that I can't

12:26

describe. And I'm. It wasn't a

12:29

day that I healed, but I knew and

12:31

not moment that what I was going through

12:33

was so necessary and I it. Is

12:36

a student if. He

12:40

knew he had a god. It was with

12:42

me through it and so I I

12:44

I became it is. She said I

12:47

said it was insane and they said

12:49

again a chair to serve trainers a

12:51

societal not search for hours and just

12:54

talk to God and. I

12:56

still kind of would just sit him because

12:58

I have my heart was sec my mind

13:00

was sick, I was so heartbroken and so

13:02

I just kept praying. Oh site please bring

13:05

me a godly friend Because of the time

13:07

I wasn't really connecting with anyone in the

13:09

church of like can you please for me

13:11

a friend that's like me that says you

13:13

know that centres and stuff that I can

13:15

connect with an awesome. Three. Months

13:18

later, I'm not a job and.

13:20

I. It was my birthday november ninth and

13:23

I was just. A I

13:25

was so very much heartbroken and I was

13:27

crying. And the corner

13:29

and I see all somebody can take my

13:31

hand and and it was her. And.

13:34

She looked at me and she was like i

13:36

don't know who you are by. Were.

13:38

Going to get through this together. and

13:42

i in and a double take her because

13:44

that's the saying that always make brings me

13:46

so much comfort is when somebody says i

13:48

don't know you gone to that will get

13:51

through it together and she said that to

13:53

me and i just looked at her and

13:55

i'm like i always say she's like my

13:57

angel exceeds my angel in human form and

13:59

after that we just became best friends. Arie

14:01

had kind of come to me saying like,

14:03

listen, do you want to tell it where

14:05

you were kind of like, I'm

14:08

still not feeling that great. Everyone thinks like I should

14:10

get on Medicaid. Do you think I should get just

14:12

on a little bit of like an anxiety medication? Should

14:14

I just try it out? And I looked at her

14:16

and I was like, give us one

14:18

month, read the Bible with me.

14:21

I'm telling you this thing is medicine. It's

14:23

living bread. It's like alive and it's active.

14:26

It will change you from the inside out

14:28

one month. Let's just give it one month.

14:31

Every day we read the Bible together. She,

14:33

my girl, I would walk in her house.

14:35

She would have notebooks full of like random

14:37

scriptures. She just learned like I, it was

14:39

the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. And

14:41

you know, the story about the woman with

14:43

the issue of blood in the Bible about

14:45

how she has to like move through this

14:47

big crowd to get to Jesus. And she

14:50

says, if only I can just touch

14:52

the hem of his garment, I will be made

14:54

well. That was literally our,

14:57

she knew that if she could get

15:00

this close to Jesus, just the hem of

15:02

his, if I could literally just touch his

15:04

clothing, I can be made well. She believed

15:06

and within a month, not perfect. Nobody can

15:09

become perfect overnight. She

15:11

made strides in

15:13

her mental health, in her healing, in her

15:15

relationship with Jesus. I say it about her

15:17

all the time because usually people can be

15:20

Christians their whole lives and never experience what

15:22

Aria experienced in a month. And then in

15:24

this past year of being saved, it's absolutely

15:27

incredible. I just

15:29

have a few questions about everything that you guys

15:31

kind of spoke. Yeah. I don't want to skim

15:33

too past it because what you guys went through

15:35

is what so many young women are going to

15:37

be going through. If not, they're going through right

15:39

now. We did

15:41

just talk about that Bible verse you were talking about the

15:43

woman who was bleeding. But

15:45

I have to ask you, do you know what saved

15:47

her? The

15:50

power of Jesus that went into her. It was her faith.

15:54

He felt the power leave him. That's

15:56

why he turns around and goes, who touched me? And

16:00

you say she saved me. And

16:02

I think this is a tricky walk

16:04

to be on because it

16:07

has to all be on Christ. Yeah,

16:09

yeah. I think that

16:12

Christ sent her. But

16:14

sometimes as Christians, we are so quick

16:17

to give the credit to a

16:19

human that it gets sloppy. I

16:21

would owe so much to humans that did things for me

16:24

that I would stick around because I thought I owed them a lot.

16:27

And then I'm watching them break me. And God's

16:29

like, hey man, you forgot who's actually in charge

16:31

here. So I just

16:33

wanted to cover that with you guys because that was years of experience I

16:35

had to learn. The

16:38

third thing I wanted to say is it's

16:41

funny that both of you guys were at a low place when

16:43

you met Christ, huh? Oh, always.

16:46

And it's ironic how usually

16:48

that's how it goes. Basically when you meet

16:50

people on the street and

16:52

I believe it has to do with surrendering

16:54

yourself. Mm-hmm. When you

16:56

fight somebody, there's even a,

16:59

I believe it was Jacob that wrestled with God. And

17:02

they use that term wrestles because like, if

17:04

you ever did mixed martial arts, there's

17:06

a point before you get knocked out

17:08

or you like really break something, you

17:10

tap. And that is giving him

17:13

all the rights to say, you've beaten me.

17:16

It's all you, bro. You've completely

17:19

annihilated anything that I try to do,

17:22

I submit to you. And the

17:24

person above you can either do two things, show

17:26

you no mercy and break you down or

17:30

show you mercy. And

17:32

I think this is what our King does to us.

17:34

He puts us in a place with the wrong

17:36

people. He puts us with bottles

17:38

right in front of us because

17:40

he's trying to show us just how he

17:42

did in the Old Testament. Go

17:44

ahead, try to do it on your own. See

17:47

how far you go because I know

17:49

both of you guys come from backgrounds where they

17:51

know who I am. Your bloodline knows who I

17:54

am. And me and you will rendezvous soon. But

17:56

go on, do your thing. And

17:58

when you are on the ground, the church

18:00

and you were sobbing, I believe that

18:02

was your baptism. I

18:04

don't believe it was the baptism that your mom and dad gave

18:06

me because I fight

18:09

this on my mom all the time and I might

18:11

get pushback on it. But

18:13

from what I've learned the baptism is, is

18:15

a proposal. And

18:17

I just proposed to my fiance here, this is a

18:20

beautiful girl that I've proposed to, and

18:22

I think it would mean a lot different to her if

18:25

my mom and dad brought me and they're like, hey, you're

18:27

going to, he's proposing to you. She

18:30

would be like, well, why isn't he proposing to you? Yeah. And

18:35

I think that's what you did, man. I think you were an

18:37

adult and you said, hey, I've been around

18:39

what you've created. I realized

18:41

that the people around me, my

18:44

situations, my outcomes, they

18:46

don't have peace in it. And

18:48

his piece is so far past

18:50

our understanding that it's, it's

18:53

really, it's impossible to measure. But I

18:55

could tell you something that every eye

18:57

and ear has seen. Every music is

18:59

said, every movie is told. No

19:01

money in the world could bring you peace and happiness. No

19:04

amount of power, no amount of

19:06

respect, no amount of nothing. I've

19:10

been around really incredible human beings

19:13

that are completely broken,

19:15

lost, scared. And

19:18

working with these types of emotions are kind

19:20

of fuel to disaster. Me

19:23

and Tony were talking, Tony

19:25

Robbins, that guy in the movie. I

19:28

look up to him a lot and we were discussing

19:30

emotions. And yesterday I actually wrote this down. I

19:32

was discussing this with Bell. Now bear with me

19:35

because I really haven't been able to put all

19:37

of my thoughts on a piece of paper. But

19:39

man, all of the times where I look back

19:41

in my life and I'm really

19:43

regretful are always based off of fear

19:46

or anger. Either

19:50

one leads me down a really bad path. Angry?

19:52

I'm a fuck this dude up if he says

19:54

one more thing. All right. Relax.

19:56

You know what I mean? There's so much other ways

19:59

you could go about. this

20:01

or you know what let me

20:03

see where this guy's coming from maybe there's

20:05

two different approaches you could take they're both

20:08

based off how you're feeling your emotions and

20:10

so I found this out

20:12

and I told God I go God like I

20:14

want to dive deeper into this how do I

20:16

become even a man that's stronger wise or faster

20:18

with his emotions and this year

20:20

started out unbelievable and we've planned out a

20:23

good amount of things all the things that

20:25

I've worked out in 10 years of my

20:27

life they're now paying off now so I'm

20:29

in a I'm in an abundance right now

20:31

from every aspect of my life so right

20:34

now I'm just joyful and in my mind

20:36

I'm like I've mastered my emotions and

20:39

then God came knocking

20:41

dude one day no

20:43

sleep two day no sleep travel

20:46

shoot three day finish shoot no

20:48

sleep have to edit the whole night jump

20:50

on a plane find a place to go

20:52

upload while you're on your way to another

20:54

shoot fifth day I finally

20:57

I'm like oh my god thank God I'm about

20:59

to go to sleep like I just need rest

21:01

Bell wakes up yaking have to take her to

21:03

the emergency room the whole night I'm in the

21:05

emergency room the next day I have to

21:07

deal with my work but here here's the here's the fun

21:09

part I'm losing my

21:11

mind bro and I'm getting

21:13

pissed and I'm saying things

21:16

that I don't mean and I'm telling people

21:18

to just respectfully get the hell out

21:20

of my face right now get this shit done

21:22

I'm not gonna ask you twice let's go why

21:24

am I waiting for you like I'm just on

21:26

this rampage dog and then I

21:29

go what happened to my

21:31

emotional like intelligence and then God

21:33

goes were you

21:35

emotionally there or were you satisfied with your

21:37

place and

21:40

I'm like well what's the difference

21:42

he goes well you could be spoiled your

21:44

surroundings in your income and your outcome and

21:46

everything that you got going that I said

21:48

on the table for you and you're acting

21:51

on what I have provided for you given

21:53

you so much that now you're wanting to

21:55

then be kind to everybody around you and

21:57

be peaceful and everything's going your way But

22:00

a good man isn't a good man when

22:02

he's only a good man on the times

22:04

that he's good. And

22:07

so I sat there and I go, okay, so

22:11

when now I'm in a state where

22:14

now I understand fasting, fasting is putting

22:16

you in a circumstance where it's really

22:18

going to reveal who you are, because

22:20

you're angry, you're frustrated, bro, like you're

22:22

like, okay, like, bro, like, here's

22:24

another thing I just want to circle back to. Why do

22:26

you think the devil took the perfect time to talk to

22:28

Jesus when he was fasting?

22:32

So my thing is, now

22:34

when I'm angry, or I'm caught off

22:36

guard, or I'm short tempered, I literally

22:38

have to take a deep breath and

22:41

truly like a psychopath, I

22:43

have to pretend that there's a

22:45

devil enjoying every

22:47

move I make when

22:49

I'm under pressure. But

22:52

it's here where God goes, who

22:54

are you? Yeah, who are you?

22:57

Because when I raise you up here and you

22:59

have everything your heart desires, you're a good guy.

