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All investing at the end of the day
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is the assumption of risk. The ideal investment
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scenario is you are assuming a risk
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that is knowable, you are being paid more
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to assume that risk, and you
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have some ability to mitigate that risk.
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So we all have three basic moves
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in conflict. It's called move against, which
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is like the
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second one is... And then the third
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one is... And so if you
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watch, all of your conflict will follow that
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pattern. Let's talk about incentives. How do you
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set incentives for the CDOs? I think
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the ideal system is... What have you learned
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about hiring people that most people miss? I
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think that's probably been the biggest leap forward.
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What most people get wrong is most people
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don't understand. What's the playbook when
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you take over a company? So
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I first met Brent about 10 years ago
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now and we became friends right away. I've
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met a lot of people in my life and
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I remember flying home after the first time we
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met thinking how incredibly special he was. After
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I felt so grateful that that chance
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he's made that have had a profound
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is not a source of return, why
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not having debt is actually a strong
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changed in your life in the past two years?
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I would say my marriage has changed a lot.
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My inner life has changed a lot. My
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physical outer life has changed a lot. Ironically,
5:49
the business has not changed a lot.
5:53
It's been interesting how the different seasons do
5:55
and don't overlap, but there's been a lot
5:57
of changes about how I approach work that have changed, but the
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actual work itself has not changed. Let's dive
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into that. What's changed in your marriage? What's
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changed in your exercise? Let's tackle exercise first.
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Yeah. Well, I think maybe all
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of it is connected to
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a walk I went on, gosh,
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I'm probably pushing now three years ago. And there
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was a gentleman on this
6:19
walk who was at a small gathering
6:21
of people in Colorado. He kind of picked me out.
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It was like 40 or 50 people in
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the crowd. And afterwards he said, hey,
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can I go to a walk
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with you? I'm like, sure. And he said,
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hey, can I speak truth into your life?
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And he said, I
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see a lot of shame in you. I see
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a lot of fear in you. And I worry
6:41
that that's dramatically negative and
6:43
impacting a lot of your
6:46
relationships. It was more in depth than that. I
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mean, we talked for another probably 20,
6:50
30 minutes about what he saw. And I just tried
6:52
to take posture. I mean, initially when somebody says something
6:54
like that to you, like cut you, how
6:57
dare you? I have great relationships. You've
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known me for a long time now. We were talking about
7:01
this at least 10 years, if not more. And
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I wouldn't have said six
7:06
or seven years ago that I had bad
7:08
relationships. I would have said I
7:10
had really good relationships. If you'd asked me how my
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marriage was five years ago, I would
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have said, oh, I guess six
7:17
or seven, we have our
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challenges, but we get along and
7:21
compared to where it is today, I would
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say it was like a two. I
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just didn't know. I think about this idea
7:29
of everything's relative. So world-class is the best
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you've ever seen. You ask somebody who's only
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eating at fast food, what's their favorite restaurant
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in the world? They're going to tell you
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a fast food restaurant. So the question we
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have to ask ourselves is like, what
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do we have to compare it to? And are we talking
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about relative or an absolute terms? And
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to be honest, I don't think I had
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been exposed three years ago
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to what was possible in relationships or what
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was possible in marriages. Like I had not
7:56
seen marriages up close where I was like I
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was comparing my marriage to what I'd seen in other
8:00
marriages and I felt like we were doing fine. Like we were
8:02
probably right in the middle of the
8:04
ballpark. I think what this person did for me was
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open my eyes to like, there was a
8:09
lot more out there. There's a lot more
8:11
possibilities that I didn't know.
8:13
That was like a seminal moment of like
8:16
a warning shot across the bow of,
8:19
oh my gosh, like I need to probably go
8:21
and look and study like, who
8:23
am I? What makes great friendships? What
8:26
am I giving to my relationships? How do I think about
8:28
my marriage? I'm like, what am I doing in my marriage?
8:30
And like, how should it
8:32
be? And am I willing to
8:35
settle for an interior life
8:37
filled with anxiety and shame and fear?
8:39
Am I willing to settle for a
8:41
marriage where things are being hidden and
8:43
there's disconnection and division?
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Right? Am I
8:47
willing to settle for friendships that
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maybe don't go that last 10% and
8:53
create that really meaningful, deep connection? Am I
8:55
willing to settle for a physical body that
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is overweight and out of shape and
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likely gonna become diseased? And so I
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think that was a major moment. And
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then that led into really finding these different
9:07
people who have shaped and changed my life,
9:09
including an incredible counselor who I started working
9:12
with and bringing to the surface a
9:14
lot of these issues that I didn't even know were
9:16
there. Yeah, I mean, I look back on the person
9:18
I was even three years ago and I was certainly
9:20
far better than I was 10 years prior, but I
9:22
was compared to sort of where I was now. Very
9:24
shut down and frustrated
9:27
and irritable and
9:29
competitive and... I feel a lot
9:32
of those things myself in terms
9:34
of competitive and maybe a
9:36
bit more anxious than I should be. What
9:38
was the next step that you took in
9:40
this journey that sort of like, okay, well,
9:42
I realized something, I feel it, now
9:45
what? I don't wanna sit here and pretend this
9:47
like self-reliance is the thing that got me through
9:49
this period in
9:51
my life because it felt like it happened to me
9:54
and it happened for me. It didn't
9:56
feel like that I somehow figured
9:58
out like... outsmarted the
10:01
world, outsmarted my shame
10:03
and fear. It felt like I had
10:06
these sort of people be put into
10:08
my life and these revelations that started to occur
10:11
that all of a sudden,
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I mean, I think there's an old adage that
10:15
like when the student is ready, the teacher appears.
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And I think there's very much, there's a choice I had
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to make three years ago. It
10:23
was like, am I going to pretend like
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everything's fine? Because that's what everything in me,
10:29
that's what my false self wanted
10:31
to do. No, screw you, you're
10:33
wrong. You don't know what you're talking about.
10:35
Who are you? You just met me. You
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can't, you don't know me. You don't know anything about me.
10:40
And it was like, I remember having this very distinct
10:42
choice to make. And
10:45
I remember being like, if I continue on
10:47
the path that I'm on that would have
10:49
denied, you know, it's sort of this idea
10:51
of like self-promotion, self-protection, right? That's what our
10:53
false self wants us to do. Go around
10:56
self-promote, self-protect, because then we don't have to
10:58
really be vulnerable. Now we
11:00
also are shut down. We can't have great relationships. We
11:02
can't figure out the
11:04
real sort of us that comes through. But that
11:06
was the choice. And I remember kind of, it
11:09
was an act of surrender of being like, I
11:12
have to take the risk that I'm going to take a
11:14
look at myself and I'm not going to like myself very
11:16
much. I'm going to admit things to myself that are ugly
11:20
and that I've done more wrong maybe than
11:22
I'm willing to admit. And
11:24
that I've hurt people that I care about. That
11:27
was the choice that I had to make.
11:29
And I remember very clearly saying, okay, I
11:32
surrender and I want to know. And
11:35
then things started to change ever so slowly.
11:37
I mean, there's a weird dip that occurs.
11:39
I feel like when you go from denial
11:41
to awareness, it's
11:48
actually way worse. So like
11:50
the awareness of your faults and
11:53
awareness of your shortcomings without
11:56
the healing of those is actually
11:58
puts you in a far worse position. And
12:01
so I would say that, you know, that sort
12:03
of the period of time from three years ago
12:05
to two years ago was horrible. Like
12:08
it was not a year of joy. In
12:12
fact, if anything, it felt like harder. My
12:14
relationships felt more strained. And
12:17
I think it was because I was becoming acutely aware of
12:19
how broken they were as a result,
12:21
mostly as a result of me. I mean, yes, other
12:23
people's brokenness too, mostly result of me, but
12:25
I didn't have any healing in it. I didn't know how
12:27
to get healing. And,
12:29
you know, that season was just an
12:31
awareness building season, looking back
12:33
on that. But it's awful. If you
12:35
gain awareness without healing, it's way worse
12:38
than not being aware. Give me
12:40
an example of something that's changed
12:42
in your friendships. We were talking about one last
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night. Actually, that's a perfect one, where
12:47
you always want to pay the bill.
12:49
Yeah. Talk to me about that
12:51
and the revelation behind it and how it
12:53
came about. Let's see here, about two years
12:55
ago, maybe a little less than two years
12:58
ago, I had a friend who was going
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through some really tough times and
13:02
personally, professionally, and a
13:05
mentor of his said, hey, you got
13:07
to go to this intensive counseling
13:10
retreat. And he
13:12
kind of reluctantly, he's not a
13:14
touchy feely, he's
13:16
a finance guy, you know, he's not a-
13:18
This is voodoo. Yeah,
13:21
this is not, exactly. This is
13:23
ooey gooey squishy stuff is not
13:25
his ballgame. And I watched him
13:27
go into that hard and hardened and
13:29
just sort of like shut
13:31
down, shut off. Again,
13:34
very protective,
13:36
self-protective. And
13:38
he came out of that week, like
13:41
changed, like distinctively
13:43
different. And
13:45
I remember thinking to myself like, wow, I don't
13:48
know what happened there. That's incredible. He'd worked
13:50
with this woman the whole week and
13:52
he was like, you changed my life. Like, this is incredible.
13:54
Like how, you know, first of all, I never be able
13:56
to repay you, thank you. You know, like, I don't know
13:58
anything about you. Who are you? you?" And
14:01
she said, I've got, you know, I've got
14:03
these kids and whatever. And I live in
14:06
Columbia, Missouri. He's Columbia, Missouri? What? He
14:08
said, one of my best friends lives in Columbia, Missouri. I
14:11
live in Columbia, Missouri. And
14:14
so he said, Brent, I'm telling you, like,
14:16
you have to go see
14:18
this person. And it was right around this time
14:20
that I felt like I hit rock bottom in
14:22
my awareness of like my own brokenness and
14:25
like how I didn't really see a path
14:28
forward. Like I kept like sitting
14:31
in this dismal
14:34
state where you're like aware of
14:36
how messy everything is, but there's
14:38
no way to clean it up. And
14:41
all the self-help stuff, like none
14:43
of it works. Like at least for me, like I can
14:45
only speak in a one here,
14:48
but like, you know, the
14:50
self-reliant thing doesn't work. And so he
14:52
said, hey, I think you should meet
14:54
with her. And I'm like, man, this
14:56
is a true godsend. Like I had
14:58
no idea that somebody of that caliber,
15:00
national, international quality caliber was in Columbia,
15:02
Missouri. I started going there
15:04
and doing these three hour sessions and dredging
15:06
up things I didn't even know was there,
15:09
that were all connected to the behaviors. If you
15:11
think about like the way that I think about
15:14
it now, it's like we have these, we have
15:16
these behaviors that other people can see and that
15:18
we can kind of measure, right? Am I doing
15:20
good or am I not doing good? The reality
15:22
is there's so many layers underneath that though that
15:25
are influencing that behavior, right?
15:27
Like, oh, something
15:29
terrible happened and
15:32
I really don't feel anything. That's
15:34
weird, right? Or something very small
15:37
happened and I'm triggered into this
15:39
like spiral. That's weird. And
15:41
what I would do in the past is I would just kind
15:43
of like shove it down, right? Like, oh, I don't know. I
15:46
don't get it, but life's weird and whatever.
15:49
Got to go on. Yeah, you got to go
15:51
on. And so anyway, through this series of sessions,
15:53
and I mean, I've done a lot
15:55
now, like probably 25 or 30 of these
15:58
now, three hour sessions. So a lot of time. And we
16:00
got down to one of the sessions and it was actually probably
16:02
about four or five months ago out
16:04
of the blue, it was kind of seemingly unconnected.
16:06
And we were talking about friendship and
16:09
my counselor said, do you always pay? And
16:12
I said, yeah, of course I always pay. She
16:15
was like, hmm, I got out
16:17
of the last hundred times that you shared a meal
16:19
with somebody. How many times did you pay? And I was like,
16:22
like a hundred. And she kind of sat
16:24
back and I was kind of proud of myself, right?
16:26
Like I'm a good person. I pay for the bill.
16:28
I care about people, right? This is like the thing
16:30
I told myself in my head. I do the exact
16:32
same thing. Yeah. And
16:34
by the way, those motivations are I think real
16:37
and true. They aren't bad. But she said, yeah,
16:39
I wouldn't be your friend. And
16:41
I remember just being rocked by it. Like you wouldn't
16:43
be my friend. She goes, I was like, what? Why?
16:46
Like totally broke my paradigms. And she said,
16:48
because in a friendship, in
16:50
a real relationship, you
16:53
cede control to the other person. The other
16:55
person concedes control to you. It's not you're
16:57
always controlling. The whole
16:59
point of a friendship is that you can trust
17:02
and you can be vulnerable and you can cede
17:04
control. And so paying the bills merely just a
17:06
form of control that you're exerting over your friends.
17:08
And I remember being like, oh crap. Absolutely
17:11
right. And she goes, yeah, and
17:14
I suspect it's not just paying the bill. You
17:18
like to have your environment. You like to have
17:20
your way of doing things. And
17:22
I was like, yeah, I do force a lot
17:24
of relationships. Again, this is only like five months
17:26
ago, right? I force a lot of relationships into
17:28
these boxes where it's like, I
17:30
want you to be in my box. I tell
17:33
myself because I can provide great hospitality or because I
17:35
can do do these interesting things,
17:37
right? And I'm caring for them well. And
17:39
generally sometimes I suspect the same for you. Like
17:42
those are real motivations, but we are this
17:45
mixed bag. And I think that's what I
17:47
realized is like we hook the
17:49
good and the bad together. And then we do
17:51
things that come off to other people very
17:53
differently and confuse and frustrate and
17:55
constrain. It's really hard for somebody to be
17:57
frustrated at a friend who's
18:00
always buying them lunch or dinner
18:02
or whatever it might be. So
18:04
what it does is it builds up resentment
18:06
and frustration in the other and they don't
18:08
even understand, right? Like we're all confused. It's
18:11
very hard to see ourselves clearly. We can see each
18:13
other clearly, right? We can't see ourselves
18:15
clearly. I think that we're designed like
18:17
that because we're designed for a relationship. Like we need
18:20
one another. No one is an island. No
18:22
one is self-reliant, right? We need one another. So
18:24
how do you handle dinner now? So
18:27
what I say, only if I mean
18:29
it, by the way, sometimes I don't say this, but
18:31
if I don't mean it, I won't say it now. I say
18:34
it would give me great pleasure. I
18:37
would enjoy being able to buy dinner
18:39
tonight. But if
18:41
you don't want me to buy dinner,
18:43
I will respect your choice. I
18:45
give them the choice. And sometimes I
18:48
buy dinner and sometimes I don't. But if they say,
18:50
nope, I want to buy dinner tonight,
18:52
I say, okay, thank
18:54
you. The key there is they have agency
18:57
now. They have agency. And
18:59
so the resentment doesn't build even
19:01
unconsciously. Correct. In kind of psychology
19:03
circles, there's this idea of a
19:05
triangle where you have a
19:08
victim and a hero and like
19:10
a judge or a prosecutor.
19:15
And heroes are those who
19:17
are without knowing the good, like they
19:20
tell themselves that they want to do good for other people
19:23
and what they're really doing. And by the way, I
19:25
relate very strongly to this. This is
19:27
a lot of action that I see myself
19:29
having done and do is to
19:32
cover up my own shame and
19:34
insecurities and sort of to
19:36
push down the pain that I feel. It's like,
19:38
well, I'm going to go external and go try
19:41
to help somebody almost against their will. Like
19:43
they didn't ask me to help or if they did ask me to
19:45
help, my response to them
19:47
is so outsized that
19:49
it removes agency from them. And
19:53
so buying dinner is like a very small example of
19:55
this. And I've got, you know, unfortunately, a lot of
19:57
bigger examples of this. You know, I probably, I probably.
20:00
have really engaged in, I would say,
20:02
dramatic heroics five or six times
20:04
in my life where I perceived somebody was
20:07
in grave danger. They
20:10
needed my help and I sprung into
20:12
action and did this dramatic thing for
20:14
this other person. In
20:18
my head, the thing I'm going to get is, oh,
20:20
thank you so much, Brent. You're amazing. I'm so grateful
20:22
for you. Now, if you hear even the thoughts in
20:24
my head, it's all about me. It's actually not about
20:27
the other person. Yes, I
20:29
can justify it based on the other person, but really it's about
20:31
me. Five out of five or six
20:33
out of six times, it has been
20:35
met with initial, oh, man, thank
20:38
you so much. This is incredible.
20:40
Wow. I'm blown away at your
20:42
generosity. I'm like, oh, I got all the
20:44
good feelings. Then
20:46
I end up not having a very good relationship with
20:48
those people. It shocks me
20:51
and it almost feels like a slap in the
20:53
face. How could they do
20:55
that? How could they
20:58
not be better friends with me as a
21:00
result of this? Then
21:02
when I started doing the sessions and started working
21:04
with her, it became clear
21:06
that it's like, oh, heroes create
21:08
victims because you're removing
21:11
all agency from them and
21:13
you are telling them that they can't help
21:15
themselves, that they are helpless. When
21:20
you do that, you
21:22
are creating somebody who is
21:24
diminished and insulted. Now,
21:28
again, in the moment, that's not
21:30
how it feels, but
21:32
that's where we're constantly chewing on and
21:34
assessing our environments. A great example of
21:36
this, and this is not a close
21:38
personal relationship. I remember my wife and
21:40
I one Christmas, we
21:42
had a public school teacher who we knew and got to
21:45
be friends with. We were sitting
21:47
around the dinner table one night and she was
21:49
sharing. It's heartbreaking. She's like,
21:51
these kids around Christmas that I work
21:53
with in this particularly poor school district,
21:56
they don't have any Christmas presents. They don't have
21:58
any Christmas. There's no joy. And
22:00
it really like touched my wife
22:02
and I were like, wow, like,
22:06
what if we did this dramatic act and
22:08
anonymously, of course, we bought like
22:12
$30,000 worth of Christmas gifts for like every kid
22:15
in that school. And
22:17
in our heads, we were like, this is amazing.
22:19
This is wonderful. Um,
22:22
these kids, you know, you can imagine the kids who
22:24
were like, oh, we wouldn't have had Christmas, but now
22:26
we have Christmas and wow, somebody cares for us and
22:29
loves us. Like that's what we were hoping to have
22:31
done. And,
22:33
and so we did it. And the
22:35
response from the small
22:37
group of people that knew about it was like,
22:40
this is incredible. You all are so generous, you
22:42
know, pat, pat, pat on the back. We're feeling
22:44
great. We're in the, we're in the Christmas spirit.
