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now without further ado Please enjoy
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and thank you for listening. First
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up, Tony Robbins, entrepreneur,
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philanthropist, and the
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nation's number one life and business
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strategist and the number one
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New York Times bestselling author of
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Money, Master the Game, Life
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Force, and Awaken the
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find Tony on Twitter and Instagram at
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Tony Robbins. Looking
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at the longevity of your career, the
6:29
scope and scale of the
6:31
Tony Robbins empire, so to speak, your
6:34
endurance has really impressed me. And
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so I'm wondering after these
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decades, what are some of your
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daily routines? My regimen is I
6:43
start with something to strengthen
6:46
and jolt my nervous system every second day.
6:48
Well, sometimes he's into it, I'll go in the hot pools. I'm
6:50
fortunate enough to have multiple homes. My home in Sun Valley, I
6:52
have natural hot pools that come out of the ground just to
6:55
see me hot. I go in the hot
6:57
pools and then I go there in the river. Here I go on
6:59
a 57 degree plunge pool that I have. And I have on every
7:01
home I have, every one of these. Immediately upon
7:03
waking up. It's just like boom,
7:05
every cell in the body wakes up.
7:07
And it's also just like training my nervous
7:09
system to rock that there is no, I don't
7:11
even show how you feel. This is how you
7:14
perform. This is what you do. Even when I'm
7:16
taking vacation, I do it. It's just, I don't
7:18
know. Now I like it. I like that simple
7:20
discipline that reminds me the level
7:22
of strength and intensity that's available at any moment,
7:24
even if I'm relaxing, I can bring that up
7:26
at will. This is my one. I
7:28
also have a cryotherapy unit. Home, sorry, do you
7:31
use tri-cryotherapy? I haven't. You know what it is?
7:33
Maybe you can. I
7:35
can put the two words together and probably get
7:37
it. Oh
7:40
my God. But all that you do, you're going to
7:42
love this. I'm surprised. I'm glad I'm teaching Tim Ferriss
7:44
up the pressure. I've done ice bath. Oh, not the
7:46
first time. I can have a sock, trust me. I'm
7:49
on stage in a weekend. I do my at least
7:51
powered in program three days, 50 hours. You've
7:54
got to come with my guest on events. I would love
7:56
to. But I'm going to give you an idea. People Won't
7:58
sit for a three hour movie. The com is
8:00
a threat or billion dollars on and I
8:02
got like as your Oprah going on you
8:05
to i love you but two hours mostly
8:07
get him and twelve hours later over standing
8:09
on a check on the most incredibly smooth
8:11
my wife on camera or like do I
8:13
mean for all three days but for me
8:15
one of those days alone am I the
8:17
I were odometer and I'm a bit as
8:19
twenty six miles on average while we started
8:21
eight thirty in the morning as innocent wonder
8:23
if to there's one one hour break people
8:25
can vote with your feet No one leaves
8:27
it out there. On average twenty
8:29
minutes of just crazy ass standing ovations,
8:31
Music stuff that happens. The and people
8:33
are just as like a rock concert.
8:35
Have some fun but. The wear
8:37
and tear up doing know basically marathon
8:39
aftermath of the marathon the weekend back
8:41
to backs pretty intense and so over
8:43
the years like the inflammation my body
8:45
to demands I've had to have no
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can reduce it's nothing is composed. Go
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out there because there is developed in
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Poland and Eastern Germany and the Eastern
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Bloc countries. thought it does is it
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uses nitrogen so there's no water and
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unlike a nice opportunity get spasms and
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him how to do so. Riser boxer
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your runner. You're an athlete which is
9:04
why would you before he them. None.
9:06
Of that process, but his reduces your
9:08
body temperature to minus twenty Fahrenheit and
9:11
you have three minutes. And
9:13
it's mind boggling. And sat. On.
9:15
Your nostrils when it and if you like
9:17
that I would love to know them either
9:19
side you to hear other flights. but what
9:21
it does is and I do about three
9:24
times a week. Usually when I come back
9:26
for that I do it in a couple
9:28
days around. The what it does is it
9:30
takes all the information. Everybody you know what
9:32
information does every aspect about invite them but
9:34
it also sends an emergency. Mr. Branson resetting
9:36
your neurological system. Is your brain going? You're
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gonna freeze to death. Sounds rather get really
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isn't you find us? Not a painful going
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of my coupons and fifty Five Degrees kills
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more insulting the just. as even colder cause
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you know the fluid of water versus the
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night live in different predicated on many sides
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of the exact right but what happens is
9:53
your nervousness get the signals of like everything
9:55
your body connect because it's like emergency i
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report is a reserve you nervous system explosion
10:00
of endorphins in your body, which is really
10:02
cool. So you get this natural high, you
10:05
feel this physiological transformation, and you get the
10:07
reduction of inflammation. What it was used for
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originally is for people with arthritis. And I
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found my first one, because my mother-in-law would
10:13
be calling up and she was just crying
10:15
and pain and no medication was enough for
10:17
her. And I hate something medicated anyhow. And
10:20
so I started doing this research and it just
10:22
started to come to the US and now the
10:24
LA Lakers, most football teams, it's spreading like wildfire
10:26
on most sports teams. And so that's where it
10:28
took off. So I went and got her one
10:31
and I mean, it took her, I think three
10:33
sessions and she's out of pain. And now there's
10:35
another day she's in pain. So now most
10:37
people can't afford to go buy a unit, but there
10:39
are local places now that are popping up all over
10:41
the United States where athletes go, where people go, where
10:44
people go for rejuvenation. It's amazing to the skin, but
10:46
it's one of the great things. I got it first,
10:48
I got it for me. And then now I'm addicted.
10:50
But other than that, I'm too much unique or different
10:52
with my life. I don't believe that entirely. I'll keep
10:55
digging how far after. So what is, if you were
10:57
to kind of spec out the first hour of your
10:59
day, the first every day
11:01
I do the water, I take any
11:03
environment. And then the first thing I do for doing else
11:05
my day is I do what I call priming. And
11:08
priming to me is different than meditating. I'm never really
11:10
a meditator per se. I know the value of it,
11:12
but the idea for me of sitting still and having
11:14
no thoughts just didn't really work out for me. I
11:17
was just a pain in the ass. And I just
11:19
thought it's not natural. And I just like, that's where
11:21
it works. But when I'm in nature, I feel that
11:23
form of meditation. When I stand on stage and someone
11:25
stands up and my brain, it's done. I don't even
11:28
know what it is, but person is suicidal. I've never
11:30
lost a suicide, for example, in 37 years, knock on
11:32
wood doesn't mean I won't someday, but I never have
11:34
it. Thousands and we followed up with them. So
11:37
it's like there's something that comes through me. And
11:39
it's quite meditative. It's like I experienced it as
11:41
a witness. You know, afterwards, it's one
11:43
of the most beautiful gifts in my life. So
11:45
I know that meditation. But for me, what priming
11:47
is, if you want to be, have a prime life, you got
11:49
to be in a prime state. And
11:52
weeds go automatically. I don't give a damn what it is. My
11:54
teacher, Jim Rohn, just say that. And so what I do is
11:56
I get up and I do a very simple process. I do
11:59
an explosive physiology. I've done the
12:01
water already, cold hot. Then
12:03
I do it with breath. I know you know
12:05
all forms of Eastern meditation. I'll understand that the
12:07
mind is the kite and breath is the string.
12:10
So if I want to move that kite, I move
12:12
the breath. So I have a specific pattern of breathing
12:14
that I do. I do 30 of these breaths and
12:16
I do them at three sets of 30. That
12:19
plays a profound physiological difference in my body.
12:22
From that altered state, I usually listen to
12:24
some music and I go for, I promise
12:26
myself 10 minutes and I usually go 30.
12:28
And you do that in this room that
12:30
we're sitting in? No, I do it all up. This one room is where
12:32
I do it. This has got a great vibe. I'll do this one. I
12:35
usually will go outside because I love the wind on my
12:37
face and I love taking the elements and so forth. But
12:39
I do it in multiple places. I'm on the road. I
12:41
do it. It doesn't matter what day. I do
12:44
not miss priming. The reason is you don't get
12:46
fit by getting lucky. You don't get
12:48
fit by working out for a weekend. You know you
12:50
live your life that way. Fitness is because it becomes
12:52
just part of who you are. So what I do
12:54
during that time is I do three simple things. I
12:57
do it minimum 10 minutes. Three minutes of it is
12:59
just me getting back inside my
13:01
body and outside of my head, feeling the
13:03
earth in my body experience and then feeling
13:05
totally grateful for three things. I'll
13:07
make sure one of them is something very,
13:09
very simple. The wind on my face, you know,
13:11
the reflection, the clouds that I just saw there.
13:14
But I don't just think gratitude. It's like I
13:16
let gratitude fill my soul because when you're grateful,
13:18
as we all know, there's no anger. It's
13:21
possibly angry and painful simultaneously. But when you're
13:23
grateful, there is no fear. You
13:25
can't be fearful and grateful simultaneously. So I think
13:27
it is one of the most important power emotions
13:29
of life. And also to me, there's nothing worse
13:31
than an angry rich man or
13:34
woman. You know, somebody's got everything and they're
13:36
pissed off. I want to surprisingly high number. Yes,
13:38
it is because the development of life is based
13:40
on expectation instead of appreciation. Agreed. I tell
13:42
people you want to change your life fast and
13:44
trade your expectation for appreciation. You have a
13:46
whole new life. So every day I anchor that
13:49
in and I do it very
13:51
deeply emotionally. Then the second three minutes I
13:53
do is a total focus on feeling
13:56
presence of God, if you will, however you
13:58
want to language that for yourself. But this
14:01
inner presence coming in and feeling that
14:03
heals everything in my body, my mind, my
14:05
emotions, my relationships, my finances, I see it
14:07
as solving anything that needs to be solved.
14:10
I experience the strengthening of my gratitude, of
14:12
my joy, of my strength, of my conviction,
14:14
of my passion. And I just let those
14:17
things happen spontaneously. And then I
14:19
focus on celebration and then service, because my whole life
14:21
is about services, it makes me feel alive. So I
14:24
flood myself with that, with a breathing pattern that
14:26
I take that does the opposite, takes the breath
14:28
down through my body and back up again. And
14:31
then the last three minutes are me focusing
14:33
on three things I'm going to make happen, my three to
14:35
thrive. I have some big things that I'll
14:37
do, and sometimes I'll do things that are smaller, but I
14:39
see them, feel them, experience them. So it's a really simplistic
14:41
process, 10 minutes, but I come out of
14:44
it in my power. It
14:46
doesn't matter if I had two hours sleep, I'm
14:48
now ready. And I do this even when I
14:50
have no sleep. That's how committed I am. And
14:52
as I say, I've always said, there's no excuse not
14:54
to do 10 minutes. If you don't have 10
14:56
minutes, you don't have a wife. And that's why I
14:58
got myself to do it. And now that I've done it, 20 to
15:01
30 minutes is almost always what it is, because it actually
15:03
feels extraordinary. I have to ask, what
15:05
type of music do you usually listen to during
15:07
that? I have a variety, but for that meditation,
15:09
I have one in particular, which is the Oneness
15:11
Meditation that a friend of mine made at Fus
15:13
from India that I find really profound. No
15:16
singing in it or anything like that. It's just the
15:18
sound of a vibration that's going on and I just
15:20
love it. But that's what I've done currently in the
15:22
past over the years. I've used all kinds of different
15:24
music, but I don't use modern music or pop music
15:26
or rock music. I do that to work out,
15:28
you know, rap. I don't know, it just feels weird
15:30
to be doing rap while you're meditating. But
15:33
again, what's different is I don't listen to meditation
15:35
because I look at it as it's priming courage,
15:37
love, joy. It's priming gratitude. It's priming strength. It's
15:39
priming accomplishment. It's priming, you know, when I'm doing
15:42
my gratitude piece, I'm doing the circle that's closest
15:44
to me and circling that out to everybody I
15:46
love and sending that energy and healing out to
15:48
them as well. So to me, that's
15:50
if you want prime time life, you got to prime
15:52
daily. I like the term priming
15:54
also because I think that most people who
15:57
struggle with meditation or even attempt to use
15:59
meditation are. utilizing it for that purpose. They're
16:01
doing it first in the morning. And you know,
16:03
when he said, if you don't have 10 minutes, you don't have a
16:05
life, it reminded me of something that Russell Simmons said, which was, if
16:07
you don't have 30 minutes to meditate, you need three hours. And
16:10
I don't always do 30 minutes, but I do meditate
16:12
in the morning. And it's been a very consistent pattern
16:15
among all of the people that have interviewed so far
16:17
on the podcast. I'll
16:20
tell you four things I saw that stood out. And
16:22
one is overly simplistic, and that's why people don't
16:24
pay attention to it. These guys pay attention to
16:26
it. They don't lose. Half
16:28
the teeth awakening is not losing, and
16:30
they are obsessed. Every single one is
16:32
obsessed about losing money. I
16:35
mean, a level of obsession that's mind boggling. It
16:37
isn't just these investors, you know, Sir Richard Branson,
16:39
for example, you know, people see
16:41
Richard and he's such an outgoing, playful, crazy guy.
16:43
He's kind of an introvert in some areas, but
16:45
when it comes to athletics and picking on challenges,
16:48
he's out in the world. But
16:50
you know, his first question in every business is what's the
16:52
downside and how he protected it. Like
16:54
when he did his piece of Virgin, I mean, that's
16:56
a big risk. I'm starting an airline. He went to
16:59
Boeing and negotiated a deal that he could send the
17:01
planes back if it didn't work out and he wasn't
17:03
liable. What's the level these guys think at? So they
17:05
look to see how do I not lose money first?
17:07
Because the average person has no clue. I lose 50%
17:10
in 2008. Well,
17:13
just what? You gotta make 100% to get even,
17:15
not 50%. Your principal's gone
17:17
down so much. So it's like, people don't understand. You lose
17:19
60%, it's 200% to get even. And
17:22
so the average person, you know, lives
17:24
in a world where they try not to lose
17:27
money, but they're not obsessed. He's not obsessed. Second
17:29
thing they all have in common, every single
17:31
one of them is obsessed with asymmetrical risk
17:33
reward, which is a big word. It simply
17:35
means they're looking to use
17:38
the least amount of risk to get the max
17:40
amount of upside. And that's what they live for.
17:42
Here's what I found with Paul Tudor at the very beginning of the
17:45
background track. When he said his best,
17:47
he made sure every single trade had what
17:49
he called a five to one. That
17:52
means if he was gonna risk a dollar, he wasn't about
17:54
to risk it unless he was certain he was gonna make
17:56
false. You're not always right. So
17:59
that's what. I risk a dollar make five
18:01
and I'm wrong. I can risk another dollar still make
18:03
four. I can be wrong
18:05
four times out of five. It's still
18:07
break even. Their secret is not the data. They're
18:09
not wrong. If they set themself up
18:12
where they risk small amounts for big rewards proportionally,
18:14
Paul, you know, he's right. But one out of
18:16
three times he still makes 20%. So
18:19
the average person with the dollar trying to make how
18:21
much? Dollar 10. Right.
