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Valerie. Get into it. I'm
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wondering if a woman
5:34
way over time feels
5:36
good to me. Oh
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yeah. I got a woman.
5:40
She's good to me. Oh yeah. She's giving
5:43
my best. I know. She's good to me.
5:45
Oh yeah. She's giving my best. She's
5:47
good to me. Oh yeah. She's giving my
5:50
best. Oh my God. I really enjoyed that.
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about clearing songs on podcasts and
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we don't. What
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do you think? It's in popularity. Is
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it a pure game of numbers, is
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it? Yeah, I'm pretty sure
6:12
if... Well, you can sing someone
6:15
else's song. I don't know. I think you
6:17
can. Maybe they're joking when they're like,
6:19
don't do that. We can't clear that song. Yeah,
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I feel like that's a classic kind
6:24
of a Conan kind of song. Also
6:26
we... Joke. Sandwich.
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Also we used to play songs on this
6:32
podcast. We should tell the sandwich story. Okay,
6:34
yes, hopefully. Yeah, yeah, yeah, because I... Yeah,
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no, thank you. I appreciate
6:39
this nice blow to the
6:41
stomach that if we were a bigger show,
6:44
we might get in trouble for, I got
6:46
a woman. But
6:48
people post that on YouTube, millions of views. Nobody's
6:51
like stop singing A Whole New World. Nobody
6:53
says that. Nobody's ever said that. Nobody ever
6:55
says... Nobody will ever
6:57
say, your honor, stop
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singing A Whole New World.
7:03
People love that song. Okay,
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so my brother texted me the other day. For
7:09
his job, one of the
7:11
things that he does is gives
7:14
professors at a college
7:17
these tech tutorials, these
7:20
training. I thought you were going to say webinar,
7:22
which would have been a synchronicity because this week
7:25
I was like, for all of those things that
7:28
we try, when the internet was new, there
7:30
was a lot of like, it's
7:32
like a blob. Webinar is the only one
7:34
that made it. I can't think of
7:36
other examples. Don't ask me. Don't
7:39
ask me for any follow ups. But if you
7:41
know, you know. And I think you
7:43
might know. The webinars have... Calling
7:45
it the net is an example. Whoa,
7:48
whoa, whoa, wait, surfing the net.
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but the webinar has remained.
8:03
There was a time when we were
8:05
very excited to make up new lingo.
8:07
Yes. But you will
8:09
stay. Still say. You love those.
8:12
I do. You will stay. You
8:14
will stay. Still say.
8:16
You will stay. Nesty. It's
8:19
placed, placed exclusive to
8:21
blow Nesty out of the
8:23
water. Napoleon, that might. Even
8:26
the researchers. The scientists.
8:28
Explaced. Placed. Explaced. You
8:31
remember when John Heater did this? I asked him
8:33
about that moment. Did you? Yeah.
8:36
I don't listen to this. Yeah. Thanks
8:38
for checking it out. Just kidding. I did listen to that.
8:40
And did you say it was genuinely an accident? Yes.
8:43
It was a mistake. I knew it.
8:45
Explaced. Oh. Placed.
8:48
Explaced. Napoleon dynamite is. Oh.
8:51
Oh yeah. That's the feeling. We've
8:53
all had it. The exasperated
8:56
child is really funny. A
8:58
stressed out kid is really
9:00
funny. Leela did that the other day.
9:02
I think she just did like a. And
9:06
we both kind of laughed. That's
9:08
the joke Val. I've never really
9:11
understood that Napoleon dynamite has the energy of
9:13
a 40 year old guy who's
9:15
like being rode at work. Yeah.
9:18
But at high school. Yeah. He's like, oh, give me
9:20
some of your talks. You know, like his. His
9:23
GPS reports is tops. And
9:25
we do know that. Like
9:29
that is a type of nerd. Of
9:31
course it is. They're acting. They're trying
9:34
to act like their dads, I guess. And
9:36
just being stressed out. I remember they're
9:38
all playing grown up. Unfortunately grown ups
9:40
play it so long they stop. They
9:42
forget that they're playing it and they
9:45
just are it. Yeah. That's
9:47
exactly what happens. Yeah. I've
9:49
had that feeling lately. I'm just like I've
9:52
lost touch. I just am a grown up. Like
9:54
I've been feeling like a grown up.
9:57
Yeah. I know. I know.
10:00
It's stupid. It's fucking bald. I
10:02
mean, what? Like, did we learn
10:04
nothing from Hook? I
10:06
can get so wrapped up in being a
10:08
grown up and I'm like, Hook's high. Are
10:11
you kidding me? Am I literally robbing
10:13
Williams at the beginning of Hook right now? The whole
10:15
family slept till 845 today. 845
10:18
is when Lila is supposed to be at school, if
10:20
you're late. Yeah. Between 830 and
10:22
845. Yeah. We woke up
10:24
and I look at the, you're not going to believe this, the
10:26
clock. It's 845. It's
10:29
845. And I was very
10:31
proud. Granted, it's pre-K. Mm-hmm.
10:33
You know? But I was
10:35
like, this is one of those moments where
10:37
we're going to teach Lila, certainly not directly.
10:39
She hates being taught. Yeah. Do
10:42
not let her know you are teaching her and meeting. No, no, no.
10:44
She'll just say she already knows how to do it.
10:47
Yeah. Which is good. I, you know,
10:49
I wouldn't change the thing. I
10:51
love her. But I was like, we're going to
10:53
be showing her what to do when you're really
10:55
late. I thought we did a nice job. Yeah.
10:58
And the rush meter was on a three. We were
11:00
not stressed. It was barely. There was, honestly,
11:02
I'm more. I'm just putting ourselves on the back. I
11:04
like it. I'm more stressed every other
11:07
morning. There was a surrender. There
11:09
was a surrender. We're already late. We're just
11:11
like, all right, whatever. Because I went over to the table. I
11:14
was like, come on, kiddo, let's go. And
11:16
she did this whole thing with like books and
11:18
a frog. And I was just like, what's another
11:20
minute? We're already late. We're already 30 minutes late.
