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wow. No, I was trying to find a good, think of

0:56

a good love song. What's

0:58

a good love song? I don't know. Oh, I know,

1:01

I know the song I want to sing. I just can't remember how it goes.

1:04

Okay. Oh wait. I guess I

1:06

adore praise. No, sorry, can I Google it? I'm going to wait for the

1:08

praise for it to come. Do you know

1:11

what? I used to be quite shy of my

1:13

praise kink, and I'm not anymore. What? As

1:15

in you love compliments? It's not a

1:17

compliment thing. It's more a praise thing.

1:21

Be like, you did so well on that.

1:25

And also, it's also off the lead by something I've

1:27

done. Rather than just the, oh

1:29

you look funny, I love a compliment, you look asthma,

1:32

whatever. You did so well

1:34

on dot dot dot. You

1:36

made me feel really good on dot. Praise

1:38

me. I like to praise

1:40

you like I should. I

1:43

found the song. My

1:46

love, there's

1:48

only you in my life.

1:51

The only thing that's

1:54

right. My best

1:56

love. Your every

1:58

breath. That's my love song to you. As you can

2:01

tell, we are in the best of moods. We are in a loving mood. We

2:04

feel proud. We feel proud. Welcome to episode

2:06

200. We made it. Again, Fanny, and you know

2:08

it. Take it out the back of the show. Wait, I did not believe you'd

2:10

be coming. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm

2:13

sorry. I'm sorry. I'm

2:15

sorry. I'm sorry. I'm

2:17

sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

2:19

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm

2:22

sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm

2:25

sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

2:27

I'm sorry. I did not believe you'd be

2:30

coming. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

2:32

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm

2:34

sorry. That is a, that is a banger. Oh my

2:36

God. That is a good song. That is a

2:38

good song. That was the

2:40

last era when we actually danced. I'm so happy.

2:43

That's the club we go to after this episode. I'm

2:45

going to, I'm going to dance like David does.

2:48

I'm going to dance like David does.

2:50

Audrey, I want to dedicate something

2:52

to you. First and foremost, thank you. Thank you

2:54

for your sisterhood. Thank you for your dedication to

2:56

this thing. And thank you in all of the

2:59

200 episodes, many things. Many things are changed. But

3:01

us too stayed consistent. We've

3:05

never missed an episode

3:07

consistently doing this together.

3:10

Thank you again for your dedication to this thing.

3:13

For like, there is no receipts

3:15

without you Audrey. There's no receipts without

3:17

your bias, about your laughter, about your

3:20

jokes. You make it everything it is

3:22

and so much more. And honestly, I

3:24

say this in the pop of my heart. I

3:26

would imagine, in

3:28

fact, this came to test. I could

3:30

never do this with any video. Yes. But

3:33

you. So thank you for loving

3:36

our baby as much as

3:38

I love our baby. Thank you for

3:40

raising her. We raise her. We raise

3:42

her well. You raised me 100 times.

3:45

We raise her so well. And

3:47

like she's gone through so much, many

3:49

mistakes. People come in and out of

3:51

her life. She's learnt so much. She's

3:54

grown. She's had down

3:56

times, big times and through it

3:58

all. Stay consistent. The

4:00

St. Perron, he loved her equally

4:03

and deeply. So Miss

4:05

Audrey Indome, sorry,

4:07

Mrs. Indome. You know, but

4:10

it's interchangeable for me. Whatever comes first, I'm not, I'm

4:12

not precious about that sort of thing. I know you

4:14

don't say that. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. That's why. Yeah.

4:17

Thank you, thank you, thank you. No, honestly,

4:19

it has been nothing short of a pleasure.

4:21

Like literally. Even when it wasn't. Even

4:24

when it hasn't been, it's still like, even when

4:26

it's been hard, it's been tough.

4:28

Like I've had this woman right

4:30

here. Like I wasn't joking when I said that

4:32

like, the opportunities that I've had

4:34

and the things that I've had are because you

4:36

had this idea. Receipts

4:39

was Tony's idea, period. Let's just call it what

4:41

it is. You know, you put the idea out

4:43

there, it manifested. I came

4:45

along with it. And we've been doing

4:47

this 200 episodes deep. And

4:51

honestly, I couldn't think, I couldn't imagine not doing

4:53

it. It honestly. I couldn't imagine

4:55

you not being here. And not to do

4:58

that, O'Horn. But we did that. I'm sure

5:00

you are. We did that. We did that.

5:02

We did this shit. 200 hours of talking.

5:05

O'Horn. O'Horn. O'Horn,

5:07

like consistency showing up every single

5:09

week. Like the motivation that

5:12

you've given me sometimes when I felt a

5:14

little bit, nah. Or not in the mood. And

5:16

you just always powering through to be like, no,

5:18

there's a bigger thing. Like we thought all of

5:20

this, this was gonna be a hobby for me,

5:22

by the way. Whatever camera I'm looking into. I

5:25

was like, you know, I had my job and I was doing

5:27

this and Tolly was the one that quit her job first,

5:29

you know. Tolly was the one that had

5:32

the vision that was like, this can actually be

5:34

something. And now here I am in such a

5:36

privileged position, able to do something that I love

5:39

because of you. And it's because of you, baby.

5:41

Because of us. Because of us. Well, I'm so

5:43

grateful. To our listeners. The

5:46

most important. My, my, my. The

5:49

thing is, I say this and I don't say it

5:51

lightly, but I also don't want you to use it

5:53

against me. Because the thing about people

5:55

is, they'll be the best to tell you all. If it

5:57

wasn't for us, they wouldn't see who they are. for

6:00

us, they couldn't be their kids. That's

6:03

not correct. But thank you. Yeah,

6:05

like thank you so so much. Thank

6:07

you for letting us entertain you. Thank

6:09

you. If you many of you email

6:11

up, I've been here since day one.

6:13

I've been here from SoundCloud. I've been

6:16

here for when you were four, when

6:18

you were three, when you were two,

6:20

I have been here all of those

6:22

times and truly thank you so so

6:24

much for your dedication for your love

6:26

for your time. Yeah, let us keep

6:28

you company for listening for tuning in.

6:30

But turn up to live shows, follow

6:32

us on Instagram, which is everything that

6:34

you do to make this podcast what it

6:37

is. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. I

6:39

pray that you find the favor and the

6:41

grace you allow us in your life. I

6:43

pray that all that you do also tends

6:45

to gold. And also, co

6:48

host past, Melena and Phoebe.

6:50

Thank you. Thank you. So no

6:52

200 episodes that YouTube YouTube made

6:54

a big standpoint to what it

6:56

is today, but it wasn't the

6:58

past or what it is today.

7:00

So thank you for your time

7:02

for your contribution,

7:04

everything for being vulnerable in

7:06

this place for sharing this space. You have

7:09

both made this what it is. You have

7:11

both spoke with your heart. And so thank

7:13

you. Thank you. Thank you. This is to

7:15

you guys. This is to us. This is

7:19

the listener. This is to the receipt as

7:21

a whole package is to what it is,

7:23

what it was, what it is and what

7:26

it's gonna be. Cheers.

7:32

We're here. So we're gonna get a little bit

7:34

young today. Oh, wait, wait, wait, sorry.

7:36

Oh my god. Oh my god.

7:39

Oh my god. Oh my

7:41

god. Oh my god. Announcement.

7:45

Announcement. Announcement. A soft launch

7:47

per se. So as

7:50

you know us here, we're girl girls.

7:53

We love a girl. I mean, we love a man. We

7:55

love a man. Nobody

8:00

soundbite this year. Okay, this

8:03

is internal use only. You

8:06

know, on the bottom of the form, it says internal use

8:08

only. Literally. We love a

8:10

girl, we love a man. We

8:13

really want to say thank you to you guys for all that

8:15

you've done. So, as you know, you've got a live show made

8:17

of 31st. For anybody who's bought a

8:20

gig for the live show, it's going to be a

8:22

gig for the live show. You're going to be entered

8:24

into a palette. Is it a palette? A palette. A

8:26

palette. We are going to pick a

8:28

number of you to go out for

8:30

dinner with us. On us. Dinner

8:32

with us and on us. On us. We're going to pick

8:34

up the bill, honey. We're going to pick up the bill. All

8:36

you need to do is find a nice

8:38

outfit. Look cute, show

8:40

up, and we are going to

8:42

do dinner with the girls live

8:45

and direct. Absolutely. Like

8:47

all you said, it is on us. But please

8:49

don't come and eat like a thief. Yeah,

8:51

I mean. I'd be so happy to see you. We're picking

8:53

up the tab, but I'm not. I'm not going to say.