23:01

Yeah, it's nice. But when you're dealing

23:04

with financial burdens, when your family's in

23:06

the hospital, when you're buried under circumstances

23:08

that you don't know how you're going

23:10

to deal with, are you a good

23:12

human being? Are you moving with grace?

23:14

Or are you moving like kind of

23:16

a bad person? When I found this all out,

23:19

I just got in a huge argument with family members, dealing

23:22

with business stuff that I had to deal with,

23:24

and I'm sitting in the balcony and I came

23:26

to wisdom. And I tell people this, when you

23:28

come to wisdom, you've came into a blessing. When

23:30

God shows you a way out, there's two moves

23:32

you could take. All right, I got

23:34

to humble myself and fix what I just

23:36

did, or I could be prideful and be like, no,

23:38

no, no, no, it's them, it's not me. And it's

23:41

the hardest thing to do is to put your pride aside. Okay.

23:44

And I sat there and I

23:46

go, I literally just take a deep breath. And I

23:49

just go like that.

23:52

Because in my mind, I go, okay, I got to call

23:54

my mom because when I was talking to her, even though

23:56

she had nothing to do with the issue, because I was

23:58

venting. And I was like, swearing up and

24:00

down I'm like that's not how I should behave

24:03

around my mom right just because I'm not talking

24:05

to her with that respect that doesn't mean that she

24:07

needs to hear that because I know when my mom hears

24:09

that she gets off the phone she's gonna be in

24:11

her thoughts because she's worrying about her son so

24:13

regardless I put my mom in an uncomfortable situation

24:15

okay then I got an argument so in my

24:18

mind I'm like I have to go and call

24:20

all these people and like this

24:22

is gonna be tough and

24:24

then I hear you know and I'm like

24:26

what the hell is that and I turn and my cat is

24:29

standing like a human being right and he's

24:32

going like this and I'm like what the

24:34

hell is that what are you doing and she goes

24:36

wait didn't you go like you wanted Leo and I

24:38

was like no I would like

24:41

I'm upset oh that's so funny but here's

24:43

the thing it was in that moment where

24:45

I was like okay I know the next step I have

24:47

to take has to do with like peace and joy mm-hmm

24:50

and then look where God met me with another

24:52

human being that showed me peace and joy wherever

24:55

you're at God will lead you out

24:57

you haven't gone too far he will

25:00

pull you out with the people around

25:02

you and with your circumstances he will

25:04

bring you peace people don't want to

25:06

take that first step because they think peace is

25:08

at the end peace is with God

25:11

you could be in the trenches and

25:13

you'll find peace you could be in

25:15

the kingdom and find no peace yeah

25:17

so once you know that you know

25:19

how to operate truly truly truly focus

25:21

on who you are and who

25:23

you are to other people when we got engaged she

25:25

got mad at me so I sat down and I

25:27

go hey I need you to write down on a

25:30

piece of paper everything you want

25:32

me to work on and she's like

25:34

bro I'm not you're not my project and I

25:36

was like yeah but I need to serve you I need

25:38

to figure it out and then she goes no we'll do

25:40

that together though you don't need me to write down what

25:42

I dislike about you like who am I to sit

25:44

down and be like hmm what does he need to fix

25:47

what does he need to be better in oh these are

25:49

all the things I don't like if I

25:51

if we have if we have an issue if there's something that's

25:53

bothering me then in that moment for me to come to you

25:55

and communicate with you but like hey like you know like I

25:57

really don't appreciate when you do this or oh I've noticed that

26:00

when you're talking to people like, you know, maybe

26:02

this is something that you can work on because

26:04

of this, right? But like, I'm never going to

26:06

sit down and give you a review. No one

26:08

should ever be giving you a review. You know

26:11

what I mean? Well, that's kind of the issue

26:13

I have with talking using the language of like

26:15

good people versus bad people because calling

26:17

someone either good or bad, there's nobody that's actually

26:19

good except one and that's Jesus. We know that.

26:22

And good and bad is its subjective language.

26:24

Like all of us have different ideas of

26:27

what bad or good is. I'm sure there

26:29

are serial killers who don't think they're bad,

26:31

you know, they think they're right. So

26:34

I think the correct terminology and that's something

26:36

that Ari and I do because it's such

26:38

a cop out for a lot of people

26:40

to be like, oh, I don't do everything

26:42

the Bible says, but I'm a good person.

26:44

But to who standard? God doesn't care about

26:46

good or bad. He cares about being like

26:48

Jesus. That's the only standard we should adhere

26:50

and abide by. You want to

26:53

be Christ like and you want to follow God's

26:55

commands. That's what it's about. You know what I

26:57

mean? And that's really when my when

26:59

my life changed when I started to feel

27:01

good right here. And right here is when I started

27:03

to be obedient. I was praying

27:05

every day. I was going to church or

27:08

reading the Bible, but I still wasn't I

27:10

still had one foot in one foot out.

27:12

And so I didn't yeah. And so I

27:14

wasn't renewed almost I didn't feel I you

27:17

know, and it wasn't until I really made

27:19

the decision to like lie down my life

27:21

and let the old me die and it

27:23

was hard. But when I started really being

27:26

obedient and following the world that word that's

27:28

when my life changed. It's crazy. You

27:30

know, it's so funny because he's a father

27:33

and we're just stubborn kids. That's what it is. You know what I

27:35

mean? Well, you mean I could only have one girl dude on the

27:37

21. He's like, yeah, but that

27:39

should be weird if I didn't and you're like,

27:42

I do like keep fighting her. Yeah, yeah, I'm

27:44

getting insecure when you meet women. That's right.

27:47

And okay, so before we just keep diving in because

27:49

me I feel like we get out of this conversation. You

27:51

know for hours all the day, but I want to make

27:53

sure somebody gets something out of this. And what I want

27:55

to circle with is is is being a

27:57

good woman and for the

27:59

people listen. I want them to learn what

28:01

good women want in a man Mm-hmm, and

28:03

then I also want young women to know

28:05

what the structure is To

28:08

be a good woman so I want to I want to first

28:10

before we dive into all that I want you guys to all

28:12

for in you could even remember this I want you to be

28:14

a part of this Because short of

28:16

you bad, but you good I

28:23

want you guys to all remember Maybe

28:26

the one that you were talking about in that church I

28:28

want you guys to remember the man that

28:31

you guys cried about Thank God that

28:33

one guy that you were like, why would you even let me fall

28:35

in love with this guy? Mm-hmm. Why would you let this man

28:37

break me and And you remember

28:39

all the prayers like God? I really want this guy

28:41

like I really really want him I think he's this

28:43

I think he's that I think he's this and But

28:47

you know what God saw he saw who he really was

28:51

Right. Mm-hmm. And if you're like, well, you're my

28:53

dad You got to listen

28:55

to your dad. Oh I

28:58

I tell I tell people all the

29:00

time. They always ask me like advice on certain things. I

29:02

go dude, but you asked your parents Talk

29:05

to your parents your parents love you more

29:07

than I love you, bro Like listen to your parents and

29:09

we live in a generation where people don't want to hear

29:11

from their parents Yeah, no one will

29:13

love you more than your parents And

29:16

if you can't understand that on an earthly tone

29:19

Then you're never gonna understand the heavenly tone

29:21

of your father being like no, that's not good

29:23

for you You're not gonna have it. I don't

29:25

care how much you cry about it. Mm-hmm. You're

29:27

not getting that. Mm-hmm And so once

29:29

you realize that right and I want you guys to now

29:31

tell me how do you feel about those guys? Would

29:34

you give that guy to your daughters?

29:37

Would you for a second take that man

29:39

back right now? Would

29:41

you Would

29:50

you guys give it a second thought I

29:53

don't know. I I'm somebody who like I don't

29:55

look at the past at all if somebody's not

29:57

in my life There's a reason for it

30:00

I trust, there's nothing I trust God more, worth

30:02

more than my romantic relationships and the person that

30:04

he's, I get to choose as my husband. Um,

30:07

so no, I wouldn't go back to anyone, but yeah,

30:09

of course, when I look back on, I'm really good

30:11

in the moment in

30:14

seeing why God is doing what he's doing. And

30:16

if I don't have the clarity and confirmation of

30:18

it right away, I know it will come and

30:21

it always does. And I can see once I'm

30:23

out of the situation why exactly God needed it

30:25

to be that way. So when I

30:27

look back, I'm okay. I

30:29

know I would not give any of them

30:31

to my daughter. That's the

30:33

reason I wanted to circle to because right now there

30:36

is so many girls

30:38

that are listening to right now,

30:40

probably has tears in their eyes, staring

30:43

at their screen, probably just had a

30:45

conversation with God about it. And

30:47

this is the message that you need to hear from

30:49

either me or them. Get

30:51

over it. Move on. Yeah.

30:54

He does not want to bless that relationship. Yeah. It

30:57

is your pride that wants you to

30:59

stay there and you are driving yourself

31:01

into a ditch because I promise you

31:03

what's on the other side of life

31:05

that you don't want to step towards

31:07

is an unbelievable, you

31:10

can't even fathom life

31:13

that you're just holding out on because of your pride. And

31:16

it's hard to hear that. It's very hard to

31:18

hear that. If you guys knew me a year

31:20

ago, you wouldn't even recognize me. He,

31:22

what he did in my life because

31:24

of my heartbreak, he propelled

31:27

me, he vindicated me, he raised me up

31:29

because I was obedient, because I was relentless

31:31

with him. I didn't let the heartbreak destroy

31:33

me and I could have a lot of

31:36

people do. I know someone who didn't leave

31:38

the house for 10 years because they sat in it and they

31:40

let that person destroy them. And

31:43

a person can, when you love someone so

31:45

much and they hurt you or they leave

31:47

you and they abandon you, it can kill you.

31:49

It can kill yourself worse. I want you

31:51

to stick with that for one second because that is

31:54

what I'm trying to circle with. I

31:56

am wanting that female that's listening to me.