22:46
Oh, what joy, you know, all this stuff. And
22:48
then it was about a month later and I
22:50
followed up with, um, the teacher and I
22:52
was just like, Hey, how did that, how did that go? And
22:55
she was like, it was
22:58
really good. You know, everyone was grateful,
23:00
you know, whatever. There's a few people
23:02
who, who had some
23:04
challenges. And I was like, had
23:07
challenges with us giving, giving gifts. She
23:09
said, well, some of
23:11
the parents of the kids, uh,
23:14
felt, felt really insulted by it.
23:19
And then it like hit me and I even like,
23:21
man, I'm trying to get emotional that it, it like
23:23
hit, hit, it cut me so deeply. Cause I realized
23:25
what I had done, but we had done
23:27
my life. I had done, we had taken
23:30
away the dignity of
23:33
those families and
23:35
yeah, they couldn't buy their kids, Christmas gifts, but they were
23:37
going to do something for them, whatever
23:39
they could do for them. And
23:42
instead, like any kid, you
23:44
give a kid a present. It's like amazing, you know, but
23:46
then it started asking all kinds of questions. Well, why can't
23:48
you buy me that present? Well,
23:51
do you not love me? Why do these other
23:53
people care more for me than you do? Kids
23:55
don't understand how money works. They don't understand how
23:58
some people have more than some people have less. They don't
24:00
understand anything about that. And so what
24:02
I'd inadvertently done when I was trying
24:04
to be kind and generous was
24:07
I didn't put myself in the position to
24:09
understand what the real consequences were gonna be,
24:11
the second, third order consequences. Yeah, a kid
24:14
would have had, you know, less
24:16
toys to play with at Christmas. That's
24:19
not the point of Christmas. I
24:21
missed the plot. The
24:24
point of Christmas is to show love and care. And
24:27
in doing what I did, I short circuited
24:29
the ability for those families to experience love
24:31
and care. And I hurt them. There's
24:35
a great book out there called When Helping Hurts. And
24:38
it afterwards, actually somebody gave it to
24:40
me and I read it and I mean, you talk
24:42
about being cut deeply. It's a book
24:44
about when you try to help and it hurts
24:46
people. It's one of
24:48
the best books I've ever read on sort of
24:51
philanthropy and how to think about caring
24:53
for those who you don't have a relationship with. And I think
24:55
that's the bottom line is like, it
24:58
all comes down to we can't go wrong
25:00
if we're in deep relationship
25:02
with somebody and we are respecting
25:04
what their needs are. Where
25:06
if somebody asks me for help, you're not a hero
25:08
if somebody asks you for help and you rise to meet the need.
25:11
That's called being a good friend. Where
25:13
you become a hero and you create victims is
25:17
when you don't know somebody, don't know
25:19
their needs. They
25:21
never asked you to do something and
25:24
you rise to meet a need they don't have.
25:26
And in turn, you take away agency and dignity
25:28
from them. So it's things like that. I
25:30
mean, these are deep waters, right? These are things
25:32
that are challenging and stuff that we
25:34
don't talk about a lot. But this is the stuff that I've
25:36
like, it's been a joy and
25:38
it's been awful in some ways to
25:40
explore the stuff in me and to see how frequently
25:43
I am engaging in this maladaptive
25:46
behavior under the name of goodness and virtue
25:48
and all these things that we tell ourselves.
25:50
Yeah, the story we tell ourselves to justify
25:52
sort of what we're doing, because we want
25:54
to be the hero in a way, unconsciously
25:56
in a lot of ways, right? Like we're
25:58
not consciously trying to save somebody. We
26:00
see a friend in need and then we want to jump in and
26:03
help them. When's the last time
26:05
you asked somebody for help? This morning,
26:07
I'm asking. I'm learning. This is a
26:09
new learned behavior though. Because in all
26:11
the years I've known you, this is
26:13
like, this is different recently. Yeah, this
26:15
is different. I would
26:18
always be the one who would
26:20
be eager to help, but rarely ask for help.
26:23
And again, that destroys relationships. There's
26:25
no way to have a real relationship with
26:28
somebody unless it's bi-directional. It
26:30
can't be you helping somebody
26:32
and never needing help. Because then
26:34
again, it's the exact same principle. You're
26:37
creating sort of a hero victim
26:39
dynamics, the power dynamics in any
26:41
relationship are super sensitive. And
26:44
where we have best relationships where we're on equal
26:46
footing, different but equal, right?
26:48
So I always think about it
26:50
as like, you know, the X-Men
26:52
or whatever, you know, you have everyone's got
26:54
different powers, but everyone can like fight the
26:56
battles together, right? And
26:58
you respect the other's opinion, right?
27:00
You respect the other person's skills and talents. But
27:03
if somebody is always the one who can shoot
27:05
laser beams and, you know, blow stuff up and
27:07
make stuff happen. And the other
27:09
person is just, oh, thank you. I appreciate that.
27:11
Thank you for helping me. It's
27:14
not a real friendship. I had never
27:16
thought about any of this until dinner last
27:18
night with you. And
27:20
I stayed up late last night just
27:22
going over all the different ways that
27:24
I do this in my own life.
27:27
With my friends from, you know,
27:30
always offering like to the not even offering
27:32
to pay for dinner. It's like I'll race
27:34
up to the waiter and you know, everybody's
27:36
sitting down and go to the bathroom to
27:38
make sure that I and I'd
27:40
read like I was just replaying this stuff
27:43
in my head going like, oh my god,
27:45
this is crazy. Yeah, I went
27:47
on an apology tour after I had that realization
27:49
to a lot of people and
27:51
I said, hey, I'm really sorry I did this to you. And
27:54
of course, people are kind of caught off guard because I don't even think
27:56
they realize it. But when I said it to him, they were like, yeah,
27:59
thank you. And so now like
28:01
my close friends, like
28:03
I, we had this understanding and oftentimes
28:05
I still am able to buy lunch
28:07
or dinner or whatever, because I enjoy
28:10
it and they know I enjoy it.
28:12
Like I love hospitality. I
28:14
love to be a provision and
28:16
provide care for people. It's like a core
28:18
part of my personality. But sometimes they say,
28:21
thank you, but no, thank you. And
28:23
you know what? I feel super loved in
28:25
that. I feel
28:27
super loved. So the cool part is
28:29
before I didn't
28:31
feel love either way. If
28:34
somebody else bought a
28:36
meal, I would feel frustrated and sort of
28:38
irritable about it. And they took
28:40
something away from me. Right. And
28:43
if I bought... Just how everybody else feels when you
28:45
do it. Right. Exactly.
28:47
And vice versa, right? If I did buy the meal,
28:49
it was a little bit like you start playing with
28:51
ideas in your head. Oh, am I
28:53
only a checkbook? Do people really like me? And it's like,
28:56
well, you're the one who insisted on buying dinner and you're
28:58
like, well, but the other person could have insisted on buying
29:00
dinner more, you know, and you start
29:02
getting into this like weird psychology. You didn't
29:04
fight back enough. Right. You hit the old
29:06
alligator arms, you know? And
29:09
so now it's like the inverse
29:11
of that. And I think this is like a good metaphor
29:13
for life. Like I think that the
29:16
more that I meet what I would call elders.
29:18
So there's a difference between elders and elderly. Or
29:22
like self-focused incur...
29:25
Blaise Pascal would call it incurvature. Right. They're
29:27
incurred on themselves. They're irritable. It's all... Life is
29:29
all about them and what they need and they're
29:32
scared and fearful. And you got elders who are
29:34
the inverse of this. Right. Who
29:36
are outwardly focused. Right. The more
29:38
I meet these types of elders that are like
29:40
genuinely caring and loving, the more that I see
29:42
them exhibiting this type of behavior, the
29:45
more that I see them, like, no
29:48
matter their circumstance, in good circumstances
29:50
or in bad circumstances, they look like they're living with
29:52
a joy and a lightness and a freedom. And
29:55
then you see Elder Lee and sort
29:58
of now I can pull it back and see in my life. that
30:00
like no matter my circumstances, like
30:03
I'm living in fear and shame and
30:05
hiding. And so it's like,
30:08
I think that's the thing that we're really
30:10
talking about here is like, these are all even like maybe
30:12
the second teardown or the third teardown, like at
30:14
the basement of all this stuff, at the very
30:16
core of all this stuff is there are really
30:18
only two ways to live. You're
30:21
going to live out of fear or you're
30:23
gonna live out of genuine love and care for others and
30:27
love and care for yourself. And like that's it, like
30:29
everything else rises between those two. Like
30:31
fear driven is scarce, it
30:34
is the way of the world, it is a famous
30:38
author in the 70s, she said that
30:40
nature is red and tooth and claw, right?
30:43
It's like this idea that it's like there's nothing
30:45
but you're either gonna be a predator
30:47
or you're gonna be prey. Everything is a
30:49
battle. Everything's a battle, everything's about
30:52
competition, right, and
30:55
believe me, like that's when I am at my
30:57
worst, that's who I am and by the way,
30:59
the world loves my false self, the world loves
31:01
that fear driven self. I can get an extraordinarily
31:04
incredible amount done in that time. A
31:06
friend of mine calls it clean fuel
31:08
versus dirty fuel. Like it's very difficult
31:10
to see, like the car looks
31:12
like the car from the outside, very difficult to
31:14
understand, is it clean fuel or
31:16
dirty fuel that's operating the car? And
31:19
I can, I mean, that car can go fast, it can
31:21
take a lot of people with it if I'm on dirty
31:23
fuel. And in some ways, dirty fuel is a, for
31:25
me, I'd learned through my life to be,
31:28
it's a more potent fuel in
31:30
the short term for me. Like
31:32
I get more stuff done quicker
31:35
and usually even sometimes with higher excellence out of
31:37
dirty fuel than I do clean fuel. That fear
31:39
is like a heck of a moment. It's higher
31:41
octane, almost. It's higher octane. The problem is it's
31:43
got all kinds of contaminants in it and you
31:46
eventually like torch yourself and the car breaks down
31:48
and you go off the rails
31:50
and blow yourself up, whatever analogy you wanna use. And
31:53
so getting back to the original question, like what's
31:55
changed? Like I think that more and more I'm
31:57
trying to operate on clean fuel. I'm trying to
31:59
be, self-unconcerned. I'm trying to
32:02
become an elder. I think people
32:04
listening resonate a lot with this.
32:06
So I'm curious what other ways you
32:09
found yourself subtly
32:12
controlling your relationships, whether it be your
32:14
marriage or your friends. The
32:17
paying is an example, but I'm sure you've
32:19
got other ones. You get older and you
32:21
get better at hiding your motivations, right? And
32:23
you end up wrapping them sometimes
32:25
consciously, sometimes unconsciously in these
32:28
maybe good packages. But
32:31
the reality was, it was like I
32:34
was demanding control. I
32:36
was demanding care.
32:39
I was demanding people to see me and sort of
32:41
praise me. And so how
32:43
do I do that on a daily basis? It was, and
32:45
by the way, this is not like it's a victory
32:48
declared or whatever. I mean, this is like an
32:50
ongoing battle, I would say on an hour by
32:52
hour, minute by minute basis is
32:54
I can tell so quickly, am I
32:56
operating out of fear of love? And
32:59
the test is, do I have peace or not? Am
33:01
I anxious or not? And
33:04
when I'm anxious and fearful and
33:06
when I'm, you know, I have
33:08
a tendency to catastrophize the future
33:10
and always be running down all these different
33:12
rapid holes of what ifs might happens. And I
33:14
haven't, I've been given an incredible capacity to do
33:17
that, which makes me like my
33:19
day job as an investor. It's really
33:21
useful because I can run down a
33:23
tremendous number of scenarios. My
33:26
personal life, it's terrible. And
33:28
I hate it. It's
33:30
the dark side of creativity, right?
33:33
When you have vision and creativity, you
33:35
can envision a future that
33:37
is beautiful and bright and loving and wonderful,
33:39
or you can envision a terrible future, dystopian
33:41
future. And so, yeah, I
33:45
mean, examples of this. I mean, I
33:47
would go into meetings and I would
33:49
need to take over the meeting to
33:52
get praise. And
33:54
by the way, I've been given
33:56
a gift to be able to say things and
33:58
think quickly on my own. my feet that people
34:01
genuinely were praising me. It's not like, I
34:03
hope, I mean, no one's
34:05
perfect, but like we create an organization
34:07
of permanent equity that's like very kindly
34:11
confrontational about ideas. Like we want to
34:13
be, we want
34:15
a lot of friction. And so the last thing in
34:17
the world I wanna do is create an organization of
34:20
a yes-men or yes-women, right? Like we
34:22
want divergent thinking, we want a lot of variety.
34:26
And so I don't think that they were
34:28
doing it because it was like, oh boss,
34:30
you're so good. You know, that type of
34:32
like, you know, sycophant type thing. I think
34:35
it was genuinely like in my
34:37
false self, when I'm
34:39
really charged up, like
34:41
I have a capacity to envision a future
34:43
that a lot of people like. I
34:46
know internally though, my
34:49
vision of that future is
34:51
really driving my need to
34:53
be liked, my need to be respected, my need
34:55
to be praised. And so, ugh, and
34:59
I would have this high anxiety in these meetings, right?
35:01
And then I get out of it and it's like,
35:03
I mean, I'm so wired up, I have
35:06
so much cortisol in my system. Cause
35:09
I craved that, I needed that, that was like
35:11
my sort of my drug of choice in that
35:14
setting to the degree that I almost lost my
35:16
right eye as a result of excess cortisol in
35:18
my system. That's how stressed,
35:20
and I wasn't stressed in the sense of, I
35:23
mean, yes, like what I would call normal stresses,
35:25
I mean, there's always gonna be sickness
35:28
and death. And as we've grown as an organization, there's
35:31
just a lot of people, and a lot
35:33
of people are a lot of brokenness. But
35:35
I would say the vast majority
35:37
of the stress that I
35:39
was experiencing was self-induced, was
35:41
because I wasn't okay, and
35:44
I knew I wasn't okay, but I didn't know how
35:46
else to cope with it, rather than try to get
35:49
praise, try to grab things from other people,
35:51
right? So I was
35:53
encouraged, as Blaise Pascal would say, I was
35:55
the one who was inwardly focused and focused
35:58
on my needs and what I wanted. I
36:00
was not on the path to being an elder.
36:03
I was on the track to being
36:05
elderly. And the inverse of
36:07
that is I get more freedom as I,
36:09
you know, this stuff kind of comes out
36:11
in relationships and friendships, in my marriage, in
36:13
counseling sessions, you know, as this stuff kind
36:15
of comes up now and there's healing around
36:17
it. I find myself sitting in meetings and
36:19
like letting other people talk. Imagine
36:22
that. Not having to
36:24
always be the leader of everything. Not
36:26
having to have my identity based on
36:28
short-term wins. Not being competitive. Competitiveness is
36:31
the opposite of relationship. It is
36:33
the antithesis of relationship. Like when we're competitive
36:35
with somebody, it's I win and you lose.
36:38
That's horrible. Especially when you're dealing
36:40
with, like
36:42
my profession doesn't have to be competitive.
36:46
When I go out and play tennis or pickleball with
36:48
somebody, like I don't have to win, but before I
36:50
had to win because I'm a winner. Winners
36:52
win, right? Like- And if I
36:54
don't win, I'm a loser. If I don't win, I'm a loser. If I don't
36:56
win, I'm not okay. If I don't win,
36:59
all that stuff's gonna bubble up from the basement and
37:01
I'm gonna feel terrible. I used to literally lose
37:03
in tennis and feel terrible for days. Another thing,
37:06
I would fight with my wife and I would
37:08
go do a bunch of email. That's
37:10
an interesting behavior. Well, why would I do that?
37:13
Well, because I get praise from doing email. I
37:16
get a lot of interactivity. Oh, hey, thank you so
37:18
much for that. Oh, wow, it's 11 o'clock at night
37:20
on a Friday night and just had
37:22
a blowout fight with my wife. I'm gonna go and do
37:24
some emails because people are gonna be like, look how hard
37:26
you work Friday night. You're
37:28
working so hard. Social media was
37:31
deadening to me. I mean, if you
37:33
look at the peak of my social media sort of
37:35
addiction, it was
37:37
probably five years ago to three years ago. Why?
37:41
Because I could go online and tickle the
37:44
ears of people and they would tell me,
37:46
oh, this is a really insightful thing. This
37:48
is really cool. Wow, you're so great because,
37:50
you know, whatever. Validation. Validation. Yeah. It
37:53
was praise. How many likes did I get? But
37:55
I found myself my personal relationship to people. Like,
37:58
are we optimizing our lives? for
38:00
the people who know us best or the people who know us least. That's
38:03
a question that haunts me. I've
38:05
watched a lot of people up close and personal
38:08
who the more you got to
38:10
know them, the less
38:14
you liked them. And I mean,
38:16
that's honestly the lie that we all engage in. People
38:18
really knew me, would they love me?
38:20
Would they even like me? There
38:22
are people, a lot of people I've come
38:24
in contact with. They're bigger on the
38:26
outside than they are on the inside. I'm
38:29
like, I want to be somebody. That was me,
38:31
by the way. Like I, I mean, I
38:34
think we all have this temptation, right? The
38:36
Instagram pic of, oh, my life's just a
38:38
vacation. Everything's amazing, right? Twitter's sort of the
38:40
intellectual version of that. All I
38:42
think is these great thoughts. Yeah, yeah. Have
38:44
all this wisdom, so wise. Now,
38:46
let alone my like marriage disaster, my business
38:48
disaster, all this stuff. It's like, well, yeah,
38:50
but I can spout platitudes
38:53
on Twitter and people will praise me for it, right?
38:56
Like that's the lie, that's the trap. Yeah, as this healing
38:58
has occurred, it's like I'm on social media far less, not
39:00
because like, I actually like genuinely want to help people and
39:02
like, when I have something to say that I think could
39:04
be helpful, when I'm engaging conversation, like I'll
39:06
go on and like I'll engage in it, but like, I
39:08
don't feel a need now to like hour
39:10
by hour, check and see how many people
39:13
have liked whatever. In my marriage, I'm trying
39:15
to be somebody who's focused purely on the
39:17
good for the other, focused on the good
39:19
of my wife. Like how can I serve
39:21
her and love her with no expectation of
39:23
reciprocity? Like it sounds foreign, it would sound
39:25
foreign to me. Like the
39:27
view we have of every relationship sort of
39:29
in that fear-based scarcity-based mindset is like, okay,
39:31
well, Alexis Dokker called it self interest rightly
39:33
understood, right? Which is like, I do things
39:35
for you, so you can do things for
39:37
me. Like that's not
39:40
true love and care, that's loving yourself.
