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This recording is being made in Laura Ingalls
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Wilder Library of Mansfield, Missouri,
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the home of Missus Wilder.
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In nineteen fifty three, nineteen
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years after the first Little House book was released,
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librarians in California sent Laura Ingalls
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Wilder a present for her eighty sixth birthday,
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and especially they were homemade dolls
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of every member of the Ingles family. To
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thank the librarians, Laura recorded
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a response in the Mansfield, Missouri Library.
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I certainly do appreciate the gift
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of these clanked little figures that
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seemed to have walked out of my memory
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Chauvelona.
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Though this is the only known
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recording of Laura's voice, but
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more.
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Than all, I value the understanding
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and love for me and my family
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that prompted the gift.
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Little House in the Big Woods, the
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first book in the Little House on the Prairie series,
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was published ninety years ago this year.
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As we talked about in our very first episode,
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the last line of Big Woods reads.
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Now is now it can never be a
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long time ago.
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That line might be the most accurate description
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there is of the Little House series. The
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books still saw millions of copies, the
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television show still airs around the
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world. Little House on the Prairie
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might be about another time, but
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Laura's stories are very much alive in
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our time.
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We can't seem to let her go.
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Why is Laura still around?
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She's just really
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honestly going to sound like a ridiculous answer,
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but like why is a cup of tea still
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around?
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It's she's so cozy.
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A century and a half after a girl
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was born in a little log cabin in the big
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Woods of Wisconsin, her stories
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continue to hold some timeless truths.
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There's a rich family in town at the store
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who give them a hard time, and there's
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always a crop failure or blizzard.
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Her loco and they cling together
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and make it through.
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I think it's that these are the problems
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that people really deal with.
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Laura is still relevant, although
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often in ways that can be painful to consider.
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Many of the issues that Wilder raises
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in the Little House Books are
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issues that are still with us today, and
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in that sense, her work is
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more relevant than ever.
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We started this podcast in order to have
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an honest look at the woman behind the
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books, and what we discovered
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is that there is a lot more behind Laura than
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the simple, heartwarming tale of a sixty
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five year old farm wife deciding to sit
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down and write about her life.
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There is mind blowing poverty, relentless
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hardship, a father who made
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a lot of questionable decisions, an
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extremely complicated, some might
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say, backstabbing daughter, an
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authorship conspiracy that won't quite
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die, a Hollywood star
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with shiny hair, a perfect jawline
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and glistening abs.
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A lot of violent racism,
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and.
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The funding of some extreme political figures,
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and an army of fans
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that has fueled an entire international
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tourism industry. But
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where does that leave us? And
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where does that leave me? A
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person who has loved Laura so
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deeply for so long. I
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went into this project not knowing
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where our investigation would take us, and
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not knowing how I would feel on the other side.
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And now we're here, and
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what I feel is complicated, And
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I'm also shocked at the things that ended up
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upsetting me the most while making this show.
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What if doing this episode makes me never read Little
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House again?
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What I do know is I
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don't love Laura Ingalls wild or aney less,
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but I think about her and
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myself very differently
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than I did a year ago. You
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know what they say about truly loving something,
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sometimes you have to let it go.
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I'm Glennis McNichol, and
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this is the final episode of
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Wilder. We're
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going to start by going right back to
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where this entire project began.
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On the road. Oh
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that's you can see the beginning of the bad Lands right over
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there.
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Wow.
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Last summer, when we were driving around the Midwest
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visiting the lower Ingles houses, we
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didn't end our trip at de smet South Dakota.
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Unlike the Ingles family, Emily
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and I kept moving west. There
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are two sides to the state of South Dakota.
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The eastern side, where the Ingles lived,
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is largely farmland, but
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once you cross the Missouri River, things
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open up. You pass through
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a number of Native American reservations,
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including the Pine Ridge Reservation.
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One of the largest in the United States, and
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Buffalo Gap National Grassland.
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A little further is the Badlands National Park,
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and beyond that the Black Hills.
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So that seems like the start of the real
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Western landscape I've been imagining.
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The idea of the American West is
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at the heart of the idea of America, and
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despite never moving beyond the actual Midwest,
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Little House is.
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Very much a part of that narrative. Part
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of the reason we.
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Came out on the road was to try
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and walk in Laura's shoes and
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see at least some of what she saw.
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But we also came out.
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Here to get a better sense of the role Laura
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plays in our understanding of this history.
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As we drove further west, it became
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more apparent to us how Laura is connected
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to American myth making and
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the sometimes violent prioritizing of
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the white experience.
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Well, I see it.
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If you drive into the heart of the Black Hills and
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follow the many, many signs pointing
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the way, you will eventually come upon
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Mount Rushmore's just
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hollen than I.
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That was entirely my first response
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to I thought, it looks little to me.
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I expected to be blown away.
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By Mount Rushmore is an iconic
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American image carved into
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granite. It's shorthand for the permanence
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of the American idea of democracy, a
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tribute to its own greatness, a
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mascot for America, if you will. It's
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also carved into an extremely sacred
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place for Native Americans. And
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while we all know what Mount Rushmore looks like, to
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encounter it in the midst of the lush landscape
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of the Black Hills underscores both
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its absurdity and the
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violation of Native American land by
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the US government.
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There's no reason for that to be there.
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Other than, Hey, we're here now, so
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fuck you to everyone who was here before.
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In eighteen sixty eight, with the signing of the Fort
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Laramie Treaty, the US government
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agreed that the Black Hills would remain exclusively
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Native land, but
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once gold was found in the Hills a few years later,
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the US broke the treaty and
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white settlers flooded the area. By
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the nineteen twenties, the Black Hills
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was a tourist destination for many. To
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further capitalize on this, the faces
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of four American presidents were carved
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in the face of a granite formation known
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to the Lakota people as six
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Grandfather's Mountain. When
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the monument was finished, this cliff
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was renamed Mount Rushmore. In
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nineteen eighty, the US Supreme
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Court ruled that the US had unlawfully
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taken control of the Black Hills and
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offered more than one hundred million dollars
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to the Sioux Nation, but
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the Sioux refused the money.
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To this day, they reject it and
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insist they want their land back.
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A little bit more.
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I mean, look at this side without the presidents,
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Like, look at George Washington's profile up
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there.
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It's just here.
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You up, get out, George.
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It's so it's so sterile.
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Also because you cut through and
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it's white compared to the red and everything.
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You could just tell, Wow,
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it's kind of like a permanent billboard for America.
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It's like you carved a billboard for
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America into the Hills.
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The Ingles family have a direct connection to
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the fate of the Black Hills. Mount
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Rushmore was completed in nineteen forty
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one. By this point,
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Laura's younger sister, Carrie was
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married to a man named David N. Swansea,
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who was known as the person who named Mount
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Rushmore, and Carrie's step son
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Harold, helped carve it. But
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Laura's connections to the Black Hills goes back
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even further than that, to
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something called the Gordon Stockade.
