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You are only remembering the last
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time you remembered. And what
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this really means is that our memories
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are incredibly susceptible
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to alterations. Welcome
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to the one you feed throughout
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time. Great thinkers have recognized the
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importance of the thoughts we have, quotes
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like garbage in, garbage out,
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or you are what you think, ring
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true, and yet for many of
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us, our thoughts don't strengthen or empower
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us. We tend toward negativity, self
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pity, jealousy, or fear.
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We see what we don't have instead of what we
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do. We think things that hold us
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back and dampen our spirit. But
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it's not just about thinking. Our
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actions matter. It takes conscious,
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consistent, and creative effort to make
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a life worth living. This podcast
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is about how other people keep themselves moving
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in the right direction, how they feed
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their good wolf. Thanks
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for joining us on this episode. We
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have Ella Francis Sanders and
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internationally best selling author
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and illustrator of three books. Her
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third book, which Ella and Eric discussed
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today, is Eating the Sun, Small
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Musings on a Vast Universe. It
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was the recipient of the two thousand nineteen
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Whirling Prize for Prose and has been
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translated into many languages. Hi,
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Ella, welcome to the show. Hi thank
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you for having me. I am really happy
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to have you on. We are going to discuss,
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among other things, your latest book called
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Eating the Sun, small musings
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on a vast universe. But before
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we do that, we'll start, like we always do, with the parable.
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There is a grandfather who's talking
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with his grandson. He says, in life, there are
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two wolves side of us that are always
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at battle. What is a good wolf, which
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represents things like kindness and bravery
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and love, and the other is a bad
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wolf, which represents things like greed
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and hatred and fear. And the grandson
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stops and he thinks about it for a second, and he looks up
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at his grandpa says, well, grandfather, which
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one wins? And the grandfather
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says, the one you feed. So
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I'd like to start off by asking you what that parable
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means to you in your life and in the work
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that you do. So I
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think about this like a
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type of conversation, a
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very ongoing conversation, And this would
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be a conversation between me and
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these wolves,
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and it would be the kind of conversation
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that you can't pick up
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exactly where you left it, and
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this then extends into feeling like the
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wolves have moved from where you lost
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saw them or heard them,
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and they've gone off to con room something
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without you. So in
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my little image of this, I go and I
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find the walls, and I have to sit them down and
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explain them that I need to do things today
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and tell them what those things are. So
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that's kind of what it played out as a little
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scene in my head. And then in
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terms of work and life,
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I think that feeding
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of the wolves
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um is choosing.
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I think about it as choosing possibility
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over panic, because
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for me, the kind of largest
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parts of those two walls are probably fear
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and anxiety, a kind of flight
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response to a lot of triggers. And
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then the antithesis of that
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this good wolf would be. I found
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it very difficult to think about the right words for it, but
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it's sort of like an awareness
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or a belief in my kind of human
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weight and human substance,
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and I guess the ability to find myself
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convincing sort of I'm convincing to myself
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in a myriad of ways. I
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love that the two things you said there that were
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great is that the wolves don't stay put. I
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think that is absolutely true. If they stayed
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where we left them, it would be easier. But
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they're always moving and changing, just like
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we are. And then I love that sort
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of comparing possibility versus
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panic. Those are good flip sides
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because they both reflect uncertainty.
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They both reflect like, well, I don't quite know
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what's going to happen, and so one way
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to interpret I don't know what's going to happen is oh
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bad, bad bad. The other is, oh
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wow, look at that I didn't expect,
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you know, like something came out that I didn't expect.
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Those are a good balance, and I think a lot of us
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are in these times. In particular,
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I think that the
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panic one is getting a lot of attention.
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We're very focused on the
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narrative right now is these are very difficult
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times. These are very hard times. These
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are child lenging times like we've never had
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before. You know, there's a lot of that
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narrative. I hear it everywhere I turn.
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There's very little of the other
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narrative this as well. But there's
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possibility in chaos,
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there's possibility in change, There's
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possibility and upheaval, And
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I'd love to hear a little bit more of that
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sort of conversation. And part of the reason I wanted
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to talk to you was that
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I felt like your book is a really
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nice balm for
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this very small minded
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focus on only human
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affairs and only the human affairs
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that are occurring like right now.
