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oh yeah. You made

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it weird, you made it weird,

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yes, you made it weird, you

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made it weird, you made it

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weird with Pete Holmes. What's

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happening, weirdos? What's happening, weirdos?

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We did an inverted nipple of a

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show here. One

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of those weird nips. Not bad weird, just

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not typical. Not

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nipical? Okay. This is a great one,

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we do do it a little inverted,

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meaning the first half is sort

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of our deep therapy. Really, really,

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really, really helpful. God. God.

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sisters me that I needed with

7:05

wonder they can go is Mary

7:08

do you. See. What's happening in My

7:10

microphone? Yeah I do. And and in distracting

7:12

me from adjusts. And I. Go.

7:15

And. Die as well. Then. I to

7:17

I stop saying that a sister that all

7:19

the time where and I to Batman I

7:21

because I don't even know. He

7:25

was a very do you say that? yeah I

7:27

think it's from mice First. It

7:30

was assaulted that's kinda thing on makes

7:32

them to the talk to visit. The

7:34

thing I miss the most about my

7:37

my ex wife is the bets. Like

7:39

an eye to Batman. And sometimes I

7:42

say this I go, it's chill, I'm

7:44

freeze. yeah and then swimmers. These children

7:46

freezes. Really funny to me are the

7:49

bit. Like gays that

7:51

you guys had together. No. No,

7:55

he doesn't Miss Smith the i'm of your

7:57

Life where you did but you know it's

7:59

like and. The Our I Nothing

8:01

How you inherited. Absolutely. In

8:03

fact, that is the real

8:05

nightmare of my life, as

8:07

is when I'm really low.

8:10

And. I have been. This. Week.

8:13

It's been weird. One.

8:15

Of my feelings as like

8:17

I can't actually love for

8:20

connects like someone what I'm

8:22

doing. One of the reasons

8:24

I love doing it. Accredited

8:26

practice is like. You

8:29

know when I before I go on stage

8:31

I need to look at my jokes and

8:33

before I. Have a good

8:35

day! I literally like. I.

8:38

Think more than most people. What

8:40

I just looked at. His.

8:43

My reality? Yeah. and eating more

8:45

than most people. Yeah, I think that

8:47

might be like that. Ah live

8:49

a touch of the A D H

8:52

D using cell type that you have.

8:54

yeah yeah is is it yours like?

8:56

I don't know that put correct term

8:58

but there's like the like scatter. The

9:01

I think there's like seven different kinds. That one

9:03

of them is more like the scatter. Alert

9:05

Child. Yeah. And then there's

9:07

squirrel at the yeah and then

9:09

there's like hyper focused. At

9:12

like what you have which like I

9:14

can focus on this one thing but

9:16

then like nothing else exists. Yeah, it's I

9:18

really priests. I feel very seen as one of

9:20

the reasons why I have a hard time. With.

9:23

Like say the news for example, I

9:25

have an awareness of the tragedies, him

9:27

and the and the horrors. But I

9:29

think more than a I'm I'm going

9:31

to take it out of the news

9:33

because I just am. I live in

9:35

constant fear that be we're going to

9:38

shame May for not knowing the minute

9:40

by minute details of every issue on

9:42

which A I'm be built around. We

9:44

don't and I am ashamed and I

9:46

am a sun lamp. But well here's

9:48

my boy is more with people. So.

9:51

If I don't even you know not

9:53

You and Lila are different but like

9:56

if I want to hit save on

9:58

certain moments not just said. General

10:00

Vague. Warm. Orange

10:03

thing collar like you know a spot

10:05

of color in my memory that only

10:07

I love validly less I have to.

10:09

Sometimes you'll say to me like you're

10:11

like do you remember when we were

10:13

driving home from my parents' house and

10:15

I was just bawling He had a

10:18

migrants and I just know I will

10:20

find that he could do but I

10:22

don't have at right now. I

10:24

mean, yeah, sure at that doesn't

10:26

I don't have any. No,

10:28

I don't feel bad about telling you that

10:31

the yeah I I live by you. Do

10:33

you really? When I know that wouldn't work

10:35

that yeah, we're from It's so. It reminds

10:37

me of my father and there is a

10:40

superpower meaning. I think I'm

10:42

an old computer, but one of

10:44

those old computers that some programmers

10:46

are like nothing. Didn't like the

10:48

Xd Fifty. Yeah, like I miss

10:50

the Xt Fifty. I know these new

10:52

ones can process so much more,

10:54

but the exceed fifty could only it

10:56

only have five slots of ram.

10:58

Mother: this is Greg It only

11:00

at fifty megabytes of rams. It's why

11:03

I prefer slots because it's like

11:05

what I put in those lots is

11:07

my entire reality. Yeah, and what

11:09

happened? One of the reasons. I think

11:11

I've been depressed. Honestly, like is weird for

11:13

me to set up a like. And

11:16

I mean I I feel vulnerable saying man ser

11:18

say I'm a show like to show up and

11:21

and and I feel funny and I feel sparkly.

11:23

Yeah, but people honest know

11:26

what's really happening. Well.

11:28

Yeah, and it's a non circumstance

11:30

one at one are things that

11:32

got loaded in there was like

11:34

a powerless child feeling Yemen that

11:36

got loaded into one of the

11:38

ten megabytes. Lots of ram and

11:40

that's just in their see as.

11:42

actually I'll change metaphors and say

11:45

like it's almost like I'm pouring

11:47

water and the water is my

11:49

day. And now we're putting these

11:51

different sees cloths and there's only

11:53

five of them. And the superpower

11:55

is if I want to focus

11:57

on just. Doing an hour of stand ups. One of

11:59

the reasons why. Don't like. Go.

12:01

Out or like go to the Rock

12:03

and Roll Hall of Fame if I'm

12:05

in Cleveland. you know I'm just gonna

12:08

keeping that one thing in the slot.

12:10

Yes, and that's really sorry to be

12:12

monologue in here, but that's really when

12:14

I see the power of it. Yeah,

12:17

like this, the hyper focus. but if

12:19

you load in something like a vague

12:21

and it is vague, unresolved traumatic sadness.

12:23

So my the depression I've been having

12:26

this past week feel just felt like.

12:28

Tears. Behind my eyes the goods

12:30

I thee I still kind of feel

12:32

it. Yes that just like reservoirs of

12:34

tears by my as not crying. I

12:38

would have loved a good cry,

12:40

but it's kind of like a

12:42

feeling of like. s And then

12:44

all of these circumstantially nice things

12:46

were happening now. But the first

12:48

cheese cloth was a vague unresolved

12:50

childhood powerlessness. Yes, and everything was

12:52

going through that so I would

12:55

be like, look how cute little

12:57

is, look how amazing our. Our

12:59

life is looking to find it is

13:01

to it's that as much stress. Part.

13:03

Is not specific to you I would

13:05

say or the he's glove in yeah

13:07

to seize cause I think is universal.

13:09

That first season off his fucking are

13:12

days or making our days. It

13:14

yes and not like so dad

13:16

I really now do. I don't

13:18

know if that I do I

13:20

do know what is happening with

13:23

you. I'm pretty positive is like

13:25

he said went without going in

13:27

the details like and Omar in

13:29

like a trauma response to that

13:31

Depression isn't just coming out of

13:34

nowhere. Why my depressed it's like

13:36

this makes perfect sense in some

13:38

things have happened that have activated.

