Podchaser Logo
Home
The Pointe Shoes

The Pointe Shoes

Released Wednesday, 15th November 2023
Good episode? Give it some love!
The Pointe Shoes

The Pointe Shoes

The Pointe Shoes

The Pointe Shoes

Wednesday, 15th November 2023
Good episode? Give it some love!
Rate Episode

Episode Transcript

Transcripts are displayed as originally observed. Some content, including advertisements may have changed.

Use Ctrl + F to search

1:54

age.

2:00

I was so small, but she was

2:02

like, if you're gonna do it, at least do it

2:04

in the studio. When Ashton

2:06

Edwards was four years old, they

2:09

began dancing at the Flint School of Performing

2:11

Arts in Flint, Michigan.

2:13

From the beginning, it became who I was.

2:16

I was the dancer, and

2:19

dance was me. Yeah,

2:21

it was one. And so it became

2:24

my personality, everything that I did,

2:27

everything that I researched, and

2:30

was passionate about was dance or

2:32

related to dance and music. But

2:35

it was all working towards the

2:37

goal of being a professional dancer. I was

2:40

pretty sure of it early. The

2:43

first ballet Ashton ever saw

2:46

was The Nutcracker.

2:48

One of my favorite dancers to this day, Brandy

2:50

Lee danced the role of Clara. And

2:53

it just, I saw myself in

2:56

her, or I saw a vision that I

2:58

wanted to be. Ashton

3:00

spent hours watching videos

3:02

of famous ballerinas

3:03

dancing on point on

3:05

the tips of their toes.

3:07

Ashton loved the ballet Swan

3:09

Lake, especially the role

3:11

of the Swan Queen. But

3:14

they noticed only female dancers

3:16

dance that role and got to dance on

3:18

point.

3:22

What was it about ballet that you loved?

3:26

It was just a fantasy.

3:30

Just, wow, I mean,

3:32

the

3:34

other worldliness of it, you

3:36

know, ascending from Earth when

3:40

you jump and turn, it just,

3:43

it took me to another place. And

3:45

yeah, I fell in love immediately. I

3:48

think

3:49

sing dance inspired

3:51

me to become the

3:54

vision. But the feeling

3:56

of dance just,

3:59

it set it. in stone that this is

4:01

what I needed to do in life because

4:04

it just felt so natural, so right.

4:07

Ashton had been awarded a scholarship to

4:09

attend ballet school.

4:11

Was your family supportive

4:13

about your dancing? I mean, yes,

4:15

we'll drop you off at the practices.

4:17

Yes, I mean, did you feel like everyone

4:20

was on board?

4:21

It definitely evolved

4:25

sooner than anyone expected, but

4:27

quickly everyone was on board.

4:30

In my early days, yeah, my mom just

4:32

dropped me off and she was, you

4:35

know, free childcare. With

4:37

the scholarship, it was great. It was me

4:39

and my little sister, and we had

4:41

our sack lunches, and we would just dance all day

4:44

on our Super Saturdays, is what they were called

4:46

at my studio. And then one

4:49

day my teacher brought my mom

4:51

in, and the story

4:54

goes is that she tells my mom that,

4:59

you know, Ashton has a gift. And

5:03

it's gonna need to be nurtured, and you know, typically

5:06

in these cases, when they do

5:09

train towards that professional career, they

5:11

leave home a little early, and they'll

5:14

attend summer programs where they'll be gone

5:16

for weeks at a time, and you

5:18

know, it'll be an adjustment, but if you

5:21

want to support Ashton, this

5:24

is what, you know, traditionally happens.

5:27

And so I guess at that point my mom was

5:30

like, oh, okay.

5:32

By this point, Ashton was

5:34

around 11 years old. Ashton's

5:37

mother didn't want them to leave home,

5:40

but she also wanted Ashton to be happy.

5:44

She was open to Ashton spending summers away from

5:46

home, and they traveled to Chicago

5:48

to audition for different training programs.

5:51

And so we would spend weekends in

5:53

Chicago while, you know, and I

5:55

would bring all of my homework, and

5:58

she would walk me. to Joffrey,

6:00

Chicago, or Ballet, Chicago, where the audition

6:03

would be. And she would put me

6:05

in like a thousand scarves

6:07

and huge jackets. She's like,

6:09

you have to stay warm. You can't break anything

6:11

in there. You know? But

6:14

she became sort of a, I

6:16

don't know if she was a dance mom or just

6:18

a really great mom, but

6:20

yeah, she was always on board and she gave me

6:23

everything I needed to be successful.