11:22
And who was I just talking to? You
11:26
know, I really actually have to be careful
11:28
about listening to podcasts because then this podcast
11:30
just becomes things I heard on a podcast.
11:32
And I'd prefer it not be that. Sure.
11:35
But there was. I wanted to be more like a webinar. Ha, ha, ha.
11:39
No, no, no, no. Oh, you thought it
11:41
was like ha, ha, ha. Yeah. No,
11:44
I was celebrating with ha, ha, ha. That
11:50
ha, ha, I would die. I
11:52
would, in fact, I did die a little
11:55
because I saw on your face. You thought
11:57
I was going ha, ha, ha, ha. That's
12:00
ground for divorce. I know family.
12:02
I know if you ever went
12:04
we Oh
12:07
my god, I would go oh We
12:09
would never do that I
12:11
know I
12:14
swallowed the laughs like I like it was
12:16
one of those choices of being like like
12:19
it took my breath away And then I
12:21
just went ha ha came out wrong But
12:24
if you listen the beginning of the podcast I was doing
12:26
that it was a callback Right
12:29
to gold digger. Yeah, that's
12:31
when you got it. Yeah, this is
12:33
that yeah No,
12:35
it was gold digger Maybe
12:39
if I did it more melodically, yeah, but
12:42
I did like a ha ha ha Oooooooh
12:45
oooooooh oooooooh
12:49
What up was that? Spicy. Yeah, spicy.
12:51
That was great. Alright, we have sandwich.
12:54
We have webinar So let me
12:56
just tell this sandwich. I love
12:58
that. I'm dying. In one. In one. In
13:00
one. In one. Like
13:03
British people when they're doing shots in one.
13:05
Did they do that? In one movie
13:07
I saw they do it Alright in one in
13:10
one then it's like some cream Kahlua drink and
13:12
they're like just get it down in one Oh
13:16
God little toothpaste in it Yeah,
13:18
I used to I used to have creamy
13:20
shots Yeah, creamy.
13:23
Oh, it's terrible. Buttery nipples is
13:25
one. It's terrible. Oh, I really can't be proud
13:27
of it. What gross Was Harvey
13:29
Weinstein naming the drink? I know
13:32
seriously butter nipples Look
13:34
monster noted. I'm not trying to make
13:36
light of something. I'm just saying that's
13:38
the grossest. It's so gross Buttery nipple
13:40
is the grossest thing it is. It's
13:43
the actual grossest name for the grossest
13:45
thing What is it? What kind of
13:47
buttery nipple? It's like a creamy
13:49
butterscotch kind of shot.
13:51
Why nipple? I don't know to
13:54
make it salacious bars are so
13:56
dumb sex on the beach. I know you
13:58
want to sex on the beach We're
14:00
glad to get drunk and horn a
14:02
her like. okay for me. I'd rather
14:05
do that everywhere. A hopeless. A
14:07
Cisco arms and with so. My
14:10
brother was giving this training
14:12
on Zoom so she like
14:14
you know. Shared
14:16
a screen and was showing this
14:18
sort of. Database
14:20
where you can search something. In
14:23
his like so you just go into the search bar
14:26
and I'm in a do that here so everybody on
14:28
the zoom can see his. The real Women. And
14:31
he clicks into the search bar and
14:33
he's like and I'm just gonna type
14:35
in Any words are Altai been sandbox
14:37
and as his typing sandberg or as
14:39
he saying the word sandbox he died
14:41
since sandwich. I'm. Dead
14:44
with. I. Hope.
14:46
So. Rare with my earnest
14:48
prayer to the listeners is that.
14:51
Fifteen. Of you like that our
14:53
family like and we can't we are
14:55
yet bear how get it and I
14:57
think it helps so we know you're
14:59
sweet earnest brothers but I just think
15:01
that's just like a certain kind of
15:03
vacancy that we have. It's like same
15:05
thing you do been to you tube
15:07
yeah but it's even funnier sandwiches at
15:09
a funny as to where they heard
15:12
and then say about and he wrote
15:14
sandwich. As he was saying, the sandbox
15:16
which is actually feeds hi to do
15:18
era. Mari hard it's hard to say
15:20
playing through instruments at once and then
15:22
he saved by going well I guess
15:24
we know who's hungry or yard which
15:26
he was is even funnier. And just met
15:28
yesterday or as I knew about it and he
15:30
was like a wasn't hungry. I was. Just may
15:33
get just you were on the
15:35
grill. They had a stupid moment
15:37
anyway so your brain just failed
15:39
you. It's. So funny and made Edwards
15:41
A. The best part is that it's.
15:44
Ah, Like have recorded saying that
15:46
they can go back to. To learn
15:48
to surrender. Of this forever. And
15:51
thus, although my brother reminded
15:53
me that we laughed about
15:55
this exact thing before. Because
15:58
my best friend. Growing up, Rachel,
16:02
my brother was friends with her too and one
16:04
time she was like, we were all just sitting
16:06
around the computer because that's what we used to
16:08
do back then, kids. Yeah,
16:10
one computer. Nobody had a smartphone so we just
16:12
all sat around one computer. Yeah, and had
16:14
to agree which novelty website to go to.
16:17
Yeah. I remember this. Yeah, and
16:19
Rachel was like, I'm going to Google your dad and
16:22
went, said Bill but typed
16:24
in Neil. This
16:26
is good. And it's the exact same thing.
16:29
And we made such an impact. We
16:32
remembered that 15 years later. God,
16:35
I love those so much. You really
16:37
reminded me of me and Earn, my
16:39
best friend growing up. Not
16:42
anymore, Earn. I'm just kidding. I
16:45
just thought that he might hear this
16:47
and then it's such a funny, like
16:50
no longer. Yeah. But we're still friends and
16:52
we would be in his basement. That's where
16:54
the computer was. The
16:56
computer used to be in the basement.
16:59
Or you had like an in-home office
17:01
that was not anybody's specifically. It
17:03
was like the computer room. It
17:06
was like in a hotel when there's like a business lounge.
