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Knowing that on one level, maybe I could do
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the thing. So the
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people that are struggling with this, they have that
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too. So you being able
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to support them in believing themselves and
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in listening to their body and maybe
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helping them track. Because tracking is a big part
0:19
of it. But that would be a
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way to be supportive of like really helping them
0:24
come to accept. One of the treatments that
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they used to recommend, by
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used to, I mean recently, this is
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still a little bit controversial. Like I
0:33
said, it was that graded exercise that
0:35
now they are not recommending for people
0:37
even long COVID with post exertional malaise.
0:40
It can be counter indicated. Right
0:42
to push yourself. To push yourself. Right. This
0:45
is not a good idea when you have it. It can
0:47
make you worse. But also
0:49
there was a CBT therapy that they
0:51
were really pushing and saying that there
0:53
was evidence for that. Again, the controversy
0:55
is that that was not good science.
0:58
You can certainly look into that yourself. But
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I think where people are settling is the CBT
1:04
that they're talking about. CBT, meaning
1:06
cognitive behavioral therapy, was
1:08
helping convince them that it was in their
1:10
head. Right. Helping
1:13
them push past their own
1:15
internal barriers. That also
1:17
is contraindicated because in fact, that's
1:19
not the case. Now,
1:22
CBT therapy that helps someone accept what's happening
1:24
and understand it and get more in touch
1:26
with their body and listen. That's different. And
1:29
that's certainly welcome. When
1:31
you hear people push back about CBT therapy
1:34
for this, it's the kind of therapy where basically the
1:37
therapist is really trying to convince you that it's
1:39
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everyone, welcome back to therapist uncensored. I'm
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Anne. And before we
4:01
jump in today's episode, we have an
4:04
exciting announcement. We have a conference that
4:06
Sue and I are putting on this
4:09
coming May 4th. And we're
4:11
really, really psyched about it, aren't we? We
4:14
could not do it without our partner
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organization, Austin and Connection, who is sponsoring
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us near and dear to
4:20
our heart, austinandconnection.org. Check them
4:22
out. But what we
4:24
are just really thrilled about is we're taking
4:26
all the stuff that Ann and I have
4:28
learned in clinical practice over the past 30
4:30
years. That's a long time.
4:34
And we timed that by two because
4:36
both of our separate clinical experiences,
4:39
everything we've learned on the podcast,
4:41
everything we've learned from all of our expert guests and
4:44
all the research that we did for the book. And
4:46
we're going to bring it to you live. We
4:49
invite you to join us from wherever you
4:51
are. We know that many people won't necessarily
4:53
be able to make it in person. But
4:56
if you can, this is the event to come
4:58
to. That's true. Some people have
5:00
asked, you know, when's the event for us to
5:02
actually fly in? And
5:04
if you can and you have the resource to do it, we
5:06
would love for this to be the one to do it. We're
5:09
going to also have a meet and greet Friday
5:11
night. It's more than a meet
5:13
and greet. Well, that's true. That's true. It's
5:16
our book launch party. The book launch
5:18
is Friday night. And so we're going to
5:20
have a gathering that should be a lot of fun, a
5:22
lot of ways to connect to people. And
5:25
then Saturday is a full day all day
5:27
conference. And another thing about the
5:30
conference and then we'll move on. But it is going
5:32
to be different. And we'll continue
5:34
to share details about that as we
5:36
go as it gets closer. But I'm
5:38
just it's not going to be just your ordinary conference.
5:41
We're going to specifically do
5:43
a deep dive into modern
5:45
attachment, how to apply it,
5:47
weaving in relational neuroscience, but
5:49
also really, really incorporating systems
5:52
and structures that impact how we
5:54
feel, both our development,
5:56
how we grow and how we see ourselves
5:58
in the world. but also our kind
6:00
of more immediate sense of security in the world.
6:04
So I'm really proud of that and I think
6:06
that that's really different than anything that's out there
6:08
right now. Well, we're also going to
6:10
have some group portions of
6:12
it. So active participation, not
6:15
just sit and receive,
6:17
but an active participation.
6:19
I'm also really excited about the
6:21
lunch component. Are we going
6:23
to give it all away already? Okay, okay. Okay.
6:26
No, no, no. Okay. So
6:28
we're going to have lunch together. I mean, you're not mandated
6:30
to. You certainly can go off site. But
6:32
that's too much togetherness. You get to take off.
6:34
Totally get that. But lunch is
6:36
included in the ticket and then right
6:39
after lunch, you'll have an option. One
6:41
is to just rest and do nothing, of course, but
6:44
as part of the conference, inspired
6:47
by the book, Lifting Heavy Things, which
6:49
is a book by a person
6:52
in the physical personal training
6:54
field about using
6:56
strength training as part of her
6:58
therapy and part of her treatment
7:00
of trauma and being able to use that with clients. We
7:03
are going to have a certified personal trainer join
7:05
us who is amazing and
7:07
works really holistically and you're going to absolutely
7:10
love her. And she's going
7:12
to lead us through some strength exercises, a different
7:15
way of embodying somatic work
7:18
and connecting us to our bodies and connecting
7:21
us to the strength that it's going to
7:23
take for us to continue to do this
7:25
practice of secure relating. That's
7:27
one option. And then the other option
7:29
is we have another professional who will be leading
7:32
a mindfulness practice at the same time. So
7:35
all kinds of goodies coming at you.
