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From our earliest days, we've
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gathered around the fire for
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warmth and comfort. But
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beyond the light of the dying
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embers, there is
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the darkness. And
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it's in the darkness of the
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night where we find ourselves. Waiting,
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yearning for the dawn to banish
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our fears. But
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our campfire holds more than
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firelight. For with
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us, you will hear the
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tales that make the nightmares engulf
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you. And
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you dare not close your
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eyes. Embrace
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yourself for the
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No Sleep Podcast. Welcome
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to the No Sleep Podcast. I'm
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your host, David Cummings. You
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know how there's a slang way to say something was
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really great? Like you go to a
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show and when you're asked how it was, you say, ah
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dude, it was a killer show. When
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stand up comedians do a really good
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set, people say they killed. Maybe
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you do a really good presentation at
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work and afterwards a coworker tells you,
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you killed it. Isn't
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it odd how we take the concept of
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killing something and turn it into something positive?
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I guess language is funny like that. Almost
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as funny as when someone actually kills
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someone else. I
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pretend murder is funny for horror purposes only.
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But yes, this is a horror podcast.
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And so this week we present tales
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featuring people who see fit to take
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it. take the life, or lives,
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of other people. It's
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hard to imagine what drives someone to do that.
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It also makes me wonder why we as
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a society have become so desensitized to it.
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I mean, for the most part, that is.
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I'll give you a glimpse behind the curtain here. Over
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the years I have received some angry
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emails from listeners when the content of
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certain stories upsets them. If
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you take a look at the trigger warnings
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we've implemented, they try to warn people about
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the topics which upset people the most. Things
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like the death of children or animals.
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Things like sexual or parental
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abuse, suicide, all things
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some people want to be forewarned about. And
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if they're not, I get angry letters. But
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I've often wondered, with so many of the stories
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we've done in the almost 13 years of
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the show, I've never had anyone upset
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by a story with a plain old
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ordinary murder, even when the
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killing is calculated, cold-blooded, or overly
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cruel. It seems murder
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and killing is an accepted part of horror.
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I suppose that's good for horror creators,
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but I wonder if it means we
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as a collective society have become a
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little too blase about it. Let
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me know what you think in the comments
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below, and don't forget to subscribe and smash
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that like button. And
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so we hope that this episode
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about killers will leave you saying
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that episode killed. It
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would be the most frightening response, after all.
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And now the sun has set,
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the fire glows bright. Brace
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yourself for the darkness of
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the night. In
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our first tale, we meet Bobby,
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a prison guard who has been chosen
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to flip the switch which will execute
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a convicted killer. But
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Bobby is human, after all, and he's
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conflicted by this assignment. And
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in this tale, shared with us by author
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Andrew Punzo. We learn that all
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attempts to help Bobby deal with
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this profound task aren't
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helping his conscience much at all.
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Performing this tale are Reagan
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Tacker, Jesse Cornette, Sarah Thomas,
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Atticus Jackson, and Mike
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Delgaudio. So there
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may be some ultimate truth out there
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to contend with, but for now you
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have to accept that liars lie. When
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Getty Robinson came into the chamber, he
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was still screaming that he ain't doing a damn thing.
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About an hour back his voice had gone hoarse
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on him and his eyes rolled all like a
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wild mare in a thunderstorm. Didn't
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make my job any easier, but
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it was really Warden Nast who wasn't helping none.
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Liars lie.
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Ben Killa's fry. He'd
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said it for about the 20th time through his
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black hood, nodding as Getty's arms
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were tethered and the pan with the sponge soaked
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in brine was strapped to his head. I was
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sweating through my own hood, suffocating
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myself in fabric that turned hot and
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heavy in a second flat. Wasn't
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just the heat. I never had any
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qualms with working in a prison, but
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after we drew matches for the electrocution,
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I told the Warden I had some hesitations.
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Now look here, Bobby. He
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sat me down in a big leather chair
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across his desk. The other
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guards had left and I was still looking at
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the headless matchstick. Wondering how it
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was I got there. Ain't
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two ways about it. Man's
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been tried by a jury, full and
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fair, and his appeal went to the
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Texas Supreme Court. I
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even spoke with Les and Tricia at the
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ACLU and they said they'd about thrown in
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the towel on it. too, and
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you know those folks in me don't always
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see eye to eye. I
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know. I shift it in
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the chair, sticking to it through
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my tan prison tights. Listen,
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I know you're a Christian man, but
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this ain't the way you're making it out to be.
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You ain't throwing a pistol to his head. You
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ain't sitting down on the beach while he
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drowns. All you're doing
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is flipping the switch. Like
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turning on your kitchen light. That's
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all it is. He
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paused before he said what he swore sideways
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was in the Bible. Besides,
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liars lie and killers
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fry. Ain't that
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how it's written? Getty's legs
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were bound while three faceless guards held
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his arms and shoulders. He
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was a lean fellow. Couldn't have been more
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than a buck 60, no taller
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than 5'10, mid-50s or
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thereabouts. But seeing
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the chair made him superhuman. Must
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have been four, five guards working him over with their
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billy sticks in the aunt's room just to get him
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through the door. I'd never seen a
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man put up a fight like that. The
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day before the execution, I'd
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gone back into Warden Nast's office. I
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was feeling sick to my stomach all week. Can't
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seem to get on over it, huh, Bobbie?
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Well, all due
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respect, Mr. Nast. He says
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he's innocent. I ain't changed
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his tune once in all these years. I still
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don't feel right being the one to pull the
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switch on him. I mean, ain't
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that just the same as the what
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Daniel Jennings keeps saying when they couldn't
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find them girls? The next
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thing you know, they're pulling them up by the
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pigtails out of his well. And
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how about Macy Morgan and all
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that business about taking the collar
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and being reformed and on the
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evil parole he strangles. blessed
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with the blue flaming rosary.
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I remember. He pulled
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out a paisley kerchief that was as
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red as his plum-blooded face. Well,
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you do well to remember this, Bobby.
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Liars. Lie.
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Gettysman snapped loose from its tethers and
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something silver flashed from his sock before
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anyone could get a hold of him.
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The guard scrambled out of his way and
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the warden hollered and I jacked down, no
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less a reflex than the compunction that I
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felt turning in my belly up to my
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gullet, hanging down my tubes like
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a lead snake. Lighting
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arced and cracked and the loose arm
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flailed and the clamoring and hollering didn't
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stop until Getty stopped jiving and the
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black, such stink of quarter-cooked meat filled
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the air. The fork that
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Getty had sharpened down into a shiv
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lay near warden's ass feet. Metal
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tinged with purple and black rings,
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still coursing with an edge of
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blue electricity. The
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killers fry.
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I couldn't sleep that night and
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Francine saw I was distressed. I
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didn't like to talk work with her, but
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she'd read the newspaper and the buzz about
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Getty had been all over town two weeks
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before the paper scooped in. You
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ain't done nothing bad now, Bobby. She
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rubbed my shoulders above the sheets. I
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know. Well then why can't you rest your
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eyes? I know.
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Every time I closed them, I
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saw the fork fall into the floor,
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dancing live with blue sparks. Well
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maybe you can go see Pastor Dowd sometime
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this week. He'll set you straight.
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I hope that you need setting. You're
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as straight as is. I
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know. He was a bad man,
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Bobby. The fork proves it. Can't
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you imagine what he would have done with it had
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you ain't flipped the switch on him? I
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don't know. The
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next morning I was up before her and walking
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out on the street. Warden
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had let me off for the week, paying all. Normally
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I'd have been happy to sleep in, but when
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I woke near dawn, sleep wouldn't come to me.