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Yes, that's a stockade,
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right though, Oh oh my god, your destination
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is all the right. The
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Gordon Party was a private expedition that
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illegally ventured into the Black Hills
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in eighteen seventy four, looking
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for gold. The reason
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they did so is because a few months
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earlier, Lieutenant Colonel George Custer
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had been sent there to scout a good spot
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for a military post and
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reported back that there was lots of gold.
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The Gordon Party set out shortly thereafter,
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and once they reached their destination in October
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eighteen seventy four, built
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a stockade and settled in.
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For the winter.
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Hardcore Little House fans will recognize the
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Gordon stockade from the book These Happy
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Golden Years. When Laura's uncle Tom
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visits the Ingles family and desmet in
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the chapter titled Springtime, Laura
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comes home and finds a vaguely familiar
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man at the table. That man is Tom Kuiner,
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Ma's youngest brother, who Laura hasn't
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seen since she was a child. Uncle
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Tom tells the family of his experience as
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a member of the Gordon Party, when he was
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one of the quote first
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white men that ever laid eyes on the Black
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Hills. After
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surviving the winter, the Gordon
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Party was forcefully removed by the US
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cavalry for illegally settling on Native
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land, and when Uncle Tom gets
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to this part of the story, it
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gets a big reaction out of paw Paw
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was walking back and forth across the room. I'll
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be darned if I could have taken it, he exclaimed,
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Not without some kind of scrap.
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We couldn't fight the whole United States Army, Uncle
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Tom said sensibly. But I
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did hate to see that stockade go up and smoke,
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I know, Ma said, to
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this day, I think of the house we
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had to leave in Indian Territory, just
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when Charles got glass windows into it.
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As a kid.
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PA's anger in this scene is the only
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thing that stood out to me in a chapter that I was
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otherwise bored by. But
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as Ma points out, pause
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anger mirrors the outrage the Ingles felt
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at being removed from Indian Territory. The
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lesson in both these instances seems to
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be that white people have a right
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to land simply because they want
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it, and in the Black Hills,
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the history of this prioritization of
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white men and the decimation
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of Native people's land was
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impossible to miss.
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One west.
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Three miles after
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leaving the Black Hills, Emily and I continued
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on three hundred miles northwest to
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a spot that represents one of the most extreme
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versions of this erasure, The
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Little Big Horn Battlefield National Monument
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in southeastern Montana.
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Little Bighorn Battlefield three
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miles.
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In June eighteen seventy six, the Seventh
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Cavalry, led by Custer was
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famously defeated by the Cheyenne, Lakota,
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and Arapahoe tribes led
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by Crazy Horse and Sitting Bull. There
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are a lot of complicated reasons that led
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to the Battle of the Little Big Horn, including
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numerous treaties the government made about control
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of the Black Hills that were not honored, and
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we've included resources in the show notes for further
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reading on this. Even
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though the Lakota, and Cheyenne
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and arapa Hoe triumphed over Custer
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in the Battle of Greasy Grass, as
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it is known in Native American culture, it
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was in many ways the last stand
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of Native American independence in the West.
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In the aftermath of.
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The battle, most of the remaining Native
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American tribes were violently pushed onto
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reservations.
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Today, it's widely.
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Recognized that Custer's decision to ignore
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orders and go into battle was
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foolish and unnecessary. And
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yet, despite this failure, which
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resulted in the decimation of the Seventh Cavalry,
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for many decades Custer was
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still centered as the hero in this story. Until
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nineteen ninety one, the location of
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the battle was known as Custer
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Battlefield National Monument.
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It is wild, the
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Iron, Lost Cup, the pool,
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and yet this is still named Custer does
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It's still glorified.
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There's no way to spin this.
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Like.
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It takes some amazing myth
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making to make this seem heroic in
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anyway, Not even
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Rose Wilderland.
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I mean, this is like Rose level.
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Of yeah, rewriting
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history, the gas lighted Yeah.
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The Little Big Horn Battlefield National Monument
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is located on the Crow Reservation. Every
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hour at the visitor center, one of the
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park rangers gives a talk. There
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is also a bus tour of the site run
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by the Crow Agency.
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My name Story Chevis, you guys
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tour guide today.
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The bus tour takes you right out into the fields
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where the battle took place and looking
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out over all the waving open grassland.
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It's not that hard to imagine yourself back
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in eighteen seventy six.
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After the right, we're passing the Little Big Porn
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River. This is the only place in the whole
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world you'll get to see a reenactment on the actual
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battle site. They have that every year on
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the anniversary you just basicedify Foople
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weekends. We'll also have seven Pobury
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reenactors who will spend about two
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weeks, you know, living exactly the way that
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those soldiers will have.
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Pretty interesting.
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Afterward, Emily and I stopped at the visitors center
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hoping to catch one of the park rangers talks.
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Since we'd arrived, we'd only encountered
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older, white male rangers, But
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when we got to the talk, we met Ranger
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Tanya Gardner, who was not
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what we were expecting in
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more ways than one.
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The battles the Little.
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Big Horn, Why did this battle take place?
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What events set up to this battle?
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Or I'd like to begin where I'd love to begin this
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in fourteen ninety two Colma
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South, the Ocean Blue here what this
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is up until eighteen
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sis.
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It was immediately clear that Ranger Tanya
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wasn't just going to tell us about this battle.
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She was going to tell us how this battle was just
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one episode in the century's long resistance
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of Native Americans against colonization.
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It's the nineteen hundreds.
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There are legal documents being signed out
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here land deals in
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the form of what we're called treaties between
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the people who are here, and the United
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States government.
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When we got back to New York, we
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couldn't stop thinking about Ranger Tanya's
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talk, so we called her.
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I'm Tanya. My maiden name is plain Feather,
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and I'm my married name is Gardner,
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and I'm married.
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To a Cheyenne.
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I'm I'm from Lodgegras, Montana.
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Are you the only park ranger
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who is local or who is Native American?
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There?
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There's a few that work there,
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but not like the seasonal rangers
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there. I'm the only one, and there's
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been like I don't know how many countless
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seasons where I've been only female.
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It had felt to both Emily and I when we were at
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the site that Tanya was shouldering the
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enormous responsibility of
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giving context to an event that had
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been simplified to almost cartoonish
17:12
proportions in American history, a
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history that, like pause outrage over
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being removed from quote Indian territory,
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centered the white experience as the only
17:22
one of value. What had struck
17:24
us most strongly about Tanya
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was that she'd immediately gone to the origins
17:29
of the myth making behind both Custer
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and America.