39:42
There's a rabbi who calls that fish
39:44
love, right? He says, you know, we
39:46
treat our marriages like we do a
39:48
good fish dinner, right? Where you're like,
39:50
oh, I love this fish because it
39:52
tastes good, because it
39:54
makes me feel warm, because it satisfies
39:56
a need that I have, a desire that I
39:58
have. You're consuming it.
40:02
You're a consumer of that thing.
40:04
I think that without
40:07
a shift in mindset and the default assumption of
40:09
the world is we are all consumers of one
40:11
another. We are all eating one another, including in
40:13
our marriages and personal relationships. And it's
40:15
poison. Straight poison.
40:18
I want to spend a lot
40:20
of this conversation on investing and
40:22
running a business. But before we
40:24
transition, one of
40:26
the things that you said to me last night
40:28
that I found super interesting was that you'd stop
40:31
drinking unless it's a celebration. Tell
40:33
me about that. Well, yeah, the last couple of years
40:35
have been an exploration
40:37
of interior
40:40
and exterior. And I think
40:42
a lot of our exterior lives reflect
40:45
the accumulation of our interior lives. For
40:47
me, it certainly did. I
40:50
can remember the first time I was called a fat kid,
40:52
I was 10 years old. And
40:54
that was an identity that I adopted. I
40:57
always was just a little more overweight than everyone
40:59
else. I wasn't like morbidly obese, but I was
41:01
just I care a lot of weight. I was
41:03
athletic, but I but I was a little bit
41:05
heavier. You know, when I became an entrepreneur, it
41:08
was all consuming. I mean, my 20s were filled with
41:11
I had to
41:13
win at all costs. I had to
41:15
I had to put every bit of
41:17
energy into being successful. I thought
41:19
that that was going to make me OK. So my
41:21
20s were filled with a single
41:23
minded pursuit of achievement. I
41:27
put on 50 plus pounds in
41:29
my 20s. I tipped the scales at one point at 252.
41:32
I remember I'll be on the scale and I was like, whoa, I've
41:35
gotten big. I started beginning
41:38
of last year at 235 ish. So
41:42
I was down from my peak, but it was just
41:44
a battle. I've been engaged in like a decade long
41:47
battle with like I'd try this
41:49
diet or that diet. I'd try to work
41:51
out some. I'd make a little
41:53
progress. I'd slip back. It was kind of
41:55
like I had this set range. I really
41:57
couldn't couldn't get outside of it. Kind of
41:59
all part of the same. transformation occurring at
42:01
the same time, right? Like I
42:04
found out that food was
42:08
something I celebrated with, was
42:10
something I turned to for comfort, was
42:13
how I expressed love and joy and care. As
42:15
my counselor said, it sounds like you eat when
42:17
you're sad and you eat when you're mad and
42:19
you eat when you're happy. I think
42:22
you're going to probably be always eating. And I
42:25
was like, yes, I am always eating. I always
42:27
have a pull towards food, right? Because I was using food. And by
42:29
the way,
42:34
there are more maladaptive behaviors, right? It just happened
42:36
to be one that you can't hide very well.
42:38
But I was using food to do a job for
42:40
me. And sometimes that job was in
42:43
concert with joy and care. And sometimes that
42:45
was in concert with pain. But
42:48
food was like the tool of choice that would make
42:51
me both feel out of control
42:53
and in control at the same time. And
42:55
so as those sort of things started releasing and
42:57
the junk that was
42:59
underneath them that caused that pain started releasing,
43:01
like I felt a real freedom. You know,
43:04
you, I wrote this publicly in my annual
43:06
letter this year, like you had
43:08
a huge impact on me. And it's
43:10
funny how we don't often, I don't think when you said it, you
43:13
realized like how impactful it was going to be, but it was like
43:15
a lightning bolt. You told me I was complaining to you. I think
43:17
it was maybe January 4th or 5th of
43:19
last year. And you told me
43:21
that, you know, you were working out or everyone's
43:23
like, Oh man, yeah, like I've got a news
43:25
resolution. I'm gonna drop some weight, you know, whatever.
43:28
And it's just really hard to work out. And
43:31
I felt kind of defeated about it. Cause it's like,
43:33
you know, when you know, when you're
43:35
headed to failure and
43:37
it like sort of, that's the thing about dieting.
43:39
And that's the thing about these like short bursts
43:41
of like New Year's resolutions is like, they
43:44
head towards failure because they're
43:46
not sustainable. And so I remember you
43:48
saying this one thing to me that
43:50
completely shifted internally, how I thought about
43:53
health. And you said, well, I just
43:55
work out every day. It's part
43:57
of my identity. I don't have a choice.
44:00
If I'm gonna work out, I just have a choice what I do. And
44:03
I remember it hit me like a ton of bricks. I was like, oh
44:05
my gosh, yeah, you're
44:08
right. And around that
44:10
time, another good friend of ours,
44:12
Patrick, I was on the
44:14
phone with him and the best of friends
44:16
tell you the real truth. Like the
44:19
pinnacle of friendship is to tell each other the
44:21
real truth, the hard truth, the truth that, the
44:23
truth that you gain nothing from and you have
44:25
everything to lose. Because that is
44:27
true vulnerability. That is truly giving the other
44:29
person control. And I remember
44:31
Patrick took a risk and I'd said something about, I
44:34
used to make jokes about being a fat kid, right?
44:36
This is that identity that was imprinted upon me. And
44:38
they're funny, people laugh at jokes about being fat, right,
44:40
self-effacing and all this stuff. And he goes, would you
44:42
knock that shit off? And
44:44
it was like very stern voice. He was like, not
44:47
okay. I've heard you say this
44:49
over and over again. You've made jokes about you and me, like not
44:51
okay. Like you gotta quit that, you're not
44:53
a fat kid. He's
44:55
like, why do you do that to yourself? And
44:58
it's again, this idea, like we can't see each other. We
45:01
can see each other clearly, we can't see ourselves clearly. That really
45:03
flipped a switch in me. That I was like, I'm not a
45:05
fat kid. I'm gonna be healthy. I'm gonna be
45:07
a healthy person who's part of their identity is
45:09
I'm gonna work out every day. Now I'm
45:11
not putting my salvation in that. I'm not
45:13
putting my goodness in that. I don't think that
45:15
people who work out are better than people who
45:17
don't work out. But I'm gonna make it a
45:19
core part of me that I'm gonna like honor
45:21
this body that's been given to me. Like I've
45:23
got one container in this life and
45:27
it's important. When I say basically
45:29
every day, like I am now, I work with a
45:31
couple of people on the fitness side and like their biggest
45:33
problem with me is that I work out too much now.
45:35
Like literally this is not like a bragging thing.
45:38
This is like, I love it so much now. And
45:40
this is something I hated to work out. I hated
45:42
it. I would dread it. I
45:44
was out of shape. I mean, I hated working out.
45:46
And so now it's like, I feel
45:48
the joy and I feel
45:50
privileged that I get to work out. Like
45:53
I have an opportunity to move my body into like
45:55
experience this world. And so whether it's going on a
45:57
run or a bike or playing, I
46:00
love pickleball and tennis and or just getting
46:02
me on a hike or a walk with a friend. I
46:05
love it. You know, the Greeks had this
46:08
very like it's like body versus soul, like
46:10
dualistic view. Like we are embodied creatures. Like
46:12
we are one in the same. That's not
46:14
the proper view. Like our physical health
46:17
impacts our mental health and
46:20
vice versa. Right. And
46:22
so I've seen this like wonderful, like I
46:24
have more energy to play with my children
46:26
and the relationships are better. And like I
46:28
can I can I feel better just in
46:30
general. So like, you know, when you feel better and
46:32
you can move better, it's all this like it's like
46:35
this virtuous upward loop, right? And
46:37
inverse downward loop when when those things start
46:39
to fail. And so the alcohol thing, very
46:41
long winded way of saying it. I
46:43
just noticed that when I drink
46:45
alcohol, things felt hard.
46:48
And turns out alcohol is one of men,
46:52
especially one of the biggest inhibitors of testosterone.
46:55
And we think of testosterone as like the libido hormone
46:58
and it is. But like, that's
47:00
not the point. Like I wasn't like I
47:02
was like, oh, well, I'm drinking. I was
47:04
basically drinking almost every day and I
47:06
was drinking a lot. Like I got the point. I probably
47:09
drank to say this even now, I would never in a
47:11
million years have defined myself as like with
47:13
any sort of addiction. Yeah. And
47:16
like I could not drink and be OK, but I
47:18
was drinking like three or four or five drinks a
47:20
night every night. Like you know, you get home and
47:22
you open up in a bottle of white and you're
47:24
making dinner. We cook all the time. We love cooking.
47:26
My wife and I, it's like kind of a core part of
47:28
what we do. And we're making this meal and you know, you
47:31
know, open, you know, another bottle of wine, maybe a
47:33
red, you have a little bit of that. And then
47:35
it's like, oh man, you know, it'd be really great
47:38
tonight. Have a little H tequila or some cognac or
47:40
something. And you know, before long, it's like it really
47:42
adds up and it affects your sleep. And
47:45
for me, I just noticed like, you
47:47
know, testosterone, the best definition I've heard of testosterone
47:49
and what it does is it makes hard things
47:51
seem easy. And so
47:53
when I drink, hard things seem hard. And when I
47:55
don't drink, hard things seem easier. Like
47:57
I can very clearly tell. And so I just.
48:00
just said it's not worth it
48:02
and try to come up with other alternatives and how
48:04
to get the ritual of it and the specialness of
48:06
it. It's kind of like a, you know, you can
48:08
mark your days, right? I mean, I went for a
48:10
lot of my life. It was like alternating between like
48:12
caffeine was one part of my day and alcohol is
48:15
another part of my day and now
48:17
I don't drink caffeine and I don't
48:19
drink alcohol for very
48:21
different reasons, but both of them health related and
48:23
my life is way better for it. And
48:26
I, so I, so my, my, my excuse now, I
48:28
shouldn't say excuse my, the way I think about it
48:30
is like when I celebrate, it's the only time I
48:32
let myself drink. The interesting thing to me
48:34
when we were talking last night is you
48:36
mentioned you use the word rule,
48:39
which I thought was really interesting. Do you
48:41
have any other rules that you've
48:43
adapted in the last couple of years that have
48:45
really helped you sort of unlock the next level?
48:47
Yeah, this is actually a huge part of a
48:50
lot of these changes that I've made my life
48:52
as well. What, how we spend our
48:54
days is how we spend our lives. Like
48:57
our habits are who we are and
49:00
habits are very sticky and hard
49:03
to change. They require a
49:05
tremendous amount of focus and
49:07
it's very difficult to add multiple habits at once
49:09
is what I found. I'm
49:12
also not a personality that loves habits. I
49:16
don't love structure.
49:18
I really enjoy
49:20
the variety of life. And
49:22
so in many ways, like habits great on
49:25
me, but I've really come
49:27
as I get older to appreciate the value
49:29
of good habits. And so the habits I
49:32
try and I would say as I, these are most
49:34
days, almost all days I
49:37
get up and the first thing I do is read and pray. The
49:41
I always try to tell my kids and my wife
49:43
that I see them and I know them and I
49:45
love them and that there's nothing they can do to
49:47
ever move outside of my
49:49
love for them. One
49:53
of the questions I love asking my
49:55
kids now is what do I do
49:57
when you feel most loved? really
50:00
try to focus on doing those things
50:02
for them. Um that's sort of the
50:05
magic question that unlocks a tremendous amount
50:08
of intimacy with
50:10
anyone really. Any friendship if you ask that same
50:12
question, you'd you'd be shocked. I think what the
50:14
answers you get because in my marriage and in
50:16
my friendships, in my relationship with my children to
50:19
some degree like I used to try to love
50:21
them uh the
50:23
way I wanted to be loved. Mm. And
50:26
it doesn't work very well because really what you're doing
50:28
is you're loving yourself by doing that and
50:30
then I kinda went through a phase where I was like, okay,
50:32
Wama, love them the way they should want to be loved. Mm
50:35
hmm. That doesn't work
50:37
well either. Why don't they love it? Why don't they
50:39
love it? Yeah. Right. And
50:41
then I started really being like, okay,
50:43
I'm gonna pretend like I
50:45
have no preconceived notions of how somebody wants to be
50:48
loved. And you're just gonna ask them. I'm just gonna
50:50
ask them and do you know
50:52
what it's interesting is most people both can
50:54
tell you pretty quickly but a bit shocking to them what
50:56
comes out of their mouth. Oh, interesting.
50:58
So, most people don't actually know how
51:00
they wanna be loved. Like it's not something
51:02
they think about. It I mean, you can use this
51:05
analogy at work too, right? Like, you know, a question
51:07
I'll ask somebody is like, when do you really feel
51:09
seen and appreciated? But this is the question we're
51:11
all trying to ask is like, how do we wanna
51:13
be loved? I'm like really getting down
51:15
on somebody's level with them and getting in
51:17
the muck in the mire with them. Like
51:19
that's real relationship. Let's switch gears and talk about
51:22
business a little. But I think that a
51:24
good segue question is how do you
51:27
balance love with
51:29
operating and
51:31
you're one of the best operators I've ever met
51:33
in my life. How do you balance those two
51:35
things where we're
51:37
taught to come at everything from a
51:40
competitive point of view, which you do
51:42
exceptionally well or did exceptionally well for
51:44
a number of years and it
51:46
made you a huge success. And then
51:48
how do you get the same results or
51:50
better results operating out
51:52
of love? Well, I think the lie that
51:55
we tell ourselves is that
51:57
if we don't act out of scarcity that there
51:59
were no won't be enough. And
52:02
what that does is it isolates us
52:06
and it shuts us down and it isolates
52:08
and shuts down everyone. I mean, anxiety is
52:10
contagious. Scarcity is
52:13
contagious. As soon as you look at the
52:15
game theory of scarcity, as soon as one
52:17
person acts scarce, the fear ripples
52:19
through the entire crowd and
52:22
love is fragile. Care is genuinely
52:24
fragile. This either this fear mindset
52:26
or this abundance mindset, love mindset,
52:28
it requires a tremendous
52:30
amount of protection in order to engage
52:32
in it. And
52:35
look, I'm not going to sit here
52:37
and pretend that I would often make
52:39
the same decisions if I weren't already
52:41
in a position of success. You're operating
52:43
in a position of strength already. Yeah.
52:45
I'm coming oftentimes where I'm already coming
52:47
from position strength. I do think though,
52:49
I would hope if I hit
52:52
reset and I could go
52:54
back knowing what I know now, life is
52:56
just way better no matter how you slice it. Operating
53:00
from a position of abundance and love and care, no
53:03
matter if you have resources or not, but
53:06
money makes you more of what you already are. Right?
53:09
And so if you look at people with
53:11
tremendous amount of resources who made that money
53:13
through scarcity and through high competition and through
53:16
stepping on people on the way up, when they get to
53:19
the top, they continue to exhibit that
53:21
behavior. I think there are a number of people
53:23
who experienced that. And by the way, that was
53:26
me in my twenties. My twenties were filled
53:28
with doing whatever it took to
53:31
make it. And I would hide it and I
53:33
do it in a more gentle way,
53:36
but that my heart was scarce and
53:38
I still battle this on a daily basis now. So it's not
53:41
like, again, there's no victory declared here, but what
53:43
is sustainable long-term is
53:46
not a sort of Mexican standoff with
53:48
everyone in your life. I mean, that's
53:50
how most business is done. It's like there's
53:52
power structures and it's like, well, I'm going
53:54
to make myself indispensable so you can't get
53:57
rid of me. Right?
53:59
And it's like, oh, well, I
54:01
wish I could get rid of that guy, but I can't. It's
54:04
like, that's a horrible, confrontational,
54:08
competitive, scarce mindset to be in business.
54:10
I feel like this is the
54:12
norm. Unfortunately, it's really the norm in the finance
54:14
world. I mean, I feel like I've, I've, I
54:17
fell backwards into finance. I've
54:19
joked on the Forrest Gump of private equity, and it
54:21
is as scarce as it gets. I
54:23
mean, it is all zero sum is
54:26
how it's treated. As we've moved towards
54:29
a position of abundance, as we've moved towards
54:31
an ability to try to treat people with
54:33
honor and care and create win-win relationships. I
54:35
mean, that's really what we're trying to do.
54:38
You know, one of our mentors, both of
54:40
us, Peter Kaufman talks a lot about this,
54:42
right? As like the only sustainable long-term path
54:45
is that everyone has to win or it won't work.
54:48
If there's any losers in a system, it's
54:52
not sustainable. So I think that's just something that
54:54
we've really tried to pursue. And so what does
54:56
that practically look like? I think is a question,
54:58
right? It looks like
55:01
not protecting yourself always all
55:03
the time, but
55:06
giving people the ability, if they wanna
55:08
act scarce, to do
55:11
so, but in like lower stakes ways. So
55:13
like one of my favorite things to do is be, almost
55:16
open myself up to being taken advantage of early
55:19
on in a relationship. So
55:22
that if they do, then you're like, okay, great. By
55:25
the way, there's no judgment in this. It's not
55:27
like, how dare you, or I'm somehow better, whatever,
55:29
it's just, hey, I just don't think you're in
55:31
a position right now. I was
55:33
there before, but you're not in a position right
55:36
now to be able to engage in our system
55:38
because our system requires a tremendous amount of mutual
55:40
trust and care. Now
55:42
again, we're imperfect, we screw up all the time. We're
55:44
asking for forgiveness all the time. We say sorry all
55:46
the time. It's not, I don't wanna paint this picture
55:49
of idealistic, like we've got it all
55:51
together. We got a lot of things to work on, right?
55:53
But I think most of the people are
55:56
trying to operate out of
55:58
a position of abundance. Most of us are trying. We're
56:00
trying to work towards wins
56:02
for everyone. We're trying to be thoughtful with
56:05
not just the buyer and the seller, private
56:07
equity, so we buy businesses.
56:11
We're not trying to just think about the buyer and the
56:13
seller, buyer being us, seller being the person who's selling us
56:15
this thing. We're trying to be thoughtful about the executive leadership
56:17
teams at these companies. We're trying to be thoughtful about the
56:19
employees, the rank and file. We're
56:21
trying to be responsible and be thoughtful towards
56:23
our customers and our vendors and
56:25
the communities, maybe even regulators, depending on the
56:28
situation. What does a win look
56:30
like for a community that we purchase a business in?