6:26

And so

6:30

I think that was

6:32

the first time that I realized that,

6:35

oh, this is for boys and girls

6:37

and I'm not quite either.

6:40

So hmm. And

6:43

I realized I fell short of

6:45

what a typical male ballet dancer

6:48

looked like. And you

6:51

know, the prowess they need to

6:53

partner and to jump really big. I

6:55

didn't really align with that vision

6:58

of ballet. It just wasn't exactly

7:01

who I was. You know, I kind

7:03

of was, it made me pretty nervous to

7:06

know if I was going to be successful at all in

7:08

finding a career at that point.

7:11

For people who don't exactly

7:13

know, what are the traditional

7:16

ballet gender roles and what is

7:18

kind of asked of those

7:21

certain roles?

7:23

Yeah,

7:24

I for the women. So the

7:26

women were taught to be silk like they

7:29

were gorgeous and delicate

7:32

with beautiful lines, legs and seat.

7:35

Sils is a word that was used

7:37

in the 16th century by a physician,

7:40

an alchemist named Paracelsus.

7:43

He believed the elements earth, fire,

7:45

water and air were each associated

7:48

with a supernatural spirit. Gnomes

7:51

were associated with earth, salamanders

7:54

with fire and undines or

7:56

mermaids with water. Sils

7:59

were everywhere.

7:59

In

8:02

the 19th century, the word silph also

8:05

began to be used to describe thin and

8:07

graceful women, and it was used

8:10

a lot to describe female ballet dancers.

8:14

They danced on their toes and

8:17

worked on their point training, which is

8:19

very hard and gruesome

8:22

work, but they

8:25

worked tirelessly to

8:27

make it look beautiful and effortless and

8:30

to be as light and delicate as possible. And

8:33

for the men, we were taught to partner and

8:35

to be more bravora,

8:38

which is to be more machismo

8:41

or more manly.

8:44

So it's, you know, the

8:46

normal ideals of male and female,

8:49

but to a more

8:51

classical tradition.

8:54

Male dancers traditionally do lots

8:57

of big jumps and turns and

8:59

lift female dancers above their heads and

9:02

traditionally don't dance on point.

9:05

Just explain what dancing

9:08

on point is.

9:10

To dance on point, for

9:13

most people, it

9:15

happens around 12 to 13

9:18

to 14. It's

9:20

a natural progression in ballet as

9:23

your feet get stronger to work

9:26

all the way up to full point. And it

9:28

just extends the line further so

9:30

that when you are

9:32

dancing, you look as if you're

9:34

floating across the stage. And

9:37

when you find that balance point, it's even more

9:39

impressive because, you know, you're above

9:41

the ground. But this position

9:44

is traditionally only left

9:46

for female dancers.

9:49

Ashton trained in what's called Vaganova

9:52

technique, named for the Russian ballet

9:54

dancer Agrippina Vaganova,

9:57

which is, you know, this old Russian

9:59

style. And

10:02

so it's very strict on like heads

10:04

and arms and everything has to be in a

10:06

certain place and space

10:09

in time.

10:11

But in 2019,

10:12

when Ashton was 16,

10:14

they went to an audition for the Pacific Northwest

10:17

Ballet Summer

10:17

Program.

10:19

And I get to this audition

10:22

and they play material

10:25

girl on the piano. And

10:27

we're doing these fast tandoos and

10:30

they just go with the rhythm and it's all kind

10:32

of chill

10:34

and relaxed and fun and free

10:36

flowing. And I'm

10:38

having a blast because I

10:41

can do a tandoo from my strict

10:43

training. But now we can move

10:46

and have fun with this new, it's

10:48

called Balanchine style,

10:51

this new American way of

10:53

doing ballet. So I was living. I just,

10:55

I had a ball.

11:00

The artistic director of Pacific Northwest

11:02

Ballet, Peter Bole, saw

11:05

Ashton audition that day.