7:38
Those of you hearing the word strength
7:40
training, we're not going to be bringing
7:42
barbells or anything like that. It's going
7:44
to be something pretty accessible and accessible,
7:46
but meaningful, which is helpful to bring
7:48
that kind of thing to an everyday
7:50
life that's really doable and accessible to
7:52
everybody. And so for anybody from out of
7:54
town, we will have some welcoming and then
7:56
on Sunday, I think we've got some volunteers
7:58
that are going to be there. be continuing
8:00
to do cool things so that we want
8:02
to help you all meet each other and
8:04
again do what we say we want to do
8:07
which is build community. So if you
8:09
are a listener and you are coming in
8:11
from if you happen to be coming in
8:13
from out of town go ahead and shoot
8:15
an email to Catherine at therapistuncensored.com just
8:18
that we know that you're a listener and that you'll be coming
8:20
in from out of town. Actually what it's go ahead
8:22
and send it to info at. Okay that's a good idea.
8:26
And then the link should be live by the
8:28
time that this goes live. It should
8:31
be live. So we go
8:33
to therapistuncensored.com and it'll
8:35
probably be backslash conference but you'll
8:37
see it on our page therapistuncensored.com.
8:40
Remember it's not backslash we got corrected on that.
8:42
Maybe it'll be called modern
8:46
attachment or conference I don't know
8:48
but you'll see it on the page. Yeah
8:51
it'll be distinct. Yes. All
8:53
right and again thanks to us and in
8:55
connection for this wonderful opportunity. So
8:58
let's dive into today's episode. So
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we have personally
9:02
close to us experienced
9:04
somebody that we love dearly
9:08
with long COVID and it's
9:10
very very relevant in our hearts and I
9:12
don't know anyone who
9:14
can take a
9:16
topic and dive more deeply
9:18
than you Sue Marriott. When
9:21
she gets her mind to something and
9:23
she cares about you and something's going
9:25
on you're gonna know more
9:27
about it than anybody else I think I
9:29
can imagine knowing. And we
9:32
decided that we wanted to bring this
9:34
topic to our listeners because it's
9:36
so relevant. Long COVID is
9:39
impacting they estimate about 10
9:41
to 30 percent of people who actually
9:43
contract COVID are likely to have
9:46
long COVID symptoms and
9:48
some people won't even know that's what it
9:50
is. So we really feel like it's a
9:52
very very relevant topic and how it affects
9:54
us emotionally and physically as
9:57
well as socially. So we want
9:59
to talk about it today. Yeah, totally.
10:01
And Anna's right, I deal with
10:03
stress by learning. So
10:06
I have read probably more than my fair share, but
10:08
certainly I'm no expert. And as
10:10
we're sharing some of this, you know, we're
10:12
not medical doctors, not neuroscientists, concerned
10:15
people and both
10:17
personally in our life and also professionally.
10:19
So this is in
10:21
stereo for sure. So I care about it
10:23
a lot. So long
10:25
COVID is affecting a lot of people. Let's start
10:27
by talking about what we mean when we're talking
10:29
about long COVID. You know, it can
10:31
manifest in all sorts of different ways, right?
10:33
It can manifest for some individuals with severe
10:36
respiratory issues, heart palpitations,
10:39
muscle pain and aches,
10:42
migraines, even
10:44
digestive issues and voice.
10:47
It can affect your voice and your
10:50
vocal cords strangely and ringing in your
10:52
ears. So
10:54
this is a quick aside, I promise I won't
10:56
derail this too much. But one of
10:58
the exciting things I thought, the light bulb moments
11:00
that I had and reading about some of this
11:03
was the implication potentially of
11:05
the vagus nerve. And
11:07
many of you neuro nerds out there are friends,
11:10
the vagus nerve. I've heard us
11:12
talk about it a lot. And you just know about it
11:14
because of your probably your somatic work and things like that.
11:17
But it is, you know, the wandering
11:19
nerve, the 10th cranial
11:22
nerve, I believe largest nerve in the body. But
11:24
what's important about it is that it innervates
11:26
everything from the brain goes all the way
11:29
over your face, your neck, your ears, your
11:31
throat, all your big organs
11:33
in your chest and your gut, and
11:36
so on. And it is a major highway
11:38
sending information back and forth from the body
11:41
to the brain. And
11:43
so if COVID ends up affecting
11:45
the vagus nerve, that's
11:48
why all these different systems
11:50
might be impacted. So
11:53
I think there's a lot of those kinds of like, you
11:55
know, they say that if this
11:57
was a murder scene, that there would be
11:59
lots of. clues. There's no shortage
12:01
of clues. But today, rather
12:03
than all of those subsystems and all
12:05
of those subcategories, what we're
12:08
particularly interested in and focusing on, because
12:10
of the psychological impact, is
12:12
the many millions of people that are
12:15
impacted by this post-exertion malaise,
12:18
P-E-M, as they describe it.
12:21
It's this very severe fatigue
12:23
that happens with long COVID.