56:33
I don't know, it's an interesting question. I think it's different for every
56:35
business. What does a win look like
56:37
for the construction worker on a job, business
56:40
we bought? Which
56:42
is an interesting question to ask, right? We
56:44
can't make anybody happy. We can't make anybody
56:46
fulfilled. But we certainly can
56:49
create an environment that allows more
56:51
for them to be happy, free,
56:53
fulfilled. This is where I think for the rest
56:55
of my career, the engaging part for me, it's
56:57
not about money for a long
56:59
time. Thankfully, I've not
57:01
had to worry about money for a while. Now for
57:04
me, I'm like, wow, what if when
57:06
we buy a business, not
57:08
only is the work environment better,
57:10
maybe we allow them, provide the
57:12
environment, maybe show them
57:15
a better way, this idea of everything's relative,
57:17
right? Maybe we can show them a better
57:19
way where their marriages get better and
57:21
their friendships get better and their relationship with their children get better.
57:24
They're more engaged people. They're more active.
57:28
I don't want people who are working 80, 100 hours
57:30
a week every week. Now look, there are weeks where I work 100,
57:33
100 hour weeks. Sometimes
57:36
you gotta get stuff done, right? So there's no
57:38
shame in that. But if that's your
57:40
norm, you
57:42
just cannot sustain a healthy lifestyle,
57:45
healthy relationships, healthy physical body,
57:48
working that much consistently. Just no way. There's not enough
57:50
time in the day to do it. And so I
57:52
don't want people who are sustainably
57:55
the whole finance world is
57:57
full of just chewing people up. spitting
58:00
them out. They use
58:02
people as objects, right? Then
58:04
they throw them away when the object doesn't become useful. I
58:06
mean, my fantasy, and this may be, you know, I
58:09
look at delusions of grandeur, illusions of grandeur,
58:12
is could we show people a better
58:15
way that actually you create higher returns
58:17
long term by treating
58:19
people well. You create
58:22
higher returns over time by using little to
58:24
no debt, as weird as that is
58:26
in the finance world. And believe me, I know all the people
58:28
who are watching this, I get the math, you don't have to
58:30
send me the math, I understand how leverage works, I
58:33
can do the math too. But
58:35
I think there's real value in examining why
58:37
is it that we have a system, especially
58:39
in the leverage bioworld of private equity, where
58:42
the norm is buy, lever,
58:45
strip, and flip, right? I'm
58:49
gonna lever this business to the moon, I'm gonna try
58:51
to use as little equity as I can, I'm gonna
58:53
try to sell it as quickly as I can to
58:55
generate the highest return I can. There's no way to
58:58
make good long term decisions with short term capital,
59:00
with short term time rises, there's no way. And
59:04
by the way, what are we doing if
59:06
all, there's no way to create a long
59:09
term enjoyable, sustainable life by
59:11
having a series of short term transactional relationships that
59:13
you move your life through. That's where you end
59:15
up with these people who can
59:18
buy anything, who've made hundreds
59:20
of millions and billions of dollars who are miserable,
59:22
like I've met these people. They
59:25
have their IRR etched on their tombstone, no
59:28
one gives a shit, no one cares. At the
59:30
end of the day, David
59:34
Brooks I think calls him eulogy
59:36
virtues. Yeah. No
59:38
one at somebody's eulogy was like, he
59:40
was a great man, made a ton of money,
59:43
hated his life, hated his wife. But
59:46
he got 26.5%. Right.
59:49
IRR. But that net IRR, woo, boy,
59:52
let me tell ya. He
59:55
was the one, one of the best. Yeah.
59:57
I mean, and look, we admire greatness. Like
1:00:00
we're, we're a society that worships
1:00:02
outliers. And
1:00:04
so you're not wrong to play that game. That
1:00:06
is a game to be played. There is a
1:00:08
game there and it does lead to certain things
1:00:10
that are good. It
1:00:13
also makes you lose your soul. And
1:00:17
also I don't want to get the impression.
1:00:19
Like we're trying to absolutely shoot the lights out in
1:00:21
returns. Yeah. Just in a
1:00:23
different way, how you go about it, your way, your
1:00:25
way is more sustainable. And there's
1:00:27
a couple of things I want to follow up on that we talked
1:00:29
about there, going back to the
1:00:31
first part, allowing people an opportunity to
1:00:34
almost take advantage of you. Often
1:00:36
I find that the first request
1:00:38
by somebody is very
1:00:41
telling or the first offer, here's
1:00:43
what we want. Here's what we need from you. And
1:00:46
if that doesn't come across as fair, it's
1:00:49
like the biggest signal in the world that
1:00:51
it's like, Oh, this is probably not a relationship
1:00:53
that is going to be win-win. I'm going to
1:00:56
have to work to try to make it win-win.
1:00:58
But you've, you've given me this valuable piece of
1:01:00
information on day one without even intentionally doing so.
1:01:02
Amen. But I would also, I would say is
1:01:05
the slight twist I'd make to that is and
1:01:07
give grace that like, I
1:01:10
will fall down, you will fall down and
1:01:12
make offers to people, even though maybe we
1:01:14
actually are like in a heart space most
1:01:16
of the time. That's not transactional. This
1:01:19
happens to me all the time where I will
1:01:21
fall down and, and, and, and do something transactional.
1:01:23
Totally. And so it's like what I often do
1:01:25
in that situation is say, Hey, maybe this was
1:01:27
unintentional. Maybe you're having a bad day. Whatever
1:01:30
the reason this came across to me as
1:01:32
transactional. If I misinterpreted it, maybe I don't
1:01:34
understand what you're actually that cement underneath it,
1:01:37
but it feels short-term feels transactional,
1:01:40
feels extractive in what
1:01:43
you offered. Did I misunderstand? And
1:01:45
usually that reaction, the more defensive they
1:01:47
are, the more kind of like, what
1:01:50
are you talking about? Right? Like
1:01:52
the water we swim in culturally
1:01:54
is transactive, extractive,
1:01:58
it removes control. It says it's. says you
1:02:00
will be okay if you can
1:02:02
build your own kingdom. So
1:02:05
like it's perfectly normal for that to be
1:02:08
the way people interact and transact. Like that
1:02:10
is the norm. So like I just want
1:02:12
to be careful with how steeped in that
1:02:14
somebody is and how much they've realized that
1:02:16
maybe that there's a better way. And
1:02:19
what I don't want to do is I don't
1:02:21
want to, I don't want to come across as
1:02:24
judging them or condemning them based on that, which
1:02:26
is a real danger, right? Because I mean you
1:02:28
can get self-righteous pretty quickly. It's just a signal.
1:02:30
Right. It's just a signal. If
1:02:32
anything, even if they are highly transactional and
1:02:35
sort of my, like I have
1:02:37
this, like it's like a weird feeling that rises
1:02:39
up in me. It's like a, like, I don't
1:02:41
know. Your Spidey sounds. Right. It's
1:02:43
that I think it's like a protective thing
1:02:46
where you're like, okay, I can feel
1:02:48
myself rising in, in competitiveness, rising in
1:02:51
scarcity to meet their scarcity. And I'm
1:02:53
like, Oh, I don't like that. That's that dirty fuel.
1:02:56
I feel like it's almost like a direct injection of
1:02:59
dirty fuel into my system. And I'm like,
1:03:01
Ooh. Yeah. And then it's like,
1:03:03
okay, well, even if I say, Hey, I don't think we're in
1:03:05
a position right now to probably do something on this or like,
1:03:07
I don't, I don't think the system it would work for you
1:03:09
engaging in the system right now. Try
1:03:12
to show them a better way and encourage them. Don't condemn them. Right.
1:03:15
I think that's the thing that we try to do now. Oftentimes I think people don't
1:03:18
take it as such. I mean, look, if
1:03:20
somebody makes you an offer and you decline, there's rejection
1:03:23
in that. And
1:03:25
again, I totally get
1:03:27
this because I feel this way is when
1:03:29
you get rejected, it touches things that are
1:03:31
way deeper than just that mere surface level
1:03:33
rejection. Totally. So when it travels down and
1:03:35
starts ping ponging around and hitting all those
1:03:37
things down below, that's where you
1:03:40
get these outside of reaction, outsized reactions to
1:03:42
things. And again,
1:03:45
the response that you want to have is when you
1:03:47
see somebody have an outsized reaction is to be, I
1:03:49
can feel stupid, belittle them. Your pattern
1:03:51
is something that I really have enjoyed
1:03:53
studying. So we all
1:03:56
have three basic moves in conflict. And
1:03:59
actually, if you. watch these, it's fun. Like now,
1:04:01
it's like whenever I engage in conflict, I
1:04:04
know my pattern and I very
1:04:06
much know my wife's pattern. And
1:04:09
I try to guess then
1:04:11
what other people's patterns are. You can watch people
1:04:13
go through these phases, but it's
1:04:16
called move against, which is like, no,
1:04:19
you're wrong, screw you,
1:04:21
I want to make you submit
1:04:24
to me. It's very much like a forced submission,
1:04:26
right? So this is somebody who gets up in
1:04:29
your face, who's yelling, or who's like, kind of
1:04:31
like talking down to you, like a
1:04:33
very, very confrontational, right? That's
1:04:35
kind of like one phase. And by the way, again, we
1:04:38
do all three of these. We
1:04:40
just depends on the order, but we all have an
1:04:42
order to how we do these things. And then by
1:04:44
the way, how they interact with one another is super
1:04:46
interesting as well. The
1:04:48
second one is move towards the person.
1:04:50
So the first one's move against. Second
1:04:52
one's move towards move towards is we
1:04:55
need to be okay. I'm not okay unless we're okay. Let's
1:04:58
just gloss over whatever's happened. It's okay.
1:05:00
It'll be fine. You know, let's just
1:05:02
water to the bridge. Let's just move
1:05:05
on. Right? Well, it's avoidant in a
1:05:07
way that is, it feels very relational,
1:05:10
but it's actually not because it's not for the good
1:05:12
of the other. It's actually for their good. They want
1:05:15
to have things be okay. But
1:05:17
it actually doesn't address the underlying issue at all. And then
1:05:19
the third one is move away. So this
1:05:22
is isolate. And so if you watch
1:05:24
all of your conflict will follow one
1:05:26
of like, we'll follow that pattern. Talk
1:05:28
to me about debt and your thoughts
1:05:30
on debt and the optionality it gives
1:05:32
you and when it's appropriate, when it's
1:05:34
not appropriate. Debt is not a
1:05:36
source of return. It is an amplifier
1:05:38
return. So it makes
1:05:41
good things be great.
1:05:44
It can take mediocre things and destroy them. And
1:05:47
of course it takes bad things and nukes them. The
1:05:50
higher your confidence in
1:05:52
the predictability of the future,
1:05:54
the more debt you can
1:05:57
use. I say can use
1:05:59
not should use. in a perfect world
1:06:01
of perfect information where you and I own a business. And
1:06:04
we're like, it's a recurring revenue business. We
1:06:07
are for sure going to make, unlevered,
1:06:10
we're going to make $2 million
1:06:12
this year, $3 million the following
1:06:14
year, $4 million the following year. And it
1:06:17
will go up exactly $1 million in free
1:06:19
cashflow every year into the future. Mathematically, you
1:06:21
can create a formula to
1:06:23
know exactly how much debt you can maximize
1:06:25
in that business. You pull out
1:06:27
the equity, the equity returns look out
1:06:30
of this world, incredible. And
1:06:33
because you know exactly the future is there's
1:06:35
no risk in that. So businesses that have
1:06:37
high predictability of revenues and incomes, and feel
1:06:40
like that they are, well,
1:06:42
I shouldn't say feel, in this case,
1:06:45
since we're creating scenario, they know that outside
1:06:48
events are really going to not affect them.
1:06:50
Then they can lever a tremendous amount. And
1:06:53
it makes complete perfect math
1:06:55
sense. The reality
1:06:57
is that the world,
1:06:59
I believe is largely
1:07:02
unknown and unknowable. The future
1:07:04
is murky. And
1:07:07
so it is a form
1:07:09
of pride, of hubris, to
1:07:11
use more debt than you should.
1:07:14
Now, this is very broad. This is like 60,000 foot because
1:07:17
everything's relative, right? How much debt should you
1:07:19
use? In the world I play in, we
1:07:22
are buying loosely functioning disasters
1:07:24
that sometimes make money. I
1:07:28
mean, these are small to medium sized businesses,
1:07:30
call it 3 million
1:07:32
to $20 million of free cashflow. You know,
1:07:34
my general view after looking behind the curtain
1:07:36
at thousands and thousands of businesses
1:07:38
is that all businesses are
1:07:41
loosely functioning disasters. Like whether it's a
1:07:43
not-for-profit or for-profit or government institution, like
1:07:45
people are messy. When
1:07:47
you get multiple people together, that mess
1:07:50
compounds, when you get large groups of
1:07:52
together, groups together, that mess compounds even
1:07:54
further, it's exponential. And the volatility of
1:07:56
that messiness is tremendous.
1:08:00
And so when you get to
1:08:02
smaller end of the market, these
1:08:04
are for-profit companies that are making
1:08:06
between three and $20 million a
1:08:08
year free cashflow, the volatility
1:08:10
of them is tremendous. And
1:08:13
hence the price that we pay is
1:08:16
on average less than,
1:08:18
because we're paying to accept that
1:08:20
risk. All investing at the end of
1:08:22
the day is the assumption of risk. The
1:08:25
ideal investment scenario is you are
1:08:28
assuming a risk that is knowable,
1:08:31
you are being paid more to
1:08:34
assume that risk and you have some ability
1:08:36
to mitigate that risk. And
1:08:38
that's what we're trying to do in our business.
1:08:40
We're trying to find things that are highly risky,
1:08:43
right? Because we wouldn't pay the price that we're paying
1:08:45
for them if they weren't highly risky. But
1:08:48
that we have talents and relationships
1:08:50
and systems that we can
1:08:53
diagnose what the risks are, properly
1:08:56
analyze the probability and the magnitude of that
1:08:58
risk, and then work to
1:09:00
mitigate it. And that's where our
1:09:02
returns come from. The math to me
1:09:04
is far less clear that over the
1:09:07
longterm debt makes you more
1:09:09
money. I'll give you an example of this. We
1:09:11
bought an aerospace business in
1:09:13
the fall of 2019. I
1:09:16
don't know if you know this, Shane, but aerospace never goes down.
1:09:19
It's always flat or goes up. We
1:09:21
were told by some of the people advising us on
1:09:23
that deal, they were like, are you guys, did you
1:09:25
guys get dropped on your head as a child or
1:09:28
something? You're not putting any debt on an aerospace business.
1:09:31
What is wrong with you? This is
1:09:33
tons of assets, highly leverable. Banks
1:09:36
would be happy to provide. Predictable. It's
1:09:38
predictable. Look at the history of the
1:09:40
business. And we said, yeah, we
1:09:43
don't feel like that's a responsible thing to do.
1:09:46
Again, debt only helps the buyer and the
1:09:48
seller. It doesn't help the leadership team.
1:09:50
It doesn't help the employees. It doesn't help the
1:09:52
communities. It doesn't help the regulators. It
1:09:54
doesn't help your customers. It doesn't help your vendors. There's
1:09:57
all these stakeholders at the table that it doesn't help.
1:10:00
But it does help in certain circumstances,
1:10:02
the buyer and the seller, which again, if
1:10:05
you sort of play short-term games,
1:10:08
win short-term prizes, area of scarcity,
1:10:10
non-recourse debt, heads I win, tails you
1:10:12
lose, there's a lot
1:10:15
of incentives to use debt irresponsibly.
1:10:17
I think that most private equity
1:10:19
firms look at, they're the
1:10:21
gas and the bankers of the breaks and
1:10:24
they'll just do whatever the bankers
1:10:26
allow them to do. And it's sort of up to the
1:10:28
bankers to say no. Our
1:10:31
aerospace business, we were
1:10:33
called idiots. I mean, actually even on Twitter, I think when
1:10:35
we came out with our annual letter that year, people were
1:10:38
like finance bros, were like,
1:10:40
you guys are morons. I was like,
1:10:42
maybe. And
1:10:44
oftentimes we are morons, which is good to be called out
1:10:46
for it. But in this particular case, I don't think we
1:10:48
were. And this is obviously way before we knew that there
1:10:51
was gonna be a pandemic. And
1:10:54
this idea of like, did we get
1:10:56
lucky? Did we get good? I think
1:10:58
you can know that things are not gonna
1:11:00
play out the way you want them to and
1:11:03
prepare for them not playing out and keep optionality
1:11:05
open, which is going to decrease your returns in
1:11:07
any given year, but give you the ability to
1:11:09
survive over decades. So
1:11:12
pandemic rolls around and we're
1:11:14
worried. You know, demand
1:11:16
in the industry in our segment
1:11:19
went off at one point by 88%. We
1:11:22
started to struggle and
1:11:24
we looked at it and we were like,
1:11:26
hey, let's, and by the way, the leadership team
1:11:28
there did an incredible job of
1:11:30
maintaining positive cashflow every
1:11:32
single month through the entire pandemic. Everyone else
1:11:35
was negotiating with their banks. Everyone else was
1:11:37
firing people. And we were the only ones
1:11:39
hiring and we were building systems
1:11:41
and we were taking risk. And we were able to
1:11:43
do that because we didn't need debt. Everyone else is
1:11:46
tied up. We didn't, we weren't tied up. And
1:11:48
the alternative is we lever the thing up. And
1:11:50
for, I don't know, four or five months, we
1:11:53
get a better return. And
1:11:56
then we negotiate with the bank. Hopefully we salvage it.
1:11:58
Maybe we have to inject more out. equity in down
1:12:00
the road. We're sure
1:12:03
as heck not hiring, we're not buying parked packages
1:12:05
for pennies on the dollar. We're not
1:12:07
setting up for 10 years of future success
1:12:09
and growth. We're
1:12:11
not implementing new ERP systems.
1:12:14
We're not implementing new process
1:12:17
and ordering system. The whole thing basically
1:12:19
gave us two years to completely
1:12:21
rebuild that business from the ground up and
1:12:25
to see the fruits of that is astounding. And
1:12:27
the business is dramatically worth more than
1:12:30
it was when we bought it in
1:12:32
spite of having a pandemic
1:12:35
and dramatically decreased demand.
1:12:38
We can't predict the future. When I was talking to
1:12:40
Chris Davis, who's on the
1:12:42
board of Berkshire, he
1:12:44
mentioned it's a strong signal if you're looking
1:12:46
for a good business that they don't have
1:12:49
any debt or they have very little debt
1:12:52
because that masks so many things
1:12:54
and the fragility involved is just
1:12:56
off the charts and people
1:12:58
don't realize the risks they're taking. And there's
1:13:00
also a world of difference between debt at
1:13:02
2%, if
1:13:05
you can get long-term debt at 2% versus
1:13:08
sort of now seven, eight, nine,
1:13:10
even higher, depending
1:13:13
on the circumstances. And when people enter
1:13:15
into a debt transaction, they just assume
1:13:17
that the world is gonna stay the
1:13:20
exact same that it is today. I'm
1:13:23
gonna make the same revenue. The
1:13:25
interest rates aren't gonna go up. They'll only
1:13:27
positively surprise me to the downside. And
1:13:29
then you find out that that's not the
1:13:32
case. And then all of
1:13:34
your free cashflow effectively starts getting consumed
1:13:36
by debt. And it doesn't take much.