8:55

Don't come and eat like a thief. So

9:00

yeah, we're very excited to announce that. So if you haven't

9:02

got to pick it yet, please do to have a chance

9:04

at this. And if you have, you know,

9:06

and hopefully it's the first of many. Yeah, we

9:08

want to make it a thing. A big thing

9:10

for me this year is the community of the

9:13

Receipts podcast. I'm going to go into the next

9:15

decade of it, in numbers, I guess. Yeah. It's

9:18

the community of the Receipts podcast doing things with you guys

9:20

because it's like, it's a sisterhood that we're

9:22

very proud to have built. And

9:24

one that we want to keep. So yeah.

9:27

And also, we

9:30

are leaving London. We're leaving London.

9:33

We're going out. No,

9:35

relax. We're going to

9:37

start doing shows. We're doing four shows at the London. It's

9:40

been a very long time. Exactly. It's been

9:42

a minute. We're going to show outside. But we are

9:44

coming for you. We are coming for

9:46

you. We are coming for you.

9:49

We are coming for you. We are coming

9:52

for you. So yeah, we're very, very

9:54

excited for that. Keep up to date with us. More details

9:56

for the follow. And we would love to do what internationally.

9:58

And we see you. We see you. It's like, when

10:00

are you going to come to New York? I will come to Jay.

10:02

Yeah. What you guys have to help me do is get a

10:05

visa. If anybody works for

10:07

the visa, the American Embassy, So we can

10:09

work legally. Yeah, then hook us up. You

10:11

know, fast track our application so that we

10:13

can go there because we really, really want to do that. Like,

10:16

I think, you know, you do need to go see

10:18

our international listeners. It's been a minute. And

10:20

we love you guys. Love you guys. Thank you.

10:22

Thank you. Thank you. Honestly, you guys are the best.

10:24

Those are the announcements. Oh, there's one other person we've got to

10:26

thank. Oh my God! Oh! Brent.

10:29

He's like, okay, let me call you to

10:32

the history about Brent. Please do. We've actually been

10:34

writing with Brent for a long time. A very long

10:36

time. This year, we'll be doing the podcast for eight

10:38

years. Sorry, I need to lament on that for a

10:40

little bit because eight years is no

10:43

joke. Eight years of talking, weekly

10:45

episodes. Tolly and I have never,

10:47

ever missed an episode. Oh, we've been

10:49

sick. We've been sick. We've gone

10:51

through family issues. We've gone through sick.

10:54

We've gone through so much stuff.

10:56

Separations, baby, all sorts. And

10:58

we've shown up. We've never, ever missed an

11:01

episode. But alongside us has been Brent.

11:04

Brent, we met you, I want to say how many

11:06

years now? Eight years we've been doing the podcast. It's

11:08

only about seven years. Seven years? Yeah, as good as

11:10

seven years. Seven years ago. We've been working

11:13

with Brent and he has just been

11:15

an absolute joy. He's family to the

11:17

Receipts podcast family. He gives it

11:19

to us straight and I feel tired. He is

11:21

honest with us. He knows all of our deepest,

11:23

darkest secrets. Oh my gosh. He

11:26

knows everything. We go to him for advice.

11:28

Not just technical advice and engineer advice, but

11:30

life advice. He's

11:33

just absolutely incredible. And we just want to

11:35

say a massive thank you for always prioritizing

11:37

us. We've been janky at certain times. Maybe

11:41

a little bit chaotic and disorganized, but Brent

11:43

always finds space for us and you've just

11:45

been incredible. And shout out to the whole

11:47

Receipts podcast team in general. He's

11:49

Brent and Manza, Kat, and Mayas. Swipe

11:51

by. Swipe by. Yeah, Swipe by. All of

11:54

you guys. You guys,

11:56

after us, you're so amazing to work

11:58

with. We love you all. She

12:00

was in a history about how Spotify, what was the...

12:02

Yeah, we can talk about everything, like let's do it

12:04

man. Yeah, so basically, the

12:07

Spotify transaction, someone

12:10

tweets, so okay, obviously... Shout out Renee

12:12

as well. Yeah, absolutely G. Yeah,

12:15

everyone did ask to help me get this far, thank you

12:17

man. So at the time, Joy Button was like got

12:19

signed to Spotify. That

12:21

was a big deal. So I guess people have money. I

12:24

would say that there seems to be capital here and

12:27

an interest in podcasting. So then I

12:29

was on Twitter and again, shout out

12:31

Twitter. And

12:36

someone had got a new job at Spotify and

12:38

she had tweeted to be like, some news, I'm

12:40

now the head of blah, blah, blah, podcast. And

12:42

that's what if I said, sick. I

12:45

fast up myself and I'd be into it. But hey,

12:47

we did this podcast, it's very successful, so it'd be

12:50

great to have a chat with you. And Renee came

12:52

to that meeting with me. We

12:54

sat there and she was just

12:56

like, yeah, let's find you guys. Oh, I remember

13:00

when you told us. Oh my God. I

13:02

think we might start getting ready

13:05

to do that. Well, I remember the

13:07

day we signed here. I remember what I

13:09

was wearing. I remember the lunch we went

13:11

to with Shout Out Alex and like, I

13:13

remember everything. Yeah, I remember everything

13:16

so vividly. And

13:18

yeah, it was such a beautiful time. And it

13:20

was like, yeah. And then like our agent, so

13:22

no, thank you. Like, it's not be boring this

13:24

thing, but we just, we, it's really important to

13:27

us to really, because it's not just

13:29

this two that come up and chat shit all

13:31

the time. There was like a team behind it

13:33

that pushes us forward and has the same belief.

13:35

Shout out to all my friends whose

13:37

days, like, because I know, ah, we have a

13:39

lot of friends doing this. Bro, a friend of

13:41

common gone, mate. They have common gone. Shout

13:45

out to all the men I'm saying during this time. So,

13:49

shout out to you. I hope all of your

13:51

Wednesdays are filled with dredges that I might bring

13:53

you up. That's

13:55

all I pray for. Dred for

13:57

you every Wednesday and Monday morning. But

14:00

yeah, thank you, thank you guys. Love you, love

14:02

you, love you. We asked you guys some questions.

14:04

But no, sorry, I'll take that back again, champagne.

14:07

Ollie, did you buy champagne or pococo? Pococo.

14:12

But it could have passed because it's very woody. Yeah.

14:17

200 episodes. Mm-hmm. It's

14:20

actually more, but the 204 episodes. Four episodes,

14:22

it's actually more episodes. You could have bought

14:24

a champagne. Do you know what? I'll

14:27

be so fucking real because this is what we've been doing

14:29

for the last eight years here. I only had

14:31

£22 in my account. Why

14:34

are you poor? I only had £22

14:36

in my account, yeah. So I was

14:38

like, and I forgot, because I did a big

14:41

transfer yesterday out, clearly. And so when I came

14:43

in this time, I didn't know that. I didn't

14:45

know that. I was like, oh, you know, I'll

14:47

move money around later. And I remembered I only

14:49

had £22 in my account. So

14:52

then I forgot we're travelling into the central

14:54

part of London. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Right. So naturally

14:56

I thought that I could get a cheap bottle of bubbly.

14:59

And I couldn't. And the Prosecco, like, Prosecco,

15:01

is what I could afford. I

15:04

could have got a slightly more expensive one, but I had to

15:06

factor in my breakfast. No, but you had to leave some change.

15:08

Yeah, yeah, yeah. That's the reason change from that $22. Do

15:11

you keep a lot of money in your coming account? Because I really don't keep money in

15:13

my coming account. Mm-mm. I stayed

15:15

transferring that. Yeah, yeah, yeah. My coming account is £37 in it. Like,

15:18

you can like, hug. But

15:20

yeah. So what was I saying? Do

15:22

you know what makes champagne champagne and not Prosecco? What?

15:26

If it's made in a town of champagne,

15:28

champagne in France. Really? If it's not made

15:30

in champagne in France, it's not champagne. It's

15:32

Prosecco. It's okay. Interesting. Yeah. Mm-hmm. And I

15:34

love champagne and I love Prosecco. It's all

15:36

my fav. So fun fact. And yeah, anyway,

15:39

so we got you guys to ask some

15:41

questions, you know, to celebrate the 200th episode.

15:43

And you guys have done that. So we're going

15:45

to bring the wheel quite early in today. And

15:48

we're going to spin it. It's going to land

15:50

on a number. And do

15:52

you know what? Saying this, I saw someone make a

15:54

brilliant point in the day and I feel the same.

15:56

Someone was like, I want podcasts. Go back to podcasting.