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I wasn't keen on going out, but just
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lying there thinking was too much. Besides,
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Francine needed her waitress and uniforms picked
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up. At first
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it was nice to be out of doors, but
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ours is an early rising town and more than
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a few folks passed me by on the street.
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They knew me and I knew them, and it
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seemed they knew what I'd done. The
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way their heads turned and followed me, the
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way their eyes lingered on a little too long.
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They still said hello just the same. There
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was a heaviness that ain't been there the day before.
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I felt marked. I felt
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like how Getty must have felt, walking down
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the hall to the execution chamber. I
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pushed the door to the cleaners open and
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slipped inside, glad to be off the street.
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I had expected to see Clement behind the
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counter, someone who could give a
11:11
left hand about the gossip armen around town,
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but he wasn't there. Instead, it
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was a man about my age who I'd
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never seen before. Morning.
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Morning. What can I do for you? Where's
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Clem? Out sick. I'm
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his son-in-law, Jordan. Are you
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all right? You don't want me
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saying. I nodded and
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put my hands on the counter, picking
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up uniforms from a wife. I
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handed him the ticket. He
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went to the mechanical garment rack, working
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the foot pedal to move the plastic shrouded
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clothes along the track. It whirred
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and the clothes wished as they moved. For
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a while, that's all there was other
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than the silence. It's
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the big C. Pardon?
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Clem. Sick with
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the big C. He's got
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cancer?" The rack stopped
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moving and Jordan looked down at his foot.
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I shouldn't have said nothing. Just
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been weighing on my mind like you
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wouldn't believe. I can
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believe. He found
12:17
the uniforms, pulled them off, and placed them
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on the counter. Two
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forty. I put up the
12:23
bills and while he made change he looked once
12:25
more at the ticket and then looked at me.
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Your wife Francine? Yes.
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That makes you Bobby. It
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does. Mind if I ask you
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something? Already
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started to gather up the clothes because I knew
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I was about to hear something I wouldn't want
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to. You're the man who
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did it on Getty? I
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said nothing. My hands felt
12:49
hot. I wondered why they bothered
12:51
to make us wear the hoods in the chamber. I
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can appreciate that. I
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can't make sense of how
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it's come to be a cleanse time so soon
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when that horseen takes sixteen
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years to fry. I
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turned toward the door, waving the change
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on the counter. I
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ain't looking for answers. Just
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been weighing on my mind like you
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wouldn't believe. I
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went straight home and gave Francine
13:23
her uniforms and stayed indoors
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for four whole days. I
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tried the television and books and magazines to
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take my mind off of things but
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the images and words just sort of washed
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over and out of me rather than take
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on any real meaning. I
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didn't feel right. Half the
13:41
time I'd walk into a room and not know
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why I went in and the other half I'd
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find myself in a room and not know how
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I got there. Francine came
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and went but we didn't talk
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much and I'd turn no calls. On
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the fifth day I gave up and went
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to see Pastor Dowd. It
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was hot and dusty outside. side, but the
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church was cool stone, wood, and
14:03
dulled-leaded glass. Me and
14:05
Pastor said in our father, and then I told
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him what the trouble was. I
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asked if he'd hear a confession, but he
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said he wouldn't because that was a matter
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between me and God, and in any case
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I hadn't committed a sin he'd ever heard
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of. I said I'd
14:20
feel better if he did anyway. He
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sighed and afterward sat me down in
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his office. Robert,
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Getty Robinson was a bad man,
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a very bad man. Yes,
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sir. Warden and my wife says
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the same, even the ACLU. Yes,
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he would have done more bad things. He
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would have hurt more people, and God only
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knows how many more. You saw the fork. Yes,
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sir. That ain't wrong, and I don't doubt
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it now, but my point is
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I'm having a hesitation I can't get over.
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I never once wanted to kill a man, even a
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bad one, but I flipped
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the switch, and in my
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way of thinking, that's just the same. He
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labored mightily over his next sentence.
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Do you know the trolley dilemma?
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No. See, my seminary believed
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philosophy every bit as important as the
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study of God. I
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nodded, not willing to speak and ruin the
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spell that Pastor Dowd would get to working
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himself into when he gave a good sermon.
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It's a moral dilemma, a thought experiment.
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You're on a trolley that's going down a track,
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flying down it so fast that up ahead comes
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quicker than you'd like, and looking to your side,
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all you see is a blur, and
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you can't stop because the brake is broken. No.
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There's five men working on the track up ahead,
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and they don't know you're coming, because the whistle's
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broken too, but there's
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a switch on the trolley, and you have time to
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hit that switch before you come up on those five
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men. And if you hit the switch, the
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trolley goes down a fork in the track where there's only
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one man working. See,
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so there's no choice. Morally. You
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need to hit the switch. Morally, it's
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the right thing to kill one to
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save five." I
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sat, still in quiet. I
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took his point and I wasn't confused, but he'd
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been expecting I would have jumped up and hollered
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Jehovah like a man who had a coming to
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moment. So, it's just like
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you flipping that switch. You had
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to kill one to save more. No one
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had fought you for that. There's no moral
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wrong. You didn't do a bad thing. Matter
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of it is, you did a good thing. The
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best thing. Yes, sir. Warden
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and my wife says the same. Never mind
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the fact that Getty's trolley was a long
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time coming. You said it yourself
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that even the ACLU agrees. It's
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like how your warden over there puts it. Liars
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lie and killers fry. That's
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the best five-word summary the Old Testament is all
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over here. But it ain't
16:51
in the Old Testament. Well, no.
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You ought to tell that to him. Your
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doubt shifted and he coughed play and kept looking
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at me down his nose. Is
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there anything else, Robert? What
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about jumping? What's that? Ain't
17:07
the whole mess avoided by jumping? From
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what? From the trolley. I
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ain't much for philosophy, but I'd have judged it
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you could have just jumped off the trolley in
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the first instance to solve the whole mess. The
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five men would still die, Robert. You
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wouldn't solve anything. Sorry,
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pastor. I was meaning for the trolley
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driver. Solves the whole mess for him.
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He doesn't need to flip the switch and kill nobody,
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and the trolley just does what it was going to
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do all along, at least according
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to your hypothetical. Pastor
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Dow's mouth opened, slow and
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careful like always, but this time
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no words came out. How'd
17:47
the meeting with Pastor Dow go? Good.
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Well, how are you feeling? Feeling
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right as rain. I'm
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seeing beamed. See? I
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knew that would do you well. But that's
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something I always knew I Nodded
18:03
as she stood and began clearing dishes
18:05
for dessert when the phone rang and
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she ran off to the living room I
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turned my attention more fully to the fork I'd
18:13
been fixing on it all dinner the
18:15
last bits of smoked pork hanging on its tines
18:18
Tines that I had no trouble bending. I Bent
18:22
all but one and held it up Marveling
18:24
at the sleek silver shape of it as it
18:27
flashed and the like like a creek shiner So
18:30
kind for asking he's doing just
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fine. Fine Matter
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of fact Warden earth, he'll be even
18:37
better knowing you had it in your heart to call on him
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I stood and shuffled into the kitchen where the
18:42
devil's food was cooling on the sill The
18:45
pork sat wet pink and charred
18:47
on the cutting board Using
18:50
the shiv I turned on the light switch
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and stood looking at the electrical outlet next
18:54
to it on the wall Well,
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you know him warden, you know my Bobby
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He's a man of principles Upstanding
19:02
is putting at least mr. Nast I'm
19:05
talking about scruples about true
19:07
morality and he's always been that
19:09
way something these
19:11
politicians Yet he
19:13
got what he deserved his trolley
19:16
was a long time coming and
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besides that he was guilty of sin I
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closed my eyes and saw blue sparks dancing
19:23
on the edge of the shiv again purpling
19:26
black rings like the space between the
19:28
stars Of course,
19:30
you're a man who knows a thing or two
19:32
about morals. Mr. Nast What's
19:34
that line? You're always saying Pastor
19:36
doubt even used it preaching. I Felt
19:39
my arm stretching forward and
19:41
the Getty smell in the kitchen became heavy
19:44
and putrid Mm-hmm. That's
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right Liars lie. I
19:49
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something to get off our chest. Sometimes,
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you just need me to say my name. Okay.