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Whereas you know, one of the ways I think
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to move from panic to possibility,
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to use your phrase in general, is to broaden
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out our perspective. And one of
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the best ways I know to broaden my perspective
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is science. Science is an
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extraordinarily perspective
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broadening thing. Right You start talking about
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billions of galaxies and all
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that stuff, and you're like, WHOA, hang on, I'm part
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of something really big here. And so
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that was part of what I really wanted to explore with
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this book, was a conversation about some of
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these bigger, more timeless things
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that can bring about a sense of wonder
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and awe and wonder
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and awe also, to use your words
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again, lead us back to possibility. That's
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a lot to go on. It does overlap
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hugely and alarming lye the
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panic side with what
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is going on globally, and
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what's going on globally and really every
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corner that you want to look in on every
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stone that you're going to turn over. And
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I think it's in part sort of
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I mean, fearmongering is maybe a strong
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word, but news
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excites the kind of human
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response in often a very
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negative way. And
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I was reading an article yesterday
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somebody had sent me, and it
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was talking about Norwegians living
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in the north of Norway and
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how they think about
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their extreme winters,
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you know, freezing temperatures, maybe
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three hours of barely their daylight, and
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you know, the way we kind of think about the winter
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is, oh, no, it's coming. What
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are we going to do? Will we be warm
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enough? Will we be able to do the things we know
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enjoy? And they're not worried about it.
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They look forward to the aspects
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of it that are going to be more challenging. They
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think, oh, we can go skiing
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in the dark, and we can go outside and
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look at the stars every morning. And
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that kind of got me yesterday actually, because without
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realizing the last five
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six months, you lose track.
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At this point, I have myself
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been feeding the panic
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more even though we're
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not moving around as much, even though we're not
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engaging with as many people or
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as any things and
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in fact, maybe it is the staying in one place
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part that gives it is that it's
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it's almost when you're in one place that wolf has
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you in its sites. You
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know, it can see you all the time, it knows where
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you are. You're moving in smaller circles,
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and it is really hard for people
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to think and feel outside
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of what feel like very
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monumental and terrible
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things and those are happening
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to them personally maybe or the happening to people
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that they know, or they can see
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them, watch them read about them happening. So
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absolutely with this book, I mean it was written
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before much of what is
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going on was even a flicker
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on the horizon. But it
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was about making people feel
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small in good ways,
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in ways that maybe
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push the ego down a little bit, or
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yeah, slow them down, because unless
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you are moving slowly
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and relatively gently, you just can't
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notice a lot of what's good. I
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think, yeah, that is a very
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true statement. Unless you're moving slowly,
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you can't notice a lot of what's good. Absolutely,
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So speaking of moving slowly,
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that's a great transition. We're going to talk about
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things that move very slow, but they
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move, which are plants. Your
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book is called eating the Sun.
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That's the title and obviously comes
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from the fact that everything
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we eat is partially
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made from the Sun's energy. So let's
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let's just talk a little bit about plants. What
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are some of the things in your book that you wrote
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about plants that you find most fascinating. Yes,
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so the title eating the Son
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is also the title of one of the earlier
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chapters. And I
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think I write at the end of this short essay
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that I think I say something like,
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it's astonishing to think that
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we've been solo
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powered, solar powered
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since the beginning of anything
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at all. It's all solar
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powered, and now
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talking about solar power seems maybe
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less than the last five to ten years, but it's a
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new shiny possibility
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for greener living. And
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I thought writing this thing, no,
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no, no, it's ancient.
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Yes, and we forget because we've
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got a lot of things that we are
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only here because we can eat the
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nutrients that plants
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produce. And so if you're eating
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plants, or if you're eating the animals
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that have eaten plants, all
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of it is sun because
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they use the light to photosynthesists,
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and nearly all plants do this. It
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seems kind of I'm going to
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lack the right word, but it seems kind
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of not rude or a
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bit inflated to presume
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that we're kind of here
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on of our own. It's not our
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own making. It is plants. So
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I could have written fifty one essays
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about plants, I'm sure, and I
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liked too. I didn't really explore this in the
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essay, but for me, I've thought it
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quite maybe poetic because not I
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don't know, too strong, not too strong, but this
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idea that every time we're eating
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something or picking something, it's like
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a story that's been ended. I
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think I used the phrase stories cut short, because
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all these things growing our stories, and
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they would be part of other stories were we not
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to, you know, harvest them,
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eat them, kill them. Whatever it
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is. Yeah, plants are astounding.
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You've got a phrase in the book that I love, which is
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we humans are incredibly shortsighted
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compared to plants, which is great.