15:59

Would you mean it will be? audio. Because

16:01

the thing is when you're listening to audio,

16:03

someone's like, oh, would you look at this? I

16:05

don't know what you're talking about. I'm not watching you.

16:07

So I actually understand the frustration, but we're going to

16:09

obviously read out the questions as well. So it's not

16:11

just going to be a thing where you don't know

16:14

what we're talking about. So there's a will, we're going

16:16

to spin it, lands on that number. We read out

16:18

a question that one of our lovely listeners has asked

16:20

us. Indeed. Yeah. You know, spin. You spin me

16:23

right round, baby. Right round.

16:27

Oh, did you die? Yeah. Of course.

16:30

Um, I actually don't die. So we are on number

16:32

five. The aim here is

16:35

every time we spin it, think of a song that's

16:37

got spin in it. Okay. Um, Oh wait, wait for

16:39

your turn. Oh. You've

16:41

got, you've got sedentary. Ah! Okay.

16:47

Someone asked, what is the favourite song you listen to

16:49

when you're getting ready for a night out? Ooh.

16:54

Okay. What do I always listen

16:56

to? What do you listen to? I'm actually,

16:58

this sounds so cringing cliche, but it's actually

17:00

true. I listen

17:02

to Beyonce's Freakin' Dress. I

17:08

love that song. I mean, I love Beyonce's.

17:11

I love that song. I think Beyonce is

17:13

exceptional. She's exceptional. She is. But

17:15

of all her songs, Rick and Rich. Rick and

17:17

Rich, yeah. Why? And Green Light.

17:20

Green Light is a banger. Green Light is

17:22

a fucking banger. That is such a good

17:24

song. I think they're on the same album. What

17:27

if someone goes, let's go little kitty cat.

17:29

You don't want no more. It's all kitty cat.

17:32

Yeah. That song gets me going.

17:34

That song is a fact. I actually see it

17:36

as an inspirational message. Like I said, it's enough.

17:39

I pack yourself. You don't want no

17:41

more. Me and my pussy, I've got to go. We've

17:43

got to leave this place and find

17:45

someone else. That's a banger. Okay, cool.

17:47

So you can dress. I genuinely

17:51

listen to Slow Jam. Hear me out. If

17:53

it's not Slow Jam, it's

17:55

a podcast. I'm actually going to be doing it because I'm

17:57

not going to hear that. the

18:00

slow jam in the club. Yeah. But

18:02

I feel like anything I'm going to listen to is going to be

18:04

a thing that like, I'm probably going to hear that in the club.

18:07

So I will listen to slow jams the whole time because

18:09

I know I'm not going to hear

18:11

this in the club. So let me enjoy my time

18:13

here. Yeah. So that on

18:15

my way to clubbing, I listen to slow jams when I'm

18:17

getting ready to go out. I listen to slow jams. I

18:20

just really fucking love a slow jam. I do

18:22

love slow jams, but I have to be really

18:25

happy. And usually I'm really happy from about

18:27

the club. Yeah. But

18:29

yeah, I love a slow jam, but also in the vein of what

18:32

you were saying, I agree. Like I don't listen to music that

18:34

I know I'm going to hear in the club because I don't

18:36

want to savour the excitement. I'm not even listening to Burna Boy

18:38

getting ready. Exactly. I've been listening to Burna Boy

18:40

like four times when you get to the club. So I don't do that,

18:42

but I listen to like my other, I've literally got a playlist called

18:44

Random and it's just like very magic FM

18:47

vibes. So it's like,

18:49

you know, Elton John

18:51

and for good. I love that. Do you know my

18:53

favourite, I'm sure I've spoken about it here before, Heart.

18:57

They still think of late night

18:59

love songs. Late night love songs.

19:01

London Heart, 106.2. If

19:06

you mind, don't bring that shit

19:08

back. The immediate effect. I'm going

19:10

to sue somebody. I used

19:12

to bank out late night love songs. Do you know

19:14

what was always on there? If you

19:16

feel like I'm going to say it. I'm going to go

19:18

home. And

19:24

also me and Mrs. Mrs.

19:27

Jones. They stand back

19:29

and let me tell you, I first discovered

19:31

that radio station. I'm not joking. I

19:34

was 12. So

19:37

this is how much love and love

19:39

songs have been in. I was 12 years old when

19:41

I discovered that radio station and it was every Thursday

19:43

night and I used to listen to it. It

19:46

was like from 10 and I was

19:48

sitting there and listening to radio and

19:50

listening to this song because I absolutely

19:52

just loved, loved songs. The

19:55

selections are just amazing. Absolutely

19:57

bangers. Really good, very

19:59

bangers. Oh, that's when you sang that song,

20:01

I want to go home. It reminded me when I

20:03

worked in H&M, every

20:05

time it was closed at night and they'd have an hour

20:07

to clean up. So by the

20:10

time it was like 9.50, as I collected it

20:12

all started singing, I'm gonna leave the

20:14

house! I'm so excited, man!

20:16

It's like, let me go home! This is

20:19

slavery! I thought someone has to do the

20:21

tills, so the managers would be there doing

20:23

the tills. If they mess it up

20:25

and they've got to start again, they never let you go. They

20:27

never... They make you wait there. The

20:29

worst was working at Santander, you have to do your

20:31

own individual tills. And

20:34

the thing is, people used to dupe you

20:36

all the time. So they used to confuse

20:38

you. They were saying they're coming to deposit,

20:40

and you ended up giving them money and

20:42

somehow you're fucked. I can imagine. And now

20:44

your finger's behind like 50 pounds. I could

20:46

have never worked in a bank. That

20:48

was a very interesting time in my life working in a

20:51

bank. Working in a bank taught

20:53

me so much. Me and Santander,

20:55

Ah! Santander Hackney Meystree. Shout

20:58

out you, Mum. So sometimes I walk past it,

21:00

I'm like, wow. Memory. Wow. There was a

21:02

guy that me and he, I worked at Santander, he

21:04

worked at Natwist. We used to get at the same

21:06

station to go to Hackney. And I swam to him and he had

21:08

to catch the station. And we had to move up the hives.

21:10

He was like, oh my God, have you played? I

21:13

see you're doing your thing. You're a PT. And I'm

21:15

like, you're doing your thing. You're a PC as well.

21:17

Like, it's like... Taxi! Oh, memories.

21:19

Memory. Yeah, high street banter. But

21:21

yeah, bank work was fun. Anyway, spin,

21:24

Audrey. Spin! I'm

21:27

sitting around. Great song. Get out

21:29

of my... Number 13. Here

21:32

you are. Oh, there was a hole at the

21:34

bottom. My bad. I'm trying to get it from the top. That's

21:38

why I got it wrong. Let's

21:41

go. If you could have a sit

21:43

down with your 18-year-old selves, what would

21:45

you tell her? Oh, God. I

21:48

would tell her, you're not going to be married at 25. Girl,

21:50

be fucking good. You're not going to have three kids at 25. Hell,

21:53

you're not even going to know what you want to do at 25. Because

21:56

I proper thought, oh, God,

21:58

at 18, what did I want to be when I was... I

22:00

think I was probably still in my, in my,

22:05

I don't think I discovered that I wanted

22:07

to be a journalist then. No, I made

22:09

that thing actually. You would have done, because you would have been

22:11

college. Yeah, I would have been college. Yeah, I knew I wanted

22:13

to do something in media. I didn't know exactly why. I think

22:15

it was probably like my journalism, my

22:17

journalism bag. But yeah,

22:20

I think it would probably be along the lines of like,

22:23

yeah, you're not gonna do those things

22:25

that you thought you were gonna do when you thought you

22:27

were gonna do them, but they will come to you when

22:30

they are ready to come to you. And I also would

22:32

have told my boss the question again, what would you tell

22:35

if you can, what would you tell her? Yeah.