1:13:38
It takes like a five to 10%
1:13:41
downturn in the business, which is a
1:13:43
perfectly normal- Business cycle. Reasonable cycle to
1:13:46
then throw the business into chaos. Yeah. I
1:13:52
can't imagine being an operator. And by the way, we've
1:13:55
never seen a business that we
1:13:57
wanna purchase ever the
1:14:00
firm that has debt on it. Like
1:14:02
when we buy it that has debt on it. Like
1:14:05
no families get wealthy
1:14:08
by being like, oh yeah, we have this great
1:14:10
operating business. Like let's pull a bunch of a
1:14:12
bunch of income from the future into the present
1:14:14
and lever up because that would be awesome. So
1:14:16
we can increase our consumption temporarily. So we can
1:14:18
buy a bigger house. Like no one does that
1:14:21
and for very good reason. Like it doesn't make any sense, but
1:14:23
somehow we've gotten ourselves as an
1:14:25
industry in the finance industry into this position where
1:14:27
it's like, it makes no sense how families
1:14:30
build businesses. By
1:14:32
the way, every business starts as a small business. Every
1:14:34
business starts as a family owned business. They then take
1:14:37
a business that has been operated a certain way for
1:14:39
a very long time, gone through ups and downs, survived
1:14:41
for 20, 30, 50, a hundred years
1:14:44
maybe. And then all of a sudden it's
1:14:46
like, actually what we want to do now
1:14:48
is completely gut how the
1:14:50
business operates and runs. We need to hit it with
1:14:52
the steroid needle. We're going to get, we're going to
1:14:54
jack it up with debt. We're going to strip it
1:14:57
of a bunch of cost structure. We're going to hire
1:14:59
a bunch of new people who are going to do
1:15:01
amazing things in a short period of time. And then
1:15:04
we're going to flip it to somebody else. And
1:15:06
by the way, once you get on that treadmill, like
1:15:08
once you sell the private equity, traditional private equity, do
1:15:10
a leveraged buyout, that business is forever
1:15:12
going to be flipped to the next person
1:15:15
or eventually might get sold to a strategic, but it
1:15:18
forever is relegated to a lack of
1:15:20
independence. Like it will never be an
1:15:22
independent ongoing concern for very long
1:15:24
after that. There's just no, no examples
1:15:27
of this. So for for us, like, you know, I
1:15:29
don't think we're smart. I
1:15:31
don't think we're trying to be geniuses. We
1:15:34
just look at like, okay, the whole
1:15:36
world is built on an
1:15:38
entrepreneur or small group of people,
1:15:40
entrepreneurs getting together, creating
1:15:42
something that the world needs. It's
1:15:45
hard. They built it over a
1:15:48
long period of time. They inherently acknowledge the
1:15:50
fragility of it. We just want to continue
1:15:52
to honor them, their legacy, honor the, all
1:15:54
the stakeholders, and all try to win together
1:15:56
the longterm. And I
1:15:58
couldn't imagine a worse thing. do than to
1:16:00
put debt on that. And I think
1:16:03
people miss over the long term, the
1:16:05
lack of debt actually works out better,
1:16:09
but over the short term, and I have the
1:16:11
saying, which is lack of patience changes the outcome.
1:16:15
And so when you lever up to
1:16:18
get your immediate returns and then you're
1:16:20
sort of playing with house money, you
1:16:23
can sort of justify
1:16:25
almost any behavior. And
1:16:28
when you think long-term, like a family thinks of a
1:16:30
business and you sort of go, well, we can't do
1:16:32
that because what we want is optionality.
1:16:34
You miss the fact that what you guys did,
1:16:36
you had a period of
1:16:39
two years where you made more
1:16:41
progress than you would have in
1:16:43
probably 10 or 20, where you're
1:16:45
strong and you're operating from
1:16:47
a position of strength. And
1:16:49
it's almost playing on easy mode in a way,
1:16:51
right? It's like, oh, like now we can expand
1:16:53
our business. People are
1:16:55
probably discounting parts at these fire
1:16:58
sale prices. We can stock up on them
1:17:00
and our margin is going to expand because
1:17:02
of that. We know the business is eventually
1:17:04
going to come back. I mean, I think
1:17:07
it depends on how you look at our
1:17:09
roles. Are we owners? And I'm not talking
1:17:11
about legal definitions here. I'm talking about mindset.
1:17:13
Yeah. If you own something, it
1:17:15
is your property to do with it, whatever you
1:17:17
want. You can do anything
1:17:19
you want with it. So like the pushback to everything,
1:17:21
if I was going to strong man, the opposing argument
1:17:23
is who are you to tell me what risk
1:17:25
to take? Oh, you can take it. Who are you to
1:17:28
tell me how to run my business? Like
1:17:30
I own it. I can do whatever I
1:17:32
want. I used to feel that way. Big shift for me
1:17:34
was becoming a steward, right? It's this
1:17:36
idea of stewardship and not ownership. So
1:17:39
the way I look at it is families are entrusting
1:17:41
us to be stewards of their company. It's
1:17:43
a responsibility that we have. Yes,
1:17:46
we get benefits from
1:17:49
being a steward. Yes, we get to
1:17:51
share in the fruits of the labor and
1:17:53
progress of the company. But at
1:17:55
the end of the day, my job is
1:17:57
to make sure that these businesses remain
1:17:59
intact. are healthy. And
1:18:02
when you look at it from that position, the
1:18:05
world becomes a lot clearer. What's
1:18:08
in the best interest of everyone else, but also me.
1:18:10
I mean, I don't want to do things that harm
1:18:12
us, but if we align incentives
1:18:15
properly, things that help us should help everyone
1:18:17
else and vice versa. Like we
1:18:19
will be taken care of if we take care of our people,
1:18:22
we'll be taken care of if we take
1:18:24
care of our customers. Like it's not
1:18:26
a complicated thing, but I think again,
1:18:29
are we owners or are we stewards?
1:18:31
Or I think often families take a
1:18:33
stewardship mindset of ownership. It's the, it's
1:18:36
interesting to me, I try
1:18:38
not to judge other people for what they do or
1:18:41
what they choose. Cause I mean, we're each
1:18:43
playing our own game. We're each sort of
1:18:45
like doing what's rationally makes sense for us
1:18:47
given everything going on in our life.
1:18:50
And if we switch shoes, we'd probably see the
1:18:52
world very differently than we do, but
1:18:55
people, I think they just under
1:18:57
appreciate the fact that you are
1:19:01
not thinking about really what
1:19:03
you're doing over a longer period
1:19:05
of time. And if you
1:19:08
structure your thinking stewardship is a great
1:19:10
example over a longer period of time,
1:19:12
you eliminate a lot of poor behavior
1:19:15
that you would otherwise
1:19:17
get or a lot of things that
1:19:19
can take you out of the game. Yeah, for
1:19:21
sure. Let's talk about incentives. How do you set
1:19:23
incentives for the CEOs of these businesses? How do
1:19:25
you think about them? Walk
1:19:27
me through one in detail, for example.
1:19:30
Yeah, well, so the, I think the
1:19:32
ideal system is everyone's eating at the
1:19:34
same table. Right. So
1:19:36
there's not different tables that the food falls
1:19:39
onto one and then falls onto the other,
1:19:41
right? Everyone's, everyone's incentives are aligned to, to
1:19:43
achieve the same goals. And
1:19:46
for us, when we look at traditional
1:19:48
private equity and the traditional two
1:19:50
and 20 model, right? So on
1:19:52
the amount of capital that you have either
1:19:56
gotten to invest or have invested, depending on the
1:19:58
terms of the agreement with your. limited
1:20:00
partners, you get a 2% fee
1:20:03
annually that goes to covering your overhead
1:20:05
costs and expenses of
1:20:07
the operations of the firm, the seeking out,
1:20:09
the doing of the deals, the oversight
1:20:12
and governance post-close. And then once you
1:20:14
pay them back with a return, typically
1:20:16
a 6% to 8%, maybe 10% depending
1:20:18
on the situation, then you get to
1:20:21
share in the upsides of that. And
1:20:23
the LPs, the people supplying you with
1:20:25
the money, provide
1:20:28
you that capital for usually
1:20:30
in private equity 10 years, roughly,
1:20:34
which again goes back to time horizon. 10 years sounds
1:20:36
like a long time. Shane, isn't that plenty
1:20:38
of time to buy a business and
1:20:40
hold it? Maybe. I
1:20:44
think if you've talked to most private equity people, they would say,
1:20:48
it's not the deals that they did that
1:20:50
really hurt that they did that went poorly. The
1:20:53
ones that hurt the most are the ones that they were
1:20:55
doing great and they could see a long future of compounding
1:20:57
that they just had to sell the business. You're
1:20:59
like, but 10 years is a long time. But
1:21:02
the reality is it takes time to find
1:21:04
a business, get the transaction
1:21:06
done. There's a sort of initial phase
1:21:08
of getting to know the business. Once you buy, you
1:21:11
really never know which you actually buy. No matter how
1:21:13
much due diligence you do, you don't really know until
1:21:15
you get into the weeds post-close. There's
1:21:17
a period of orientation, then there's a period of in
1:21:19
traditional private equity growth and trying to hit some sort
1:21:21
of metrics to then sell it to somebody else, which
1:21:23
by the way, selling takes time too. So you've got
1:21:25
to buy it takes time, you got to operate it
1:21:28
takes time, you got to sell it takes time. So
1:21:30
they're really at max, if you
1:21:32
hit it perfectly in the fun life cycle,
1:21:34
maybe you get five years, five
1:21:37
years at most. Most private
1:21:39
equity firms now are targeting what they'd
1:21:41
like is two to three years. So
1:21:44
from the time we buy something till the time we sell it
1:21:46
is two or three years. Again, maybe four
1:21:48
or five. If you get past
1:21:50
five, it's really distressed at that point. Like you're
1:21:53
trying to look for, you're trying to get
1:21:55
rid of it and you can't. When we think about incentives, incentive
1:21:58
for traditional private equity would be Shane,
1:22:01
I'd like for you to come on. I'd
1:22:03
like for you to run, do a tour of duty,
1:22:05
right? The tours of duty is kind of the way
1:22:07
that leadership has done in traditional private equity.
1:22:09
Once your tour of duty is gonna be two to
1:22:11
three years, look, you're not gonna see your family much.
1:22:13
You're gonna work your tail off. But
1:22:15
there's this pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. If you
1:22:17
can get us our
1:22:20
returns, you can get our investors our returns, then
1:22:22
you get to share in the upside of that.
1:22:24
It's a highly levered bet of sort of your
1:22:26
time and attention. We think
1:22:28
that that doesn't make much
1:22:30
alignment. And this is where you see private equity
1:22:32
detonating companies. This is where you see lots of
1:22:34
problems. I mean, private equity, you know, as
1:22:37
an industry, when I tell somebody I'm in private equity,
1:22:39
it's like we look up to lawyers and reputation these
1:22:41
days. You know, lawyers have a better
1:22:43
reputation than we do. And for a very
1:22:45
good reason, like there's been a lot of bad behavior. And
1:22:48
by the way, the incentives are
1:22:50
for the bad behavior. All of the polls
1:22:52
of traditional private equity, leverage buyout model is
1:22:55
towards bad behavior. Short-termism,
1:22:59
treating people poorly, cutting
1:23:01
all these things that hurt. I mean,
1:23:03
you're damaging when you fire somebody, you
1:23:06
are hurting not just them, but their entire
1:23:09
family, their friend group. Like you're
1:23:11
hurting communities. Now, it's also not healthy to keep somebody
1:23:13
in the role that they're in because you don't want
1:23:15
to fire. Then that's not healthy either. That's not kind. Be nice,
1:23:17
that's not kind. We can talk about that as a separate point.
1:23:20
For what we are trying to
1:23:22
do though, is we're trying to
1:23:25
have a complete perfect alignment between
1:23:27
our LPs, us,
1:23:30
and the people who operate these businesses on a
1:23:32
day-to-day basis. So we're trying to all leave from
1:23:34
the same table, trying to use the same metrics.
1:23:36
Practically, what does that look like? We
1:23:38
are, I used to say unusual in
1:23:41
our fee model. Now it's unique.
1:23:43
I mean, we couldn't even get audited
1:23:45
right out of the gate because no one knew what to do
1:23:47
with us. We take no fees of any kind, no
1:23:50
reimbursements of any kind. There's
1:23:52
no cash that comes from either our LPs
1:23:54
or the companies to
1:23:56
us. Zero guaranteed revenue,
1:23:58
which are like high. you run the firm.
1:24:01
Thankfully, when we started the firm, we were operators.
1:24:03
So we came in with cash flow and with
1:24:05
businesses and fell backwards into this whole
1:24:07
thing of private equity. I
1:24:09
remember the first deal
1:24:11
I did is I was close to accidental
1:24:13
as you could buy a business. I bought
1:24:15
it. I remember my lawyer, he
1:24:18
was like, we just got to do diligence. I
1:24:20
typed into Google, DO diligence. Was this media cross?
1:24:22
Yeah, it was media cross. So long as today,
1:24:24
I remember getting that deal done. And I called
1:24:26
up a friend who was like my one finance
1:24:29
friend from undergrad. And I was like, Hey, I
1:24:31
did this thing. Like, I think it's a good
1:24:33
deal. I don't know. And he goes, Oh, you did
1:24:35
a private equity deal. I literally Googled private equity. I
1:24:37
almost my career to Google. And
1:24:39
when I started studying it, I'm like, what, this doesn't make
1:24:42
any sense. Like all the incentives are off. And so what
1:24:44
I said was when we came in and we were, you
1:24:46
know, we ended up taking outside capital for the first time
1:24:48
in 2017, I was like, I don't need your fees. Like
1:24:50
I don't want
1:24:53
your fees. I don't want the incentive to
1:24:55
gather more and more capital, which forces you
1:24:57
to go up market. We can talk about
1:24:59
that. I said,
1:25:01
and I don't want to, I don't want to be able
1:25:04
to win when you lose. Like I want to win, win
1:25:06
or a lose, lose situation. Like I am willing to take
1:25:08
the risk. I wanted to be entrepreneurial because that was my
1:25:10
background. Like I was an entrepreneur. And so we have a
1:25:12
model where we take no fees of any kind, no reimbursements
1:25:14
of any kind from the portfolio companies or from our LPs.
1:25:17
We get a percentage of free cashflow as
1:25:19
we return cashback. That's how we share with our,
1:25:21
with our investors. Well, turns
1:25:24
out what that does for us is
1:25:26
it gives us the perfectly aligned ability to,
1:25:30
if there are high return, high probability projects
1:25:32
to reinvest in the portfolio, we would be
1:25:35
idiots not to take
1:25:37
the cash, defer gratification and
1:25:39
reinvest it often pre-tax at
1:25:42
high rates of return with high probability. That's
1:25:45
what any family would do. Right.
1:25:47
That's what we do. That's what our investors want.
1:25:50
They want to defer gratification. We want to
1:25:52
defer gratification. And the same thing.
1:25:54
We want to incentivize our leaders to do the exact same thing.
1:25:56
So oftentimes the metrics that they're measured
1:25:59
on is on. cash flow. But
1:26:01
again, it's not free cash flow in
1:26:04
a short period of time, it's free cash flow over a long period of time.
1:26:07
So when we don't have things
1:26:09
to do with the capital, high probability, high
1:26:11
return reinvestments, the dumbest possible thing you
1:26:13
could do is keep a bunch of cash. I call
1:26:15
the bladder problem, right? The more money you have, the
1:26:17
more likely you're going to piss it away. This
1:26:20
is where you see these businesses being
1:26:22
run in ways that you're like, they are
1:26:24
murdering money. They are destroying capital. How in
1:26:26
the world are they getting away with this?
1:26:28
And it's like, well, they're kingdom building, they're
1:26:31
feeding their incentives are build a bigger business.
1:26:33
Because by the way, you hire the compensation
1:26:35
consultants that tell you, well, yeah, the team
1:26:37
that same team and they
1:26:39
haven't really made a great return, but the business
1:26:41
is bigger. And by the way, bigger businesses command
1:26:43
higher salaries. So you play the game. It's a bigger
1:26:45
business. It's higher salary, more comp. It's
1:26:48
like their incentives are off the firm
1:26:50
who bought them, they're two and 20 by
1:26:52
lovers, strip and flip their incentives. And the
1:26:54
leadership teams and setups often are misaligned. LPs
1:26:57
are misaligned. Everyone up and down the value
1:26:59
chain of the traditional private equity structure is
1:27:01
misaligned. Now there's so much money flowing through
1:27:03
the system and there's enough safeguards and there's
1:27:05
enough discernment over a long enough period of
1:27:08
time. It all kind of has worked. You
1:27:10
can make an argument that when rates are
1:27:12
continually decreasing for the better part of two
1:27:14
and a half decades, interesting,
1:27:17
weird distortions happen in the market. We just want
1:27:19
a perfect alignment. So we want that operator in
1:27:22
the business to say, the first thing I want
1:27:24
to do is keep a healthy business
1:27:26
with strong cashflow, keep the
1:27:28
golden goose cranking out eggs. Second, we want to
1:27:30
take the proceeds for
1:27:33
cashflow and look for high return, high
1:27:35
probability projects in the companies. If
1:27:37
we can find them, especially pre-tax,
1:27:41
fantastic reinvest cash.
1:27:44
They want to reinvest cash because now they
1:27:46
reinvested a hundred dollars and now they've got 25 more
1:27:49
dollars every other year following that. We
1:27:52
love that too. We'd be happy to defer. We're
1:27:55
getting $25 as well ourselves. Now our investors are
1:27:57
like, of course, keep the capital. You've got great
1:27:59
things to do. to do with it, keep it. So
1:28:01
up and down the value chain, we're completely aligned. When
1:28:04
we should hold cash, we do
1:28:07
and reinvest it. And when we don't have anything good to
1:28:09
do with it, we send it out. So
1:28:11
is it a simple sort of like two
1:28:13
variable formula for all your CEOs then or
1:28:16
in terms of free cashflow and invested
1:28:18
capital? Yep. Everyone's just
1:28:21
incentivized on that. And then do
1:28:24
the CEOs get a compensation on
1:28:26
the cash distributed? Yeah, oftentimes. Yeah.