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The event that led up to this battle I always start
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with, didn't start in
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eighteen seventy six. We're going to go all
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the way back to fourteen
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ninety two Columbus South the Ocean blue,
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and he discovers America
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and all the misconceptions that
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we have there with just that statement and
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not knowing and not having that right
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information in our history books. Where the
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way that they hold him up to this high
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you know, he did all these great things
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and he really didn't. That's where the
18:08
seed of that stuff.
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I was curious whether Tanya received any sort
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of pushback when she did her talks. She
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told us the response very much shifts
18:16
depending on the age of the visitors, and
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that younger age groups that have had access
18:21
to more diverse cultural narratives
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have a much different take.
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It goes with different age groups, and I
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think that people that are my age,
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they come up and they're like, oh, this, yes,
18:33
this was crap. You know this, I
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can't believe. You can't really tell you know what you
18:37
really want to tell.
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Older generations, on the other hand, feel
18:41
a much closer connection to Custer.
18:44
You have a lot of baby boomers,
18:46
and they're kind of like the last kind of old
18:48
school I would call them that there's
18:50
still in love with Custer. There's a tremendous
18:53
amount of people out there that are custom Bucks. They
18:55
think he was right and he was
18:57
honorable. But we have to think back to
18:59
that time when they didn't
19:01
have all these different types
19:03
of heroes, so you know, they looked
19:06
to the types of things like.
19:08
A war hero.
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This idea of needing a hero is
19:12
where Custer overlapped directly
19:14
with Laura. For me, Tanya's observations
19:17
reminded me of something doctor w Reese
19:19
had said when we talked to her.
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Part of what I was realizing when
19:24
I left our reservation and went to graduate
19:26
school was how ignorant people
19:29
are about who Native people
19:31
are.
19:32
Doctor de Wie Reese is a scholar and educator
19:35
who runs a website called American
19:37
Indians in Children's Literature.
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And that became very clear at
19:42
the University of Illinois because it had a mascot
19:45
that was quote unquote an Indian.
19:47
And when I got to Illinois and there was this mascot,
19:50
and people would invite me to come to
19:52
their civic organization or
19:55
whatever it was, and
19:57
they wanted me to dance, and they wanted me to
19:59
story and I said, well, I'm not a dancer. I
20:02
don't dance that way. We
20:04
dance in a spiritual way at a
20:06
certain time of the year in a certain place, and so no,
20:08
I won't dance. And they said, well can you?
20:11
Can you tell stories? And I said no, I'm not a storyteller
20:13
either. I am a professor. I want to be
20:15
a professor. Nobody wanted
20:18
that. They wanted someone to perform
20:20
Indians for them, and I thought, what is
20:22
going on? These are in theory, very
20:25
very smart people in this area.
20:27
But it was.
20:28
It was so it spoke to the power of the mascot.
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A mascot and how do we
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wield mascots?
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Anyone who's been to a sports game knows is
20:40
with bluntness and little space
20:42
for anyone else. The
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Dictionary definition of a mascot is quote
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a person, animal, or object that
20:50
is believed to bring good luck, or
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one that represents an organization. A
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mascot is an image we rally behind
20:58
that represents a way of being and
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one that gives us identity.
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This idea of mascots was very.
21:04
Much on our mind when Emily and I went to the Laura
21:07
Ingalls House in Mansfield, Missouri, last September
21:09
to attend Wilder Days. We're much
21:12
like the pageants people loved
21:14
dressing up as Laura.
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Plenty of girls in prairie outfits,
21:19
but there's a handful of men, I
21:22
would say, in.
21:24
Their fifties and sixties, wearing some
21:26
guys wearing suspenders.
21:28
In Yah.
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Of all the ways I'd considered Laura, it
21:32
was only after this conversation with Doctor
21:35
Reese and our trips out west
21:37
and down South, but I began
21:39
to think of her as a mascot for
21:42
many things, as a representative
21:45
of some sort of ideal. A
21:47
girl with enormous agency, frontier
21:50
woman who lived with and against nature,
21:53
a woman who had it ventures and wrote
21:55
them down. She was an
21:57
image I hoisted up as proof of identity,
22:00
an evidence of what was possible. I
22:03
didn't put her on a T shirt or a baseball cap,
22:06
but I stabled a whole lot of yarn braids to
22:08
my hats. Laura
22:10
as the mascot for the team I wanted
22:12
to be on felt a lot closer
22:15
to my own experience. But
22:17
to understand who I was willing to leave behind
22:20
in order to be a member of this team. What
22:23
this mascot of Laura's pioneer girlhood
22:25
erased was something
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I had to come to terms with.
22:44
I grew up completely obsessed with the Little
22:46
House Books.
22:47
It all starts with Laura Ingalls right,
22:50
my.
22:50
Little House Books for Christmas gifts, inscribed
22:52
to me by my mother.
22:54
I was six years old, and I loved those books.
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I still do.
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Considering Laura under the guys of a mascot
23:01
felt like the missing piece and the larger Little
23:03
House puzzle. Mascots
23:06
are created by organizations. Many
23:08
hands go into their making.
23:11
Part of the magic of the Little House Books, and
23:13
one of.
23:13
The reasons people including me, have
23:16
such passionate feelings about them is
23:19
because they are so successful at creating
23:21
intimacy. We're not reading
23:23
about Laura, We're living with Laura,
23:26
and yet we know this is not the
23:29
case.
23:30
The Little House Books.
23:31
And their entire legacy were very
23:33
carefully crafted by Laura, indefinitely
23:36
by Rose, then to a lesser
23:38
extent, by the book publishing industry.
23:41
Then they were crafted again by Hollywood. Laura
23:44
the writer may have just wanted to recounter life,
23:47
but Laura Ingles, the character, very
23:50
intentionally represents something larger.
23:55
This raises an important question if
23:58
Laura is a mascot for a team? What
24:01
are the other teams and who
24:04
was representing them? What
24:06
stories about girls and women in this part of the country
24:09
are we not telling. A
24:12
few years ago I stumbled across a story
24:14
about the Battle of the Little Big Horn. Included
24:16
was in aside that the Cheyenne believed a
24:19
Cheyenne woman named Buffalo calf Road Woman
24:22
may have been the person who caused Custer's
24:24
death.
24:26
This astounded me.
24:27
Why was this not a more well known fact, especially
24:31
considering the cultural footprint of Custer. I
24:34
asked Tanya if she knew about Buffalo calf
24:36
Road Woman. It turns
24:38
out Buffalo calf Road Woman
24:40
is quite famous in Cheyenne history.
24:43
She's also known for being part of the Battle
24:46
of the Rosebud or she picks
24:48
up her brother because the Chaya's called that the battle or the saved
24:50
her brother. That's what they refer to the Battle
24:53
of the Rosebuda, the.