22:37

And I'd also tell her not to prioritize

22:39

that dead end relationship I was in. Oh

22:41

my God. And just like prioritizing men in

22:43

general. I really was in my like boyfriend

22:45

bag at the time, which I think is

22:47

normal to some extent. But I think my

22:49

one wasn't normal. I think it was just

22:51

teetering on the edge of like, okay, this

22:53

is ridiculous. Because I feel like around that

22:55

time, I was quite like lost. So

22:59

yeah, I would just be like, just focus on

23:01

other things like, do you but

23:03

I guess all of those things are in hindsight. Do you know

23:05

what I mean? That at the time, you don't know them. But

23:08

yeah, that's probably it to be honest. Yeah. Do you

23:11

know what, I think outside of the like

23:13

obvious that leave the relationship, you know, like,

23:15

go out a few more times. I

23:18

think I would absolutely like, yeah,

23:21

good. You're on the right path. Like,

23:23

as in where you're going, follow me this

23:25

person. But this, this like your where you're

23:27

going in your life, this, this

23:29

ambition you feel now this, okay,

23:32

so this might be controversial. Growing

23:35

up, right? Like, you

23:37

like, I don't know, I'm sure many other black

23:39

women or other women have felt this. Where someone's

23:41

like, Oh, you think you're too nice. And for

23:43

me, it was such about you think you're too

23:46

nice, you're too nice. And I'll be very, very

23:48

honest and thank you guys. In the back

23:50

of my head, I think I am like, I would tell

23:57

us to relax sitting that more that was nothing to

23:59

be ashamed of. You think you're better

24:01

than everyone. I'm like, I am. And

24:04

not in terms of how people are living their life right now. You

24:08

are different to this. And

24:10

it's actually okay. You need to manipulate yourself

24:12

to make yourself fit into what it is.

24:14

Yeah, that's a good one actually. It's

24:17

okay to feel like, what I am. And

24:19

it's not them, it's better than what we're

24:21

doing right now. But everyone

24:23

will go to the park and be like, what are you

24:26

doing? I don't want to. And I will do it. And

24:29

then I will say, why are you not trying to be better than

24:31

everyone else? I am. And

24:33

that was fine. I used to really

24:36

berate myself for that. To be like,

24:38

well, you're not special, you're still your

24:40

stereotype in every way. You're a

24:42

single-pant girl, you live your poor, blah blah blah blah blah.

24:45

But I just had this kind of like, and

24:47

I wish I like, leant on that a bit more. But I

24:49

feel like that was future me talking to

24:51

me then. Yeah, yeah, I hear it. Yeah,

24:54

it's the same. I was very much

24:56

all about like, conforming. I just

24:59

wanted to be like, everyone else. And

25:01

my head was like, no. But actually, that

25:03

kind of leads me onto maybe

25:05

expanding on what I said a little bit more just

25:07

about me. Because I feel like I am someone that's

25:09

always done the opposite. Like

25:11

I've always been obsessed with

25:13

assimilation and doing everything to just assimilate and not

25:15

make too much noise and not stand out too

25:17

much and just be in the background. Don't be

25:19

too loud. Don't be offensive. Don't be obnoxious. Don't

25:22

do this. Don't

25:24

do that. Just live a quiet life so that

25:26

no one will trouble you. And I think

25:28

I always felt like if I was doing the

25:30

right thing, then nothing bad could

25:32

happen to me. Why

25:35

would anybody target me? Or why would anybody

25:37

want to cross me? I'm doing everything right

25:39

by the book. But I do

25:41

think in doing that, I lost out on a

25:43

lot of experiences because I was so busy obsessing

25:46

over assimilation. So maybe I

25:48

would explore certain aspects of my personality a little

25:51

bit more. And I would say tap into that

25:53

thing that you were maybe curious about that

25:55

you were too fearful. You were too fearful. Yeah,

25:57

because you just wanted to just blend in. I

25:59

didn't want to make noise. Like even just down

26:02

to dumb shit, like being like with

26:04

my friends at that time and

26:07

just being like, okay. So there

26:09

was like the girls that got all the attention who were usually

26:11

not the black girls. And then there were

26:13

the black girls who people probably

26:15

didn't fancy them, but they were loud and they were like

26:17

rash. And I focused on not being

26:19

that way so that the better you could be like, I

26:21

could just be like, you know what I mean? Even if

26:23

it was like in a friend zone type of vibe, I

26:26

wasn't causing offense and I think I would have caused

26:28

more offense. You know what? Absolutely.

26:31

Yeah, yeah, yeah. I would call you more offense. Yeah,

26:33

I'd like that. Shake off the room a bit more.

26:36

Call me more offense. Make more noise. Be louder. Yeah.

26:39

I did it for the loud girls. Yeah.

26:42

I do. You

26:44

are. In fact, you're nicer. Yeah, exactly.

26:47

I wish you you're nicer. Like I do this to them

26:49

because I think there was something about having my personality and

26:52

not putting it into physically when you're meant

26:54

to have that personality. Like you're

26:56

only meant to think about yourself. I think about

26:58

myself if you are slim, like, very pretty, blah,

27:01

blah, blah. Sorry, don't get me wrong. She's not

27:03

saying hey. She's not saying anything. Don't get me

27:05

wrong. But yeah, that's the way I do this

27:07

for. Anyway, let me spin it. Shit,

27:11

sing the song. Spin. Spin.

27:14

Spin your love

27:16

on me. Spin your hair.

27:18

Spin your love here. We've

27:21

done that. Number 14. Number

27:23

14 please. Oh, I will

27:25

not be a good game show host. Where was number 14? Sweet

27:28

Jesus. What did you distract them? Knock knock.

27:30

He's not even saying. No,

27:34

really. Benan. Benan

27:37

who? Benanana. You're

27:39

not proud of that. You

27:42

can't be proud of that. You

27:44

cannot be proud of that. It was

27:46

off rip. Okay, someone asked.

27:49

If you had an hour left to live, what would you

27:51

do? Guys, pay a

27:53

long bus. Answer these questions. What would you do if

27:55

there's another? If I had an hour left,

27:57

what would I do? I would go around slapping all the people.

28:00

You're perfect man. You're

28:03

the full power. In

28:09

all seriousness, I think I'll spend... Okay,

28:12

I'll break it down. I think

28:14

I'll spend the best 30 minutes

28:17

with all of my friends and family in my

28:19

place. Like, really take that all in. Like, spend time with

28:21

them. Let them all know I love them, give

28:23

them their flowers, you know, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. Tell them,

28:25

you know, I know this is the end but cool, like, you

28:28

know, we're gonna be alright. That's

28:30

cool. Wrap that shit up with them. Go

28:32

to my lover and

28:35

make this sweetest love. The

28:39

most sweetest of love. The

28:42

most heightened, sweet, passionate

28:46

level of love for 20 minutes.

28:50

Yeah, you might as well go on a... Yeah,

28:52

and the last 10, I am on bended knees.

28:54

Praise the God to forgive me of all of

28:56

my snails and transactions. I

28:58

made sure I make it to heaven. That is what

29:00

I would do. Yeah,

29:03

I mean, I would definitely slap all my enemies. Yeah,

29:06

and then I would just give Anaya as

29:08

many life gems as possible. Aww, that's lovely.

29:10

I would give her so many life gems.

29:13

You should set up an email to her and email her.

29:15

Yeah, I think I should do something like that. Yeah, start

29:17

mailing her. Yeah, that's a really good idea. Fundingly, when you

29:19

think about it, just set up an email for her and

29:21

she has all of this thing in digital print for larger

29:23

things. Yeah, that's a great idea. Yeah, I think you should

29:26

do that. Do you know what's mad? God forbid, obviously, it's

29:28

going to happen anytime soon. And also, Chloe, give us an

29:30

email to WomenU8. Yes, let's

29:32

pass it. Because I'm like,

29:35

God forbid, obviously, not anytime soon, but if anything works, happen. She's

29:38

got my voice documented for

29:40

a lot of hours. Even

29:44

if nothing happens, I just love the idea

29:46

that my future child's, my niece and nephews,

29:48

or whatever, can just go back and hear

29:50

what Auntie taught about this. Yeah, definitely.

29:52

You know what I mean? What Mummy thinks about this. Yeah, it's beautiful, Mum. Give

29:55

all the parts where I talk about how good I am at giving

29:57

head. Thank you. I'm joking. about

30:00

my performance. That's cool.

30:03

Audrey, spin the wheel. Spin the wheel.

30:08

It's like a nine, okay. We'll do a nine. Nine.

30:15

What's your five year plan? Ew,

30:18

five years. Five years.

30:20

How old would you mean five years? God, forty

30:22

two. No,

30:25

it would be forty. No, it would be

30:27

forty. Forty three. You would be forty three.

30:29

Forty three. Five

30:31

year plan. I definitely will see myself

30:33

in like hopefully my forever home. That

30:36

is definitely a big goal. Like that's

30:39

the one thing that I really, really

30:42

want. I feel like that's when I will feel

30:44

content. Exactly. My orange

30:46

tree. But I'm going to paint Hermes orange, right?

30:48

Yes. I feel like I will

30:50

feel a sense of peace for a really long time. I

30:52

don't feel like I'm going to have like be

30:54

chasing very much for a long time. I'll give

30:57

myself a break from chasing stuff when I get

30:59

that. So hopefully my family home, potentially

31:01

with another baby. You never know.

