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Now,
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you guys know what we do over here. I always say we highlight the
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I'm very excited to have this guest back on
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The Honeydew. Ladies and gentlemen, please welcome Dr.
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Drew. Welcome back to The Honeydew, young man. Yeah, buddy. Here
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we are. So why did YouTube put you in jail? I want to know
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more about that. Well, they never tell you. They just say
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we have- You can call and get a person sometimes if
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you're diligent. We have a contact
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who also tells us she can't help
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us with that and keeps pushing us off. So
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I've talked to Nadav about theirs. They
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don't tell you. They just say we manually
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reviewed it. My
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question would be, how many people? One
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person? Complained. Does
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one person decide the fate of everything
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that goes out there to all people? What everybody
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else can listen to. And then they
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give you their bylaws, they give you their algorithm,
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and it says nothing. You can look at it and go,
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I didn't do any of these things. What are you
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talking about? It's so disturbing. Also,
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I think they don't
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like... Well, this show is...
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Please subscribe to this show and
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help this show because the words on this
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show, and I'm going to say them now, so this will be a demonetized
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episode. But when we talk about trauma and abuse
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and molestation and rape, those are
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words- You're not allowed to talk about those things? Those are the words that
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the algorithm doesn't like. We're
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demonetized in the queue. When
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Kirsten posts an episode on Sunday
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for a Tuesday release, it's already limited.
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I don't know if they're using AI to search
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words or what it is, is my guess.
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Because how could you possibly...
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We just uploaded it five seconds
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ago. How in the hell did someone listen to it?
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It's literally the most significant...
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and common medical issues of our time.
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Yeah.
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I glorified weed
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in their opinion, which I mean, I technically
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do, over alcohol I do. I didn't
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glorify it in general, just
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comparing it to the one thing. And
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they don't like weed or marijuana
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on YouTube at all. That seems counter their
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culture, the thing where they would like it. Even though it's legal, even though
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it's medicinal, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. So, the only
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thing about weed though, you know, I have no
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problem with people's fucking weed, I don't give a shit. We
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are seeing some stuff now. Tell me, because
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you know, because of the concentration. The concentrations,
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as you know, are
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so intense. Oh, you mean the power of these
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things? Oh yeah, these things. And so we are seeing
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people that, whose brains can't
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handle that. We're seeing psychosis, we're
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seeing mood disturbances, we're seeing anxiety
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disorders, and we're seeing addiction
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too. Particularly if you're getting onto the
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dabs. Yeah, I don't know, God. I
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don't even think my lungs can handle that. So, it's
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really like, it's crack, it's the crack of weed.
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I don't even do the, they also have infused
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ones where they're taking the kef and then
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putting it back in. I'm like,
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just give me some flour. Just
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some flour. It's because people get tolerant and they need
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more and more, and that's a problem if you're getting
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into that sort of zone. Not that, you
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know, the plain people smoke weed every day, they're fine. And I'm
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not saying that at all, but I'm saying that we gotta get honest
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about, given the concentrations of THC
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that are in there, it is starting to affect
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people's life and brain. This isn't the weed from the Vietnam era. Yeah.
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No, they don't even know about, you're
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not even old enough to remember taking seeds, seeds
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and sticks out of the weeds. Dr. Drew, what are you talking
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about? By the lid? I would sit down
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and put an album in
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front of me with one on, and
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I would sit there in an hour of seeding
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my weed. So, I didn't get
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the pops and the cracks and the sticks. Oh my
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God, so funny. They eat the seeds, remember that? Yeah,
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my brothers used to chew them. And then we'd read things
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or hear things that there were cyanide in them and
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stuff. Is that real though? I don't
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know. It was all the rumors I heard that. Look,
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I wanted to talk to you about this. So, this
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show is...
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people coming on and talking about the
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worst times of their life, they're talking about their trauma,
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the things they've overcome. What
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I don't think we've ever really discussed
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is actually what trauma is, what
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it does to the imprinting
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of a person, especially at the age
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that it happens. I know like
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listening to, again, I'm old, listening to Love
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Line back in the day when you guys would talk about,
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especially a young lady who had a voice
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that was high pitched in her 40s
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or 50s. And
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also I've smoked a lot of weed. I feel
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like there was a correlation to about the time
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that trauma happened to them, maybe the age-ish,
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am I sort of in the ballpark on that?
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So one of the things that trauma does
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is arrest development. And we
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started noticing that we would close our
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eyes and listen to some of these voices. We would
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immediately, I could literally
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picture the age of the trauma, like
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I'm talking to a six-year-old, that's what comes
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to mind for an eight-year-old. The voice
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would trigger an image in my head
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of the age of that individual I was speaking
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to, never
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wrong. Never. We was never wrong. And
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there was another thing, because
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just because we were sitting there, you know, with headphones listening
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all night, we also would
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get other kinds of feelings from people if they
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had sort of personality disorders from
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the traumas, because they would immediately,
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we'd get, you know, Adam would have a certain reaction,
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I'd have a reaction. And that's how things
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work. I mean, back in the psychiatric, when I ran
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programs in the psychiatric hospital, we
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would sort of confirm our
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diagnostic impressions based on how
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people responded to the patients,
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or how they responded to us even. In
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other words, I had a nurse, my charge nurse
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loved sociopaths. And if she would say,
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and when the patient would come in, she'd just go, oh, I love
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him. He's so entertaining. We'd just go, oh, shit, here we go.
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Sociopath. If the patient, you
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knew off of our reaction. And we were never wrong.
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And if the patient liked
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me, like a lot, it
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was a female borderline, the borderline is like.
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And my partner, my physician partner, if
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they liked him, bipolar disorder. All the
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bipolar is like, it was just very interesting. And so that's
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why you have to have a team, because how we respond
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to other people and how they respond to us is, it's protein.
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It's all over the place. And some people don't
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like or don't respond to others. And so you have to have somebody
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that you can reach them with. So that was
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that. So then back to trauma.
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So trauma, you
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know, we really, when you're talking about trauma, you're,
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there's adult trauma,
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right? Being in an earthquake or the military
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trauma, that kind of thing that results in all
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sorts of symptomatology around
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PTSD and anxiety disorders and sleep
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disturbances and intrusive images and
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all the things we know about the veterans struggle with. Right?
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That is a certain kind of trauma.
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It's an overwhelmingly, overwhelming
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experience in adulthood. If
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you've had
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earlier trauma,
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those overwhelming experiences in adulthood
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tend to be more likely to trigger PTSD. So
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that's sort of adult trauma. It
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doesn't really affect your personality development
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or anything like that.
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Early trauma has a whole
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different
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thing to it. So really the trauma that
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we're most concerned with is childhood trauma, right?
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And we in this country have lived through many
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years of massive denial about
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what harms children. I mean, there's now finally
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in the 90s, they came up with the adverse childhood experiences,
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the A scale. What, if you
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have three or more of those experiences
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in childhood,
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that is sort of chronic trauma.