24:55
Battle of the Rosebud, or the
24:57
battle where the girls saved her brothers, the Cheyenne
24:59
referred it took place a week before
25:02
the Battle of the Little Big Horn, during
25:04
the battle when all hope seemed
25:06
to be lost for the Cheyenne, Buffalo
25:09
Calffrod Woman went out onto the battlefield
25:11
by herself to save her fallen
25:13
brother. This action rallied
25:16
the Native American forces and they defeated
25:19
the US cavalry led by George Crook. This
25:22
is why the Cheyenne named the battle after her.
25:26
That's where I shine the light on her is
25:28
in the Battle of the Rosebud, because they
25:31
actually named it after her.
25:34
Whether or not it was Buffalo calff Road Woman
25:36
who was responsible for Custer's death, maybe
25:39
secondary to why we don't know who killed
25:41
him. The Cheyenne
25:43
passed down their history orally, not in
25:46
written form, but after the Battle
25:48
of the Little Big Horn, many participants
25:50
went silent for fear of retribution. It
25:53
was only after a century of self impost
25:55
silence that the Cheyenne revealed
25:57
Buffalo caff Road Woman's role in the battle.
26:01
After the battle, the United States time
26:03
is going to spread noxense, going after anyone
26:06
that's not on the reservation. And then if they are
26:08
on the reservation, they're still going to come after you. And
26:12
anybody associated with
26:14
Custer Battle that you know, that's what it's called
26:17
back then, would be horribly
26:20
persecuted. So they didn't talk about it.
26:22
Nobody did.
26:26
The story of Buffalo Caffrod woman has
26:29
all the heroic elements of an epic
26:31
American tale, far more
26:33
than Custer, and yet she
26:36
remains nearly anonymous in mainstream
26:38
culture. Women not getting
26:40
a fair shake from history is hardly
26:42
new. One of the reasons
26:44
so many of us, and I include
26:46
myself here in the strongest terms, cling
26:50
to Laura is that she is a strong female
26:52
role model, and for most
26:55
of history there have been very few of
26:57
those. The devotion
26:59
so many of us feel towards Laura is
27:02
not surprising, but
27:04
it becomes a concern when this sort
27:06
of devotion takes up so much
27:08
space that it doesn't leave
27:10
room for other narratives.
27:21
I mean, Emily, what is your take on how empty it is?
27:25
It's very empty.
27:26
We on the Wyoming
27:28
side we were seeing like ruins of ranches
27:31
or active ranches, and now there's absolutely
27:33
nothing.
27:35
This stretch of the country is notorious
27:37
for modern day reasons, having nothing
27:40
to do with Custer or the so called
27:42
Old West.
27:44
In late twenty nineteen, the Crow tribe
27:46
declared a state of emergency. Tribal
27:49
chairman aj not Afraid cited a list
27:51
of issues, including the failure to address
27:54
the murdered and missing women crisis.
27:56
In a story published earlier this year tied
27:59
to a docuseries called Murder and Bighorn
28:02
about the epidemic, the
28:04
Guardian reported quote, Montana
28:07
has one of the worst missing or murdered
28:09
rates for Indigenous women in the country.
28:13
Driving back and forth on this road, I thought
28:15
a lot about who is deemed worthy of a story,
28:18
and this led me to consider even more
28:21
how the story of Laura is wielded. What
28:24
does Laura's appeal say about what we want to
28:26
believe and who are we willing
28:29
to leave out for that comfort Because
28:32
to many people, Laura is
28:34
very comforting.
28:35
She fulfills these basic traits
28:38
that we need, oh, you
28:40
know, putting a baby to sleep,
28:42
or reading somebody a book, or just
28:45
you know, even though nothing about
28:47
the books that actually happens, it
28:50
is comforting.
28:51
That's Lizzie Skernick, writer and
28:53
children's literature professor at NYU.
28:56
There's nothing comforting about like living in a
28:58
mud hut.
28:59
She's able to make everything
29:03
comforting and cozy.
29:05
And I think that is a fundamental
29:08
desire of human beings.
29:11
I have read the Little House Books hundreds
29:14
of times when I was
29:16
a kid, the worst parts of the
29:18
books only flagged to me as evidence
29:20
that Ma was invested in Laura not
29:23
enjoying herself, similar
29:25
to how I sometimes felt about my own mother, and
29:29
that Paw was exciting, which
29:31
was similar to how I felt about my own father
29:34
as a child. As
29:36
a grown up, I recognize the racism
29:38
in the books, and
29:41
I also recognize that so
29:43
many cultural things we loved growing
29:45
up are very problematic.
29:50
This is something that came up on our road trip a
29:53
lot. On
29:55
our second night in man Cato, after a long
29:58
day of interviews, we just I had
30:00
to order room service and camped
30:02
out in front of the TV.
30:05
Much to our delight, a childhood
30:07
favorite of Joe.
30:08
And Minds was showing sixteen
30:10
Candles, a sleepover staple
30:13
that neither of us had actually seen in years.
30:17
It does not hold up, to
30:19
put it mildly, but
30:21
Joe especially had a strong reaction.
30:23
I mean, I'm like almost ready to start a petition to
30:25
make sixteen channels not being put out.
30:27
Of the times.
30:28
Wow, we need to put the mic out.
30:32
Okay, what a one
30:34
eighty Joe. I was so horrified
30:37
by that movie. I do not want and
30:40
I can actually see different
30:43
themes in my own life, and I was like, oh, all
30:45
right, you know whatever, you get black out drunk,
30:47
and like, who knows what happens. I
30:49
don't think that movie should be on television anymore.
30:53
There is no getting around the fact that looking
30:56
at some of the things that made us who we are can
30:58
be painful. Even with all this
31:00
knowledge, it remains impossible
31:03
for me not to understand Laura as
31:05
a source of good in my own life. What
31:07
she gave me in terms of possibility,
31:10
an example of how to be complicated,
31:13
a girl who loves it venture and clothes,
31:16
who loves problematics, sometimes damaging
31:19
parents, and maybe most importantly,
31:22
how to be a writer. I
31:25
was able to love these things because
31:27
the damaging parts of the book didn't feel
31:29
like they were doing damage to me, and
31:33
even if they were, how much
31:35
I loved the rest of it made
31:37
up for that. And then, during
31:40
the recording of the Problem of Laura episode,
31:43
I read out loud the parts of the books that Little
31:46
House comes under fire for the most. As
31:49
I said the words out loud, I was
31:51
shocked to discover that I actually
31:54
felt physically ill. She
31:57
says to Pa quote Paw,
32:00
get me that Little Indian Baby. I
32:03
want it, I want it, she begged.