31:59

Get out. Go outside hang out

32:01

with your friends enough with sitting and

32:03

moping in it. Listen. No one

32:05

feels bad for you No one no

32:08

one's going to feel bad for you I

32:10

don't feel bad for people that could get up get shit

32:12

going and move on with their life If

32:14

you're gonna sit there and play that pity party and

32:17

play victim and just say woe is me then no

32:19

offense Somebody's gonna lose in life and you

32:21

have a losing mentality. You're out. Yeah,

32:23

you're out of the competition There's no way

32:26

that you can't get up and help

32:28

yourself if you don't try You

32:30

have to try here. Here's the thing. Here's

32:32

the thing. We're like so against victim mentality We

32:34

really are because when you know Jesus and you

32:36

know the truth of the gospel You know, there

32:38

is no such thing as being a victim because

32:40

we are more than conquerors through him who loved

32:43

us That's not just a sweet saying that's the

32:45

truth. So yes, nobody Unfortunately

32:47

feels bad for you But God is with

32:49

you during these things and he is close

32:51

to those who are broken hearted and crushed

32:53

in spirit and you George

32:56

is absolutely right. You do have to try you have

32:58

to put one foot in front of the other And

33:00

get up and keep going and remember that rejection does

33:02

not exist It literally doesn't exist

33:04

if something is not for you It's because

33:06

God doesn't want it from you and he's

33:08

so good that he would never withhold something

33:10

that's right for you He loves us so

33:13

much that every desire in our heart that

33:15

is according to his will he will bring

33:17

to fruition There's nothing that we he knows

33:19

the cries of our hearts You know that

33:21

the Holy Spirit intercedes for us and he

33:23

will pray the cries of our hearts out

33:25

to Jesus Anything

33:27

that we want that's according to his will will

33:29

be given to us So if there's something that

33:32

you want that's not being given to you It's

33:34

because God doesn't want it for you. And if

33:36

God doesn't want it for me, I don't want

33:38

it for myself Let me tell you one thing

33:40

every plan I thought I had from my life

33:42

pales in comparison to the actual plan that God

33:45

set out for me and so Religion

33:48

just doesn't exist if I mean I say this

33:51

all the time I'm like because throughout my life

33:53

my like my battles have

33:55

mostly been internal Anxiety and stuff like

33:57

that. It's never really been like relationally

34:00

Like I've had some heartbreaks, but nothing

34:02

too crazy or anything that destroyed me.

34:04

But mental struggles. Oh,

34:06

for sure. Worst struggle. Definitely. But

34:08

I like when it comes to my romantic

34:10

relationships, I always say like, if

34:13

a man, the reason I'm able to get over things is

34:15

because it's like, I have one husband, right? I

34:17

don't know him yet. Maybe I do. I don't know. I don't know

34:19

where he's at, but like I have my husband somewhere that God has

34:21

for me. If a man and I broke

34:23

up, he's not my husband. Clearly. Why

34:25

would I be sad over a man? That's not

34:27

my husband. I don't know you. Like,

34:30

you know what I mean? If that's you have your

34:32

confidence in the Lord. Yeah. A

34:34

hundred percent. You know what I mean? And

34:36

it's also about practicing detachment. That's why the

34:38

only thing that you can love truly is

34:40

Jesus and God and not the world, because

34:42

once you put your identity in anything other

34:44

than Jesus, it can be taken from you.

34:47

And when it's taken from you, it absolutely

34:49

wrecks you. That's what it is. You know

34:51

what I mean? And so it's just like

34:53

detachment, detached from that person. That's not my

34:55

man. That's not my girl. God has somebody.

34:57

I bless them. I love them. God protect

34:59

them and send them on their way. That's

35:01

it. What is a man need to

35:03

do to get you guys to notice

35:05

him? You see videos of men,

35:08

you know, oh, they need to grind and you know,

35:10

don't you got to be the leader of the house

35:12

and you got to, you got to, I don't know.

35:14

The way they talk is just so aggressive. Like you

35:16

look, you need to kill an alligator with your hands

35:18

and just be able to rip its blood at any

35:20

felt like it's just so much. And to me, it's just

35:22

like, as long as I love and provide, I feel like

35:24

we like that. I feel like I would love to. I'm

35:26

just kidding. Talk

35:29

about it. Like what is in your guys' eyes,

35:31

right? Like see, what I want

35:33

to do is I want to, I want to put it

35:35

in your guys' court. I'm tired of hearing men, what women

35:38

want. I want to hear what women want from

35:40

men. Like if they listen, I'm off the market,

35:43

but if I was not on the market, I

35:45

would not be listening to some dudes that are

35:47

like, you know what I

35:49

mean? Like, what women want. Like let women tell you what

35:51

they want. You want to go to the, I don't know. I

35:55

don't go to a cow to ask them how eggs are.

35:57

Like it's just to me, it's a different dairy

35:59

product. We can. speak biblically, we can

36:01

speak carefully, and we can speak practically.

36:03

You talk real, like you guys, like how you

36:05

guys are. This is all

36:08

we want, right? We're very simple. Very simple.

36:10

We want a man who acts

36:13

like a man, his manly, who takes

36:15

care of things. Leader, I don't

36:17

need you to kill an alligator with your

36:19

hands, but I need to feel so feminine

36:21

around you because you are so masculine that

36:23

I can turn my brain off because I

36:25

know you've got it. I trust you. I

36:27

trust your intellect. I trust your character. I

36:29

trust that I can close my eyes and

36:31

follow you blindly. I'm going to be happy

36:33

about where I am. That that's what it's

36:36

about. We go out. I don't have to

36:38

use my brain. I don't have to say,

36:40

you know what I mean? Order the whole

36:42

thing for all. Take me, plan the thing.

36:44

Say what you tell me where we're going.

36:46

And we're in sin. That's honestly,

36:49

it's so lost on us. And

36:51

like, yes, toxic masculinity, that's not

36:53

good, but we need masculinity. It's

36:55

really important. And that's what we

36:57

try to push. And we live

36:59

in a time of unfortunate new

37:01

age feminism and this whole idea

37:03

that women and men need to

37:05

be the same and they need to compete. And

37:07

then, and it's all from the enemy. It's all

37:10

lies. None of it. You don't want to be equal. It's

37:13

we're equal in, in God's eye. We're

37:15

equal in value. We're different in, in

37:18

role and in the way that we

37:20

operate. I'm sorry. That's what I meant.

37:22

My bad. Not a, no, no, that's good. That was a good

37:24

question. You're valued a little bit less. Can't

37:26

tell what you said. I think because I think it's beautiful. And I

37:29

think, yes, I agree with you. And

37:31

that's what I feel with George. Yeah. And, and

37:33

I'll get up and out of here though. Don't worry. And

37:37

the point that I'll cause he's always like, like when I'm

37:39

with him, I feel so safe and feel so like, I'm

37:41

with him like, dude, you worry me. Like,

37:44

are you like, you know, if I'm like

37:46

being like, I'm something general, but if I'm being clumsy or sometimes like,

37:48

I don't know, you know, you're just with him. So you feel safe.

37:50

So you're not really like thinking that. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I'm

37:53

like, I know we're good. I'm like, don't worry.

37:55

Like when I'm by myself, I'm very aware. Of

37:57

everything that's going on around me. But when I'm

37:59

with. I'm not like okay

38:01

this person's there and this person's here and this person's

38:04

there because I'm with you But when I'm by myself,

38:06

I'm like super like okay like paranoid, you know, I

38:08

love that so much You're absolutely right because Ari and

38:10

I talk about this all the time how as women

38:12

like it's important to be able to tap into Your

38:15

masculinity. It's really important because

38:17

that's like the dominant like

38:19

organized aware Like

38:21

heightened version of yourself whereas being feminine

38:23

is like being more relaxed I

38:26

say it all the time that like I have to be when

38:28

you have a job as a woman when you have a career

38:30

or Like especially yourself employed or you help things to

38:32

do you got to be a little mess that you

38:34

have to be dominant So if I have to be

38:36

dominant in like all these areas of my life for

38:39

the love of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ I

38:41

want to come home and I want to turn it

38:43

off It

38:56

also comes with when you guys submit them Oh,

38:59

yeah women don't want to submit and

39:01

we can't be the leader Yeah, right cuz I can't

39:03

I'm not gonna pin you down and be like Schmidt

39:05

like, you know Like it has to be willing she

39:07

was willingly ready to submit to me Like when we're

39:09

out in public this I'll talk about this

39:12

if I say hey be quiet turn around get in the car We've

39:15

already discussed that. Hey, if I tell you this

39:17

this means we're in danger I need you to

39:19

shut your mouth start looking around grab your shit

39:21

get in the car Relieving because we might have

39:23

ours on us that somebody's gonna rob us in

39:26

LA or something's happening But if I said

39:28

hey be quiet get in the car right now Go

39:41

ahead get it Yeah, but if

39:43

but you know, she does she goes, okay and she

39:45

grabs because the first thing she thinks when she sees

39:47

me say this is Okay,

39:50

he provides for me in every

39:52

single possible. Yeah, right. He provides

39:54

financially spiritually loving Okay,

39:57

I did all this and I earned her

39:59

respect Now she submits to me. A

40:01

lot of men don't want to provide these things

40:03

and they're just expecting their women to submit for

40:05

no reason. Listen, if you're ready to split the

40:07

bill with your chick that you asked on a

40:09

date, don't ask her to submit to you, bro.

40:12

You guys are now equal. She's paying for half

40:14

the bill. And I feel like people are

40:16

expecting they want the end result without all

40:18

the work that comes with beforehand. You know

40:20

what I mean? They expect that end result

40:22

of like, you have my trust and all

40:24

that stuff and we have this understanding without

40:26

having those hard conversations, without putting in the

40:28

work and everything he did to build up

40:30

our relationship. She just reminded me of something I

40:33

wanted to talk to you about. You guys are so

40:35

cute. Talking about a relationship, right? Yeah. Sorry.

40:39

Sorry, you guys. You guys are seeing us, like,

40:42

and I want to apologize to you guys. I love it,

40:44

honestly. I feel so comfortable. Okay, good, good,

40:46

good, good. Can you give me a tip of that?

40:48

I know, I'm getting extra. No, we have extra. We're

40:50

so late. No, we share everything. But I actually want

40:52

to tie into what you just said. The one thing

40:54

that we did in this relationship because I knew it

40:56

was going to last is I set my boundaries right

40:58

from the jump. I go,

41:00

if you walk unaccordingly to God, I'll be, you

41:03

be so fast outside, you have no idea. Like,

41:05

I will never love you as much as my

41:07

God. And this is what comes with

41:09

how I act. If you want this type

41:11

of man, then you could be here.

41:13

The man who's going to provide that's going to love you, that's going to

41:15

be there for you. But also, don't give

41:17

me attitude and don't ever try to check

41:20

me with authority. I'm not trying to discuss

41:22

leadership here. It's either you're coming in or

41:24

you're being left behind. There is no conversation

41:26

about this. And there was never

41:28

one, she was like, oh my God, how dare you?

41:30

No, why? Because she was like, no,

41:32

I'll sign up for that. That makes sense.

41:34

I want a man that I know I'm protected

41:36

by. I know that loves me. I know that,

41:38

oh God, he fears God. So he's not going

41:40

to go and mess around with another chick behind

41:42

my back. So choose what

41:44

is okay with you and establish that

41:47

in the beginning of your relationship. Do

41:49

not fall in love with potential. Fall

41:52

in love with patterns. You don't have to

41:54

be with somebody if you don't like them. If

41:56

you don't like, if you don't want to

41:58

submit to them because you're not, you don't trust. they're taking

42:00

you or you don't like these things about

42:02

them, then that's not your man. If you're

42:04

not fully in submission to him and the

42:07

way that he lives his life is because

42:09

he's not for you. And two, submission, like

42:11

biblical submission is a two-way street. I submit

42:13

to you willingly because I want to, because

42:15

I respect you. And then

42:18

you also earn my submission. You also

42:20

are, you be the man

42:22

that is worth submitting to. Yeah. And so

42:24

I'm just like, it's a two-way

42:26

thing. I have to submit to you. I have to

42:29

respect you even if, because

42:31

we're all sinners. So every man, no matter how

42:33

great your man is, he's going to fall sometimes.