31:03

You never know. And

31:07

Anaya will be five by then.

31:09

Oh, wow. So,

31:11

yeah, hopefully she's in a really

31:13

good school. Happy, you know.

31:19

And yeah, maybe you never know more come

31:21

of this comedy thing. Yeah, you know, we'll

31:23

see how I can enter that space. I

31:25

was thinking that the other day and I was thinking

31:27

like, you know, I do really

31:29

want to be respectful of the craft because

31:31

it's not a joke, especially stand up. So

31:34

at the same time, it's not

31:37

very often black women get to just walk into things.

31:39

So like if this does happen to me and it is

31:41

a success, like, yeah, I didn't necessarily have the blind that

31:43

other people have had. I haven't like flogged it out

31:45

in, you know, bars and pubs and having people

31:47

throw shit at me and throw cigarette butts at

31:49

me and stuff. But I'm sorry. I was going

31:51

to say that. I'm going to say that. What?

31:54

My store is different. And also I've paid

31:56

my G's in other areas. So yes, I

31:58

was like, it doesn't. have to be that

32:00

like if the opportunity presents itself and I take it

32:02

and I run with it and it blows, it blows.

32:05

Like I'm not gonna hold on to this idea of

32:07

struggle about it but yeah we'll see hopefully I'm doing

32:09

that. I don't know where

32:11

we'll be in five years. We may still be doing

32:13

this, we may not be, we may be doing it

32:15

less, we may be doing it, who knows.

32:17

Yeah maybe we'll go seasonal but you'll obviously

32:19

very much still be in my life. Of

32:21

course. You can't get rid of me that

32:23

easily. I

32:27

think those are the four things I will stick

32:29

to those things. I don't know

32:31

if I've got a five-year plan. I

32:34

fear planning sometimes. Sometimes I feel like

32:36

it restricts me and also I look like I'm like

32:38

oh I didn't do this I get, I think about

32:41

it. But I don't want to be

32:43

in this country with the truth. My

32:45

truth is I don't want to be full-time in the

32:48

UK anymore. I had a really emotional therapy

32:50

session the other day where I'm like and

32:52

it's not true and I was just feeling

32:54

very emotional and I just feel like I

32:56

feel sometimes out of options here. Like

32:59

I find the industry that I love

33:01

really frustrating because it really gives space

33:04

for black women. But I

33:07

don't know. I don't know

33:09

what my life is. What

33:11

do they say when you make plans, good luck? Because you want to

33:14

make good luck, make plans, good stuff in the lab. I'll

33:17

be 39 but hopefully I'll have a

33:19

family, I'll have children, I just

33:21

don't know where I'll be. I was thinking yeah

33:23

but I was going to bring this up to

33:26

you directly. I've got a very like delusional view

33:28

on motherhood I think. Let me know if it's

33:30

delusional. My dream is that I'm just me

33:32

but with a kid. So like

33:35

I mean that just happens to like carry a kid

33:37

around. Is that delusional? No because that's

33:39

literally me. Do you know what I was like saying

33:41

that because I've had enough of money and they were

33:43

like do you know any mothers like that? I was

33:45

like yeah all true. Yeah but

33:47

when I got pregnant I was like outside

33:50

of of course good health and all

33:53

of that stuff. I was just like I don't know

33:55

and essentially you're

33:57

coming into my life Han. Do you know what I

33:59

mean? I was like, show Amy, I wasn't really

34:01

here. I've been here for 30 seconds. Yeah, you're

34:03

coming into my life. So, you know, you're

34:05

going to work around me. And I mean that with all the

34:07

love in the world. Like I'm not saying it in like a

34:09

mad way. Do you know what I mean? So

34:12

yeah, I absolutely, and I knew I was going to be

34:14

that kind of mob. You, yeah, yeah. I knew it. I

34:16

was like, so long as there was nothing that was

34:18

going to restrict me, like physically, she's

34:21

coming everywhere with me if it's possible. Like if we

34:23

go to lunches, she comes. Yeah. Sometimes she has to

34:25

come to work with me. It just is what it

34:27

is. If I need to get

34:29

childcare so I can have some time with my girls, I'm

34:31

going to sort out childcare so I can have some time with

34:34

my girls. I still go out. I

34:36

still do everything. So you actually understand.

34:38

Yeah. OK, so when

34:40

you got pregnant, obviously this was not a fair sport or

34:42

fair second and third of the sport, blah, blah, blah, blah,

34:44

blah, blah. I thought, remember further down the line when everything

34:47

else was like, obviously you're where that things are going to

34:49

change. And I think often we

34:51

talk like parents talk about like, oh,

34:53

when I had my baby, like my single friends weren't

34:55

there for me. They were like, they put the blame

34:57

on this person. And really look at

34:59

that person as well. So I remember thinking because

35:02

it happened to me so consistently with other that

35:04

it was my sister, with friends and and again,

35:06

not in a malicious way. I was like, I'm

35:08

going to lose Audrey too. I

35:10

feel like everybody in my life that I felt as

35:12

mine, I've lost them to a kid and

35:15

I'm looking at it. I don't

35:17

know if I'm saying this can be misinterpreted, but

35:19

I know how I mean it. And I

35:21

thought, oh, and I'm going to lose her

35:23

too. And honestly, thank you, because I don't

35:25

feel like I've lost you. Good. I'm so

35:27

glad. I'm so, so glad because I

35:30

ain't going anywhere. I like I

35:32

because it's really important to me not

35:34

to even feel like other people aren't going to lose

35:36

me, but for me to not feel like I'm going

35:38

to lose myself. Like and I think you can. Do

35:42

it like it's very doable. You just have to

35:44

want to do it. And I feel like sometimes

35:46

maybe mom's still guilty. They feel like there's a

35:50

perception of motherhood and what it looks like and

35:52

you're supposed to do this. And I personally think

35:54

that like motherhood can be what you want it

35:56

to be for you. You know, I mean, and I was

35:58

really conscious about that. I remember when I

36:00

told. I was pregnant. I said, don't treat

36:02

me differently. Yeah, you did. And I was

36:04

like, That tell me the gist. Yeah, I was like,

36:06

It doesn't have a conversation that has to be about

36:09

my pregnancy. I said, please don't pandasine. Don't

36:12

treat me like fine China. Please just treat me

36:14

normal. And you did the whole time and I

36:16

really appreciate that. So I didn't want to be treated like

36:18

fine China. Oh,

36:21

if you want to come to this, I know you

36:23

want to come in. But I was telling her the

36:25

normal day. But let me tell her that this is

36:27

happening. I'm putting the ditties and stuff I was there,

36:29

honey. Belly and everything. I want to spend that spooky

36:31

birthday. Audrey was like, Let's take it back again. Audrey.

36:34

I was at eight months. You could have

36:36

done a baby any second. I'm not missing

36:38

this shit. What'd you say? When I

36:40

found out it was a gala. Oh my God. Secretly, I was so

36:42

happy. I would have gone, I would have gone with it as

36:44

a party or not. But when I found it was a gala

36:46

and it was a sit down. I was so happy. That's

36:50

so true. Yeah, that was a great day. My feet was so

36:52

swollen by the end of it. They were so sweet. They were

36:54

like, I want to go home. Elephant

36:56

feet. Yeah, it was nice. That was such a fun day. That was

36:58

great. Like, since the beginning. We've

37:02

run out of phones. Number

37:06

one. What

37:15

are your, I've made it moments and started

37:18

the podcast. I

37:20

remember my first one, it was early doors.

37:23

It was the first time we got asked by

37:25

BET to do Black Girls Rock stuff. Because

37:27

that was, I think that was our first TV

37:29

thing that we did. I was

37:31

like, what? Wow. Yeah. Oh my

37:33

God. We're actually going to be on TV. I

37:36

remember, oh my God, I was dressed in business

37:38

casual. You were like, oh my God, I was

37:40

wearing business casuals. Like literally, I was wearing smart

37:42

black pants. We were so happy to be on

37:44

Delhi. I was wearing Louboutins, like the stiletto pointy

37:47

picatas, whatever they're called, and a blouse. Like, and

37:50

I can't say top of the top, it was a blouse. I had a

37:52

blouse on. Okay. I was wearing a blouse. I

37:54

was very formal for that. But I was

37:57

gassed. Yeah. And then I

37:59

think probably. see what we did our show

38:01

with them. Yeah, it's been loads of

38:03

moments. What are you? Ah,

38:05

billboards was a big thing for me. Oh,

38:07

yeah. The billboards was a huge. And I think,

38:10

and not because of the like, it validated what

38:12

we were doing. until the

38:14

billboards came. But I was like, ah,

38:17

I remember taking my niece and nephew

38:19

to go see it and they were like,

38:21

wow. Mm, iconic. They

38:24

just couldn't fathom it. They're like, wow. And

38:26

I think to see, I don't know

38:28

how those people extended, but to see

38:30

people that know me and to be like, that's made me feel

38:33

like my niece, my niece, Aliyah.