13:40

We talked about on the on the drama is

13:42

right my parents had their wedding and or assume

13:45

has been like a lot of involvement with me

13:47

as and and I said that made me. In

13:50

a remember that that. Trauma or

13:52

or just. Wounds near

13:54

are like disproportionate

13:57

responses to seemingly

13:59

ordinary. Yeah. I'm

14:01

like oh this the i hope you don't

14:03

mind it like you were like hey we're

14:05

going to Boston, why don't we go to

14:07

New York while we're there And this hour

14:09

and chocolates as as I liked it felt

14:12

like a smoke bomb went off in my

14:14

body and I was a frozen and really

14:16

yeah sad prose. And yeah, and I realized

14:18

in that moment I was a you know

14:20

we're going on the same plane, it's me,

14:22

you and my brother and I was like

14:24

I need that support I can't turn this

14:26

into a vacation Yeah and then. But the

14:28

real problem is. Side. And mean

14:31

detained subjects. I love this cheese cloth thing

14:33

we're on, but I start feeling like Frankenstein

14:35

at the beach and you just can't fix.

14:37

I know it's Frankenstein's Monster, but everybody relax.

14:40

Frankenstein's Monster at the beach. That's how you

14:42

feel as you're like. I'm. Broke

14:44

him? Yeah vows right We should go

14:46

to New York wow or and boss

14:49

or flying all the way across the

14:51

country. Why? we just going to my

14:53

friends getting out there and that silly

14:55

and then i'm like it's cuz of

14:57

me i'm a freak lane and any

14:59

just go like. You. Can't

15:02

do this and then that becomes your

15:04

first. His club is like I'm broken.

15:06

I'm a manager I can do a

15:08

shame. It was a hard the same

15:10

yeah I know and like so much

15:12

of my life lately. Either.

15:15

Is is out is like I know. For example,

15:17

we talk a lot about Breath for Com his

15:19

podcast and Breath Work Is is really the key.

15:21

On the other side of breath work is. Meaning.

15:24

Like deep breathing him and deliberate stuff

15:26

is a better you as a better

15:28

body. Yeah to better nervous. How your

15:30

body with one of the ways your body

15:32

releases. All of this drama for real.

15:35

But. Often.

15:37

Times. When I have

15:39

the will to do breath work is

15:41

because my life is going well He

15:43

now and then you're like and year

15:46

fudged. You're. Covered in like gunk.

15:48

the gauges. We had a problem with

15:50

our something and are a pool and

15:52

they took a thing out is covered

15:54

in chlorine. it's or gunk with that's

15:56

how I feel like Donald them. Yeah.

15:58

Logged in? Yeah. And. That I

16:00

sit down to try and do breath

16:02

rigor exercise many way. I'm really gonna.

16:05

I'm gonna put this all back to

16:07

what I hate is and what everybody

16:09

I donate but what I'm struggling with

16:12

is everybody knows that. Listen to this

16:14

pod. I went to this beautiful Tony

16:16

Robbins time and I was really like

16:18

i sound as old piece of paper

16:21

was like five Thirty Seven Thirty Spirit

16:23

Priming Planning Seventy Eight Thirty Papa P

16:25

E Thirty Nine Thirty Dream Husband Ten

16:28

to Twelve Thirty I'm creative time. Twelve

16:30

thirty to two emails and taken care of business and

16:32

I look at that, I'm like. That's.

16:34

Sweet boy like the oh god I

16:36

wish I could stay him so as

16:39

an ice which I it is such

16:41

a scary. Feeling.

16:43

That you're like when one phone call

16:45

or text away where someone again just

16:48

sort of innocently A Not my mom's

16:50

that trying to hurt me? Yeah, my

16:52

mom innocently as kind of asking me

16:54

to do things for their anniversary and

16:56

again I have a disproportionate response to

16:59

that and it throws me. Ah,

17:02

Yes, like a flu. It's

17:04

like a flu yes and everything

17:06

goes out the window Yes as.

17:08

Hundred. Percent of cases. This is.

17:10

I'm save our added to. This

17:13

is done like just because contextualize

17:15

ng It. Helps.

17:18

Alleviate some of the this shame

17:20

and it also helps. Just

17:23

contain it when you put it in a

17:25

context, then it's. Contained.

17:27

In that context as opposed to this

17:29

like why is sometimes I'm in Tony

17:31

Robbins mode and sometimes I'm completely destroyed

17:33

like there seems to be no sort

17:36

of reason or rhyme to death in

17:38

the not Feels really scary to your

17:40

like I don't know when or what

17:42

is gonna make this is descend upon

17:44

Getting. The werewolf and now I know is

17:46

monsters are coming up with. That's how you feel.

17:48

You're like, oh, It's a full moon? yeah, so

17:50

I'm just. Gonna. Go fuck and eat the

17:52

neighbors tickets. Yeah. So

17:55

this exact. So.

17:57

Had confirmed lack of control. The lack of

17:59

control. Very scary

18:01

and. And of

18:04

course it is. but just to

18:06

contextualize it to help contain it.

18:09

You are having a

18:11

trauma response. Very appropriate.

18:14

Leave because your. Trauma.

18:17

Comes from your parents fighting and

18:19

now they're asking you to do

18:21

all of these things to celebrate

18:24

their marriage. And that's gas lighting

18:26

your reality and. That

18:28

is, you know, And again, sure they did

18:31

the best they could. They they don't have

18:33

an anniversary party if they want to, but

18:35

this is how it's affecting you. It's not.

18:38

Murder. If it does feel like Zelda

18:40

having a birthday party for Gam as anybody

18:42

else who and vs but had I done

18:44

another Us and has his have opened with

18:46

I that doesn't even that's not indicative of

18:49

how I feel and relate to my parents.

18:51

Now I say that a little bit as

18:53

being like. We. Feel pretty

18:55

good, right? But there's this.

18:58

Child. That's like more. Fluidly

19:01

of you know how I know? This.

19:03

Is gonna be subtle the talk about but you

19:06

know how I know you're right is when you

19:08

start saying that. There's

19:10

a dissociative like I take a

19:12

step back away from you, my

19:15

feel energetically something in me goes

19:17

like that's not true. There

19:20

is no play it like I can't handle it.

19:22

It's like the thing with too hard. Similar.

19:25

Like that. Why? Yeah,

19:27

I'd that's probably a little insensitive of

19:29

me. I should like, know, I know,

19:31

but I. Love it! There's there's no secret

19:33

feeling. I understand, but I this is actually something. I'm

19:35

this. I don't want to get on the standard, but

19:37

I'm trying to like. I do feel

19:40

like I have some pretty Mm projector

19:42

and human design and I'm a nine

19:44

of a lot like antenna like see

19:46

the bird's eye view of things So

19:48

I do have some kind of like

19:50

clear seeing not that I see everything

19:52

perfectly. I just talked about this on

19:54

the podcast last week. I think where

19:56

I am trying to not. Some.

19:58

Type of like something. You can see something

20:01

and just keep it yourself. A can

20:03

be too much to like. Point Two,

20:05

Eight and somebody else in that's like

20:07

near. You know there's there's a sensitivity

20:09

that needs to. Come with that, You're

20:11

saying that behind the really because I were

20:13

see. That doesn't mean

20:15

you benefit. Or

20:17

are ready for me to like point at it.