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That's, you have a higher probability of- And what
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percentage of people is that? That's very
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high. Like, is there anyone
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that goes, there's no one that goes unscathed on this
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walking out of space. They're boring if they
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do. Fair enough. People are
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very interesting when they've had pathologies and things. But
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let me tell you some of the things that are on the A scale and you'll
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see how calm they are. Divorce. I
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mean, Jesus Christ. Yeah.
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a drug addict to the family, a family
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member in prison. I mean, you don't have
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to have overt physical or sexual abuse.
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Of course, those are on the list too. Domestic
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abuse, not necessarily violence, just fighting
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and the parents. So just add substance,
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divorce and fighting. I would say
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you're lucky if you only have three. Right,
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to be honest. And when you get five, then you
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really are likely to have very serious long-term
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problems, both medically and
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psychiatrically. And it's very
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common to have all. And there are some that
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sort of obviously are heavier, so to
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speak, are more likely to impact. And when you do
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have things like physical and sexual abuse, usually
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have some of the other things going on as well. So, so. See,
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I like talking to you. How old are you now, Dr. Drew? God
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damn you look good, you son of a bitch. God bless you. You look
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good.
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What are we planning here, Brian?
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Man, I'm through, bro. I noticed those
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guns as soon as you got out of the car. I was like, look at
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you, you son of a bitch. I, you
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got me by 14 years, but still,
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I feel, I always say I'm part of the walk it
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off generation. Like you'd go to your parents
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back then, and it's like, just walk it off. Yeah, yeah,
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yeah. Walk it off. You know that little. By
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the way, we thought it was horrible and abusive, but it
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wasn't so bad relative to what they were going
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on these days. You're right about that. So I told you
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what's on my mind today is I watched the Arnold documentary
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on Netflix,
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and he was just like, get busy,
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do stuff, do things, make a difference, get
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involved, just kind of do things. Your
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whole life should be busy, and you won't be so disturbed
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by these things. And he had a physically abusive father,
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alcoholic, and had all kinds of horrible shit
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happen to him in childhood too. But
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let's get back to what trauma is.
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So trauma- Can I just say this real quick,
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and this is why I wanted to ask you this, and I don't want
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to interrupt, and I'll shut up after this. Well, I don't want to drag
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on, so maybe interrupt some problems. No, no, no, back at the YMH days
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before pandemic and all that
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good stuff happened, I
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had talked to you about my
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mother and the physical,
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mental, emotional abuse, I suffered all that. And
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you said something interesting to me. You said, if you're gonna,
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because I may- even toyed with having her on an episode
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or something, you said it's interesting, but how old is
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she now? And I said, yeah, she's probably 70 or
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whatever. And you said it's, you
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gotta be careful with something like that because
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at some point when you see
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that old feeble whatever person,
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you end up looking like
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a bully who's still attacking
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this person, right? And the funny
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thing to me is,
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like I've worked on it, we have a relationship
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now, but up until I was 40,
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I could have said to you easily, I could
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live another 40 years and still be like,
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fuck you, lady. So that imprinting
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in every fiber of me from
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early on lives underlying
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everything I do out there. So
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forgiveness and owning it and all that is really, really
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important. But it'd be interesting. Can
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we talk about how something that young, whatever
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your trauma is, it's everlasting.
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We'll get there. It's not, I mean, it leaves
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its mark. It doesn't have to destroy you.
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But it's not going to go on.
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Would you agree it's not going anywhere especially
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or getting any better if you don't work it? Oh
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boy. Yeah, no. I mean, different
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people have different ways. I mean, both, I watched
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the documentary from both Steven Spielberg
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and Arnold Schwarzenegger, and both of them talked about how
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their work was their sort of process
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and how they, but they also worked with therapists over
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the year, I'm sure, or somebody did around
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them and maybe they sort of, how
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people around us and how we fit with them changes
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who we are too. So
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anyway, so
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I had
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an abusive mom, too, emotionally
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abusive, unavailable, all that kind of stuff. And
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towards the end of her
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life, she never came around. Never.
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No. And in fact, she
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was leaning on me hard late in her life for
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medical stuff. And then every
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time I'd offer her an opinion, she would fight with
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me, like, abusively fight with me. And
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finally I go, what, don't come to me for this stuff. Have you...
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She goes, just because I fight doesn't mean I'm
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not gonna listen to you. And I thought, oh, this
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is perfect. I just have to bust
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your balls because that's what I do.
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And I finally thought, I'm never
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gonna get
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anything out of this relationship other
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than I have to do what I need to do
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to be a good son.
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And that's it. And that's
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how it ended. I never got anything
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from that relationship. It's almost
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funny. So what was a good son in
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your eyes to that person? To answer her
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medical problems, to show up and visit
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regularly and to be available and not
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fucking pop off
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any of this bullshit when she started firing
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at me. And
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it's funny. She
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used to yell a lot and we arranged
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a caretaker for her. And I
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felt vindicated when this
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woman said to me, she goes, no,
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it's great. I'm not gonna forget about the yelling, the yelling.
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My God, the yelling. I thought, imagine
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you're three and that's going on. How
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long did it take you to get that vindication?
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How many years? Some
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people die before they ever get it. You
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know what I mean? Some people die. Yep.
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So
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trauma
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is essentially the experience
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of, at least
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psychically, if not physically, the
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organism, the person has
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a sense that they will not go forward. They
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will not go on being. It is a total
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destruction either of the soul
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or the body. Like I'm going to
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die or this experience is just
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destroying me psychically. And
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that experience of,
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we're not set up for that in childhood. We
15:45
can't manage that. If you're a Navy SEAL,
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you can manage that. You're trained to do it. It
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still affects you, right? You still have symptoms
15:52
later down the road.
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But as a child, it literally
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shatters the upper limits of the brain's
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regulatory capacity.
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So the brain floods with cortisol,
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it shuts down, the vagus system,
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the parasympathetic system kicks
16:07
in overdrive. You have both hyperstimulation
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because you're in sort of a fight or flight and
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hyperinhibition because you can't go
16:14
anywhere. You're stuck, you're being abused. And
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the hyperinhibition is probably what
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does all the damage. And in
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that state, our vagus
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nerve evolves with three distinct nuclei.
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And one of the nuclei is linked
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into higher functions. So
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it has to kind of develop. And
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it develops as a key component
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of the brain's regulatory system. So
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the vagus is turned out is
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very embedded, as we said, in the parasympathetic
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system. And that happens to be embedded also
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that those vagal offshoots with
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the parasympathetic input are
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embedded in what are called the brachial pouches.
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The brachial pouches are what develop the
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muscles to the ears, vocal cords,
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all the facial musculature. So
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when we feel something, we can literally
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attune our ear to
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vocal prosody in the other. We
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can use vocal prosody to express
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emotion ourselves. And the tiny
17:13
movements of our facial muscles have deep
17:16
communication potential to particularly
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children who may be pre-verbal,
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for instance. That's how moms communicate with
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babies. With the tiniest input.