18:23
About 10. If I could get 10%, wow,
18:25
my dollar, right? 20% would be
18:27
unbelievable. How often can you be wrong? Not
18:30
very often. Not at all. You're
18:32
in the hole. You're starting from the home. You got
18:34
to build back up. So they are asymmetrical. It's like
18:36
I was with Kyle Bass and how bass risks check
18:38
this out in the middle of
18:40
the subprime crisis. He made $2
18:43
billion out of 30 million because he risked for
18:45
every six cents. He risked. He had an upside
18:47
of a dollar. Six cents for a
18:49
hundred. Well, you could be wrong 15 times
18:52
and you're still okay in that area. I mean, he's
18:54
brilliant to figure it out. He's a genius figured out,
18:56
but that risk reward is why it is. He showed
18:58
his kids, he taught. I said, how do I teach
19:01
us the average investors? And he said, well,
19:03
you can teach them when I taught my kids. And I said,
19:05
how'd you do it? He goes, we bought nickels. I
19:07
said, what do you mean you bought nickels? He said,
19:09
well, I did research. I had this question. That's another
19:11
thing that all these guys do. They ask a better
19:13
question. We talked about, they get better answers, right? Better
19:15
quality question, better quality answer. What's wrong with me? You'll
19:17
come up with stuff. How do I make this happen?
19:20
No matter what, they'll come up with different answers. So
19:22
his question was, where in the
19:24
world is there a riskless trade with pull-up
19:27
side? And he
19:29
started looking around and he said, I'm worried about
19:31
inflation. So he started, well, gosh, of all the
19:33
currencies in the world, a nickel, what isn't added
19:35
up today, it's not made mostly of nickel, by
19:37
the way, he said, it's costing
19:39
the US government nine and
19:41
a half cents to make a nickel. That's how
19:44
our government functions. It
19:46
was being almost 10 cents to make
19:48
something worth half as much, right? Depending
19:50
on plan. Yeah, perfect plan. So he
19:52
said, but you know what? Just the
19:54
actual material value, right? Is 6.8, whatever
19:56
it was, six, something six and a
19:58
half, four round numbers. So he
20:00
said, if I buy a nickel, it's never going less than a
20:02
nickel unless you believe the US government's gone. So
20:05
I've got something that never goes down in value. So I
20:07
got a guaranteed return, and I'm not going to lose my
20:09
principle. But day one, it's worth
20:11
36% more than the day I bought
20:13
it. How many investments can you have 100% guarantee
20:15
of no loss and have 36%? I
20:17
said, yeah, but that's the belt value. And I saw they passed
20:19
the law a few years ago. I think Charlie Rangel, whoever it
20:21
was, was the one who pushed it through. And he goes, yeah,
20:23
but Tony said, that doesn't matter. So let me tell you
20:25
why. He said, look at pennies. When
20:28
they changed it from pure copper to 10 and
20:30
all things they changed, what happened to the old
20:32
pennies? There's a scarcity of them.
20:34
And now a penny from those days, the word 2 cents,
20:36
it's 100% more valuable. So
20:39
he said, at some point, the government cannot continue to
20:41
do something that costs twice as much. At
20:43
some point, they'll make a change in the materials.
20:45
And then all these nickels are worth an unbelievable
20:47
amount. So he said, I just show my kids,
20:50
you need to think different than everybody else. Don't
20:52
think I have to take huge risks for huge
20:54
rewards. Think, how do I take no risk and
20:56
get huge rewards? And because you ask the question
20:58
continuously and you believe in answer, you get it.
21:00
So he said, listen, if I could convert my
21:02
entire wealth in this, I said, you're insane. He
21:05
goes, I am insane. But it's the best possible
21:07
fundamental investment. He started telling me how to do
21:09
it. He bought 40 million nickels.
21:11
Wow. Well, you have 40 million nickels. It
21:13
fills up a room bigger than this. Right.
21:15
Better be on the ground floor. He had
21:17
his kids dragging up the end and laughing,
21:19
having fun. I mean, it's like their little
21:21
treasure. He can legitimately do like the Scrooge
21:23
McDuck backstroke. You're a pool full of nickels.
21:25
For real. So
21:28
that's a semester one. I'll give you one more and I'll shut the
21:31
hell up. I know. No, I'm not. You're asking me what they're... You're
21:33
telling me the difference. And I want you to know
21:35
there are differences. We can spend hours and hours
21:37
on differences. But when things are useful, is what's
21:39
aligned because then it gives something universal. Absolutely. The
21:41
other one for them is they absolutely beyond a
21:43
shadow of a doubt, know they're going to be
21:45
wrong. You will look at these talking
21:48
heads on television and people screaming you and hitting bells and
21:50
telling you what to buy. Right. Right. The
21:53
best on earth, the right values, right. The pebbles,
21:55
the, you know, I don't give it who you
21:57
talk about. You want to look at Carl Icahn.
21:59
They all know. going to be wrong. So
22:01
they sign up an asset allocation system that
22:03
will make them successful. They all agree asset allocation
22:05
is the single most important investment. There wasn't one
22:07
person in terms of your vehicle that was the
22:09
most important thing, no matter how they attacked it. Asset
22:11
allocation was the element there. And the last one
22:13
is they are lifelong learners. I mean,
22:15
these people are machines like you, like me, like
22:18
Peter, like most of the people you and I
22:20
share as friends, they just are
22:22
obsessed with knowing more. And because the more they
22:24
know, the more they realize what they didn't know,
22:26
and then they apply that and they go to
22:28
another level. And every time you think you're the
22:30
best you can be in anything in life, your
22:32
body, your emotions, spirit, your finances, there's always another
22:34
level. And these guys live by it. And
22:36
the last one that I found almost all of them were
22:38
real givers. Not just givers on
22:40
the surface like money givers, that's wonderful, but
22:42
really passionate about giving. And it
22:44
showed up once they thought what I was doing was legitimate
22:46
and was really real. I mean, then they're opening up every
22:49
hour of their time with something that many of these guys
22:51
will never get. Just
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welcome to the show. Hey Tim,
24:24
it's great to be here. I'm really
24:26
excited to talk to you. We have
24:28
so much we could possibly talk about.
24:30
You and I have spoken before, had
24:32
quite a few conversations over the last,
24:34
god knows how many years, with particular
24:36
density a handful of years ago. And
24:39
I thought we could start with the spider
24:42
tattoo, which you just showed me over a
24:44
video. It is not a small tattoo, so
24:46
perhaps much like a
24:48
novel I greatly enjoy, The Girl with the Dragon
24:50
Tattoo. This would be the Coach with the Spider
24:53
Tattoo, but I don't know the story. Why
24:55
do you have a gigantic spider tattoo on
24:57
your chest? Yeah, so spider
24:59
is a good friend of mine.
25:01
Spider is my spirit guide. So
25:07
in 2007, I went on a
25:10
retreat, led by a
25:12
Jungian eco-psychologist named Bill
25:15
Plotkin. And
25:19
on that retreat, this is a long
25:21
story, Tim, you ready for it? Oh, I'm ready. We
25:24
have nothing but time. On that retreat,
25:26
I started to go really deep
25:28
into some of the important
25:31
structures of my life and
25:33
I had a dream. And
25:35
it was after a night of ecstatic
25:37
dancing, in which
25:40
I danced nearly naked in
25:42
a drum circle. And
25:44
I'd fallen asleep and I had this dream in
25:46
which I was going to a
25:48
house that I owned on Long Island. I
25:52
got to the house and the house was completely
25:54
white and I was really terrified.
25:57
And I Went into the house and it was supposed to be
25:59
my house. Didn't feel right and I
26:01
ended up in the basement and in the
26:03
basement basement for was covered with this sort
26:05
of like the for of a forest and
26:08
these mushrooms for sprouting up. And
26:10
I got very scared and I tore the
26:12
mushrooms from the ground and I ran out
26:14
of the house. So the next morning I
26:16
went into circle. Or. Get in and assured
26:18
that dream. And Dell
26:20
turns me and he says. Police.
26:24
Be a circle right now. I wanted to
26:26
go into the forest and which is fine
26:28
those mushrooms and I wanted to apologize to
26:30
those machines. And
26:32
ask it what it was that you were
26:34
supposed to hear from them that you were
26:36
too afraid to here. So I left the
26:38
circle on. I started wandering around and I'm
26:40
like what the fuck am I doing I'm
26:42
walking around us a forest trying to find
26:44
these mushrooms and I actually have to have
26:46
a conversation with these mushrooms. and to be
26:48
clear I was that ingesting the mushrooms games
26:51
I know who I'm talking to. Set of
26:53
a set of I'm walking around and. All.
26:55
The sudden I see and the ground. The.
26:57
Exact same white long stringy
26:59
mushrooms and I might sit
27:02
down. And I dropped my
27:04
knees and I start crying and I said i'm
27:06
so sorry I'm so sorry. What were you here
27:08
to teach me. And. They said
27:10
the my some said to me. Your.
27:13
To of first. Go. Into the
27:15
forest and find your place. And
27:17
now and like freaking out even more sorry
27:19
just standing up and unlike fumbling around And
27:21
this is a time through my life where
27:24
I'm just a freak rak and I'm crying
27:26
and I'm wandering through the forest and scientists
27:28
little sort of. Indentation This
27:30
little spot and I sit down and I'm
27:32
like sitting on my romp in. I've got
27:35
my hands in my on my knees and
27:37
my said. And. I'm just crying
27:39
and I look up. And. Awesome!
27:42
To my right is is gorgeous spiderweb.
27:45
And it actually has little do
27:47
drops glistening on it and like
27:49
okay this they look like crystals
27:51
and this little spider comes walking
27:53
out and says Virginia Garden Spider.
27:56
and i look at it and i said okay i
27:58
give up what the fuck are you because
28:01
I have no idea. And
28:03
the spider says to me, you
28:05
worry too much. Your
28:08
children are going to be fine. And
28:11
I just start shaking, because there's no
28:13
message that I needed to hear more than that. And
28:16
so I came out of that forest, I came
28:18
out of there at retreat. And
28:20
a few weeks later was my 45th
28:23
birthday, there about the
28:25
actual year doesn't matter so much as
28:27
the fact that it was my birthday.
28:29
And on my birthday, I got this
28:32
spider tattoo above my heart,
28:35
so that I can never forget the
28:37
fact that I worry too much, and
28:39
that my kids are going to be all right. So
28:42
that's the spider. Has it
28:45
remained relevant to
28:47
you? Is it something that you
28:49
consciously notice? Or because it's so
28:52
continuously present, do you find yourself
28:54
sometimes losing sight of it? Both.
28:58
Meaning, I'm often reminded, as I was when you
29:00
asked and you said, Oh, I'm going to ask
29:02
you about the spider. I'm
29:04
often reminded. So thank
29:07
you for reminding me that
29:09
the point of that spiders visitation
29:11
to me was to remember
29:14
who I am. And
29:16
I can use that reminder every day
29:18
because I forget every day, not
29:21
only do I forget who I am, but I
29:23
forget that my kids are all right. And that
29:25
I worry too much. Thank
29:27
you for the story. And it
29:31
makes me think of given
29:34
the spider Lakota
29:36
mythology and ikdemy
29:39
their various names for ikdemy, but ikdemy
29:41
is a spider trickster spirit that have
29:44
a hero. And perhaps
29:46
one of the ways that you
29:48
are a productive trickster is by
29:50
asking questions that are very uncomfortable,
29:54
or that can be very uncomfortable.
29:57
And I think that's one of your arts.
30:00
and we're gonna come back to that for sure.
30:03
But I thought we could revisit another
30:06
perhaps chapter or event in your life
30:08
that seems to have been very
30:11
impactful. Could you talk to, I
30:14
believe it was February 2002 after
30:17
something involving the Olympics or the
30:20
Olympic bid meeting, if
30:22
you know what I'm referring to. So
30:25
February 2002, I was
30:27
working at JP Morgan at the time. I
30:30
was co-leading the technology investment practice
30:32
for a fund that was about
30:34
$23 billion on a management, so
30:37
a large fund. And this was
30:40
after having left Flatiron Partners in
30:43
I think around the middle of 2001.
30:47
And just for clarity, that was billions with a
30:49
B. That was billions with
30:51
a B. Yeah, that's a large fund. It's
30:54
a large fund. I mean, but we
30:56
were very diversified. We did everything from
30:58
Brazilian railroads to funding the
31:00
launch of JetBlue Airlines to
31:05
the latest web-based startup in
31:07
some capacity. Anyway,
31:09
a few months prior, it had
31:12
been clear that my previous fund, Flatiron
31:14
Partners needed to be wound down. And
31:17
Fred and I needed to make some decisions
31:19
about what to do. And I
31:21
was in the midst of trying to sort through what I was gonna
31:23
do with the rest of my life. I did
31:26
not have the internal capacity to
31:28
raise a new fund. I know
31:31
now that I was in the
31:33
midst of a very profound depression
31:36
that was exacerbated by the attacks
31:38
on 9-11. And
31:40
one of the ways I responded to the attacks on
31:43
9-11 was to
31:45
throw myself into the Olympic bid effort.
31:48
We were bidding to bring the 2012 games to New York. And
31:53
for me, this was a profoundly
31:55
important effort because now you're
31:58
gonna make me cry. was attacked.
32:02
The city that I love. The
32:06
city where I grew up, the city of
32:08
Brooklyn, the place that had
32:10
so much meaning for me was attacked and I
32:13
remember the feeling helpless
32:16
during the fall following the
32:18
attack. Anyway, around the same time I had
32:20
to decide whether or not I was going
32:22
to accept an offer to join JP Morgan
32:25
which had been one of the funders
32:27
and the funding partners for flat-hearted
32:29
partners. Eventually I did
32:31
that and Fred linked up with Brad
32:33
Burnham and they launched Union Square Ventures.
32:36
By the way, worst decision of my
32:38
life but anyway to join JP Morgan
32:40
and not go to Union Square Ventures.
32:43
Anyway, so he went off and did
32:45
that. I joined JP Morgan and
32:47
by February 2002 I
32:50
was a wreck. What
32:53
you're referring to is February 2nd, 2002. I left an
32:58
Olympic bid committee meeting which
33:00
was being held downtown not
33:03
far from Ground Zero and I found
33:06
myself outside of the stinking
33:09
smoking hole
33:12
that was the pile as they
33:15
referred to it of Ground Zero
33:18
and I remember feeling completely overwhelmed
33:20
and feeling like there were ghosts
33:23
flying around that area and
33:26
I wanted to die and
33:29
I was obsessed with the idea of
33:31
running down to the Wall Street Subway
33:33
Station and leaping in front of our
33:35
subway and I ended
33:38
up deciding not to do that but
33:40
wisely and thankfully instead
33:42
called my therapist Dr.
33:44
Sayers who said
33:46
to me promptly get in a cab and come
33:48
out and see me and
33:51
I did just that and
33:54
saved my life at that point. What
33:57
did your therapist do when you
34:00
arrived, what was that session like?
34:02
Can you describe that session? So
34:05
Dr. Sayers was a psychoanalyst and so
34:07
I very traditionally almost like a New
34:09
York cartoon would lay on the couch.