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I mean, certain plants certainly
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outlive us, they're around a long
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time. And the other
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thing that's an emerging field, or maybe
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it's maybe it's not emerging, but I'm hearing a lot
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more about it is plant neurobiology,
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right, and and sotis in that
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field have have sort of found out that plants
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possess characteristics like memory
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and learning and problem solving, these
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really remarkable things that
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we just don't attribute that level of
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intelligence is perhaps not the
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right word, but will use it for for
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common purposes. But what are some of the
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things that you found out that plants could do that sort
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of stoked your sense of wonder? So
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I think you're right. It's important to
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distinguish between intelligence
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and consciousness, and scientists,
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of course don't use those two things interchangeably,
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but plants do possess types
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of intelligence. As a precursor
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to the things that I'll mention about plants,
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I think it's important to remember that
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humans and plants work at very
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different speeds. For us, you
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know, signals from our
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brain to our hand happen incredibly
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quickly. Signals within the brain
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fire fractions of the second for
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something a tree, they happen
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at something like, I don't know, a fraction
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of an inch in terms of
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this travel so very
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sluggish compared to our modes
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of these signals. And
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I think that's important to remember because it
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puts the plant intelligence
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in a in a kind of context. And
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then the other thing is that if you go under
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the soil, you have micro rhizal
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fungi, and these are everywhere,
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everywhere, everywhere, and they have a
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symbiotic relationship with plants in
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that the plant can't survive
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without the fungi, and the fungi need
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the plants to survive because they don't
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have their own chlorophyll. So one
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of the more astonishing things
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about this micro rhizal fungi in the relationships
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that it allows plants to have, is
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that they can effectively communicate
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with each other. If you think about
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different types of tree in
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a forest, maybe one year
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an aspen is doing better than a
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pine, and it will effectively
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lend or give divert nutrients
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to these other trees. Trees
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that are ancient and intertwined
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have been known to die at the same time
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because they're so bound together. I
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think that sometimes giving
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plants sort of human characteristics can be
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unhelpful, but to a large
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extent, I think it is helpful
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to give things human characteristics when it's important
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that we can connect to them
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and care about them, because that's how we're going to
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keep them. Yeah, I agree. I think there's
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a tendency. People say, well, we shouldn't
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anthropomorphize things so much,
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right, give things human tendencies, which
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if we want to be strictly scientific
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in our understanding of other things, can get
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in the way. But to your point, if
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what we're trying to build as some sort of empathy
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with other things, if we're trying to build some
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sort of connection so that we care more about
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them, that's the way that we tend to
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do it. So I don't think it's bad in that
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sense. And yeah, plants are
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sort of amazing. I read a book. I
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want to read it again because I do not retain
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facts. We're going to talk about memory here in a little
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bit. Things just sort of come in and out of my head.
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But it was called The Secret Life of Trees. And
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it's astounding. I mean, like trees
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are communicating with each other, they are
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sending signals via the roots systems
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warning of predators doing different.
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I mean, it's really remarkable in
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the way that they are connected and
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that they are together. You have a lovely
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line in the book talking about how
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plants and trees share
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food and help nourish their competitors,
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and you say, apparently for no other reason
15:46
than that. Living becomes much easier
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when you're helping others rather than simply
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ensuring your own survival, which
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is obviously a beautiful idea that pertains
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very much to our human realm of living.
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Becomes easier when helping others. And it
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really does appear that plants do
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this too, and that you know that a forest is
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a really useful place for a tree
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to be. They don't do as well when they're out
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on their own, no, and they
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do much better when they are in forests
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and ecosystems that are varied,
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that have variety. A lot of what we've
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done in our kind of
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modern agricultural
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and more generous word than the one I'm thinking
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of being encompassing of a
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lot of taking things down and ripping
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things out and leaching the
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soil of nutrients. A lot
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of what we've replaced natural,
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beautiful, well functioning ecosystems
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with will be trees
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of say, one species.
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It can't work in the same way. It needs
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the variety in order
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to stay healthy for what
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can be thousands of years, which is
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something that you can think about in the
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context of humans, and
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a lot of times in the book, what I'm saying
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something, and it seems to be a
17:05
comment about plants, or it seems to be a comment
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about planets, or it seems to be a
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comment about the use of language and science.
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What I'm trying to notdge
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read it into is thinking about
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themselves, and actually it will relate
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just as strongly to us. That's wonderful.
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And I think the thing that I haven't said
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yet that I meant to say earlier is
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we're discussing your books, and
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your writing is beautiful and poetic,
17:32
and yet that's only part of your books, because
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you're also an illustrator, and there are lovely illustrations
17:37
throughout the books that this
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medium podcasting simply doesn't allow
17:41
me to convey. So I
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think, in addition to the to the writing, I
17:46
just wanted to say the listeners like they're beautiful
17:48
books, you know, the way they're written, the way they're
17:50
drawn, and making it sound like it's just this collection
17:53
of science facts and that is not at all what
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it is. Thank you. That's very kind.