11:07

And I got

11:09

home and he had his

11:11

assistant call me and, you know, he was just like,

11:14

before

11:14

anyone else got to you, we

11:16

wanted to reach out and ask

11:18

if you would like to train with us. And

11:21

I was just like, immediately,

11:23

yes. I knew it was the

11:25

place I wanted to be before. And

11:28

then to have that, you know, kind

11:31

of hand reaching out to

11:33

me, this small town kid

11:35

who, I don't know, I just, I

11:37

didn't think I was that great. But

11:41

to like have Peter Bole reaching

11:43

out to me, it was just, wow.

11:46

Ashton was invited to attend Pacific

11:48

Northwest Ballet's school year round. Their

11:51

mother agreed. So

11:53

Ashton moved to Seattle and lived with the

11:55

host family there. Ashton

11:58

loved it. Dancing all day. and

12:00

getting to perform with the company at night.

12:03

So when you first got to

12:06

Pacific Northwest Ballet, you were primarily

12:09

dancing male roles?

12:11

Yes. I did

12:13

all male roles with PMB my

12:15

first year in the school. I had

12:18

examples, finally. I had

12:20

dancers like Ben Griffiths,

12:22

who stood exactly at my height.

12:26

We were eye to eye. We were both five.

12:29

Five? I want to say that might be a little

12:31

generous. But

12:34

he saw me, and he took me under his wing. He was

12:36

just like, I know what it's like to be the small kid.

12:39

But there was a spot for

12:41

me at PMB. It wasn't

12:44

unusual for dancers to look different

12:46

at PMB already when

12:49

I got there. And so

12:52

Peter just saw my talent.

12:54

But then in 2020, Austin

12:57

and their classmates couldn't train in person

12:59

anymore.

13:00

COVID hit, and I was

13:02

stuck at home.

13:04

Ashton's host family made sure

13:06

they had a space to dance.

13:08

Sometimes in the family room, or next

13:10

to a bookshelf, or

13:14

on the patio outside

13:16

when it was nice and warm in the summertime.

13:20

And it was wonderful. I had a view of Seattle

13:24

from where I danced some days on the balcony.

13:27

Something happened while Ashton was dancing

13:30

alone, without anyone else around,

13:33

telling them which parts to dance.

13:35

And so when I was alone, yeah, I just

13:39

continued to find different ways to move,

13:42

and different ways to initiate

13:44

movement, different things that might inspire

13:46

me to create. And that

13:49

was old videos of beautiful

13:51

ballerinas that I had watched many, many, many,

13:54

many times over in Oregon.

13:57

And then one day, Ashton

13:59

put on the show.

13:59

pair of pointe shoes.

14:02

I was in these shoes that were so small.

14:05

They weren't mine. They belonged to someone else

14:07

but I just wanted to dance so I wore them

14:09

anyway. And

14:11

it just it felt so natural to

14:14

just extend the line to rise

14:16

all the way

14:19

up the full pointe in

14:21

my pointe shoes. And

14:23

I was like, you know, this feels

14:26

like what I should be doing.

14:29

And I don't exactly

14:31

know why I'm not.

14:34

I'm Phoebe Judge and this

14:37

is love.

14:44

We'll be right back.

14:56

Apple Card is the credit card created

14:58

by Apple. You earn 3% daily

15:01

cash back up front when you use it to

15:03

buy a new iPhone 15, AirPods,

15:05

or any products on Apple. And you

15:07

can automatically grow your daily cash

15:10

at 4.15% annual percentage

15:12

yield when you open a high yield savings

15:15

account. Apply for Apple Card

15:17

in the Wallet app on iPhone. Apple

15:19

Card subject to credit approval. Savings is available

15:21

to Apple Card owners. Subject to eligibility. Savings

15:24

accounts by Goldman Sachs Bank USA. Member

15:26

FDIC,

15:26

terms of life.

15:34

Support for this is love comes from StoryWorth.

15:37

StoryWorth is an online service that

15:39

helps you and your loved ones preserve precious memories

15:42

and stories for years to come.

15:44

It can be a thoughtful and meaningful gift

15:46

that connects you to those who matter most.

15:49

Every week, StoryWorth emails your relative

15:51

or friend a thought-provoking question

15:54

that you choose from a wide pool of unique

15:56

prompts.

15:57

After one year, StoryWorth will come back.