34:13
I can't help but think of that and
34:15
think of like somehow it's a dog sitting
34:18
in the therapist chair. It's like some sort
34:20
of New Yorker thing. Anyway, so
34:22
I'm laying on the couch staring at the
34:24
ceiling as I did all
34:26
the time and I remember saying to
34:28
her, just stick a
34:30
fork in me, I'm fucking done. Put
34:32
me in the hospital, throw away the key and
34:35
you know to be clear the threat was real
34:37
because when I was 18 I did try
34:40
to kill myself and
34:42
so no fooling around
34:44
here. Right? I mean this isn't just
34:46
some idle ideation going
34:48
on here. This was like I
34:51
was in it. I was 38, I was
34:53
being cooked and I was
34:55
declaring that I was done and Dr. Sayers
34:58
who was also from Brooklyn said
35:00
the most magical thing possible. She said, what
35:02
the hell do you want to go to
35:04
a hospital for? The food sucks. Go
35:08
to Canyon Ranch. You'll get a massage every day. You'll
35:10
be so much better. What
35:13
is Canyon Ranch? Canyon Ranch is
35:16
a health spa and it's a
35:18
very nice place. I loved
35:20
it. It was really sweet but it's
35:23
about as far removed from a psychiatric hospital
35:25
as you can imagine because by the way
35:28
I did spend three months in a psychiatric
35:30
hospital so I sort of knew what I
35:32
was asking for if you will. So
35:35
that's what I did. I made plans to go down
35:38
to Arizona. I think it was the Arizona
35:40
branch of Canyon Ranch and that
35:44
moved was the beginning of me
35:46
being rebuilt. When and
35:48
why did you spend time in a psychiatric
35:50
hospital? I mentioned the suicide attempt.
35:53
I was 18 and I
35:56
had on January 2nd something
35:58
about the number two. January
36:00
2nd, I guess it
36:02
was 1981, I'm
36:05
losing track of the time. I
36:07
had just turned 18 and I
36:09
tried to kill myself. I
36:12
cut my wrists and
36:15
first went to, I was
36:17
taken to the emergency room, Jamaica
36:19
hospital, the Trump pavilion. That's
36:21
all I'm going to say. And
36:24
then I was transferred
36:27
from there to Creed Moore State
36:29
Hospital. Which is just
36:31
this side of hell. And
36:33
then from there after three days
36:36
at Creed Moore, I was transferred to a
36:38
hospital that actually is no longer a hospital,
36:41
Cabrini Medical Center in
36:43
Manhattan, where I was there for
36:45
three months. I'd love
36:47
to, I think this is a good
36:49
point to come
36:51
back to questions
36:54
and good questions and
36:56
you're very skilled in this department. So I'm
36:58
going to pose one of your questions to
37:00
you and you can feel free to tweak
37:02
it, paraphrase it, correct it any
37:05
way you like. But if you look back
37:08
to 2002, how
37:11
were you complicit in creating the
37:13
conditions in your life that
37:16
you would have said you didn't want? Nice
37:19
turn. Which is a great question.
37:21
So maybe you could repeat it
37:24
for folks because it is so important.
37:27
And this is something that has really
37:29
aided me when you introduced it to
37:31
me many moons ago. And
37:34
then if you could speak to that as it applies
37:36
to that particular period in your life. I'll
37:38
unpack the question. So the way I usually ask
37:40
the question goes like this. How
37:42
have I been complicit in
37:45
creating the conditions I say I don't want?
37:48
And the reason for the language is
37:50
very, very purposeful. I like
37:52
to use the word complicit and not responsible.
37:56
90% of the time when I first asked that question, people
37:58
hear the word. What have I been
38:01
responsible for the conditions? Compliciteness
38:04
is important because it's not, it's
38:06
relieving the person from the burden
38:08
of feeling responsible for all the
38:10
shit in their lives because
38:12
that's not fair to carry that
38:15
responsibility. But
38:18
it's helpful to think of
38:20
ourselves as somehow being served
38:22
by the challenges that
38:24
we're going through. The second piece
38:27
of that is that I say I don't
38:29
want and that sort of unpacks that notion
38:31
even further which is there's
38:33
something oftentimes about the way in which
38:36
we operate and the way we set
38:38
up the conditions of our lives to
38:41
be in unconscious service to
38:43
us. The psychological term
38:45
is secondary gain but there are ways
38:47
in which we find ourselves repeating patterns
38:50
in our life. We always date the
38:52
same type of person. We are always
38:54
finding ourselves in the same kind of
38:56
job. We're always frustrated by the
38:59
same sorts of situation. And
39:01
so it's really useful to sort of start
39:03
to unpack that. So that's
39:05
that question. And before
39:07
I even answer your question, I want to say
39:09
one other thing. The discomfort
39:12
of difficult and powerful questions
39:14
reminds me of something my daughter Emma likes to
39:17
say about me which is that imagine growing
39:20
up with a man who asks you questions
39:22
that you really rather not answer. So
39:28
shout out to Emma. So
39:32
I think that the way I was complicit.
39:35
I guess we should thank Emma for
39:37
being the crash test dummy for the
39:39
questions that you use now in your
39:41
career. You got it. Well
39:44
Emma and Michael, Emma and her brothers Michael
39:46
and Sam for sure, for sure. God
39:48
love them. They put up with
39:50
so much with me. Oh my God. Stop
39:52
coaching me. So
39:56
before I can answer
39:58
that question. Honestly,
40:00
what I would say is Dr.
40:02
Sayers taught me three additional questions.
40:06
And those questions are, what
40:08
am I not saying that needs to be said? What
40:11
am I saying that's not being heard? And
40:14
what's being said that I'm not hearing? So
40:16
again, what am I not
40:18
saying that needs to be said? What
40:21
am I saying that's not being heard? And
40:25
what's being said that I'm not hearing? And
40:27
so for me, the way I
40:29
was complicit was
40:32
I wasn't speaking. I
40:34
wasn't saying what I needed to say. And
40:37
more often than not, Tim, the suffering that
40:39
I encounter can
40:41
almost always be rooted back to somebody
40:43
not saying something that needs to be
40:46
said. And if there's a
40:48
little correlate to that and not
40:50
saying it or not saying it in
40:52
a way that it can be heard, because
40:55
oftentimes we speak without words,
40:58
but by our actions, and
41:00
we go unheard. Could you
41:02
give an example of something that you
41:05
needed to say during that period of
41:07
time that you didn't say
41:09
or that wasn't heard? Yeah,
41:11
something very, very simple. I
41:14
wasn't happy that despite all
41:16
the outward trappings of success,
41:19
I was empty and hollow
41:21
inside that I
41:23
wasn't speaking truthfully, that I
41:26
wasn't living in integrity, and
41:29
that I was too afraid of
41:31
losing the good graces
41:33
and esteem of everybody around me
41:36
to actually talk about the fact
41:38
that I did not want to do what I
41:40
was doing with my life at that point. Oh,
41:43
by the way, I didn't know what else I was going to do,
41:45
but that's a separate issue. Right?
41:49
I mean, I knew when I decided
41:51
not to continue working with Fred Wilson,
41:53
stupid man that I was, I knew
41:56
that it was actually the right thing for me to do. take
42:00
a job at JP Morgan, it
42:02
wasn't because I wanted to continue doing
42:04
that work. It's because I was too
42:06
terrified to do anything other than
42:09
that. And I certainly didn't
42:11
want to lose the esteem and
42:13
the good wishes. I mean, think about your reaction
42:16
just a few minutes ago, when
42:18
you pointed out that it was a $23 billion
42:20
fund. And even in that
42:22
moment, I felt a little bit of that pride
42:25
mixed with a little bit of the shame because I
42:28
walked away from that. And I
42:30
didn't want to lean into that space
42:32
of like, what if
42:34
I don't matter anymore? What
42:36
if nobody calls me? How
42:39
did you get over that? What are
42:41
the things that contributed to you making it
42:44
through those questions? Because a lot of people
42:47
seemingly don't make it through those questions, right?
42:49
They stay in a given
42:51
track in a given relationship, they stay stuck
42:53
exactly for 5, 10, 15, 20, or more
42:56
years. So
43:00
what a lifetime. What did Emerson
43:03
say? The vast majority of men,
43:06
let's update it. The vast majority of people
43:08
lead lives of quiet desperation. So
43:13
how did I get out of it?
43:15
I guess your question
43:18
implies an agency that I didn't feel
43:20
at the time, meaning,
43:22
huh, I wake up one day and I
43:24
decide I'm going to be
43:27
different. No, it wasn't that.
43:30
It was that I ran out of the
43:33
ability to continue to operate
43:35
anymore. It was that
43:37
moment above the lip
43:39
of Ground Zero. And
43:42
that moment where I chose not to leap
43:44
in front of the subway, but to get
43:46
into the cab and go to see Dr.
43:48
Sayers. And it was that moment where I
43:51
decided to follow her advice and go
43:53
to Canyon Ranch. It was the series
43:55
of moments where it was
43:57
like, okay, I know it's not working.
44:00
I admit it's not working, I
44:02
don't know what I'm going to do, but what
44:04
I have been doing hurts too much.
44:07
And if I have to suffer the
44:09
consequence of the loss of status, approbation,
44:13
affirmation, all the
44:16
external trappings, so be
44:18
it. It's like my soul
44:20
basically said, listen motherfucker, you
44:23
better sit down and pay attention
44:25
to your life because the
44:27
stakes are too high. I think I
44:29
read that in the Bhagavad Gita, if I'm correct.
44:35
It's the Buddha from Brooklyn. Now,
44:47
how did you find your way
44:49
to, I'll
44:51
use this term, it may not be the best term, but how did
44:54
you find your way to coaching? So
44:56
on that plane ride from
44:58
New York to Arizona to Canyon
45:01
Ranch, I read three books.
45:03
When Things Fall Apart by Ani Pema
45:06
Children, Faith by
45:08
Sharon Salzberg, and Let
45:11
Your Life Speak by Parker Palmer. And
45:13
before fully answering your question, I'll give
45:15
you this. I must have
45:17
done something really, really good in a
45:19
past life because I have the benefit
45:21
of considering all three of those people.
45:24
Ani Pema, Sharon Salzberg, and
45:26
Parker Palmer as my friends.
45:29
I didn't know them at the time, but
45:31
I have the good grace and
45:33
the incredible good fortune to say
45:36
I'm friends with them. They are my
45:38
teachers. So what was
45:40
your question? The question
45:43
was how did you find your way to
45:45
coaching? And just to reiterate something
45:47
that you just said, at the time they
45:49
were not your friends. That's
45:51
right. But you had the books. That's
45:53
right. And how you found your way
45:55
to coaching. You went back to the plane ride. Right.
46:00
books. And those three books were really
46:02
important because they did lead indirectly
46:04
to me becoming a coach. Each
46:07
one of those books presented something
46:09
different to me. Faith presented this
46:11
notion of really being honest with
46:13
myself with what was going on
46:15
when things fall apart. It was the
46:17
first laying out of Buddhist
46:20
Dharma as a path, but
46:22
it was Let Your Life Speak, which
46:24
is a brilliant, beautiful, short little
46:27
collection of essays that really shifted
46:29
the dialogue for me, partially because
46:31
Parker is so open and honest
46:33
and authentic about his own struggles
46:35
and depression. Okay, so to
46:37
your question, let me fast forward it. Probably four
46:39
or five years later, I'm still
46:42
working my way through all the
46:45
issues that I'm carrying at that point and
46:47
trying to sort myself out. I'm
46:50
in an office. I'm sharing office space
46:52
with Fred Wilson and Brad Burnham from
46:54
Union Square Ventures. But I have a
46:57
little sub office within their space and
46:59
I'm doing a bunch of different things. I'm
47:01
serving on a bunch of boards of directors.
47:04
I'm making little angel investments here and there,
47:06
but I'm just sort of hanging around the
47:08
hoop, if you will. And this young guy
47:10
comes to see me. He's there to quote
47:12
network. This is the thing everybody is supposed
47:14
to do. Network is way too new job.
47:17
And you ask about questions. So
47:19
here's the story. So he
47:21
comes in and he's a lawyer, and he wants
47:23
to get a job in the startup industry. So
47:25
he wants to find a way to get some
47:27
sort of position. And I turned
47:29
to him and he's probably in his late 20s. And
47:32
I said, I'm happy to help you, but just to
47:34
answer a question for me, it's
47:36
kind of my first coaching question, right? And I
47:38
said, what made you to become a
47:40
lawyer in the first place? And
47:42
he starts crying to me and he starts telling me
47:44
about pleasing his father and
47:47
about how it was, you know,
47:49
his father had taught him that if
47:51
all else fails, at least he
47:54
could make a living as a lawyer. And
47:56
the kid was just miserable. Just
47:59
miserable. And so
48:01
I reached up to the shelf and I pulled down a
48:03
copy of Let Your Life Speak and I said, here, read
48:05
this. And they get back to me. He
48:08
left the office and I turned around and
48:10
I said, fuck, I think I need to be a coach.
48:14
I need to do that more frequently. And
48:17
so within a few days I had signed up for
48:20
a coach training program. Okay, let
48:22
me pause for one second. So what did
48:24
you feel? What did
48:26
you experience? What was
48:28
it about that encounter that
48:30
made you so decisively say that to
48:33
yourself? A couple of things.
48:35
I could see relief in his eyes. The
48:38
first thing I felt was
48:40
empathy. I knew his
48:42
feelings because even though the
48:44
content of the story was different, my
48:48
experience was so similar.
48:50
I had been so ruled by fears that
48:53
I was living in a box. I had lived in
48:56
a box that was not of
48:58
my making. It was somebody else's box.
49:01
It was the wrong box. It
49:03
was the wrong suit of clothes. It was
49:05
not me. And I could feel all that.
49:07
And when I reached for Let Your Life
49:10
Speak, I was reaching for the very same
49:12
thing that had gotten me out of the
49:14
box. And I said, here, here's
49:16
a path. And there
49:18
was just relief, relief, not that he had
49:20
read the book yet, but just relief that
49:22
somebody actually understood his feelings and
49:25
had given words to his feelings that he hadn't
49:27
been able to give to. Remember that
49:29
question? What have I not been saying that I
49:31
need to say? There was that
49:33
going on for him. So then
49:36
I said, wait a minute, dude,
49:39
you can do something about relieving
49:41
suffering. You're not the
49:43
mess. And it's not always just your
49:45
prefrontal cortex that's going to figure everything
49:47
out. Because I
49:49
didn't have an answer for him. I didn't say,
49:51
here, here's the job you should do that's perfect
49:53
for you so that you no longer go to
49:55
bed at night feeling like crap, wondering
49:58
whether or not you should wake up in the morning. I
50:00
just had to listen to my heart and
50:03
I did something completely
50:06
non-intuitive. I reached onto my bookshelf
50:08
and I gave him a book. And
50:11
the feeling that I had
50:13
was poignant
50:15
pain coupled with the
50:17
sense of being able to do something. I
50:20
could be helpful. This may be
50:22
overreaching, but how much of your
50:24
call to coaching do you
50:26
think, if any, was
50:29
finding relief in taking the focus
50:31
outside of yourself? It
50:34
wasn't just the call to
50:36
begin coaching. This
50:39
helps me every day. This
50:41
is the craziness about the work that
50:44
I do, about living my vocation like
50:46
this. Even
50:48
today, in my worst moments, when
50:51
I can be with another
50:53
person's pain, by the
50:55
way, which is the root etymological meaning
50:58
of the word compassion, to
51:00
be with someone else's feelings, I
51:03
magically feel relief from my
51:05
own unbearable feelings. Because
51:08
I think that's the essence of being
51:11
human together. We get to actually, oh,
51:14
geez, we look at each other across the campfire.
51:16
I keep imagining us in
51:19
sort of pre-civilization going, like
51:21
looking across the campfire, and again, must be
51:24
in Brooklyn, and going, dang, it's hard. Isn't
51:26
it hard being human? Yeah, it's
51:29
really hard. Okay, let's do this
51:31
together. I
51:33
think the call was that, but if
51:36
I may, I think the call was also to
51:40
retroactively go back in time and
51:42
save myself. Interesting. See,
51:44
this makes a lot of sense to me. In
51:47
saying that, do you mean, and I don't know if
51:49
you've ever heard of IFS, internal family
51:51
systems, in so much as by
51:54
helping people who are
51:56
in similar positions
51:58
with similar states or places. pains
52:00
as you experienced earlier, you are
52:02
healing that younger version of yourself
52:05
in that capacity. Well, first of all,
52:07
to answer your quick question, I have heard of IFS.