42:36

He's not going to live up to God's standard

42:38

all the time. And you have to look at

42:40

him as the head of the household, even during

42:42

that time. And then as a man, you have

42:44

to make sure that you are doing everything in

42:46

your power, loving your wife the way that Christ

42:48

loves the church every single time. But it's always

42:51

a two-way street. It's a willing submission. It's crazy

42:53

you say that because I go,

42:55

I get up every day and I

42:57

bust my ass to provide

43:00

because I want to make sure that she

43:02

lives an unbelievable life. And

43:05

that if she ever made us

43:07

fruitful with a family or whatever direction we take,

43:09

but whatever she is, I want to

43:11

make sure I provide for it, right? That's my job. I

43:13

got to make sure I provide, but

43:16

how hard would it be to lead and provide

43:18

if not even, you don't even have to say

43:20

words. But if I was like, Hey, we're going to

43:23

do this. And you're like, submitting

43:27

doesn't mean like, okay, I'll do whatever, whatever

43:29

you say, whatever. She checks me all the

43:31

time. She goes, Hey, yo, what's up with

43:33

your attitude here? Hey, blah, blah, blah. This

43:35

is an act that doesn't mean a dictatorship.

43:37

Yeah. A leader is a servant.

43:40

And alpha, which all these dudes are like

43:42

saying, I'm an alpha male. Is it

43:44

the end of the pack? Yeah. And he lets the

43:47

younger, the sick in the old dictate

43:50

how fast they're moving. So he's

43:52

serving the crew. He's not telling them

43:54

exactly what's going on from A to

43:56

Z. I serve God and I It's

44:00

going to be really, really hard to

44:02

serve her if I feel with her

44:04

spirit that she doesn't believe I'm worth

44:06

serving. If she doesn't see me

44:08

as a leader, I can't

44:10

fight her on that because then now if I

44:13

see the woman that I love question where I'm

44:15

going, I'm going to question where I'm going. I'm

44:17

like, because she loves me more than everyone. So like

44:19

if she looks at me with no belief,

44:22

then it's going to be really hard for us

44:24

to move on in life. So if

44:27

the one quality that I love is that, and

44:30

it's so funny, I'm going to be super

44:32

vulnerable when I was in the beginning of

44:34

this relationship, I was very emotional

44:37

and I had very bad habits

44:39

from terrible relationships that I were

44:41

in. And what kind of habits?

44:44

Like just I would take it all, take it

44:46

all, take it all, take it all, take it all, take all

44:48

the shit, take all the shit. And then finally I'd have enough

44:50

of it and explode. Yeah. Like, all right, fuck

44:52

this. I'm done. I'm out. And I'll

44:54

just like, oh no. All right. This

44:57

is it. I'm out. Like, I'm

44:59

all in or I'm all out. Yeah. Like

45:01

not talk about it and keep it in command. And sometimes

45:06

you really, it's really hard to talk

45:08

to your loved ones. It's

45:11

hard to talk to your mom. It's hard to talk to your

45:14

partner because it hurts a lot more

45:16

when it comes from people you love. Hey

45:18

bro, from your best friend, right?

45:21

Hey bro, you have an anger issue. You need to chill the

45:23

fuck out. Oh yeah, you're right, dude. Like I

45:25

probably should like really reconsider my emotions when I'm

45:27

like upset. But then if your

45:29

girl's like, yo, like you're so emotional. Now I

45:31

feel like she thinks I'm a chick and now

45:33

I'm going to lose my mind. So like how

45:35

you talk to somebody dictates how you're getting it,

45:37

right? So she knew

45:39

that, okay, this is going to be a little

45:42

tough. I'm going to bring this to God. She

45:46

went around me. If you're in a company

45:48

and your boss ain't doing his job,

45:51

you go up above him. And

45:53

she went above me. She didn't go

45:55

to me because I was doing a terrible job leading

45:57

the relationship. And then God came.

46:00

to me and he was like, hey, we need to adjust

46:02

this. And then he put obstacles in

46:04

my way for me to deal with this. And

46:06

then people to see what they're dealing with this when they

46:08

get the back end of it. And

46:11

now I'm like, oh, okay,

46:13

so words do matter. When

46:15

I came from a household that they said words don't

46:17

mean shit. Suck it up. Okay,

46:20

where words mean, mean something. And

46:22

oh my God, if it means something and I'm, oh

46:25

my God, I'm talking to the person I love like this.

46:28

Oh my God, how does she feel around me? Am

46:31

I am okay? I could protect her physically. No

46:33

man's going to come into this house. I'll put

46:35

rounds in him. But does she

46:37

feel safe telling me things?

46:40

Does she, did she make a mistake? Is she,

46:42

does she feel safe enough to express that to

46:44

me? Have I made it like I'm a loose cannon

46:46

where now she's like, oh, I can't even confined in

46:48

the person that I should be. That

46:51

was my fault. A

46:54

leader could fail all the time at

46:56

any moment. But

46:59

what she did is she brought it to God and God

47:01

brought it to my attention. And sometimes

47:03

we get caught in a situation where like, oh, well, I

47:05

just, I told you a hundred times. You're

47:07

not listening to have you brought it to God. You

47:10

have to pray together to stay together. It's

47:13

so funny because whenever we talk about dating, we

47:15

always bring it back to our relationship. Yeah. As

47:17

our friendship, but like, no, we, Ari

47:19

and I both, I mean, prayer is

47:22

a massive part of the biggest part

47:24

of our lives. It changed our lives.

47:26

We pray as if our lives depend

47:28

on it because it does like it

47:30

really does. Our relationships depend

47:32

on it. Everything our relationship

47:34

with God depends on our communication with

47:36

him. And like my,

47:39

me bringing everything to God in

47:41

prayer, bringing every relationship, every tension,

47:43

every argument. I haven't had drama

47:45

in years because I don't let

47:47

it get to that point. I

47:49

have the Holy Spirit intercede immediately.

47:51

I ask him to bring reconciliation

47:53

immediately. I ask that because there's

47:56

always, we say it all the

47:58

time. Don't be mad. the

48:00

person be mad at the spirit behind them that's

48:02

operating in them to get them to stop that's

48:04

getting them to act like you say a lot

48:06

of the bullet points that I say and you

48:08

know it's so funny our wisdom comes from the

48:10

same source yeah we move as one body and

48:12

this is crazy to see because a lot of

48:15

people are like well is she regagitating what she heard

48:17

from no no no bro like if

48:19

me and you right we hang out with shauna

48:22

but we don't ever hang out yeah but you pick

48:24

up traits from shauna and i pick

48:26

up traits from shauna but then when we meet

48:28

we're like attached to the hip now because we're like

48:30

we're on the same page because we have the same

48:32

relationship with that person yeah you are who you

48:34

hang out with so when you get wisdom from our

48:36

heavenly father and it works in our life and this

48:39

is what i think of it if

48:41

we have an endless river of spring water

48:43

and we sit around people that are very

48:45

thirsty and you know i could just bring

48:47

this cup over there fill my cup up

48:50

because i have that relationship why

48:52

would i not come here and fill your guys's cups

48:54

and then run back to the river and fill my

48:56

cup up and then this is what we're doing with

48:58

our wisdom we don't want to just keep this to

49:01

ourselves we know what it feels like to be in

49:03

the situation that you're in and it's terrible and the

49:05

reason why we want to give it to you is

49:07

because ours is endless there

49:10

is no well if i give her some of my

49:12

drink that i'm not going to have anything for me

49:14

no no no it's abundant and

49:16

i'd like to be abundantly clear our

49:18

peace and our joy come from our

49:20

heavenly father this is why you

49:23

give up your ways of life we give up

49:25

our ways of life when people go up to

49:27

me like you really believe that

49:29

jesus died and came back from

49:32

the dead i go

49:35

i mean i believe in

49:37

the eyewitnesses that believed it

49:39

so much that they got murdered for

49:41

it with a smile on their

49:43

face that's a huge

49:45

thing would you ever believe a

49:48

lie to your death like that where

49:50

they torture you and and crucify you

49:52

upside down they

49:54

crucified them upside down this guy

49:56

didn't say no no don't crucify me i

49:58

don't want to die he said I'm

50:00

not worthy to be crucified the way that my

50:02

God was crucified put me upside

50:05

down put me in more pain Bro,

50:07

that's that gives me goosebumps so yeah

50:09

I do believe because I Welcome

50:11

him into my life and then I saw

50:13

him and now I believe in him

50:15

more than I believe in Reed who stands right In

50:17

front of me in flesh. Yeah, so

50:19

yeah Yeah I'm ready to risk my career

50:21

and I'm ready to risk my Relationships and

50:24

I'm ready to risk it all because I

50:26

have an endless supply of joy in peace

50:28

You can never touch me. No, and

50:32

Amen that and if I can just put

50:34

back to what you were talking about with

50:36

relationships You know because we're talking about like

50:38

Relationships and like I start and the way

50:40

that you were vulnerable in the beginning of

50:42

a relationship I just want to say that

50:44

the way that you said, you know, it's

50:46

not potential It's pattern and like you were

50:48

able to display that in our relationship That

50:51

it was like it was your pattern like you're able to

50:54

take something and you're able to go Okay, like this isn't

50:56

right and then you were able to work on it and

50:58

fix it And a lot of people can't admit like when

51:00

they're wrong or and that's the first thing that you're able

51:02

to do and I think That that's important when it comes

51:04

to being like an alpha and being a leader is that

51:07

you're somebody that can go Oh, you know what? Like I

51:09

was wrong and you could admit it and then you can

51:11

go back and you can fix it and like that's your

51:14

pattern Is that you couldn't take something and you fix it

51:16

every time and I just think that was important because you

51:18

were so vulnerable It's what you said and I wanted to

51:20

just kind of like point out like a

51:23

goodness He's saying that and and

51:26

The reason why it's it's a better way for me

51:28

to just go be up front like hey You know

51:30

how I spoke to you was like completely out of

51:32

line or hey, you know I understand what you were

51:34

talking about Is because I know

51:36

there's gonna be a time where you do

51:39

or say or act in a behavior where

51:41

I'm like nah I don't like that But

51:43

how am I gonna come up to you and be like

51:45

hey could you fix this area? If

51:48

when you give me something to fix about myself,

51:50

I'm like nah, bro It

51:52

is what it is, bro. You like this life then

51:54

get out of you know me like there's there's a

51:57

there's an arrogance to that But if the

51:59

best way to preach the gospel and preach a good

52:01

behavior isn't by your mouth. There's

52:04

a famous saying to go preach your

52:06

whole life about God and when you

52:08

need to use words, that's powerful bro

52:10

because now when my girl goes, wow

52:12

I told him one time that I

52:15

didn't like that and I watched him

52:17

journal it and every day

52:19

attack that, I guarantee you. When

52:21

I go hey babe that behavior you display, she

52:24

goes oh it's already I'm already figured I already

52:26

knew before it left my lips that I need

52:28

to adjust because now she's like I'm willing to

52:30

dance this dance you're dancing. Yeah and

52:32

the dance is obedience and the dance is respect.