1:28:29
I mean, it depends on the situation where
1:28:31
sometimes having the CEOs are rolling forward quite
1:28:34
a bit of equity depending on the situation.
1:28:36
So sometimes they're getting equity or
1:28:38
getting cash kickers on top of that. But
1:28:40
oftentimes they're 10, 15, 20%
1:28:44
owners in these businesses. And so the incentives
1:28:46
naturally baked in. We love that. We don't
1:28:48
want to buy 100% of a company.
1:28:51
Like if we have our choice, we're buying 51% to 70%
1:28:54
of the business and we don't allow
1:28:57
non-strategic actors. We
1:28:59
want people who are actively engaged in the business to
1:29:01
own the remainder. How do you think about hiring and
1:29:03
firing CEOs? How do you know you have the right
1:29:05
CEO and how do you know
1:29:07
when it's time to move on? It's
1:29:11
hard and it's messy is the answer. Since we're
1:29:13
talking about comparing us to traditional private equity, I
1:29:16
would say is one of the things that traditional
1:29:18
private equity has gotten done better than us in
1:29:20
some ways is held people accountable. I think they
1:29:22
go too far in one direction.
1:29:24
I think we've reactionarily gone too far in
1:29:26
the other. In terms of the performance of
1:29:28
permanent equity as a firm, I would
1:29:32
say in absolute terms, we're not doing as
1:29:34
well, nearly as well as we could. And
1:29:37
this is an area of active learning for
1:29:39
us. I'm just being honest and transparent about
1:29:41
it. We've been tolerant of a lack of
1:29:43
performance to a degree that is unhealthy, not
1:29:45
only for the companies and the returns, but
1:29:47
also for the people that are engaging in
1:29:49
that behavior. And this is
1:29:52
an active area of discussion right now in the
1:29:54
firm. I mean, I'm giving you a real live
1:29:56
view of what we're discussing and it ultimately it's
1:29:58
a failure on my part. I'm
1:30:00
the CEO, I'm responsible for setting the
1:30:02
tone, and I deferred too
1:30:05
much early in my
1:30:07
career to the promises and to
1:30:09
the optimism that things would get
1:30:11
better when things weren't great. And
1:30:14
if you look at where we have really
1:30:16
succeeded is working with people who were doing
1:30:18
well and making them better. Where
1:30:20
we've really fallen down as a firm is
1:30:22
when things get dicey, we
1:30:25
tend to defer to relationship and
1:30:28
we tend to trust the people that we
1:30:30
have, even when there are many
1:30:33
warning signs that things are
1:30:35
not okay. And I would say this is the
1:30:37
nice versus kind principle that we've screwed up. Being
1:30:39
kind to somebody is saying, hey, I think
1:30:42
you're in the wrong role. And
1:30:44
they're stressed out. Their
1:30:47
lives are not, they're not enjoying life. They're not enjoying their
1:30:49
role. They're fear-based, right? When you get into a position where
1:30:51
things are not going well and you don't know why and
1:30:53
you don't know how to get out of it, it's
1:30:56
terrifying. And
1:30:58
part of what our role is is to help people.
1:31:01
We look fundamentally at like we, our job
1:31:03
is to serve and help others. If
1:31:06
we can serve and help others succeed, we're
1:31:08
going to succeed. Our LPs are going to succeed.
1:31:11
And to be honest, we screwed this
1:31:13
up. We have not done
1:31:15
a good job of getting people
1:31:18
the help and
1:31:20
moving people into roles that they should be in
1:31:22
or, or having them move on to outside roles.
1:31:25
And we need to do better at it. Does it ever work to change? I
1:31:28
mean, I don't have a ton of
1:31:30
experience with this working out. Maybe you do
1:31:32
where you change a role like, Hey, you're
1:31:35
CEO, but you'd really make a great CTO
1:31:37
in the same company because then you create
1:31:39
all these internal politics of like, who do
1:31:42
I report to and my loyalties to the
1:31:44
person who hired me and, or
1:31:46
is it just easier to sort of like transition and
1:31:48
move on? I mean, it would, that would
1:31:50
be wonderful to be able to do that.
1:31:52
I think that a lot of people's careers
1:31:54
would benefit if they had the humility to
1:31:56
be able to do that. Fundamentally, we all
1:31:59
struggle with pride. And
1:32:01
we can't see ourselves clearly. Like we
1:32:03
are a mystery to ourselves. And
1:32:06
what we, how we see ourselves in
1:32:08
our talents and our weaknesses
1:32:10
is often different than how other people see us. This is
1:32:12
why we need each other. This is the whole point of
1:32:15
relationship. This is the value. And this
1:32:17
is the terror of where we've gone as
1:32:19
a side note with social
1:32:21
media being so isolating with not having
1:32:23
in-person relationships. Like this is no
1:32:26
wonder that deaths of despair and suicide
1:32:29
attempts and anxieties through the roof, right?
1:32:31
We would love to be able
1:32:33
to take to somebody, hey, you're in the CEO
1:32:35
role or maybe the CFO role or whatever it
1:32:37
is. And we need you to take a step
1:32:39
back, you know, in order
1:32:41
to move forward. Careers often
1:32:43
die by suicide, not by homicide.
1:32:47
Like it's not- Double click on there.
1:32:49
Over and over and over again, I've
1:32:51
watched this tragedy happen, which is the
1:32:54
Peter principle. Someone rises and
1:32:57
they rise beyond their abilities and
1:33:00
then they can't take a step back.
1:33:02
Their pride, their ego, their identity is
1:33:04
rooted now in their title, in
1:33:06
their position. And you
1:33:10
say to them, we love you. We
1:33:12
think you're awesome. We'd love for you to continue to
1:33:15
be with us. The role
1:33:17
you're currently in is hurting you and
1:33:20
hurting those around you and hurting the company. And
1:33:23
they'll acknowledge that. And then you'll say, great,
1:33:25
could we get you into this role? No,
1:33:28
absolutely not. People
1:33:31
fight, claw for territory, kingdom
1:33:34
building. It's hard to go
1:33:36
from being king. Still
1:33:39
may be an important person in the kingdom, but you're not
1:33:41
the king anymore. It's hard. It'd
1:33:43
be hard for me too. Would I be okay with RLP's
1:33:46
coming to me and saying, Brent, I don't
1:33:49
think you're the right person to lead permanent equity. I'm
1:33:52
not gonna lie and be like, well, that'd be a great
1:33:54
conversation to have. I
1:33:57
hope that I would meet it with curiosity. I hope I'd
1:33:59
meet it with... self-reflection and say, wow, I
1:34:01
really wanna hear, I mean, I think I
1:34:03
disagree, but I wanna meet it
1:34:05
with curiosity and
1:34:07
see what they have to say and see
1:34:10
if I could discern out of it. Maybe I'm not in the right role. What
1:34:13
have you learned about hiring people that most
1:34:16
people miss? Well, another journey I've been on,
1:34:19
speaking of these like added tools
1:34:21
and toolkit is I've really become
1:34:24
much more familiar with different personality
1:34:26
testing. And
1:34:29
specifically, like I've looked at a bunch of
1:34:31
them, I really like the
1:34:33
combination of Myers-Briggs and Enneagram.
1:34:37
If you think about our business as, you
1:34:41
know, we take money and we turn it into
1:34:43
more money, I think you miss the most important
1:34:45
thing that we really do, which
1:34:47
is our whole business is
1:34:49
predicated on predicting the behaviors
1:34:52
of people. Like
1:34:54
if we can predict the behaviors of people, there's
1:34:58
no way to lose. And when we don't predict the
1:35:00
behaviors of people, we're almost certain
1:35:02
to lose, like an increase in incredible
1:35:04
volatility into the system. If I think about my
1:35:06
job as CEO, I need
1:35:08
to be helping our team to
1:35:10
be the most thoughtful, well-educated,
1:35:14
up to speed on predicting human
1:35:16
behavior. I mean, this
1:35:19
is where the Knowledge Project is been super helpful.
1:35:21
The work that you've done, collecting the best of what
1:35:24
other people have figured out, getting
1:35:26
it, distilling it, right? I mean, this is what
1:35:28
we're all trying to pursue. And specifically around the
1:35:30
wisdom of clicking over these lenses that
1:35:33
these personality tests provide, and
1:35:35
giving you a framework to create empathy
1:35:38
and create predictability in relationships. I think that's probably
1:35:40
been the biggest leap forward in what most people
1:35:42
get wrong, is most people don't
1:35:45
understand why people are doing what
1:35:47
they're doing, don't understand how they
1:35:49
should think about incentives based on
1:35:51
the person themselves, and not just
1:35:53
the financial incentives, and don't
1:35:56
have much empathy for how other people
1:35:58
react. So take things personally that aren't... You
1:36:00
know, everyone acts rationally in the moment. This
1:36:02
is the like the heroin addict who's
1:36:05
choosing heroin over eating a
1:36:07
meal or, you know, leaving their family.
1:36:10
In that moment. Believes
1:36:12
they're doing the right thing for them,
1:36:15
believes it's rational to pursue
1:36:17
that hit. Versus
1:36:19
do everything else. So
1:36:21
the question you have to ask yourself is why? Right.
1:36:24
And same thing in companies. Same
1:36:27
thing with leadership in these firms. Like
1:36:29
the question is why? What do we think? Why
1:36:32
did that person go off the rails? Or how did that person suddenly
1:36:35
disintegrate before our eyes? Or why is
1:36:37
that person performing so incredibly well? And
1:36:40
so these different personality testing, it
1:36:43
doesn't know in the box. No one is
1:36:45
a, you know, in the
1:36:47
16 types for Myers Briggs or whatever it might be. There's
1:36:50
no grouping that will perfectly
1:36:52
describe anyone. That's not the point. The point
1:36:54
you've missed it. If you think that you're
1:36:56
going to put somebody into a
1:36:58
box and it's going to predict 100% of their behavior. That's
1:37:01
why I like having multiple of these that
1:37:03
kind of give you a 3D look at people. I
1:37:06
mean, my experiences, it was an eye-opening. I assume
1:37:09
that everyone else operated the way I operate. I
1:37:11
assume people wanted what I wanted. Turns
1:37:14
out I am weird. So
1:37:16
are you. So is everyone you meet. They're
1:37:18
weird because they're mixtures of all
1:37:20
these different axes of how we sit on
1:37:23
these things. Right. And how we, how they
1:37:25
interplay and interact with one another. But
1:37:28
I can tell you as an example, once I
1:37:30
understand sort of the four axes of Myers Briggs.
1:37:34
So where do you gather your energy is
1:37:36
the first one. So this is introverted, extroverted.
1:37:39
This is not how you show up in the world. This is where
1:37:41
you gather energy. So introverts can
1:37:43
appear extroverted, extroverts can appear introverted. That's
1:37:45
where this like sort of you get
1:37:47
these very basic ideas about how the
1:37:49
world works. And you sort of hear
1:37:51
like a little bit of these things and you get misperceptions
1:37:53
of what they actually mean. So it's really important to understand.
1:37:56
Are you getting your energy from inner life or
1:37:58
are you more. or solar powered, right?
1:38:01
Getting your energy from other
1:38:03
people and from the world. The second one
1:38:05
is how do you process information? Are
1:38:07
you intuitive or are you high sensing? This
1:38:10
tells you a lot about where somebody starts in how
1:38:12
they think about life. So sensors
1:38:15
think about life in the present. They're
1:38:18
present oriented. They walk from the
1:38:20
present into the future. They're
1:38:22
very practical. They're very reasonable.
1:38:24
They're very rational people. Intuitives like
1:38:27
maniacs like me, we
1:38:29
start into the future and then
1:38:31
we walk back into the present. So we get
1:38:33
excited about ideas. We're like, oh, we vision this
1:38:35
future. Oh, what might that
1:38:37
be? How might that work? What might we do?
1:38:39
Who could come along with us, right? And then
1:38:41
somebody says, a sensor comes along and says, excuse
1:38:44
me, I'm glad that
1:38:46
you're 10 years in the future right now. And you
1:38:48
have these grandiose visions of where you're going. We've
1:38:50
got to make payroll this week. And by
1:38:53
the way, that's on fire and that's on fire. And
1:38:55
like, we need to be here. So you need both,
1:38:57
right? That's the beauty. None of these like being introverted
1:38:59
or extroverted, they're just strengths
1:39:01
and weaknesses, right? There's always
1:39:03
upsides and downsides to each one of these. But
1:39:06
once I can tell, okay, where's somebody
1:39:08
powered from, right? How
1:39:10
does somebody process information? The third one is how do
1:39:12
they make decisions? This is a really important one. So
1:39:15
thinkers and feelers, two basic categories. Thinkers
1:39:18
are all about ideas and about truth. So
1:39:22
they're seeking truth. They're seeking ideas. They're
1:39:25
very achievement oriented. They
1:39:28
want to get things ordered up
1:39:30
and neatly packaged. That's
1:39:33
how they make decisions. So they're making decisions based on
1:39:35
what is truth and how am
1:39:37
I seeking it? Feelers on the other
1:39:39
hand, by the way, most men
1:39:41
are thinkers. So 70% of men are thinkers,
1:39:43
30% are feelers. 70%
1:39:47
of women are feelers, 30% are
1:39:49
thinkers. When we go
1:39:51
back up to the sensing and intuitive, it's about 75,
1:39:53
25 sensing to intuitive. So
1:39:57
75% of people are present oriented, 25% are... future
1:40:00
oriented. And so I'm
1:40:02
like the super weird combination, right? Where I'm
1:40:04
external focused. I'm an extrovert
1:40:07
who is intuitive. So right there, I'm in
1:40:10
the 25%, right? Introvert extroverts
1:40:12
50 50. I'm in 25%. And then I'm
1:40:14
in the 30% of men that are feelers. So feelers base
1:40:20
everything on relationships and values. So
1:40:24
we feel our way to decision making. It's
1:40:26
how will it impact the world around me?
1:40:28
How will it impact my relationships? How will
1:40:30
it make people feel? Now,
1:40:32
again, it's not like I don't have a rational side and
1:40:34
I can't consider ideas. And it doesn't
1:40:36
mean a thinker can't
1:40:39
feel anything. That's not the point. The point
1:40:41
is, which is the primary lens that you
1:40:43
look through in life, right? And the last
1:40:45
one, which is really interesting is
1:40:48
lifestyle. This is a J
1:40:50
versus a P, a judger
1:40:52
versus a perceiver. And it's
1:40:54
really about how you like to
1:40:56
move through the world. Do
1:40:59
you move through the world in sort of an orderly
1:41:01
way? Do you like structure? Do you like to you
1:41:03
have a decision to make you gather information, you make
1:41:06
a decision, you move on, right?
1:41:08
You like things structured? Or
1:41:11
are you a maniac like me, who is a
1:41:13
perceiver, who is kind of open for
1:41:15
whatever I loop on things I need forced I
1:41:17
need to be forced to make a decision. I
1:41:21
need a deadline to
1:41:23
do things. And so again, if you understand
1:41:25
people based on these, these four parameters, then
1:41:27
you could really have a lot of empathy. Like my wife and
1:41:30
I did this personally testing
1:41:32
together in each other's presence.
1:41:35
And I'll never forget my, we were going
1:41:37
through this list of like, are you more like this? Are
1:41:39
you more like this? You know, whatever. And she's like,
1:41:41
of course this like only
1:41:44
an maniac would be fat.
1:41:46
And I'm like, yep, I'm the other one.
1:41:49
And literally at one point she looked over and
1:41:51
I could tell the look on her face was like,
1:41:53
I have children with this man. Like what, who
1:41:55
is this? Right? But again, we're all in our
1:41:57
own heads. We think that the world works. same
1:42:00
way. But for us, it created
1:42:02
a tremendous amount of empathy. Like
1:42:04
she, the how I made decisions and how she makes
1:42:06
decisions, by the way, we're opposite on every single category.
1:42:09
You can imagine that might create some friction in
1:42:11
a marriage. Same thing in work relationships, right? Right.
1:42:13
You asked what do people mostly get wrong? I
1:42:15
think we get wrong is we assume everyone is
1:42:17
like us. And so if you have a certain
1:42:19
attribute set, you tend to want to look at
1:42:22
the whole world through that attribute set and say,
1:42:24
Oh, well, everyone I hire should have that attribute
1:42:26
set. And if they don't,
1:42:28
they're bad. They're bad fit. Yeah, just totally not
1:42:30
true. And so we think about a lot of
1:42:32
this stuff as we are recruiting. We think about
1:42:35
a lot of like, okay, what are the things
1:42:37
that we're asking this person to do and what
1:42:40
type of person would
1:42:42
be good for that? And
1:42:44
then the other one that I've really
1:42:47
enjoyed is Enneagram because it really shows
1:42:49
you what is your underlying insecurity and
1:42:51
what are your primary drives? So there's
1:42:53
nine numbers and each one has a
1:42:55
very different set of pluses,
1:42:58
minuses, strengths and weaknesses. And so when you're able, again,
1:43:00
none of them are perfect. You're not, it's like, Oh,
1:43:03
I'm a B personally, like I'm a three,
1:43:05
two, right? Which in Enneagram
1:43:07
means I'm an achiever and I'm like a kind
1:43:09
of a people pleaser. Like I like to serve,
1:43:12
which is sounds, Oh, he's an achiever and likes
1:43:15
to serve people. Like that's again, like look at
1:43:17
it. No, no, no. It comes with huge downsides.
1:43:19
Like my worst fear is I'm not enough. My
1:43:22
worst fear is if people knew me, they wouldn't like me. I'm
1:43:25
adaptive to other people. And so it's like, do I know
1:43:27
the real me? Like my, my
1:43:29
serving of others quickly turns into people pleasing.
1:43:31
Do you give people personality tests as part
1:43:33
of the recruiting process? Yeah, we, we do.
1:43:35
Yeah, we really, and by the way, we
1:43:37
don't automatically ax people
1:43:40
as part of that. Like it's not like we're like, Oh,
1:43:42
if they don't fit this exact personality, then, but what it
1:43:44
does is it allows us if we're getting, you know, it's,
1:43:46
it's usually when we're pretty serious with a candidate, right? So
1:43:48
we're trying to make sure that we're, we
1:43:51
don't want to do is we don't want to
1:43:53
project onto them what we think they are and
1:43:55
then come to find out later that they're not
1:43:58
actually capable. And so when we get really. series
1:44:00
kind of down to the final like three to five candidates
1:44:02
is usually when we start testing and
1:44:04
they often learn things about it. And sometimes we actually
1:44:06
had this happen recently. Somebody was like, I
1:44:08
don't think based on the testing that I went through and
1:44:10
all that, that I actually would be good for this job.