52:10
I have not been trained in IFS,
52:13
and I know a few of my
52:15
clients have benefited from it. But broadly
52:17
speaking, you want to understand Buddhism,
52:20
what we're talking about right now. You
52:22
want to understand wisdom traditions across the
52:24
world. It's what we're talking
52:26
about right now. It's like even
52:29
the best of Christianity, even
52:31
the best of what Jesus taught. It's like,
52:33
God, I mean, I just imagine him exasperated,
52:36
sitting in his hands, for God's sake, love
52:38
one another. Just, you know, come on,
52:40
can you just stop the nonsense and
52:42
just reach across and just be with
52:44
each other? Think of it this way,
52:46
Tim. There's almost like a universal wellspring
52:51
of pain that you and I share. And
52:54
in a similar fashion, there's a universal
52:56
wellspring of happiness and joy that you
52:58
and I share. And
53:00
so if you're in this painful spot,
53:03
I can tap that universal
53:05
wellspring of happiness and joy
53:07
and point it a little bit more at your
53:09
suffering. And you can do the same for me. So
53:12
let me ask you a question. And
53:15
you and I have spent a good amount of time on
53:17
the phone together. And to
53:20
those people listening who are self-described
53:22
high achievers, who don't want to
53:24
lose their edge, who are looking
53:26
for the tactical practical, if they
53:29
hear that and they're kind of rolling their eyes and
53:32
they're like, all right, you had me at
53:34
9-11, you had me at the books, but
53:37
I don't see how this applies. I'm too busy for
53:40
that shit. I don't have time to go to Burning
53:42
Man and do fire dancing. Like this, this is serious
53:44
business. I have serious work to do. Sorry.
53:47
I can relate that to someone who in
53:49
their first meeting fits that profile,
53:52
perhaps. What do you do with them in
53:54
a first meeting? My job
53:56
isn't to necessarily convince people that
53:58
they need help. And so
54:00
the first thing I say is, and the first thing
54:02
I would say to anybody who's listening, is
54:05
if everything's working for you, go at
54:07
it. Have a great time. Go enjoy yourself. Go
54:09
ahead. But you know, there's a simple
54:11
little trick. You know, I have this little reputation that
54:14
I make people cry and all this stuff. You
54:16
know what I do? I ask them a
54:18
simple question. How are you? And
54:20
I often follow it up with like, no, really,
54:23
don't bullshit me. How are you? How
54:25
are you really feeling? Because
54:27
here's the thing. You described this would-be
54:29
resistant person as a high achiever. Here's
54:32
the thing about high achievers. In
54:34
my experience, high achievers early on in their life
54:36
figure out how to get an A. They
54:39
figure it out because the whole system
54:41
is geared towards that grade. And
54:44
then we take that entire system from our childhood
54:46
and we move it into work. And
54:48
it's just getting A's, getting A's, getting A's,
54:51
getting A's. And the highest achieving people oftentimes
54:53
come into me scared
54:56
because there's a little whispery voice in their ear
54:58
that says, you are a
55:01
fucking fraud. You have no
55:03
idea. And when they figure out that all
55:05
you're doing is reading the tea leaves and
55:07
what it takes to get an A, they're
55:10
going to toss you out of the trap. They're
55:12
going to toss you out on your ass. They're
55:14
going to push you away. Or
55:17
they say to themselves, because
55:19
they haven't experienced loss
55:23
or they haven't experienced failure.
55:25
They think they haven't experienced failure. They're
55:27
just waiting. They're just playing a waiting
55:30
game. They're just waiting for something for
55:32
fate to catch up to them and
55:34
bang, the ham's going to come down.
55:37
Now, if this resonates with you,
55:41
you might also then recognize the
55:43
anxiety that comes in where
55:45
you put your head down at the pillow at night and
55:47
you go, my God, I don't know if
55:49
I can do it again tomorrow. Maybe
55:52
they'll catch me tomorrow. And
55:54
if that's what you're working with, then
55:57
there's an opportunity in all that we're
55:59
talking about. Forget universal suffering, forget
56:01
about well springs, forget about spiders,
56:03
forget about burning man, which
56:05
I've never been to by the way and I
56:08
don't believe in substances, but that's all a different
56:10
issue. Forget about all that stuff. I've been three
56:12
times. I'm a fan at
56:15
least once in your lifetime. God
56:17
bless. Separate
56:19
conversations. So continue. The truth
56:21
is I'm probably too scared to ingest any
56:23
material inside of my body, but leave that
56:25
aside for a moment. Forget
56:27
all that. Okay. I'll
56:29
be esoteric, stuff like that. Here's
56:32
the simple question. How's it working for you?
56:36
If it's not working for you, why
56:39
are you in pain? Why are you doing
56:41
it? And would you like a
56:43
little relief? And here, you want to know
56:45
the secret, like nasty little trick that I
56:47
play? Yes. I
56:50
get them if they either have children or
56:52
hope to have children someday. I
56:54
will ask them, what would
56:56
they like their children to feel when
56:59
they're at the same age? Because
57:01
if they would like them to feel something other
57:03
than what they're feeling, now's the
57:05
time to start changing the way
57:07
they organize their life. That's
57:09
a really good question. What
57:12
if, and this could combine with
57:14
what we're talking about right now, someone
57:16
comes in, they don't feel imposter
57:19
syndrome necessarily, but they are simply
57:21
overwhelmed. You ask them how they
57:23
are, no really, and they're like,
57:25
I'm good, I'm just busy, I'm
57:27
stressed, I just have too much,
57:29
I'm overwhelmed. If that's
57:31
the breed of
57:34
client that shows up, how
57:36
do you begin to work with that?
57:40
Well, once you've established a
57:42
certain level of trust and
57:44
relating through empathy and
57:48
don't necessarily try to step in and
57:50
fix it. The first question
57:52
I would start to ask or elicit is
57:55
how is that being busy serving you? Remember
57:59
that how have I? I've been complicit in creating the
58:01
conditions I say I don't want. Here's
58:03
the thing about busyness. Busyness
58:06
can feel fucking awesome. It
58:09
can feel so amazing internally.
58:13
Like look at all the great stuff I got done externally.
58:16
Look at how busy I am. I
58:18
must be important. That's an
58:21
interesting statement. Busyness can
58:23
also serve to distract you from
58:26
those voices inside that say, hey,
58:30
I'm not happy. Hey,
58:33
I'm not happy. Hey, I'm serious.
58:35
I'm going to throw you down
58:37
on the ground with some sort
58:40
of somatic illness, lower
58:42
back problem, irritable bowel syndrome,
58:44
migraine headaches. That was my
58:46
specialty. I'm going to
58:48
throw you down until you pay
58:50
attention to me. Okay. You're too
58:52
busy. Okay. I gotcha. Okay. Cause
58:55
you know, here's the thing too. Somewhere around 35 to 50
58:57
years old, the
59:00
system start to break down. The
59:02
systems that got you out of childhood, that got
59:04
you into adulthood, that got you established, that got
59:06
you to the point where you think he got
59:09
it all figured out. And then all of a
59:11
sudden, holy shit, the whole thing starts to collapse.
59:14
Now what do I do? And when I
59:16
see someone who's busy, who's kind
59:18
of in the early twenties, I
59:20
see a striver trying
59:23
to establish themselves. But
59:25
when I see somebody who's
59:27
busy, who actually doesn't need
59:29
to be that way, I
59:32
get really, really curious what
59:34
internal need is trying to be met
59:37
by all that busyness. That's
59:39
the place to inquire. What are some
59:41
of the more common
59:43
patterns that you see with that
59:45
busyness? I'm very curious about this.
59:49
I promise not to coach you, but why is
59:51
it so curious? No, just kidding. I
59:53
can tell you, no, I can tell you, I can tell you
59:56
why it's curious or interesting to me. We can jump into some.
59:58
I'm game. I'm game. I am
1:00:00
to hit some volleys if you want. Well,
1:00:02
for instance, I'm looking at, and apologies to
1:00:04
everyone I have not replied to, but that
1:00:07
is sort of my ethos
1:00:09
and the gist of everything I've
1:00:11
written. So I feel like I've
1:00:14
bought some permission, but I currently have 618,952
1:00:16
unread email and
1:00:21
combination on two different tracks of 165 plus 255
1:00:23
unread text messages, and
1:00:27
that's the tip of the iceberg. So I
1:00:29
actually feel surprisingly low
1:00:32
anxiety about that, nonetheless,
1:00:34
a small amount of anxiety and
1:00:36
in the process of literally
1:00:39
rebooting those various phone numbers
1:00:41
and addresses because it's not
1:00:44
physically possible to address that. Right.
1:00:47
And it's perhaps similar to many
1:00:50
of your experiences. It's given me an
1:00:53
opening line for
1:00:56
common sentiment
1:00:58
of commiseration that opens up
1:01:00
the floodgates to similar types
1:01:02
of problems in other people.
1:01:04
So they confess. I'm
1:01:06
like the productivity guy in the confessional box
1:01:09
for people who want to tell me about
1:01:11
similar things. And those are a few things
1:01:13
that come to mind when you ask me
1:01:15
why is that curious? And I think it's
1:01:17
very common. I just think it's very common.
1:01:20
Yeah, I think it's hugely common. And I
1:01:22
think that you ask the question by using
1:01:24
a particular descriptive word, you described it as
1:01:26
feeling overwhelmed. And if
1:01:28
we were to do a dream analysis, we
1:01:31
might talk about being flooded. That's
1:01:33
typically the psychological
1:01:35
signal that the
1:01:38
system is overwhelmed. So
1:01:40
again, we use our construction and
1:01:42
we talk about complicitness, not necessarily
1:01:45
responsibility. I'm gonna use you as
1:01:47
an example as a high achiever who
1:01:49
is incredibly busy. He's been
1:01:51
so busy that he has over 600,000
1:01:53
unanswered emails and
1:01:58
we'll just stick on that one for a moment. By the
1:02:00
way, you're allowed to declare bankruptcy at that
1:02:02
point. Okay, you're done. And what I hear
1:02:05
you say is I no longer, you said
1:02:07
I don't feel anxiety, just a small piece
1:02:09
of it. I would argue that
1:02:11
you probably have been so overwhelmed by it that
1:02:13
you've actually given up feeling anxious about it and
1:02:15
it's just like, forget it, I'm not going to
1:02:18
get to it. So here's the
1:02:20
question for you and you don't have to answer it
1:02:22
but hang out with it. A couple of
1:02:24
questions. The first might be something like,
1:02:26
when did you start feeling overwhelmed? And
1:02:30
how long have you felt overwhelmed?
1:02:33
And while feeling overwhelmed, did
1:02:36
you take on more tasks? In
1:02:38
your case, Tim, did you sign up for another book
1:02:41
and another show or another thing
1:02:43
which only produced more
1:02:46
stuff? Because that's what I do. If
1:02:48
there's a tiny bit of open space
1:02:50
in my life, I tend to fill
1:02:52
it. And then the magical question is,
1:02:54
how familiar is that feeling and how
1:02:56
does that feeling serve you? I'm
1:02:59
willing to play on this one. And
1:03:01
I will say before I get started that
1:03:03
I do think I have much
1:03:06
better systems and rules and
1:03:10
perspectives in place now. But
1:03:12
to answer your questions, I'd say it started probably
1:03:15
middle of undergraduate college.
1:03:18
Right. And I guess this feeling of overwhelm, or
1:03:20
at least that's when it was most noticeable. And
1:03:24
the feeling of overwhelm was
1:03:26
then kind of ebbed and
1:03:29
flowed. But certainly up until
1:03:31
at least 2004, my
1:03:33
solution to feeling anything I didn't want to
1:03:35
feel was to add more activities. Okay, can
1:03:38
you just pause and say that again? Your
1:03:41
solution to? Feeling anything I
1:03:43
didn't want to feel. In retrospect, I recognize that's
1:03:45
what it was. So if I
1:03:47
felt anything I didn't want to feel, I
1:03:49
would add more activities to drown
1:03:51
it out. Some people use heroin, some people use
1:03:54
coke, some people use work. And
1:03:56
I used activities. At the time, I
1:03:58
also used stimulants. I was in
1:04:00
fact using both. But
1:04:04
that changed quite a bit in
1:04:06
2004 by building in empty space.
1:04:09
And I think that
1:04:11
still now there are vestiges of
1:04:15
behaviors that in
1:04:17
some sense helped me to find a
1:04:19
toehold in financial
1:04:22
security that are no longer serving me,
1:04:24
that are nonetheless default gears, if that
1:04:26
makes sense. And
1:04:28
to that extent, the
1:04:31
vast amount of my focus for the
1:04:33
last year has been on saying no
1:04:35
to practically everything, more than a year.
1:04:37
I mean the last several years. Nonetheless
1:04:40
there is a part of me, I think you
1:04:42
had a, was it a crow, a raven on
1:04:44
the shoulder? Crow, a crow. I said you
1:04:46
were like, well come back to the crow. And
1:04:49
no it's not another dream sequence for people
1:04:51
wondering. No drug induced dream sequence, correct. Yeah,
1:04:53
yeah, we'll come back to the crow. Something
1:04:56
on my shoulder saying you might
1:04:58
need this person. You
1:05:01
might need this person in
1:05:03
reference to any given
1:05:05
email that might come in. And so
1:05:07
for what I find in my life
1:05:09
is that the vast majority of stuff
1:05:12
is clearly noise. And
1:05:14
I can ignore. There are categories
1:05:16
of activities. I'm not particularly good
1:05:18
at moderation, whether that's with chips
1:05:21
or chocolate or speaking engagements
1:05:24
or fill in the blank. There are certain
1:05:26
things where I need
1:05:28
to either be considering
1:05:32
each item that presents itself or not consider
1:05:34
them at all as a category. So I've
1:05:36
decided certain things just from a binary perspective
1:05:38
like speaking I will not do any of.
1:05:41
Unless they happen to be 10 minute drive from
1:05:43
my house and fit 20 other parameters.
1:05:45
Otherwise it's an automatic no and I
1:05:47
don't even see it. Where
1:05:49
I think I find more difficulty
1:05:51
is where there are people
1:05:53
who have been very helpful
1:05:56
in the past who perhaps were
1:05:59
very supportive. in the early days who now
1:06:03
have lots of favors to ask. But
1:06:05
if I'm listening to my body, it's
1:06:08
absolutely not a full body yes. There's a large part
1:06:10
of me that knows I do not want to acquiesce,
1:06:12
I do not want to agree, I do not want
1:06:15
to accept, I do not want to do whatever it
1:06:17
is they're asking me to do because it doesn't
1:06:20
feel right and or
1:06:22
it's unreasonable. Nonetheless, those are
1:06:24
the types of emails that tend to
1:06:26
pile up. And those are the types
1:06:29
of emails also that even if I
1:06:31
have someone like an assistant or multiple
1:06:33
assistants filtering, the names
1:06:35
are probably noticeable enough or
1:06:38
old enough that they'll get brought to
1:06:40
my attention. So let's see here, is
1:06:43
it familiar? Yes, it's familiar. How does it
1:06:46
serve me? This
1:06:48
I have more trouble with. So maybe you
1:06:50
could walk me through, I would imagine many
1:06:52
people, I'm not gonna say it doesn't serve
1:06:54
me because I'm willing to, at least
1:06:57
as a thought exercise to accept that if
1:06:59
it didn't serve me, I would have already
1:07:01
found some clean solution or I wouldn't have
1:07:03
any emotional difficulty fixing it. How
1:07:06
would you walk me through figuring out how
1:07:08
it serves me? Well, I wanna reflect back a
1:07:10
couple of things that I'm hearing so that we
1:07:12
can just sort of establish it. The first thing
1:07:14
I would say is I really admire all the
1:07:16
filtering that you've put into your life and
1:07:19
the structures that you've put into your life
1:07:21
to create boundaries and saying
1:07:24
no. And I think
1:07:26
that the rules as you define them
1:07:29
and they might be rules for like,
1:07:31
hey, every morning I'm gonna do X
1:07:33
and every afternoon I'm gonna do Y or I'm
1:07:35
only gonna work from ours. Those
1:07:38
are all important, but
1:07:41
ultimately insufficient for
1:07:44
complete relief from
1:07:47
some of these feelings. They're really,
1:07:49
really helpful. They've
1:07:51
reduced your anxiety from overwhelming
1:07:54
to small, but
1:07:56
620,000 emails. Right?