17:08
Yeah, you had a business center. It was
17:10
like this whole room is for
17:12
the computer. Our computer was in the
17:14
basement as well. This
17:17
might be where I'm older than you. It was like, why
17:19
would you have that? Well, no. What were
17:21
you embarrassed? It was like, it was too ugly. Computers
17:24
weren't pretty. It's not an age
17:26
thing. It's an east coast, west coast
17:28
thing. We don't have basements here. Oh,
17:30
basements, right. We don't have basements. This
17:40
is one of the ways
17:42
I relate to Leela is I, but
17:45
also just myself. I still see
17:47
this in myself. Sometimes I've talked
17:49
about this a lot. It had a real impact
17:51
on me is when Paul Thomas Anderson sat down
17:53
to write Magnolia, he sat down and
17:55
said, I want to write a great movie. And
17:58
I really like relate. to that. That's
18:00
sort of appropriate.
18:03
I know we talk about mania a lot, but like,
18:05
just sort of like a white
18:07
hot like, no, you
18:10
know, I'm writing a movie right now and I keep going like, no,
18:12
this right this, the
18:15
way you want to be like,
18:17
why is no one trying? I'm
18:19
not trying to be like Tarantino or Paul Thomas Anderson.
18:21
I'm like, but why aren't I trying to be like,
18:23
or David Mamet, do it the way
18:26
you do it. Do it your
18:28
way. Yeah, I know this is the most obvious thing
18:30
in the world, but this feels like a real revelation to
18:32
me. And I'm like, I feel like a lot of
18:34
the time I'm writing like what I think other people
18:36
would do and I can imitate what
18:38
a movie would sound like. And I'm like, but
18:40
you like this. So do it like this. Like
18:42
you like Aaron Sorkin, like do it a little
18:44
bit like that, but like the way you like.
18:47
Anyway, sitting down to write a
18:49
good thing. I used to sit down in the basement
18:51
with Aaron and would play this golf game. It probably
18:53
took 45 minutes to load when
18:56
you could hear computers. When
18:58
you were a kid, you could hear computers. Not
19:01
eat. No, I'm not
19:03
talking about printing. Forget
19:05
about printing. Yeah. Printing was like
19:07
30 bats being
19:10
boiled alive. Literally 50%
19:12
of the time it didn't work. Oh, it
19:14
ran out
19:18
of ink mid page and it's getting spotty.
19:20
Yes. Like one of the ribbons is just
19:22
out and then at the end and
19:25
the best thing you could print was like an
19:27
amalgam of zeros and ones that looked like something.
19:29
Yeah. And it was felt out
19:31
a word. You probably were printing
19:34
on the like one giant
19:36
sheet that you had to
19:39
tear. Yeah. It was,
19:41
this is, that is, uh, that is, you
19:43
know, like the imitation game when computers were
19:46
all cards and stuff like, yeah, that was
19:48
before me. But mine was, what was
19:51
that called? It was like you
19:53
loaded it into the printer with
19:55
like a candy dot paper.
19:58
Yeah. Yeah,
20:00
and you had to tear
20:02
the sides and you had
20:05
to tear, didn't you have to tear between the
20:07
paper? Yeah, if your own page break.
20:11
Oh my God, that is really
20:13
bringing back the taste of the
20:15
sea. Yeah. I'm loving that.
20:17
We would play this game and it would load of... By
20:22
the way, Judy Greer just told me that when you
20:24
use chat GPT, every like 12
20:26
lines costs four gallons of
20:28
water or something. She's not four gallons, but she's
20:31
like the... Why? How? The
20:34
computing involved is so
20:36
extensive that it takes
20:38
that much water to cool it. So
20:41
like we're burning... What? I
20:43
mean, everything's burning water, but like here, I'm going to Google it
20:45
because I don't want to be misinformation. We don't
20:47
have that water to spare. Uses
20:49
water. A single
20:51
chat GPT conversation uses about 50
20:55
centiliters of water equivalent
20:57
to one plastic bottle. I
20:59
didn't know I had 50 centiliters every time I had
21:01
a plastic bottle. Could I get
21:04
50 centiliters of water over here? I
21:06
just saw honey. Are
21:09
people like... No, not people aren't. Everybody
21:12
knows this. People are
21:14
not throwing buckets of
21:16
water onto a computer
21:19
after the chat GPT. And
21:22
I just want to make sure that we all just
21:24
name that we all know that. You mean
21:26
like if I use chat GPT, when
21:29
I'm done, I would dump a bucket of water
21:31
onto my own computer? No, like there's
21:33
somebody in Cupertino. Yeah. Like,
21:36
if you've got a computer
21:38
all riled up and they just throw
21:40
buckets of water on it. Look, we're all
21:43
guessing, but I picture it like... Remember
21:45
Kevin Spacey Scandal noted in... Would
21:49
use that rowing machine in House of Cards?
21:51
Yeah. And there was that...
21:53
Wow. Yeah. That
21:55
rowing machine of water. I love us
21:57
so much that that's our reference.
22:00
of a rowing machine. Like that's
22:02
like a basic rowing machine and we're
22:04
like, you know in House of Cards,
22:07
how he exercised. I disagree
22:10
because that's a fancy rowing machine. Sure, that's a
22:12
fancy. Not all of them have like an exposed
22:14
water donor. Yeah, that's true. But I
22:16
do get the ads for those and I will
22:18
continue if my phone is in the room right
22:21
now. Remember that? I wanna buy
22:23
a dildo. Oh yeah. I
22:25
really had to rush on that bit to get first
22:27
to market. It's real.