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The last thing I'll say about plants, and you
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sort of use this phrase earlier, but I really
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loved this sentence, and all of this
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leaves us entirely at the mercy of
18:33
vegetation. Without plants and
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what they do, there simply would be no life.
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It's interesting to reflect back
18:39
on that at one point the Earth was primarily
18:42
anything that lived lived on carbon dioxide.
18:45
You know, we did not have an atmosphere
18:47
of oxygen until we begin to
18:49
get plants, you know, until plants sort
18:51
of figured out evolution got to the
18:53
point where it could photosynthesize. That's
18:56
when really the entire complexion
18:58
of the planet changed. Or practically, Yeah,
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absolutely, there's a kind of audacity
19:04
I think that we walk
19:06
about with because we are at the mercy
19:08
of vegetation, and
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when you look at how we behave
19:14
in our modern loud
19:16
ways, it's remarkable and horrifying
19:20
and sometimes amusing.
19:23
You have to laugh. I say this at
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the beginning of the book, and it
19:28
may have come up later, but I it seems
19:30
like a good time to mention. It
19:32
is the sheer, ridiculous
19:36
nous of a lot of
19:38
what is happening and has happened and
19:40
has been able to happen. And I talk about
19:43
it in the context of I think scale
19:46
and being so absurdly
19:49
small as a person
19:51
compared to these huge,
19:54
unfathomable abstract
19:58
sizes and laws.
20:01
But it's so ridiculous that
20:03
sometimes the only two plausible
20:06
reactions I feel either to kind
20:09
of sob hysterically
20:12
or laugh. Sometimes
20:14
you just have to to laugh,
20:17
because a lot of
20:19
what we experience is absurd, and we
20:21
walk around thinking this
20:23
is normal, that is normal. Of course,
20:26
we go up forty seven floors to the office,
20:28
but it's just bizarre.
20:31
A lot of it. You can put on these sort of bizarre
20:33
glasses and then everything is usually entertaining.
20:36
Yes, yes, And that's back to that idea
20:39
of perspective that one of the things science
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gives us is this astounding perspective.
20:44
In your book has lots of that
20:46
perspective, and I always think perspective
20:48
is interesting because on one hand, when we look
20:51
at things intergalactically
20:54
and time wise, we are the
20:56
tiniest fraction
20:58
of in anything, and
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then if we go the other direction, we
21:03
start zooming in compared to an
21:05
atom, we are huge, we
21:07
are massive, we are monstrous. It's
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it's so interesting that I can go either
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way with that either direction on
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that scale and have a very
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different perspective of what I
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am. Yeah, absolutely,
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And you know, I don't know to
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what extent. I've achieved this with the book,
21:26
but it's really hard for
21:28
most people to make
21:31
sense of these kinds of scales.
21:34
The numbers are unthinkably
21:38
huge, and you can give
21:40
things adjectives or diagrams
21:43
or long, science
21:46
heavy explanations, but a lot of the
21:48
time and you can understand
21:50
it on an intellectual level,
21:52
or believed you've understood these things on intellectual
21:55
level, but your body doesn't
21:57
really understand them at all, right,
22:00
nor is it designed to write. I've done
22:02
a lot of reading and studying unconsciousness,
22:05
and the consensus is sort of the way
22:07
that we view the world is
22:10
not in any way, shape or form the way the world
22:13
is. The way we view the world
22:15
is the way that our species
22:18
has constructed the world to make it most
22:20
likely that we survive in it.
22:23
So what we're actually seeing out there,
22:25
and what we're able to picture and imagine
22:27
and all that is not a necessarily
22:29
a very accurate picture of reality.
22:32
It is a entirely constructed
22:35
view that serves a certain
22:37
purpose, and that purpose is to
22:40
make us survive, which is
22:42
lovely and I'm glad it has happened
22:44
that way. And yet we get
22:46
really lost in thinking that
22:48
what we see is reality. I've I've got
22:50
this program I call Spiritual Habits
22:53
program, and one of the principles is we
22:55
don't see the world as it is. We see it as we
22:57
are, and we have so many different
22:59
filters on that we see the world
23:01
through. I find science and some of the facts
23:04
and the sort of things you do in that book really
23:06
good ways of illustrating like we're
23:08
not seeing reality. Like right now, I
23:11
don't know the exact numbers, but we are spinning
23:13
at a crazy fast rate. We
23:15
are hurtling through space at
23:18
an insane rate, and our entire solar
23:20
system is gravitating around.