15:59

Compile all your loved one's stories, including

16:02

photos, into a keepsake book that

16:04

you'll be able to share and revisit for generations

16:06

to come.

16:07

I've given StoryWorth as a gift

16:09

to several people. And one friend

16:11

said she's learned all kinds of things about her grandmother

16:14

and grandfather she'd never heard before.

16:17

Someone else said she feels like it's given the family

16:19

a meaningful project to work on together.

16:23

With StoryWorth, you can give someone you love a

16:25

thoughtful, personal gift from the heart and

16:27

preserve their memories and stories for years to

16:29

come. Go to storyworth.com

16:31

slash thisislove and save $10

16:34

on your first purchase.

16:36

That's storyworth.com slash

16:38

thisislove to save $10 on

16:40

your first purchase.

16:47

Did you tell your family,

16:48

your mother, that you were going to start dancing

16:52

on pointe and dancing or that

16:54

you were practicing dancing more

16:57

female roles?

17:00

I actually don't think

17:02

I did.

17:04

You know, now that I think

17:06

about it, I really don't think

17:07

I did because it kind

17:10

of all just happened.

17:12

I came out

17:15

and that was

17:16

a thing, you know, in my

17:19

community, in a

17:22

lot of Black communities. You

17:24

know, queerness is unacceptable.

17:29

It's, in a lot of ways for Black

17:32

mothers, it's terrifying to have

17:38

this other thing that others, their

17:40

child, you know? And

17:43

so I think there was a lot of fear for her

17:45

at that time. And so we didn't

17:47

have a lot of communication

17:49

for a

17:50

minute. And I

17:52

kind of did my own thing,

17:54

but I'm glad she gave me that space to

17:56

do so. I don't think I would have become

17:58

the person I am.

17:59

without it. Ashton

18:03

started dancing in pointe shoes every day. It

18:06

took some getting used to. They bruised

18:08

their toenails.

18:10

They started trying out different choreography, like

18:13

the role of Dewdrop and the Nutcracker. They'd

18:16

had the choreography memorized, since

18:19

they were a little kid. Eventually

18:22

Ashton decided to ask if the director of the

18:24

company, Peter, would let

18:26

them officially join the pointe classes

18:28

that were still being held over Zoom. I

18:31

wanted to be very clear that

18:34

I didn't want to destroy any opportunity

18:36

I had at joining the company,

18:40

but I also wanted to be

18:43

true to myself and

18:45

ask for what I felt like would

18:48

align my

18:52

art form, my craft, with

18:55

who I was. Ashton's

18:58

host mother, Michelle, helped them

19:00

figure out what to say. She

19:02

urged me to start the conversation

19:04

with Peter. She

19:07

helped me write down all my notes so that

19:09

I would go into my meeting prepared, and she

19:12

actually sat on Zoom with me, holding

19:15

my hand, because I was very nervous.

19:18

I brought up the question, why not?

19:22

Could I try this thing that

19:24

hasn't quite been done

19:26

officially in a major

19:28

company like this? I

19:31

asked to join

19:34

the level one dancers in their pointe classes

19:38

just to try. He

19:41

gave me the space, he gave me the opportunity,

19:43

he gave me the pointe shoes. And

19:48

so Peter did everything he could. He

19:51

turned to everyone, because this is

19:54

not something he's ever experienced in

19:56

himself. He never took any

19:59

classes.

19:59

or he didn't have real life experience.

20:02

So it became a community

20:05

kind

20:05

of thing because this

20:07

wasn't just amazing.

20:10

I think Peter and I quickly realized

20:13

that this would be changing the culture of

20:15

how we train students. So

20:19

I first felt uncomfortable

20:21

with my dress code. It

20:23

was very strict in the binary language of

20:27

the boys wear black and white and the girls

20:30

wear their black leotards and pink types.

20:33

And I just

20:35

asked the question, why? And

20:37

from that point, Peter reflected and just like,

20:42

I don't think there's actually a good

20:44

enough reason that we

20:46

need to keep it so binary. And

20:49

so in continuous discussions like these, the

20:53

rule book just exploded and

20:56

the language everywhere had to be changed.

21:00

Was it kind of like you were relearning

21:02

ballet in a way?