52:34

Respect. A lot of people always ask me they

52:36

go well how do I get a relationship like

52:39

you and Shauna? I go get ready to serve

52:41

and sacrifice. Yeah. Serve and

52:43

sacrifice and then you'll have what everybody else

52:45

wants. Yeah. People would think that being the

52:47

head of the household and being the man and being

52:49

the leader like you're in a position of you're

52:52

just you're in the better position. They're

52:54

actually in a much much much worse

52:56

position and I always say like husbands

52:59

are supposed to love their wives as Christ

53:01

loved the church. Christ gave his life up

53:04

for the church. He gave his life up

53:06

in the most brutal unbelievable

53:09

way for us and that's the type of

53:11

sacrifice that men have to do daily. They

53:13

have to die to themselves, their desires,

53:16

their wants, needs, anything that they could possibly

53:18

want literally doesn't matter because their wife

53:20

and their kids and God come before that.

53:22

It's really hard to be a man. You

53:25

know it's crazy you say that and the only thing I think

53:27

about let's bring God out of it right. Let's let's talk to

53:29

the atheist. Let's talk to the people that are godless. You're

53:32

a leader regardless. When you're when

53:34

you're in a relationship the girl's always

53:37

wanting to please you. So

53:39

she is going to move in the direction

53:41

that she feels that pleases you and

53:44

you have the ability to completely make

53:46

this woman filthy or

53:48

bring her up to a different level of

53:50

life and that's your choice and

53:53

sadly even girls that are like no no no I

53:55

dictate what they don't you're a liar and

53:58

if that's true then you were most likely going to die

54:00

alone because that's

54:02

not how the world works. It's

54:05

never has been. We take God out of

54:07

it. It just never has been. It's never

54:09

been like that. When you meet somebody, even the

54:11

movies, the songs, you change up your vibe. You're

54:13

like, oh, I want to impress this person. I

54:15

want to be like this. I want to submit.

54:17

I want to, I want to serve this. These

54:19

are natural traits just from biology. Like I like

54:21

this person. Okay. Well, I know that other

54:23

people like her, so I have to compete with

54:26

other people. Sean is

54:28

walking around. Every single guy friend of mine was

54:30

going after her. These are my friend group. What

54:32

happens when she goes to Starbucks or she goes

54:34

to any other mall or like a, God forbid,

54:36

Air One or a Whole Foods over. Like, you

54:38

know what I mean? Like the organic dudes would

54:41

have there. Like you can see like there's always

54:43

some guy that's willing to compete

54:45

to have the woman for

54:47

himself. Yeah. And it's

54:50

crazy because the, the, what we're

54:52

looking at social media is like a bunch of girls

54:54

like, Oh, I need a guy who has like six

54:56

figures, seven figures a month. And this is that. And

54:58

then we see guys who are like, well, my girl,

55:01

she can't have a body count of this.

55:03

And then the next line is like, yeah,

55:05

dude, I'll smack some hoes the other day.

55:07

I'm like, well, what happened here? Well, hold

55:09

on. So let me get this straight. You're

55:11

demonstrating that you want a good girl, but

55:13

acting like a filthy animal. Fair enough. And

55:15

then girls are like, I want a guy

55:17

with this type of standard, but you're doing

55:19

only fans and you disregarded yourself with a

55:21

sweetheart. If you're not going to respect yourself,

55:24

no one's going to respect you. No

55:26

one is. Yeah. And if you're not going to

55:28

be a man and sure for your home, somebody's

55:30

either going to take your home from you or

55:34

build a home with your woman that God planned for

55:36

you, bro. And there's nothing worse than

55:38

that. Nothing's worse than watching the person that you love

55:40

walk away. And you know what the craziest part is?

55:42

I just said this in the

55:44

last episode. Uh, the devil can't

55:46

take what God gave you, but

55:49

how many times have we watched people

55:51

get rid of something that God gave

55:53

them? Because they believed in some crazy

55:55

lie. And now you're at the

55:57

club with your friends getting older and older. and

56:00

I'm getting sadder and sadder and nothing

56:02

breaks my heart watching men and

56:04

women age and I'm

56:06

watching their decisions. Just

56:09

eat them alive in front of me. And

56:11

what are you going to do? I told you don't behave

56:13

that way. This is what you're reaping.

56:16

You sowed this. You reap what you sow.

56:18

You need to fix your surrounding. Clean

56:21

up your house, bro. Yeah. Clean

56:23

up your house. God says get your house in

56:25

order and that means your little house in your

56:27

emotional house and everything in your life. We talked

56:30

about it. Truly, we do not come with a

56:32

holier than now mentality. We were

56:34

doing all this. I mean, we were always pretty

56:36

good. I can't believe you guys had an Onlyfans. It

56:38

was crazy. No, we never did. We were like, wait.

56:41

Let me, hang on. Let me do that. Let me put

56:43

this thing. No, no. Dude, you sent me a

56:45

link with a 15% off and I was like, I'm

56:47

okay. You think I'd give 15% off? I'm

56:50

just kidding. I'm only kidding. What? I

56:53

am. No. And it's just

56:55

so, you know what's funny? Like we were always considered

56:57

like pretty good girls to the

56:59

world standards. You know what I mean? So it

57:01

was really funny to come into this situation and

57:03

come into ministry and being like, what

57:06

the heck? We felt we dressed like pretty

57:08

conservatively. Like we, everything, there's so much that we had to

57:10

change. You know what I mean? But like

57:12

we realized that the re the

57:14

only way that you can achieve true peace,

57:16

like you said, true peace, true joy, true

57:19

fulfillment and the fullness of what God has

57:21

to offer in life and

57:23

an organized life. Like yeah, yeah.

57:26

Chaos comes from not following the world. When you

57:28

follow the world, like I think of it even

57:30

just as like, I always, I read the Bible

57:33

first thing in the morning, every morning I try

57:35

to put on the armor, but it's

57:37

also, you're giving God the first fruits of your day

57:39

so he can set the rest of it up for you.

57:42

And you could be like, I only have an hour and I

57:44

have to get ready to do my hair, makeup and do all this before I

57:46

have to go to work. I don't have time for the word. Watch

57:48

you read the word and then all of a sudden

57:51

you have time to do everything else. It is supernatural

57:53

because he's a supernatural God period. You know what I

57:55

mean? So or like getting your

57:57

house in order, read the Bible. Like

58:00

we can't say it enough. It's the first thing you do

58:02

when you wake up. I actually, I have a question for

58:04

you and I'm just really curious your opinion on it. What

58:06

do you think about cussing? Cussing?

58:08

Yeah. What is

58:11

your take on it? Yeah, so the reason why

58:13

it doesn't affect my heart too much is

58:15

because I know my God doesn't judge like

58:20

swearing like that. It reminds you like, yes,

58:22

I do. I have to change now. Okay,

58:24

let me rephrase this. I have to change now because God

58:26

put me in a place for me to be speaking and

58:29

I'm realizing that I have to be better and

58:31

more diligent with my tongue because if I'm not,

58:33

that I'm showing that I'm not disciplined. Therefore

58:36

it gives room for the devil to come and

58:39

just move my tongue in his direction. So yes,

58:41

I have to be obedient on the tongue. Now,

58:44

when I swear, if I

58:46

say, I'll just say, if I say bullshit or fuck,

58:48

like to me, I don't see my God looking at

58:50

me in the same way that other

58:52

people think my God is looking at me because

58:55

in the scripture says, do not curse your neighbor.

58:57

Now cursing isn't like, like

59:00

F this, F that because an F word here

59:02

can mean something in a different language, right? It's

59:04

your intent on how you're using it. I think

59:06

there's a difference even with my own child, if

59:09

I'm looking at my child and he stubs

59:11

his toe as a like a four year old, they

59:13

go, oh fuck like that. To me, I'm laughing like,

59:15

oh shit, like you shouldn't say that versus my son

59:17

out in the street being like, I'm gonna fuck you

59:19

up and I'm gonna ba ba ba to somebody. I'm

59:22

like, whoa, that's going to come with some repercussions, my

59:24

man. Like you can't talk like that. So

59:26

I think cursing is like, where's your intent

59:28

with it? Like if, like, for example, if

59:31

I'm, if I'm talking to some

59:34

new Christians and they don't really

59:36

get God and I'm talking to

59:38

them about being perfect and now

59:40

I'm watching them tune out, but then

59:42

I go, but listen, it's fucking hard. And then they go,

59:44

wait, what? You're like me. Oh, so

59:47

you're not holier than now. You're

59:50

not perfect. You're

59:52

not, you're swearing. Sometimes

59:55

I use it as a relatability. Like I speak in their

59:57

language. It's hard to talk to somebody

59:59

if. You can't understand them.

1:00:01

And so I wasn't really too quick

1:00:03

to fix my tongue because

1:00:05

I tell people all the time, they look at

1:00:07

me as a preacher. I ain't no preacher, dude. I'm

1:00:10

a man who fears God and loves to talk about it.

1:00:12

And so if that... You're a preacher. You have

1:00:14

a massive platform. Yeah. If it takes

1:00:16

you in the direction of that, then that's great. But

1:00:19

to me, it's like my heart was like, I like talking

1:00:21

to people that don't know who God is at all. And

1:00:24

like bringing them... I'm trying to be a fisher

1:00:26

of men, right? And I might talk like a

1:00:28

sailor man. And that's... Swears.

1:00:31

Like if you listen to any sailor, they're like, Oh, he cusses

1:00:33

like a sailor. This is

1:00:35

the men that Jesus chose. Like you think Peter

1:00:37

was walking around with no filthy mouth? Like he was. It

1:00:39

took him a bit to like reign it

1:00:42

in and be disciplined. I'm 31 years

1:00:44

old and I just started. I guarantee you when I'm

1:00:46

like 40, I'm probably not gonna be talking the same

1:00:48

way that I'm talking. Yeah. But it doesn't make me

1:00:50

toss and turn at night. There's a lot of things

1:00:52

that make me toss and turn at night. Mm-hmm. That's

1:00:54

just... Honestly,

1:00:57

just not one of them for me right now. Yeah. Yeah.