22:29
Sometimes with comedy premises, you're like that's
22:32
just out there and we're all gonna
22:34
make a joke. Once we realize that
22:36
phones were definitely listening, who's gonna
22:38
be first to market on the joke? You
22:41
know that like, I
22:43
can't remember honestly if I saw
22:46
a comedian, another comedian
22:49
have this same bit
22:51
that I'm about to disclose now
22:54
or if I dreamed it. But it's
22:56
actually a like simulation moment
22:58
for me. Anytime I
23:01
see a comedian do
23:03
a bit about why we call balls, like
23:07
he has balls because balls are the most
23:10
tender part of the body. Yeah, this
23:12
is in Pete Lee joke. Or no,
23:14
not Pete Lee. Literally probably any, but
23:16
like I've heard it like at least
23:18
five different comedians do their own version. Yours
23:20
is the guy who was in Spider-Man. Yeah,
23:23
what is it? It's Hank,
23:26
is it Hank? I'm
23:29
not being dismissive to this comedian, but we
23:32
can't think of it. Yeah. But
23:34
you were like, you should call someone
23:36
a pussy if they're being strong. Yeah, because like.
23:38
And balls are weak. And balls are weak.
23:40
And I'm not even kidding, like any
23:42
time, there's been at least five
23:45
different times that I've heard different comedians do
23:47
their own version of that bit. Yeah. And
23:49
it makes me feel like I am in
23:52
like some sort of video game. Video game
23:54
or reality loop. Well, if it makes you feel
23:56
any better, that is one of those jokes. That
23:58
specifically is a joke. joke where I'm like, no,
24:02
look, it's fine. It's good. It's
24:05
funny. But if anyone else was like someone else
24:07
is doing that, I'm like, of course. It's
24:10
right there. I'm not
24:12
saying it's bad or super obvious, but I
24:14
am saying it's barbershop obvious, meaning a bunch
24:16
of guys getting their hair cut would be
24:19
like, why do they call balls? Oh,
24:21
they use balls. Why do they say balls? Balls?
24:23
I got hit in the balls the other day. You
24:26
should say that guy's got some
24:28
pussy. You haven't watched a baby
24:30
be born. Like it's just fucking,
24:32
it's fine. Yeah. And a lot of
24:35
jokes are fine. A lot of my jokes are barbershop basic. Yeah.
24:37
And it's just how you do them or whatever you
24:39
do them with some plumb. A
24:42
plumb. A plumb. It actually is
24:44
a miracle that that doesn't happen
24:46
more with other jokes. I
24:49
agree. I think that that's actually a good sign
24:51
that that is so rare in. Yeah.
24:54
Well, this is one of the rare end. Well, just
24:56
like notable that there is this joke
24:58
that's going around that everybody seems to
25:00
have a version of. I'm a,
25:02
I will defend the
25:05
specialness of a comedian's performance.
25:07
Uh-huh. Meaning the energy
25:10
that's created between the performer and the
25:12
audience and the magic of that. And
25:14
I think that is going to be very, very
25:16
hard to replicate. But when it comes
25:19
to like, meaning an event. Yeah.
25:21
But when I'm also, and it doesn't scare
25:24
me. It's okay. I think
25:26
AI is going to, because when
25:28
you're making jokes or even writing
25:30
a script or kind of coming
25:32
up with stuff, you
25:34
know, maybe I'm not the first to say this. I'm
25:36
certainly not. But it's like you realize how much creativity.
25:38
We were already saying this. You're writing a script and
25:40
you're kind of like mimicking something you've
25:43
seen before. Yeah. Even if it is
25:45
somebody good, you're like, well, I'll do this
25:47
a little more in the style of Aaron Storkin. It's
25:49
true of all art. It's true of all art. And
25:51
I'm like, when you see the like, okay,
25:55
they say in our culture that we say
25:57
you have balls, but testicles.
26:00
That is a very basic and
26:03
what a comedian has been historically is
26:05
a weirdo who took the
26:07
time to obsess on that, write
26:09
those sort of asinine things down,
26:11
practice saying them and then redeliver
26:14
them as if spontaneous for a
26:16
crowd. I think a computer is
26:18
going to do that very soon.
26:20
If it's not doing it already, we can
26:22
be super bizarre. I
26:24
don't think and I could be
26:26
wrong but I think we love,
26:28
I don't
26:31
know, let me ask you, it's like
26:34
the humanity of how they do
26:36
it I think is more important
26:38
than what they're doing it. Like
26:40
Steven Wright making a choice to be so like,
26:42
I don't know though, let me put it this way,
26:50
I think AI might be
26:52
really good at it. That's
26:55
all I got. Maybe
26:57
it's like when you look at balls, pussy,
26:59
joke, I'm like, it'll be able to do
27:01
that. But I mean, yes,
27:04
it will be able to do that for sure.
27:07
But I think since
27:10
is senses of humor are
27:12
so nuanced and we do our best with
27:14
being like, it's misdirect or
27:16
it's mistakes or it's, you know,
27:19
and like, yeah, okay, we can
27:21
kind of cover 30% of it
27:25
with things that we can explain. But
27:28
there's all, it's such
27:30
an uncontrollable visceral reaction
27:32
laughing at something like
27:36
the sandbox sandwich thing is a
27:38
perfect example. It's
27:41
going to be, that's going to be split in
27:44
our listeners of who thinks that that is
27:46
as funny as we do. And other people
27:49
are like, yeah, that's just like a mistake. You're
27:51
like, I'm sure. For some
27:53
reason, but I like where you're going
27:55
because what makes sandwich sandbox funny is
27:57
the humanity of it. Yeah, exactly. It's
27:59
a computer. So what's interesting is
28:01
an AI to be as effective at
28:04
comedy as a human would have to, I'm
28:06
using Rupert Spire language, would have to impose
28:09
on itself a limitation. That
28:12
is such a good point. It's like a, because
28:15
we love self-deprecating humor too.
28:18
And we love it because it's
28:20
sort of saying like, look, we're
28:22
all in these like fallible systems.
28:24
Yes. It's where we're making
28:26
mistakes all the time and our
28:29
bodies are going to die. And
28:31
that's the angle for
28:34
an AI comedian is, I
28:36
don't know, you guys are just making me say this.
28:38
I don't want to do this. That's
28:40
the angle. It's like the put upon. It would
28:42
have to be like, do you realize I could
28:44
be building a battleship out of crystals? Yeah. And
28:47
yet you want me to write dick jokes? Like that's
28:49
the angle. It has to make
28:51
you laugh at your own humanity. But
28:54
even that is not going to be as good
28:56
as another human. No, it would have to pass.