20:20

For me. It is

20:22

look so me If I cold

20:24

exposure I I want exposure their

20:27

me In fact that I just

20:29

decided that about yes to therapy

20:31

with. Say think is such an

20:33

important thing because here's everything

20:35

that you and I'm saying

20:37

this again to like, normalize

20:39

and contextualize. Seats. At

20:42

all was said. Every are

20:44

including not my own version of

20:47

Franken sound. The beats like everything

20:49

the you're explaining is something that

20:51

I as a person who has

20:54

the history of drama has experienced

20:56

so many times. See so us

20:58

history of term. So like if

21:01

you kiss, if you can

21:03

take. Comfort.

21:05

In the fact that you're

21:07

actually following a very. Well

21:12

tread treaded pass trodden trodden

21:14

well trodden path like this

21:16

is exactly what trauma responses

21:19

look like in a human

21:21

body is at every step

21:23

of at and like feeling

21:26

identifying as your child cells.

21:29

Knit. That you said, you feel like

21:31

a scared child. That's what happens

21:33

when we are activated in our

21:35

traumas. We are a lot more

21:38

identified with our child self than

21:40

our adult self. Check you've of

21:42

you're you're on the list sticking

21:44

things I'm feeling like us wreath

21:46

like at and also. Are.

21:49

Feeling broke and I guess is know. That

21:51

Rica is great! You. Said freak But

21:53

but I'm saying no. A.might look

21:55

different for everybody. Else I'm getting

21:57

a sunburn. Not even his game

21:59

on. No Saddam learn that

22:01

he feel says that the the

22:04

skin of ten dead people. This.

22:06

My God. That and. Know

22:10

and but some of the patches of

22:12

scanner better in the some than others

22:14

some bronze in San Fran all melanin

22:16

not. Red

22:20

head elbows own know. That

22:26

feeling broke in feeling like and

22:29

then feeling shamed up about s

22:31

like why can't I get over

22:33

this What's wrong with me? All

22:35

of that I'm. Barely. Get a lame embarrassed

22:37

like even as we're talking about it. And when. I.

22:40

It's unbearable, that's that's what I hope is

22:42

helpful about this is undergoing like. This.

22:45

Is my huge response to a

22:47

seemingly little things but I think

22:49

that's. All of this a

22:52

hundred years everyone who are going

22:54

around getting. And. You know,

22:56

trigger to sort of been appropriated by

22:58

the culture and all and even trauma

23:00

obvious he's been oppressed. I'm trying to

23:02

find the way that it's true for

23:04

me without. I'd

23:07

I'd you know meme ing at I don't

23:09

want to turn into a meme, but I

23:11

think people are out there. I think we

23:13

are by a moment of yes I do

23:15

mean people. Yeah, like I don't. I

23:17

don't think trauma. I mean I'm

23:20

sure it is in some ways

23:22

is being like misused are overused,

23:24

but I don't think the fact

23:26

that it's ubiquitous it alone he

23:28

owns that it's been over use.

23:31

I think that's how many people

23:33

are traumatised. I agree because we've

23:35

just three very very recently become

23:37

aware of what. try his. Lights

23:39

and how like my mother and

23:42

father are trauma hundred. Percent you

23:44

know name handed it over to. You

23:46

Ruff less I'm just trying to say

23:48

like it's not like there's torme, it's

23:50

like we're all trauma people and more

23:52

off feeling different things. See A Even

23:54

my mom asking me to help with

23:56

the party is a. as

23:58

I kept know but. The old

24:00

like something with coming from her wound. yeah

24:02

just like please dote on me, take care

24:04

of her yes or no me with this

24:06

thing about his her love language but it

24:09

comes from a like. Ike. Again,

24:11

I can't diagnose remember like an uncertainty

24:13

in her incredibly difficult lies. That's right.

24:15

But and we damage all the time.

24:17

You're sit as you said Yeah, I

24:19

lived in a house that was. To.

24:22

Me: I. Don't

24:24

know I'm if they I want people

24:26

to greenlight their own. Pain

24:28

because then we can start. Dealing

24:31

with it instead of just putting it in

24:33

the man is jarring. breaks every six weeks.

24:35

That's exactly right. So that

24:38

in that's the thing is

24:40

your appearance. Ah,

24:43

and you know, unknowingly. Gave

24:46

you complex drama because it's complaining,

24:48

not because it's and more some

24:50

plaques and or less that it's

24:53

because. Like demagogue. It's so cool

24:55

that I. Manipulate it like

24:57

fire. Yeah, it's a complicated.

25:00

Because. It is like. Oh

25:03

situation over time and

25:06

like there's not one

25:08

single. Arise It's Laid off

25:10

The Dead An Audio How Democrats.

25:12

Yeah. Is exactly. It. Was the slow

25:14

gas leaks? Exactly so end they

25:17

They did that because if

25:19

exactly what you said like

25:21

they were wounded. To

25:23

and they were doing the best they

25:26

could with being wounded and having way

25:28

less resources. The thing though, to not

25:30

do is to be like so we

25:33

can understand that and have compassion for

25:35

it and it doesn't change or minimize.

25:37

Your experience are all this and you

25:39

can. Has been traumatized by them and

25:42

it doesn't mean that they're bad. Were

25:44

writing them off their garbage. Well, that's

25:46

right. like I cried. what I have

25:48

no shoes to I met the man

25:50

when they'll feel like I remember learning

25:53

maps and that's that's valid. But there

25:55

is something about. I.

25:57

Am no shoe? Yeah, you're bypassing your

25:59

own. Peering when major. Thing like well

26:01

it could have been a lot were. It's not

26:04

navel gazing or inappropriate to deal

26:06

with your sadness over not having

26:08

shoes nicely. Don't think it's a

26:10

good strategy to go like no.

26:13

I don't know, he doesn't work. That's

26:15

the thing and ends of this is

26:17

Also going back to the Tony Robbins

26:19

thing. I

26:21

it's it's like new on straight

26:23

so. To. I'm constantly

26:25

thinking about how to balance this

26:28

because I do think, What? you?

26:30

What's that saying Where you like

26:32

whatever you put your attention on.

26:34

That's where your energy goes wherever

26:37

you put your energy that yeah

26:39

your reality yea like and which

26:41

is so true. So it is

26:43

important to not like a room

26:46

and needs and things. However, you

26:48

can't just bypass all of the

26:50

things that your body is holding

26:52

by positive thinking. It's called toxic.

26:55

Positivity. Site where it's will tony

26:57

dogs about that is like over going out

26:59

your garden and saying there are no with

27:01

their know with their know it's own after

27:03

we'd your garden. Yeah, that and embody

27:05

addresses that. These feelings come in like the

27:07

Kool Aid Man that was an image that came

27:10

through of a yeah, I.

27:12

Remember I said this last summer as

27:14

I don't recall agreeing to this. Like

27:16

when you when suffering or are you

27:18

mean as I it just barged It

27:21

really feels like these feelings or barging

27:23

in. That's right in the

27:25

so that is. It's deserves

27:27

to be treated differently then

27:29

you know? Just say. Whatever.

27:32

A standard feeling that might not be

27:34

trapped idea Trauma Israel like. I'm just

27:37

slightly annoyed that I'm in this line.

27:39

It's like, okay, it's maybe then we

27:41

can pull out some non duelist things.

27:43

Yeah, but like when you're dealing with

27:46

trauma in your body. The.

27:49

It. Doesn't work to just

27:51

think of gratitude because

27:54

all those feelings. Actually,

27:57

Just that they only want one thing.

27:59

and matthew. The and yeah. So

28:01

if you give your attention to something

28:03

else, those feelings are gonna stay there.