32:06
Oh what if
32:08
doing this.
32:09
Episode makes me never read Little House again?
32:12
My reading this out loud has
32:15
actually been way more upsetting to me than
32:19
the reread. And
32:21
it was not easy for the producers in the room
32:23
either.
32:24
Pah, when I look at you, guy, when you're like this stressful
32:28
to listen to this.
32:30
There is, after all, a difference
32:32
between reading and saying, between
32:35
sliding over the parts with your eyes that are
32:37
a problem and putting them out
32:39
in the world with your own voice. And
32:42
the saying out loud part was where it
32:45
turns out the buck stopped for
32:47
me.
32:47
My god, this episode is really upsetting.
32:50
It's so much different to say it out loud.
32:55
Maybe that's the thing. Everyone should have to read these books
32:57
out loud. I
33:00
considered it.
33:01
I realized I'd only read the books
33:03
to myself all these years that
33:05
I had been able to internalize Laura without
33:08
much mediation. I
33:11
immediately thought back to doctor Reese and
33:13
her belief that The Little Housebook should be taken
33:16
out of children's classrooms.
33:17
Part of what was shocking to me as
33:20
I tried to have conversations
33:22
with people about the books
33:25
is that I had asked them to consider
33:27
that sentence the only good Indian
33:30
is a dead Indian, and I'd
33:32
asked them to think about
33:34
the impact that line has on that
33:37
Native child in the classroom, And
33:40
I asked them, would you really do that? You
33:42
know, would you really do that? And
33:44
they say yes, I mean, without hesitation,
33:46
it was yes, because that's the way
33:48
it was. That's the way they thought back then, and
33:51
had all kinds of rationalizations for that, and
33:54
none of the rationalizations centered
33:57
on the experience of that Native child.
34:00
And that was really hard because part of what
34:02
I think that we as a society
34:05
think is that we send our kids to teachers
34:07
in schools. I mean, we're giving them our children,
34:11
and we trust in some way that
34:13
they are not going to be hurt by their teachers
34:16
and what happens in their clussures.
34:20
What I was left with was this question, is
34:23
the fact the Little House Books brought me glynnis
34:28
a lot of joy enough
34:30
to justify the violence they had the power
34:32
to inflict on others. After
34:35
the break, we're going to talk through
34:37
how and where we think the Little House Books belong
34:40
and also hear from listeners on whether
34:43
they too are thinking about Laura and Little House.
34:45
Differently, what
34:52
would you say to me that I struggled
34:55
to let go of my love for these books even as I recognize
34:57
the harm that they do.
34:59
I would tell you, and this is something that I actually
35:01
do in my workshops, is that I share
35:03
my own attachment to the Five Chinese Brothers.
35:07
You know, I can like smell that book when I
35:09
say the title, because it's one that I read, and
35:11
what you know, in first grade I learned to read
35:14
this is one of the books I read. I thought it was
35:16
awesome. But then when someone asked
35:18
me to reconsider the book and the images that they
35:20
were in there, I'm like, yeah, you're right, and
35:23
I own that and I admit that, And
35:25
so I talk about that and
35:28
how it kind of stings, It kind of hurts, and you feel
35:30
kind of stupid because, yeah, why didn't I see that before?
35:33
But it does take a conversation
35:36
to be able to see something and start the journey
35:38
of letting go of a particular
35:40
book.
35:42
I decided the best people to have this conversation
35:45
with were Joe and Emily, the
35:47
two women who had come out on the road with me more
35:50
than a year ago to try and figure
35:52
out how I felt about Laura.
35:56
So, guys were at
35:59
the end of the Wilder podcast,
36:02
which we started eighteen
36:04
months ago.
36:06
We have read all the.
36:08
Books, We've talked to, all of the people,
36:11
we have driven around the country, We've
36:14
done hundreds of hours of interviews,
36:17
and so I thought this would be a
36:20
really good time for us all to sort
36:22
of sit down in separate
36:24
locations and sort of talk through
36:27
what we've learned and if our thinking
36:29
has changed.
36:30
How does everyone feel?
36:33
Well, Glynn, I think you're the first
36:35
person that should answer that, because
36:38
when we started this whole wild
36:41
journey, you weren't
36:43
sure exactly what you were going to find
36:45
and whether after
36:48
you've found whatever it was,
36:51
you would still be able to love Laura in
36:54
the same way. And after
36:56
all of this, after this journey
36:59
of epic proportions, literally
37:02
literally, how do you feel
37:04
now?
37:05
I still I have such deep love
37:07
for Laura the person, like
37:09
the individual writer who sat
37:12
down and wrote it. But I
37:14
think coming to terms with
37:16
the fact that these books are
37:18
not just a
37:21
story that came directly out of her head as she
37:23
was experiencing it, and really understanding
37:26
that these books were a
37:28
production of more
37:30
than a few people, some of them very unlikable,
37:33
and Laura has very unlikable
37:36
parts of her, and so I really sort
37:38
of split my thinking between the
37:40
person and the product.
37:43
I really like what you just said about splitting
37:47
your feelings, and I think
37:49
that's a very modern way of
37:52
looking at creative
37:54
production at a brand. And that's
37:57
what I think about a lot
37:59
when I think about celebrities or when I think
38:01
about influencers, And all right,
38:03
can I enjoy this movie
38:06
that has been made by a director
38:09
who is terrible in real
38:11
life? Can I enjoy Michael
38:14
Jackson with my kids, knowing
38:16
what I know about him as a human?
38:19
And so I think that this is a bigger thing
38:22
that so many of us scrapple with with
38:24
art.
38:25
Can we enjoy art.
38:27
If we discover things
38:29
we don't like about the human being behind
38:32
it, because all human beings are flawed
38:34
in different ways.
38:36
Yeah, And the interesting thing in this case is
38:38
I'm struggling less with Laura the individual.
38:41
I recognize that she was complicated and had
38:43
a lot of problems, but that's less
38:46
difficult for me to accept because that just
38:49
feels like every human than
38:51
her art, which I am struggling with.
38:54
And part of what's so complicated
38:56
about that that we've talked about is her art is
38:59
so much about her.
39:00
That speaks to.
39:02
Something that has come up from a lot of listeners
39:04
too when we criticize Laura, which is
39:06
she was a person of her moment. She
39:09
was writing what she knew at the time, and
39:13
when I think about the individual, I can recognize
39:16
there's some truth to that, although lots
39:19
of people in the nineteenth century
39:21
knew that Indian removal was bad, and
39:23
we have to hold her to today's standards
39:25
because she exists as a relevant
39:28
thing in twenty twenty three. So
39:30
I keep thinking of it like you're allowed
39:33
to look at an antique car and say, well, it
39:35
was built in nineteen twenty three, but it doesn't mean
39:37
it doesn't have to pass inspection to be allowed
39:39
on the road. And I feel like what we've been
39:41
doing with Laura is holding her up
39:43
to twenty twenty three inspection to say
39:46
should you still be on the road.