23:21
In the confession. Right. Well,
23:25
like I said, you're gonna be disappointed. I'm
23:28
gonna confess, but not to
23:30
murder. What
23:32
happened was, I guess
23:34
you'd say, an accident. It
23:37
was... I'm not
23:40
sure how to describe it. I
23:42
mean, I didn't mean for it to
23:44
happen. Hell, I
23:46
called the ambulance. Right. Fine.
23:51
I'll just start at
23:53
the beginning. I
23:56
broke into Gerald Sharp's suite pretty
23:58
easily. don't
24:00
really pay that much attention to who comes and
24:02
goes and who's on what floor. And
24:05
those card readers they have, they aren't super
24:07
secure. It
24:09
was a huge suite, and it
24:11
didn't look like Sharpe was using most of the
24:13
rooms, so I hid it in one of the
24:16
ones without any luggage or anything until he was
24:18
back and waited until he went to sleep. I
24:22
had a knife because I
24:24
figured it would be more intimidating. I
24:27
wasn't planning on killing him, but
24:29
a knife looks like you're planning on keeping it
24:31
quiet and getting away with it. Huh?
24:36
No. Obviously I didn't
24:38
have a personal connection with Gerald
24:40
Sharpe. Does it
24:43
look like we'd hang out? Well,
24:45
yeah, of course I knew of him.
24:48
Don't you? You know how I knew
24:50
of him. Do I really need to
24:52
tell you? From
24:55
the news, geez. His
24:57
company bought a patent for an HIV medication
25:00
and upped the price by 6,000% so
25:04
that now anyone living with HIV can't
25:06
afford to, you know, live.
25:10
No, I don't think he deserved to die for that.
25:13
Not really. No,
25:15
I didn't. Even if
25:17
he was killing people, like actively
25:19
at all times. You
25:22
ever heard that hypothetical question about whether you'd
25:24
push a button for a million dollars but
25:27
one random person who you'd never met will
25:29
die? Yeah, well
25:31
like that Cameron Diaz movie. It
25:34
was a Twilight Zone episode first, you know. Whatever.
25:37
It doesn't matter. Would
25:40
you press it? It
25:42
doesn't matter. Your answer is gonna
25:44
be yes or no. A
25:47
normal, healthy human's answer is gonna be
25:49
yes or no. What
25:52
it's not the fuck gonna be is
25:54
to sit in front of the button and
25:56
wail on it non-stop all
25:59
day every day. But
26:02
that's what Sharp was doing. What?
26:06
No, I told you I don't think
26:08
he deserved to die. Well,
26:11
maybe a little, but not enough
26:13
to actually do it. I
26:16
didn't go there to kill him. Time
26:19
to think of it, is he even dead?
26:23
He was still breathing when I called
26:25
911. Hell, he was still
26:27
standing and I don't know if doing
26:30
that would kill you. Died
26:33
in the ambulance. Fuck.
26:38
Like I said, I didn't murder
26:40
him. And don't give
26:42
me any of that manslaughter bullshit either.
26:44
He did it to himself. All
26:47
I did was give him the spiked water. I
26:51
figured you guys would have known about that by now.
26:54
I guess you haven't had a chance to check his blood yet.
26:58
All right. So after
27:00
I broke in, I
27:02
forced him to drink a bottle of
27:05
water that I dissolved acid and ecstasy
27:07
into beforehand. Why?
27:11
Because I didn't want to get caught blatantly
27:13
carrying a bunch of drugs. Oh,
27:18
why the drugs? Okay,
27:20
so have you ever heard that
27:22
story about the libertarian who took
27:24
ecstasy for the first time, realized
27:27
other people had emotions and totally
27:29
changed his beliefs? Well,
27:32
I thought maybe it would work
27:34
on sharp. DLSD was
27:36
to try to boost the effects and maybe
27:38
cover my ass if he made a statement
27:40
to the police. You
27:43
know, there's a study once where they gave
27:45
half the participants five dollars and gave the
27:47
control group nothing, then told them
27:49
they could either split another five dollars with
27:52
someone else. It was an
27:54
actor, but they thought it was another test participant. Or
27:57
keep all the money. You
28:00
know who agreed to split it? The
28:02
control group. The ones who
28:05
had already been given five dollars kept
28:07
the other five for themselves. I
28:10
swear to God, money
28:12
breaks your brain. If
28:14
five bucks can do that to you, can
28:17
you imagine what it's like to be a
28:19
millionaire? Or, or a
28:21
billionaire? Wealth
28:24
is a mental illness. Fuck
28:28
you, jealousy. Yeah,
28:31
I wish I had a million dollars, so
28:33
does everyone, but I'm not jealous of a
28:35
sick fuck like Sharp. What
28:39
would you do with a million dollars? Or
28:41
whatever amount no one could ever spend in
28:43
their lifetime, no matter how hard they tried?
28:46
Probably like a hundred mil. No,
28:50
come on. I'm trying to prove a point.
28:54
Retire to the Bahamas? Damn,
28:57
that sounds nice. You?
29:01
Travel? Nice. I'd
29:04
quit my job, but I'd like
29:06
to think I'd also start an
29:08
animal shelter. I've
29:10
always fostered pets, but I've only ever had the
29:12
money to do one at a time. And
29:15
yeah, I'd basically pay everyone else to do
29:17
all the actual work, but it's
29:20
still some good in the world. But
29:24
I get it. When people say they'd start a
29:26
business, you know, the people
29:28
who want to design clothes or own
29:30
an art gallery or do something for
29:32
love that they never had a shot
29:35
at until they weren't one paycheck from
29:37
starving. I get it. What
29:40
I don't get. And what you
29:42
guys and I would never do with
29:45
a hundred million dollars is spend all
29:47
our time hanging out with politicians. Trying
29:50
to make sure that that number never
29:52
has to go down. We
29:55
only have a limited amount of time on Earth no
29:57
matter how much money we have. Why
29:59
would we? Why would we waste it on making
30:01
a number go up once the
30:04
number's already big enough that we can't help to
30:06
use it all? No,
30:08
I'm serious. Doesn't that sound sick?
30:12
Like, actually, mentally,
30:15
unwell. Like, what
30:17
kind of intense distress could compel
30:19
you to spend all your time
30:21
in a boardroom with other old,
30:23
rich fucks instead of on a
30:25
beach? Would you
30:27
even want to talk to one of
30:29
those diaper-wearing geezers in Congress for a
30:31
second, let alone go to lunch with
30:33
them? I mean,
30:35
there's something seriously wrong with dudes
30:37
like Gerald Sharp. Okay,
30:40
yeah, if I got rich, I'd
30:42
probably end up doing the same
30:44
thing. That's the point.