38:36

There's not a thing that girl doesn't believe she can do. She can't do.

38:39

And I noticed that she gets to watch me do things. She

38:42

thinks it's so cool. Like she will

38:44

like, let's say some of that other

38:47

at their house. And

38:49

then she's on the phone to her friends. She's like, yeah,

38:51

Tolly's here. I was like, let's talk to you. Yeah,

38:53

it's always Tolly's here. She's supposed to come up and

38:55

she's like, I told you I know her. Oh, wait,

39:01

what is 10 year old? No, I'm not Tolly. Like

39:03

what you're talking about. But I think their teachers miss

39:05

us. Which is actually really lovely. So

39:07

I think that billboard was meant in lot's sake

39:09

because it was like a physical representation of you.

39:12

Yeah, that was a physical like, beautiful

39:15

photo shot. Yeah, like

39:17

that was a huge thing. Honestly, buying

39:19

my house was huge. Yeah,

39:21

that's a massive achievement. It was huge

39:23

for me. And it was like, I

39:25

did it by my, Naya

39:28

Handel. Naya,

39:30

like I did it by myself. And I

39:32

remember the day I went to go get

39:34

those keys. I was just

39:36

like, and the reason why I

39:38

link it to this because it was like, this

39:41

helped. It was this that

39:43

made me be able to be

39:45

afford to do it. And

39:47

I was just so happy.

39:51

Like I honestly, and we have a tradition.

39:54

So in my family, for the first

39:56

time we came to England in 1997, me and my

39:58

sister, sisters and

40:00

my mum all the Chinese and

40:02

we sat there as a family at Chinese food. I'll never

40:04

forget that the first time I was there as a family.

40:07

The first time we moved from forest gate to Dagonham, we

40:09

didn't have anything in the house at Dagonham, we had no

40:11

furniture and nothing. We all did

40:13

Chinese and we sat on the floor, we all ate Chinese. First

40:16

time I got my keys to my house, all of my

40:18

family came out, we sat on the floor, no furniture, I

40:20

met all the Chinese. And I

40:23

just remember feeling like, oh my

40:25

God. And I think there's really something in

40:27

being your family's first. And because since then,

40:29

my sisters and I bought a house, I

40:31

think it, it does motivate. I think there

40:33

is, it's, and it doesn't have to be

40:35

where you are born in your family. I

40:37

think there was something about being in your

40:39

first year to do something and you see

40:41

the ripple effects it has on the rest

40:43

of your family. And I'm so happy that

40:45

I've been able to have that kind of

40:47

ripple effect. Yeah, that's dope, man. Yeah. I

40:49

think those are my, I haven't made

40:51

it yet, but I'm getting there. Yeah, definitely.

40:54

It was a massive like, like

40:57

Markov in this England. Like, you

40:59

know, we're not even

41:02

from here and to be able to achieve

41:04

something so massive is huge. And I remember when you generally

41:06

came to help this teacher that just signifies

41:09

so much to us. It's like Tony doing

41:14

the work and then me, Mel and I

41:16

should be back with champagne. And Tony was

41:18

like putting the best together, like, like a

41:20

hammer. A

41:23

hammer and then she all put the best together. All

41:26

gymnast and I, in the back of the champagne, just

41:29

like shoes. And even, even that, like,

41:31

it's like the community I got to like

41:34

come around me, like the first day, one

41:36

of the second sessions, Sylvia came around with

41:38

things and it cleaned my whole house. So

41:40

you guys came around and we put things

41:42

together, check out, pay money. Everyone just

41:44

came up to me and be like, cool, let's

41:46

go. Like everybody was

41:48

just useful in the ways that they can be.

41:50

And it was great. Yeah, Chinese food, all

41:53

that. Yes, it was very significant. Chinese

41:55

food was very significant. I've got to

41:57

bang in Chinese. I

42:00

like the distance more of these. Okay,

42:02

number 12. Number

42:06

12. Ooh,

42:09

what's your biggest fear? Ooh,

42:13

my biggest fear. Oh,

42:16

do you know what? My biggest fear is just like, not

42:20

like raising a nire to

42:22

be the best thing that she can be. Do you

42:24

know what I mean? I really feel like

42:26

she's got so many advantages. She was born

42:28

into such privilege. If

42:30

she comes up screwed up. It's on

42:32

me. Do you

42:34

know what I mean? Because all the odds are

42:36

in her favor kind of thing. So

42:39

yeah, it's probably something a nire related,

42:41

you know, just now that I'm a

42:44

mum obviously, it just

42:46

goes about saying, I'm just constantly

42:48

just fearful about this world. And

42:51

you know, it's just, yeah, it's scary. But

42:53

I think she's going to be fine. Like

42:55

I think that she'll be absolutely fine, but

42:57

that is my fear, definitely. And I feel

42:59

a thing that was like the best way

43:01

to raise your kids is to figure out

43:03

that they are not an

43:05

extension of you, but a whole other person.

43:07

Do you reckon you, how do you

43:09

feel about that? I know that to be

43:11

true. I know that that's how like I

43:13

see wearing a child because

43:16

yeah, I learned that even before I was

43:19

pregnant. I was like, do you know what? Kids are not an

43:21

extension of you. They're just not, they're their

43:24

own autonomous individuals. And

43:26

we're just here to guide them through life,

43:28

you know, to make sure that they're

43:31

clothed, fed and watered till they're

43:33

18, but essentially they're their own person.

43:35

You know? So I can

43:37

only take so much responsibility, but while she's in

43:39

my care between now and 18, she's all my

43:41

responsibility, I feel like. But yeah,

43:44

absolutely her own individual. And I want to raise

43:46

her actually, going back to what we were saying

43:48

about just like group thinking, just like blending

43:50

in and stuff. I want her to be

43:53

the opposite of that. And I didn't really,

43:55

I didn't have that kind of raising because my parents weren't thinking

43:57

about things like that. It's a privilege to be able to think

43:59

about stuff like that. Now I have

44:01

the tools and I have the knowledge, I absolutely am gonna

44:03

raise her to be the opposite. Do you know

44:05

what I mean? I guess my parents were just thinking about food

44:08

and- And what makes life easier? Yeah. What makes life

44:10

easier is the way it's been to do everything on

44:12

our own. Absolutely, exactly. But now we don't have to

44:14

live that way. Yeah. So I want her to

44:16

be all of herself, like all of, and I

44:18

want her to explore every aspect of herself and

44:20

not like hide away or shy away from anything.

44:22

And I wanna create like a safe space for her to

44:25

express herself. And I'm so big on that. I

44:27

just hate the idea of anybody suppressing who they

44:29

are in any way, shape or

44:31

form. So yeah. Nice. Yeah.

44:34

I sit down because we're here all the time. Again, I've

44:36

liked to be by myself very, very often. It's something I

44:38

actually actively make sure that I do often. But

44:41

I think being by yourself and loneliness

44:44

is really different. Loneliness,

44:46

one of my biggest, I think it's like, even

44:49

to the point of like dying and nobody knows

44:51

about it. Yeah. That's,

44:54

and again, it's that fucking documentary. Yeah,

44:57

that definitely did a number. It comes up

44:59

in therapy, usually. Yeah. I

45:01

don't think I'm joking. I'm just saying a funny

45:04

little bit about that thing. It really fucked me

45:06

because I'm so similar to that woman. In

45:08

a sense, I've got so many different groups of

45:11

people. Everyone always seems I'm fine. I jokey everything

45:13

out, blah, blah, blah, blah. So it's like, but

45:15

also I'm not. Like my

45:18

mum can't hear from me from one day and someone hasn't sent

45:20

up to my door. My family got spare

45:22

keys. Like people are like, hey, I know you're quite

45:24

in a group, but yo, let me know you're okay.

45:26

So I know it can't happen, but240 doesn't mean it's

45:28

not a beer. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, absolutely. So

45:30

all right. Last thing, do it Audrey. Last thing, yeah.

45:34

Spin it, spin it, spin it,

45:36

spin it again. Cause we turned that

45:39

numb, but no, we haven't actually. That's the

45:41

sound of the swill. That's the

45:43

sound of the swill. I was like thinking the songs

45:45

would turn in it. Oh, okay. This

45:47

is fun for you. If you could be

45:49

any reality TV style, who would you be?