1:44:13
They opted out. I want to switch to
1:44:16
acquisitions. So I think a good way to,
1:44:18
to dive into the subject is what's
1:44:21
the playbook when you take over a
1:44:23
company? So you go
1:44:25
through a process internally.
1:44:28
Uh, you come to a decision. Do you guys
1:44:30
write memos internally? Yeah, we do.
1:44:32
What's in that memo? So we are,
1:44:35
um, describing the, what I
1:44:37
would call the overall situation of the business,
1:44:40
um, who are they, what business are
1:44:42
they in? How does it work?
1:44:44
Oh, we also think about like, what is
1:44:46
the core action of the business? So oftentimes
1:44:48
things, our favorite deals are ones that look
1:44:51
weird or different on the surface. There may
1:44:53
be a little furry fuzzy things on the
1:44:55
deal, uh, or they're misunderstood
1:44:57
and hence the price and the connection
1:44:59
between the price and the
1:45:01
value is, is, is off, right? So
1:45:04
we're trying to look for mispriced opportunities.
1:45:07
And so in order to
1:45:09
be mispriced means that something about it is
1:45:11
either risky that we can do your
1:45:14
jobs, right? You know, this is assuming
1:45:16
we're correct in how we do this, not
1:45:18
always correct, but we're trying, uh, means
1:45:21
that there's a divergence between the
1:45:24
risk and our ability to mitigate
1:45:26
it and other people's ability to mitigate it,
1:45:28
right? Or there's a lack of information
1:45:31
that the other parties have based on
1:45:33
their ability to dive into the, into
1:45:35
the, um, weeds on a
1:45:37
deal. And so, uh, we
1:45:40
like things that are
1:45:42
misunderstood. I'll never forget. Um, this, the
1:45:44
second large deal I did was on
1:45:46
a pool business that we still
1:45:49
own. I never sold anything. So I mean, we still own
1:45:51
everything. I shouldn't keep caveatting that it's not like we've sold
1:45:53
anything. So, um, but the pool business, I
1:45:55
remember talking about it with you back in the day and
1:45:57
you know, most pool builders get.
1:46:00
big because they partner with
1:46:03
development firms and they go
1:46:05
through these massive boom and bust cycles, massive
1:46:08
boom and bust cycles. And
1:46:11
it's feast or famine all the time.
1:46:13
The other thing that they do is they're tempted
1:46:15
to be vertically integrated and do all the work
1:46:17
themselves, right? Because you make more money at every
1:46:19
step in the more margin, but
1:46:22
you're constantly then in the booms, you're
1:46:24
hiring a tremendous amount of people, which
1:46:26
creates cultural issues, tremendous liability, all kinds
1:46:28
of, I mean, just madness. Margins
1:46:30
end up not being nearly as good as you ever
1:46:32
think they should be. And then
1:46:34
in the bust cycles, you're having to let go of a whole bunch of
1:46:37
people who are, you want to keep, but you
1:46:39
have no choice because the business will implode. And
1:46:42
so there are two unusual things when I first got the
1:46:45
deal memo on this. I remember thinking
1:46:47
to myself, like, ah, pool
1:46:50
builder, big pool builder, like
1:46:52
largest, largest single location pool builder in the country.
1:46:54
So like at the time it's really large. And
1:46:57
I was like, yeah, they partner with, they're
1:46:59
probably vertically integrated and they probably partner with,
1:47:01
um, development firms. And like, that's
1:47:03
just not, you know, that's not something we
1:47:05
want to do. And then
1:47:07
I started asking just a few questions. I was like, Hey, can
1:47:09
you tell me what percentage of your revenue is direct to consumer?
1:47:11
Yeah. I was expecting it to be 10% or 15%. It
1:47:13
was 97%. And then I said, oh, interesting.
1:47:20
Like what is your capex capital
1:47:23
expenditures on an annual basis? And
1:47:25
it was like microscopic. I was like weird,
1:47:29
tiny capex, good
1:47:31
free cashflow, direct to consumer. And
1:47:34
that's a really durable business. That's
1:47:37
an example of like the risks we were taking
1:47:39
and the way that the company
1:47:41
appeared, like the core action of
1:47:43
that business is they are in the business of
1:47:46
marketing pools, selling pools, and
1:47:48
then handling the logistics. But they're, you know,
1:47:50
they're subbing out the actual construction, the hiring,
1:47:54
the firing, the risk, all those things, the
1:47:56
boom in the bus to other people. And
1:47:59
that what that creates is a. very capital
1:48:01
light, highly efficient, high
1:48:04
cash flow, high durability business.
1:48:07
That again, everyone else was looking at as
1:48:09
a quote-unquote construction business. So
1:48:13
other people that may be interested in it were turned
1:48:15
off and they're like, no, I don't want that because
1:48:17
that's a, I'm gonna put that in the bucket of
1:48:19
construction. I don't want to take that to a, you
1:48:21
know, my senior partner or to the loan committee or
1:48:23
to the investment committee and say, hey guys, I think
1:48:25
we should buy a mom and pop construction
1:48:27
business in Phoenix. They're gonna be like, what the world's
1:48:29
wrong with you. Right? Versus we
1:48:32
look at that and we're like, Ooh, that's
1:48:34
really attractive. Yeah. So those are the types of
1:48:36
examples where we're trying to put all that into the memo. We're
1:48:38
trying to put all in the memo, the things that we
1:48:40
think are holding it back. So first principles,
1:48:43
like let's go to kind of first principles
1:48:45
on and on a business that we would
1:48:47
acquire. So this is a business that's long
1:48:49
tenured. They've been around for on average, a
1:48:51
long time and they're still
1:48:53
fairly small. So
1:48:55
something is holding it back. We
1:48:58
think of it as the kind of lids on the
1:49:01
business and we're trying to figure out why they aren't
1:49:03
bigger. Right? There's something.
1:49:05
So by definition, there is
1:49:07
product market fit. If we're acquiring it
1:49:09
by definition, there's some sort of moat.
1:49:12
So a moat being defined as you can
1:49:14
generate above average returns on invested capital. There's
1:49:16
something unusual about the business that has allowed
1:49:19
them to get into business, build the business
1:49:21
into a successful again, minimum sort of $3
1:49:23
million of free cashflow. Not
1:49:25
a hard and fast rule. We've done some smaller
1:49:27
deals, but on average for new
1:49:29
platforms, we're, you know, 3 million. That
1:49:32
means there's something special about the business. It's really good in
1:49:34
some ways. And on
1:49:37
the flip side, if it's not bigger and it's
1:49:39
been around for a long time, there's something holding
1:49:41
it back. And so our
1:49:44
job is through those memos to
1:49:46
collect all the findings of where's
1:49:49
the moat? Why do we think it's transferable?
1:49:52
How durable do we think it is? And
1:49:55
on the flip side, what do we think the
1:49:57
opportunities are for growth and make sure that all
1:49:59
of that triangulation. with Price. Of
1:50:01
course, I had
1:50:04
the privilege of spending some time with Buffett at one
1:50:06
point and I asked him this
1:50:08
battery of questions. He kind of, I think
1:50:11
at some point got frustrated with me, I
1:50:13
was probably being annoying. He said,
1:50:15
Price is my due diligence. It
1:50:18
was kind of like the show stopper drop
1:50:20
the mic moment. He was like, because I was asking him
1:50:22
all kinds of like, how do you think about this or
1:50:24
how do you think about that? Ultimately, he was like, I
1:50:27
use Price as my major due diligence filter. So that was
1:50:29
brilliant. It's like this simple
1:50:31
heuristic, like the higher the price you
1:50:33
pay for it, the more you're pricing it to perfection. The
1:50:35
more things have to go right. The lower the price, the
1:50:37
more you can absorb things. And so, you
1:50:39
know, we are, uh, because of the
1:50:41
nature of these being smaller companies, they're
1:50:44
messy. They've got some weird
1:50:46
stuff going on usually in these things.
1:50:48
They're not bigger. So there must be some lids on
1:50:50
these things. We're trying to figure that out and we're
1:50:52
trying to correlate that to price. And
1:50:55
the cool part is after close, like all the problems
1:50:57
are merely opportunities. I try to remind our team of
1:50:59
this all the time because you get into these operating
1:51:01
situations. You're like, whoa, there's a lot going on. Like
1:51:04
sometimes relationships are very strained. There's weird power
1:51:06
dynamics, all this stuff's going on. And I
1:51:08
say to them, yeah, it's hard, but this
1:51:10
is what we get paid to do. Like
1:51:12
we're in the business of shaving fur. So
1:51:14
do you have projections
1:51:16
in this moment? Yeah. We're,
1:51:19
um, do you like do three scenarios like
1:51:21
base, upside, downside, or how do you, how
1:51:23
do you think about that? Yeah, we're trying
1:51:25
to stress test where we think based on
1:51:27
the history of the business, it's
1:51:30
going often assuming for most of
1:51:33
the deals we do that there is no
1:51:35
growth. So we want the business to underwrite
1:51:37
with no change in trajectory. Um,
1:51:40
if it can't stand on its own, like
1:51:42
we're not big on quote unquote synergies. We're
1:51:44
not big on trying to do this massive change.
1:51:46
Like if you've, if the business has been operating a
1:51:48
certain way on a certain trajectory for 30
1:51:50
years, it is nothing
1:51:52
but hubris to come in and think
1:51:54
that within a short period of time, you're can completely change the
1:51:57
trajectory of the business. It can happen.
1:52:00
are some tricks and
1:52:02
some outside perspective that you can kind of look
1:52:04
and see and run a playbook from time to
1:52:06
time. But for the
1:52:08
most part, like there's no easy solutions. Like
1:52:10
I was talking with a
1:52:12
Harvard educated search searcher the other
1:52:14
day, actually, I say the
1:52:17
other day is probably year and a half ago and
1:52:20
bought a business and had all
1:52:22
these grand plans. I was going to, he
1:52:24
was going to introduce all this technology, all these like
1:52:26
change and systems. It was an old school business and
1:52:28
he was going to revolutionize with technology. And this is
1:52:31
kind of like if you go on Twitter, the,
1:52:33
you know, I don't know what
1:52:35
we call it or wherever the group of people
1:52:37
that are trying to do this SMB land
1:52:39
or whatever. This
1:52:42
is often the dominant narrative of people who haven't done it,
1:52:45
right? So people who haven't actually been in the weeds,
1:52:48
who haven't bought a business, who haven't tried to change
1:52:50
it is like, this is super simple. You buy things
1:52:52
for cheap, huge amount of upside,
1:52:54
you go in and you transform them. These
1:52:56
guys are idiots. Yeah. Yeah. These
1:52:59
guys are idiots. They don't know what they're doing. You
1:53:02
may be well educated. That guy's been
1:53:04
working in the business for 30 years. Do you not
1:53:06
think that he knows at everything you know and far
1:53:08
more? Of course not. So anyway, this
1:53:10
guy came in, he had all these grand plans and I talked
1:53:12
to him about, I don't know, a year later, it was like
1:53:15
six months ago. And I was like, how's
1:53:17
all that going? And he was like, Oh
1:53:20
my gosh, I haven't done anything that
1:53:22
I wanted to do. I was like, Oh, interesting. Tell
1:53:24
me about that. And look, the
1:53:26
business is actually doing well. Like he's glad he bought it.
1:53:29
But how it went post close was not
1:53:31
filled with, Oh man, this
1:53:33
is perfect. Now we can hit this huge growth
1:53:35
trajectory or whatever. He's like, yeah, our servers went
1:53:37
out like the second day on the job. The
1:53:40
phones don't work. We have all these issues.
1:53:44
You know, the head of sales left shortly thereafter
1:53:46
had to replace, you know, it's like this constant
1:53:48
fire fighting mode. It's
1:53:51
running a business. The only people who think
1:53:54
buying a business and operating it are
1:53:57
easy. Most of the people have never
1:53:59
done it. There's a small group of people
1:54:01
who got lucky the first time. And
1:54:03
usually the second and third time they get smoked. I
1:54:05
mean, look, we took the better part
1:54:07
of a decade toiling away in obscurity, doing
1:54:10
things like, you know, I joked that like we
1:54:12
were running the world's smallest family office for a good amount
1:54:14
of time there. Just slowly
1:54:16
compounding, trying to learn systems, trying to
1:54:18
get, you know, we were just getting
1:54:21
smacked around constantly. But that then allowed
1:54:23
us through that decade to get good
1:54:25
at this. And then we were able to scale.
1:54:27
Like if I had been given 50, $100
1:54:30
million right out of the gate, I
1:54:32
would have lost every penny. And
1:54:35
this market is so inefficient, which is by the
1:54:37
way, good and bad inefficiency being
1:54:39
defined as can you make a lot of
1:54:41
money or lose a lot of money depending
1:54:43
on skill. Right. So like argument is if
1:54:46
I gave you a million dollars to invest in the stock
1:54:48
market and I said, Hey, I'm going to let you keep
1:54:51
everything you lose. Right. So lose
1:54:53
as much money as you can. And I'll give you 60 days
1:54:55
to try to lose as much money as you can in the
1:54:57
stock market. It'd be really difficult for
1:54:59
you to lose a lot of money that
1:55:01
you might end up making money in the private
1:55:03
markets. Like give me 48 hours and I can
1:55:05
lose a million dollars. Like
1:55:08
it's super easy, right? Which means skill really
1:55:10
matters, which means if you want to have
1:55:12
it as a career, there's a lot of
1:55:14
value in honing your skillset. So
1:55:17
to me, that's the ultimate mode is it's very
1:55:19
simple. What we're trying to do is just really,
1:55:21
really hard and judgment matters. And so
1:55:23
that's the reason why we put everything out on the internet. Like
1:55:25
we literally have our entire playbook on the internet. Like you can
1:55:27
go on the permanent equity website and you
1:55:29
can see our entire due diligence toolkit.
1:55:33
Like not only just the questions we asked, but
1:55:35
the why underneath each question, why
1:55:38
would we do that? Doesn't that spark a bunch of
1:55:40
competitors? Doesn't that help a bunch of people? Yeah,
1:55:42
sure. Helps everybody helps
1:55:44
everyone. Yeah. And we're
1:55:46
stewards and we're unconcerned. There's abundance. Do
1:55:48
you go back a year
1:55:51
later or is there a milestone, like a predictable
1:55:53
milestone where you go back and you review this
1:55:55
memo and now you've owned the business
1:55:57
for a while and like, what can we learn? Yeah,
1:55:59
we actually. do this quarterly. So
1:56:01
every single quarter we
1:56:03
have, we call
1:56:06
them baseball cards. They're like one pagers,
1:56:08
maybe a little bit longer than one pagers that
1:56:10
explain the overall strategy, the overall purchase price,
1:56:13
the rate of return so far, where
1:56:16
we've done well for
1:56:18
the wrong reasons where we've done well
1:56:20
for the right reasons, vice versa. So
1:56:22
it's like the entire memo is a
1:56:24
constantly updated living document of
1:56:26
every single investment we've ever made and
1:56:28
how we're doing. Almost like value line
1:56:30
for your businesses. Yeah, for
1:56:32
sure. And like, here's the thing is
1:56:34
how would we do it any other way? Yeah. Like if
1:56:36
we're in the business of investing,
1:56:39
of buying small private companies, trying
1:56:41
to make them better, we've
1:56:44
got to learn, we got to get better. Like
1:56:47
how would we know if we were getting better or
1:56:49
not? How would we know, how would
1:56:51
we learn if we weren't doing a look back? So
1:56:53
I mean, to me, it's just of course obvious. And
1:56:56
I mean, look, if we're not good at what we do, we should
1:56:58
do something else. Like don't waste this
1:57:00
life doing things that you aren't good at. For
1:57:03
God's sake, that'd be terrible. Do
1:57:06
the CEOs make that baseball card or does
1:57:08
the, because you guys, what's your structure? You
1:57:10
have almost like a portfolio manager who's in
1:57:12
charge of multiple CEOs. Yeah. So right now
1:57:14
our structure is we have a dual hook
1:57:16
in structure post-close where our financial team and
1:57:18
their financial team hook together. And
1:57:21
we're constantly getting feedback loops of what I've called
1:57:23
information from that. So our goal with our financial
1:57:25
team is keeping
1:57:28
scores the easy part. The hard
1:57:30
part is giving actionable real-time
1:57:32
information to all the stakeholders to make
1:57:34
good decisions. So that's their primary role
1:57:37
is to help those companies, which by
1:57:39
the way, this idea is completely foreign.
1:57:41
We come into most of these small businesses and they're
1:57:43
like, yeah, yeah, yeah. We give all our stuff to this
1:57:45
accountant and the accountant tells us how we did. And we're
1:57:48
like, sure, that's not what we're talking about at all.
1:57:50
What we're talking about is on a
1:57:52
day-to-day week-to-week basis, what are the metrics
1:57:54
you're looking at? How accurate are they?
1:57:56
How updated are they? How can you
1:57:58
make decisions? Right. So we've
1:58:00
got that group that's working with them to try to
1:58:02
increase the quality of those feedback loops. And
1:58:04
then we've got, you know, what to call like a board of directors
1:58:06
in a box model where there's one point
1:58:09
person for permanent equity that, that accesses
1:58:11
all the resources of permanent equity kind
1:58:13
of is the Sherpa, the guide for
1:58:15
the person internally. So Oh, you've got
1:58:17
an issue with marketing or you need
1:58:19
help with that. Like we've got external
1:58:21
internal resources, recruiting, external internal resources, legal,
1:58:24
external internal. So we've got all these sort
1:58:26
of helpers that we have and that person's
1:58:28
job is to help direct them as well as govern
1:58:31
the business. Those are updated based on
1:58:33
the constant feedback loops of
1:58:35
the business over that quarter, uh, in concert with
1:58:37
the leadership teams, but, but we're mostly doing the
1:58:40
authorship of them. And then you
1:58:42
don't step in and like start issuing directives.
1:58:44
You want the finance plugged in and you
1:58:47
want the metrics that they're looking at, or you want
1:58:49
specific metrics for you or both.
1:58:52
We want information every
1:58:54
which way, the more high signal, we're trying to
1:58:56
separate the signal from the noise rates. There's tremendous
1:58:58
amounts of information being thrown off by these businesses.
1:59:00
That doesn't matter. We're trying to
1:59:02
get down to a handful of metrics that
1:59:04
we can agree on that the leadership team
1:59:06
and us that we're working in concert to
1:59:08
understand what they're telling us. Um,
1:59:11
that's actually one of the most difficult things post
1:59:13
close is just getting on the same page about
1:59:15
what matters and when does it matter? And again,
1:59:17
we're coming in hopefully with high
1:59:19
humility saying you all are the experts.