30:48
If I did heroin for a week, I'd be
30:50
addicted to that, too. But
30:52
that's not an argument for heroin. Fair
30:56
enough. I'm stalling. What
30:59
can I say? I don't want to relive
31:01
it. You saw
31:03
what happened. Well, actually,
31:07
if you just saw the aftermath... Hey,
31:11
you guys probably have no idea
31:13
what happened. So
31:16
I forced Sharp to drink the
31:18
entire water bottle, watched him
31:20
make sure he swallowed, and
31:22
then I duct-taped him to a chair. Taped
31:25
his mouth shut, too, so he couldn't scream
31:27
for help or try to throw up. And
31:30
then I left the room for
31:33
an hour. To
31:35
let the drugs kick in,
31:37
obviously, and to get him
31:39
good and scared. I
31:42
did leave him with a really vague threat
31:44
about him paying for his crimes. I
31:47
wanted him thinking about what he'd done for this
31:49
to happen to him, what I
31:52
might do to him. Whether
31:54
he'd maybe hurt one of my loved ones.
31:57
You know, just sitting there. I
32:02
was trying to give him the mother of all
32:04
long midnights of the soul So
32:07
I figured he needed some time for
32:09
the uncertainty to really amp him up
32:13
When I came back his
32:15
pupils were huge. I Showed
32:18
him the knife told him not
32:21
to scream and
32:23
ripped the duct tape off I Could
32:26
tell he was high as hell
32:28
cuz he wouldn't stop babbling But
32:31
it was all in this super
32:33
exaggerated whisper Like
32:35
he had no idea what his real volume was
32:37
that I? Figured
32:39
better. He's not being loud cut
32:42
the tape off his arms and legs and shoved
32:44
him into the bathroom It
32:47
made him look into the mirror, and
32:50
I said well
32:52
it I Don't remember
32:54
exactly but pretty much what I've been saying
32:56
to you guys about Some
32:58
stuff about how he had cut himself
33:01
off from humanity in order to profit
33:03
off of death Because he
33:05
couldn't do that while feeling empathy for
33:07
his victims I
33:09
told him that the process was reciprocal
33:12
And it was why no normal
33:14
human could feel empathy for him
33:16
anymore And then I
33:18
told him that he had two choices Either
33:21
look at himself in the mirror and
33:23
fully accept what he'd done Or
33:27
eat it No,
33:29
not like eat it like die
33:33
eat the mirror Although
33:36
I guess I can see why
33:38
he'd be confused And
33:40
that was it. I didn't do anything
33:43
else to him That
33:45
was when I left At
33:48
least tried to Fine
33:51
I'll tell you what happened next, but
33:54
you better get me a court-appointed Psychiatrist
33:57
or something because I never
34:00
have to describe this again unless
34:02
it's to a professional. Okay
34:07
so I'm backing
34:09
out of the bathroom making sure
34:11
Sharp keeps his eyes on the mirror.
34:15
I know it's mean to give someone a bunch of
34:17
drugs and then have them look at themselves in the
34:19
mirror but like I said
34:21
I was trying to give him a long
34:23
dark midnight of the soul. That
34:26
and I didn't want him to try to call for
34:28
help before I was gone. I
34:31
reached the doorway and turned to go. Sharp's
34:34
already crying so I figure I have a bunch of time
34:36
to get out of there but
34:38
the second I look away I hear
34:41
a thud. I
34:43
look back and Sharp
34:45
is punching the mirror over
34:48
and over just hitting the
34:50
same spot until it starts cracking.
34:53
His hands all cut up and parts of the
34:55
glass are falling into the sink and he's just
34:58
sobbing like about how this is
35:00
impossible and how can I expect
35:02
him to eat a mirror and
35:05
stuff. And
35:07
I'm just standing there like dude
35:09
you're missing the point but I
35:12
don't even know if you can hear me. He's
35:14
just scraping shards of the glass out
35:16
of the wall slicing his
35:18
hands open begging me to
35:20
let him stop and I'm screaming
35:22
back about how he can stop
35:25
how it's okay. I don't
35:27
want to do anything to him but
35:29
he starts pounding on the glass on the
35:31
counter like he's trying to crush it up
35:33
really fine like he thinks that
35:35
maybe if it's a powder he can swallow
35:37
it. I think
35:39
he tried to. It was
35:42
hard to tell because the bits of glass were all
35:44
mixed with his blood and it looked thick and junky
35:46
but maybe that's just what
35:48
happens when you're smearing blood everywhere but
35:52
he gathered up like like a
35:54
glob of something and
35:56
shoved it in his mouth and forced
35:58
himself to swallow. There
36:01
was blood all over his face.
36:05
God, I don't know if it was from his hand
36:07
or the scraped shard's glass
36:09
over his skin when he rubbed his hand
36:11
over his mouth, but he
36:13
looked like a mess. And
36:16
then he picks up this one shard. It
36:19
was long, but thin, like
36:21
about the size and shape of a finger. I
36:25
don't know why he thought he could. He
36:29
thought he could just slide it down his
36:31
throat. I... Fuck,
36:35
I have no idea. I'm
36:38
like begging him not to do it at
36:40
this point. I tossed the knife
36:42
onto the ground right next to his feet so he
36:44
knows I'm not a threat anymore so that
36:46
he could threaten me if he wanted it. It...
36:53
Oh, God. There was already
36:55
so much blood dripping down from the
36:57
sink, from his hands, from
36:59
his face. God, I
37:01
could still see the knife just landing
37:04
in that puddle. He
37:07
opens his mouth and
37:09
puts that shard in. Holy
37:13
Christ, I couldn't watch. That
37:16
was when I got out of there and I called
37:18
you guys. I
37:20
could have left, you know? The whole
37:22
time I was on the phone, I could hear his
37:25
gagging and sobbing and all this fucking
37:28
gurgling. And I still
37:30
had to listen to that while I
37:32
was waiting for the ambulance to show up. Jesus
37:36
Christ. All
37:39
I wanted was for him to feel
37:41
all the guilt he truly deserves to
37:43
feel. But
37:45
I guess he wasn't built
37:48
to handle it. I
37:53
wonder if
37:55
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your eyes open for this next story. It
39:58
can be chilling to hear a song. serial killer
40:00
being interviewed about their crimes. You
40:03
can watch them on many documentaries as
40:05
they sit there, usually without much compunction,
40:08
telling us why they did what they
40:10
did to all those victims. And
40:13
in this tale, shared with us
40:15
by author M. Scott, we meet
40:17
an uncommon kind of serial killer,
40:20
a woman who explains why she
40:22
did what she did. Performing
40:26
this tale is Erin Lillis. So
40:29
when you're out in public, smile like you
40:31
mean it. You never know if
40:33
you're going to encounter a killer who is asking
40:35
you to... see me. When
40:55
I was a kid, I woke up
40:57
early every Saturday morning to tune into
40:59
my favorite TV show, the
41:01
name of which I have been told to withhold. It
41:05
was 1986 and I was five years old. My
41:09
younger brother and I would scurry down the
41:11
stairs and plop in front of our large
41:13
colored TV set. I
41:16
excitedly pressed the buttons on the TV until it
41:18
reached channel 25 and armed with a
41:21
bowl of cereal. We waited with bated
41:23
breath as the opening credits to...
41:27
began. We
41:29
sang along in tandem, smiled
41:31
as wide as our ears, belting
41:34
out each and every note, creating
41:37
a cacophony of joyful sound.
41:43
After the opening song sequence, we
41:46
sat silently relishing every colorful
41:48
scene, the silence only ever
41:50
being broken by intermittent giggles.
41:55
As the show was about to end, my
41:58
heart would always be... begin to beat
42:00
faster in anticipation of my absolute
42:03
favorite part of the show. You
42:07
see, at the end of this show,
42:09
the beautiful lady would hold up a
42:11
magic mirror. This mirror would
42:13
allow her to see the children who were watching the
42:15
show. She
42:17
would call out a handful of names each
42:19
episode, pointing and telling the viewers who she
42:21
saw. I see Michael. I
42:24
see Katie. I see
42:26
Timmy. I see Pam.
42:28
You get the idea.