28:06

Were. that's what Rupert. Or

28:08

non duel teacher. She.

28:11

Says the same thing you know is is the princess and

28:13

the frog in the have to Kiss the frog You you

28:16

don't have to just look at the frog you actually have

28:18

to kiss at Yeah and I will say that I think

28:20

this is interesting. My.

28:23

Spiritual work has helped deeply with

28:25

this sadness and didn't make it

28:27

go away. And I think that's

28:30

interesting. Yeah, but. You

28:32

know Rupert said to me. You.

28:34

Know is like when you're. Struggling.

28:36

When you're having that malays or that

28:39

sadness or for me it's a lotta

28:41

times it's an anger. just go

28:43

to check him is the awareness that

28:45

holds that feeling is it. Is

28:48

it anything other than peace? And

28:50

I am. It's been really cool. To.

28:53

Go like oh, it is

28:55

peaceful Meaning I am peaceful

28:57

meaning I awareness m peaceful,

28:59

happy and content. Yeah and

29:01

there's this phenomenon happening and

29:03

going towards it has been

29:05

really. Yeah right like

29:07

going real like kissing the frog

29:09

going into at getting curious about

29:12

at and that i will say.

29:15

Has. Been really helpful in making a

29:17

lot of these unwanted that would like

29:19

wanting the makes the unwanted feelings dissolve

29:22

Smell and I think i i had

29:24

this dream or was an image I

29:26

had was may be or something but

29:28

I was I felt very convinced. It

29:32

was almost like God was saying no

29:34

more confusion. Rt told me that yeah,

29:36

that that was like it was almost

29:38

like he was God Or this person

29:40

representing God was like tied. Are

29:43

not tied but was like on the up. The.

29:46

What is it called on a ship? Those things

29:48

that hold the sales that amassed. Ah

29:50

yes run the panels that old the

29:53

sales secular eeg there's a crow's nest

29:55

up there is standing on one of

29:57

them in his whole are in the

29:59

brought the the salty bro in his

30:01

splashing up in a space and the

30:03

water is like rocky it's it's a

30:06

rough day to be sailing in his

30:08

shirt is wet and ripped very fabio

30:10

and he's is holding onto at an

30:12

economics haggard to be honest this image.

30:15

And. He's saying more confusion,

30:18

more pain, more malays,

30:20

more of the the

30:22

big one was confusion

30:24

moink and use and

30:27

I was and it

30:29

was like celebrating this.

30:31

I won it. All.

30:34

I want it ought like like a

30:36

crazy sailors and I was like. The.

30:39

More I. Embody,

30:41

This understanding of like.

30:45

You. Know I I. I never liked

30:47

the idea that guy with some as

30:49

he was a god or the the

30:52

the original awareness was lonely so wanted

30:54

to play this game with itself. I

30:56

think that's to anthropomorphic to a fancy

30:58

word. a perfect peace and contentment. Can't

31:01

be lonely. But to quote Rupert, it's

31:03

Nature is expansion. It's nature is just

31:05

like it. So. Talk. About

31:07

self Love. The original self awareness

31:09

itself is so fucking into itself

31:11

him to mount weird. what is

31:14

that that it just can't help

31:16

but go like Brian like pull

31:18

itself through itself and like yeah,

31:20

how about is more than my

31:22

all time or last and in

31:24

it's going And that was a

31:26

really helpful practice. So like and

31:28

it honestly valid. Big compliment coming

31:31

for you. You've made me feel

31:33

in our relationship just so cherished

31:35

as a coop. And

31:37

that's helped me love myself as a coup.

31:40

and even when I'm depressed because and by

31:42

the way that the asks for the anniversary

31:44

is just a gas like who knows what

31:46

that churned up a could have been something

31:48

oh I'd we don't know but I'm like.

31:51

More. Can see who

31:54

should more? Yeah Fuckin

31:56

may be more. Last

31:58

yeah because. You.

32:00

Know our fundamental nature.

32:03

We're totally okay. Many

32:05

was like. We came here.

32:07

Let's do that. England's. Little

32:09

I want the boat to get rocked

32:11

on the big waves and tossed me

32:13

and what that guy was just to

32:15

finish this image. He was a

32:18

person who knew he had been. Reincarnated.

32:21

Thousand and thousand them and new just

32:23

like. All. His crew is

32:26

worried. yeah and he's the madman

32:28

that's like know get em and

32:30

rates my heart's yeah. a lasts

32:32

break my leg. Yeah it was

32:35

what I came. This is what

32:37

it is. I am that you

32:39

know I'm stuck in all about

32:41

at Society. Know my jam. I

32:43

love. Ivo where we are at a time.

32:46

Of. I think said

32:48

this is what. I.

32:51

Mean on the most basic

32:53

like not heart space. creative,

32:56

just like the most logical

32:58

level. You're here.

33:00

We're in this while blaze

33:02

like yeah so you might

33:04

as well embrace it. Yeah

33:06

what are you gonna resisted

33:08

the entire time? yes that

33:10

is miserable so it actually

33:12

makes logical sense. but then

33:14

also in our get in

33:16

our blood in our bones

33:18

and are hard it's like so

33:21

romantic. Yeah like what the

33:23

hell this is a psych. Such

33:25

a fucking. This guy why yours

33:27

really helped me. Yeah, Ride Em

33:29

We are. In a didn't

33:32

either. Is Mister Toad's wild ride? It. Is

33:34

and I told I told you the other

33:36

day was a. Isn't

33:38

it? Just a nurse.

33:41

Like. Just complicated enough to keep

33:43

you engaged. Tic last a lifetime

33:45

Leah of Learning. I mean, per

33:48

arguably many lifetimes, but as far

33:50

as we know for sure whenever

33:52

I might working through my trauma.

33:55

because the thing is, as you

33:57

like, you know, unit. Like

34:00

John, you definitely are through like the thick

34:02

of it that that's a sensation I've had

34:04

where I'm like, okay, yeah, I'm through the

34:06

thick of it and a lotta ways, but

34:09

it is gonna get sort of read triggered

34:11

in surprising ways and I just know how

34:13

to deal with it differently now. But

34:16

I will always probably have

34:18

that. and whenever I do

34:20

of course the tempting feeling

34:22

is like and fuckin' back

34:24

here again. Okay, you know.

34:26

I thought it was done with as. I thought I was

34:29

done with this but really the feeling is

34:31

like. right? Okay, so this

34:33

is like just a nurse. Too.

34:35

Late cheat me. Working

34:38

my whole life, our time? You're

34:41

You're saying like this is the

34:43

and the everlasting you dumb. Debris

34:46

know whether the Gop stop or Philip Suffolk

34:49

ago I was on the stop a job.

34:51

Success Can I get old often enough?

34:54

For job breaker know it's gob

34:56

stopper. Year. At. An everlasting

34:58

dub stopper. You. Really.

35:00

Look, Cyborg is everything you're is

35:02

so beautiful. but like I really

35:04

really really remember. Buying.

35:07

Speaking of, what I load into my

35:09

mind is my reality and to put

35:11

a pin number. And

35:13

to say something kind and loving

35:16

about my family. Is. Like

35:18

I remember, we would walk to the candy

35:20

store. And I would buy the

35:22

everlasting gob stopper. And. Like

35:24

I really had this hope that

35:26

it would last forever. And

35:29

you know you put in your mouth and it

35:31

feels like this. All my years as Bergener Yeah,

35:34

this is this is me. Now I'm just a

35:36

guy. A higher hydrant like that's gonna be me.