1:59:21
We're not, but we're asking questions
1:59:23
like, okay, well, if that's the business
1:59:26
model, sometimes it makes sense that this would be like a
1:59:28
leading indicator. And sometimes it'll be like,
1:59:31
no, we're like, oh, interesting. Tell
1:59:34
us why, right? We try to come out from that
1:59:36
perspective is like, instead of just telling them what we
1:59:38
want to see, like, do you think this would be
1:59:40
helpful? Are you like, what are you looking at? And
1:59:42
why? Why aren't you looking at this? Why are you
1:59:44
looking at this? How does this work? Again, this is
1:59:46
not rocket science. Like this is like treat people as
1:59:48
humans, be humble, be
1:59:50
kind, be long-term things
1:59:52
usually work out. But do you
1:59:54
do anything within the business from otherwise from
1:59:56
the first day or you're just sort of,
1:59:59
what's the reporting? cadence back to you.
2:00:01
Is it is it weekly, monthly, quarterly?
2:00:04
Yeah, so we are usually in touch on a weekly
2:00:06
basis, depending on if we're
2:00:08
going through periods of negative
2:00:10
change or positive change, then we're
2:00:12
more active and helpful being
2:00:14
supportive, being corrective, maybe if we need
2:00:17
to be. If things are
2:00:20
in the box, smooth sailing, no storms
2:00:22
on the horizon, then we can be
2:00:24
a lot less hands on. We
2:00:27
always tell our leaders like we're always available. Everyone
2:00:29
has your cell phone. Like, yeah, you can get
2:00:31
in contact with the easiest people in the world
2:00:33
to get in contact with. Yeah. Running a business
2:00:35
is lonely. Yeah. If you've never run a business,
2:00:37
if you've never been in the CEO spot. You
2:00:41
can look up from in the organization and
2:00:43
it looks rosy. Oh, look, that
2:00:45
person gets paid a lot more with all
2:00:48
the freedom they have. Oh, I want to be
2:00:50
the one to set vision and whatever. Looking down
2:00:52
from that position, there's
2:00:54
usually no one to share sorrow with.
2:00:57
There's no frustrations like you. You're isolated.
2:00:59
So one of the things we do
2:01:01
is just try to be relationally connected
2:01:04
and offer to be a release valve
2:01:06
for the very natural human tendencies we
2:01:08
have to be seen and heard and
2:01:11
blow off steam and consult
2:01:13
on difficult situations. You
2:01:16
know, again, it's interesting going back to
2:01:18
like the personality typing. You know, we
2:01:20
try to understand for our CEOs if
2:01:22
they're internal or external processors, that's a
2:01:24
really important piece. If you're
2:01:26
a CEO is an internal processor, then
2:01:29
you can you can go away with your thoughts and be
2:01:31
fine. If you're an external
2:01:33
processor and you're the CEO, you have no one
2:01:35
to externally process with it or you end up
2:01:37
creating inappropriate relationships with people who
2:01:40
work for you. Yeah. So that's
2:01:42
fraught. So that's one of the things that we can
2:01:44
do is if we're adept at that and understanding the
2:01:46
people, then we can say, hey, that person's external processor.
2:01:49
Hey, they need somebody to talk to. Come
2:01:51
talk to us. Let's work through things. The
2:01:54
only things I would say is we're aggressive about
2:01:56
post close in the short term is if there's
2:01:59
just any laws being. broken, which
2:02:02
sounds funny to say, my guess
2:02:05
is 80% of the
2:02:07
small businesses out there are either
2:02:09
knowingly or should know that they're breaking some sort
2:02:11
of rules. There's a lot of government regulation,
2:02:13
depending on the state you're in. And often, by the way, federal
2:02:17
regulation, state regulation, and local regulation
2:02:19
will oftentimes conflict with one another,
2:02:21
and it requires a tremendous amount
2:02:23
of background and understanding to know
2:02:25
how to be
2:02:27
in compliance. I
2:02:29
wish they'd simplify this. I mean, the
2:02:31
amount of stuff you have to keep
2:02:34
up with is just insane. It's astonishing.
2:02:36
Yeah. Why don't you
2:02:38
do a totally hands-off model like Buffett?
2:02:41
Just because it would miserably fail. In the scale
2:02:43
of business you're dealing with, why would that fail?
2:02:46
People get divorced. People have
2:02:48
health issues. People die. People
2:02:51
lose interest. Things are constantly changing.
2:02:54
The ability to self-replicate is
2:02:57
unbelievably rare. The reason
2:02:59
why we are in the position we're in to be able
2:03:01
to buy these businesses is because we
2:03:03
are the best option for the business to transition.
2:03:08
Oftentimes there isn't a family
2:03:10
member who has the financial capacity
2:03:13
or talent capacity to
2:03:15
be able to do it or some combination of both. And
2:03:17
these businesses are not ones that you can just leave alone.
2:03:20
There's no passive income in working in small
2:03:22
business land. Another way to think about it
2:03:25
is sort of buying an index of small
2:03:27
businesses. From time to time people come
2:03:29
up with this idea of what if you just put $1,000 with
2:03:33
a thousand of these small businesses and created
2:03:35
an index. The reality is
2:03:37
over a long period of time that index is zero. It's
2:03:39
really hard. The governance of these things is difficult. The
2:03:43
norm for most small businesses
2:03:45
is entropy, is decay, is
2:03:48
dying a slow death and being wound down.
2:03:51
That's a norm in the small business world. You
2:03:53
have to fight to grow. It takes dynamic leadership.
2:03:55
It takes vision. It takes risk taking. It takes
2:03:58
capital. It takes mitigating. risk.
2:04:02
You're doing all these things. And
2:04:05
so yeah, the ability to do
2:04:07
that is non-existent in our
2:04:09
area of the market. And by the way, having
2:04:11
spent time with both Buff and Munger, they would
2:04:13
say the same thing. Go deeper on that. So
2:04:15
when you look at them early on in
2:04:18
their journey, so this is like, let's go back to
2:04:20
the Buffet partnership. Let's go back to actually when Buffet
2:04:23
first met Munger. Buffet was invested in Sandborn Maps
2:04:25
and Dimster Mill. Those are the two primary investments.
2:04:27
I think this represented 70 or
2:04:30
75% of the assets of the Buffet
2:04:32
partnership. One of the
2:04:34
things that Buffet and Munger connected very
2:04:36
early on about was struggling
2:04:39
businesses, was struggles he was having
2:04:41
with those two businesses. You know,
2:04:43
the story, I think it's been told a number of times, but
2:04:45
is not often remembered
2:04:47
because where they
2:04:50
are now, there's been like five seasons of
2:04:52
Berkshire and where they are now bears
2:04:54
zero resemblance to where they were in the early
2:04:56
days, where they were in the early days is
2:04:58
where we are, where we like to play. And this is where, again,
2:05:00
by the way, they said they generate the highest returns, right?
2:05:02
Smallest amount of capital, highest returns, being
2:05:05
able to access small companies. But
2:05:08
Dimster Mill was a disaster. Like Buffet
2:05:10
had gotten sideways relationally with people
2:05:14
and he was kind of desperate.
2:05:18
And he met this guy, Charlie
2:05:20
Munger, who we started to develop a relationship with. I mean,
2:05:22
they actually talked about the annual meeting this year, kind
2:05:26
of how they got together and they had a family that
2:05:28
brought them together. And when they met each other, it was
2:05:30
like kindred spirits. They stayed in touch. And one of the
2:05:32
things that Munger asked Buffet was, you know,
2:05:34
what problems are you facing? And
2:05:37
Buffet was like, oh, I've got this business
2:05:39
that like, I don't know what we're going
2:05:41
to do. It's, it's upside down. Sam where maps is a whole different
2:05:43
story. And it was kind of upside down in a different way that
2:05:45
worked out. But Dimster Mill was just a mess.
2:05:48
Like he needed somebody to go to the middle
2:05:50
of Iowa. I think
2:05:52
it was Iowa and fix this company
2:05:54
and get it fixed up and make money at
2:05:56
that business. And he's like, he didn't have anybody
2:05:58
because he was a. you know, stock
2:06:00
investor, passive investor, and become activist and active
2:06:02
in that business by the nature of how
2:06:04
much stock you bought. And again, this is
2:06:07
where, you know, look, the balance sheet was
2:06:09
stuffed. Like they had a lot of resources,
2:06:11
low free cashflow yield, all these things that
2:06:13
we get access to as well in our
2:06:15
area of the market. He got
2:06:17
access to then in his area of the market, right? Things
2:06:19
just don't work out. And so you
2:06:21
get sideways operating issues, the value of
2:06:23
the business that starts to go pear
2:06:25
shaped. And so he got
2:06:27
in touch with Munger and Munger said, Hey, I know this
2:06:29
guy, Harry bottle. Yeah. So the famous Harry bottle story, they
2:06:32
convinced Harry bottle to move his family from
2:06:34
Los Angeles to the middle of nowhere, middle
2:06:36
of the heartland, Harry bottle fixed the business.
2:06:38
They ended up selling it. And that, I
2:06:42
mean, Buffett said, without
2:06:44
Harry bottle, without Charlie Munger, without
2:06:47
a few of these things going a different way early
2:06:49
on, there is no Berkshire, there is no Warren Buffett,
2:06:51
there is no institution the way it is today. One
2:06:54
is good to acknowledge just how much luck plays a role
2:06:57
in all this stuff. Totally. I mean, like a big
2:06:59
part of humility is just acknowledging like, we're far less
2:07:01
in control than we really think we are. Also,
2:07:05
when things do happen and you do see a
2:07:07
need, talk about it, voice it, see
2:07:09
how you can access people
2:07:12
and resources. And so I
2:07:14
would just argue that no
2:07:17
one can take a business that's
2:07:19
small, loosely functioning, sometimes makes money,
2:07:22
and leave it alone. These are
2:07:24
highly variable assets with very difficult attributes
2:07:27
about them. And it's a knife fight. The
2:07:29
other story is like Berkshire Hathaway, right? If
2:07:31
you think he was hands off and
2:07:34
not talking, I think it was Malcolm Chase who
2:07:36
took it over. Yeah. Yeah. Like they were talking
2:07:38
daily and he wouldn't let him reinvest
2:07:40
in the business, but he knew the numbers better than
2:07:43
chased it. He still knows the numbers better than I
2:07:45
would imagine a lot of the operating CEOs do. For
2:07:48
sure. I mean, Buffalo News, like they
2:07:51
were buffing among or were very, very active
2:07:53
in many of their situations. Now,
2:07:55
as they've gotten into massive businesses that
2:07:58
are, you know, your higher. really
2:08:00
high-powered, really paid, high-paid operators,
2:08:04
they're gonna be better at the operating than they are. So
2:08:06
at a certain point, it flips, and
2:08:09
you have such an access to capital and such a
2:08:11
need for size, that
2:08:14
some of those problems take care of themselves. Now you got
2:08:16
the other problem, which is the fact that Berkshire hasn't beat
2:08:19
the market in 20 years, 25 years now. Well,
2:08:21
why? Because they're so freaking big.
2:08:24
So you got, I mean, there's problems either
2:08:26
way, and there's pluses and minuses either way.
2:08:28
You just get to choose which one you
2:08:30
wanna engage in. Where do people go wrong
2:08:32
doing what you're doing as they scale? They
2:08:34
try to go too fast, too
2:08:38
soon, assuming they know too much. So
2:08:41
we, from
2:08:43
the time we bought the first business to the time
2:08:45
I bought the second business was four years, four years
2:08:48
of toiling away and correcting and learning
2:08:50
and trying to get a good foundation
2:08:52
of capital and into position
2:08:54
to do the next deal. Now we
2:08:56
were looking for deals in between, but
2:08:59
it's hard buying one business, one
2:09:03
small medium-sized business, negotiating it,
2:09:05
documenting it, closing
2:09:07
it, operating it, and having some
2:09:09
sort of either through distributions or
2:09:11
through a sale, positive outcome, one
2:09:14
time is brutally difficult. It's
2:09:18
a brutally difficult thing to do. Now you get to
2:09:20
do that again, and again, and again. And oh, by
2:09:22
the way, this is an interesting
2:09:24
dip that happens where,
2:09:27
so now you've got, let's say, you've done this
2:09:29
three times, three brutally difficult, and you've just now
2:09:31
cash flowed them, so you still retain them. So
2:09:34
now you've got a portfolio of three companies. Well,
2:09:37
now you can't be a CEO of three
2:09:39
companies, I guess, unless you're Elon Musk and
2:09:42
somehow he's figured out how to do this, but most
2:09:44
normal people can't even operate one business well, let
2:09:46
alone two or three. So
2:09:48
you gotta make a choice. Okay, well now I'm gonna
2:09:50
take my free cash flow from three of these companies,
2:09:52
and I'm gonna build a layer of overhead
2:09:55
to be able to then scale and manage. So somebody's
2:09:57
gotta be out there looking for deals. interacting
2:10:00
with capital partners, diligence
2:10:02
really matters, legal due diligence, financial due diligence,
2:10:04
technology due diligence. Somebody's gotta be managing all
2:10:07
of that, documenting it,
2:10:09
negotiating that process all the way through, and
2:10:11
then of course post-close operating these things. It's
2:10:14
a lot to worry about. Oh, and by the way, you got regulators all
2:10:17
mixed in there as well. There's
2:10:20
a lot of places to hit a pothole. And
2:10:22
so you say, whew, I'm working 100 hours
2:10:24
a week, every week. And yeah, we're
2:10:26
making a bunch of money, things are going great. Making
2:10:29
up a scenario. But now
2:10:31
you gotta basically take all of your earnings, all
2:10:33
the free cash flow of your business, and go
2:10:35
to zero again. So
2:10:37
you started zero, or very little, you invest it,
2:10:39
you do well, you do well, you do well,
2:10:41
you run the gauntlet two or three times. Now
2:10:44
you gotta go back to zero, because
2:10:46
you gotta take all your free cash flow and you gotta
2:10:48
reinvest it in that next layer. That's
2:10:51
brutally difficult. Now you've got
2:10:53
a whole nother set of issues. Now you've got meta
2:10:55
problems at the head
2:10:57
level. Now you've
2:10:59
got personnel issues. Now you've got culture problems.
2:11:02
Now you've got technology issues. And
2:11:04
now you've got an operating business that's
2:11:07
trying to operate businesses. And you've got the same
2:11:09
issues in the operating business, the
2:11:12
parent co, as you do in all the smaller businesses.
2:11:18
It's brutally difficult. And then you go through another phase, where
2:11:21
you're like, okay, now we've got a tight group of people, it's
2:11:23
a small group. Now we've got three or four or five
2:11:25
companies, maybe six. Well, now
2:11:27
you've got to build a much larger organization. You gotta go
2:11:29
through the whole cycle again. So every time on the way
2:11:31
at the cycle up, you've got
2:11:34
to pass through this gauntlet of.
2:11:36
Over and over. Over and over and
2:11:38
over again. I
2:11:40
mean, it is a miracle that
2:11:42
permanent equity has 15
2:11:44
companies. It's a miracle. It's
2:11:46
a miracle that we have a team that, for the most
2:11:49
part, loves each other and cares about each other and wants
2:11:51
to do good things. Like it's a, literally, if not a
2:11:53
day goes by where I don't think it's a miracle. And
2:11:56
by the way, the future is not secure.
2:11:58
Like we might screw up. badly.
2:12:01
And so there's always work
2:12:04
to be done. There's no free lunch. Nothing's easy. Why
2:12:06
do you do what you do given all of that? I think
2:12:08
I have the best job in the world. I
2:12:11
get to meet
2:12:15
extraordinary people from very
2:12:17
different cultures around the United States. One
2:12:21
day we'll be doing a dinner in New York at a
2:12:23
Michelin-starred restaurant. The next day we're eating at Hardee's in the
2:12:25
middle of Ohio. We
2:12:28
will go from Oregon to Florida
2:12:30
to New Mexico. The cultures
2:12:33
are different. The food's different. The people are
2:12:35
different. The
2:12:37
businesses are all different. I mean, I can't imagine. I
2:12:40
mean, we have a blast doing what we
2:12:42
do. And it's hard and it's
2:12:44
stressful and it's tiring. Why
2:12:47
do I do it? Because I feel called to
2:12:49
help families transition. I
2:12:52
feel called. I mean, like, you know, in
2:12:54
my paradigm as a Jesus follower, work
2:12:57
is pre-fall. Work is for our good. Work is
2:12:59
something we should engage in deeply. This
2:13:02
is our co-creation that we get to do. And
2:13:05
I feel that. Like, I feel that on a daily
2:13:07
basis. And there's thistles and thorns. And it's difficult and
2:13:09
it's fallen and it's broken and it's messy. And
2:13:12
so that's life, though. Like,
2:13:14
that's what we get to do. And like, I
2:13:16
can't imagine a better job than getting to serve
2:13:18
the families and the institutions that give us capital,
2:13:20
the trust with their capital for 30 years, the
2:13:23
amount of trust that they have with us to give
2:13:25
somebody capital for 30 years. There's nothing you can get
2:13:27
back 30 years. I
2:13:29
don't take that lightly. That's incredible.
2:13:32
I feel honored that somebody would trust us that
2:13:34
much. I want to serve them.
2:13:36
I want to serve them well. The families that
2:13:38
sell us their life's work. Sometimes
2:13:41
generational work. That
2:13:44
is a heavy burden in some ways. And what
2:13:46
an honor in other ways. And
2:13:48
then all the people who we get to work
2:13:50
with who are trying to be as excellent
2:13:52
as they can at their craft. I
2:13:56
get to interact with so many interesting people and we
2:13:58
get to do such interesting things. things and I don't
2:14:01
know. Like I said, I think I have the best job in the world. We
2:14:04
always end on the same question,
2:14:08
which is what is success for you? Success
2:14:10
would be to be
2:14:13
an ambassador of the
2:14:16
kingdom of God. My life transformed when
2:14:18
I became a follower of Jesus and
2:14:20
I, I've been
2:14:23
rescued and, and the thing that I want to
2:14:26
do most is to, we're called to love and
2:14:29
serve people around us. Um,
2:14:31
we worship
2:14:33
a God who condescended himself
2:14:36
into the physical realm is the author
2:14:38
who wrote himself into the ultimate
2:14:40
book of reality and came to
2:14:43
serve, not to be
2:14:45
served and to,
2:14:47
um, to rescue. I
2:14:49
want to with that
2:14:51
same love that I've been given, give that to
2:14:53
other people and serve
2:14:57
them well. Beautiful way to
2:14:59
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