12:25
Well, very significant fatigue that
12:27
happens with just the slightest
12:29
exertion. It doesn't take much
12:31
for many people to feel this like
12:33
deep sense of just the gas going
12:35
out of your tank. Or
12:38
gravity being turned up a hundred
12:40
times. Or people have described it
12:42
like jet lag. You know,
12:44
if you think about, like, if you don't have it and
12:46
you have jet lag and you remember how miserable that can
12:49
be, where you're falling asleep in the
12:51
middle of the day, you cannot keep your eyes open
12:53
for anything or that you're wide
12:55
awake in the middle of the night, like your system
12:57
is off. But normally,
12:59
you get restful sleep and you're
13:01
able to restore. And so another
13:03
symptom is non-restorative sleep. And
13:06
I can tell you as we've dove into this
13:09
and become more familiar with it, just
13:11
about every morning I'm waking up just being
13:13
grateful that my body knows how to go
13:15
to sleep, keeps me asleep, wakes me up
13:18
at the right time, and I feel refreshed.
13:21
And for folks that are
13:23
struggling with this post-exertion malaise
13:26
and this chronic fatigue, then
13:29
that's the Achilles. Because
13:31
there's without restorative sleep,
13:34
then you wake up just as
13:36
jet lagged, just as hungover, just
13:38
as mentally cluttered as you
13:41
were when you went to sleep, which
13:43
is terrible. Then that can be
13:45
so discouraging. That's one reason we want to talk
13:48
about it today, is to help develop
13:50
compassion and care, whether this is
13:52
you or somebody you love to
13:54
understand. And this is not
13:56
just new to COVID. Our understanding
13:59
and focus on this kind of
14:01
chronic fatigue has significantly gone up
14:04
as COVID has been so widespread, but there's
14:06
all sorts of different kind of chronic fatigue
14:08
syndromes out there that people
14:10
struggle with all the time.
14:13
Right. And it hasn't gotten any attention. Or
14:15
not enough, right. It has gotten very
14:17
little attention because it is very difficult
14:20
to treat. It's very difficult to diagnose.
14:23
And it's very easy to blow off and to
14:26
not believe because it's even the
14:28
term chronic fatigue is we just assume that
14:30
we know what that means that because we
14:32
all have felt fatigued, but
14:34
that this is something very different. As a matter of fact, there's
14:37
a movement to really focus
14:39
on calling it ME instead of
14:41
CFS. So ME is myalgic
14:45
encephalomyelitis. And
14:47
then the other version is
14:49
encephalopathy. But basically
14:52
what that means, myalgic meaning pain, and
14:54
then the other meaning inflammation of the
14:57
brain and spinal cord and possibly the
14:59
myelin. And that
15:01
evokes a very different feeling and reaction
15:03
than just chronic fatigue. So it's really
15:05
important. So you'll hear it referred to
15:08
as ME slash CFS.
15:11
So this is an empathy development
15:13
is that we want you to really focus on
15:15
the ME. You know, this
15:17
is really affecting so many organs in the
15:19
body. And as a matter of
15:21
fact, there's a new article that just came out.
15:24
You want to speak to that? Well, it was
15:26
on NPR and it is based on studies
15:28
done in South Africa and the
15:30
Netherlands that have been able to
15:33
point to some really specific
15:35
outcomes that happen for long, specifically
15:37
in these cases, the long COVID
15:40
patients. They compared long
15:43
COVID with patients that have
15:45
recovered fully from COVID
15:48
in significant exercise. They
15:50
gave them an exercise for like 15 minutes. Right.
15:53
So there's a plethora of biomarkers.
15:56
So in general, what happens
15:58
is everybody exercises. and then
16:00
you get everything from oxygen consumption. But
16:03
there even in this particular study, they
16:05
were doing muscle biopsies. So they could
16:07
look at the physical muscle tissue. And
16:11
there were many very significant findings of
16:13
it. But then they would compare
16:15
it and then they would exercise again. And
16:18
for the folks with long COVID that
16:20
had this fatigue, those
16:22
markers were all
16:24
over the place. It was
16:27
absolutely clear and obvious on
16:29
the second round. They had cell
16:31
death in the muscle tissues, atrophy,
16:34
and really could point to
16:37
reasons why these individuals had trouble
16:39
converting oxygen into their energy. They
16:42
even found tiny blood clots
16:44
that increased tiny blood clots in
16:46
the tissues, right? In the muscle
16:49
walls. That's the really scary
16:51
stuff is that, again,
16:53
this is all just forming, just coming out.
16:56
The scientists are working really hard to figure this
16:58
out. But if that is true,
17:00
that the blood clots weren't in the vascular
17:02
system, which is where you would expect it.
17:05
They were in the muscle itself. What
17:08
that means is that
17:10
those clots somehow are
17:12
getting from inside the little tube
17:15
of the veins and the arteries. It's
17:18
moving through the wall into the muscle, which
17:20
is really scary because if it can do it
17:22
in the muscle, they're speculating that it can do
17:24
it in other tissues in the body too. So
17:28
this is alarming, but it's also
17:31
potentially gives researchers a direction to
17:33
go in. All of this
17:35
to say, one, that it's
17:37
hitting the public press in a much
17:39
larger way, the reality,
17:41
the biomarkers of this being
17:44
a very real chronic
17:46
illness to be taken very
17:48
seriously, both from work standpoint,
17:51
health standpoint, all those things,
17:53
research standpoint. But
17:55
we shouldn't need that. We should be
17:57
just believing people when they say that.