21:05

In so many ways, yes. I

21:07

had to start at square one. It was

21:10

a process of relearning everything in

21:12

these shoes and then building the

21:14

confidence because in

21:16

a point shoe, the

21:19

bottom of the shoe is not flat. So

21:24

you have the difficulty

21:26

of dancing on your toes but also

21:28

just standing flat on your foot

21:31

without rocking back and forth. So

21:35

dancing just became this new challenge,

21:37

this huge challenge again.

21:41

Did it ever feel discouraging?

21:43

Did you ever think, what am I doing?

21:46

Absolutely, absolutely.

21:49

I was discouraged most

21:52

of the time, not by anything that

21:54

anyone said to me directly, but

21:57

just standing in a room full of

21:59

these. incredible point dancers, I think

22:03

I didn't feel quite good enough for it.

22:05

I didn't think it was right. I didn't

22:09

think I

22:10

had what it took because these

22:12

girls had so many years on me of

22:15

just getting used to walking in the shoes.

22:19

I felt like I was just taking

22:21

a spot away from someone but knowing

22:25

that I was creating now,

22:28

knowing that I was creating a new spot

22:30

in dance,

22:32

it centered me.

22:36

What were you planning to do after you graduated?

22:40

I prayed and I prayed and

22:42

hoped that I would just get a job

22:44

in dance. The

22:46

reality though was

22:49

that I was

22:51

going to have to stop training on point

22:54

because no other company in

22:56

America had done

22:59

really anything where

23:01

a male-bodied person was

23:04

dancing on point, you

23:06

know, as a female dancer.

23:10

Ashton decided to audition in pointe shoes

23:12

anyway.

23:13

I felt like a shot in the dark.

23:16

I was really just hoping and praying that

23:19

it would work out and I would dance somewhere someday but

23:21

it was never done before.

23:23

And so

23:25

there was really no direction to

23:27

follow so my plans were

23:30

to try my best. I auditioned

23:32

for most companies in our

23:34

training program. They had directors

23:37

come in to watch class and

23:39

to choose dancers, plug dancers from

23:41

our school to dance because I was

23:43

professionally around America but

23:46

it wasn't working out.

23:48

No one would hire them and graduation

23:50

was coming up.

23:54

I didn't have the offers that my colleagues

23:57

did, my classmates did and so

23:59

I was planning on giving

24:03

it up.

24:04

I was going to have to

24:07

try the whole audition thing again, without

24:10

the pointe shoes.

24:15

We'll be right back.

24:31

Support for This is Love comes from

24:33

Factor. Factor delivers chef-prepared,

24:36

dietitian-approved, ready-to-eat meals straight

24:38

to your door. The meals are ready to eat

24:40

in two minutes,

24:41

so all you need to do is heat and

24:43

enjoy. This holiday season,

24:46

you can let Factor help you with your meal planning.

24:49

There are over 35 weekly meals to choose from, including

24:52

breakfast items like the apple cinnamon pancakes

24:54

or the bacon and egg breakfast skillet.

24:57

Factor also offers a variety of

24:59

portable lunch and beverage options, like

25:01

grain bowls, cold-pressed juices, or smoothies,

25:04

that you can pack with you wherever you're headed. Factor

25:07

recently sent me some meals to try, and

25:09

I especially like the pesto salmon. It's

25:12

a kale pesto, and comes with green beans

25:14

and sun-dried tomato and basil

25:15

butter. You can head

25:17

to factormeals.com slash thisislove50,

25:20

and use code THISISLOVE50 to get 50% off. That's

25:24

code THISISLOVE50 at factormeals.com

25:27

slash thisislove50

25:29

to get 50% off.

25:37

Support for This is Love comes from Indeed.

25:39

If you're looking to grow your company, Indeed

25:41

helps you attract, hire, and interview your top choices,

25:44

all in one convenient place. Finding

25:47

someone to hire can take hours of searching and

25:49

posting to different job boards, but Indeed

25:52

lets you post your job description on their

25:54

all-in-one hiring platform, and then

25:57

immediately

25:57

shows you people whose resumes fit what

25:59

you're looking for.

26:00

They've built in screening tools and

26:02

report that over 80% of employers

26:04

end up finding good candidates. You

26:07

can start hiring now with a $75 sponsored

26:10

job credit to upgrade your job post

26:12

at indeed.com slash love. Claim

26:15

your $75 credit now at

26:17

indeed.com slash love.