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And so
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that system gets shattered. It
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doesn't develop the normal inputs to
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the higher functions in the brain. And
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it stays in this sort of more
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primitive system of dissociation
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and shutdown. So dissociation
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both from the feelings
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and from your body also does
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dissociation from the higher functions in the brain.
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So shutdown, dissociation, either.
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And that dissociation can't even be some
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matter formed dissociation.
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So if- What is that? So if the body
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is the- source of the misery, the shattering,
18:02
physical abuse, sexual abuse,
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people will actually kind of dissociate
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from their body. And the body
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becomes a source of disorganized information
18:13
that they never can regulate. So oftentimes
18:15
you get chronic pain and all kinds
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of physical complaints that they can't explain
18:20
because they're disconnected from
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the normal inflow of information
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that gets regulated with the whole of
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the brain.
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Question so far. Is
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it fit? Makes sense? Yeah. So
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it begs the issue. So this is all
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work of a guy named Alan Shore and
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Stephen Porges. Stephen Porges
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has something called the Polyvagal Theory where he talks about
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this socio-emotional exchange system, which
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is the vagal system that
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we evolved with as primates
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and humans in particular,
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particularly to communicate with mom.
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That's really what early pre-verbal
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communication, but we retain it the rest of our
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life. All right. My question is this. What
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made
19:05
doctors science start studying
19:07
this? What was the final tipping
19:09
point where they're like, all right, some shit's going on
19:11
in these humans. Let's look at this.
19:14
The Kaiser Adverse Childhood Experience
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score was like in the 90s or something,
19:19
maybe even the 2000s. And Adam and
19:21
I were talking to traumatized people every
19:24
night. It's obvious when you work in general
19:26
medicine or in psychiatry, all the impact
19:28
of trauma, because that's always what you see. There
19:31
was no agreement in the medical community that had a thing.
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I don't know.
19:35
Even that late is 90s. Oh, yeah. I think
19:37
some of it is the history of psychiatry. And
19:39
some of it is the lack of willingness to
19:42
look at the social, what was really going
19:44
on in our country because we had all these divorces.
19:47
Good. Kids are little adults.
19:49
They're fine. They're just, look how resilient
19:51
they are. They're about playing. They seem fine. We
19:54
were in massive, massive denial about this.
19:56
And the Kaiser study on
19:59
A-scores was really just somebody
20:01
noticed that all these people with all these medical problems
20:04
also seem to have this trauma. Hmm.
20:06
I wonder if childhood experiences impact on our medical
20:08
wellbeing later. It seems to do
20:11
that, but no thought of how it
20:13
doesn't yet. I never thought. The
20:15
other problem I think was people
20:17
don't appreciate, there's
20:18
a book out there called Shrink by a guy named Lieberman
20:21
that chronicles this history very beautifully. How
20:24
much American psychiatry was captured
20:26
by psychoanalysis. And psychoanalysis
20:30
minimized trauma in many, in sort
20:32
of generally. And trauma was something
20:34
sort of imagined, right?
20:36
You imagined having sex with your mother
20:39
and you imagined that somebody physically, it's
20:42
all like it was going, and sometimes it is, let's be fair.
20:44
Sometimes these are distorted memory and false memories, things like
20:46
that. How do you decipher that?
20:48
Oh, you can't. It's almost possible. It is.
20:51
Because they believe it so much. They experience
20:53
it. The selling of it is. Yeah. I mean,
20:56
oftentimes I deal with the parents, these
20:58
people that have these vivid experiences
21:00
that I have to sit and process
21:02
with them because they're their experiences. And
21:05
the parents just go, I just didn't have it. I
21:07
don't, okay.
21:09
But I remember of all
21:11
things, Maria Bamford's mom saying some of that
21:14
stuff. I heard her saying like, Maria
21:16
has a lot of memories of me and I'm, but
21:18
maybe it did. Maybe it's the mom's distorted
21:21
memories. It doesn't matter. What
21:23
matters is the person has, carries this
21:25
with them and you've got to process it with them. So
21:28
it begs the issue of
21:30
how do you do that? And the
21:31
question,
21:35
let me just finish my comment about American psychoanalysis,
21:39
that they just didn't really want to deal with trauma
21:41
and it's a separate thing. They knew
21:43
it was there, but they didn't know what it was and they
21:45
didn't have a full theory about the impact. And it
21:47
was guys that developed the
21:50
world of interpersonal neurobiology
21:53
developed, like how brains
21:56
affect other brains. And Alan
21:58
Shore, he wrote a book.
21:59
called affect regulation, the origin of the self.
22:02
And that was really the breakthrough. And that's
22:04
probably 30 years ago now.
22:06
And he developed a whole
22:09
bunch of followers and people who did their own
22:11
research and developed their own stuff. And now
22:13
there's a whole discipline in that area. And
22:15
it just has bled into everything. Even though a lot of
22:17
doctors don't really know it in the detail
22:20
I'm sharing with you guys, they understand
22:22
that that's there. We've gotten away
22:24
from the single skull notion
22:26
of psychology and psychiatry.
22:31
The central nervous system, the brain,
22:33
in the 90s was the decade of the brain. We moved onto
22:36
that to realize, oh my
22:36
God, the brain is embedded in a body.
22:40
And that body is actually the source
22:42
of feelings. Feelings are things that come from
22:44
the body. We still don't know
22:46
how that really happens because
22:49
we have these huge nervous plexies.
22:52
People call them, what are the chakras? But
22:55
they're actually nervous blocks in here.
22:58
We don't know what they're doing. They're like little mini brains laying
23:00
down in our body that process information
23:02
coming out of our body and send it up through
23:04
the vagus nerve. And if that vagus
23:07
nerve is disconnected from the higher function,
23:09
then again, you're not really hearing your feelings.
23:12
You're not processing, regulating
23:15
feelings. It's that integrated system of
23:17
brain body we think of more now. But
23:19
of course that brain body is embedded in
23:22
relationships. Those relationships
23:24
are embedded in a socio historical
23:26
context. So you see how these
23:29
impacts, they're
23:31
waves that's spread out from
23:35
the individual experience. And you have to think about
23:37
all of this shit, especially in today's world now. So
23:40
it begs the issue
23:41
of how people develop
23:45
emotional regulation at all. And
23:48
it turns out brains heal
23:50
other brains. I think we've known that
23:52
for a long time. I think we'll sit with another person
23:54
in therapy and how
23:57
that brain healed other brains is something
23:59
that really wasn't.
23:59
that well understood until interpersonal neurobiology
24:02
came along. We start to understand more now of
24:04
how this thing of
24:07
closeness of two brain bodies
24:10
communicate in ways that are well beyond
24:13
words and just experiences.
24:17
There's something awesome about
24:19
the experience of two bodies in space when
24:21
the one body needs help and the other body
24:23
is willing to attune to that and capable of
24:26
attuning deeply to that experience. Every person,
24:28
the patient can tolerate
24:29
the closeness. Most people can't tolerate
24:32
closeness when they've been
24:34
traumatized because the closeness was
24:36
the source of the trauma, the people they
24:38
trusted oftentimes. So they just won't
24:41
ever go back. I mean, if they would go back,
24:43
they could have developed it with their own family and
24:45
friends and things and sort of help process
24:47
that, but closeness is
24:49
something they have to manage
24:51
rather than something they experience.