23:22
We are in motion at breathtaking
23:24
speeds, and yet it seems like we are
23:27
just sitting here still. You and I am
23:29
in a conversation. Nothing's moving. Well,
23:31
I think the Earth rotates at something like
23:34
I think it's over a thousand males pera
23:37
in terms of rotation. I'm
23:39
full of numbers, so
23:41
I could have that wrong, but I believe
23:44
that we are our spinning.
23:46
It is alarming. And if
23:48
you sit and you try to think about that number,
23:52
you can't put those two things together.
23:54
Because you're right, We're still aren't
23:56
we We're not moving right,
23:58
you know, you maybe and think about how
24:00
fast a car drives or how fast
24:03
an airplane flies, And
24:06
it's just I think it's the
24:08
thing of recognizing within
24:10
the body something to be true or not.
24:13
I liked what you said about filters and
24:16
about kind of being
24:18
covered in them, partly because it would make for a
24:20
very interesting illustration to have someone
24:22
covered in all manner of filters. But you
24:25
don't notice when they maybe arrive,
24:28
and you don't notice because
24:30
the change can be quite subtle. You don't
24:32
notice how you're
24:35
thinking has been kind of shifted,
24:38
or why you're looking
24:40
at something in a different way.
24:43
And I think this bleeds
24:45
into quite nicely the question
24:48
of memory. You can kind of remember,
24:50
well, I thought about thing last
24:53
year in such a way, and now I think
24:55
about this thing in a different way this year. And I'm
24:57
not really quite sure how I got
24:59
there, but I did. So. I think
25:01
a lot of it is these little
25:04
kind of imperceptible journeys
25:06
or streets, because a lot of people do think
25:09
that they have things in hand, that
25:11
they know what's going to happen
25:13
next week, and I find that incredible.
25:16
I'm also weird because
25:19
you have no idea science
25:22
works in terms of laws,
25:24
and laws are the kind of what
25:27
if you like, So there are things
25:29
that we know happen so
25:32
that we can observe happening, and
25:34
then things like scientific theory give
25:37
you the why they happen. So
25:41
laws as we know them,
25:43
those things have been true since
25:45
the Big Bang. You know they
25:48
will. It's like sort of inertia
25:51
and science. You know that the idea that things will
25:53
keep moving unless they're given a reason to stop.
25:56
Everything that has ever happened
25:58
and that will ever happen. He's
26:00
a result of these laws that have been
26:03
around since the Big Bang, since
26:05
the beginning of anything. So it's
26:07
almost like they're in control.
26:11
You wouldn't want to call it fate, or you wouldn't want to
26:13
call it destiny or something like that. I don't really
26:15
like those ideas, but these
26:17
laws do decide
26:19
in a weird way because they've always been
26:21
there and we're kind of just milling
26:24
around down here thinking
26:26
that we know what we're going to have for lunch.
26:29
Right. There's a line that you use in
26:31
the section on the self, which if we have
26:33
time, we will get to But you say,
26:35
though frustrating, we cannot ever choose
26:37
or control the aspects of life that
26:40
ultimately influence what we say, do
26:42
or think. And that is a
26:45
deeply profound sentence because
26:48
it points to that
26:51
we think that we act upon the world,
26:55
but the world largely acts upon
26:57
us. And it's back to that idea of we
26:59
don't see the world as it is, we see it as
27:01
we are. All those filters that we're talking
27:03
about, that it's impossible to not see the
27:05
world through. All those
27:07
filters are the result of
27:10
all the experiences that have occurred
27:13
in our lives, all the things we've
27:15
been exposed to, the ideas we've been exposed
27:17
to, the conversations we've had. This
27:20
is a rabbit hole I don't go down too
27:22
often, which is the one about
27:24
free will. Right. I don't often go
27:26
down this rabbit hole because I don't find it a very useful
27:28
rabbit hole. But I think it's safe to say
27:31
that there is both more and less
27:33
free will than we think there is in a lot
27:35
of cases, and that it
27:37
can be profoundly disconcerting.
27:40
As you say in that line, it's frustrating
27:43
that we can't choose or control the aspects
27:45
of life that ultimately influence us. Right,
27:48
Like we're being influenced by the world around us,
27:50
and we don't get to choose what arrives. We
27:52
just have to do our best to
27:55
respond to it in a way that
27:57
is as skillful as as we're able to
27:59
make. Image. Yes, absolutely,
28:02
and it goes without saying.