26:19

Just go to indeed.com slash love and

26:21

support the show by saying you heard about it on

26:24

this podcast. Indeed.com

26:26

slash

26:26

love. This offer is good

26:28

for a limited time. Terms

26:35

and conditions apply. If you need to hire, you need Indeed.

26:37

One day, Peter Bohl, the

26:40

artistic director of the Pacific Northwest

26:42

Ballet, reached out to Ashton

26:44

Edwards and asked if they would be

26:46

free for a phone call.

26:48

And so at this point, I wasn't

26:50

getting any offers anywhere else. And

26:53

so my plan was to stop dancing on point.

26:56

And I thought he was

26:58

probably going to encourage me to do so. And

27:02

you know, just tell me, you know, you

27:04

have to be practical. You know, there's

27:08

very few jobs in America. So

27:11

many dancers. It

27:13

didn't look good. And I thought he was

27:16

just going to encourage me to give it up. And

27:19

so I got on the phone with Peter and I

27:21

remember I turned off all the lights in my apartment

27:25

and I made my bed extra cuddly, you

27:27

know, for the cry sesh. And

27:29

I just prepared for the worst. And I called

27:32

Peter and he said, you

27:34

know, Ashton, I don't

27:36

want you to go anywhere. I really don't. So

27:39

I would like to give you the job. And

27:43

my jaw was on the floor. Like, I

27:45

couldn't believe it. And

27:47

I just jumped for joy and I cried and

27:49

I cried. So I did actually need

27:51

the blanket, but for the best reason, I called

27:54

my mom and it was just

27:56

the greatest day that I didn't

27:59

see coming.

27:59

at all.

28:02

Ashton would be able to dance both traditionally

28:04

male and female roles on

28:06

point with Pacific Northwest Ballet.

28:10

They joined in November 2021 at age 18.

28:15

The company was getting ready to perform the Nutcracker.

28:19

Ashton began rehearsing for the Snow Scene,

28:21

a scene with 16 dancers

28:22

on point, wearing long

28:25

white and blue tulle dresses. There's

28:28

snow slowly falling onto the stage

28:30

during the whole scene. It

28:33

would be the first time Ashton would ever

28:35

perform on

28:36

stage in pointe shoes. So

28:39

it was this ballet that I knew like

28:41

the back of my hand which helped a lot.

28:44

Nonetheless terrifying

28:47

because

28:48

just this one piece is kind of

28:50

the hardest thing in the ballet.

28:53

The Dance of Snow. And

28:55

I just did this one entrance where

28:58

I run around in a loop. I

29:01

run from wing to wing and

29:05

I

29:06

decided

29:08

moments before I went on that

29:12

if I didn't enjoy this moment it

29:15

would be disrespectful

29:18

to everyone in the audience

29:21

first and then to

29:23

me, to that little kid

29:26

who dreamt of this moment who really

29:28

didn't think there was space in

29:31

the world for me. I

29:34

couldn't do that small person myself

29:38

a disservice

29:39

by not living in the moment. And

29:42

so as I took my first steps out onto

29:44

the stage my face lit

29:46

up uncontrollably. It

29:49

all felt natural again. In

29:51

the pointe shoes running

29:54

in a loop on the stage in

29:57

the crown and tutu I felt

29:59

like myself.

30:08

When the Nutcracker came around again the next

30:10

year, Ashton got to perform

30:12

Dew Drop, a solo role.

30:15

Ashton's mother came to Seattle for the show.

30:19

She got to watch me dance on point

30:21

for the first time, dancing this role

30:23

that I have been dancing in my kitchen,

30:26

you know, since I was 12. Like

30:30

I don't even have to think about the choreography, it just kind

30:32

of happens because I've been in love

30:34

with this role in Valentines Nutcracker.

30:37

And yeah, that was kind of our full

30:40

circle moment where we finally kind

30:42

of acknowledged everything and

30:45

I felt her acceptance, her

30:47

pride, her

30:51

love for me. What

30:53

did she say to you after the show?