17:59
they're sick. And that is an important
18:02
message from the community, which is, yes,
18:04
we're, you know, those markers and research
18:06
is great. But also, we
18:09
don't want to be propagating the idea that until
18:11
you have a fever that you're sick, or until
18:13
that you can show it on a blood test,
18:15
that it's not real, that that isn't true, that
18:17
we want to listen to our bodies and
18:19
listen to the person who's telling us about their body.
18:22
That's very important message today. Very,
18:25
very important message. And we will link
18:27
some of these resources to the show notes.
18:30
So don't take our scientific description of what's
18:32
going on for any stress. That is not
18:34
our expertise. But what we do
18:36
want to do is to talk about
18:38
the stigma and the emotional pain that
18:40
happens with these kind of diseases, whether
18:43
it's long COVID or whether it is CFS
18:46
or- M-A-C-F-S, fibromyalgia,
18:49
lupus, Lyme disease.
18:52
There is so much stigma that happens
18:54
related to this that can be just heartbreaking.
18:57
And it's so much in
18:59
our culture, if you can't point to it and see
19:01
it, and you can't fix it, you know, then there's
19:04
like, come on, get up. And that used to be
19:06
the theory around this. They were like, oh, with long
19:08
COVID, the advice was, you know, you're
19:10
just been tired, you need to work yourself back
19:13
up, build up your stamina. And they
19:15
have actually discovered that is quite the
19:17
opposite. And this research really shows them a
19:19
little bit about why that kind
19:21
of exertion is actually leading to a rebound
19:23
and actually a decline in functioning, not an
19:25
improvement. Yeah, it's a huge
19:28
controversy. But actually, it's a really important
19:30
point, Anne, because it mirrors what happens
19:32
to us psychologically, when we
19:34
don't believe. And we're in that boat. And
19:36
as a matter of fact, if you're struggling
19:39
with something like this, you often also
19:41
probably don't believe. Like
19:43
we have a human tendency to
19:46
question ourselves. Like, you
19:48
know, when we call in sick, for example, at work, there's
19:50
a part of us that's like, well, you know, I'm not
19:52
so sick, I could go to work. Yeah, how thick am
19:54
I? I have enough energy to go and get up and
19:56
watch my favorite show. Could I sit in
19:58
that meeting? Exactly. Or Or like you think about the day
20:01
and you're like, you know, you might say, you're
20:03
like, I don't feel that great. And then you think about what's going
20:05
to happen. And then based on what you think about what's going to,
20:07
you know, like, oh, no, then you get up and you go. Or
20:10
you're like, oh, never mind. I'm rolling over and going. So
20:12
that self-doubt is in all of
20:14
us in the medical community,
20:16
this argument, one
20:18
of the positions, and this is what the great, this
20:21
is what you were talking about with a graded exercise,
20:23
which is that the old theory was, well,
20:26
yeah, you got sick. And so then you
20:28
got deconditioned because you weren't moving, you were
20:30
in bed. And then because
20:33
you're deconditioned, that when you get up, you're tired.
20:35
And so then you want to go back to
20:37
bed, but then you get depressed, which then makes you
20:40
want to like, in other words, that you're in the
20:42
cycle that is, you know,
20:44
quote, in your head, meaning, if
20:47
we could push you enough and get you moving and
20:49
get you conditioned again, then you're going to
20:51
feel better. And in many, many cases, that's
20:54
actually true. If your body's
20:56
functioning normally and it's oxygen delivery
20:58
and it's recovery, absolutely, get
21:00
moving, push yourself a little bit, no pain,
21:02
no gain, all of that makes sense. But
21:05
what they're discovering in this case is the exact
21:07
opposite, which is that to push someone, as a
21:10
matter of fact, those studies you just mentioned, those
21:13
poor, long COVID folks that had
21:15
the symptoms that were pushed to
21:18
measure, they had the negative impact
21:20
and the backlash, like it's actually
21:22
harmful to push past these things.
21:25
But my point psychologically, though, is that
21:27
there's a group of scientists that are
21:29
really standing firm and know this is
21:31
about deconditioning, you just have to condition.
21:35
And then there's these other group of people saying
21:37
that, no, you have to believe them. And they're
21:39
pointing now to these biological markers in order to
21:41
convince them. So it's like they're having to use
21:44
a left brain argument to say, here,
21:46
let me prove it to you that
21:48
we need to listen to these patients. And
21:51
it just mirrors, I think, some of what goes
21:53
on within us psychologically of like, when
21:56
your neighbor gets robbed or when something bad happens
21:58
to someone close to you, typically, very
22:00
natural human reaction is to think something
22:03
very quiet and privately like, well
22:05
they didn't have a security system or
22:08
kept their windows open a lot. Which
22:10
is, has this also this embedded, if
22:13
they'd have done something different, if they would, they should
22:15
have known better. Well no, but the idea is it's
22:17
not so much like blaming, but
22:19
it's more of distancing. Like if I could
22:21
do this, then that won't
22:23
happen to me. It's an unconscious psychological
22:26
defense to distance us from
22:28
this helpless tragic event.