39:49
Essentially, you know, do you pass this inspection?
39:51
And if you don't, what do we do about
39:54
that.
39:54
I am so aware of all the
39:57
good she brought to my life,
40:00
but my life as
40:03
a little white girl in suburban
40:05
Toronto with highly educated parents
40:08
and a wealth of resources is
40:10
not everyone's life. I might love
40:13
my nineteen twenty three car, but is it dangerous
40:15
to be on the road like it's it's yeah.
40:17
I don't think you shouldn't drive.
40:19
That car right right?
40:21
It has to be updated. And I also
40:23
think, like the flip side of that is, I
40:26
can't unlove something that had
40:28
a positive effect on me to
40:30
the degree she did. I can only recognize
40:34
that I loved her so
40:37
much. I was willing to gloss
40:39
over and not be bothered
40:41
by all the problems. But I still
40:43
you know, even reading parts of the book. I mean, parts
40:45
of them are really upsetting, as we heard,
40:48
but it's just like there is a
40:50
magic to them. I get why I love
40:52
them. I still love them.
40:54
I think you're allowed to still love them.
40:55
I think you're allowed to still love them and to
40:58
also think critically
41:00
about them and to talk critically about
41:03
them.
41:04
How do you guys feel, Joe, you came to this with
41:06
very little knowledge, so you have the coldest eye on this
41:08
of the three of us.
41:09
You know, what I really enjoyed
41:12
during this journey was experiencing
41:14
the magic. It was actually really fun to experience
41:17
the magic through your eyes, but as
41:19
an outsider, I think the problems
41:22
were always just so so
41:25
clear to me with the TV show
41:28
with the books. But all
41:31
of that said, I
41:33
don't think that they shouldn't be read anymore.
41:36
I don't think they should be banned. I don't think they should be
41:39
taken off library shelves. I do
41:41
think that they should be approached
41:44
with critical discussion and a critical eye.
41:46
But I also think there's a lot of
41:49
good in there that
41:52
it would be a real shame to remove.
41:55
From the world.
41:57
Emily, what do you think You knew the show, You
42:00
were familiar with the books, but you love the show, so
42:03
yeah, yeah, I was a show lover.
42:05
But I've really done the crash
42:07
course in all aspects
42:09
of Laura. In the past year. I reread
42:12
all of the books. We took the
42:14
two week long and then extra weekend
42:16
road trip to all the sites, and to
42:18
keep going with your car passing inspection
42:21
metaphor, I think you have to make
42:23
sure that everything is up to your standards. But
42:25
then it's so important to go out
42:28
there and get on the road because if
42:30
we had made this all just in a
42:32
vacuum in the studio, like it
42:34
would be a completely different show. I think
42:37
like half the insights we got to we wouldn't have
42:39
even thought of because seeing how
42:41
Laura landed in every specific
42:43
place, from like seeing her embraced
42:45
at Laura's sites like Walnack Grove
42:47
and De Smet, but then going out
42:50
to Custer and being in the middle
42:52
of Native reservations and understanding
42:55
how this lands differently with different audiences.
42:58
Putting yourself in the shoes of people
43:01
who are not white and who have been harmed
43:03
by this narrative definitely has
43:05
made me come to the conclusion that I don't think
43:07
these should be taught in anything besides a
43:09
higher level literature class
43:12
or history class. I don't think they should be taught
43:14
to young kids in classrooms.
43:16
I think they can still be read. I really
43:19
hope that one day there will be additions
43:22
for children to understand all of the context,
43:24
so that that's what parents can read to
43:26
their children. But so,
43:29
yeah, I don't think they should be banned, but I do think
43:31
we should filter how they're understood.
43:35
Yeah, I think for me, the
43:37
more painful conclusion
43:40
I've come to. I've given this book set to every
43:42
friend that's had a child. It was my go
43:45
to you know, baby gift
43:48
for a long time, and I
43:51
wouldn't do that anymore. It's too
43:54
violent. In in perfect world, how I'd
43:56
like to see these books package because I don't think they should
43:58
be taken off shelves. I think we're we're seeing
44:00
books being taken off shelves and I
44:03
can't support that at all.
44:06
But I think the books need
44:08
to be packaged.
44:09
I think a lot of the Disney movies now, which come
44:11
when you start watching an old Disney movie, they come with
44:13
this It's almost like
44:15
a content warning of like, what you're about to watch
44:18
is really problematic, and we recognize that. I
44:20
think the books themselves need to be packaged
44:23
with enormous context
44:25
of who were
44:28
the Native Americans that
44:31
Laura watched leave quote
44:33
unquote Indian Territory and what is
44:36
their story? And it needs to be in the books
44:38
in a way that makes it just as engaging
44:40
as what you're reading. So I think it should be included
44:43
in every one of these box sets. But
44:45
I also think the largest solution to this is that,
44:48
and this is already happening. We know from
44:50
talking to Lizzie's college classes, the
44:52
spotlight needs to be moved away from Laura,
44:55
right, like Laura shouldn't occupy this
44:58
much space in children's classrooms or
45:00
in children's literature.
45:02
There needs to be so
45:04
much more space for the other stories.
45:06
And I think you know, Shena, one of
45:08
our other producers asked me earlier if I had
45:10
the choice of giving up Laura and substituting
45:13
her with someone who is less of a problem. And I think it
45:15
brings me joy right now to know that I can give
45:17
other books to kids with better representation,
45:20
like I can let go. That's what I think I
45:22
meant at the beginning of this when I say, you
45:24
know, when you love something, you have to let it go.
45:26
I can still love her.
45:27
Eight year old Glynnis loves her, but I
45:30
can find other things to give to other kids, and hopefully
45:33
they experience that degree of joy with stories
45:35
that are less.
45:37
Violent and less capable
45:40
of harm.
45:42
I guess I want kids to feel the
45:44
degree of joy and passion I felt, but
45:47
about better in different stories,
45:49
and so then that becomes, you
45:52
know, The challenge I think, certainly
45:55
for those of us devoted enough to Little House, is to
45:57
invest in finding what those others
46:00
stories are and providing those
46:02
stories. I don't have to be giving Little House
46:04
out to anyone. I can just have my Little
46:06
House memory and
46:09
don't need to pass it on, I guess is my
46:12
end result of this, which sort of makes
46:14
me a little sad, But it makes me not sad
46:16
too, because I think, oh, there's
46:19
other stuff there. There's other stuff out there,
46:21
and there's other joys for kids to have that
46:24
I just want them to have the joy.