42:31
Adrenaline washed over me every
42:33
single time she held up a mirror because I knew
42:35
that today was going to be the day when she
42:37
would see me. So
42:40
that is how it would go every Saturday for
42:43
two years. I
42:45
would eagerly wait each episode for her
42:47
to call my name for her to
42:49
see me. And
42:52
every Saturday I would taste the
42:54
bitterness of rejection as she failed to
42:56
call my name, as
42:59
she failed to see me. The
43:02
first year I began watching the show,
43:04
I would get over this indignation rather
43:06
quickly, usually just stomping
43:08
my feet and declaring that she did not
43:10
call my name again. But
43:13
after a while, my reactions
43:15
began to become more severe. Everything
43:21
turned to throwing things, throwing
43:23
things turned to screaming, screaming,
43:25
turned into smack at my brother in
43:27
the face. That
43:30
was the final straw, of course. I
43:32
lost TV privileges for two weeks and
43:35
my mother forbade me to watch that show ever again.
43:39
How can my mother know that at that
43:41
time that her punishment came too late? How
43:45
could she have realized that something had splintered
43:47
in her child? Something
43:49
had broken beyond repair. How
43:53
would she have attempted to change things if she
43:55
had the foresight to know that this TV show
43:57
that she had forbidden me to see had already
43:59
been there? fractured part of me that
44:01
would lead to what the papers referred to
44:04
as horrific events 15 years
44:06
later. You
44:09
see, I believe that during
44:11
those formative years, the years were
44:13
life events, mold mines like clay,
44:15
the rejection I
44:17
felt, blood through to all areas
44:19
of my life like melted butter
44:22
filtering its way into every
44:24
nook and cranny of my being. That
44:28
bitch on the show never saw me and
44:31
soon after that my father left us to be
44:33
with a new family. My
44:36
mother blamed me. I know she
44:38
did. After
44:40
the surges of my outburst
44:43
intensified, I would
44:45
hear my parents arguing about me night
44:47
after night when
44:49
my grades at school started to decline. I
44:52
heard each parent blaming the other for
44:54
my behavior. With
44:57
each argument, the barbed insults
44:59
that they hurled toward each other shot
45:01
closer to their mark. It was
45:05
not a slow death as
45:07
it only took six months from that point for
45:10
my parents to pull the plug on their marriage
45:13
and on me. After
45:16
he finally left, the
45:19
dark void inside me
45:21
began to fester. The
45:23
now empty husk that I
45:25
called mother effectively maintained a
45:27
bunter effect greeting me with
45:29
only a few and fleeting
45:31
superficial smiles. Those
45:35
days, the only time she ever
45:37
glanced at me was through the
45:39
lens of her empty wine glass.
45:41
School afforded me no sanctuary
45:43
as I was all but
45:46
invisible there too. Sitting
45:49
alone at the lunch table watching
45:51
a little horrors talk about their
45:53
boyfriends and their makeup or
45:55
whatever douche boy band was coming to
45:57
town. my
46:00
way and when they did they were
46:02
looking through me. I was
46:05
never invited to any parties not
46:08
that I had wanted to
46:11
go. I traversed the treachery
46:13
of high school for two years
46:15
before I finally dropped out. My
46:19
mother had checked out so completely at this point
46:21
barely raised her head to siphon the fluid from
46:23
her bottle of Jack. So
46:26
it did not surprise me that she
46:28
took no notice of my full-time truancy
46:30
from academia. This
46:33
cult of isolation of which I
46:35
was the sole member continued
46:38
as I myopically
46:40
navigated into adulthood.
46:42
The menial job that I
46:45
obtained shortly after I dropped out continued
46:48
to cultivate the poor end
46:50
isolation that had always been
46:52
my single constant companion. I
46:56
was never chosen for employee of the month.
46:59
I was overlooked for every promotion
47:01
despite my seniority. I
47:04
had utterly been forced to remain in
47:06
this existence of singularity day
47:08
in and day out. I
47:12
tried online dating. I'm
47:15
human despite the newspapers
47:17
making contrary assessments. I
47:21
do have certain basic human needs that had
47:23
up to this point never been met.
47:27
There would be no e-harmony matches
47:29
for me. No walks on the
47:32
beach or running slow
47:34
motion in the rain.
47:36
Don't get me wrong there was running
47:39
and it was always done by my date
47:41
for the first course had time to digest. What
47:45
did you say? Don't you dare interrupt
47:48
me. I
47:50
will get to the gory details. Don't worry
47:52
about that. Don't you know
47:54
I realized that is why you came to hear
47:57
about the slaughter, the guts. the
48:00
play-by-play of every extraction. I
48:05
came here willingly agreeing to this
48:07
interview. I
48:09
expect you to have the patience to allow
48:11
me a bit of digression. How
48:14
can you understand what I did if you can't understand
48:16
why I did it? Now,
48:19
where was I? Yes.
48:23
Well, when you become invisible to
48:25
the world, you find comfort
48:27
where you can find it. For
48:31
me, I discovered it with
48:33
true crime. A
48:35
completely innocent diversion from most... I'm
48:38
most certainly not alone in this
48:40
as evidenced by the number of
48:43
true crime television programs and podcasts.
48:46
Is this interview not being used for readers
48:48
of true crime? Anyway,
48:51
I would pore over books
48:54
about Bundy and Gain.
48:57
You know, all the truly interesting ones. BTK,
49:00
Dahmer, Chikatilo.
49:03
I read about them all. I
49:05
wouldn't say I felt a connection to any
49:08
of them, but I felt a sense of
49:10
understanding with some. You
49:12
see, I believe that when you are forced to
49:14
lurk in the shadows for so long, it
49:17
makes sense that after a while you begin to
49:19
adapt to the darkness. This,
49:22
I believe, is where we
49:24
get to what you have less
49:26
than patiently been waiting for.
49:30
Before we get to the main course, I would
49:33
like to preface it by saying that, while
49:35
most people try to put me in the
49:37
same category as the serial killers I mentioned,
49:40
that would be a mistake. First
49:43
off, the media loves referring to
49:45
me as a sociopath. This
49:49
is slander, to say the least. Or
49:51
is it libel? Other
49:54
way, this representation is fraught
49:56
with inaccuracy. Most
49:58
of those serial killers. showed signs
50:00
of early childhood. I
50:03
had a bit of a temper that gave way
50:05
to introversion over the years, but
50:08
I never said shit on fire or tortured
50:10
animals. In fact,
50:12
I rather love animals. I
50:14
have a cat at home. I
50:17
always adored Little Romper, wouldn't dream of
50:19
harming him. Another
50:22
important thing that distinguishes me from the
50:24
psychopath that he would love to categorize
50:26
me with is that
50:28
I feel remorse for what I have
50:30
done. I
50:33
mean, do you honestly think I wanna be
50:35
locked up in a five by five for the rest
50:37
of my life as short as it may be thanks
50:39
to the state? So
50:41
no, not a sociopath. Now
50:45
that I have that cleared up, let's
50:48
talk about my first time, shall
50:51
we? That is
50:53
what you really wanna hear, right? Now,
50:57
let me see. Yeah,
50:59
it was a cold, solid night
51:02
in October 2001, two
51:05
days before Halloween. Not
51:08
that Halloween has anything to do with it. It
51:11
was about 10, 26 p.m. on the number seven bus leaving
51:16
work in the direction of home, if
51:19
you can call a rat and best in one bedroom
51:21
studio at home. It
51:24
was not an unusual night, not
51:27
a particularly bad or good night.