24:54
So they're always sort of having
24:57
oftentimes whatever the manifestations
24:59
that resulted in their personality stuff comes
25:02
into the room in the relationships, whether
25:04
it's the project of identification or manipulation
25:08
or shutdown or lack of ability
25:11
to connect with feelings all comes
25:13
into the room with people's therapy. So we have
25:15
to go back and look at
25:17
what
25:19
humans were just meant to do to develop
25:21
emotional regulations. A guy named Peter
25:23
Fonage figured some of this stuff out
25:27
and he has something called the mentalization process
25:30
and he studied moms
25:32
and babies and we can argue all day about should
25:35
it be... Where are the dads coming into
25:37
this? The dads can come into this at all? We do. We
25:40
actually do. And of course some babies don't have
25:42
moms, right? They have dads. Dads can do
25:44
this. We just don't do it as
25:46
automatically. If you've had babies,
25:48
you'll... It's not father nature, it's mother nature.
25:52
We literally don't have the big
25:54
corpus callosum that gives us the connection
25:57
to the right side of the brain where all
25:59
this is happening.
25:59
This is why women are better people. Because
26:02
we literally don't have that. Well, I used to say that. I used to
26:04
say that. And Adam gives me shit about that now because,
26:07
I don't know, he's angry at female politicians. So,
26:12
I used to say that was a better brain because it's more connected
26:15
and more, but it comes with
26:17
liabilities like everything in humans. But
26:20
it, so it's a right
26:22
brain phenomenon and we can do it as men. If you've ever
26:25
been a father, you will notice you end up sort of following
26:27
behind your wife going, how did you know that? How do
26:29
you know he's hungry? How do you know he's, I just
26:31
know it. I'm attuned. I'm attuned to right
26:33
brain to right brain communication before
26:35
there's any verbal. So, what
26:38
is that made up of? What is that process
26:40
made up of? So, when
26:42
they observe this interaction
26:45
with babies, of course there's eye contact,
26:47
there's vocal prosody created by
26:49
the mom. But mostly
26:51
she does something very interesting with her face.
26:55
So, the baby is approached by
26:57
the mom
26:58
and the mom, the baby's then learned,
27:00
my mind has content. People can look at me
27:03
and understand me, I have content.
27:05
They're designed to look out into the world
27:08
first to phenomenon that is totally
27:10
contingent on them. So,
27:13
they are, everything body function
27:15
for the first six months of life is all a baby's attuned
27:17
to. They're not, you notice they don't make eye contact
27:19
or anything. And about six months
27:21
of age, they shift to partial contingencies,
27:24
things that are sort of dependent on their behavior.
27:27
I cry and people do things in response
27:29
to that. I pull the cat's tail, the cat
27:31
does something, they have mobiles, I like hitting mobiles
27:34
and seeing them do things. But
27:36
there is a huge part of our brain that's dedicated
27:39
to the face, other faces. And
27:42
we have this already this interest
27:45
in the social world. We
27:47
have the attunement of the mom who's always in
27:50
our face making eye contact, exchanging
27:53
with us. And that is very satisfying
27:55
to the baby.
27:57
And what that exchange is made up of is
27:59
the...
27:59
The child has an experience, has an emotion,
28:04
and the mom approaches, studies,
28:06
like attunes, like what is going on here? What
28:08
does my body tell me this body's experiencing?
28:11
And she'll arrive at something with a right
28:14
brain message that comes over to the left side via
28:17
her vagus nerve. And she will automatically
28:20
on her face show
28:24
a representation of what the child is experiencing.
28:27
It will sometimes be with the subtle eye
28:29
musculature or the corners of the mouth. It's
28:31
not something you would necessarily even
28:34
notice as an adult, but the child
28:36
is very interested. If you've
28:38
ever been in deep therapy, I'll
28:41
tell you when I was in deep therapy, and I noticed,
28:43
I started feeling bad for my therapist because
28:45
I was so, I mean, her face,
28:48
I was aware of every muscle.
28:50
And I thought, this poor woman, I said, she
28:53
can't smile, I can't
28:54
even like, without me, in
28:57
on it, and I thought, well, there's that exchange thing
28:59
again.
29:01
So the child learns
29:03
that that representation is
29:06
a second order representation of their
29:08
feeling. Like somebody understands my feeling and
29:10
they're showing it back to me. I don't have words
29:12
yet, I don't have verb, I don't have language, there's
29:15
pre-language stuff, this all starts. And
29:17
so that's my feeling. And then
29:19
the mother offers alongside that feeling,
29:22
vocal prosody, soothing affects,
29:25
and in that exchange of body to body
29:27
helps the baby then regulate that feeling.
29:30
It's not so scary because
29:31
mom understands it and other adult
29:33
experiences with me, and we
29:35
co-regulate it. And of course, the baby's
29:38
hippest, their eye movements, our
29:40
pupils normally do this, moving
29:43
my fingers up and down. And
29:46
the baby and the mom's hippest times together,
29:48
as well as their heart rates and all these things. And
29:51
it's profound the way our bodies
29:53
attune as particularly as caretakers of children,
29:56
especially women
29:58
or whatever we're calling. biological entities
30:01
that are able to do this now.
30:06
So there it is. That's the fundamental
30:08
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Now let's get back to the do. You
31:16
mentioned deep therapy. So I want to talk
31:18
about this for a second because you introduced me to
31:20
EMDR therapy, which
31:22
incorrectly for a while I called EDMR therapy.
31:26
And I've passed that gift on to so
31:29
many people in my personal life, and I preach
31:31
it on here because I have never – I
31:33
didn't even know it was called
31:36
talk therapy until I was introduced
31:38
to EMDR therapy. I'm like, oh, this
31:40
is just me talking to someone and like
31:42
you say, brain to brain, getting some insight,
31:44
some hindsight, whatever it is. But
31:48
this EMDR therapy, man, I originally
31:50
had gone for – my
31:52
daughter almost got hit by a car and all of a sudden
31:55
I became
31:56
terrified to fly. EMDR
31:59
is perfect. for stuff like that. A little ridiculously
32:03
scared of heights all of a sudden. Not,
32:06
you know, when I'm in a plane,
32:08
I look out the window, that looks like a cartoon. Classic
32:10
dude. 200. Classic. 300 feet. And
32:14
within, I
32:15
mean, two months, eight sessions
32:17
maybe. I was done, I can sleep
32:20
on my flights now. Now I look
32:22
at other people when turbulence hits and they're like,
32:24
oh, and I just like, man. You may wanna go
32:27
deeper, again, to deal with some of the childhood
32:29
stuff too, because that can be managed the same way. I
32:31
don't know if you did do a lot of that stuff. We got the sum of
32:33
it, but my main focus was
32:36
like, let's get me, I need to fly to
32:38
work. Yeah, I get it. No, no, no, it's perfect for that.