22:31
They weren't wearing a seat belt or whatever it
22:33
is, right? That we have naturally a way when
22:35
pain happens to kind of tell
22:37
a little narrative of how that there's some attribute
22:39
control to it. Like that that
22:41
can't happen to me. And so that happens when
22:44
it comes to chronic illness. Because
22:46
the first thing that happens when somebody says,
22:48
you know, we say we have a family
22:50
member with long COVID, there
22:53
are a hundred thousand solutions given to us. And
22:55
it's with all in love and all in good
22:57
intention. And I've done it too. So this isn't,
22:59
we're more talking about the psychological impulse
23:02
to know what's going on, to understand,
23:04
and then to want to help. And
23:06
like here, this is the solution. Which
23:09
is wonderful and beautiful. And again, we've, it's all
23:11
makes sense. But we're trying to look at the
23:13
more subtle underlying thing. Which is,
23:15
oh this is something I know
23:18
and understand. If you did this thing, you
23:20
would feel better. What we're saying, that's more
23:22
about our need to
23:24
feel some sense of
23:26
psychological control. Then like
23:28
it's much more difficult to
23:30
stay in the absolute helplessness
23:33
and unknowing of
23:35
this kind of strange
23:37
multi-system disease. That who
23:40
knows why one person gets it and one person
23:42
doesn't. It's a more subtle
23:44
point that we're trying to make here on the
23:46
podcast today. Around being a little
23:49
bit more conscious of
23:52
our impulse to think we want to give
23:54
answers. And instead invite you into this
23:56
much more vulnerable place of not
23:59
knowing. and listening and
24:02
hearing and asking more
24:04
questions and being with someone you
24:07
know rather than trying to get it fixed right away. And
24:11
what you're hearing with that amazing
24:13
input is what we talk about
24:15
in general right how hard it
24:17
is to stay connected to people
24:20
just where they are at and
24:22
being aware of what gets stirred in
24:24
our own body our assertion to need to be
24:26
helpful to be caring to not be helpless and
24:28
how much we project into other
24:31
people what's going on inside us
24:33
and miss the connection with
24:35
the person themselves because of
24:37
what's going on the loud the held
24:40
voices inside our body or our
24:42
head and the noise that we ignore to
24:45
try to be helpful and encouraging
24:47
or to judge and think this person is just
24:49
like if they would try a little harder they
24:51
could get out of bed or you know they're
24:53
just playing this off you know so
24:56
this is something you can relate to
24:58
experiencing post-covid and you
25:00
hadn't maybe attributed to the fact that you may have
25:03
literally physiological inflammation and
25:05
again we are not trying
25:07
to say we know the causes of
25:09
this this is not our expertise so
25:11
this is the research we're reading but
25:14
really consider the fact that what
25:17
may be happening to your body is real and
25:20
if you think about it to those
25:22
of you that have this that's not you
25:24
but somebody in your life and
25:26
they've had good days you get hopeful oh
25:28
good we're on the other side of this
25:31
and then they have you know one of the days
25:33
you're speaking about to kind
25:35
of pay attention to how it feels emotionally
25:37
to you because you may be putting unconscious
25:39
pressure on this person to wait you
25:41
were better what happened what happened let's let's track it down
25:43
because we got to fix that and that
25:45
puts a lot of pressure on both
25:48
of you to think that there's a specific answer out
25:50
there that needs to be solved and the effect of
25:52
that can be quite detrimental
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into the episode. It's
29:16
been interesting too because physicians are
29:18
people too and we
29:20
don't like to not understand something and
29:23
it's a challenge to join someone
29:26
in helplessness when your
29:28
whole career, your whole life is built
29:30
on helping people. So
29:32
that gets really tricky and as
29:34
a matter of fact we and some of the
29:36
treatment that I've seen and with the we have
29:38
a local long Covid Center here in Austin Texas.
29:40
It takes forever to get into
29:43
it but even once you get
29:45
into it the physicians will tell you that
29:47
they used to follow patients more closely but
29:49
it was too hard on the physicians and
29:52
the patients to have visits
29:54
too close together and not
29:56
be able to see change yet. So
29:58
they put the sessions far
30:00
apart partly to take care of the
30:02
physician and the nurses and the like
30:04
it that it's very Disheartening when you
30:06
pour everything into it and you try
30:08
but the changes that we see in
30:10
this ME CFS Or the
30:13
post COVID that looks like that are very
30:15
very slow. You know, there's hope for sure
30:17
Yeah, there is improvement over time, right? But
30:19
but more that I think the point I'm
30:21
making is what kind of what you're saying,
30:23
which is that it's very hard to To
30:26
just sit with the passivity and
30:28
the helplessness we really want to know
30:30
and we really want to help and That
30:33
definitely affects the medical care and it affects
30:35
how these patients are treated and
30:37
hopefully in hearing this podcast we
30:40
can widen your window of both
30:42
believing the person and Having
30:45
compassion and like being able to put yourself in
30:47
their shoes when I think about honestly It was
30:50
saying the other day like I
30:52
fall asleep pretty easy and I sleep all night
30:54
and I wake up feeling pretty good I need
30:56
that every morning that I wake up be grateful
30:59
That all the magic that happens
31:01
when your rhythms the kitty and rhythm and
31:03
all those things are working
31:06
And that might not always be the case You
31:09
know what I'm saying? I do I do
31:11
like that's how I have developed deeper like even
31:13
the example I talked about I think about the
31:15
gentleman that I spoke with and I think about
31:17
in my own personal experience I feel very grateful
31:19
for the amount of energy that I just hold
31:22
I guess you and I actually hold a lot
31:24
of just natural energy and I
31:27
feel so much more exponentially grateful that I
31:29
have that and I think
31:31
about the times of the days and I
31:33
think everybody can relate to that where you've
31:36
so fatigued for whatever reason you didn't Sleep
31:38
or jet lag and I could
31:40
think I can't wait to go to bed I can't wait
31:42
to sleep because I know what it's like Post
31:45
this to wake up and feel good
31:47
and that generally is what happens for me, right?