46:25
It doesn't have to be about the same story
46:28
I had.
46:29
Yeah, And I think one of the things that really did
46:32
change my mind about Little House, and I think this
46:34
is true for a lot of our listeners too, is
46:37
when we started to talk about Rose and all
46:39
of the ways that she was involved in writing and editing
46:42
the books. And there was one
46:44
really key fact about
46:47
our favorite line now is now it
46:49
can never be a long time ago, which closes the
46:51
end of the first book, and it's
46:54
that a lot of scholars, like
46:56
Caroline Fraser particularly, think
46:58
that Rose might have written that line.
47:01
What do you think about that? I
47:04
mean, as a kid, Rose
47:07
would have devastated me. As a grown up,
47:10
I just recognized all the things Joe and I talked
47:12
about about having a great editor and complicated
47:15
relationships.
47:16
So knowing Rose came up with that line. At this point,
47:18
I just think I have mainlined
47:20
Rose in a way that I this is. You know, when I
47:22
talk about inhaling these books, I thought I was
47:24
mainlining Laura.
47:25
I was mainlining white a lot of Rose.
47:27
And of course Rose
47:30
is responsible for the line that sums
47:32
up the entire book.
47:33
She enabled Laura to be a genius,
47:36
and that is.
47:39
Extraordinary, and it
47:41
might be that she articulated a truth about
47:45
Laura better than Laura did. So
47:48
it kind of, to be quite honest with you, it feels
47:50
sort of perfect that a woman who refused
47:52
to be associated as a writer of the book, who
47:55
tried to undermine her mother at every turn, is
47:57
also responsible for the truest
48:00
line in the entire series.
48:01
So it's like, that's a perfect
48:04
distillation of this entire series.
48:06
To be it is the perfect
48:08
essence of I like what you said,
48:11
that was already in Laura's work,
48:13
and then Rose just was able to package
48:16
the essence of it.
48:17
There's no Laura, there's
48:19
Rose and Laura.
48:20
So in my DNA, when
48:22
I talk about Laura's in my DNA, like
48:24
Rose is in there too.
48:26
Great Should we move on to listener comments.
48:29
Yes, it's been so interesting to read
48:31
all the comments and reviews from people, and
48:33
it feels like they fall into one of two camps
48:36
of criticism, which is either I
48:39
still love Laura too much or we're
48:41
being far too critical of Laura. But
48:44
I'm really interested to know, you know, everyone who
48:46
sent in their voice memos, and we're so grateful for
48:48
everyone who did, whether they
48:50
have been experiencing a similar struggle
48:53
to what I've been going through over the last
48:55
year, and whether there's an
48:57
overlap in their respect
49:00
this with mine.
49:04
Hi.
49:05
My name is Karen.
49:08
I am a black female who
49:11
grew up in the seventies
49:14
and loved the Little House books, reading
49:17
Little Town on the Prairie and
49:20
The Menstrual Show.
49:24
When I was a child, I
49:26
always felt uncomfortable, but
49:28
back then I didn't have language for
49:31
what was happening to me. But
49:33
reading Prairie Fires and listening to this podcast,
49:37
I just see the racism
49:40
within those books and
49:44
am very torn about how I feel
49:46
about them now High
49:48
Wilder Podcast.
49:50
My name is Maddie.
49:51
I was raised in a very fundamentalist
49:55
homeschooling community, religious homeschooling
49:57
community, and it's
49:59
interesting as y'all were talking about
50:01
kind of these like libertarian ideals going
50:04
over your head as a child.
50:05
While I was reading them as a child, the.
50:07
Adults in my life who were encouraging me to read
50:09
these were drawing them my attention
50:12
to them and using it as an education like they
50:14
are being forced out of Indian territory
50:16
because big government is bad,
50:19
that kind of thing.
50:20
You know.
50:20
I still have family in these communities.
50:22
I am not a part of it anymore.
50:25
But I talked to my nieces who are being
50:27
homeschooled in that community, and you know,
50:29
talk to them a little bit about their experience
50:32
with the book, and they said that it's still
50:34
going on, that's still kind of the message
50:36
being attached with
50:39
the books. I think that it just adds a layer
50:41
of complication on how we should
50:43
be approaching these
50:45
books with children. I don't know
50:48
if I'll read them to mine, honestly, because
50:51
I don't know if I would want that propaganda
50:53
shared with them if they're not old enough to comprehend
50:56
it.
50:57
My name is Caitlin. I was born into a
50:59
family that or the Little House series.
51:01
Most of my ancestors lived in eastern
51:04
South Dakota at the same time she did. People
51:06
today talk about how important representation
51:09
is to kids, and I agree.
51:12
I think that's why I adored Laura so
51:14
much. There aren't many famous
51:16
people who come out of South Dakota, but
51:18
she was. She made me proud
51:20
of who I was and where I lived. She
51:23
was me, and if she could do great things,
51:26
so could I. Modern South Dakota
51:28
can be like the one Laura lived in, but can
51:30
also be much different. A lot
51:32
of your podcast has discussed the return
51:35
to the prairie esthetic, but the prairies
51:37
are emptying because of rural flight. There
51:40
is some sense of community, but it's mostly
51:42
reserved for those with the right last
51:44
name. Outsiders are
51:46
not very welcome. So
51:49
my opinion on Laura has changed with the times
51:52
and especially with this podcast. But
51:54
I still want to read these books to my kids someday
51:57
because our ancestors lived like Laura,
51:59
and I feel it's important to teach my
52:01
future children about their past. But
52:04
I feel that I now have a more
52:06
educated and mature view of the books
52:09
and now how to use it as an educational tool
52:11
rather than a propaganda tool.
52:14
Hello, my son
52:16
is getting married soon and his bride is
52:18
Indigenous, and I
52:21
imagined reading these things
52:23
to my future grandchildren
52:25
who would be indigenous, and it was pretty
52:27
horrifying to see
52:29
how it might be seen through their eyes.
52:32
Whereas before, when somebody would bring it
52:34
up, I would think, well,
52:37
you can't apply modern sensibilities
52:40
to the past.
52:41
People lived in their times.
52:42
There are things that our grandchildren will be
52:45
horrified by that we do every day
52:47
without thought. But
52:51
I don't think it's appropriate for children anymore,
52:53
and that sads me immensely.
52:56
I'm someone who loves the Little House
52:58
Books and I've written about them.
53:00
I've thought of myself as pretty
53:03
clear eyed about these issues in
53:05
the books, and I figured
53:08
I'd just done all that reconciliation
53:11
work. So I have
53:13
to say I really was not prepared for
53:15
episode seven to hit me the way it did,
53:18
you know, with the college class and just
53:21
hearing how the Little Housebooks how
53:23
they look to younger generations.