32:40
And I was doing therapy
32:42
back before EMDR was sort of a standard
32:45
kind of way of doing this. It really gets
32:48
your brain when it's been traumatized, right?
32:51
I've described to you now how the vagus thing is sort of set
32:53
up. When it dissociates,
32:56
right, from trauma,
32:58
your shutdown, your body, all these things
33:00
dissociate, it leaves that
33:02
part of the brain disconnected, wiring
33:05
wise, from the regulation
33:07
of the whole. It's just a piece that's
33:09
off in the distance there. And the
33:11
individual experience, it's adaptive.
33:14
It's a survival thing that the human brain
33:16
does. But the individual
33:18
experience of that is, well, I don't think about that
33:20
anymore. That's done.
33:22
It isn't done with you. It's in the
33:24
background. They're always needing, it's a part
33:27
of you and it needs attention. I had no
33:29
idea. And it will find it. That shit was laying in a
33:31
hammock. Just wait. It will get
33:33
you. It will find a way to get its attention. Like
33:36
you said, at age 55, you felt vindicated.
33:39
That popped up for,
33:41
I loved flying. I felt like
33:43
a rock star taking off in the sky. Then
33:45
all of a sudden I was like, and I was like,
33:48
what is going on? And I couldn't
33:50
get over that it
33:52
worked. Let's talk about
33:55
the buzzing in the hands of just sort of what
33:57
it does to your, literally does to
33:59
your brain.
33:59
I literally don't really know.
34:02
That's the thing. It was all been
34:05
discovered various serendipitously. There
34:07
was a woman originally from PTSD. Yeah, there was
34:09
a woman walking through the forest and notice when she moved
34:11
her ride back and forth, she was able to, she started experiencing
34:13
things she'd been trying to get at for a long time
34:16
and couldn't get to and all of a sudden there it was. And
34:19
so it does, it's, I
34:21
think of it as kind of a releasing, like a frontal
34:24
releasing experience. Like
34:26
there are repetitive things you can do that
34:28
tend to kind of slow down or shut down parts of
34:30
the brain that get in the way of us experiencing
34:32
things.
34:32
The defensive structure or cognitive
34:35
structure, all that stuff gets in the way. And
34:37
when you do EMDR, all that kind of slows
34:40
up or shuts down and what comes up is
34:42
what's been sitting there needing some attention
34:44
for quite some time typically. And
34:46
it will cause people to do behaviors and do
34:49
drugs and all kinds of things. Is that right?
34:51
Even later in life like that? Oh my God, yes. That's why people
34:53
say, I feel comfortable for the first time.
34:55
They didn't even realize they were uncomfortable, but that part
34:58
has been there driving, stirring
35:00
things up. And it's often,
35:02
if you've had bad abuse, it's often pain.
35:05
It's only a feeling of pain all the time that
35:07
you're walking around in the background with don't even know.
35:10
So the, I'm gonna go back to the
35:13
baby and the exchange. Let me see if I finished
35:15
that. So if you've been traumatized,
35:17
particularly by the person
35:19
or the people that are supposed to be the source of
35:21
the regulation, that is such
35:24
a violation of trust. It is
35:26
so shattering that you can't
35:28
trust anybody after that. So trust becomes
35:30
a major issue. Closest
35:32
becomes a major issue. And think about how vulnerable
35:34
children are. You know, that think
35:36
about they're open and vulnerable. They
35:39
just, right, they're just there. And
35:41
then all of a sudden you can tell them anything. Santa
35:43
Claus. This happens and it just,
35:45
they can't, it shatters
35:47
their ability to tolerate
35:50
and they will not come back. It's
35:53
no go anymore. And that's what you're
35:55
trying to overcome. That's what I deal with in the addiction
35:57
field all the time. Trying to get them into.
37:59
I agree with that. And the
38:02
self-esteem bullshit that we did
38:05
a generation, a disservice
38:07
trying to undo what we thought our
38:09
parents had done. Everyone gets a
38:12
trophy generation. That's terrible.
38:14
I mean, I had kids late, but that is basically
38:17
the people I went to high school with is that's their
38:19
generation. Terrible, really? And
38:21
being perfect parents because our parents were
38:23
so shitty. I'm not gonna do that to
38:26
my kid. And kids
38:28
need adversity. They need challenges.
38:31
They have to come up against reality. That's
38:33
what mental health is, is managing reality on reality's
38:35
term. Yeah, they don't need abuse. Yes,
38:37
they need more emotional openness, but
38:40
they do need a certain amount if I can get on with
38:42
it and just go try out the
38:44
football team. If you fail, try harder. Not
38:46
because you need to deserve a trophy. You're the best. Well,
38:49
let me go tell that coach something. Cause you're your coach.
38:51
You got my kid. Coach doesn't like me. It's
38:53
like, no, get your shit together. Watch
38:55
that Arnold documentary, everybody. It
38:58
is all about this.
38:59
Just go do stuff. The guy
39:02
was dedicated to
39:04
improvement. And
39:07
so, yeah,
39:08
I think now we've done another
39:10
disservice to another population by overdoing
39:13
our sort of involvement and engagement and sacrifice
39:15
for kids. It's
39:18
our own vulnerability, our own feeling of pain
39:21
that we are trying to avoid in them, but that's our
39:23
pain, not theirs. We
39:25
can't make them responsible for that. So as always, the pendulum
39:27
goes back and forth. It's never a perfect
39:30
parent. It just doesn't exist. I
39:32
would argue that we have moved forward
39:36
in terms of our ability to manage
39:38
really significant things and
39:40
understanding significant things as it pertains to
39:42
the impact of parenting on
39:44
human development. We're kind of getting better at all
39:46
that, but damn.
39:50
Take a bunch of nine year olds and
39:52
tell them they have to hide
39:55
under their bed, shelter in place.
39:57
And if you go outside, you're gonna kill your parents.
40:00
and your grandparents and oh
40:02
by the way, no contact with your
40:04
peers for two years or if you do,
40:07
I'm gonna shove a swab up your nose and here's
40:09
school on this pad. Oh, the porn don't pay any
40:11
attention to that.
40:13
What the fuck did we think we were gonna end up
40:15
with?
40:16
I mean, it was just, it was so predictable. I kept saying
40:18
we're gonna destroy eight to 15 year olds and
40:21
we did. So the mental health stuff
40:23
there is just intense now.
40:25
It is, huh? Oh my God. But in
40:28
your field, are you seeing at least more and more
40:30
in particular men coming forward to talk
40:32
about things and? Yeah,
40:35
I mean, look. And also what race of people
40:38
do you see least in therapy?
40:41
Two questions, tell me about mental health. So
40:43
I'm not working so much in day
40:45
and day mental health. I'm doing general medicine now. So
40:48
I'm gonna speak sort of general.
40:51
General. In great, great,
40:53
great. Great, great generic numbers. Yeah,
40:55
I know, what do you call it?