35:39

Off guard by the time you get

35:41

home. But like the hope yeah the

35:44

hoda leno download a gob doesn't stop.

35:46

I. Mean that is really dead and

35:48

you know when you even helped

35:50

me with Lila in the The

35:52

thing about like the nature of

35:54

the universe is expansion and like

35:56

desire is another way that I've

35:58

heard that describes. Yeah, the. Nature

36:00

of the whole universe as desire on.

36:03

More and more and more. And funny. I've

36:05

never put that desire on. God.

36:08

I've. Always thought it was like yeah

36:10

because we're fucked up and we just

36:12

want style. Yes, but it it is.

36:15

Celts desiring. Yeah, it did. This

36:17

experience and Nine Edmunds all the

36:19

experiences of just want Our and

36:21

More and More And. Just.

36:23

Like your dreams. That helps me with

36:25

Lila because I will do that

36:27

like that. Just the classic thing.

36:29

and I don't know. When.

36:32

I'm gonna learn this in real life ain't

36:34

real time. but. Like

36:36

the other yesterday how no no I in

36:38

their own blurring together But at one point

36:41

I said to Lila like why don't we

36:43

get ice cream even though it's not Friday

36:45

cause they get ice cream on Fridays and

36:47

then say let's go get ice cream and

36:49

she was like. Can. We get

36:51

a toy instead. She wants a toy Cars

36:53

at last. Forever less than a skin. And

36:56

I was like. Okay,

36:59

And. Any time I'd I'm taking

37:01

her to a place that has

37:04

toys and I say like okay

37:06

I'll say get something small but

37:08

that's the only limitation she can

37:10

not handle it because she will

37:13

sue or whatever she picks she'll

37:15

have a meltdown about the thing

37:17

that she didn't get and then

37:19

I get really triggered cause i

37:21

tell this is untrue narrative of

37:24

like euro rich only child which

37:26

is like the worst parts of

37:28

the perks and. Which isn't

37:30

true. I'm sorry to anybody who is

37:33

a ritual only child, but I'm just

37:35

like you're gonna be entitled and spoiled

37:37

and you're only focusing on what you

37:39

can't have and we're you know, whatever.

37:41

and the truth is is like now

37:43

she's just a pure example of of

37:46

the nature of the whole universe, which

37:48

is to want more and more and

37:50

more and more. And it feels very

37:52

arbitrary to her to have a hard

37:54

line like you know, Just

37:56

this. It's like against our whole

37:59

nature. Yeah. I have I

38:01

told you that. Rupert. Says

38:03

a lot of like self aggrandizing. And.

38:06

The un Medio:

38:08

admittedly inappropriate narcissistic behaviors.

38:12

Come. From. The. Humans

38:14

desperate attempt to have it's

38:16

finite nature reflect it's infinite

38:18

nature of you consider That

38:20

was a fancy way of

38:22

saying like. Deep. Down,

38:24

you know, You. Are unborn

38:26

and limitless black and then you're in

38:28

this temporary sort of form and therefore

38:31

you're like and I'm not even making

38:33

for. You'll know when I'm making from

38:35

a jumbo be doing the voice But

38:37

like putting your name on a building

38:39

or putting your face on a billboard.

38:41

Yeah, I remember when we were just

38:43

talking about that lights. there was that

38:45

billboard for crashing on sunset. It was

38:47

like. Ten stories high and

38:49

like there's a part of me. And.

38:52

I'm not saying that's good or

38:54

bad, it's just like of course

38:57

you're going like finely yeah my

38:59

outside match my insides look I'm

39:01

as big as I in a

39:03

deeply true way know I am

39:05

right and again just will go

39:07

to the minerals here. But like.

39:10

Side. Grew Vi thing about all the

39:12

time he goes if you owned the

39:14

entire earth. If everything on the earth

39:16

was yours. How long before

39:19

you on the moon and along

39:21

with we want Mars? That's the

39:23

nature. Yeah. And. That's

39:26

why I feel like there's a certain.

39:30

It's. Two pronged. it's like one

39:32

going. like so I. I'm. At

39:34

peace I don't need anything. but then

39:36

it's also like forgiving the fact that

39:39

you you do. Meu. Still

39:41

stuck in an area know? like yeah,

39:43

there's no leaving at yeah, he still

39:45

want the space that you're occupying like

39:47

you don't want to be squish script.

39:50

That it is really nice to.

39:52

Yeah, I don't know. I know

39:55

it's so not buddhist, whatever that

39:57

to say. but it because that's.

40:00

The about like working with those

40:02

attachments and ones and trying to.

40:04

Not be attached to it. Or

40:07

although Jack Cornfield and Tara Brock

40:09

would say you are going to

40:11

have the desire because that is

40:13

they. I think the I got

40:15

the idea that that's the nature

40:17

of the universe from then like

40:19

but and trying to not be

40:21

attached even to your desire to

40:23

slake noticing mass. And. I think

40:25

that's true, but I also am like

40:27

it's just a beautiful way. like I'm

40:30

so. Negative. About my

40:32

my wants like I'm ashamed of

40:34

them. So I feel like it's

40:36

some sort of spiritual failure that

40:38

I want things. and when I

40:40

think about. The you

40:43

know the universe in consciousness

40:45

expanding? Because it is. It's

40:47

It's really about like being

40:49

in love with everything. right?

40:52

Yeah. I'm thinking about like

40:54

a bolt of electricity. mobiles

40:56

of a lightning. Yeah, You

41:00

again talk about Anthropomorphizes. But.

41:02

He wants. To

41:04

touch the Earth? Yeah, like it's drug.

41:07

The sky is drawn to the earth.

41:09

yeah I know we know the science

41:11

of.like the charge of this guy versus

41:13

the charge of the earth and this

41:15

makes this relationship. but just because is

41:18

hop people and doesn't have a brain

41:20

in the way that we think about

41:22

it. yeah violet or does have a

41:24

brain or anyway. but I'm just saying

41:26

like. It. Wants now.

41:30

That that that's what other things that either

41:32

makes perfect sense or makes no sense in

41:35

in this moment talking with you I'm like

41:37

fire wants to eat up would absolutely what

41:39

he wants to us he wants to be

41:41

bigger. Yes the reactors or

41:43

caterpillars and like they the

41:45

i mean the they do

41:47

have probably a little bit

41:49

more of but during but

41:51

like what. Are they

41:54

just node? To climb to the

41:56

top of the little jar year. and probably at

41:58

that point they don't even. Why they're doing

42:00

that and then they wiggle around in

42:02

them. They make a material know. Like

42:05

for some reason I want this material

42:07

to cover my whole body. It's late

42:09

Thursday. I wonder if that's what

42:11

that really difficult? Bible. Story

42:13

is about bombs. Who

42:16

is it that Isaacs and.

42:19

Get a sacrifice some. Oh yeah that

42:21

is a neighbor's yard. is Abraham. I

42:24

think it's Abraham and his son is

42:26

Isaac. The Abraham and Isaac and gods

42:29

like go kill him. Yeah, and he

42:31

goes. That's. A challenging story

42:33

but I think one of the ways

42:35

you can look at his like is

42:37

like a butterfly doesn't even know what

42:39

it's doing. it says in this flow

42:41

yeah nobody nobody takes. don't think about

42:43

that one too much to her I

42:45

sang and hate that story everybody. it's

42:47

as serious as new way to the

42:49

most Abraham because I have awkward walk

42:51

back. three going to do that Ah

42:53

the mouse rama. But I

42:55

as a metaphor I can appreciate that.