28:04
But of course we have choices.
28:07
Of course we can move
28:09
in the directions we want to move in, and
28:12
there are things about the world that can make that
28:14
harder or easier. And
28:17
you can practice, you know, noticing
28:20
where the hardness and softness comes
28:22
from and alternately back
28:25
away from it or move into it. And
28:27
I like chaos too. I'd
28:29
like to mention chaos because people
28:32
either find this alarming to
28:35
a huge degree or reassuring,
28:38
and maybe there are some options in between,
28:41
but in general it seems to fall to one
28:43
of these extremes. The universe
28:46
is. This is not my opinion,
28:48
This is just the facts. The
28:51
universe is moving slowly,
28:53
but surely, I mean very slowly, imperceptibly
28:56
slowly, towards a kind of
28:58
ultimate chaos. You
29:00
can't put things back, and
29:03
a good example of this, because people don't really
29:05
know what that means. A good example of this
29:07
is kind of a mess or things
29:10
falling apart. So you can
29:12
push a pile of books or
29:15
a pile of papers onto the floor.
29:17
They will fall on the floor, but they're
29:19
never going to fall back up. This might be
29:21
too abstract of an example,
29:25
but there is innate chaos
29:27
about everything that
29:29
we encounter and live through. And
29:32
so this is something that
29:34
I do find useful to remember from time
29:36
to time because things can feel
29:38
out of hand right now, especially
29:41
for people personally, and
29:43
then more broadly, and you can kind
29:45
of think about the chaos that we create and
29:47
the chaos that we move within, and you
29:49
think about the kind of road of chaos
29:52
that the universe is on. It can't compete.
30:43
I think a lot of people when
30:46
things don't stay orderly
30:48
in their lives, whether that be their house or
30:50
their habits, or their kids or any number
30:53
of different things, we take it as a personal
30:55
failing. But the reality is that is
30:57
the nature of things. Things move from
31:00
being ordered to disorder. That's the
31:02
that's the direction they go. And
31:04
so putting order on things takes
31:06
an enormous amount of energy and and so
31:09
we do it, but we're not failing
31:11
when that order falls apart, because inevitably
31:14
it does. It's sort of like you know, I'm a big
31:16
proponent. I work with people on coaching on
31:18
planning your day right, and so we plan
31:20
our days. We we do our best,
31:22
and yet disorder, chaos, whatever you
31:24
wanna call it, intrudes constantly. It's
31:26
not that we're failing. That's just the
31:29
way it is. And I find that a
31:31
comforting fact because then
31:33
it's like, well, that's the way things are.
31:36
It's not like I'm awful. The distribution
31:38
of chaos often seems woefully
31:41
unfair, and it is, but it's
31:43
still it's a law of nature. So
31:45
let's talk a little bit about memory. I guess
31:47
everything we're talking about, to a certain extent can
31:50
be somewhat disconcerted, and this one is
31:52
I'm going to rephrase that from disconcerting
31:54
to what we are working on doing
31:57
here is unsettling
32:00
certainty. So we're trying to shake
32:02
loose certainty. And so if
32:04
the world is not already doing it enough for you,
32:06
here we are helping out. But
32:10
an area we feel very certain of
32:13
is our past, our memories. We go
32:16
that happened, This happened to me, This happened
32:18
to me, This happened to me. We feel very certain about our
32:20
memories but perhaps
32:23
we shouldn't. Perhaps we shouldn't.
32:25
Indeed, I liked your reframing
32:28
certainty. That was
32:30
good. Yes, this
32:33
chapter or essay was
32:36
given the title you
32:38
are only remembering the
32:41
last time you remembered. And
32:43
what this really means is that our
32:46
memories are incredibly
32:49
susceptible to alterations.
32:52
So, and to mention filters
32:55
again, the memories that we have
32:58
of the past all filtered
33:01
through the present moment.
33:05
This is because what the brain is
33:07
trying to do is provide
33:09
us with information to
33:11
make the good and useful decisions
33:14
in the present. It's not
33:16
concerned about what did happen,
33:20
It's concerned about now and
33:22
where you're going to go from this now. So
33:24
we have countless
33:27
memories, you know, boxes
33:30
and boxes of nostalgia.