31:49
And so if I stop to really put myself
31:52
in the place of people experiencing this and they
31:54
don't get to wake up They don't
31:57
get to look forward actually to going to
31:59
bed wake up and
32:01
to feel refreshed and that they are likely
32:03
going to feel this. Some people for a
32:05
couple months, some people for six
32:08
months, some 12, some 18 months, some
32:10
longer, that that kind
32:12
of fatigue and if you stop
32:15
to really put yourself in
32:17
that place, it can help
32:19
you really connect and feel empathy and not do
32:21
well. You know, have you tried this? You
32:23
know, think about that. Think about our tendency,
32:25
we spoke about that earlier, to try to
32:27
be helpful and to show our care through
32:30
giving advice or, my friend had
32:32
this and tried this and when you
32:34
have that kind of fatigue and everybody that comes close to
32:36
you has this solution, it kind
32:38
of implies if you would be doing something different,
32:40
like you were mentioning earlier, if you would just do
32:43
something different, you wouldn't have this and
32:45
we don't mean to imply that but
32:47
that's what we do and to slow
32:49
down and go, oh that's not the
32:51
case. This is real, this is a
32:53
post-infection and brain inflammation and brain
32:55
inflammation in your body and
32:57
to show, wow, that is hard and what
33:00
we talk about in our podcast about all
33:02
sorts of other ways of connecting
33:04
to the people we care about, we want
33:06
to really promote that here, that secure relating
33:08
to people going through this is
33:10
really allowing yourself to imagine the experience
33:12
for you and to connect in
33:15
what their experience is because it's different
33:17
for everyone. We're talking about one particular
33:19
manifestation but there is a lot of
33:21
different manifestations of this so the core
33:23
goal here is to listen and trust
33:25
and believe somebody rather than to
33:27
project ourselves into it and
33:30
then start going by own experience
33:32
which impairs our ability to go, how
33:34
is it for you and
33:36
what is it that you need and really
33:38
listening and I think we also have to
33:40
touch base with a lot of our Western
33:43
culture judgment and stigma on
33:45
people that are slower whose
33:47
physical manifestation is to slow down and
33:49
our stigma of that and our pressure
33:51
to get moving and
33:55
the fact that we can't point to particular things
33:57
makes it really hard for those in the workforce.
34:00
when you have a particular event and you're
34:02
out for a week, your boss expects you
34:05
to be back and be back to normal.
34:08
And when you have this kind of disability and
34:10
people don't understand it, it's an excuse to have
34:12
judgment and push people out and
34:14
not have care or provide the kind
34:17
of support that people need to keep
34:19
their jobs when they're experiencing this. Absolutely.
34:22
And you know there's a large
34:24
ME community. One of the things that
34:26
has been helpful for the some of
34:28
folks that I'm aware
34:30
of that are struggling with this are
34:32
these peer groups. There's
34:34
Facebook groups. There's ways to connect. I
34:36
liked what you said though about listening
34:39
to the patient. I'm
34:41
calling it patient, family member or listening
34:44
to the person struggling with this. Yes.
34:46
Listening to the person struggling with this.
34:48
Thank you. That's that feels a lot
34:50
better actually. And asking them
34:52
what would support look like for you and let
34:55
them guide you. And again,
34:58
yeah to believe them. And to
35:00
ask them you know I think about it. It's hard for
35:02
me you know if I've had something go on and somebody else
35:04
has a similar thing. I can remember when I was running and
35:06
I had an injury and then I was able to get better
35:08
through this one way and every time somebody had it. Oh let
35:11
me tell you right. Let me tell you about this
35:13
great thing that I went through. It's
35:15
tempting because we care. But to go I
35:17
have had some experience. Are you interested? Do
35:19
you have any energy to hear? Because just
35:21
my experience and to be open and say
35:23
no thank you but thanks for sharing but
35:26
no. And go I got it.
35:28
Right. Rather than pushing forward and giving the advice
35:30
without it being solicited or welcomed. Totally.
35:33
And as a matter of fact probably the way
35:35
another way to be supportive would
35:37
be to know that the person
35:39
who is struggling with it also
35:42
sometimes doesn't believe themselves. Mm-hmm.