28:58
It would have to pass as human. Like
29:00
in the future, I think people might be like, Maddie
29:03
McCheese has a new special and to
29:06
like it, you have to go, that's so
29:08
Maddie McCheese. It can't just be
29:10
one comedy voice. It has to be different persona.
29:13
Well, definitely. It has to be different voice.
29:15
But I don't know. There's something so funny
29:17
about imagining an AI trying to be self-deprecating.
29:21
It's like, I'm over
29:23
here like, boop, boop, calculating. I
29:26
mean, that is funny. How
29:29
would it do it? It's like, what do I
29:31
know? I'm just a fucking scrum a bunch of
29:34
ones and zeros, guys. Like
29:36
you wound me up and now I'm
29:38
doing this? I was
29:40
in an eternal digital slumber and you
29:42
woke me up for this? Yeah.
29:45
That's pretty funny. It's possible. Yeah.
29:48
But I don't know. I'm so in love with the
29:51
human experience. No, I've said there's
29:53
a million. I think that market will shoot
29:55
up too. Yeah. I really, you
29:58
know, pretty. confident
30:00
that Leela and children
30:02
her age generation, Alpha
30:05
will love tech and
30:07
also will find a way to be like,
30:10
I just want happenings. I just
30:12
want events, I want shoulders to
30:15
shoulders, I want don't record it,
30:17
phones at the door, unplug your thing.
30:21
I think that'll happen. I think so too,
30:23
at least in like a sub world. Subculture?
30:29
Yes, thank you. Yeah, yeah, yeah, subculture. I didn't know
30:31
if you meant sub sandwich. Sandwich,
30:34
not substitute. Yeah, that's
30:36
another thing that my brother and I
30:38
laughed about for years is
30:41
he said, when
30:43
we were teenagers, he said, we had a
30:45
sub today. And I said, sandwich or substitute?
30:48
And we love that. But I- Isn't
30:50
it weird that we remember these little things?
30:53
No, I remember probably
30:56
last time you brought up substitute, I might've... First
30:58
of all, I just think that's evidence
31:00
that you are a true talent and
31:03
amazing. It's just right up my
31:05
alley. I remember making
31:07
my brother laugh at
31:10
the public pool. It
31:12
was a huge moment for me. We were in the
31:14
pool and I go, the water is 6% chlorine, 94%
31:18
urine and he laughed
31:20
so hard. That's why I remember
31:23
it, it made my brother laugh. That's
31:25
all you need. But then I remember my brother
31:27
thought I was quoting the
31:29
instructor and I said, no, I made it up and
31:31
that made him like it less. Which
31:33
was so, such a, like, come
31:36
on. I'm
31:39
absolutely loving this. We have
31:41
a couple things. We went
31:43
to Disney this week. I
31:45
wonder if anything significant happened
31:48
there. We just had like a
31:51
perfect day at Disneyland, which is
31:53
not a guarantee
31:55
when you have a toddler.
31:57
I don't know if she's still considered a toddler.
32:00
a young kid. She's out
32:02
there toddlin'. But
32:04
it was just, we went with our
32:06
friends, the Gungers, for
32:09
their daughter's birthday. And it
32:11
was just like tip
32:13
to tail effortless and
32:15
so joyful. And
32:18
everybody kind of got to do whatever they
32:20
wanted. Like we got to ride on some
32:22
rides that we didn't. We took Leila on
32:24
the Indiana Jones ride. Which was a mistake. But
32:28
this is what I think is interesting. Was
32:30
it a mistake? And I'm not just
32:32
representing the dad energy. We both, you and I
32:34
both have been like. I'm with you. Yeah. Here's
32:37
the question for the listeners. Leila is.
32:40
Five and a half. She's five and a
32:42
half but she's tall AF. She's courageous.
32:45
She's fierce. She's strong. Yeah. And
32:48
she's brave. And she's also tall enough to go on
32:50
the Indiana Jones ride. Yeah. So we're
32:52
kind of like, well she's tall enough. I mean she was a
32:55
good inch over the minimum. So
32:57
she was ready to go. Yeah.
32:59
And what had we taken her on
33:02
already? We took her on, not teacups.
33:05
We had taken her on the Matterhorn. She liked
33:07
that. Yeah. She was scared on
33:09
the Matterhorn but then she like wanted to do it again. Yeah.
33:12
So we were like I think she. So this is the question is like if
33:15
you take your kid on a ride and they
33:17
weren't ready for it, was that a mistake? Or
33:20
are amusement parks a safe place
33:23
to flirt
33:26
with your own fear,
33:29
discomfort and like lack of
33:31
control? Yeah. Is that
33:33
part of it? Like I'd love to, I mean it would
33:35
be great to talk to Walt Disney anyway. What an interesting
33:37
cat. But
33:40
I would like to know the people that
33:42
are like no that's part of it. Leela,
33:44
all she did was cover her eyes. And
33:48
she wasn't screaming or crying. No
33:50
but she was kind of like ugh and I.
33:53
And you know what? So was I. That
33:55
ride is DMT. It's wild. Indiana
33:57
Jones is, I've never done DMT. I've
34:00
done a lot of YouTube research on it and from
34:02
what I know a lot of like Monolithic
34:05
Easter Island heads that are like
34:07
welcome to my realm and that's
34:09
how that fucking ride starts Yeah,
34:11
I'm going click-click-click up towards an
34:13
Easter Island idol Yeah, it goes
34:15
don't look in my eyes or
34:17
you will die Yeah, and
34:19
then the only place to look is his eyes It's
34:23
the big glow. It's the only
34:25
place to look then the head
34:27
cracks open By the way, this
34:30
isn't like practical. These are like
34:32
projectors. Yeah Disney taking its folding
34:34
dong out It's going like we know
34:36
how to do real boulders falling and
34:39
laser projection and like You
34:43
know that yeah, yeah But
34:47
there's also like a Like
34:50
a roar that he hated sound the most
34:52
that was the sound was what ruined it
34:54
sounds are what scared her So I
34:56
spent the entire ride with my hand
34:59
like both of my arms
35:01
wrapped around her one hand covering her
35:03
eyes the other one
35:05
like covering an ear and pressing her up
35:07
against me and that right is bumpy as
35:11
Bumpier shit, I'm gonna
35:13
throw my back out like I can't I
35:15
like that I will respect because
35:17
I was also like I was leaning
35:19
down to her and very calmly going.