1:00:59

You know, we ask you because we're on

1:01:01

the topic of like transformation and stuff. Ari

1:01:04

and I are both from the East Coast.

1:01:06

She's from Boston. I'm Albanian. Using

1:01:08

the F word. Albanian just said enough

1:01:10

for me to... Albanians

1:01:12

are crazy dogs. My

1:01:15

best friend's Albanian. If I'm ever in a sticky situation... But

1:01:21

I'll beat that out because like... No, for sure.

1:01:23

No. And I just... So like us... Like

1:01:25

nobody had worse mouths than Ari and I.

1:01:28

Truly. We were to the point where like...

1:01:30

Because in my culture where she's from, like

1:01:32

using the F word isn't insulting because it's

1:01:34

like an um. Like it's just a part

1:01:37

of the language. It's not insulting. And

1:01:39

so for the longest time, I truly believed I

1:01:41

was going to be a cussing Christian. I had

1:01:43

zero intention on ever stopping. There was one moment

1:01:46

and I never had conviction about it, which is

1:01:48

fun. I never had conviction. And

1:01:50

I always said, well, I don't... When I cuss,

1:01:52

I don't feel anything. So it's not bad. So like I

1:01:54

see what God's Word says about it because it does say

1:01:57

don't cuss, don't curse. Don't use foul language.

1:02:00

I don't feel anything so it's fine. One time

1:02:02

I fasted. I fasted for the first time when

1:02:04

we started Girls Gone Bible. And

1:02:06

I went one day 24 hours, no food, no

1:02:09

water, no coffee, nothing. It was my first time

1:02:11

ever fasting. I was so full of the spirit.

1:02:13

I was so sensitive to God. I was so

1:02:15

just really spiritually sensitive. I get on the phone

1:02:17

with a friend. She says an F word for

1:02:20

the first time in my life. My

1:02:22

whole body cringed. It was

1:02:24

the first time I ever felt conviction about

1:02:26

cussing. And I was like, I

1:02:28

don't like that because I don't want to stop cussing. So I'm just

1:02:30

going to pretend that that didn't happen. All of

1:02:32

a sudden from that moment on, I just had a stirring

1:02:34

in my spirit, but I kept going and I kept trying

1:02:37

to ignore it, which is what I did with a lot

1:02:39

of different types of sin in my life, is that eventually

1:02:41

I would feel no conviction. One day all of a sudden

1:02:43

God would reveal it to me and I'd get that conviction

1:02:45

and I'd run away from it and I'd push it and

1:02:47

I'd be like, but I don't want to change. I want

1:02:49

to be like everybody. Like I don't want to have to.

1:02:52

We used to make fun of the Christian. We

1:02:54

did. We didn't cut. It's

1:02:57

a holier than now Christian. Why? Ask

1:02:59

this. We truly can't even say it. It's been

1:03:01

probably, I don't know how long that I can't

1:03:04

get an F word out of my mouth. It

1:03:06

physically can't come out of my mouth. And

1:03:09

you know what? Like I- She

1:03:11

said something that made it's going to, my wheels

1:03:13

are going crazy. Let's go. Yeah. What?

1:03:17

When you said it made me cringe, I

1:03:20

never really pictured making anybody cringe from my

1:03:22

mouth. And if I'm talking about

1:03:24

God and I make them cringe. That's

1:03:26

a problem. I think of

1:03:28

the scripture. Sorry, I just, I think of the

1:03:30

scripture that says- You're so annoying. I'm sorry. Well,

1:03:33

I just want to tell you one scripture.

1:03:36

I think it's in James. It's like, can

1:03:38

freshwater and saltwater both flow out of the

1:03:40

same spring? How can you love God and

1:03:43

curse anybody with the same mouth? I saw

1:03:45

that as cursing Amanda. But even

1:03:47

my own enemies, they don't even know, but I plant them flowers

1:03:49

in their fields. Right. Can

1:03:51

I tell you one story? I was reading, so

1:03:53

you know the moment where Peter denies Jesus three

1:03:55

times, right? And I

1:03:58

can pull it up because I'm paraphrasing. but

1:04:00

it says something. So it's three times

1:04:02

people come up to him, do you know Jesus? You were just

1:04:04

with him. I saw you with him. You're

1:04:07

a Jew, like you have to be with him. And

1:04:09

he says three times, no, I don't know him.

1:04:11

No, I don't know him. The third time, it

1:04:13

says that Peter curses and says,

1:04:15

I do not know this man. So

1:04:17

in the moment where he was trying

1:04:20

to separate himself from Jesus and no

1:04:22

longer identify as a follower of Jesus,

1:04:25

he cursed. He used some sort of foul language.

1:04:27

And that's what really got me in saying, when

1:04:30

I do use foul language, as annoying as

1:04:32

it is, when I do, I'm separating myself

1:04:34

from the character of Jesus. Yeah, that's how

1:04:36

I felt separated. And I don't want, I

1:04:39

didn't want this to happen to me.

1:04:41

Okay, you know what? I'm singing along to

1:04:43

songs and I'm a loser. I'm skipping over

1:04:45

the other version now. He's

1:04:49

so ridiculous. But

1:04:51

I was feeling the separation from

1:04:53

God when I was living in

1:04:55

sin, when I was sexually active

1:04:57

before marriage, when I was swearing.

1:05:00

And the minute I stopped all

1:05:03

that, oh man, the

1:05:06

Holy Spirit is on me in a whole

1:05:08

different way. It's incredible. I'm

1:05:10

telling you, you block. And I'm telling you

1:05:12

guys this as a friend, like truly someone

1:05:14

who, guys, six months ago, like please, I-

1:05:16

I didn't even know the Bible a year

1:05:18

ago, by the way. We are the last

1:05:20

people who are gonna sit here and be

1:05:22

like, you should do this, because we grew

1:05:25

up, it's changed my book. We are so

1:05:27

hungry to elevate spiritually that we're noticing these

1:05:29

things when we truly listen to what it

1:05:31

says and cut it out. God rewards that

1:05:33

obedience immediately. You don't even know what

1:05:35

blessings you're blocking in your life because of the

1:05:37

little compromises that we're making. That's what we've realized

1:05:39

recently. When you make that hard choice, you're like,

1:05:41

I really don't want to because this would be

1:05:43

really cool to do this. And then you make

1:05:45

the hard decision because you know it's better and

1:05:47

he rewards you like 10,000. And

1:05:50

you think it's gonna be hard when you

1:05:52

make those decisions to stop, but

1:05:54

God takes the lust out of you. He took

1:05:56

it out of us. I looked at her the

1:05:58

other day, I said. Do you even

1:06:00

feel that like lust anymore? She goes no,

1:06:03

I said me either when you really make

1:06:05

that choice and be obedient He takes it

1:06:07

out of you. He changes the desires of

1:06:10

your heart. He changes the desires of your

1:06:12

heart Yeah, did you guys talk about my swearing

1:06:14

behind closed doors? Does that something you guys wanted to

1:06:16

fix on me? No, it's on you.

1:06:18

No, but I didn't notice that I didn't notice

1:06:20

it Is it something that challenged you guys when you

1:06:22

guys heard my stuff? Um,

1:06:25

yeah, it was we didn't talk

1:06:27

about it as if we were gonna bring it up

1:06:29

at all But we were watching like some clips together

1:06:32

and we I noticed that like you cuss on the

1:06:34

podcast And you

1:06:36

know, it's funny is our first episode. I'm pretty sure

1:06:38

we said a couple cuss words Yeah, we did. I

1:06:40

know on the second one. I spelt out a cuss

1:06:42

word as it because I just didn't we weren't living

1:06:44

You know what? I mean? We didn't know and honestly

1:06:46

we didn't really care yet, but it wasn't until I

1:06:49

think for us Ari

1:06:52

and I are in a situation where like we're

1:06:55

in ministry right now, right? Like we have this

1:06:57

podcast where we are I mean, it's not even

1:06:59

just that like we kind of talk about God

1:07:01

like it's biblically based We read the Bible every

1:07:03

episode and we deliver almost like a message kind

1:07:05

of like almost like a sermon like we have

1:07:07

a topic And then we flush it out with

1:07:10

the audience We are in

1:07:12

a position where like we didn't grow up in

1:07:14

a church. We don't know the language Yeah, we

1:07:16

don't have that to fall back on We

1:07:19

have one thing and it is the spirit

1:07:21

of the living God that flows through

1:07:23

us that gives us the words to

1:07:25

speak in the Things to say and

1:07:27

we are like truly we're scared like

1:07:29

fear the Lord on 10,000

1:07:31

right now because we know if we take

1:07:33

one step away from Jesus we lose that

1:07:35

sword Yeah, and I didn't even feel right

1:07:37

anymore I'm like we're up here preaching about

1:07:39

God preaching about the Bible and I was

1:07:41

like We cannot have one

1:07:44

foot out We can't be preaching the

1:07:46

Bible and bringing people to God and

1:07:48

then we're going home behind closed doors

1:07:50

and sinning swearing That's not it's not

1:07:52

biblical like we can't keep living like this

1:07:54

but being we're a ministry now But again and

1:07:56

that's right, but no but no but again, but

1:07:58

again like we weren't perfect It took us

1:08:00

a while to open our eyes and

1:08:02

realize this, you know? Yeah. But

1:08:05

when I watch you, I just, I

1:08:08

watch you and I just respect you.

1:08:10

And you are, I

1:08:12

see the Holy Spirit flow through you like

1:08:14

no other. When I watch, you're probably the

1:08:17

one person that I can actually sit there

1:08:19

for hours and just watch. You speak to

1:08:21

me because I feel like you and I

1:08:23

are truly cut from the same cloth. I

1:08:25

just, I respect you so much. But, and

1:08:27

no, we didn't say, oh, let's bring this

1:08:29

up. But I didn't notice that. And,

1:08:32

um, because I was like that. That's what we

1:08:34

did. So I was just, you know. I

1:08:39

make a vow that today's the last day, I swear.

1:08:41

Yeah. You guys challenge me.

1:08:43

I need a chill bum. I'm probably going to mess up

1:08:45

a lot. It's okay. But I'm going to go get

1:08:47

a band and write it on my hand every day

1:08:49

until I master it. You are awesome.

1:08:53

Yeah, I appreciate you guys giving me that. Thank

1:08:55

you. George. You're awesome, George. I respect

1:08:57

an angel. Nah, I got to, I

1:09:00

got to shape up. Uh. Do

1:09:03

you know why, George? Because you, you, and I

1:09:05

was telling Shauna this before you walked in. And I

1:09:07

talk about respect. The respect that I have for

1:09:09

you. And I don't even know your whole story.