33:34
Everybody does, and it
33:37
can be disappointing to
33:40
learn. And I was a little
33:42
bit disappointed to learn this too, that
33:45
you know, it's not like for a long
33:47
time, people thought believed
33:50
scientists thought the memory was like going
33:53
into a library that
33:55
was always there and picking up a book
33:58
off a shelf, and these books
34:00
were there, and you could take the book off and
34:03
you could look at it, and then you could put it back
34:06
that is not the case at all. So
34:10
this, yes, this um,
34:12
It comes back to the title of the chapter. Really,
34:15
you're not remembering the
34:17
memory. And this is the worst
34:19
bit for some people. The memories
34:22
that you pulled onto
34:24
the most, that you treasure the most, and
34:26
this doesn't detract from the beauty of those
34:28
memories, but the memories you hold
34:30
onto the most and go back over and
34:32
over and over, those ones are
34:34
going to be changed the most. Right, So,
34:37
in essence, what's happening you're saying is every
34:39
time we remember something, it's like we pull
34:41
it out to look at it, but
34:44
we alter it by looking at it. By
34:46
looking at it, we alter it, and then when we put
34:48
it back on the shelf, we don't put it back the way
34:50
it was when we pull it off the shelf. We
34:53
put it back on the shelf with the subtle alterations
34:55
we've made to it. And the more
34:57
often we do that, you're saying, the
35:00
or often we pull the memory out, the more
35:02
we alter it, which is profoundly
35:05
disconcerting. Well, it's
35:07
the reason why people will believe
35:10
that they have or think that they have a memory of
35:12
something happening. And it can be very, very vivid,
35:15
very colorful memories are often
35:18
accompanied by kind
35:20
of senses, you know, colors
35:23
or sounds, and it
35:25
will be wrong. They will meet
35:27
someone else who was maybe part of that memory, and they'll
35:29
say, no, I remember this happening. That didn't
35:31
happen. You know, she wasn't there at all. And
35:34
you can have a handful of people, are
35:36
room full of people with the shared memory, and
35:39
nobody can agree on anything, right.
35:41
It's fascinating, And there's a lot
35:43
of science to back all this up that
35:45
shows that, you know, our memories just aren't
35:48
as accurate as we think. Now I have
35:50
solved this problem by simply not
35:52
remembering much of anything. So what
35:55
I after reading your book, I've no longer
35:57
I used to look at this as a flaw. I used
35:59
to think it was a problem. Now what I realize
36:02
is I am just minimizing the amount
36:04
of inaccuracy that I introduced
36:06
into my life. If I just don't remember,
36:09
I can't get it wrong. Do you buy that
36:11
theory a little bit? But only because
36:13
I also forget a
36:15
lot. The other thing to know is
36:18
that you only have a certain amount
36:20
of room for memories
36:23
and for information, but particularly memories,
36:25
and so well,
36:27
there are information if you know, you
36:30
have to make room, if new things are coming
36:32
up, you have to make rooms
36:34
somehow. And there are
36:37
people frustrating me who seem
36:39
to remember everything that ever happened to them
36:42
in great technical detail, incorrect
36:45
detail exactly. So
36:50
so yeah, forgetting, I
36:53
am one, And you know, stressful
36:55
situations have
36:57
an effect on memory as well
37:00
on forgetting. I found myself
37:02
struggling more to remember
37:04
things will retain information in
37:07
the last six months. It's my entire
37:10
childhood that's just doesn't exist for me,
37:12
just not there. There's lots of different
37:14
theories on that we are nearly out
37:16
of time, and I can't
37:18
decide which place I want to take this. So
37:21
I think where we're going to take it
37:23
is we've talked a lot about science and the different
37:25
things of science, and there
37:28
was something at the end of the book. I don't say this to
37:30
be a braggart, but it's not often that I read
37:32
a book that I'm like, oh, I didn't
37:35
know that at all, Like I had no idea that
37:37
thing is, you know, like I've just done so much
37:39
reading, I'm old, I'm all these different
37:41
things, But in your book, I had
37:43
no idea of this concept
37:46
of the half life of facts. And
37:48
one of the things that I have been bothered by
37:50
in life is that science.
37:53
I go, Okay, science is
37:56
factual, and science is
37:58
it's good to base our decision and our
38:00
ideas on facts and science.
38:02
And yet I've gone, but science
38:06
changes. We now know things that a
38:08
hundred years ago we thought were a fact that
38:10
we now go, that's preposterous, it's not. And
38:12
so I just have always been like, how
38:14
much of what we know is really true?
38:17
And it actually turns out that there is
38:19
some study of this, that there is some
38:21
predictability to the way that
38:24
facts change over time. So can you share
38:26
a little bit about that, because I found that utterly fascinating.