1:08:00
I want to bring your attention to two other feelings.
1:08:02
One was, you said, something
1:08:05
about missing something that
1:08:08
might be important to you, seeing
1:08:10
someone that has been helpful to you
1:08:12
in the past, or something
1:08:14
that's important to you, that you might
1:08:17
miss something. So that's
1:08:19
one fear, is that right? I
1:08:21
would say so. I think the greater
1:08:23
fear is that people who
1:08:26
would at least believe that they have
1:08:28
supported me without asking for a quid
1:08:30
pro quo in the past would
1:08:32
get upset, and this does happen,
1:08:35
it has happened, where people take
1:08:37
things very personally. And
1:08:39
I recognize I can't take responsibility
1:08:41
for everyone else's feelings and responses
1:08:43
to things. I do think that's
1:08:45
a fear. More than missing an
1:08:47
opportunity, because I'm not concerned
1:08:50
about missing financial opportunities.
1:08:53
Not anymore. Not anymore,
1:08:55
I once was, but I also, I
1:08:57
stopped start up investing completely
1:08:59
in 2015 because
1:09:03
the noise simply wasn't
1:09:05
worth it. The cortisol fueled
1:09:08
unnecessary hurrying associated
1:09:12
with that culture was causing
1:09:14
more harm than good, so I stopped in 2015. So
1:09:17
I missed a pretty decent bull run, which
1:09:19
I'm okay with. So it's
1:09:21
not a financial concern so much as
1:09:25
social costs and fallout,
1:09:27
if that makes sense. Yeah, yeah, what
1:09:29
I'm hearing is a fear of disappointing someone who
1:09:31
matters to you. Yeah, yeah,
1:09:33
that would be a piece of it.
1:09:35
That would be a piece of it,
1:09:37
and this is helpful to me to
1:09:39
talk through because it's not just disappointment.
1:09:42
In some cases, I can't, I actually
1:09:45
really dislike interacting with some of
1:09:47
these more recent acquaintances,
1:09:50
but for whatever reason, they
1:09:52
view their position as very entitled in
1:09:55
so much as they expect a fast
1:09:57
and very compliant response from me on
1:09:59
many things. and they
1:10:01
know a lot of people in the same
1:10:03
circles and so that
1:10:05
causes concern. So there's an
1:10:08
implicit internal existential threat. I
1:10:10
think that's fair. I think that's fair to
1:10:12
say. Yeah, if I can say one more
1:10:14
thing. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Just so I don't
1:10:16
sound totally like
1:10:19
I'm living in a land of make-believe,
1:10:21
I have run into many, many instances.
1:10:23
This is, you know, more than a
1:10:26
dozen at least where, say, someone will send me
1:10:28
an email, they want a blurb for a new
1:10:30
book, they want this, this, this, this, this, and
1:10:32
this. And by the way, it's coming out in
1:10:35
four weeks or whatever it is. There's some set
1:10:38
of requests slash demands. I
1:10:40
don't reply. This has happened with journalists
1:10:42
as well, where for whatever reason, I
1:10:44
won't help them and then a hit
1:10:46
piece comes out. Or then
1:10:48
there's some type of blowback slash
1:10:51
vengeful behavior, whether that's shit talking
1:10:53
me on stage or whatever it
1:10:55
might be. So there's evidence to
1:10:58
support the fear. But
1:11:00
here I am, I've survived, I'm fine. That
1:11:03
is also true. So I just wanted to add that
1:11:05
color. Right. And so I
1:11:07
want to reflect back to you empathetically
1:11:10
and rationally, you're not nuts. At
1:11:13
least not in that department. That's right.
1:11:15
That's right. So what I often say
1:11:18
is that there are three basic risks
1:11:20
that we're all trying to manage all
1:11:22
the time. Love, safety
1:11:25
and belonging. We want to love and
1:11:27
be loved. We want to
1:11:29
feel safe, physically, emotionally, spiritually.
1:11:31
And we want to
1:11:33
feel that we belong. And what
1:11:35
I'm hearing, so if you resonate with
1:11:37
those at all, the existential
1:11:40
threat, and I want to bring your attention
1:11:42
to existential, because I think that the threat
1:11:44
is to the essence of who you are,
1:11:47
or at least the perceived threat. And
1:11:50
when someone trash talks you on stage,
1:11:52
what they're trash talking is you,
1:11:55
the you, not the
1:11:57
meat bag, but the
1:12:00
essence of you. And
1:12:02
so I think
1:12:04
that the fear, I know for myself, that
1:12:06
the fear of disappointing others is
1:12:09
a threat to my belonging. I'm
1:12:11
not going to be in my family anymore. My
1:12:14
children won't love me. My
1:12:17
partners won't love me. And
1:12:19
so therefore, I
1:12:21
will be unsafe. I
1:12:24
will be bereft. I'll be by
1:12:26
myself. I'll be alone in the woods, fending
1:12:29
for myself. And
1:12:31
there are few things that threaten me more than
1:12:34
the threat to belonging. I
1:12:36
don't know. Does that resonate with you? It
1:12:39
does resonate. I think that a
1:12:41
lot of what I've done and
1:12:43
been able to do has been
1:12:45
dependent on maintaining
1:12:49
very long-term relationships
1:12:52
with people who I enjoy being friends with, who happen
1:12:54
to also be very, very good at what they do,
1:12:56
whatever that is. And so
1:12:58
I think there's a bit of, you know, what got you here
1:13:00
won't get you where you want to go or won't get you
1:13:02
there. And it does resonate. And
1:13:04
we don't have to jump to this. But
1:13:06
what I'd love to talk about or listen
1:13:08
to you describe, because
1:13:10
I think a lot of people would benefit from it
1:13:13
is when you run into someone who,
1:13:16
like me, is fielding
1:13:19
a lot of inbound. And it
1:13:21
could be from one person, but
1:13:23
they for whatever reason are having
1:13:25
difficulty saying no or establishing boundaries.
1:13:27
What are tools or books
1:13:29
or approaches that you've found helpful
1:13:32
for people in
1:13:34
that position, whether it's nonviolent
1:13:36
communication or fill in the blank, or
1:13:40
questions, anything at all?
1:13:42
How do you begin to advise someone
1:13:44
like that? Well, there's a couple of
1:13:47
things come to mind. And I'm going
1:13:49
to reference two friends of ours, Seth
1:13:51
Godin and Sharon Salzburg. The first thing
1:13:53
was when I was really struggling with
1:13:56
this early on in my career,
1:13:58
my adult career, Seth Godin. and gave
1:14:00
me some wonderful advice which boiled down to
1:14:02
this phrase, I wish I could but I
1:14:04
can't. And that became a
1:14:06
kind of interesting little fence around
1:14:09
my life, a boundary marker. And so
1:14:11
the idea was that you would be
1:14:13
able to say to someone, someone
1:14:15
who reaches out, can you do this favor for
1:14:17
me, this thing for me? And you get to
1:14:19
say, I wish I could but I can't. So
1:14:22
you just pause around that. Problem is, of course,
1:14:24
there's an inauthenticity that can set in,
1:14:26
which is, I actually don't wish I
1:14:28
could. And
1:14:30
I can but I can't but I really don't
1:14:32
want that. Yeah, that's a whole nother one. It's
1:14:34
like, yeah, but I won't. And so then it
1:14:36
becomes a little bit of like, listen, I'm trying
1:14:39
to take my own advice to heart. And
1:14:42
the advice I give clients is
1:14:44
to take care of themselves first. And
1:14:47
so that becomes a kind of useful tool.
1:14:50
But then you reference something before
1:14:52
about not being responsible for someone
1:14:54
else's feelings. And that brought
1:14:57
to mind a teaching that Sharon
1:14:59
Salzberg gave me, which goes like this, all
1:15:01
beings own their own karma. Their
1:15:04
happiness or unhappiness depend upon their
1:15:06
actions, not my wishes for them.
1:15:09
Say that one more time, please. Yeah,
1:15:11
so all beings own
1:15:13
their own karma. Karma
1:15:16
being the cause and effect, their consequences
1:15:18
of their actions. Their
1:15:20
happiness or unhappiness depend upon
1:15:23
their actions, not my
1:15:25
wishes for them. Or the corollary to
1:15:27
that is not the actions that I take
1:15:29
or don't take. Now they may
1:15:31
say to you when they're reaching out to
1:15:33
you, Tim, Tim, if you don't do this
1:15:36
thing that I'm asking you to do, then
1:15:38
I will be unhappy. And if
1:15:40
I'm unhappy, I will be
1:15:42
mean to you. I mean, that's essentially
1:15:44
the existential threat. I wish they
1:15:47
would actually just send that email because then
1:15:49
I would say, gotcha, bitch. I have a
1:15:51
blog, shouldn't have sent that email. Which
1:15:55
has actually happened with writers from the New York Times,
1:15:57
believe it or not. Ha
1:15:59
ha ha. up as horrible as they say. So
1:16:01
they're split in their threat. Oh
1:16:04
yeah. And then as soon as they realize what they've done,
1:16:06
they're like, ah, shit. And then they cool
1:16:08
their jets. But yeah. So
1:16:11
here's a little tool that I have come up with
1:16:13
that helps me is I often
1:16:15
think of creating these little fences.
1:16:18
And I often visualize a chain-link fence so that
1:16:20
I can see through it. And
1:16:22
it has a gate in it. And the
1:16:24
gate only opens one way, inward. And I get
1:16:26
to control whether or not the gate opens. And
1:16:29
so then I can see someone on the other
1:16:31
side. And then the phrase
1:16:33
that comes up is love them from afar.
1:16:36
Be kind to them in my heart.
1:16:39
Set clear boundaries. I
1:16:41
have as your friend, as your guide, as
1:16:44
somebody hopefully is standing shoulder to
1:16:46
shoulder with you is sort of in this crazy
1:16:48
journey. I really feel for
1:16:50
all the people who have reached out to you
1:16:52
620,000 times in your inbox and all of that
1:16:54
stuff. And
1:16:58
I feel for you. And I
1:17:00
would advise you to delete every
1:17:02
one of those things. And
1:17:05
to basically love all of those people
1:17:07
who are going to get unanswered from
1:17:10
afar and be kind to them
1:17:12
in your heart. And recognize that
1:17:14
on the whole, you're doing the best
1:17:16
that you can. Because you are.
1:17:19
I wish I could give you like,
1:17:21
here's the tool, you know, like, NVC
1:17:23
nonviolent communications has some brilliant
1:17:26
tools or here's the book
1:17:28
that magically unlocks that. To
1:17:30
me, the challenge is not having the
1:17:32
tool. The challenge is in the meaning
1:17:34
that we put into the situation that
1:17:36
is the hardest thing to come over.
1:17:39
And to recognize that you're okay,
1:17:41
even if you're not necessarily being
1:17:43
at your kindest or at your
1:17:45
best. Because like you, like everybody
1:17:48
else, like me, we all get resources that
1:17:50
are thin at times. My God. And so,
1:17:52
you know, if you've not answered a text
1:17:54
message from me, Tim, or if you've not
1:17:56
answered an email from me, I am never,
1:17:58
ever, ever going to be there. going to think
1:18:00
ill of you. Well I appreciate that. Wish
1:18:03
I could transmit that
1:18:06
composure to all of my 620,000 senders. Let me ask you
1:18:09
a situational question
1:18:15
and this is true in my life
1:18:17
and I'm sure it's true for many
1:18:19
people listening that
1:18:22
I have a handful of
1:18:24
people who are kind of
1:18:27
close to me very much in the same
1:18:29
circles playing at a
1:18:31
high level who tend to
1:18:34
reach out to me only when there is
1:18:36
an ask of some type and there tends
1:18:39
to be some great degree of discomfort associated
1:18:42
with the ask in
1:18:44
so much as perhaps they have two or three
1:18:46
people who are close friends of mine attending an
1:18:48
event of theirs or investing in
1:18:50
blah blah blah whatever might be so
1:18:53
that it is there's a great degree
1:18:56
of discomfort that I feel
1:18:59
in ignoring the email maybe I actually
1:19:01
get texted by one friend and then
1:19:03
the email from this person there
1:19:06
are a few people who are repeat
1:19:08
characters kind of like Newman and Seinfeld and signed
1:19:11
by Shakespeare's fist. I have at least a half
1:19:13
a dozen newmans who are pretty tough to get
1:19:20
rid of and they're not
1:19:22
very good at reading hints
1:19:25
or they deliberately ignore hints that I don't want to
1:19:27
do things that I don't want to respond. Have
1:19:30
you coached people through breaking
1:19:32
up with friends or having
1:19:35
direct conversations with their own
1:19:37
newmans and then maybe the
1:19:39
newman is a co-founder maybe the newman is a someone on
1:19:41
the board of directors maybe fill in the blank for
1:19:46
having a really direct conversation
1:19:48
about this type of dynamic.
1:19:51
Sure can we put aside just
1:19:53
for a moment co-founder and board member
1:19:56
because totally there are power dynamics
1:19:58
there that are different than the
1:20:00
Newman's that you've been talking about. Yeah,
1:20:02
let's leave out co-founder and board member.
1:20:04
I agree that adds a lot of
1:20:06
complexity. Or we can circle back to
1:20:08
it separately. But here's the thing, if
1:20:10
we start with a basic basic basic
1:20:13
basic premise, it goes like this. Am
1:20:15
I a good person? Am I doing the
1:20:17
best that I can? And if I can answer
1:20:19
that question relatively straightforwardly
1:20:22
and honestly, then
1:20:24
I don't have to feel
1:20:26
guilty. Because that's what we're talking about,
1:20:29
right? That's the emotion that gets manipulated. I
1:20:31
don't have to feel guilty saying to somebody,
1:20:33
I don't have the
1:20:35
space to do the thing that you
1:20:37
would like me to do, which might
1:20:39
include maintaining this contact. And there's
1:20:42
an image that I often use, whether
1:20:44
it's with a client or with my
1:20:46
own self. And it's come to me
1:20:48
as I've gotten older, and I'm obsessed
1:20:50
right now with myself being old. And
1:20:54
the images of a bonsai tree, which
1:20:56
over its lifetime, you know, you can see
1:20:58
this one foot tall bonsai tree,
1:21:01
and it could be anywhere from 10 years old
1:21:03
to 300 years old, you have really
1:21:06
no idea. And what
1:21:08
I see is something
1:21:10
that has been carefully pruned into
1:21:13
a thing of beauty. And I think
1:21:15
that that's our opportunity in life. Now,
1:21:17
if we start with the supposition that
1:21:19
we are never enough, that
1:21:21
we are not good enough, and
1:21:23
that we therefore not only, you said
1:21:26
before, become addicted to busyness in order
1:21:28
to make ourselves not feel
1:21:30
the things that we don't want to
1:21:32
feel, remember that? Well, one
1:21:34
of the things that we do is we
1:21:36
maintain unhealthy relationships in order to not feel
1:21:39
the things that we don't want to feel,
1:21:42
even when those unhealthy relationships make us
1:21:44
feel other things we don't want to
1:21:46
feel. Whereas if we start with the
1:21:48
basic premise that we are enough just
1:21:50
as we are, and that
1:21:52
there is no great loss to
1:21:55
you, Tim, if
1:21:58
over time you lose some connection
1:22:00
and you use this term several
1:22:02
times to some high-powered person. Oh
1:22:05
my goodness, this high achieving
1:22:07
person, this high performer person,
1:22:09
there's no real great loss.