45:52

Gemma the motherfucking Collins be. Like

45:54

who else is there? Like all Nini leaks.

45:56

I can't lie to you, I've been in

45:58

it. Yeah, it's like even. Gemma D Collins

46:01

or Nene Leakes I think because

46:03

they are kind of similar

46:06

but iconic. Or

46:08

maybe New York as well. Tiffany. I'll be

46:10

Nene Leakes or Tiffany. Yeah, the options are kind

46:12

of endless. To me those are my three reality

46:14

TV Queen icons. There is

46:16

no reality TV without any of them. They

46:19

have bars and lines that will live on

46:21

forever. And I think that's so

46:23

dope. To be memefied in

46:25

the ways that all three of them are.

46:28

What did you

46:31

ever say? Darren,

46:33

I'm claustrophobic. Claustrophobic

46:36

Darren. I'm

46:38

claustrophobic Darren. Iconic.

46:40

Absolutely iconic. I know

46:43

people like, look here are

46:45

two people that you don't think that people can

46:47

never make me hate. Two

46:49

of them say two. Nene Leakes

46:51

and Portia Williams. I'm sorry, you can

46:54

try your hardest. Iconic. They

46:56

can never make me hate you. Even though what

46:58

you were saying was disgraceful. I could never hate

47:00

them. Like,

47:03

brilliant.

47:06

Absolutely brilliant. Yes, all of them

47:08

on my television. They

47:10

deserve the screen time. They are

47:12

so iconic. And also, do you know what

47:14

things about those girls? Women, no

47:17

matter what's happened, they have stayed

47:19

true to who they are. Yeah, definitely. And they get

47:21

shit. They get shit all the time. But

47:24

they're very much like, I don't get Nene Leakes. Nene's pretty

47:26

much been blackboard. I

47:29

mean, she's admitted it herself, but she's

47:31

still out here just being iconic. And

47:33

still, like, there's so

47:35

many things that people could

47:37

throw at her that you would think that would

47:40

simmer her or diminish her a little bit. And

47:42

she's still like, I'm that bitch. Her

47:44

interview with Carlos King was probably her most

47:46

recent prominent interview. They asked her,

47:48

who do you think of stars? She

47:51

said, nobody. She said, nobody. And they were like,

47:53

oh, what about Kenny? She's like, no. You know, what

47:55

about? No. Like,

47:57

she thinks no one is a star. You

48:00

know what I mean? And it's like, because they turned up

48:02

to work, those women turned up to work as delusional

48:04

as some people might think Gemma is, like that woman

48:06

shows up to work. I'm going to work, yeah. New

48:09

York like showed up, so yeah, they have

48:11

to give my hats off to them man. And would

48:13

I necessarily... Actually

48:15

no, I probably would. I always would. I wouldn't be friends with Nini, but

48:18

she's great TV. But I actually think I would. I actually

48:20

think you're... No, I think I'm changing my mind. I would actually

48:22

never want to be her enemy. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I would forever

48:24

want to be her friend. Because I think when she's your friend,

48:26

she is... She goes hard. Hard

48:28

bodied. I never want to be her

48:31

enemy. I want to be her friend consistently. Also,

48:33

her new man is kind of nice. He's cute.

48:35

He's gone in as well. Yeah. He's got an

48:37

ass in the end, that's what they say. He's cute. He's

48:40

got a decent looking man. I'm kind of

48:42

into it. Yeah, yeah, I'm happy for her man. I

48:44

just... People give Nini worth of opportunity. Like, don't

48:46

blackball her. She's got so much to

48:48

offer. She's fucking hilarious. She

48:51

shifted Kim Zoljak's wig. I mean, what more?

48:54

Okay, wig. Okay, wig. Bye, wig. Okay,

48:57

glasses. That's a long way. That's

49:00

a big job. That's a bit actually

49:02

brilliant individuals. Because how many

49:04

points that an officer has? Exactly. It's actually so

49:06

funny. It's actually so funny. Yes, yes. Yes,

49:09

exactly. Why is that so funny? Like, a

49:11

Nini quench all of that. She'd be like,

49:13

okay, bye glasses. I

49:18

love her so, so much. Oh my

49:21

god. Because that Nini every single time.

49:23

Every single time. And

49:26

the casting crew want to do a surprise.

49:28

Yeah, we actually have no idea what's going on. But

49:32

yeah, we're... So if you are listening all day,

49:34

we are here, because something's

49:36

going to happen. I mean, some version of

49:38

a surprise or whatever. Jim, when you

49:40

sent that link of all of Nini's best bits...

49:42

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Is this a white wig picture,

49:44

Emi's first? Yeah, yeah. What? Yeah, white, you all

49:46

think it's all Nini. No, she's actually at... No,

49:49

Nini, like, that white, that whole

49:51

scene from beginning to end, let's

49:53

go find you a home, honey. The

49:56

whole thing is hilarious. You

49:59

know what? I just remembered. someone we didn't think

50:01

and I really want to, Taser

50:03

Black. Oh, Taser, yes. Taser Black,

50:05

Talbot, you know what you mean to

50:07

me, sir. Yeah, love you, Taser.

50:09

Love you, Taser. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Thank you

50:11

very much, Taser. Yeah, give

50:13

that man his thoughts. Yeah, let's give him his flowers. He did

50:16

a very good job in opening up a world

50:18

in a space to me and spent many

50:20

a time advising me, this is

50:22

doing also, even Marvin was the one that taught me to

50:24

edit. He's been, yeah. Marvin taught me how to edit. Like,

50:26

he took his time out in the evening and he was like, sit with

50:28

me and teach me how to edit a podcast. So like,

50:30

shout out to you. I always remember

50:32

Marvin physically coming. I always made a

50:34

moving chair and helping our side set

50:36

up with our first chair, with our

50:38

first show. And I remember Taser always

50:41

just being like, you guys are not ready for a

50:43

live show yet. And we used to beg. We used

50:45

to beg. Taser, please, fucking, please. I'm begging

50:47

you. Taser, please, fucking, fucking, please. Taser,

50:49

please, fucking, fucking, please. He's having some space medicine,

50:51

he's like, you're not ready. You're not ready. no,

50:54

you're ready. I thought he was one

50:56

wrap up manager. Get

51:00

out of my face, Taser. Like, get out of my

51:02

face. Benny, Benny, Marina. He probably thought he

51:04

was a mogul. No, he actually thought he

51:06

was a mogul. Yeah. Hilarious.

51:09

I'll say thank you very much for all of your

51:11

work. What is happening?

51:13

Yeah. Yo, girls,

51:15

it's Jordan Stephens. What's going on? 200

51:18

episodes. I am literally buzzing. What are

51:20

you talking about? Cultural icons, national treasures.

51:23

Like, I love chatting with you. You

51:25

know this. I feel at home

51:27

and I can't lie. I step outside and

51:30

I get stopped for being on your podcast.

51:32

You know what that means. Listen, I'm

51:35

sending you all the love in the world today and I

51:37

hope you're feeling proud of yourselves. I've

51:41

got a dilemma for you. Oh. Here's

51:43

my dilemma. How many times can

51:45

I text a close friend without

51:47

reply before I should take

51:49

the hint? Wait,

51:53

how many times? That is hilarious. I can't

51:56

lie. If I text you twice, you don't answer.

51:58

I'm calling you. Do you have a question? Yeah. the

52:00

full lock is bottomless. No, no,

52:02

no, thanks. I don't care. Like if you're

52:04

a close friend after two messages, I'm like, hey, also, I

52:06

mean, like, sometimes with Audrey, right, I'll say something,

52:08

just in fact, I'll go back to your, like,

52:10

at Audrey. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, exactly.

52:12

I think you missed this one. Yeah. Like, answer

52:14

me here. Yeah, no, I'm

52:17

going back. A close friend, I'm shameless, but I'm

52:19

going to go back as many times as I

52:21

see fit as the answer I want. I live

52:23

in court. Yeah. So, there's that. Yeah, as many times

52:25

as you want. Oh, that's great. Oh,

52:27

Jordan. Oh, Jordan. Love Jordan. Love

52:29

that. What a man. Girls,

52:36

puns, thank you

52:39

for, first of all, being so open,

52:44

so honest, so fine

52:46

and sane, straight entertaining. Thank

52:49

you for being vulnerable. Thank

52:52

you for being my friends in a real life. I

52:54

love you guys down. You know that. If it

52:56

was up to me, here's to the next 200.