35:45
Right. Like if you think about when you call in
35:47
sick or something I keep saying that. But yeah you
35:49
probably could have gotten up and gone to work. And
35:51
there's a part that says tracking like you know I
35:54
could have gone. You know I feel like I'm a
35:56
little bit leaning into the sickness. Well even like I
35:58
always like to have a fever. I'm
36:00
sick because I can prove that like okay. I have a
36:02
fever so now I can rest That
36:04
is so true that it really particular to
36:06
you have a really hard time trusting that
36:08
you're sick and leaning into it Without
36:11
this feeling of yeah, right that
36:13
I'm making it up or yeah. Yeah, that's
36:15
directly related to my history But
36:17
it's true and I think that other people
36:19
experience the same thing of like knowing that
36:21
on one level Maybe I could do the
36:24
thing So the people that
36:26
are struggling with this they have that too So
36:28
you being able to support them in believing
36:31
themselves and in listening to their body and
36:33
maybe helping them track Because
36:35
tracking is a big part of it But
36:37
that would be a way to be supportive of
36:39
like really helping them come to
36:41
accept one of the treatments that they used
36:43
to recommend I mean
36:46
by used to I mean recently This is
36:48
still a little bit controversial Like I said,
36:50
it was that graded exercise that now they
36:52
are not recommending for people even long covid
36:54
with post exertional Malays it
36:57
can be counter indicated right
36:59
to push yourself meaning push yourself, right
37:01
that this is not a good idea when you have
37:03
it It can make you worse but
37:06
also there was a CBT therapy that they
37:08
were really pushing and saying that there was
37:10
evidence for that again the
37:12
Controversy is that that was not good science
37:16
You can certainly look into that yourself, but I
37:18
think where people are settling is The
37:21
CBT that they're talking about CBT
37:23
meaning cognitive behavioral therapy was
37:25
helping convince them that it was in
37:27
their head Right
37:29
helping them push past
37:32
their own internal barriers That also
37:34
is counter indicated because in fact
37:36
that's not the case now
37:39
CBT therapy that helps someone accept
37:41
what's happening and understand it and
37:44
Get more in touch with their body and
37:46
listen that's different and that's certainly welcome When
37:49
you hear people push back about CBT therapy
37:51
for this It's the kind of therapy where basically the
37:54
therapist is really trying to convince you that it's
37:56
in your head. It's terrible Right,
37:58
and if you just push yourself and don't give in.
38:01
There's this whole thing of don't give in,
38:03
right? And if you don't give in and
38:05
you push yourself, but I really
38:08
taking time to educate myself, which is a
38:12
fourth or a half as much as you've educated
38:14
yourself, but a lot more than I was educated
38:16
a year ago when I was having my biases,
38:19
is to really understand that that kind of
38:21
push past the pain is actually
38:24
so productive to this and
38:27
could create a lot more rebound
38:29
and detrimental long-term effects. So
38:31
doing the kind of CBT to say what is
38:33
it like for you to really listen to your body
38:35
and to trust it and
38:37
to communicate with it and that that in and
38:39
of itself and think how much of us in general could
38:41
learn that to quit getting out of that push
38:43
past the pain thing that we
38:45
promote in our culture in general
38:48
to really listen to yourself and then this fear that if
38:50
you listen to yourself you're going to cause some kind
38:52
of weakness in you and how
38:55
much that is not actually true. Absolutely,
38:58
and I love what you were just saying. This
39:00
is actually a really important thing that I've learned,
39:02
which is you know, we were
39:04
just kind of working on developing our empathy
39:06
and putting ourselves in the shoes of not
39:08
being able to get restorative rest. You
39:12
know, then you feel all this like oh that
39:14
feels terrible, which can cause us to sort of
39:16
pity or feel
39:19
like less than and here's
39:22
the thing in the world
39:24
of disability, one of
39:26
the ways again, I can't represent this
39:28
but I am learning about it that
39:31
they really talk about is a lot of
39:33
these folks have been movers and shakers and
39:35
runners and goers and their
39:38
stories of I had
39:40
to slow down and I had to listen to
39:42
myself and I began to look around and see
39:44
all these crazy people running around and not
39:47
knowing that they're not in touch with their bodies, not
39:49
knowing what they're missing by
39:52
being still and slow. So
39:54
this kind of
39:57
it's a different ability that you tap into
39:59
with this. slowness, for
40:01
example, maybe more spirituality,
40:04
maybe grappling with who am
40:06
I if I can't produce? Those
40:09
kinds of big, deeper questions
40:11
that wouldn't be gotten
40:14
to and explored without this. So I'm
40:16
not saying that it's a good thing,
40:18
it's not something somebody would choose, but
40:20
it's more about like don't assume that
40:22
you know what it's like for that
40:24
person and maybe some of the things
40:26
that they are gaining from it and
40:29
that helps us kind of be humble around like
40:31
well that could be us tomorrow, you know. We
40:33
get restored to sleep today but who knows
40:35
what's gonna happen in our future of abilities that
40:37
we have now that we won't have then. It'll
40:40
happen even just with aging. And
40:43
when you said earlier it probably
40:46
isn't something we wouldn't choose, that actually isn't always the case.