1:22:12
Like think of the people that you
1:22:14
have interviewed over the years, the people
1:22:17
that maybe began in some powerful position
1:22:19
and that have gone on to some powerful position.
1:22:22
Oh my God, if I lose that connection that
1:22:24
I once had to them, then somehow
1:22:26
I'm at a loss. Oh,
1:22:28
take a breath. We breathe into
1:22:31
that. The Buddha taught us one
1:22:33
thing. You are
1:22:35
basically good, just as you are,
1:22:38
not because of the connections that you
1:22:40
have maintained. And those
1:22:42
people who love you and care about
1:22:44
you and understand the essence are
1:22:47
going to be fine. Even
1:22:49
if you say, hey,
1:22:51
I'm sorry, I actually can't maintain this connection. May
1:22:53
I ask you a question? Sure.
1:22:56
All right. So I agree
1:22:58
with everything you just said. And what
1:23:01
I'd love to hear you elaborate
1:23:03
on is any
1:23:06
practices or tools that
1:23:10
you use or recommend
1:23:12
people use to
1:23:14
get from intellectually agreeing with what
1:23:16
you just said to
1:23:20
embodying that in some way that
1:23:22
translates to different behavior. Does
1:23:24
that make sense? Because I mean, one of my
1:23:27
favorite quotes is, I guess it's Ted Geisel, but
1:23:29
Dr. Seuss, which is the people who matter don't
1:23:31
mind and the people who mind don't matter. I
1:23:33
mean, I love that quote. I remind myself of
1:23:35
it all the time. Nonetheless,
1:23:39
I do have this guilt that
1:23:41
crops up on occasion that I
1:23:43
recognize as counterproductive. Nonetheless, it crops
1:23:45
up and causes me to behave
1:23:48
in ways that I know are not
1:23:51
necessary nor productive. And
1:23:53
I'm wondering how
1:23:55
you help people to make that leap
1:23:58
from kind of the intellectual,
1:24:00
uh-huh, yep, I get it, to the
1:24:03
other lily pad of behavioral change. Well,
1:24:06
the first thing I would say
1:24:08
is that the practice that you
1:24:10
just described embodying the Ted
1:24:13
Geisel, Dr. Seuss quote, that
1:24:15
is a practice. And
1:24:17
the first thing to do is to remember that
1:24:20
the thing about the word practice is that we
1:24:22
actually never achieve. We're always
1:24:24
moving towards. We're
1:24:26
always going there. But
1:24:29
oftentimes achieving
1:24:31
it permanently sustained persistently, yeah,
1:24:33
that's a tough one. So
1:24:38
in those moments when we fail
1:24:40
to understand and remember that those
1:24:42
of us who, those who love
1:24:45
us won't mind, when
1:24:47
we fail to remember that, it
1:24:49
can be helpful to remember what I was
1:24:51
saying before about I am enough and
1:24:54
I'm doing the best that I can. Whereas
1:24:57
Dr. Seuss once taught me, not
1:24:59
bad considering, not bad
1:25:02
considering how rough you may have had it,
1:25:04
not bad considering how hard your life is
1:25:06
right now. You're okay.
1:25:09
You're okay. And if I can
1:25:11
say that to myself every day in one
1:25:13
form or another, bringing
1:25:16
a kind of mindful attention to the points
1:25:18
when I fail with
1:25:20
a kind of forgiveness to myself,
1:25:22
well, then, wow, okay, that
1:25:25
can be helpful. Do you
1:25:28
use journaling for this? I
1:25:30
know journaling is very important to you and
1:25:32
I want to discuss that as a topic
1:25:34
and there are a million and one ways
1:25:36
to journal. So I'd like to learn more
1:25:38
about how you use journaling, but is
1:25:41
journaling one
1:25:43
of the ways that you remind yourselves
1:25:45
of these things? Yes. Yes.
1:25:49
And if so, what does it look like? Down to
1:25:51
the mundane details. Do you write down I am enough
1:25:53
as a prompt and then write for two paragraphs on
1:25:55
why that is the case or how
1:25:57
does one implement this? for
1:26:00
context, I have been journaling consistently since I
1:26:02
was about 13 years old, daily.
1:26:06
And I'm 55. So
1:26:08
a hell of a lot of journals. And
1:26:11
again, to be consistent, and I think you do
1:26:13
the same thing, I handwrite. I do,
1:26:16
yeah. And what may be
1:26:18
unusual is I never go back and
1:26:20
reread because it's not
1:26:22
about figuring shit out. It's
1:26:25
about the experience. And so
1:26:27
my general prompt, the
1:26:29
thing I almost always start
1:26:31
with is, right now
1:26:33
I'm failing. And I simply bring
1:26:35
my attention to it. And
1:26:37
so I might be feeling to talk
1:26:40
about this very specific situation, guilt.
1:26:43
So for example, and I'll use
1:26:45
this sort of mindful attention, if I were to
1:26:48
journal about our conversation, one of the things I
1:26:50
might journal is about the guilt that I have
1:26:52
felt over the years as to
1:26:54
whether or not I was reaching
1:26:56
out to you when you might be in
1:26:58
trouble, or if I was
1:27:00
one of those folks who put
1:27:03
you in an uncomfortable situation. And
1:27:05
I bring that up, not to elicit
1:27:07
a response from you, but as an
1:27:09
example of an exploration of the guilty
1:27:11
feelings that I might have, where
1:27:14
are they coming from? What are they doing? Was I
1:27:16
kind, that sort of thing. And
1:27:18
then I blow a kiss to myself.
1:27:23
Buddy boy, easy. This
1:27:25
is all a journaling exercise. I'm
1:27:27
just talking it out. And I
1:27:29
remember something that's really important about
1:27:32
that word guilt. Guilt is
1:27:34
self focused. Remorse is
1:27:37
about the other. Remorse is,
1:27:40
oh, I hurt someone's feelings and I
1:27:42
would like to not be hurtful. So
1:27:45
I'm going to try not to be hurtful. Guilt
1:27:47
is, oh my God, I can't
1:27:50
believe I'm ruminating, ruminating, ruminating, ruminating.
1:27:52
I find myself journaling in a
1:27:54
ruminating kind of way. I
1:27:57
try to bring attention to that. And
1:27:59
that's the moment when Or I say, easy
1:28:01
boy, easy, you're
1:28:03
a good man. Because sometimes
1:28:06
fails to live up to your aspirations. That's
1:28:09
it, that's simple. I
1:28:12
also promised I would return to the crow. This
1:28:15
might be a good place. Now
1:28:19
I'm gonna get the pronunciation wrong.
1:28:22
Mary, help me with the last name.
1:28:24
P-O-N, Ponset, Poet.
1:28:27
Yeah, and it's Marie,
1:28:29
Marie Ponset. Marie, always a tricky
1:28:31
one. All right, so Marie. Ponset.
1:28:34
Ponset. And she's still with
1:28:36
us, thank God. And the crow, what does she
1:28:38
describe in terms of the crow? That might fit,
1:28:41
might not, but I wanna make sure I fulfill
1:28:43
my promise to return to the crow. Oh, I
1:28:45
think it does fit, I think it does fit.
1:28:47
So Marie was one
1:28:49
of my professors in college. She taught
1:28:51
poetry, but I also took
1:28:54
a particular track in teaching, writing, and
1:28:56
so she was also my mentor. And
1:28:59
she used to talk all the time about the crow
1:29:01
who sits on your shoulder telling you what a piece
1:29:03
of shit you are. Ah, ah,
1:29:06
that's a piece of shit. I can't believe you wrote that.
1:29:08
You know, it's like I hear that voice. And
1:29:10
it sits on your shoulder and it tells you
1:29:13
all the things that you have done wrong and
1:29:15
all the things that is happening. And
1:29:18
oftentimes in my journal,
1:29:20
sometimes I'll take a second pen so that
1:29:23
there are two different colors, I
1:29:25
will allow the crow to speak. This
1:29:28
is really important. This
1:29:30
isn't a jiu-jitsu move because
1:29:34
the mistake I think a lot of people make is
1:29:36
they try to throw rocks at the crow and
1:29:39
shut the crow up. And that
1:29:42
crow is a really
1:29:44
interesting voice. That crow tells us
1:29:46
all the things that we are doing wrong and
1:29:49
the ways in which we are not enough. And
1:29:51
that's the linkage back to what we were just
1:29:53
talking about. This notion that
1:29:56
we are not enough just by ourselves,
1:29:58
that's the fuel by ourself. which the crow is there.
1:30:01
Now this is the move to make. The
1:30:04
crow's mission is
1:30:07
to preserve your ability to be loved, to
1:30:09
feel safe, and that you belong.
1:30:12
What? It makes you feel like
1:30:14
shit though. Yes, it makes you feel like shit.
1:30:17
But its motivation is for you not to
1:30:19
feel ashamed. And so the
1:30:22
crow is doing you a favor.
1:30:24
The crow is trying to keep
1:30:26
you safe. The problem is
1:30:28
the crow is so attentive and
1:30:31
so vigilant that it's a little
1:30:33
too active. And so what
1:30:35
we want to say at that moment is, thanks a
1:30:37
lot buddy, I really appreciate
1:30:39
it. But all those people who
1:30:42
might be angry with me because
1:30:44
I didn't respond to them or do the thing
1:30:47
they wanted me to do, they actually don't really
1:30:49
see me. And if they don't see me, they
1:30:51
don't know that I'm doing the best that I
1:30:53
can. So I'll blow them a kiss, I'll put
1:30:55
them on the other side of that chain-laying fence,
1:30:58
and I'll love them from afar. This
1:31:00
is really important. And by this, I mean
1:31:02
everything that we've been talking about pretty much
1:31:04
since the get-go. But especially I'm referring
1:31:07
to the journaling and creating
1:31:10
an outlet for the
1:31:12
crow or the monkey mind or what
1:31:14
Tim Urban of Wait But Why would
1:31:17
call the mammoth. And I highly recommend
1:31:19
that everybody check out an article he
1:31:21
wrote called Taming the Mammoth, which is
1:31:23
on this subject, that if
1:31:26
you hate that part of yourself and
1:31:28
try to contain it, at
1:31:31
least in my experience, that does nothing
1:31:33
but exacerbate,
1:31:35
does nothing but worsen the
1:31:38
problem. But along the lines of say
1:31:40
morning pages, you know, Julia Cameron and
1:31:42
so on, writing freehand in the morning
1:31:45
and providing that
1:31:48
monkey mind an opportunity to fix itself on paper,
1:31:50
at least for me, gives me a tremendous
1:31:54
amount of increased levity
1:31:57
during the day. It removed a huge
1:31:59
burden. Do you tend
1:32:01
to journal first thing upon waking up?
1:32:03
Could you walk us through when
1:32:06
you're at your best? When do you
1:32:08
wake up? What does your first kind of 60 to
1:32:10
90 minutes look like over two hours, whatever you choose?
1:32:13
It's two hours and when I'm at my
1:32:15
best, I wake, I clean
1:32:17
up, so I shower and stuff like that
1:32:19
and I have caffeine because you do not
1:32:21
want to be around me without caffeine. What
1:32:23
time do you wake up generally? Between five
1:32:26
and six. Both
1:32:28
without fail, usually without
1:32:30
an alarm clock. So I'm really awful
1:32:32
around nine o'clock at night. I'm a
1:32:34
very boring person. I do not look
1:32:36
at my phone. Let me say
1:32:38
that again. I do not look at my
1:32:40
phone. I do not look at my
1:32:42
phone because it's just
1:32:45
too painful and with a
1:32:47
cup of coffee, not coffee
1:32:49
as I say from Brooklyn. And
1:32:53
then I journal usually for an
1:32:55
hour and then I sit in meditation
1:32:57
usually for a half hour, sometimes
1:32:59
45 minutes. It
1:33:02
sort of depends on how the day has gone and
1:33:05
what's going on. But the entire
1:33:07
period feels like one quiet meditative
1:33:09
period. So that's me at my
1:33:11
best. The journaling for
1:33:13
an hour, I want to dig into that a
1:33:15
bit because I think it's such a powerful tool
1:33:19
and I'd like to hear
1:33:22
more about how that hour is
1:33:24
spent. So I'm looking at a
1:33:26
page in the
1:33:29
new book appropriately named reboot
1:33:32
and you have in this
1:33:35
book different journaling invitations. So
1:33:38
you might have, let's give a few examples. In what
1:33:40
ways do I deplete myself and run myself into the
1:33:42
ground? Where am I running from and where
1:33:44
to? Why have I allowed
1:33:46
myself to be so exhausted? You
1:33:48
mentioned earlier that you often
1:33:51
start the journaling with right now I'm
1:33:53
feeling dot dot dot. Are there other
1:33:55
prompts that you personally tend to use
1:33:57
more than others? I
1:34:00
never say that I would use the
1:34:02
prompts like, I'm gonna use
1:34:04
the same prompt every time. The
1:34:06
one thing that I do consistently is, right
1:34:08
now I'm feeling. And then,
1:34:11
generally speaking, I might review the past
1:34:13
24 hours, almost in
1:34:15
a diary kind of fashion. So
1:34:17
yesterday I woke up and then da da da da da.
1:34:20
I also don't worry about explaining people, so I
1:34:22
might say, and then I met with Mary Jane,
1:34:24
and I don't have to explain who Mary Jane
1:34:27
is, because who cares? I'm never gonna read it
1:34:29
again, and nobody is ever gonna read it. I
1:34:31
get rid of all that monkey mind bullshit
1:34:33
chatter, right? And I just
1:34:36
go right into it. And I presume
1:34:38
that the journal knows all, sees all,
1:34:40
has been there with me all along.
1:34:43
That's an important point. Secondarily,
1:34:46
I will ask myself
1:34:48
many questions like, how
1:34:50
long have I felt this way? Which
1:34:53
will then bring me back to
1:34:55
some early memories, and
1:34:58
I will start to be able to elucidate
1:35:00
the patterns of my life. And
1:35:03
that's really important, because it's the
1:35:05
patterns that actually point out where
1:35:07
we have some struggles. Can
1:35:10
I circle back to a point that you
1:35:12
were making before about accepting the totality of
1:35:14
what's going on? Because the journaling can help
1:35:16
me in that. The journal can
1:35:19
help one in that. So I
1:35:21
mentioned before about maybe utilizing
1:35:23
different pens to speak for
1:35:25
the different parts of ourselves. Before
1:35:28
I even go further, let me make
1:35:30
this observation. I think it's super helpful
1:35:33
for you, Tim, to
1:35:35
speak openly about the ways in which
1:35:37
there are different parts of you. For
1:35:40
those of us who are mildly
1:35:42
curious about this space, that's an
1:35:44
obvious fact. But there's still
1:35:46
very much a point of view in the
1:35:48
world that there's just one mind,
1:35:51
that there's just one point of view. And
1:35:54
all those other voices, we pretend
1:35:56
aren't there. They're not part of ourselves. And
1:35:59
you were absolutely... right, when those
1:36:01
voices are not given airtime,
1:36:04
they get really pissed off, really,
1:36:07
really angry. And the
1:36:09
energy that they hold is really
1:36:11
important. And so if we
1:36:13
go back to journaling for a moment,
1:36:15
by giving voice to those other voices,
1:36:18
by giving airtime to those other voices,
1:36:20
we get to lay out, in fact,
1:36:23
all the conflicts that exist within us.