1:09:11

And I didn't really watch it. I don't know about

1:09:14

your past in the industry or like where you even,

1:09:16

what you were doing. All I

1:09:18

know is that like you speak with such

1:09:20

an authority and such a reverence that people

1:09:22

bow down to the name of Jesus because

1:09:24

you speak. And I just,

1:09:27

I, like I see you, I can't even

1:09:29

imagine if God has trusted you with so

1:09:31

much that when you make these small

1:09:34

sacrifices that seem

1:09:36

small, even though they're kind of hard. He's

1:09:39

going to. You have

1:09:41

no idea where you're going to go. You think you have something. Now

1:09:43

you have no idea what's going to happen. He is

1:09:46

so I, we are proud of

1:09:48

you. God is proud of you. You're moving in

1:09:50

an industry for people who would never otherwise hear

1:09:52

the name of Jesus. Yeah. It's unbelievable. I

1:09:55

really appreciate it. You have no idea how many

1:09:57

people you've brought to God back from my home.

1:10:00

You know who they watch you they respect

1:10:02

you like you have no idea what you're

1:10:04

doing in the kingdom So like such a

1:10:07

sweet message after like this is like this

1:10:09

is such like a mom medicine You know I mean my

1:10:11

mom would like sit down and like and just be like

1:10:13

she tell me things that she loves about me And then

1:10:15

she goes, but you know you need to change is like

1:10:18

this and it's so much You

1:10:21

guys you guys have inspired me. I

1:10:23

will be more diligent with my tongue And I will

1:10:25

remember this the day the girls gone Bible corrected my

1:10:27

time I

1:10:29

really appreciate you guys. I never felt convicted to fix I

1:10:31

would always say well I'm working on it But it was

1:10:34

always in the back of my mind because to

1:10:36

be honest I just had so much in my forefront that I'm

1:10:38

like I gotta handle this first and then Because

1:10:41

my comic stuff has a lot of swimmers

1:10:43

in there a lot of progress, but I

1:10:45

was giving God excuses instead of plans Yeah,

1:10:48

I don't know how I'm gonna attack this, but I

1:10:50

know that I will fix this yeah You know what

1:10:52

it is just like that

1:10:55

It's as I said earlier like

1:10:57

it seems hard to make these changes But when

1:11:00

you just like you have to have blind faith in

1:11:02

Jesus like we can't see him We can't touch him

1:11:04

so we have to have blind faith you have to

1:11:06

have blind faith in his command and in his word

1:11:08

and Oftentimes the conviction comes

1:11:11

afterwards when we first started girls gone

1:11:13

Bible like I'm not I was not

1:11:15

Throlled to a total next up to

1:11:18

my ears. You know what I mean like

1:11:20

I did like I was not we were like We just

1:11:22

were trapped More

1:11:28

than that And

1:11:31

it was and I was so reluctant

1:11:34

Changing the way I dress changing the way I

1:11:36

post and I tried for a while to like

1:11:38

continue doing the things that I was doing until

1:11:40

honestly the Christian community that I used to look

1:11:42

so down upon I We

1:11:45

got so many messages in the beginning and so

1:11:47

much correction from from Christians and at first I

1:11:49

was like god the Christians. They're so annoying. I

1:11:52

hate them brother annoying I

1:11:57

didn't even know who that was I

1:12:00

was like, why did they pick my name? I

1:12:03

don't think it was a Christian brother. No,

1:12:06

I know. No, we got like

1:12:09

mauled in the beginning. Some of it was well

1:12:11

deserved. A lot of it was well

1:12:13

deserved. A lot of it we had some ways of

1:12:15

behaving. But it works out better.

1:12:18

But listen, and so we were so reluctant in the

1:12:20

beginning. I was not happy about it. All

1:12:22

of those little acts of obedience and taking

1:12:24

that step of faith into God's word, what

1:12:26

he wants for you. My

1:12:29

appetite changed. He changed my heart afterwards.

1:12:31

So sometimes you have to step first

1:12:33

and then the peace will come with

1:12:35

it afterwards. And the power will come.

1:12:38

That's so beautiful you say that because it's a

1:12:40

respect thing. We're a

1:12:42

lazy, very very spoiled generation.

1:12:45

Look how they took to their dads nowadays. And

1:12:48

so they're talking with that type of emphasis

1:12:50

to their king. They're making

1:12:52

it seem like, alright God you come to me and then

1:12:54

we'll start making it work. And

1:12:56

he created you out of dirt. That's

1:12:58

crazy that you're talking to him

1:13:01

like that. And so I

1:13:03

guess I'll hang myself up to dry. I said

1:13:05

I don't think I need to fix this. And

1:13:08

I put my needs over God's. When

1:13:11

I should have just read the scripture and had no

1:13:13

other thing to say besides fixing it. So I think

1:13:15

it just took two girls to tell me like yo

1:13:17

what's up with your mouth. And now

1:13:19

it got me thinking. Because like yeah,

1:13:21

as much as I don't want to be looked at as

1:13:23

a pastor right now. I just want to be George and

1:13:25

a man who's like fixing himself in front of the world.

1:13:28

That yeah, I can't get,

1:13:30

I can't sit here and take all

1:13:32

of the awesome blessings that God gave me.

1:13:34

And then not the repercussions. And

1:13:36

the repercussions is I am affecting

1:13:38

him again. That's what it is. I

1:13:41

love that. That's what it is. Yeah.

1:13:44

I was just at the point where I was, he did

1:13:46

so much for me in my life. How could I disobey

1:13:48

him in that way? How could I

1:13:50

still be doing what I was doing when he, look

1:13:52

at what he's done in my life. Look at what

1:13:54

he's done. When I had battle,

1:13:56

I was in such a gratitude state that

1:13:58

I was fixing it. fixing things before they

1:14:00

become a problem so I could treat the gift

1:14:03

that he gave me with diligence and

1:14:05

gratitude so that way it was never taken from me.

1:14:07

Because a lot of people are like, well, God's a

1:14:09

loving God. He wouldn't take anything from it. No, no,

1:14:11

no, no, no. Your God is a father,

1:14:13

which means I don't know if you've had a good father,

1:14:15

but your father takes the thing you love the most when

1:14:17

you're being a bad kid. He's also my father. So

1:14:19

if you're being bad for me, then he's going to

1:14:21

remove me. Or if I'm being bad for you, he's

1:14:23

going to remove me. Amen. So

1:14:26

like I shaped up the way I was behaving

1:14:28

and it, and it reluctantly worked out. My behavior

1:14:30

of me like sculpting myself to be a better

1:14:32

man for you. And then I'm

1:14:34

just very open and I don't really care what people

1:14:36

think about me. So I talk about it. That took

1:14:38

me to a different level without even me thinking about

1:14:40

it, taking me to a different level. So I walked

1:14:43

with accordingly to God. I walked closer to God and

1:14:45

ironically more blessings came my way. So

1:14:47

it's no surprise. If you're going to walk closer to

1:14:49

the sun, you're going to get brighter. So

1:14:52

I literally, I have to, I have to,

1:14:54

and I think what happened was, and I, and I check myself all

1:14:56

the time and I don't mean to bring you guys up to be

1:14:58

vulnerable. You can cut this out if you want, but how many times

1:15:00

do you guys hear me like, yo, should I be working on this?

1:15:02

Should I not be working on this? Like

1:15:04

I'm always in a constant state of like

1:15:06

what I need to fix about myself because

1:15:08

I truly in my heart, every time somebody

1:15:10

daps me up and they go, yo Jesus.

1:15:13

And then I go mom, mom, mom, and

1:15:15

they're telling me something. All I hear is

1:15:17

God goes, this is a privilege you being.

1:15:19

Yeah. You speaking my name

1:15:21

is a privilege. I will remove you

1:15:23

so quick when it gets to your head. And

1:15:25

you think that it's you and not me. I'm

1:15:27

going to rip that rug between your legs. Like

1:15:29

you, you're done. If you get it. So

1:15:32

I'm always looking for the thing that

1:15:34

I could correct. No one works

1:15:36

more on themselves than this man. I love

1:15:38

that beautiful. Can

1:15:40

I, can I tell you a little story really

1:15:42

quick about, because that just comes down to the

1:15:44

fear of the Lord and the reverence that you

1:15:47

have for God is so beautiful. And that's why

1:15:49

you're able to go up with such a boldness

1:15:51

on these massive platforms in front of people who

1:15:53

are not only not accepting of your Jesus, but

1:15:55

literally making fun of him and making fun of

1:15:57

you for loving Jesus. God,

1:15:59

I mean, that's. That's why you're being rewarded the way

1:16:01

that you are. You are on top. You are literally

1:16:03

number one in your lane and you

1:16:05

know that. Ari and I

1:16:07

are so big on humility. We're so

1:16:10

big on making sure

1:16:12

that God is at the center of everything

1:16:14

we do and it being all about Him.