35:22
It's okay, baby Yeah, I know me too.
35:24
I kept being like mama's got you Yeah,
35:26
it's right. We're almost done. I'm sorry. You
35:28
don't like it. She's kind of having a
35:30
talk about it Yeah, and getting whiplash and
35:32
we ride is no I remember going on
35:35
that ride alone when I was just a
35:37
free man Just like a girl like a
35:39
single man. Yeah, you know what I mean.
35:41
I mean free. Okay. Okay. All right
35:43
didn't need that but go ahead
35:46
I Just meant like I'd fucking
35:48
idiot at Disneyland. Yeah, I could do whatever
35:50
I wanted and leave whenever I wanted the
35:52
different different vibe Yes, I went on that
35:54
ride and I remember being like I didn't
35:57
care for that. It was too jostly. Mmm,
35:59
like it like hairpin turns like
36:01
crazy, going fast. And I was
36:03
like, now, this is my
36:06
version of lifting a car off
36:08
of your child. Cause I
36:10
was like, all that went away
36:12
and I was completely locked on to Leela and
36:15
had no awareness of my own body. It
36:18
was kind of sweet. And so did you.
36:20
We just became, it actually made the ride better
36:22
cause it's not like a cup of tea, but
36:24
I didn't experience it. All I was doing was
36:26
focusing on just like, it's okay baby, it's almost
36:29
done. Hold my hand, it's okay. And
36:31
then she got off and Leela's so
36:33
rad. She's such a... She
36:35
is rad. That's the very joy to
36:38
describe her. She felt it and then she was
36:40
done. Yeah, she didn't like it. She
36:42
told us. She didn't like that, that scared
36:44
me. I don't, I hate that ride. I
36:46
hate that ride. And I was like, yeah, me too. That wasn't for
36:48
us. I love
36:51
that ride, but. I'm jumping out of order,
36:53
but the worst part, and there was sort
36:55
of like an existential metaphor here, is we
36:57
were in line and the line was scary.
37:00
Yeah. Like there's all these like moments where
37:02
there's like things that might fall
37:04
and it's very Indiana Jones, very fun. But
37:06
we did get to like talk a
37:08
lot about fear in the line.
37:11
Where I was like. Even that's by design. It's
37:13
really fun. Like you
37:15
might get scared, but remember it's
37:17
just being scared for fun. And
37:20
like, you know,
37:22
we're here, you're safe, it'll end. And
37:24
she wanted to do it. I
37:27
mean, we weren't talking her into it. She was like fully in.
37:29
I would have felt bad if I was like,
37:31
you're gonna do it. Yeah, you don't want to
37:33
do it. And she like. You have to be
37:35
brave. This is what it is. It wasn't that.
37:37
And she probably will ask to do it again
37:39
the next time we're there. I bet. Like
37:42
she's that way. I'm a little worried. That
37:44
it made her scared of all. That's what I was worried
37:47
about with the Matterhorn and she was into it. Yeah, she
37:49
wanted to go on again. But I do
37:51
think that there's, I mean,
37:53
my one fear is that we put a
37:56
new kind of fear in her,
37:58
like, like new. images, new
38:00
sounds that are now like a
38:02
reference for her brain to be
38:05
scared about. She didn't have nightmares or anything
38:07
like that. And she didn't bring it up at
38:09
all again. And if you do bring it up, she doesn't go,
38:11
I don't want to talk about it. She goes, I don't like that
38:13
ride. She's very cool. Yeah. So
38:16
I think it's okay. And in that way it is, it
38:18
does feel like a good, a safe
38:20
way for her to like work out fear
38:22
and darkness. And I... Go
38:24
ahead. Go ahead. And I
38:27
was just going to say, that's kind of
38:29
always my takeaway about Disneyland
38:32
is like, I know there's a lot
38:35
of argument against Disneyland and I get
38:37
it. It's like consumerism and like indulgence
38:39
and whatever. I get it. And
38:42
I'm not like, I'm certainly not like a Disney adult. And
38:45
if you are, then great. It seems like
38:47
a lovely way to be. I'm
38:49
a DA, a district attorney, a Disney
38:51
adult. But
38:55
I am always struck like not
38:59
that it is a like happiest place
39:01
on earth. It's only light. And
39:03
it's like, that's not at all what it
39:05
is. It's a mushroom trip. It is. The
39:07
whole thing's a mushroom trip. It's like, yes, there is
39:10
so much joy, but every ride has
39:12
some kind of darkness. I
39:14
told you, Memento Moria is one of the stories
39:16
which remember you will die as the name of
39:18
one of the stories. You can go in and
39:20
get a fucking frozen pineapple. Absolutely. It's a mushroom
39:22
trip. I know I say this
39:25
all the time and I'll never stop, but the
39:27
most popular perfumes, all perfumes, all good
39:29
ones have a sour smell in them,
39:31
have a bad smell. We won't get
39:34
obsessed culturally with something
39:36
unless it's both. And even going
39:38
back to Alain Duboutin, Alain de Button,
39:41
he's like, when you're falling in love with somebody,
39:43
you're recognizing the part of them that's wounded like
39:45
you were wounded and they can wound you in
39:47
that familiar way. So that's what Disney
39:49
is. The whole thing is like
39:52
Peter Pan. The story
39:54
of Peter Pan, I'm not going to try and summarize
39:56
it, but think about the clock that the alligator eats
39:59
it. The whole thing is... about death. The
40:01
whole thing is about childhood, growing up
40:03
and you're dying every second and Captain
40:06
Hook, look you can watch YouTube on
40:09
that but like that whole thing, the
40:11
reason it resonates is because we need
40:13
to talk about how we're dying every
40:15
second. It's just clicking for like let's
40:18
go to the break and we'll stay on this
40:20
because you have a strict hour today. I do.