1:36:26
In Buddhism, we're taught that there
1:36:28
are seven layers of consciousness. Seven
1:36:31
is an observer observing, observing, observing, observing.
1:36:33
There are all these layers of what's
1:36:35
going on, right? And
1:36:38
by taking the time in a
1:36:40
good journaling session, you can allow, you
1:36:42
don't even have to swap all these
1:36:44
pens, you can allow dialogue, you
1:36:47
can allow conflict, you can
1:36:49
allow argument. And
1:36:51
it's in that expression,
1:36:54
that's a manifestation of that full
1:36:56
acceptance that you were talking about before.
1:36:59
Oh, wait, I can
1:37:01
contain multitudes. Isn't that what Whitman
1:37:03
said? Do I contradict
1:37:05
myself? I do. I am
1:37:07
large. I contain multitudes. Amen.
1:37:11
Whether we are aware of it or not, we all do. A book
1:37:14
that helped me a lot with this, and
1:37:17
I found so much value in the first, I want
1:37:19
to say 50 to 100 pages that I wanted to
1:37:22
get to work, immediately. I
1:37:24
was like, okay, that's plenty of grist
1:37:26
for the mill, let me get started,
1:37:28
was Radical Acceptance by Tara Brock. Oh,
1:37:30
God, what a great book. Yeah, and
1:37:32
I think the title is
1:37:35
fairly sterile or milk
1:37:37
toast, but the book is so
1:37:40
good. And in my particular
1:37:42
case, my default emotional
1:37:44
home, in a way, was
1:37:46
anger. And the way I dealt with that
1:37:49
was by fighting anger, if that
1:37:52
makes sense, and trying to cage
1:37:54
and contain it. And
1:37:56
Radical Acceptance offered me
1:37:58
an entirely different way of relating
1:38:01
to that, which I found extremely valuable.
1:38:04
Are there any other tools, meditations,
1:38:07
books, anything at
1:38:09
all that might be
1:38:12
helpful in assisting people
1:38:15
to accept or
1:38:17
reconcile with different parts of
1:38:20
themselves, or at the very least recognize different
1:38:22
things? You know how before you were saying,
1:38:24
like, you know, you were taking a breath
1:38:26
because you wanted to jump in, I'm having
1:38:28
all those same feelings? Yeah, so
1:38:30
much here. First of all, shout out to
1:38:32
Tara Brock for radical acceptance. What a brilliant
1:38:35
book and what a gift she is as
1:38:37
a teacher. Yes, yes, yes,
1:38:39
on the acceptance. You know,
1:38:41
you talked about anger being your default mechanism.
1:38:44
For me, growing up with the violence that I
1:38:47
experienced as a kid, rage
1:38:50
was a major part of my
1:38:52
childhood. But the challenge
1:38:54
that I experienced was that anger,
1:38:56
rage, was so dangerous that I
1:38:58
actually turned it into anxiety all
1:39:00
the time. And so actually, you can't see
1:39:03
it because the video is off, but on
1:39:05
my desk are two little action figures. One
1:39:07
is Hulk and the other is Thor.
1:39:11
And one part of me that
1:39:13
I learned to accept was
1:39:15
the Hulk. Because the Hulk,
1:39:17
when I was a kid, I
1:39:20
remember this one time, I have a
1:39:22
younger brother named John and
1:39:24
in my mind's eye, he's still 10 years old even though he's
1:39:26
in his 50s. So hey, John.
1:39:29
Anyway, when I was a kid, we lived
1:39:31
in a part of Brooklyn where we're called
1:39:34
Bensonhurst and we lived in the second floor
1:39:36
of a two-family house. And I
1:39:38
remember looking out the window and one day this
1:39:40
kid was throwing rocks over the fence at my
1:39:42
brother John. And I
1:39:45
went ballistic. And I ran downstairs
1:39:47
and I grabbed this kid and I pulled him
1:39:49
over the fence and I threw him on the
1:39:51
floor and I pounded the crap out of his
1:39:53
face. Because here's the thing,
1:39:55
you do not fuck with my people. You
1:39:58
do not fuck with Hulk. people. The
1:40:01
problem was that Hulk
1:40:03
was often dangerous and would often
1:40:05
lead to something negative happening to
1:40:07
me. So I would shut him up
1:40:10
and I'd pretend that he's not there and
1:40:13
he would show up in all sorts of ways
1:40:15
like really cleverly dissecting
1:40:17
somebody's argument and being really
1:40:19
wordy and verbose and shutting
1:40:22
people down and all these
1:40:24
awful behaviors. And
1:40:26
what I had to do was radically
1:40:29
accept that that
1:40:31
guy, that big green guy
1:40:33
exists in me for one
1:40:36
reason only, to keep myself and
1:40:38
those who love me safe. And
1:40:41
by the loving Hulk, I transformed
1:40:44
him into Thor who's
1:40:46
just as strong, just as powerful,
1:40:49
less likely to be out of control
1:40:51
and motivated by justice. Better
1:40:53
hair too. And much better
1:40:55
hair, much better skin. So
1:40:58
that radical acceptance, that
1:41:01
accepting the fullness of
1:41:03
ourselves, oh my god it's
1:41:05
so liberating, isn't it? It is.
1:41:07
And what's liberating also is
1:41:11
simply the realization that
1:41:15
you can in some fashion reconcile these
1:41:17
different parts of you and that they
1:41:20
serve a purpose. Not only did they
1:41:22
serve a purpose but that they were
1:41:24
probably in some way fundamental
1:41:26
to your survival, whether that's
1:41:28
physical, emotional or otherwise. And that
1:41:31
they were incredibly, incredibly
1:41:33
important and may still be very
1:41:36
important for certain things, certain
1:41:39
situations. That's right.
1:41:41
And you know that recalls Carl Jung's
1:41:43
notion of the shadow, which
1:41:45
is the place he describes as the
1:41:48
place we put the dismembered parts
1:41:50
of ourselves. And this is
1:41:52
really important. Not only do we put the
1:41:55
parts of ourselves that society may say are
1:41:58
obviously not good, let's say a rage-like anger.
1:42:01
But also the parts are
1:42:03
ourselves that are
1:42:05
actually quite powerful, quite positive,
1:42:08
and quite lovely. But
1:42:11
because they threaten, say, our belonging,
1:42:14
they have to actually be put in the
1:42:16
shadow as well. Well, they too get really
1:42:18
pissed off, right? And
1:42:20
they too cause trouble. And
1:42:23
so you might put into the
1:42:25
shadow your intellect or your capabilities,
1:42:28
or your ability to write a book. And
1:42:30
you might sit for two or three decades
1:42:33
knowing that you want to write a book and not doing
1:42:35
it, because it might threaten
1:42:37
you in some way or another. This is a good
1:42:39
segue for difficult
1:42:42
decisions. And by difficult, I
1:42:44
mean emotionally difficult. And
1:42:47
so the, for instance, sitting on the desire
1:42:49
to write a book for 10, 20 years,
1:42:51
and then finally taking whatever
1:42:53
the steps are, the first steps
1:42:56
to finally write that book, potentially. Maybe that's
1:42:58
leaving a job. Maybe that's starting a job.
1:43:00
Could be any number of things. Could
1:43:03
you speak to, you can choose which of
1:43:05
these questions you would like to answer. When
1:43:08
did you say no to something that was
1:43:10
at the time very difficult to say no
1:43:13
to, which in retrospect is very important to
1:43:15
your life. And then the other
1:43:17
is when was the time when you decided to
1:43:20
kind of block out all the noise,
1:43:22
block out everything else and focus on
1:43:25
something very narrowly. And that ended up
1:43:27
being extremely important in retrospect.
1:43:29
What occurs to me is that the
1:43:31
answer to both questions is the same,
1:43:34
meaning probably the most
1:43:37
consequential career
1:43:40
choice that I made, the consequential
1:43:42
saying no that I ever
1:43:44
did was to walk away from
1:43:46
the venture business and to
1:43:48
stop being a professional investor. And
1:43:52
the rest of my life unfolded.
1:43:55
And I'm sitting here talking to you today.
1:43:57
I mean, we might have been friends, Tim.
1:44:00
had I taken that path, who knows? But
1:44:03
I'm sitting here talking to you
1:44:05
about something that feels like the
1:44:07
most profound fruition of
1:44:09
who I am. My vocation, my belief
1:44:11
systems, all of this, because
1:44:14
I said no to
1:44:16
the thing that I was actually really
1:44:18
successful at. Which
1:44:20
is a mind fuck if you think about
1:44:23
it. Because if I was
1:44:25
failing as an investor, you could sort of say,
1:44:27
well, of course, he
1:44:29
walked away, ha ha ha, he failed. But I
1:44:31
actually walked away when I was successful. Because
1:44:35
it was too painful. Can you walk
1:44:37
us through how that happened? Because you
1:44:39
had to have this feeling for, I
1:44:41
would imagine, more than 20 minutes. Maybe
1:44:43
it was days, maybe it was weeks,
1:44:45
maybe it was months. What was
1:44:49
the 24 hour period, the dinner, the
1:44:51
conversation, the 48 hours, whatever it might
1:44:53
have been, when you were like, enough
1:44:55
is enough, I'm actually sending the email,
1:44:58
having the conversation and walking. It
1:45:00
was actually years in the making. I would have to go
1:45:02
back to 99, 2000, right
1:45:07
around that time period, where if
1:45:09
you recall, the market crashed, the
1:45:11
NASDAQ crashed. I forget the
1:45:13
absolute numbers because they would be minuscule compared to
1:45:15
the numbers we're dealing with now. But
1:45:18
the market crashed around March, 1999. And
1:45:20
I remember it because I was on a family
1:45:23
holiday to Washington, D.C. when
1:45:25
Fred, I think texted me,
1:45:28
said, did you see the NASDAQ? I was like, oh
1:45:30
my God. And I think
1:45:32
it had dropped like 700 points or something,
1:45:35
which at the time was like a
1:45:37
phenomenal number. Anyway, right around that time,
1:45:39
I started having this, I just couldn't
1:45:41
sleep. I was just not happy. I
1:45:44
was 37, 38 years old. So
1:45:46
in hindsight, it was clearly entering midlife.
1:45:49
And like the systems were collapsing all
1:45:51
around me. And then
1:45:54
I thought I couldn't go
1:45:56
out and fundraise with Fred and raise a
1:45:58
new venture capital fund for. And
1:46:01
so I decided to leave the fund,
1:46:03
but I decided to leave the fund
1:46:05
and go to J.P. Morgan because I
1:46:07
thought that the problem was changing the
1:46:09
externalities. And so then I took
1:46:12
a position starting January 1, 2002,
1:46:14
and as we were talking about before, by
1:46:16
February, it was just not working. And
1:46:19
I remember going in to see my boss at the
1:46:21
time, a guy named Jeff Walker, who was
1:46:24
vice chairman of the bank. He's still a very,
1:46:26
very close friend. And I remember saying, I
1:46:28
can't do it. I just can't do
1:46:30
it. And I think it was probably a few
1:46:32
months after the Canyon Ranch visit. And
1:46:35
I said, I'm not going to renew my
1:46:37
contract at the end of this year. And
1:46:40
he said, well, what are you going to do? And I said,
1:46:42
I don't know, but for the first time in my life, I'm
1:46:44
going to be without a job. Since the first time since I
1:46:46
was about 13. And
1:46:48
I'm going to be liberated from
1:46:50
this definition, from this notion of
1:46:53
like wearing somebody else's suit of
1:46:55
clothes. It
1:46:57
was incredibly scary. It
1:47:00
was incredibly hard. What's the trigger? I
1:47:02
hate to interrupt, but was the trigger
1:47:04
that you had a preset scheduled
1:47:07
meeting for the renewal of the contract? It was
1:47:09
kind of like shit or get off the pot
1:47:11
in the sense. No, no. So it was a
1:47:13
dinner. It was a dinner. OK, it
1:47:16
was the dinner. It was like, Jeff, I need to have a
1:47:18
dinner. I need to talk about this because
1:47:20
the presumption everybody renewed their contract.
1:47:22
Did something prompt was there a particular
1:47:25
day or moment that prompted you asking
1:47:27
him out to dinner? You know,
1:47:29
so I went down to Canyon Ranch and
1:47:31
I read these books. Let
1:47:34
Your Life Speak. Holy shit, I've actually not
1:47:36
been listening to my life. And
1:47:39
I started to spend the next few months. It
1:47:41
was the beginning of my meditation practice.
1:47:45
I first meditated at Canyon Ranch.
1:47:48
And I would argue I first began
1:47:50
listening to my life, to
1:47:52
my heart. And over the
1:47:54
next few months, up until November that
1:47:57
year, I think we had
1:47:59
dinner right around November. second or so. There's
1:48:01
that number two again. I never
1:48:03
noticed that pattern before. We had
1:48:05
dinner and I said to him, you know, it was like
1:48:07
one of those moments, do I sit at the beginning
1:48:09
of the dinner? Or do I sit at the, you know,
1:48:12
just one last small thing before we go. By
1:48:14
the way, I'm not going to be your partner
1:48:16
anymore. And I said it at the beginning and
1:48:19
I knew in my heart that
1:48:21
he would still be my friend. In
1:48:23
fact, we remain super close. But
1:48:26
the fear was like, what was it going to
1:48:29
do? And I didn't know. I had
1:48:31
no idea. Thank you for bringing
1:48:33
me back to that time because it's important
1:48:36
for me to remember that. I'm feeling
1:48:38
that right now. What was the
1:48:40
day after you walked like? Do you
1:48:42
remember what that, what you did on
1:48:45
the first one or two days after
1:48:48
you walked out? I remember starting to
1:48:50
tell people, I told the
1:48:52
woman who was my assistant at the
1:48:54
time, she remains a very close friend.
1:48:56
See, there's a pattern, Carrie Rachlin. And
1:48:59
I said, you know, Carrie, I'm not going to do it. I
1:49:02
don't remember all of the details. It was so long
1:49:04
ago. This is 17 years ago now. But
1:49:08
I remember the feeling and the feeling
1:49:10
was a combination
1:49:12
of utter relief and
1:49:14
absolute terror. Both
1:49:17
feelings, simultaneous. What's
1:49:20
your advice to someone who's in that
1:49:22
position? And I could phrase it as
1:49:25
what advice would you have given yourself when feeling
1:49:27
those two things at that point in time, which
1:49:29
you can answer. Or since
1:49:32
you have experience with so many executives,
1:49:36
founders, and so on, when
1:49:39
people are experiencing this sense
1:49:42
of relief combined with abject
1:49:45
terror of facing the unknown,
1:49:47
what's your advice? The
1:49:50
first thing I would say, and I would
1:49:52
have said to myself, is that welcome to
1:49:54
midlife, for sure. And
1:49:56
I say this often now, because I often... often
1:50:00
can see the connection to where
1:50:02
I was talking to the CEO
1:50:05
of a very successful company who
1:50:08
was just talking to him this morning.