51:30
Just another routine ride on public transportation as
51:32
if I ever had a chance of hell
51:34
getting a vehicle of my own. I
51:39
was in my usual seat minding my
51:41
own businesses, I always did. My
51:44
eyes were stuck within the confines of a
51:47
Stephen King novel, matter of fact. Couldn't
51:50
tell you which one. Oh,
51:52
Carrie, I was definitely reading Carrie. Oh,
51:56
how sweet memories come from back to me now.
52:01
As I said, I was reading Carrie, and
52:04
I was engrossed in it. It
52:06
is one of my favorites. They're
52:08
all gonna laugh at you. Laugh
52:12
at you indeed, Carrie. So
52:16
I am reading, and the bus stops. I
52:20
instinctively looked up as I knew my stop was
52:22
coming up soon, but almost simultaneously
52:24
returned to my books, realizing
52:26
that I was two stops
52:28
yet from my apartment building.
52:33
I barely noticed the man that walked onto the
52:35
bus. I
52:37
will, of course, never forget him. After
52:41
all you never forget, you're first. This
52:46
man, who police were eventually
52:48
and painstakingly able to identify
52:51
as Steve Blake,
52:54
walked onto the bus. As
52:58
he passed by me, I heard shuffled,
53:01
heavy footsteps, but it was
53:03
not until I felt a
53:05
steel-toed boot, forced hard against
53:07
my unexpecting foot, that I
53:09
looked up at him for the first time. And
53:13
as you know, certainly won't be the
53:15
last time. I
53:18
remember wincing in the kind of pain that
53:20
shoots through you like lightning, so fast that
53:22
it takes moments for your throat to vocalize
53:24
that pain. But as
53:27
the yelp of momentary debilitation
53:30
escaped my lips, Stevie Boy
53:32
only half glanced at me
53:35
and disingenuously said, Sorry,
53:38
I didn't see ya. I
53:42
mean, he had caused me
53:44
bodily harm, and I
53:46
didn't even register enough for him to look
53:48
at me. And
53:51
as to where to all that is holy,
53:54
I saw that Martin V. Fuck
53:56
smile. The
53:59
hot rage. boiling up inside caused
54:02
accurate bile to coat my tongue.
54:05
I felt anger coursing from my
54:07
feet to my chest. I
54:11
know that anyone sitting by me could
54:13
feel the heat emanating from my body.
54:17
I remember shaking, breathing
54:19
heavy as small beads of sweat
54:21
formed on my brow. I
54:25
felt years of being overlooked and
54:28
ignored, going from a simmer
54:30
to a rolling boil. And
54:33
I was moments from losing my shit right then
54:35
and there. But
54:37
you know what? I
54:40
didn't. Instead,
54:43
the strangest thing happened. And
54:47
the eerie, ill calm came over
54:49
me. And
54:51
for the first time in my life, I
54:53
felt a sense of purpose.
54:57
I knew exactly what had to be done. I
55:02
missed my bus that night. I
55:06
waited. I
55:08
waited for Stevie Boy to get off
55:10
the bus and I was praying. Yes,
55:13
praying to God that he was
55:16
getting off alone. As
55:19
the fates aligned, Stevie Boy
55:21
did get off all by his lonesome end,
55:24
as if all the gods were smiling down on
55:27
me. There was no one outside of the dark
55:29
bus stop. Steve
55:32
exited the bus, eye
55:34
behind him. And wouldn't you
55:36
know it, he never even
55:39
noticed me. Of
55:41
course he didn't. I
55:45
didn't know at the time exactly what I
55:47
was going to do to Stevie, but
55:50
I knew it would have to be done in the place
55:52
where I could take my time. He
55:57
walked up to this tiny, what
55:59
they call, shop. There
56:02
were no cars in the driveway. At
56:04
that point, I don't think I would have stopped, even
56:07
if there had been. I
56:09
could be into the group thing. As
56:13
he started to climb the almost
56:15
dilapidated stairs to get to his
56:18
shanty, I noticed
56:20
that he was less than steady on his
56:22
feet. It
56:25
was then that my nostrils picked
56:27
up on the stale beer that
56:29
wafted from his greasy pores. I
56:34
stood behind him silently, so
56:36
close that I just knew he
56:39
would feel my breath. But
56:42
the booze had been successful in
56:44
deactivating his spies since his... I
56:48
did a quick survey of the porch to see
56:51
if there was an object that I could use
56:53
to incapacitate him. In
56:56
my mind, I half expected to
56:58
see a banjo next to a rocking
57:00
chair, but instead it
57:03
was a heavy planter filled with weeds
57:05
that caught my eye. As
57:08
Stevie Boy unlocked his door, I simultaneously
57:11
grabbed that planter and
57:14
smashed it hard against his balding
57:16
scalp. He
57:20
stumbled a few feet in the
57:22
house, completely clearing the entryway. He
57:26
was making this too easy. He
57:30
was all but fighting me in. A
57:35
shudder trickled down my spine, and
57:38
I held back a fearful breath.
57:42
It wasn't fear from getting caught, but
57:45
rather that I may have already killed that fucker
57:47
before I had a chance to gut him. If
57:52
that was indeed what I had intended to
57:54
do. Just
57:57
a friendly reminder that this was not
57:59
premeditated. My
58:03
narrow fingers navigated through the folds
58:05
of his thick neck to feel
58:08
for a pulse. After
58:13
pressing through layers of fat, I
58:15
found it and it was surprisingly
58:18
strong and I remember bursting out
58:20
in cathartic laughter but
58:22
quickly got a hold of myself. After
58:27
all I had work to do. I
58:31
dragged this ass into the small kitchen to
58:33
the right, although he was
58:35
more than a few whoppers bigger than me. I
58:37
was able to move him quite effortlessly. Look him
58:39
back. He
58:43
wants to be all that
58:45
adrenaline pumping through me, kind of like those
58:47
mothers who live heavy cars off their kids.
58:52
My neck prevailed over emotion at that moment
58:55
and I left him lying on the
58:57
floor to do a quick perimeter search.
59:02
I couldn't be sure he lived alone with
59:04
an educated guess, judging by
59:06
his bulging midsection, an
59:08
unkempt hair, unruly beard, and
59:11
the fact that he smelled as if he'd been baptized
59:13
and Budweiser, I surmised it was a
59:16
safe bet. After
59:19
confirming this fact, I returned
59:21
to the kitchen to mentally sketch
59:23
out a plan. Table
59:26
for two please. I
59:30
started a rifle through the house in search of something
59:32
to tie him up with. Moments
59:36
later, I retrieved several lengths of extension
59:38
cords that were used to connect his
59:40
ancient TV to the wall. I
59:44
tied his hands together tightly first. The
59:48
way they dug into his wrists reminded
59:50
me of the cartoons where the dog
59:52
has log rope and sausages. Next
59:57
I tied his legs and again,
59:59
when Less effort than I anticipated, I
1:00:02
was able to get him up into one of the kitchen chairs. He
1:00:06
was now snugly propped between the table
1:00:08
and the wall. I
1:00:13
sat across from his unconscious
1:00:15
form, anticipating the
1:00:17
moment he woke up and saw
1:00:19
me. The
1:00:23
moment reminded me of my childhood as I
1:00:25
waited for that bitch to look in the
1:00:27
mirror and call my name, but
1:00:31
this time would be different. This
1:00:35
time I knew that I would be seen.
1:00:41
Watching and waiting, it
1:00:43
was so quiet that I could hear the
1:00:45
second hand of a nearby clock moving
1:00:47
in tandem with my heartbeat. It
1:00:52
was in that moment I realized
1:00:54
that my stomach was also audible.