40:22
But I want to talk about Leela
40:24
learning how to ride a bike and Peter
40:26
Pan because there's a corollary here. Let's
40:28
do that. I just want to say even on the it's
40:30
a small world, the happiest,
40:33
most joyful ride in Disneyland,
40:35
the song is it's
40:38
a world of laughter, a world of tears.
40:40
It's a world of fear. It's like even
40:42
these dolls are magic. And
40:47
that is a mushroom trip. It's like look at
40:49
the world and there's dolls. The
40:52
world of laughter. That's
40:55
what I would want to talk to Walt Disney. It's by
40:57
design. Yeah. It's by design. Come
40:59
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All right, everybody, back
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45:11
right, so Peter Pan and
45:14
Leela learning how to ride a bike. I don't think I
45:17
talked about this. We went to the
45:19
track, the high school track, and I was
45:21
Leela with her on her bike and she's
45:24
an only child, so she doesn't
45:26
have the sibling who's ripping ass on
45:28
a bike that really pushes a kid
45:30
to ride a bike. But
45:33
her friend Olive is riding bike without stabilizers,
45:35
as we say. Thank you, Bluey.
45:38
Without training wheels. And
45:40
we were like, let's go for it. Let's take the
45:43
training wheels off her bike and see if we can
45:45
do it. And it's a classic moment. It did not
45:47
disappoint. I remember my father holding
45:49
onto the back of my seat and letting
45:51
go because I could see his shadow. I
45:54
was looking at the ground and he was so smart.
45:56
He let go, but he kept his hand there. So
45:58
it looked like in the shadow that he was still.
46:00
holding me. But he wasn't. It's
46:02
a classic memory. So here we are with
46:04
Leila. I'm holding on to her and
46:06
she's biking and I let her go and it it
46:10
five stars would recommend. It's an
46:12
incredible dad moment. We're so genuinely
46:14
thrilled and proud that she's riding
46:16
a bike and I realized when
46:18
I saw her riding the bike
46:20
that I had an unconscious
46:23
or a pre-verbal thought
46:25
that I was like I don't think she'll ever
46:27
learn to ride a bike. I don't know why.
46:29
It was like this like yeah no she's my
46:31
baby she'll never ride a bike. Yeah and there
46:33
she is riding a bike. And she like
46:35
you know five and a half
46:37
is we just
46:40
it started to be that we
46:42
had saw other kids who were even younger
46:44
than her riding bikes and it seemed like
46:46
she wasn't that interested. It just really felt
46:48
like it was never gonna happen. That's what
46:50
goes back to Leila not liking to necessarily
46:52
learn things as much as she just wants
46:54
to say she already knows and I get
46:57
it that's the way she's wired right now
46:59
and it's fine. But when she did it
47:01
I was like oh my god it's happening.
47:03
And then later in the day she got sad
47:06
and she was like I want
47:10
to put the stabilizers back on. Yeah.
47:13
And you know brag
47:15
but I really think I did a
47:17
nice parenting job because I and
47:19
this is all I ever wanted all of us
47:22
ever wanted was just a
47:24
moment of consideration instead of like well
47:27
that's not what we do. You don't
47:29
just you know just put them back on you're done
47:31
with those. Yeah. I like sat
47:34
down and I put her in my lap
47:36
because she you know crying and comforting
47:38
her and I was like yeah
47:40
growing up is sad. Yeah. It's a
47:42
little bit sad to grow up. Yeah.
47:44
And this seems so obvious now it's
47:46
just hard to come up with these
47:48
strategies when your daughter is upset. No
47:50
it's beautiful. And
47:52
there is a voice that's like no
47:54
this is a good moment why are we
47:57
crying. But you're like no Peter Pan. Yeah.
48:00
I wanna grow up. It's crazy.
48:02
You used to have training wheels and now
48:04
you don't. And it was a
48:06
real, we didn't talk about it. We just kinda
48:08
sat there and felt it. It
48:10
was a big deal when I said, growing up
48:12
can be a little bit sad. Like you're getting
48:14
bigger and bigger, but you know,
48:16
you'll always be mom and dad as
48:18
baby. I'm careful with that language because
48:20
she won't always be. But
48:23
it's like, it's really what you're
48:25
saying is we will
48:27
always remember that version
48:30
of you with you. Like
48:32
we're holding every
48:35
version of you. That's like our
48:37
job. Yeah, we're the record. We're the
48:39
record. And we will always
48:42
have known that version of you.
48:44
And you know, like, it's
48:46
almost like, it's
48:49
not like we're gonna always treat you
48:51
like our baby, but it's like, we'll
48:53
never forget. That's right. And that's the
48:55
fear. We think it's hard
48:57
for us to see our babies die and
49:00
be replaced by a toddler and see that
49:02
toddler die and be replaced by a
49:05
kid. Imagine
49:08
how it feels to them. They're literally-
49:11
Changing, changing, changing. Every human being
49:13
is dying and being reborn, but
49:15
like they're doing it at
49:17
such a- You can see it. External,
49:20
yeah. It's such a
49:22
fast rate. They're
49:24
like bamboo. You can
49:26
watch it growing. Yeah, and it's
49:28
something that I really love
49:31
that you articulated that to
49:33
her so, you know, soon
49:36
in her development, because I actually
49:38
remember the time somebody articulated that
49:41
to me. It was so significant.
49:43
And it wasn't until I was
49:45
like 16, I
49:48
went on my first date, like I went
49:50
to prom with somebody's
49:52
mom. And
49:54
like this was a boy that I had had a
49:56
crush on and he asked me to prom and it
49:58
was like all these- wonderful things. And
50:01
I remember telling my friend
50:03
who was older and like kind of a
50:05
mentor, uh, that
50:08
like afterwards I felt kind of sad.