30:56

I think

30:58

she did her crying thing before

31:01

she got to me because it took a while,

31:03

you know, I had to go back and get undressed

31:06

and take off all the pieces. She

31:08

just kind of, she

31:10

was like, wow, they really love you. Because

31:14

it was an epic night, you know, it

31:17

was so cool. Amanda

31:20

Morgan, who is this gorgeous,

31:22

tall black woman, did

31:25

the lead role, Sugar Pump Fairy. And

31:27

you know, you have this

31:29

queer, non-binary, black dancer dancing

31:32

Dew Drop. And so it

31:34

was pretty cool. It was a pretty cool

31:36

night and the crowd was roaring.

31:41

And so, yeah, sharing that with her was really

31:43

special. And I

31:45

think she finally kind of

31:48

understood the weight of ballet

31:51

and what it felt like for me. And

31:54

she was just so proud. And

31:57

so that was awesome, awesome, awesome

31:59

to make. my mom proud

32:02

in that way.

32:05

This past spring, Ashton performed

32:07

as Puck in A Midsummer Night's Dream, a

32:10

role that is traditionally danced by a male dancer.

32:14

I look at these ballets and

32:16

these two characters, Doudrop

32:18

and Puck, and I don't really

32:21

see

32:21

a huge difference in

32:24

terms of their etherealness.

32:27

Their otherworldliness,

32:29

they're not real people. They

32:35

don't necessarily have genders, and

32:39

they are only how you

32:41

experience them. They

32:45

only exist how you believe

32:47

them to. For

32:49

me, it's not, you know, a

32:53

man or a woman, Puck

32:55

or Doudrop. These are two

32:57

beings who just exist and

33:00

create magic.

33:12

In the past, at Pacific

33:14

Northwest Ballet School, female

33:17

students in the Professional Division could

33:19

get pointe shoes.

33:21

That's changed.

33:23

Now any Professional Division student

33:25

can receive pointe shoes if they like.

33:38

This

33:55

episode was mixed by Veronica Siminetti, engineering

33:58

by Russ Henry. Learn

34:00

more about the show on our website, thisislovepodcast.com,

34:04

and you can sign up for our newsletter at thisislovepodcast.com

34:07

slash

34:07

newsletter.

34:10

You can listen to This is Love without any ads

34:12

by signing up for Criminal Plus. You'll

34:15

also get to listen ad free to our other shows,

34:16

Criminal and Phoebe Reads a Mystery.

34:19

Plus, you'll get bonus episodes and more.

34:22

To learn more, go to thisiscriminal.com

34:24

slash plus.

34:27

We're on Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram at

34:29

This Is Love Show. This Is Love

34:31

is recorded in the studios of North Carolina Public

34:33

Radio, WUNC. We're

34:35

part of the Vox Media Podcast

34:38

Network. Discover more great

34:40

shows at podcast.voxmedia.com.

34:44

I'm Phoebe Judge, and this

34:47

is love.

35:03

The era of automotive advances

35:05

with the all-electric Polestar 2.

35:08

Now with faster charging, improved

35:11

EPA estimated range of

35:13

up to 320 miles, and advanced safety

35:15

technology. Experience awe-inspiring

35:18

performance combined with luxury design

35:20

as standard. The time is now.

35:23

The all-electric

35:24

Polestar 2. Book a test

35:26

drive and order today at Polestar.com.

35:32

This

35:33

podcast is brought to you by MetaQuest 3,

35:36

the new mixed reality headset from Meta. Expand

35:39

your world in ways you never thought possible with

35:41

the new MetaQuest 3. Put on

35:43

the most powerful quest yet and jump

35:45

into fully immersive games like Assassin's

35:47

Creed Nexus. Or blend virtual

35:49

elements into your surroundings in games like Stranger

35:52

Things VR. With over 500

35:54

titles, it's easy to dive into whatever

35:56

you're into. Expand your world with

35:58

MetaQuest 3.

35:59

See child safety guidance online. Accounts for 10 and up. Certain

36:02

navigating experiences may be suitable for a more mature audience. Learn

36:04

more at meta.com.

Rate

Join Podchaser to...

  • Rate podcasts and episodes
  • Follow podcasts and creators
  • Create podcast and episode lists
  • & much more

Episode Tags

Do you host or manage this podcast?
Claim and edit this page to your liking.
,

Unlock more with Podchaser Pro

  • Audience Insights
  • Contact Information
  • Demographics
  • Charts
  • Sponsor History
  • and More!
Pro Features