1:00:59
Since it seemed that he would not be
1:01:01
returning to consciousness in the next few moments,
1:01:04
I decided to do some reconnaissance in the
1:01:06
refrigerator. After
1:01:08
all, I would surely need my strength. My
1:01:13
expectations were low as to what I
1:01:16
would find in the refrigerator, and
1:01:18
for the most part I was correct in this
1:01:20
assertion. Two
1:01:23
cans of what was probably a six-pack
1:01:25
this morning, some half-empty
1:01:27
condiment jars, and
1:01:29
a box of pizza. I
1:01:33
grabbed the box from the fridge and lifted
1:01:35
the top to reveal two slices of Lissini
1:01:39
pepperoni pizza. Perhaps
1:01:43
against my better judgment, a pop to
1:01:45
slice into Stevie Boy's microwave. As
1:01:50
the seconds ticked away on his
1:01:52
antiquated cooking appliance, it
1:01:54
occurred to me that I had
1:01:57
no tools, though
1:01:59
I had no tools. not fully mapped out what I
1:02:01
was going to do to Stevie. I
1:02:05
knew it would require an instrument to do
1:02:07
it. So
1:02:10
I scavenged in the drawers of the kitchen,
1:02:13
looking for something that would serve a purpose. I
1:02:17
was at first disappointed to find
1:02:20
only a single dull steak knife
1:02:22
that he had certainly pilfered from
1:02:24
some truck stop diner. My
1:02:28
disappointment quickly gave way to
1:02:30
excitement once more as
1:02:32
I realized the dullness of the
1:02:35
blade. While causing more elbow
1:02:37
grease on my part, would
1:02:39
also mean more pain for good old
1:02:41
Stevie Boy. I
1:02:45
was jostled out of my reverie by the
1:02:47
sound of the micro oven beeping. I
1:02:52
quickly glanced over at Stevie Boy, hoping
1:02:55
the sound may arouse him from slumber. But
1:03:00
alas, it had not. I
1:03:03
sat across from him once more, taking
1:03:06
a bite of the pizza. I
1:03:10
remember thinking that for leftover pizza, it was
1:03:12
quite delicious. I
1:03:14
instinctively looked at the box again to file the
1:03:16
name into my long term memory. Mama
1:03:20
Joe's Pizza. It
1:03:23
really is good. Boy,
1:03:26
in fact, I would frequent Mama Joe's
1:03:28
multiple occasions over the next few weeks.
1:03:31
The taste of it always filled me with erotic
1:03:34
nostalgia of my first time with
1:03:37
Stevie Boy. As
1:03:41
he continued to drift with the
1:03:43
confines of unconsciousness, I savored
1:03:46
each bite of pizza. But
1:03:49
at that moment, my gratification did not come
1:03:51
from the taste of the slice, but
1:03:54
rather from the thoughts that undulated across
1:03:56
my mind. I
1:03:59
began to awake. I had a fleeting
1:04:01
thought of Hannibal Lecter as
1:04:03
he brilliantly served justice with
1:04:05
just the right amount of
1:04:08
seasoning. I,
1:04:11
of course, had no interest
1:04:13
in devouring human flesh. I'm
1:04:22
not crazy, let me remind you. But
1:04:26
the thought of Stevie Boy hanging
1:04:28
on a hook with his ribs
1:04:30
exposed like a rack of lamb made
1:04:34
me chuckle a bit if I'm to be honest.
1:04:39
So there I was, salivating
1:04:41
over what I would do,
1:04:44
when finally I heard
1:04:46
the sound of a steel-toed boat shuffling
1:04:48
against the worn-tiled floor. My
1:04:53
heart began to pump blood
1:04:55
furiously through my body as
1:04:57
he slowly opened blackened eyes
1:05:00
that were virtually full and shut. At
1:05:05
that moment, he resembled a
1:05:07
raccoon, and I almost
1:05:10
felt pity for him. But
1:05:13
he wasn't a raccoon and I didn't feel sorry.
1:05:17
It was obvious he had not completely
1:05:19
grasped what was happening to him. Probably
1:05:23
felt like he had just woken up from a
1:05:25
nightmare. But
1:05:27
as his eyes adjusted to
1:05:29
light, his face reflected pure
1:05:31
terror as he, for the
1:05:34
first time, gauged upon me. He
1:05:39
looked at me square in my eyes. And
1:05:43
I have to be honest. It
1:05:46
felt good.
1:05:52
He gurgled out some version of the
1:05:54
English language, but had not
1:05:56
yet found coherence. way
1:06:00
a bit of the grog he was
1:06:02
able to weakly utter, Who
1:06:04
are you? What do you want from me? Hearing
1:06:09
the pure terror in a
1:06:11
voice that was at least two
1:06:13
octaves above the sorry he uttered
1:06:15
on the bus, with
1:06:18
hairs on my arms and neck
1:06:20
stand attention. I
1:06:23
wanted this moment to last as
1:06:25
long as possible. So
1:06:30
I got up from my chair and
1:06:32
walked into liberation towards him. Looking
1:06:38
back, I'm sure my toothy
1:06:40
grin must have been unsettling to
1:06:43
him, but it
1:06:45
could not be helped. I
1:06:49
smiled so big my teeth
1:06:52
felt cold as my tongue
1:06:54
lapsed slowly against them. I
1:07:00
began circling him like a crow
1:07:02
to carry and tapping
1:07:04
a dull knife against my sleeve as I
1:07:07
did. In
1:07:10
retrospect, this may have been a bit dramatic,
1:07:12
but you have to understand for
1:07:14
the first time in my life, I
1:07:18
had a captive audience.
1:07:25
For five minutes or so,
1:07:28
this is what I did. And
1:07:31
with each pass, I
1:07:33
noticed another dollop of sweat
1:07:35
slormulating on his now beat
1:07:38
red forehead. When
1:07:43
I finally opened my mouth to
1:07:45
speak, the pungent smell
1:07:47
of urine permeated my nostrils.
1:07:52
The clown pissed himself, the
1:07:55
sounds of his squeals or
1:07:58
intoxicants. Can
1:08:03
you see me now?" I
1:08:05
taunted as I used the knife
1:08:08
to snap off one of his buttons. I
1:08:13
repeated this as I
1:08:15
popped each button off
1:08:17
his dirty, sweat-saturated
1:08:19
slant. I
1:08:23
took the tip of the knife and
1:08:25
gently slid it down the side of his
1:08:28
face. I don't know
1:08:30
how to make a cut, mind you. I
1:08:32
simply wanted him to feel the coolness
1:08:34
of the blade against his skin. I
1:08:39
noticed that his chest began to rise
1:08:41
faster and faster, in
1:08:44
tandem with my own heartbeat. The
1:08:48
synchronicity of this was exhilarating. If
1:08:50
I became so excited that I
1:08:52
had not noticed, I started
1:08:54
to cut into the flesh of his cheek
1:08:56
ever so slightly. I
1:09:00
stopped myself because I had already decided
1:09:02
I did not want to cut just
1:09:04
yet. I
1:09:07
positioned my face so close to
1:09:10
his that I could smell his
1:09:12
accurate sweat. I
1:09:15
whispered in his ear, "'Please
1:09:20
don't bring my heart into me. You
1:09:22
don't remember me, Todd.'" Stevie
1:09:27
looked up at me sheepishly and bleated.
1:09:31
"'I don't know. I can't. I
1:09:34
don't.'" I'm
1:09:37
frustrated by his incoherent
1:09:39
utterances. I removed his
1:09:41
boot and stomped on his foot as hard
1:09:43
as I could. I
1:09:46
stomped two or three times more until I
1:09:48
could feel the crackle of displaced bone under
1:09:51
my feet. Then
1:09:54
I got close to it once more and
1:09:57
whispered. Do
1:10:01
you see me now? Because
1:10:03
you certainly could not be bothered
1:10:06
on the bus when you crushed
1:10:08
my foot. I
1:10:13
don't know if it was a look of confusion, fear,
1:10:17
or shock, but
1:10:19
with it came his squealed response.