38:29
Yeah, I do talk about this right right
38:32
at the end of the book. This is the last last
38:34
piece. And it's the last piece
38:36
for a reason, of course, because
38:39
I've written about all of these things, given
38:42
all of these numbers, and you
38:44
know, a lot of it's wonderful,
38:47
but I want people to get to
38:49
the end and know that, in
38:51
this kind of bizarre and
38:54
beautiful way, some of it
38:56
or all of it eventually might
39:00
not be true. So, and what
39:02
you're talking about is something called
39:04
science ento metrics,
39:07
which is wonderfully
39:09
the science of science. There
39:11
is a science of science, which is if
39:14
anybody ever needed some
39:16
reassurance that scientists are knowing
39:18
what you know, they study themselves. Uh
39:22
so, yeah, that half life usually
39:24
in science, what one would think of is kind
39:27
of in terms of radioactivity and atoms
39:30
and things decaying. And you can move this
39:32
across to information
39:34
into fact. So they
39:37
call it the half life of facts,
39:39
and it means the amount of time
39:41
it takes for half
39:44
of the kind of informational knowledge to become
39:47
untrue. Essentially, and
39:49
in the case of I
39:51
think I give two examples. I
39:54
think one of them is medicine. And
39:56
in terms of medicine, this this half life
39:58
is about four to five years, which
40:00
means that roughly half of
40:03
what we currently believe to be true
40:05
in medicine, about half of that in
40:08
forty five years we will go that
40:11
wasn't quite right, Yes, but the other half
40:13
will will still be holding up. And of course
40:15
we don't know which half, which makes it challenging,
40:18
but it gives us a sense of how certain we
40:20
can be about the facts
40:22
that we have at our disposal. Relating to medicine.
40:25
Now, yes, and you think about what victorians
40:27
were doing in terms
40:29
of the medicine, and it's quite
40:31
staggering. It's good that some
40:33
of these facts are moving on, it's yeah.
40:38
And then something like mathematics,
40:41
that half life is much much longer.
40:44
Yeah, Like I said, I find that absolutely fascinating.
40:47
I'm curious what the half life of
40:50
poorly conducted psychological studies
40:52
on college students are because
40:54
so much of my world is psychological.
40:56
And you're like, oh, okay, I'm reporting this
40:59
fact of a suddy that was done on eight
41:01
college students, and you know, the
41:03
half life of that is much less because
41:05
in that world there's a reproducibility
41:08
crisis going on, right, we can't even reproduce
41:10
some of these studies over and over and over again. So
41:13
the half life must be staggeringly short
41:15
there, if it exists at all. But I
41:17
find it really interesting that such a
41:19
thing exists, because, like
41:21
I said, I love science and I love
41:24
knowing things out there, and then there's just always
41:26
this part of me that's going, well,
41:28
how serious should I take that? You know, how
41:31
much do we really know? Is there a
41:33
place to look up the half life
41:35
of different disciplines? I would be fascinated
41:37
to know. I don't know if one, and
41:39
I don't know whether there would be because
41:41
it's not something that is routinely
41:44
discussed, but yeah,
41:46
if you look, you may find yes,
41:49
what is the what is the half life of
41:51
diet information? Another
41:54
area that seems completely fraught
41:56
with like what what do I actually
41:58
do here? Okay, well, well, thank you
42:00
so much. You and I are going to continue in the post show
42:02
conversation. We're probably going to talk a little
42:05
bit about the nature of the self, one
42:07
of my favorite topics, but from a scientific
42:09
perspective, not my usual Buddhist perspective,
42:12
as well as we're gonna use You've got another
42:15
lovely book called Lost in Translation,
42:17
which are words from other languages
42:20
that describe very common things
42:22
in our world, and so we might
42:24
we might talk about a couple of those, one of which
42:26
is I don't know if I'm gonna pronounce it right j s.
42:29
This refers to a joke so terrible and
42:31
unfunny that you cannot help but laugh, of
42:34
which I have told plenty of in my life. I'll
42:36
tell one right now. I'll give an example. What
42:39
did the fish say when you swam into the cement wall?
42:42
Damn that falls firmly
42:44
into that that fits. It
42:47
does, okay, you and I will continue in the post
42:49
show conversation listeners if you'd like access
42:51
to that, as well as an episode I do
42:53
weekly call the teaching a song and a poem
42:56
and an occasional joke. That's not a selling
42:58
point, I know after what I just said, you
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43:07
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43:09
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43:11
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43:13
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43:16
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