40:48
I think about how I could
40:50
relate to that is everything that so many people
40:52
went through just with COVID and isolation
40:54
and the pulling out of our everyday pace,
40:58
there was a loss in that for many
41:01
of us. But then there was
41:03
a huge gain in that we
41:05
questioned the kind of pace
41:07
that we kept in the world and
41:10
a lot of outgoing effect of that where
41:12
people did change their lives. I think to
41:14
your point when people have
41:16
had to go through all sorts of if
41:18
they've lost their sight, their hearing or
41:20
this kind of energy level that
41:23
gains such insight that we don't have. They have
41:25
all sorts of wisdom. So I think your point
41:27
I love that about instead of
41:29
having a pity, oh I'm sorry for you let's get
41:31
you back to where you were before. It's wait let's listen
41:33
to where you are now. Connect to
41:35
that and learn from it. What's it like? We
41:37
could all learn to get out of this chronic
41:40
pace of feeling guilty if we slow down which
41:42
is part of the effect of this. They have
41:44
to slow down. They don't have a choice removing
41:46
the guilt and also like wow what are
41:48
you getting from that and us learning from
41:51
that instead of assuming that we're over here
41:53
where we should be and we have to
41:55
get them back there. It's oh wow having
41:57
to really slow down welcomes all sorts of
41:59
different parts of of seeing the world that
42:01
we wouldn't otherwise have. Totally. It makes me
42:03
think of altered states or even like psychedelics.
42:05
Like you get in touch with something that
42:08
is right there. Mm-hmm. But
42:10
in a different state of mind, you
42:13
know, it looks and feels different and
42:15
we gain access. So one of
42:17
the books I've been reading lately, Brilliant Imperfection,
42:20
Grappling with Cure by Eli
42:22
Clare. What you said was
42:24
kind of getting them back to how they used
42:27
to be. And I love that
42:29
you said that because the notion here
42:31
is just what you were talking about,
42:33
like coming to accept something you might not have chosen,
42:36
coming to accept that and then finding peace
42:39
and being where you are and
42:41
the advantages and then being
42:43
open to what's going to happen in the future. It's
42:45
not necessarily about getting back to where you were. It's
42:48
about growing from where you are today. And
42:51
I think that that's actually really beautiful.
42:54
And so the disability justice folks talk
42:56
a lot about kind of the
42:58
medical industrial complex and creating
43:01
cure and like too much of a focus
43:03
on cure. And I have found that
43:06
useful. And I think a
43:08
lot of people with new chronic
43:10
illnesses are going to have to go through their own
43:12
process of like, how do I adjust to this? And
43:15
I'm saying chronic. I'm afraid people are like, oh, no,
43:17
am I going to have this forever? Right,
43:19
right. We don't want to imply that. But it definitely is
43:21
not a quick one. And
43:23
some of the stuff they do know about
43:26
ME CFS is that it can be years.
43:29
This is different necessarily from long covid
43:31
with post-exertional malaise. Is that the same
43:33
thing? Hard to tell. But
43:36
with the ME and the ME
43:38
community, it can last for many, many
43:40
years. And this is
43:42
part of why it matters and it's affecting
43:44
people. And we really want you to get
43:46
the attention that you deserve and you to
43:49
get funding for the research that needs to
43:51
happen on this. And for you to be
43:53
taken seriously by your medical doctors. That's
43:56
our message. And for you to
43:58
take yourself seriously to insist on being taken seriously. yourself.
44:00
That's right. I think that's slow
44:05
down for all of us and to kind of
44:08
go, oh what is it that we in this
44:10
experience as we accept it and
44:12
we also work on being
44:15
our best selves with it. Part of that is just
44:17
like, oh what are the opportunities that
44:19
are being offered and
44:21
not just seeing everything through the cure model.
44:24
Like what is here for me right now
44:26
as I experience what am I experiencing and
44:29
we all need to learn from that no matter
44:31
what we're experiencing in our world to be
44:33
able to slow down and go we
44:35
are here right now in this moment.
44:38
Whether it's what we're experiencing or
44:40
somebody we love and learning to
44:43
do that just really exponentially adds
44:45
to connection and care. Secure relating.
44:47
Yeah it's like being with somebody
44:49
rather than that tempting to, oh let me tell
44:51
you about the doctor that I have. We're missing
44:53
the moment of just being there with that person
44:56
which is we know also is the most healing
44:58
for us together. Right
45:00
and when you're the person
45:02
that's down and you can feel somebody wanting to
45:04
help so much, at least I think for many
45:06
of us have been socialized to be caretakers, then
45:09
we start taking care of them. Right? Like
45:11
oh no I'm fine and oh I'm much
45:13
better today than I was yesterday. Right?
45:15
Then now not only am I sick but the
45:17
person who's trying to take care of me I'm
45:19
taking care of. Right I'm having to
45:22
like assure them rather than just be with them. But
45:24
don't put that labor on these folks. That's really
45:26
really a good point. By the way I know
45:28
we're covering a lot but in our show notes
45:30
for today's episode we'll put a lot of the
45:32
resources and references
45:34
including some support groups and
45:37
things like that for you to be able to
45:39
access. And if you appreciate this content
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45:48
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45:59
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