40:58
Where you generalize about people, yeah. What
41:01
was that last thing you said? What race of people? No,
41:03
no, no, before that you said some emails. You're seeing more
41:06
men these days come forward to talk
41:08
about things. I think men have benefited
41:10
from the Zoom revolution
41:11
in mental health care. Because
41:14
we don't wanna run into somebody in the waiting room,
41:17
there's no waiting room. We don't
41:19
wanna turn our camera on,
41:20
don't fucking turn your camera on, that's fine. We
41:24
gotta get them in the door. You can
41:26
remain anonymous and still be there. Do
41:28
whatever you want, just get in the door. And that
41:31
is a lot of the
41:32
struggles getting them in. And
41:34
of course men with all medical stuff are
41:36
more likely to come in because their female partner
41:39
brought them in. Then that's how
41:41
I get my prostate cancer diagnosis. My
41:43
wife was like, I'm
41:45
making you an appointment. Boom,
41:48
prostate cancer. Holy shit. And
41:51
that's definitely my experience
41:53
in practicing out there. The
41:55
men, particularly younger, like
41:57
middle-aged men, we don't wanna come in, fuck
41:59
that.
41:59
No. If we die, we
42:02
die. We'll find out soon enough if this is
42:04
a bad problem. So we're so
42:06
nutty, we're so stupid. So,
42:09
all right, so what race?
42:13
I'm not
42:15
sure I can really generalize.
42:19
I would say, of course, I
42:21
would say it's more about,
42:25
well, there are different cultures. Okay,
42:27
go there. Certain Asian cultures are
42:30
about, you know, don't, it's actually anathema
42:32
to share your feelings. You just keep it shut down.
42:35
So certainly that culture bears
42:38
out many times on people's ability to come in
42:40
and share and do the work of treatment. In
42:44
my experience, the African-American community has, well,
42:48
reasonably has had a horrible
42:51
experience with mental health in this country, and
42:54
so doesn't trust it. And if they have trauma, now
42:56
they're doubly not trusting it. And
42:59
I say that's, not only is that healthy,
43:01
that's real. That's real, that's reality.
43:04
But we have lots of African-American
43:07
practitioners now and people that are culturally trained and
43:09
they should open up. They'd rather go to
43:11
the church. And people do go
43:14
there, and I think the church is slowly
43:16
moving towards understanding they gotta refer back. I
43:18
mean, generally, and plenty of white people do that
43:20
too. Trust me, the church is a reasonable
43:23
place to go for certain kinds
43:25
of spiritual experiences and oftentimes
43:27
they'll have people trained there
43:28
that will help them more with the mental health
43:30
piece. And I've seen more and more, they're more
43:32
willing to refer back to when
43:34
it's outside of their ability. So
43:37
that exchange is starting to happen, which is good.
43:39
I
43:42
worry about the lack of acknowledgement
43:45
of trauma and intergenerational,
43:47
trauma transmits intergenerationally. It doesn't
43:49
happen. Yeah, let's talk about that. Yeah. Is it,
43:52
it really does? Is
43:54
it in our DNA? Yeah,
43:57
I don't, we don't, there are people that theorize
43:59
that.
45:59
even though cognitively that doesn't person,
46:03
it seems not to have all those features that I'm
46:05
not gonna be around anymore. The fact that
46:07
I'm attracted to that person tells
46:09
you
46:10
it's that kind of person again. Unless
46:12
you, you really have to one of two things when you're
46:15
in that pattern of repetition. You have
46:17
to either not go for people you're so attracted
46:19
to. So we tell people think butterfly is not
46:21
lightning bolts. If it's a lightning bolt attraction, it's
46:24
gonna be the abuse of banning alcohol again. Even
46:26
though it doesn't look like that, it's
46:28
gonna be that. It's you, you're
46:30
a perfect instrument. You're having lightning
46:33
bolts. So if you can find somebody who maybe
46:35
is a recovering alcoholic or maybe had
46:38
an alcoholic parent also and shares that with you,
46:40
then you're sort of attracted but not lightning
46:42
bolts and you can build a closeness
46:45
there, you'll find it much more satisfying.
46:47
If you can't do that, you gotta go to therapy
46:50
or you will keep doing the same damn thing.
46:52
So let me ask you this then. How
46:54
do we, especially as parents,
46:58
if we do need to correct some but
47:00
not too much, what's the balance of
47:02
not overcorrecting and not
47:05
being the helicopter or everybody gets
47:07
a trophy?
47:09
I don't know. You know, because I don't know. I don't know. I'm
47:11
the same way. Like my daughter gets a participation trophy.
47:14
I'm like, no. The award
47:16
or excuse me, the reward is participating.
47:20
Yeah. Okay, we can't, how
47:22
the hell does anybody know what bad is if
47:25
we don't know what good is? This team
47:27
also over here, they did better
47:29
than everybody else this year. These coaches, these
47:31
kids, these parents, whatever it was, whatever
47:34
cohesive thing they had going on,
47:36
there's gonna be one. They did it better
47:38
than everybody else. What the hell does
47:40
the O and 12 team get the trophy?
47:43
My stepson used to get trophies like, I'm not kidding
47:45
you, come up to this, I'm like, and they'd be broken
47:47
in his room and stuff. I had my trophies
47:50
until I was in my 30s. I probably
47:52
did the same thing. And I did a photo shoot with them and then
47:55
I just sent them off to the dumpster after
47:57
that. But I will tell you the one thing that we
47:59
had back
47:59
those days that they got rid of that I thought
48:02
was very meaningful, most
48:04
improved. Remember
48:06
that most improved had the same status as
48:08
most valuable because the guy or
48:10
gal that really put in the effort
48:12
and it was shitty to begin with and really started
48:14
to perform with the team. That
48:17
was
48:18
awesome. I got most
48:20
improved when you're choking up. Really
48:22
it's weird. Uh, and it was the, and
48:24
it was the most important thing ever happened to me. Uh,
48:27
and I thought an acknowledgement for having
48:29
gone from a bench warmer to a player was
48:31
a big deal to me. And
48:34
that was overcoming adversity,
48:36
which is what we all need. These experiences
48:38
doing, we need to be challenged
48:40
with stuff and we, we can be present
48:43
for our kids. I was, so here's the balance. Be
48:45
present for your kids as a refueling
48:47
station, but do not cosign
48:50
any of their stuff, do not rescue them from anything
48:52
we rescue in this, in this, uh,
48:55
parent group. Yeah. Talk about that. No rescue.
48:57
Rescuing is I see
48:59
the pain in the child. I have to make it stop.
49:01
Okay.
49:02
Why do you need to make it stop? I
49:04
mean, I understand you want to go help a child,
49:07
but the reason you have to make it stop
49:09
is your pain was mobilized. The pain
49:11
left behind from your childhood. You
49:13
don't realize the distinction between that child's
49:16
pain and your pain. And your
49:18
pain is mobilized. It's a very deep
49:20
psychological experience that most people can't differentiate.