1:50:10
He's 39 years old. It's like everything's
1:50:12
working. Why do I feel groundless?
1:50:14
He's like, well, let's talk about that. So
1:50:18
what I often say is, remember, you're
1:50:20
not alone. And the second
1:50:22
is that there are adults,
1:50:25
men and women, who are
1:50:27
on the other side of that gulf,
1:50:30
and we're fine, and you'll
1:50:32
be fine. And they have
1:50:34
trod the path before you. And
1:50:37
you're going to be okay. How many references
1:50:40
to books have you made, Tim? Those
1:50:43
were all written by people, you know,
1:50:45
Tara's book was written just as much
1:50:47
for herself as it was written for
1:50:49
anyone else. You know, and all
1:50:53
of those people, they're there.
1:50:55
They're like ancestors guiding
1:50:58
us through that period, and
1:51:01
saying, Come on over, the water's fine, you're
1:51:03
gonna be okay. Don't
1:51:06
be so scared. What
1:51:08
is helped most with or
1:51:10
what helped most, if
1:51:13
it's past tense, with your anxiety,
1:51:15
with your worrying, when
1:51:17
you transmuted rage
1:51:20
into anxiety, or if anxiety
1:51:22
bubbled up from
1:51:24
other sources, what are some of
1:51:27
the things that have helped you most with
1:51:29
that? I'll speak about the
1:51:31
rage for a moment, the rage and then
1:51:33
turned into anxiety, it would often
1:51:36
turn into anxiety, but it would equally
1:51:38
as often turn into migraines. And
1:51:40
that's when Dr. Sayas first taught me the first
1:51:42
of those three questions, which is what am I
1:51:44
not saying that needs to be said. And
1:51:47
by linking, speaking
1:51:51
to the rage, and
1:51:54
to the migraines and to the anxiety, I
1:51:57
gave voice to the feelings. And
1:52:00
And that didn't magically make
1:52:02
them go away, but it lessened the
1:52:04
power of that anxiety. It lessened the
1:52:06
power of all of those feelings. So
1:52:09
learning to speak, whether it's in my journal,
1:52:12
or actually learning to speak like
1:52:14
an adult with another human being.
1:52:16
Hey, that hurt me. Or hey,
1:52:18
I'm scared. That thing that you
1:52:20
said last night scared me. And
1:52:23
as a result, I want to do the
1:52:25
thing that I would normally do, which is
1:52:27
withdraw and cut off connection to you, but
1:52:29
I'm going to stay here and be an
1:52:31
adult and engage with you. That
1:52:34
move, it doesn't make
1:52:37
the anxiety go away, but it
1:52:39
puts me back in control. It puts the adult
1:52:42
me back in control. The other thing that
1:52:44
I do is I start
1:52:46
to ask the anxiety questions. Like, you
1:52:48
really want to work with what's going
1:52:50
on in that amygdala, which is where
1:52:52
that source of anxiety tends to be,
1:52:54
right, the amygdala? I
1:52:56
ask it questions. What's the threat? What
1:52:59
am I afraid of? Have I heard
1:53:01
this before? Those questions fire off the
1:53:03
prefrontal cortex, which can relieve the
1:53:05
anxiety. Do you personally tend
1:53:07
to ask those questions before meditation, in
1:53:10
journaling? What form does the asking
1:53:13
take? Yeah, I do. Well,
1:53:15
remember, I journal before I meditate. So a
1:53:17
lot of times I will be sitting down
1:53:19
at the cushion going, ugh, this
1:53:21
is what I'm working with. And
1:53:25
I'll tell you what happened this morning in my
1:53:27
meditation session. I was working with some really difficult
1:53:29
feelings that came up over the weekend. And
1:53:33
I was sitting in meditation. I had had
1:53:35
a conversation with Sharon Salzberg yesterday, and it
1:53:37
was really helpful. And all of a sudden
1:53:39
she came back in, just as I sat
1:53:41
down. I'm a very ritualized
1:53:43
meditator, right? So I have candles, I
1:53:45
have incense. You know, I'm
1:53:47
a former Catholic, so I like all of
1:53:49
that ritual stuff. Somebody could ring a bell,
1:53:51
it makes me happy, right? So I'm doing
1:53:53
all that stuff. I'm sitting on the cushion
1:53:55
and all that's emerging. And all
1:53:58
of a sudden I start visualizing. the
1:54:00
area of my chest where my heart is. And
1:54:04
the object of my meditation this
1:54:06
morning was, open your
1:54:08
heart, open your heart, your heart's
1:54:10
closing, stay open, stay
1:54:12
open. And in that
1:54:14
moment I realized that what I was continuing
1:54:17
to work with was the
1:54:19
impulse to close down this weekend,
1:54:22
that I was feeling in response to
1:54:24
the fears. And
1:54:27
so the naturally arising
1:54:29
thought that came from
1:54:31
that session in that moment was, open,
1:54:36
open, open, which
1:54:39
very, very quickly turned into
1:54:41
loving kindness meditation for myself. For
1:54:44
people who don't know, correct me if I'm wrong
1:54:46
here, but loving kindness meditation, if you want to
1:54:48
learn more about it, I would highly recommend
1:54:51
diving into that, also known
1:54:53
as META, META meditation.
1:54:57
Two folks
1:54:59
worth checking out, Jack Kornfield has
1:55:01
been on this podcast before, specifically
1:55:03
speaking about meta and loving kindness.
1:55:05
Sharon's also spoken about it on
1:55:08
the podcast. And those are
1:55:10
good, those are great places to start. Very,
1:55:12
very effective, short,
1:55:15
at least can-be short meditation that
1:55:18
really punches above its weight class in a
1:55:20
sense. I think in part for me, I'm
1:55:22
really glad we're talking about this because it's
1:55:24
a type of meditation that I haven't used
1:55:26
in a while, and I really should, is
1:55:29
at least for me it's a
1:55:31
vacation from
1:55:35
obsessing on myself, if
1:55:38
it is directed to other people. Now,
1:55:41
as was pointed out to me during my
1:55:43
first ever extended meditation retreat, I was talking
1:55:45
about loving kindness and how much I enjoyed
1:55:47
it, and they asked on the way out,
1:55:50
just a quick suggestion, have you
1:55:52
applied this to yourself at all?
1:55:54
And it was so nonsensical
1:55:57
to me. They
1:56:00
might have been speaking to me in
1:56:02
Klingon. I was like, loving kindness to
1:56:04
myself? What? That doesn't make any sense. And
1:56:07
lo and behold, I did find it
1:56:09
very valuable. I really enjoy combining that
1:56:12
with also loving kindness meditation for other
1:56:14
people. And if you're just kind
1:56:16
of rolling your eyes at the
1:56:18
sort of a new age hippie sounding
1:56:20
wording of loving kindness, then we could
1:56:22
switch to a different language and look
1:56:24
up meta, M-E-T-T-A, meditation. Same, same,
1:56:27
but different. Jared, let me ask you
1:56:29
just a couple more questions. We could go for
1:56:31
many, many hours more, and we
1:56:33
certainly have spoken for many hours
1:56:35
before, but for the purposes of
1:56:38
right now, I think we're getting
1:56:40
close to a really good getting
1:56:42
reacquainted chat and round one of
1:56:44
the podcast. I'll ask you just
1:56:46
a few more questions. One is,
1:56:49
what is the new
1:56:52
behavior in the last handful of years? It
1:56:55
could be anytime really.
1:56:57
Or belief that is most, or
1:57:01
I should say, greatly improved your life,
1:57:03
quality of your life. New behavior or
1:57:05
belief in the last fill
1:57:07
in the blank number of years that has
1:57:10
significantly improved the quality of your life. The
1:57:12
main one that comes to mind is that
1:57:14
I am a good
1:57:16
man. The
1:57:20
belief. That's a belief.
1:57:22
I believe that I am a fundamentally
1:57:25
good person. And
1:57:28
that I accept the fact that I
1:57:30
often fail to act in
1:57:32
accordance with that. But that
1:57:36
feels, to this
1:57:38
guilt-ridden, anxious-ridden, angry
1:57:40
child from Brooklyn way
1:57:42
back when, that feels
1:57:45
radically transformative. What?
1:57:48
I'm good, just as I am? No.
1:57:52
Yeah, I'm good. That's
1:57:55
huge. Hard to
1:57:57
imagine something bigger. Either
1:58:01
way, I ate. Yeah, I have to practice
1:58:03
it everyday, but you know I'm a good
1:58:05
enough partner. I'm a good enough business
1:58:07
person. I'm good enough coach. I'm
1:58:10
good enough. Carrot: That's the hardest one
1:58:12
for me. Has
1:58:14
a wounded my children? Yes.
1:58:17
The said undermine whether or not I'm a
1:58:19
good man in a good father. Know.
1:58:22
And that allowance has done
1:58:24
something really magical. It's allowed
1:58:26
them to accept themselves. Or
1:58:30
yeah, it's a big move said Stigmas.
1:58:32
The next question: Nice segue
1:58:34
completely difference, but if you
1:58:37
could put a message on
1:58:39
the billboard metaphorically speaking to.
1:58:42
A quote? A word, A question.
1:58:44
Anything noncommercial out to billions of
1:58:46
people. What might you put on
1:58:48
such a billboard? Army. They
1:58:51
add two sentences or it is
1:58:53
a big billboards. This put it
1:58:55
right, Voldemort so doesn't say impeach
1:58:57
Trump. Just kidding. It says you're
1:58:59
not alone. And just because you feel
1:59:01
like shit doesn't mean you are shit. Do
1:59:04
you are not alone is really, really
1:59:06
important. Because we
1:59:08
see also broken because we question are
1:59:10
really ness all the time. We
1:59:13
exacerbate the ceilings.
1:59:16
Ah, as. I.
1:59:18
Must be the only one who's going
1:59:20
through this. and this is crazy because
1:59:22
despite all the evidence, Whether
1:59:25
it's mess, Whether stories where
1:59:27
there's religions were the philosophical
1:59:30
traditions, everybody saying the same
1:59:32
thing. You're. Fundamentally good.
1:59:35
Yeah. There are things you can do to
1:59:37
improve your life with your fundamentally good. Relax.
1:59:40
It's okay, That's. That Equity
1:59:42
Amity that I often talk about
1:59:44
like, okay, So I guess.
1:59:47
You're. Not Alone. And just because you
1:59:49
feel like shit doesn't mean you are shit. And
1:59:52
if I'm not shit than the ceiling
1:59:54
of. It being crappy right now.
1:59:56
while this will pass. So.
1:59:59
let's add another one This too
2:00:01
shall pass. Can I add
2:00:03
onto that? You can add, you can keep adding.
2:00:05
Tim, think of the times in which you have
2:00:07
struggled. You've been very open about your struggles, and
2:00:09
by the way, thank you for doing that, because
2:00:11
you model something that's really important. Think
2:00:14
about when you've been at your worst, and
2:00:17
how alone it feels, and
2:00:19
how it becomes this self-reinforcing negative
2:00:22
view that you must be crap
2:00:24
because you feel like crap. It's
2:00:27
like, no, stop. You must
2:00:29
be human because you feel
2:00:31
struggle, and there are billions
2:00:33
of humans, and have been billions, and
2:00:36
there will be billions more, and
2:00:38
struggle is universal. It
2:00:40
is part of the amusement ride.
2:00:43
That's right. Yeah,
2:00:46
and you bought a ticket, and you might as
2:00:48
well go for a ride. It can't be on
2:00:50
Magic Castle indefinitely. You're gonna go through the haunted
2:00:52
house occasionally. Amen. Gary,
2:00:57
thank you so much for taking
2:00:59
the time today to share, and
2:01:01
to catch up, and to
2:01:04
teach. I always
2:01:06
enjoy our conversations. So, point
2:01:09
number one, thank you very much. Well,
2:01:11
thank you, and thank you for giving me
2:01:13
the opportunity, and thank you for asking gorgeous
2:01:16
questions that really help me think and
2:01:18
feel, and thank you for doing what
2:01:21
you do every day. It really means
2:01:23
a lot to the world. My
2:01:25
pleasure. I really appreciate you saying that, and
2:01:27
it helps me as much as I
2:01:29
hope it helps other people. There's
2:01:33
that weird, crazy, esoteric thing that
2:01:35
all those people, high-achieving people say,
2:01:37
oh, there he goes, oh, helping
2:01:39
me helps other people, helping other people
2:01:42
helps me. Yeah, right, Tim's living proof of
2:01:44
that, so there. It's
2:01:47
true, it's true. I mean, I think that I've
2:01:49
been very fortunate to somehow stumble
2:01:53
my way like a drunk in the dark into
2:01:56
a career that involves having conversations like
2:01:58
this. Thank you,
2:02:00
Lady Fortune, for that. And it's
2:02:02
also just a tremendous opportunity
2:02:05
to explore some
2:02:07
of these things that perhaps aren't
2:02:11
explored as often as they should be. And
2:02:14
you are a great companion on
2:02:16
the path with that. So thank you
2:02:19
again. And where are
2:02:21
the best places to say hello to
2:02:23
online or to learn about what you're
2:02:26
up to? Of
2:02:29
course, the book, Reboots, Subtitle, Leadership, and
2:02:31
the Art of Growing Up is
2:02:34
available. And certainly something I would recommend people
2:02:36
check out as many of the prompts and
2:02:38
more that we've talked about, a lot
2:02:41
of case studies, personal history, and
2:02:44
distillation of a lot of what you've learned working with
2:02:48
hundreds, thousands of clients at this point.
2:02:51
And what else should
2:02:53
people know? Anything else? Yeah, I
2:02:56
mean, probably the best way to
2:02:58
sort of follow what's going on
2:03:01
is reboot.io/book. But also,
2:03:03
if you just go to the reboot.io
2:03:05
website, we've got a
2:03:07
bunch of resources, podcasts,
2:03:09
self-guided courses, journaling,
2:03:12
exercises, all sorts of things designed
2:03:14
to help folks all
2:03:16
for free because, you know, hey,
2:03:18
what the heck? You know, let's help each
2:03:20
other out. And that's probably
2:03:22
the best way. You can also
2:03:25
follow me on Twitter at Jerry Colonna.
2:03:27
You mentioned that earlier. But
2:03:29
pick up the book. I'm pretty proud
2:03:31
of it. And I hope it makes a
2:03:33
difference, makes a dent in the world. That's
2:03:36
the best that we can hope for. And
2:03:39
for people listening, I'll link to
2:03:41
everything that we've discussed. The website,
2:03:43
book website, Twitter, and everything
2:03:46
else that came up in this
2:03:49
conversation in the show notes, as
2:03:51
always, at tim.blog/podcast. You
2:03:53
can just search Jerry, J-E-R-R-Y, or
2:03:56
Colonna if you want to take the Black Diamond route
2:03:58
instead of using the easy option. And
2:04:02
you'll be able to find it very
2:04:04
very quickly Jerry any
2:04:06
other comments requests Anything
2:04:09
at all that you'd like to say before we wrap up no
2:04:12
it just that it was a real heartfelt
2:04:14
pleasure It was really a blast likewise. Thanks
2:04:16
so much Jerry and Everyone
2:04:19
out there. Thank you so much
2:04:21
for listening and until next time
2:04:24
Pick up a damn journal Amen
2:04:27
that's right and real pens Give
2:04:31
it a shot. It's amazing what you can discover when
2:04:33
you take what you think are clear thoughts and put
2:04:35
them on paper And
2:04:37
that's it for now so until next time.
2:04:39
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