42:57

it's saying. Near

43:00

mad of Russia Everything has to guess.

43:02

It's why every superhero loses their parents

43:04

and then at the in the third

43:06

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43:08

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Where back? I'm okay. There's

46:17

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46:19

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46:21

say that we to add a yeah yeah

46:23

I'm what were they. Were

46:26

we were at a coffee shops here

46:28

in Ohio and semi were very sweet.

46:30

Woman was like i'm a casting director

46:32

oh yes and suicide I'm a big

46:34

fan of yours and I was like

46:36

oh thank you so much I was

46:38

I was with Rob Bell we're having

46:40

coffee. And she's like I

46:42

do. You see hit if if it's

46:44

a good season. I Mackenzie Nectar.

46:47

I'm as you may I'm easy.

46:49

And of years. And do you ever

46:51

asked you ever like. Make.

46:53

A foray into access he had robbed

46:55

is like Iraq Gave me a lox.

46:58

Because. He knew at were him as

47:00

moment the real ego moment And

47:02

I'm not even saying that in

47:04

a bad way. It's it's just

47:06

you know, use your flooded with

47:09

pride. Yeah, we're like, doesn't this

47:11

person know. Yes, they can I

47:13

tell ya it? can I tell has

47:15

a cigarette Really fun is how you

47:17

you just told me the story this

47:19

morning yup and how you said it

47:21

was everything the you just said and

47:24

then you're like and it really was

47:26

just like an ego thing. but. I.

47:29

Managed to do you know you said

47:31

you like but I managed to keep

47:33

it. And I mean I did say

47:36

I've been in hundreds of things said

47:38

I'd say it's new at ease. And

47:42

I said oh yes, he does that a

47:44

casual like oh yeah, you know I've been

47:46

in hundreds of things. To move my

47:48

guys And. The not becomes like a

47:50

fun game. Stride as says, I've

47:52

been in the hundreds of things

47:55

and not sound like a turd

47:57

up The try to say it

47:59

meekly. They it is legally as you can.

48:01

Right now I'm an essay job. Or

48:04

joy whack job that pays you young. Know.

48:07

Where they have to be like have have

48:09

you ever tried acted again and. Say Yes!

48:12

Ah, I'm a casting director. I well

48:14

yeah, I'm a big fan. Have you

48:16

ever tried acting? Oh yeah

48:18

yeah I've been in the hundreds of

48:20

things now is that though is pretty

48:22

close as you know. What is it

48:25

about that since Absolve Invitational he I

48:27

was letting her in on it's way

48:29

I live. In a Good things

48:31

yeah that was. that's like I

48:33

grammarly. I did a good job to be I regard as

48:35

a matter of. Cereal

48:37

clearly. I mean it still

48:39

is like. Time. You do it. Funny but

48:41

a but it was as close as I think

48:44

you can get. Of Val I'm

48:46

a casting director. Have you ever done any

48:48

acting. Oh yeah, I didn't. Hundreds

48:50

of things. Worse

48:55

than hundreds of aims of

48:57

the way I'd definitely set

49:00

it in real life was

49:02

more. The. I've been in hundreds

49:04

of things. Me as an Ariane?

49:06

No way. I wasn't too nervous.

49:08

And then all was

49:10

you. Like hundred. Hunt

49:13

yeah I know. and we were like if

49:15

you count every single thing I've ever done

49:17

as one thing yeah way. the episodes of

49:20

the Been Home Zone where Rt were already

49:22

at eighty. And. He now that shouldn't.

49:24

Be carrying out with zone with a meaningless

49:26

hundred. With that know what? you would really

49:28

care of the Pete Holmes who is one

49:30

thing. I know, I don't know about

49:33

one through Would you experience really? Yeah, that's

49:35

A and every be don't show there were

49:37

two. It doesn't matter that dumb. But

49:40

I I you know I was with

49:42

Richard were once. And. He

49:44

is just such an. Inspiration.

49:47

To me as as a person, obviously as

49:50

a teacher and as as he merge him

49:52

that stuff is so precious to me. But

49:54

as I've said many times that the time

49:56

I've spent with him as a person actually

49:58

on the of told this one. Before.

50:02

But. I'm yet. So Richard read a book

50:04

called the Naked Now it's when my favorite

50:06

books it's it's I don't think you had

50:08

my missing is kind of like his exploration

50:11

like the Power of Now Sir Similar yeah

50:13

I'm the present moment. I just remember with

50:15

her the situation where with some guys and

50:17

while the guys in really know Richard very

50:19

well and and Richard made some com and

50:22

like what time is that like we'd lost

50:24

track of time and the guy who didn't

50:26

know Richard as well and didn't have that

50:28

reverence for Richard now has been kind of.

50:31

In from where I was sitting with oh you're

50:33

like try to be deep or whatever which was

50:36

fine. yeah he goes. The.

50:38

Only time is now. But.

50:40

He said it kind of like. Yeah,

50:42

opium yeah. And I'm like this is

50:45

Richard Roar Anna. In my mind, I'm

50:47

like. That's. Like saying. To.

50:49

Stephen Hawking. Like. Sometimes.

50:52

In math letters represent numbers you know

50:54

to me like as it does get

50:56

a master he I just said like

50:58

you know a time it is now

51:00

yeah that's what he said. Would

51:03

you get I? I I appreciated his

51:05

earnest attempts. know that I'm like thinking

51:07

what are you doing And Richard went

51:09

oh yes, thank you for that reminder

51:12

And I was I glad. He

51:14

added a here so. Now

51:16

I'll be Richard Roar and you ask me

51:19

if I the rectum. Okay ah ah

51:21

have you ever done in the

51:23

oh. I don't know. should call

51:25

it acting. I I've dabbled. It's is

51:28

something I have a lot of respect

51:30

for and do enjoy doing since no

51:32

years. They're like do you live and

51:35

I design and I he was a

51:37

I'd so you can. Is that what

51:39

a special talent to be able to

51:42

envision as what a project should be

51:44

So it's for and notice the right

51:46

tool for that jones and I'm just

51:49

like I've been in hundreds of those.

51:52

Had applied. Ah, Not

51:54

fully Costs may have some work

51:56

to do. Sign on us guy

51:58

that more. Martin

52:01

Market goes on. the this.

52:03

You know what about? Another

52:05

thing about more confusion is

52:07

confusing leads to a beginner's

52:09

mind. So. He oh it's like

52:11

it is against your There's no there's no.

52:14

I've been in hundreds of things in that

52:16

you're like I just got your and I

52:18

don't know what the hell as half. Of

52:21

those right slides Islam somebody as Rupert

52:23

in a pod gusto Rupert Sparrow that

52:25

I was listening to their like you

52:27

have any questions and he was like

52:29

i don't have a does not because

52:32

I have this whole figured out I

52:34

used to constantly day and night. He.

52:36

Was I would dream about the nature

52:38

of reality. I was constantly questioning and

52:40

thinking about it and then he was

52:43

like and because of like race or

52:45

love And this is very serve Judeo

52:47

Christian view as I get a certain

52:49

point. The head stuff. Settled.

52:53

At like. Condensate. Into my

52:55

heart and now I just don't spend. He's

52:57

like when I'm teaching I'm thinking about it

52:59

and then the rest. the time I'm just

53:02

kind of living from my heart smile and

53:04

he said from my body rates and they're

53:06

so it's not. What? The ego

53:08

would like which is I don't

53:11

have any questions about without a

53:13

yeah, it's more like. Your.