49:23
It's most of what I worked through in therapy myself. Does
49:25
it work the other way where like I
49:27
see my daughter, like
49:29
she had a dance recital, okay, Saturday
49:32
was rehearsal. We're leaving
49:34
the rehearsal. She's in her little dress
49:36
and tights and she's got Crocs
49:38
on and she's doing a balance beam on the
49:40
curb
49:41
and I hear, and I look back on
49:44
the ground, tights, knee ripped,
49:47
knees bleeding. And I saw her
49:49
look at me with the panic. It wasn't even about
49:51
the knee ripped. It was holy shit.
49:53
These tights are ripped recitals tomorrow. We don't
49:55
have any. And I felt the panic and
49:57
I said, Hey,
49:58
you're good. She's like, Oh.
49:59
my knee and I'm like I
50:02
grew up very boy you know it was
50:04
beat my brothers were constantly
50:06
wrecking bikes no helmets you know idiot
50:09
shit back then but when I
50:11
see my daughter's knee and she's going I'm
50:13
the other way with it I'm like it's a scrape
50:16
well not only that but now let's
50:18
go back to the early childhood exchange so
50:21
the child comes up to the mom
50:24
and go I heard my finger and the mom goes oh
50:26
my god oh my god I need a drink you make
50:28
me crazy I can't you know
50:29
I need a drink that child then
50:32
is not you need a band
50:34
right so so that child learns that
50:36
when I have a feeling my mom
50:39
catches the feeling and evokes
50:41
something that I don't want right
50:44
that's where codependency comes from so
50:46
now I have to I can't show her my feelings
50:48
I might have to suppress my feelings to manage
50:50
her feelings make sure she doesn't go get
50:53
loaded again or to make sure she doesn't yell at
50:55
me again and that's that's
50:57
not good what the child needs is you to
50:59
be
50:59
present not feel
51:02
their feelings but appreciate their
51:04
feelings which is a different thing that's what I try
51:06
to do I know I know that if your
51:08
feelings are evoked then you have a feeling that
51:11
is the opposite of what the child needs right
51:13
you get that and so this
51:15
is what boundaries are bound
51:17
and they're boundaries I'm learning well and
51:19
so is our generation of parents generally yeah
51:21
and that's where the rescuing kicks in
51:24
we have to because our boundaries are shitty and we
51:26
evoke these things that we should be just being
51:28
with and just
51:29
differentiating my feelings from your feelings
51:33
we're not we are evoked and we have to
51:35
rescue and that keeps a child
51:37
ever in need of rescue now let's
51:40
say you've been pretty good at those boundaries a
51:42
lot of the children's life and you've been letting them be challenged
51:44
and letting them fall down and stuff there
51:47
is still I've noticed something about our parenting style
51:50
that they these kids even in the young adulthood
51:52
say remain awfully preoccupied with us in
51:55
our day the
51:56
parents we wanted to get the fuck
51:59
away
51:59
as fast as possible. Just get the hell out
52:02
of here. I can't stand to be around these people. I'm
52:04
on my bike, I'm gonna play anything out of the house. But
52:06
then as soon as you're 18, you're like, that's
52:08
it, man, I'm never coming back. I may be around them a
52:10
little bit, but I'm not gonna stay here.
52:13
The bouncing back stuff is us. That's
52:16
us. That's why kids are still 20. Well,
52:19
we can get into how expensive everything is.
52:21
But I don't even write. There's a legitimate
52:23
piece to their bouncing back. It's the best in
52:26
California. It's impossible to do. It's insane.
52:29
And humans have lived in multi-family households
52:32
forever. So maybe this is a low-K
52:35
thing. Maybe this isn't a good thing. And
52:37
our desire to get out, because
52:39
a man at 17, I left for college at 17.
52:41
That was it. I couldn't even imagine.
52:44
I couldn't, I couldn't, I couldn't imagine
52:46
going back. No, my
52:48
parents left me before 17. Yeah.
52:51
There we go. Go on back. There we
52:53
go. But I was raised in an extended
52:56
family. Like my grandmom was like a mom. And
52:58
I feel like what that really did,
53:00
today I still have a very, if
53:04
I see an elderly lady, especially, or
53:06
someone, I'm right over there to help them out.
53:09
Like I try to do things
53:11
like that where
53:11
my grandmom would be proud. You know what I
53:13
mean? But also I got to learn what, I'm
53:16
living with this lady who's, it's my father
53:18
who died, but that's her son. And more
53:21
and more now, I start to see
53:23
and feel what she possibly
53:26
could have felt. I'm
53:28
over there going, grandma, let dad rest
53:30
in peace. You know what I mean? Like it's always,
53:32
you're crying about him or whatever. And now I'm
53:34
like, I couldn't even
53:37
imagine. You know, and I, she would say, I'm
53:39
never going to see him come up that hill again. And
53:41
I think
53:41
those lines have stuck with
53:44
me. And I replay them,
53:46
what, 30 years later as a parent
53:49
now that I didn't even remember I remembered
53:51
that damn thing. And I'm like,
53:53
God, you're, you lost a son.
53:55
I lost a dad. They're both devastating, but
53:59
I don't know which one.
53:59
The one thing, no, it's
54:02
the parent. In these
54:04
kinds of- The parent losing the child. Because
54:06
let me just say this, is that when
54:08
your parents have been abusive
54:11
and never really fully healed that, they
54:14
do you a favor at the end of their
54:16
life. Because you're like, that's okay. I
54:18
see people with, they were very close, say that
54:21
the mom thing for you and I, very close to
54:23
their moms who just suffer forever. They
54:26
lost their mom. And I'm like, I didn't have,
54:29
I
54:29
thank you mom, I don't really have
54:32
any deep feelings about it. Because there
54:34
was nothing there. 50 years
54:39
of destroying a child's bond,
54:41
well done. Yeah, you
54:44
succeeded. Yeah, you succeeded.
54:46
So I- I'm more attached to my therapist, my
54:49
wife and my daughter. Yeah. That
54:51
way, so. I, you know, I,
54:54
it's interesting because my daughter knows
54:57
my mom as her grandmom to be
54:59
a good grandma. Yeah. At some point,
55:01
someday she'll listen to these episodes
55:04
and hear the relationship we had. And
55:07
I don't know what's gonna happen when that happens.
55:09
And I'll address it,
55:11
you know, honestly. Because
55:15
the relationship she has with her grandmother
55:17
is not the relationship I have with her. It was one of
55:19
the things I was struggling with when we tried to reconnect.
55:22
And I'm like,
55:23
is their relationship
55:25
my business? So you've
55:27
mentioned now connection, I said attachment
55:30
or attach. And I
55:33
misspoke a little bit when I say, you
55:35
asked where the trauma understanding came from.