1:10:23
You mean you have me here because I stepped on
1:10:25
your foot? Wrong
1:10:29
answer. Without
1:10:32
thinking, I've washed the door. Oh,
1:10:34
of course that I can muster
1:10:36
into its code. Disregard
1:10:41
brother's nictions me. Everything about
1:10:43
you nictions me. You
1:10:47
literate, walk over people while
1:10:49
you live your life like an intelligent,
1:10:51
luscious pig. If
1:10:57
it is what I said and
1:10:59
I plunged my dagger over and
1:11:01
over into his door, until
1:11:05
the last time when I pressed
1:11:07
it upward and twisted, knowing this
1:11:09
would be the final blow. The
1:11:14
kitchen blade, inched deeper into
1:11:16
what I imagined to be
1:11:18
his spleen, maybe
1:11:21
his liver. I
1:11:24
never studied anatomy, but I know the
1:11:26
dull-bladed pierced salt under this building. I
1:11:31
could almost feel the organ
1:11:33
burst as I dug deeper and
1:11:35
deeper, which bring in his ear.
1:11:41
Do you... Do you see me now? As
1:11:50
the warm blood coated my hand,
1:11:53
I realized this would be
1:11:55
my glorious reincarnation. His
1:12:00
life was being extinguished. Mine
1:12:03
was replenished. When
1:12:08
it became apparent that his light had
1:12:10
been snuffed out, I
1:12:12
noticed his eyes remained open. I
1:12:17
kneeled over him one more time and whispered,
1:12:26
This sent me into a fit of
1:12:28
uncontrollable laughter and the irony of it.
1:12:32
I repeated it over and over
1:12:34
again, reminiscing of
1:12:36
the Jack Nicholson Joker. The
1:12:48
blankness of his stare is what
1:12:50
inspired what the media would refer
1:12:52
to as my calling card. I
1:12:56
decided I needed to take something a hiss
1:12:58
that would remind me of our insubmit moment.
1:13:03
What a better token to take with me than an eye
1:13:05
or two to force them to look
1:13:08
upon me whenever I wanted. I
1:13:12
quickly began formulating hypotheses
1:13:14
as how best to remove them. It's
1:13:17
not like I had planned this ahead of time
1:13:19
and it's not like I could go on YouTube
1:13:22
to look up the best ways to extract someone's
1:13:24
eyeballs. I
1:13:27
first tried to catalog a list
1:13:29
of tools that would probably be the best
1:13:31
to use. A
1:13:34
knife, especially the dull one I had,
1:13:36
would be too clumsy. I
1:13:40
immediately thought a melon baller would most likely
1:13:42
yield the results I was looking for.
1:13:46
So, Lord, the chances that a slob's
1:13:48
just stevie-blowed as someone's refined as a
1:13:50
melon baller. I
1:13:54
began rifling through his drawers to find
1:13:56
something that I could use. It
1:13:58
became of empty. I
1:14:01
resigned myself to the fact that I would
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have to use the don't Live that I
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had used To justice. As
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took a deep breath. And
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realized that I was nervous.
1:14:15
Not from the impending act
1:14:17
itself. More out
1:14:19
of fear of damaging the goods too much.
1:14:23
I used for years. Over his right,
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I'll this far sexist. A
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chance to certify nice Underwood
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I believed to be the
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bottom. Of
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your pictures and off last
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name is appears to it's
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cloudy flood stories from his
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lower eyelid. A
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real just as a nice
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going lower it's deeper into
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the sockets. Had lifted my
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math up. Pierce the I
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can. Say
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every. Amount
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of surgeons and this does not have
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to be done such. I
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would cut around the our tell out of
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phone. Dot
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way I could see our best to remove
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so that. Shift
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is over here the thirties. still
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hot dates in the near future.
1:15:26
He has any they didn't come with a price
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tag and a pair. Of
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that's what I it. I
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have to wait his flesh until
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casings turn to read me and
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until red meat or do blood
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test. Though. I
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was reminded of Movies Keepers Creepers,
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How that fargo? Oh
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yes. Keepers prefers. Where
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is it is? So
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see first, see first.
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Rio has given I was home amazon
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during the whole extraction. Mans
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I have your eye
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on the part, that
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and virtually those artists.
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Is short I was a full
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size despite the forces of my
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to. Say.
1:16:20
Our the prettiest of my trophies
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for they were my first as
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slay a five year old sure
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to fade into their prayers. Elders
1:16:28
Iso files a nerve and stairs
1:16:30
his admiration as the work I
1:16:33
had done at I. I
1:16:38
suspect that would have smoked a cigarette at that moment if
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I had a. Soldier.
1:16:45
Easily Evil series of. Soup
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to nuts advantages house for just under two
1:16:51
hours and it was damn near what I
1:16:53
hear when I felt great easily. I
1:16:57
worry about forensic evidence for
1:16:59
sale of new system. Thousand
1:17:01
visitors a ghost. He
1:17:03
goes to the please find evidence. As
1:17:07
I got ready to walk out the
1:17:09
door another brilliant saw a flash mob
1:17:11
race. And
1:17:14
you want people to thanks to
1:17:16
some thoughtless. People
1:17:19
with you know the reasons I'm picky. Had
1:17:21
to go to market so I left a
1:17:24
little quiz. This
1:17:26
would of course become another one
1:17:29
where signatures. I
1:17:32
recall two fingers into the
1:17:34
Socket Software Stevie place I
1:17:36
was called home. His
1:17:40
dog until I had less pay homage
1:17:42
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1:17:46
you see me now? on
1:17:50
the wall behind his lifeless
1:17:52
or was nice i was
1:17:54
my fingers on the tattered
1:17:57
remains of his slave and
1:17:59
laugh once more as I look back
1:18:01
at my work with pride. I
1:18:06
close the front door behind me and walk
1:18:08
home, whistling
1:18:10
Jeepers, creepers low away. Well,
1:18:21
that was how it all began. I
1:18:24
went home that night and slept
1:18:26
like a fucking baby. I
1:18:30
had never felt so free. My
1:18:33
experience with Stevie Boy had given
1:18:35
me such a high that inevitably
1:18:39
there came the crash. And
1:18:42
like any addict, I sought
1:18:44
to recreate the feelings of that first hit.
1:18:48
I wasn't sure what the news would
1:18:50
say about what had transpired between Stevie
1:18:53
Boy and myself. But
1:18:55
much to my chagrin, it took four
1:18:57
days before my artwork had been discovered.
1:19:02
I guess Stevie Boy was more
1:19:04
of a loser than I thought. According
1:19:08
to the news report, it had been a
1:19:10
wellness check after Stevie Boy had not shown
1:19:12
up to work. The
1:19:15
reporters immediately branded me a sociopath.
1:19:18
One reporter had a psychologist on
1:19:21
his show analyzing me. For
1:19:24
the heck. He
1:19:26
said that I was most likely a 30
1:19:29
to 35-year-old impotent
1:19:31
male. Even
1:19:33
when I want to say something about incest. How
1:19:38
could this guy misread me
1:19:40
to this extent? It
1:19:43
was clear he couldn't see me. You
1:19:47
know what? He
1:19:49
couldn't see me at all. But
1:19:53
I promise you, at
1:19:55
the end he did. He
1:19:59
all did. In the end, I
1:20:03
hope that after our
1:20:06
time together, that you
1:20:10
see me. Our
1:20:57
campfire is growing dim. And
1:21:00
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1:21:03
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1:21:05
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1:21:09
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1:21:11
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