53:16

Bang It! So. Much yeah

53:18

that at a certain point. And.

53:20

I've started to feel some of that will. About

53:23

less of a need to really. Constantly.

53:27

Understand for me like it's come

53:29

back to like. This.

53:31

Is at. This is the mystery that

53:34

we're talking about. I know that some

53:36

so obvious but like there's a moment

53:38

every morning and is usually one of

53:40

my early thoughts. I say with a

53:42

little bit of bribes is I get

53:44

up and I'm like it's this. It's

53:46

it's here. I'm here again. Wow!

53:50

cool new while. The

53:54

idea that still could be

53:56

separate cards isn't and observe.

54:00

Are we? there would have to

54:02

be an ethnicity regards middle of

54:04

that would differentiate me from yours

54:07

Really? none. Duel as I do

54:09

or do the pay handling. Do

54:12

not concern when this is your

54:14

understanding. it's the eyes. It does.

54:18

It's as it and it's all

54:20

on that and not. To have.

54:24

Entered into a girl dog about the

54:26

dude against our the and I was

54:29

or did you so we are in

54:31

our giant home of her own driving

54:33

lila. And us what song

54:35

was it was the source. Nice

54:37

area have for it limbers and

54:39

oh yes what where how does

54:41

I guess is as your your

54:44

minds your my darling. Pain.

54:46

Drew. Closer Lynmouth

54:48

Peeps you are to me and

54:50

I said keep going as I

54:52

wrote above the do he is

54:54

him the bagel about he decided

54:57

I'd rather be viewed as one

54:59

of the see I does one

55:01

and Cb saying his shoulder not

55:03

singing that's on your mind. Of:

55:06

it's sweaty be. This

55:09

was for doom dinner dinner

55:11

so my favorite parts. Of.

55:14

A back from or smoke a pack of her

55:16

So his what he says and have to the

55:18

druids reader bellwether Jesse James. Jesse

55:21

James read that is gonna kill this guy

55:23

because a take into town. Buy

55:25

you dinner. And. I'm like

55:28

honey, same buy you dinner. Oh

55:30

in a way that no one

55:32

zags dinner as governor. Oh now

55:34

say I'll buy you dinner Gay

55:37

but meme, I'm gonna shoot you.

55:39

You. Can only say it like a cowboy. Yeah

55:42

you can do about I still want to

55:44

hear you don't know I leininger you to

55:46

have phrased as my voice I don't know

55:48

it's your decision but I did. It is

55:50

as as he gave me as so try

55:52

to do it is your voice. So

55:54

hard for me this one as I

55:56

know John C. Riley about more than

55:59

nailing the magic. Playing pretend and

56:01

really embodying a party. on that saying

56:03

i'm in a murder you? yeah, so

56:05

much more. I just white you the

56:07

only person loaded into my momentary ram

56:10

so like me. A lot at

56:12

So and I gave lights and already we're not

56:14

going to say young the say to this bottle

56:16

of magic mind. Okay. Why?

56:19

Don't we go into town? Dinner.

56:26

With it is it's dead but it

56:28

ended evade he ran hundreds of thing

56:30

I remember Jersey Rally said you just

56:33

have to find if a casting directors

56:35

says look at me and as if

56:37

you're gonna kill me he was I

56:40

will just fall apart are you on

56:42

the part and will be mad at

56:44

them as long do drunk and just

56:47

think about are you would want to

56:49

com or I'm like wow. Hey

56:51

down when lives out usually. He could

56:54

access to the ceiling according. To. Carry like

56:56

I just are. You know you

56:58

know, are you? well I am

57:00

or I can't I go on.

57:02

The Embers Kermit the Frog, where

57:05

are you know Bill do a

57:07

lot of buy them presents and

57:09

name's not our sound like yes

57:11

it is it It is. Yes

57:13

it is Abby. It's not super.

57:17

Size Our Assad is. it's not

57:19

though I know what he means.

57:22

The. Young people that sound a certain way

57:24

like Ray Romano and then they sound

57:26

another way on our heads. And if

57:28

you do the way he sounded, our

57:30

heads will all think that's always and

57:32

that's what's happening with Johnny thing. Yeah,

57:34

that's the whole Respect John Jonesy Ah,

57:36

I'm. Okay, let me see if I

57:39

can do. I really don't think I can. Think again.

57:41

And I feel bad because the last one

57:43

I did see I'm having it yields in

57:45

the last one I did it went didn't

57:47

wasn't good but sometimes I am that at

57:49

these days yes that this isn't isn't out

57:52

of my can. I. Use. You know,

57:54

and Jesse James version. Of

57:56

has a key in the down. By

57:59

a dinner. Again by dinner that

58:01

death valley is I remember last map

58:03

buy you dinner by at dinner is

58:06

old I was good a gets that

58:08

was estuary you really the main guys.

58:10

Scary. Number Two Guy: Yeah, I

58:13

didn't like it. Take. In

58:15

town. By at dinner

58:17

says that I like didn't I didn't

58:19

like it. Success see? What you made

58:21

me feel is what I don't want

58:23

to make people feel where they're like

58:26

oh jesus Now like that. I don't

58:28

like that. One billion though I could

58:30

we have to cast them. E S

58:32

G haunted me. And I'm

58:34

just like. You know, hopefully I'll

58:36

get over it. I. Just want casting

58:38

directors to be like. That's. How

58:40

You audition? Not. That.

58:43

Was the guy. Who

58:45

I like her want them to be like he

58:47

remembered everyone's name is that now. That sayed

58:50

this. Now that's how you don't need

58:52

to teach a class. the her is not

58:54

right for this specific. I mean I got

58:56

that feeling. It's a glad I got that

58:58

feeling. John C, Riley and and true actors

59:00

like don't care yeah if you liked them

59:02

they just want to be. That's he said

59:05

that It really change the way out of

59:07

thing about acting forever as he was like.

59:09

I. Just love playing pretend like

59:11

trying to make it real.

59:14

Really? Being a cowboy wants

59:16

to kill somebody? Yeah, almost

59:18

like honoring imagination. Days and

59:20

they do like a real actors

59:22

like that Also. Fall.

59:25

In love with characters and then they

59:27

like. Wanna do that character? Just

59:29

yeah. Yeah, it's true. insanity. Meaning

59:32

and yeah I don't think I don't

59:35

mean bad and same I mean it's

59:37

the opposite of building a bridge was

59:39

like this makes say people will drive

59:41

on this it's like yeah I'll it's

59:43

all right Adding and and. Then.

59:45

This is how Harvey Milk would eat his

59:47

breakfast in the math and. I

59:49

know it's true. It's it's

59:51

the ads, it's all lives

59:54

and creativity and imagination. Okay, I'll

59:56

be John C. Rally, you ask me if

59:58

I've ever active in a okay. I

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you are such a fucking

1:01:16

genius but he's like the

1:01:19

most like real. Person.

1:01:21

Like ordinary I am I such as.