55:38
It really came out of attachment stuff,
55:40
attachment theory. And what
55:43
was noticed, there was
55:46
some famous theoreticians back, now, 40,
55:48
50 years ago, who came
55:50
up with adult attachment styles. They're
55:53
four different attachment styles. Yeah, let's hear
55:55
this. Well, there's insecure,
55:57
there's disorganized, there's avoidant,
55:59
there's... There's secure, healthy. I was
56:01
gonna say, right? Yeah, but it's rare. You
56:04
don't see it that much anymore. But in therapy,
56:06
people reestablish secure attachment with people, that's
56:08
what sort of happens. And each of these has
56:10
its own sort of style
56:13
to it. And the original
56:15
researchers were like, well, how does this happen? What's going on
56:17
in people's brains? And that's how they got to all
56:19
the stuff I've been talking about today.
56:22
And attachment is another system
56:24
operating in the brain. It's sort
56:26
of a way of navigating
56:29
closeness. Let's say that. And
56:31
there is closeness and regulation
56:33
and attunement. There
56:39
is attachment and there's love.
56:42
And each of these are their own little
56:44
system. And we don't have
56:46
a lot of understanding on
56:49
the two. We got to the regulation
56:51
part because I think we got there quick because
56:54
of that therapeutic value. But
56:56
an attachment does have, there are people
56:58
trying to categorize what's going
57:01
over on the regulation side with
57:03
the attachment stuff. And
57:06
then love is its own kind of bird. It's
57:09
over here. And then there's spirit
57:12
too, which is another kind of, sort
57:15
of hard to go onto the microscope stuff. And
57:18
I love that stuff.
57:18
It's meaningful, it's real, but
57:21
it's something that people
57:24
experience in different ways. And
57:28
it's all though love
57:30
and attunement and attachment. And
57:33
it's all about me
57:36
with you, this thing we call relationship.
57:40
And that is where I experience the
57:42
spiritual.
57:43
Yeah, at
57:46
first when my daughter's mother and I split,
57:48
I was just so worried about the back
57:50
and the forth. And we say, kids are resilient
57:53
and all that. And I don't
57:55
know, there are times where I wonder if
57:58
going back and forth isn't actually.
57:59
good for her to see different
58:02
parenting style, different lifestyle
58:05
over here, these people in this world, these neighbors,
58:07
this whatever versus this over here. Is
58:09
it a little more, do you think that could be
58:11
a little more helpful in sort of
58:13
like being well-rounded? Yeah, I
58:16
don't want to use words like more and helpful.
58:18
Fair enough. But there might be something
58:21
to it provided that it may give
58:23
more breath to her understanding
58:25
of herself and her experience. Whether it's
58:28
more, better, helpful, I'm not sure,
58:29
but it certainly has that potential to
58:32
give more
58:32
breath. The problem
58:35
is there's something called splitting.
58:37
Do you know what splitting is? Okay, splitting is
58:39
a problem in parenting and
58:42
it's a problem in personality development, which
58:45
is what children naturally do,
58:48
which is mommy, I want an ice cream.
58:50
No, it's an hour before dinner, no.
58:52
Daddy, mommy, mommy's, I want
58:55
ice cream. Dad says, all right, sure, get
58:57
an ice cream. Mommy, dad said I can get ice cream.
58:59
This is splitting. And when people,
59:01
when humans, children especially,
59:04
and adults too to some extent, can
59:07
pit one person against another,
59:10
they often feel split internally.
59:12
There's no consistent hole in
59:14
themselves because there's this relationship
59:17
and there's this relationship over here and I
59:19
split the two of them so I don't get the
59:22
hole that I need. So that's what you got to watch
59:24
out for. All right. So that's why we're splitting.
59:26
And if she starts splitting, you guys, you know it's on.
59:29
Now it's on. Daddy, I have way more fun over here with you.
59:31
Mommy's such a bitch, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And so,
59:35
and again, back to my- I hear that's
59:37
coming in the teen years. Oh hell, oh
59:39
yeah, oh yeah,
59:40
yeah. Oh, we'll
59:42
have another conversation then. But
59:45
that's why I was, we
59:48
started this conversation talking about my team that
59:50
I built to treat drug addicts
59:52
and alcoholics. That's another thing
59:54
the team has to be, has to be un-splitable.
59:57
We have to know each other so well
59:59
that when- they go and said, Dr. Blum said,
1:00:02
Dr. Penske, Dr. Blum said, I can have that Xanax.
1:00:04
I just go, no, he didn't. No,
1:00:06
he didn't. I know, I know him. I
1:00:09
know. We just, just go back, get the back of
1:00:11
the group, just shut up. Yeah. And we are
1:00:13
a unified, without exception.
1:00:15
No one ever doubts what the other person is
1:00:18
judgment is. And we just know each other and
1:00:20
how we, how we respond. Yeah, that's
1:00:22
great. Now, Dr. Drew, thank
1:00:25
you so much for coming on here. This is great. I hope
1:00:27
they, people use this as a bit of a, it's
1:00:29
kind of like a resource. Yeah, this is a different
1:00:32
podcast. I know it's in the comedy world,
1:00:34
but we do really sit down and talk about real
1:00:36
things. Yeah. And this, what I, what I feel
1:00:38
like we really, um,
1:00:41
ran the cycle, you know, we really
1:00:43
covered this topic. So people
1:00:45
want to visit this topic, you know, revisit
1:00:48
this pod, listen to this thing, cause there's a lot
1:00:50
of material in here. I was going over very
1:00:52
quickly. I don't expect anyone to kind of get it all at
1:00:54
once, but this is sort of, I'm going to be
1:00:56
re-listening. This is sort of the, there
1:00:58
are books out there on this and people that try to write
1:01:01
books, you know, help people understand these things, but this
1:01:03
was a pretty good synopsis
1:01:05
of, of the landscape of this topic. So
1:01:08
yeah, thank you very much. Um, plug, promote
1:01:10
everything, please. So
1:01:11
go to dr.tv, please. Uh, my
1:01:13
wife does a streaming show Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday
1:01:15
at three o'clock, where we have been interviewing
1:01:18
all the doctors and, uh, scientists
1:01:20
who have been canceled during COVID and you will
1:01:22
learn a shit ton. All right. I've learned so
1:01:24
much. I don't agree with everything they say. I, some of the, some
1:01:26
of the stuff I understand why they canceled, but they
1:01:28
all, they all, they all have
1:01:31
stuff in there. I'm like, well, hell, I, you were there.
1:01:33
And when this happened, Oh my God, and how, what
1:01:35
would they think? Oh, whoa. I am.
1:01:37
So it's, I'm, I, the whole pandemic,
1:01:40
I was just sitting there going,
1:01:41
what is going on?
1:01:43
That is what I'm slower answering is what
1:01:45
happened. How did this, this incredibly
1:01:48
mis obvious
1:01:51
misadventure happened to us and what
1:01:53
are the consequences going to be? And then
1:01:55
also after dark, which you've been on several times
1:01:57
over at your mom's house, Dr. Drew after dark.
1:01:59
I do a podcast with Adam on a regular basis still, Adam
1:02:02
Carolla, and the Dr. Drew podcast, all
1:02:04
at drdrew.com. Thank you, Dr. Drew.
1:02:07
As always, ryansickler.com, Ryan Sickler
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1:02:10
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