52:59

Do you know what I mean? I would love

53:01

to be able to be all wrinkled up, listening

53:04

to you girls still, jabber on

53:06

about menopause and discussing

53:09

all the things that are going to affect us women as

53:11

we get older. But here's to

53:13

many, many more episodes. Congratulations

53:16

on building something. Actually,

53:18

before a lot of people ever did. Happy

53:20

200. Love you.

53:22

Love you. Guys,

53:25

well done on 200 episodes. Happy 200, man.

53:28

I remember doing 200 episodes. Facts. Everybody

53:30

has to start somewhere. Well done, guys. I'm

53:32

very proud of you. Been there. Good job.

53:35

Done that. Got a future. Hey,

53:37

man. Love you. See you guys around here.

53:42

Hey, funny and Audrey. I just want to say a

53:44

huge congratulations for each of your 200 episodes. I'm

53:48

not sure if you know how much time we've spent together

53:50

over the years. Like,

53:52

all of the years, right, since the very beginning. But

53:55

we have spent a lot. A lot,

53:57

a lot. Thank you for making such an incredible

53:59

podcast. Thank you for making me laugh inappropriately

54:01

on the tube and a huge

54:03

congratulations. Hi

54:09

Tolly and Audrey, this is Louis Theroux.

54:17

Oh my god, how are you? Congratulations

54:19

on reaching the 200th episode.

54:24

Amazing. I don't have

54:26

a dilemma for you other than how

54:28

to best express my admiration. Keep up

54:30

the good work. Bye bye. Alright

54:33

guys, we're the Niteys, baby show, my name

54:35

is Telly, after me. We're here in the

54:37

cut. Shout out to Tolly and Audrey, the

54:39

receipts. 200 episodes. You don't need to get

54:42

them F's up. Get them F's up. Get

54:45

them F's up. I know you do your receipts but get

54:47

the F's up. Alright,

54:49

reach out. More love for you guys, alright? See

54:51

you later. Congratulations

54:53

with the receipts podcast

54:57

on 200 episodes. There's no

54:59

small feat. Your

55:01

sincerely changed take us. Congratulations. Hello

55:04

Tolly, hello Audrey, Shaboy Teza Black.

55:10

Sorry. Hello Tolly, hello Audrey, Shaboy

55:12

Teza Black, Shaboy and Marvin Abby. And

55:14

we just want to say congratulations on your

55:16

200th episode. Zoop, zoop, zoop, Black,

55:18

what was more though? Wait, we're

55:21

on 400 and, I know I'm not prepared. I

55:23

didn't think I was prepared. I'm not prepared. I

55:25

didn't think I was prepared. We got your team.

55:27

Your... Oh my God. Look for love for the

55:29

boys. Come on, man. Many

55:32

more to come. Hey Tolly, Audrey, righty

55:35

here. I want to say congratulations on

55:37

Alicia. Oh my God, oh my

55:39

God, oh my God! Oh

55:42

my God, Shaboy, oh my God! Oh my God,

55:44

oh my God, oh my God! I

55:47

want to say congratulations on reaching your

55:49

200th episode. Keep going those

55:51

dilemmas, man. You're doing great stuff. Here's

55:53

to 200 more. Good luck. Go get

55:55

it. Oh my God, oh

55:58

my God! Oh

56:00

my god, oh my god, oh

56:03

my god. I

56:06

had to take my jacket off and throw it on the

56:08

floor. That was me throwing in the towel. Oh

56:12

my god, oh my god. Guys,

56:16

I am literally.

56:18

I know, I know, I know, I know, that

56:20

was such a nice surprise. You know what's so

56:22

funny? Amanda made it sound like it was nothing. That

56:25

was the most amazing surprise ever.

56:27

Oh my god guys, thank you.

56:33

I'm literally so moved by that. That

56:39

is the best surprise ever. Our

56:43

peers, the people, the

56:45

iconic people that we look up to. Oh

56:47

my god, this is just, this is

56:49

everything. I honestly

56:51

have nothing to say. Ian

56:55

Wright. Oh my god, Louis

56:57

Theroux, Grey's Mighty Baby, Martha

57:00

Hayes, everybody nods like, oh,

57:04

James as well, we got people

57:06

in. No,

57:09

I am really. When are you crying? Oh,

57:12

James, I'm crying. Oh,

57:14

honestly, I'm very rarely

57:16

moved to

57:21

the point of physical reaction that

57:24

was absolutely perfect. That

57:26

was the most beautiful thing. I'm so, so,

57:29

so gassed. Wow. I

57:32

want to say, yeah, you and me. I've

57:35

never been speechless in my life. Me either,

57:37

me either. Wow. I

57:39

don't know what to do. That was. Oh

57:42

my god. Oh my god. Oh my god.

57:45

Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my

57:47

god. Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh

57:50

my god. Oh my god. Oh my god.

57:52

Oh my god. Oh my

57:54

god. Oh my god. Oh my god.

57:56

As if we're not met enough at the

57:58

end. No,

58:00

that cake is everything. Oh

58:03

guys, thank you so much.

58:05

Thank you, we love you

58:07

guys. Yes,

58:12

we made it! Oh,

58:15

that cake is everything. I love

58:17

you now. Thank you. Oh,

58:20

that is, oh, that is amazing. Oh,

58:26

it's beautiful. I don't

58:28

know how I'm gonna do it. I don't know what to say.

58:31

Honestly, oh guys. I fucked,

58:33

I don't have any makeup on. I've got my makeup

58:35

on. I

58:37

do. Like you've been dipped under water. You

58:41

look like someone water-butted. Where,

58:44

where, water-butted? Water-butted.

58:49

I'm so crying. I wanna stop crying. Get

58:51

up in the end of the episode. Is there been an

58:53

hour? Please tell me there's been an hour. There's been

58:56

an hour. There's been an hour. What,

58:59

how long has it been? Okay.

59:04

Guys, guys, once

59:06

again, just to what we

59:08

said at the top of the episode, thank

59:10

you man. Like, there just aren't enough words

59:12

to say. Just thank you. Obviously we're incredibly

59:14

moved by the beautiful messages from our

59:17

friends and just people that we absolutely look

59:19

up to. Thank you.

59:21

Thank you man. Thank you for just

59:23

everything. Thank you Tolly for just being

59:25

an iconic woman. You know,

59:27

you're gonna, you're just amazing at everything you do.

59:31

Everything you do is amazing. And this

59:33

is just another notch

59:35

on your bed post. Tolly's

59:41

right. With emotions.

59:46

But honestly, today's been amazing.

59:48

Amanda was really like, oh, it's nothing. She

59:51

was like, oh, we've got a little something to

59:53

do, but don't get too excited. And just like,

59:55

we just. I just, I appreciate things a lot.

1:00:01

And honestly, it's been hard and we're

1:00:03

finally back. And

1:00:06

like, we've got our mojo back, we've got our love

1:00:08

for it back, we've got our happiness back. This finally

1:00:10

feels like a safe place for me again. And

1:00:13

I'm just, yeah, thank

1:00:15

you. Yeah, thank you. I mean,

1:00:17

I don't, yeah, I'm just, I'm

1:00:19

very, very gassed. Things like that make me so

1:00:21

happy. Like they really, really do. Like

1:00:24

the voices of people that

1:00:26

we love so much, man. It's just, it's

1:00:28

just beautiful. I am clipping that

1:00:30

Ian Wright bit. And I'm sending it

1:00:32

to me like, oh babe, oh look what Ian Wright

1:00:34

did. Yeah, exactly. That is a flex. Like that is

1:00:36

a flex. I'm not always joking about my era of

1:00:39

football. Like Ian Wright is my era of football. Nick's

1:00:41

always like, you always come to your era. That is

1:00:43

my era. So that's why I was so incredibly gassed.

1:00:45

My dad's in town, so I can't wait to like

1:00:47

tell him. But yeah,

1:00:49

man, just thank you. Everyone that sent in

1:00:51

a dilemma, that trusted us. With like your

1:00:53

deepest, darkest secrets and the things that you're going through.

1:00:56

Some of you be going through it. Just

1:00:58

yeah, thank you for the continued support. Like every time

1:01:00

you send an email when you give us all that

1:01:02

praise, like it really fills me up. Do you know

1:01:04

what I mean? Like, yeah, we're just eternally grateful. And

1:01:07

just the amazing team here at the Receipts podcast HQ.

1:01:10

Thank you. Thank you. We love you

1:01:13

guys. And here's to 200 more. I've been

1:01:15

your girl, Dolly T. And just

1:01:17

call me Audrey. Cheers, babes. Love

1:01:19

you. Bye. Thank you guys.

1:01:21

This episode is proudly called T.

1:01:23

Busgottafyte. Thank you.