1:01:24

Much as his work it seems, I don't

1:01:26

know this. Is so a

1:01:28

subconscious that not he? that. See that

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as a new and now will remember when

1:01:32

we saw liquors, pizza and and they were

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like why is everyone running yeah and he

1:01:36

goes. Yeah. Didn't even notice that until

1:01:38

we put the movie together. That's Ray and then he

1:01:40

goes. I just remember when we were kids would just

1:01:42

be running all the time. Yeah, and I was a

1:01:44

kid. Sits in there are people

1:01:47

who like have You Tube videos

1:01:49

about lakes, the movement and licorice

1:01:51

pizza and how it's constantly. Moving

1:01:54

and. Yeah, and he's like he was just

1:01:56

like our. Kids we ran. it's

1:01:58

like radio. The there's something

1:02:01

about the album in Rainbows, which

1:02:03

is I think everyone's favorite. Yes,

1:02:06

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at home. My god, I'd rather

1:02:11

listen And Rambus. Assistant

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Classic Valerie. That's like when we were

1:02:17

dating. it's a summer exam really the

1:02:19

leaves me with. Like. Them both to

1:02:21

love you forever. He took me

1:02:23

back. It

1:02:25

took me back. we met each other

1:02:27

so now we miss getting rock star.

1:02:30

They don't tell you how much you will

1:02:32

miss your partner when you have a kid.

1:02:34

Or the snooty. why do you only read why

1:02:36

you can only have one kid And I will?

1:02:38

I won't say other parents because it implies it's

1:02:40

like. Brad. A implications I

1:02:42

was you have two kids. You must not

1:02:44

like your partner. That's obviously not true. Yeah, we

1:02:47

just ever had for them like I missed

1:02:49

or seat Now. Never

1:02:51

forget the way you dislike to me that

1:02:53

was really Q. Is So real? Israel Israel

1:02:55

There was a shirt when I was

1:02:58

in Israel that said Israel Israel. And

1:03:00

ski not bring of it's or not you

1:03:02

bring up Israel What? I actually am considering

1:03:04

that like. That. Wasn't just a

1:03:06

funny thing is real is real They're saying

1:03:09

notes real It stayed in the zebra him

1:03:11

a year. A wonderful animals. I just thought

1:03:13

it was a funny shirt. Yeah they only

1:03:15

make these girls are his the summers I

1:03:17

breathe and I was. I would have bought

1:03:19

it just like wearing a sure this is

1:03:22

Emily wouldn't have had no idea they know

1:03:24

making of a from two thousand do a

1:03:26

lot of people. It's like oh really ah

1:03:28

of an email where you stand will they

1:03:30

gave us bumpers We went to the to

1:03:32

the Golan Heights which is a very it's

1:03:35

probably in the news. Currently laid out for

1:03:37

L. A. Oh

1:03:42

No. This isn't me.

1:03:44

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1:03:47

is the goal I forget I'm

1:03:49

walking away A war going away

1:03:51

from of hall suggests. He hey

1:03:54

you guys. Lose

1:03:57

your limit Beeps you are to meet

1:03:59

you. Now.

1:04:01

Is whether we're looking my

1:04:03

mustache you won't feel to

1:04:06

gloss over. Gene the Book

1:04:08

Hey, I'm a man. I

1:04:10

see. Not

1:04:12

when you his second six years

1:04:15

ago when you is Sam everybody's

1:04:17

the same oh oh oh ohh

1:04:19

not same old age access to.

1:04:25

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1:04:27

same oh you mean miles yet

1:04:29

citizens? Hedges and got his name.

1:04:34

When I met him he was just elder sister.

1:04:37

Hannah, dirt and trip in the

1:04:40

mud. Them all of his thereof.

1:04:43

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now You said it. Ah,

1:04:49

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pizza Her: I know.

1:04:55

I so it's tired at this year I

1:04:57

did. I think may I would agree more.

1:04:59

Let's get you some food the say I

1:05:01

do you want say. I

1:05:04

bought a tape laird to play. This.

1:05:06

To sat down with comedy. It

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didn't work though. Oh no. Tobacco

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old. I feel like I'd need

1:05:12

like how old this is. A

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significant says this tape remembers Joe

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Biden. When. He was

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there at the invention of fire at

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will distress. And you get it. Yes,

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couldn't do it. A now you broke

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me and sorry I want to say

1:05:32

that Classic. Everyone said well I'm

1:05:35

like boy we really opened up a sickie

1:05:37

pickle when we started doing is about as

1:05:39

episodes of those i like doubled the work

1:05:42

him officers them now. But

1:05:44

then episode like this like. It's like

1:05:46

a car wash your such a joy to talk

1:05:48

to another on the other end of it and

1:05:51

to be listened to by anointed a lot of

1:05:53

here in the like. you giving me that space.

1:05:56

To. Cabbage is like like like

1:05:58

banging a dusty. Carpet on a

1:06:00

clothesline. Room that had the other side of it.

1:06:03

You're just like. And

1:06:06

it's so essential. I think it's so funny

1:06:08

that am I going to go back to

1:06:10

their been and like you mean another therapist?

1:06:12

it's it seems very silly that and look

1:06:14

for respect a license therapists of about it.

1:06:16

that's who I'm going to go see. but

1:06:18

like. You.

1:06:21

Year The real deal? do you. Think he'll that

1:06:23

a lot of what I'd that when

1:06:25

I have is. Set stuff I got

1:06:27

some say I had he after a

1:06:29

flick of course the idea that thank

1:06:31

you for saying that you smell like

1:06:33

barbecue doesn't mean we can put cold

1:06:35

meat on you Dr. Phil. Does

1:06:38

that not? A doctor from an. Idea

1:06:41

like to be a same hole

1:06:43

goes to accept us we're honest

1:06:45

I had. Just because you were

1:06:47

ten gallon hat doesn't mean you

1:06:50

have any water on Kenyans. Like

1:06:52

what is this have to do

1:06:54

without my emotionally neglect full us?

1:06:58

Who. Way was. I feel like that's

1:07:00

like vulnerable people come to him and he

1:07:02

does give. Pleasure Valve. Yeah, Oh yeah,

1:07:04

I like I don't get through after a

1:07:06

brain A but it doesn't mean jellies on

1:07:08

or twice a night. So can I said

1:07:11

Leave? Yeah, so I need to call the

1:07:13

police since a bag of peanuts doesn't mean

1:07:15

they're shows on the floor. Have.

1:07:20

Why are they all about Peanut? There's. Enough as

1:07:22

it. Did

1:07:24

you see those point of view that there's

1:07:27

a B B O J over the guests?

1:07:30

You put that in Monterrey on. that's all of

1:07:32

forget about. He

1:07:35

says is a ram. Probably because he goes

1:07:37

the crust of makes it a softer center which

1:07:39

but it doesn't mean it's not a baby a

1:07:41

day. So. Do I

1:07:43

need to get full custody? Or

1:07:45

a bad but edge it's might be a

1:07:48

serving but I'm not. must realize. On.

1:07:52

Or not, Mr. Delays a bag of

1:07:54

us. It's a magazine says mosley or

1:07:56

doesn't meet a drug that make you

1:07:58

fat? That sounds like it. Real. What?

1:08:00

that does sound like a real

1:08:02

half a bag of chips. They're

1:08:04

still makes you fat sister it

1:08:06

said Doctor. Let go at

1:08:08

risk. For a well, I love

1:08:11

this. I'm. Glad we

1:08:13

did it. Me you a geezer,

1:08:15

merge been here. I think you

1:08:17

should say it at mallya bit

1:08:20

below Europe embedded in the song

1:08:22

shorty year by year my darling

1:08:24

angel. Closer. To

1:08:26

them up you are to me dude. Progress

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1:08:32

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1:08:36

a crispy.