53:26
That was a little rough. But
53:28
also I get it.
53:30
I think a lot of people who hold onto the books
53:32
a certain way really
53:34
try everything to avoid
53:36
those feelings. And I get that too, But
53:39
I'm thinking now that the more you let yourself
53:42
just have those feelings, the more
53:44
you realize how little
53:46
it really costs you to acknowledge the other perspectives
53:50
you know and just give them spacing your head. Okay,
53:53
So, I guess here's a metaphor. I
53:55
actually made a pigs bladder
53:57
balloon, and anyone who
54:00
who has done that knows how horrifying
54:03
it is in real life. I mean
54:05
like it looks like something like
54:07
a serial killer would play with. But
54:10
you can still hold that idea you had
54:12
when you were a kid of you know,
54:15
this pig ladder being just a fun
54:17
balloon that is inside a pig, like a
54:19
cracker Jack prize, and you
54:21
can let that exist alongside the
54:23
reality that it looks disgusting.
54:27
What's so interesting about all this listener feedback
54:29
is that we all seem to be struggling with
54:31
similar things, and it's you
54:35
know, further evidence
54:37
that it's hard to interrogate
54:40
the things you loved as a kid because it's so
54:42
it runs so deep and it can be painful.
54:45
So many of us are in the same place of wanting
54:48
to do so and struggling to do so,
54:50
and you know, coming up with
54:52
similar answers. Once
54:55
again, Little House is the zeitgeist
54:59
of of reckoning
55:01
with childhood love.
55:03
Once again. It's complicated.
55:05
Okay, well, Glennis, maybe one of
55:07
the final questions I have for you is
55:09
how do you think about yourself differently? Or
55:11
what did you learn about yourself making
55:13
this entire show.
55:17
I mean, really understanding the
55:19
degree to which I allowed
55:23
things to be acceptable simply
55:25
because I was so.
55:29
Relieved to see a.
55:31
Version of how I was in the world in a character
55:34
is upsetting and really makes
55:36
you consider. I don't know if selfishness
55:39
is the right word, but all the
55:41
things we let pass by because
55:43
of our own enjoyment and enjoy and
55:46
then subsequently flipping that and trying
55:48
to understand not just the pain
55:50
of not seeing a version of yourself in the world,
55:53
but the pain of seeing a terrible version
55:55
of yourself in the world, which is what happens
55:58
in these books to not people
56:00
and in so much of the narratives
56:02
we have, and thinking about, you
56:05
know, just what I was willing to tolerate for
56:07
my own pleasure into
56:10
some degree survival.
56:12
Is something I continue
56:15
to think about. But
56:18
I also think about this.
56:21
I lived in the Little House Books for most of
56:23
my childhood, and then the second I
56:25
could, I stepped through the map
56:27
on my parents' family room floor.
56:32
You can see Lake.
56:33
Preston, and
56:35
then right to the left of that is to Smith and
56:38
attempted to recreate what I had learned from
56:40
Laura. I wrote, I
56:43
traveled, I had and continue
56:45
to have adventures, and
56:47
I have a deep belief in the value of even the
56:49
smallest parts of these stories. I
56:53
took to heart some of the messages I found in Little
56:55
House about honesty, bravery,
56:58
adventure, and then we applied
57:00
it to the person who gave it to me in the first place.
57:03
And you've been listening to us do that. Thank
57:06
you for coming along for the ride. Laura
57:10
was a complicated, resilient, fascinating
57:14
person, and it's been strangely
57:16
wonderful to discover and accept that she
57:19
is a problem.
57:21
You want to hold on to her. You have
57:23
to hold onto that too, and
57:26
then keep going.
57:29
There are other stories, and
57:31
there are other nails, and
57:34
it might be time for this to be a very
57:36
long time ago.
57:43
Let's just maybe think of it.
57:44
Okay, I don't actually know where her grave is, but how big is this
57:46
grape song? It's just that for the ones that look flowered, maybe,
57:48
yeah.
57:54
Wilder graves that way. It says it over
57:56
there, oh
58:01
here?
58:01
Sure, though, I still go through the graveyard behind my house
58:03
and try and find people who were born in.
58:05
Eighteen sixty seven, because they were born and the same.
58:07
Year Laura was yeah, yeah,
58:14
Wilder, it's
58:16
just a big stone, that says Wilder.
58:20
Oh, here we go, they have more. Okay,
58:23
that was the backside. Apparently ninety
58:27
is a solid a yeah for what Laura
58:30
ingles and.
58:33
I mean months was ninety two.
58:35
Yeah.
58:37
It's like everything in.
58:41
Those books they could they were so close to death
58:43
so many times, but
58:47
she made it.
58:48
She made it right here.
58:50
I have to say I have no emotional connection
58:52
to people's graves, and
58:54
because I grew up behind your graveyard your
58:57
people are buried does not have resonance
58:59
for me where they lived.
59:01
Like, yeah, going to
59:03
dismess.
59:04
Is so much more emotional.
59:07
Or listening to pause fiddle and
59:09
visiting a grave.
59:10
I don't know.
59:11
Isn't that kind of crazy that we're standing on top of her
59:13
them.
59:14
We're not sitting on top We're standing on top of her remains.
59:17
This whole entire podcast is.
59:23
Standing on top of her right.
59:30
Wilder is written and hosted by me Glennis
59:33
McNichol. Our story editors
59:35
are Emily Meronoff and Joe Piazza.
59:38
Our senior producer is Emily Meronoff.
59:40
Our producers are Mary Do, She Knows
59:43
Zaki and Jessica Crinchich.
59:45
Our associate producer is Lauren Phillip.
59:48
Production help from Asavarey Sharma, sound
59:51
design and mixing by Amanda Rose Smith.
59:55
Our amazing theme song and additional music
59:57
was composed by Alice McCoy. We
1:00:00
are executive produced by Joe Piazza,
1:00:03
Nikki Aetore, Ali Perry and
1:00:05
Me. Final special
1:00:08
thanks to Ranger Tanya
1:00:10
Gardner, Heatherley McFarlane
1:00:12
and Pauline Facon from Bonzen
1:00:14
Studio in Paris, Laura
1:00:17
Ingles Wilder Home Association for
1:00:19
the recording of Laura's voice Upsalquate
1:00:22
tours at the Little Big Horn Battlefilip
1:00:25
National Monument, Doctor
1:00:27
DeBie Reese and Professor Lizzie Skernick,
1:00:31
and every one of you who sent in your thoughts
1:00:33
and feedback. As
1:00:35
always, please see our show notes for further
1:00:38
reading and links for the subjects we discussed
1:00:40
in this episode.
1:00:43
That's it for Wilder. Thank you
1:00:45
so much for listening.
1:00:47
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