1:16:16

I mean so much so to the point

1:16:18

that we hit our knees every single day

1:16:20

and we ask God to empty us of

1:16:22

any ego pride, selfishness, self-centeredness or self-servingness. I

1:16:25

had a moment where it was

1:16:27

like right after we started the podcast, there was

1:16:29

a kind of a, and the podcast has become

1:16:31

our life and it's the favorite. You know it's

1:16:33

our baby, it's what we love so much. Our

1:16:36

audience is, I mean we're like on this journey

1:16:38

together bringing people to Jesus is like nothing you

1:16:40

could ever experience in your life. And

1:16:42

so it means everything more than anything else to

1:16:44

us. And I had a moment where I

1:16:47

was battling with something in my life that

1:16:49

was kind of like the last thing that

1:16:51

I had to lay down, the last thing that was standing

1:16:54

in the way of me and God's relationship. And

1:16:57

it was big and it was hard and it

1:16:59

was so ingrained in me and my being and

1:17:01

who I am and how I've lived my life

1:17:03

and gone about relationships. And I never even

1:17:06

thought for a second that I would be

1:17:08

able to put this thing down. And

1:17:10

I was also in a place where I was like I

1:17:12

don't really want to either actually and I don't have to

1:17:14

and God loves me no matter what. You know what I

1:17:16

mean? Look what He's done for me. Look

1:17:18

what He's done for me. And when people say

1:17:20

that, it scares me to my core. I get

1:17:22

scared when my parents say that. I

1:17:25

beg them. I go, mom, you need to stop using me

1:17:27

as an example for things that you know you need to

1:17:29

work on. Like look at my, okay, look at where I

1:17:31

am. Look at my chisels. I'm like, hey, don't make him

1:17:33

give you an example. Don't

1:17:35

make me an example. Don't bring me into this example, bro. Because

1:17:39

like people will look at my success and views and

1:17:41

money and think that is glory to God. It's

1:17:44

just the fruit that comes with the other

1:17:46

blessings. But here we all know this. We

1:17:48

would throw that into the fire first before

1:17:50

we throw our relationship with God. I think He

1:17:53

won't give you all of that. The

1:17:55

Bible verses that seek me first and the rest

1:17:57

shall follow. I always talk about this because it's

1:17:59

like, what is it? that mean and it's so

1:18:01

vague and I think it needs to be vague

1:18:03

because it's so many different human beings okay I

1:18:05

search for God first and everything follows well what's

1:18:07

everything oh I didn't know who I am now

1:18:09

I know who I am I didn't know what

1:18:11

my purpose is now I know who my purpose

1:18:13

is I wasn't happy now I'm happy everything that

1:18:15

you would ever need is gonna be provided to

1:18:17

you if you just come to

1:18:19

me yeah come to me and I'll give it

1:18:21

to you well

1:18:23

how do you want me to come to you when

1:18:26

do you want me to come to you should I

1:18:28

come now or let should I finish this up and

1:18:30

then come to you and it's always we're always

1:18:32

looking at what we got going on thank you and

1:18:35

it's it's hard and like for the swearing thing for

1:18:37

me like that was it that to me was like

1:18:40

I was such an ego maniac I go from

1:18:42

being so humble to such an ego right I'll

1:18:44

be like look at these Christians teaching me how

1:18:46

to talk well God didn't give you that platform

1:18:49

so obviously like why are you talking to me

1:18:51

about this and then later on that night

1:18:53

I read my Bible and God's like hey you

1:18:55

ever say that again even in your darkest

1:18:57

part of your heart I will hang you to

1:19:00

dry in front of the whole entire world yeah

1:19:02

I'm like truly humble yourself

1:19:05

like well some people don't

1:19:07

know better people that haven't been

1:19:09

introduced the Bible but we know

1:19:11

better so when you know better

1:19:14

you know it's worse for you

1:19:16

to know and turn away than for you

1:19:18

not to know because you know that's what

1:19:20

it is oh I was just gonna say I was sitting I

1:19:25

was sitting alone in my room one day and I

1:19:27

had this like stirring in my heart of God pressing

1:19:29

in on me and it was getting louder and louder

1:19:31

and the conviction was louder and I was still able

1:19:33

to harden my heart and close my ears enough to

1:19:35

ignore it and I just had a moment where I

1:19:37

was sitting by myself at two o'clock in the morning

1:19:39

and I know it's from God because I wasn't even

1:19:41

thinking about him and he just spoke into my heart

1:19:43

and goes you know I don't need you right and

1:19:48

I know those are scary things I was like

1:19:50

what I'm

1:19:54

your special one he goes I

1:19:56

don't need you I could

1:19:59

use literally anyone You're not qualified for

1:20:01

this you may be qualified and

1:20:03

then it was the next day when we were together

1:20:05

It was the next day I literally I woke up

1:20:07

and I I was like I'm done and I was

1:20:09

done that day and he spoken to me so hard

1:20:11

But it was the fear of the fear of the

1:20:14

Lord at the beginning of wisdom And

1:20:16

were you done with them? Well,

1:20:20

yeah the sin that second Corinthians says is the

1:20:22

only one against your own body. Yeah sex I'm

1:20:30

running down all the things Second

1:20:34

currency is the first thing I think it's

1:20:36

second. Yeah. No, that's crazy

1:20:43

I'm like, I'm literally saying if I marry Funny

1:20:46

guy I will do anything but like I

1:20:49

gotta get some because like if I don't don't

1:20:51

be really moody and like I mean I like

1:20:53

it's you've made me this way. These are my

1:20:55

emotions like we give such light a so funny

1:20:57

like Well, when we're in relationships, I

1:21:00

was like, what's the point of a relationship

1:21:02

before if we're not intimate That's where you

1:21:04

find before I found my love. Yeah. Yeah,

1:21:06

but it was really I really I know

1:21:08

Pete we've never talked What this is the

1:21:10

first time I know this is about that's

1:21:12

why we're reluctant to ever talk about it

1:21:14

So we got that school done Because

1:21:17

it's the only question we get are you guys the

1:21:19

absent are you absent and we just were waiting until

1:21:21

we feel comfortable to have an episode on and to

1:21:23

talk about it because it is so personal and it's

1:21:25

of course, it's been like such a It's

1:21:28

been the most transformative part of our life and

1:21:30

of our journey I but

1:21:33

you know, it's funny I wanted to bring it up

1:21:35

so many times this conversation how we were talking earlier

1:21:37

how dudes are like nobody wants to settle down Nobody

1:21:39

wants to get married and it's like why would anyone

1:21:41

settle down and get married when you have all the

1:21:43

benefits of being married? Without putting

1:21:46

a ring that's what it is And if you

1:21:48

think about getting married like what what's really the

1:21:50

benefit other than having sex? You know what? I

1:21:52

mean like you and like living together, but other

1:21:55

than that, so it's like when you take Sex

1:21:57

out of a relationship like if Nobody

1:22:00

could have sex before marriage, everybody

1:22:02

would be married. 100%, here's the

1:22:04

thing I wanna circle back to. A

1:22:07

lot of people have challenges in their life

1:22:09

from what they've asked. Let

1:22:12

me give you an example. You get up

1:22:14

in the morning, God, I wanna be a

1:22:16

strong, independent woman who's a hard worker, who

1:22:18

has strong faith, and

1:22:20

then you have like a week or a month of like

1:22:23

being lost and confused, and now you're

1:22:26

getting so much crap thrown at you

1:22:28

and you're like, yo, what is going

1:22:30

on? What's going on is

1:22:32

God's answering your prayer. Yes, yes. What's

1:22:34

going on is God heard you and

1:22:36

said, this is who you want to

1:22:38

become, but these people had to go

1:22:40

through these type of obstacles to become

1:22:42

this person, so get started. I got

1:22:44

you in your place, you could move,

1:22:46

I will be right with you, there's

1:22:48

nothing you can't handle but I can't

1:22:50

do it for you. Because

1:22:53

that's the one gift that I gave you, it's choice.

1:22:56

You could do whatever you want with it. You

1:22:58

could either build your home, clean your

1:23:00

home, or you could

1:23:02

sit there in your filth and just play victim.

1:23:04

Right, yeah. It's your choice, but you

1:23:06

keep asking me and I'll keep delivering, I'm

1:23:09

the God of deliverance. So you say I

1:23:11

wanna be strong every day but you're not

1:23:13

working on it, your problems are stacked, you

1:23:16

gotta go. Listen, I

1:23:19

think the power of prayer is so strong, but

1:23:21

we live in a world where people don't know

1:23:23

how to pray. I know. They don't

1:23:25

know how to pray. I pray to God that my career

1:23:27

is gonna go to a different level. Okay, is that how

1:23:29

you talk to him? How

1:23:32

is that even a thing? He's not a

1:23:34

genie. Yeah, yeah. How do you wanna get

1:23:36

better? Well, look, I don't know, I just don't like

1:23:39

where I'm at. Okay, well, what would you wanna fix?

1:23:41

Well, I have no ideas to create. Okay, well, why

1:23:43

don't you ask God for wisdom to

1:23:46

learn how to create things? And

1:23:48

then be a hard worker and

1:23:50

be diligent and stay focused. You

1:23:53

ask for utensils for you to work,

1:23:56

but he's not gonna just drop it in front of you

1:23:59

because then you'd be spoiled. You wouldn't

1:24:01

earn it. And also, he's robbing you of

1:24:03

the gift. Let me tell you something. A

1:24:05

social media star who makes one video of

1:24:07

those overnight success and thinks he's amazing, versus

1:24:10

the man that took 15 years in

1:24:13

acting rooms, auditioning, breaking, and what he

1:24:15

holds to the award, and he's looking out

1:24:17

from his peers, and he's like, how many

1:24:19

nights that I picture being here, and

1:24:21

working, and crafting, and getting goosebumps, and my

1:24:24

mom's looking at me with tears in her

1:24:26

eyes because she sees and wiped the tears,

1:24:28

and wiped the blood, and she knew exactly

1:24:30

what I put. There's a difference

1:24:33

in that feeling. And God doesn't

1:24:35

want to rob you from that feeling. So if you

1:24:37

could believe you could get it done, stop.

1:24:41

This is my last swear word ever. Don't

1:24:44

do it. Don't say it. Just say it for me. Stop

1:24:46

being, being. Yes,

1:24:50

yes, that was good. I like that. Wait,

1:24:52

wait, wait. You just almost killed my dog. It's

1:24:55

OK. That's actually a sacrifice. We sacrifice

1:24:57

animals for God. Thanks for watching today's

1:24:59

episode. Thank

1:25:02

you so much for coming and for being vulnerable

1:25:04

and for sharing. Thank you so

1:25:06

much. Thank you. Thank you so much. We

1:25:08

adore you. We love what you're doing. And

1:25:10

I was telling you guys earlier, thank you,

1:25:12

Jesus, for you guys, for what you're doing

1:25:14

with the platform that God gave you, even

1:25:16

modeling an engagement and a marriage

1:25:18

soon to be, and probably a family coming in

1:25:21

the days to come in this

1:25:24

city. Do you understand what you're

1:25:26

doing? We're setting an example for

1:25:28

everybody who doesn't live this life.

1:25:30

Yeah, I was going to say, watching you, you guys

1:25:32

gave me a lot of insight because you

1:25:34

are showing people not to give up. That's

1:25:36

why you always put God at the forefront

1:25:38

of your relationship. You never gave up on

1:25:40

her. You brought it to God. You guys

1:25:42

worked it out. And I think now in

1:25:44

today's society, everything's disposable with social

1:25:47

media. So they're just like, on to

1:25:49

the next. And you guys exude the

1:25:51

perfect example of a good relationship

1:25:53

that you put God at the forefront. It's

1:25:56

beautiful. You guys taught me so much today.

1:25:58

Beautiful. I would like to take. Zero

1:26:00

credit. Yeah, yeah. I will say this is the

1:26:02

last thing I'm gonna say. 10 years of, she's

1:26:04

my longest friend out here. Like this is gonna

1:26:06

be- Hi. 10

1:26:08

years of being on here, an ego maniac. Somebody

1:26:10

who's trying to like do everything on his own.

1:26:13

I got no praise for it. Zero

1:26:15

praise for my craft. Being in movies

1:26:17

or TV shows. Like nobody was ever

1:26:19

coming up to me like, bro, I'm

1:26:21

really inspired by you. But now people

1:26:23

are coming from my industry and from

1:26:26

outside being like, we're inspired. It has

1:26:28

zero to do with me. Zero,

1:26:31

not even 1%. I

1:26:33

just submitted myself. I was in a chokehold and

1:26:35

I got into a place where I could not

1:26:37

breathe no more. And I said, and

1:26:40

reluctantly I'm just a dude who talks a

1:26:42

lot. And I'm very, very okay with

1:26:44

telling people what's going on in my life. It

1:26:47

is a blessing to know God. And

1:26:50

like, bro, like if

1:26:52

you see me, I'm public or if you're in

1:26:54

the industry, I don't want any credit. Zero credit,

1:26:57

it is all because of him. Yeah,

1:27:00

all right, I'll see you guys next time. Like,

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