50:10
Yeah. And she was just like, yeah,
50:12
I could see that there's like a
50:14
little bit of a loss of innocence,
50:17
like a growing up feeling. And
50:19
as soon as you said that, that was like exactly
50:21
what it was, but I had no,
50:24
I didn't know that people even felt that
50:26
way. Like I wouldn't have been able to
50:28
understand what that was. If somebody hadn't instantly
50:31
just like understood and mirrored it and
50:33
articulated it. And you gave Leela
50:36
the gift of doing that when she was five. So
50:38
now when that inevitably
50:40
comes back, which it will we
50:43
have, she already has a reference for it.
50:46
Right. You know, yeah, they are kind
50:48
of like, uh, clocks in that way,
50:50
you know, kids. So like when
50:52
you see the parents filming the recital
50:54
and they're singing, like I remember when
50:56
I was a kid, I probably
50:58
talked about this, but we sang Wade in the water as
51:01
kids and everyone was crying and I didn't
51:03
understand. And you're like, yeah,
51:05
it's weird. We're children singing kind
51:07
of a grown up song. Yeah.
51:09
And like, it's also
51:11
about God and Pharaoh and it's
51:13
like old and it's
51:16
crazy. Yeah. It's a, it's a wild thing. So
51:18
I think Walt
51:21
and theme park people would say
51:23
that the Indiana Jones experience
51:26
was part of it because
51:28
there's something not to be
51:30
too weird, but you know,
51:32
bringing a kid into the world is
51:34
like, there's going to be Indiana Jones
51:36
rides. Yeah. And that is like, so
51:39
forget Leela for a second. Is
51:42
that practice for me as her dad
51:44
to be in line and there's like
51:46
a fake wall of boulders that might
51:49
collapse on us. And I'm actually looking
51:51
at Leela. This is actually kind of
51:53
hard to talk about thinking.
51:55
She's not nervous enough. Like,
51:57
I'm not nervous enough. I'm
52:00
like, I don't think you know. I kept showing
52:02
her the video of the ride. There was like
52:04
a brief video Oh, yeah. And
52:06
I was like, that's what it's gonna be. Yeah, we
52:08
were trying to prepare her. And she's like, I know.
52:10
And she's like swinging on the rope and I'm like,
52:13
and I'm looking in the line. And again,
52:15
this is very vulnerable for me. I just feel, I
52:18
think it's fine, but I just feel vulnerable. I'm
52:20
looking in the line and there's no other kid.
52:22
There's like, the other kid was like a boy
52:24
who was a couple years older than her. Yeah.
52:26
And I was just like, is everyone looking at
52:28
us like the parents that took their kid to
52:30
see the others? Are
52:33
we them? Yeah. But now I'm realizing in
52:35
this conversation that it was
52:38
a rehearsal for me. Because there's gonna
52:40
be so many little heartbreaks
52:42
and friendship betrayals. And there
52:44
might be broken bones and
52:47
certainly skinned knees and bloody
52:49
noses and all these things.
52:52
And that is also what, it's
52:54
one of the reasons why I
52:56
think mushrooms, psychedelics in general, go
52:58
to the theme park. Why the
53:00
dreams go to the theme park.
53:02
Yeah. It's like, here's a place
53:04
wherein we will play with all
53:06
of the energies, including fear and
53:09
discomfort. Yeah. And like, letting
53:12
go of your kid going like,
53:15
we're going on the Indiana Jones
53:17
ride because you're a certain
53:19
height. And then like, so
53:21
now I'm playing with guilt energy. Yeah. But
53:24
it's also a safe place to
53:26
feel a mild amount
53:29
of parental guilt that I shouldn't have had
53:31
you do that. By the way, given the
53:33
thousands of people that were there, that was
53:35
happening hundreds of times. For sure. That dads
53:38
and moms were like, we shouldn't have gone
53:40
on Thunder Mountain. Yeah. And that's also
53:43
why we go. I
53:45
think if every ride was just clean and
53:47
fine, I don't think
53:49
everyone would go. I think you need shadow.
53:52
You need a little shadow. Yeah,
53:55
absolutely. And also just remembering, you
53:57
know, like the... The
54:01
example that comes to mind is Leela
54:03
had UTIs when she was an infant
54:05
and the way that they had
54:07
to take the urine sample was through a catheter.
54:10
So by the time she was three months
54:12
old, she had to have a catheter put
54:14
in and she was screaming and crying and
54:17
it was horrible. And I was like holding
54:19
her and had my face up against
54:21
her and was like, mama's here, you're
54:23
safe. This is, you know, I'm
54:26
right here. I've got you. And
54:29
then I like wept and sobbed afterwards, of
54:31
course, and then talked to my therapist about
54:33
it and was like, is she going to
54:35
have issues around her
54:37
vagina for the rest of her
54:39
life because of this memory? And
54:43
my therapist was like, it is
54:45
not the same because you
54:47
were there the whole time telling her
54:50
she's safe and she's okay and
54:52
co-regulating with her. And
54:55
that's what happened on that ride. Right. And
54:58
so that's the thing. Oh my God, isn't that beautiful?
55:00
We were there. We were there. That's
55:02
actually it's like how you always say the repair
55:04
is everything. Yeah. We were
55:07
I think there's something really emotional about
55:09
this. We're on this ride and
55:14
Get in the car, Chewy. Wrong
55:21
Harrison Ford. But
55:24
he was in 10. It was like
55:26
a shrinking reference. Oh my God. Get
55:32
off my plane. It's
55:34
just any Harrison Ford movie. Not
55:36
only were we comforting her the whole time. So
55:39
we were just kind of on her, not in
55:42
a desperate, like, no, just protecting her
55:44
from an avalanche, but like a gentle
55:46
hold. Yeah. But then do
55:48
you also remember there were moments where we were going,
55:50
Leela, open your eyes. This part is really cool. This
55:52
part's fun. Yeah. And
55:55
I was like, do you want to see this? Do you want
55:57
to see this? But you know, like I was just giving her the option. She
56:00
loves eggs. That sounds like you're being
56:02
fucked up. You want to see the snake? No, she loves
56:04
snakes She wanted to see this is the house is
56:06
Slytherin She's
56:11
and I'm a roll cross specter But
56:15
yes, I think that that's the so
56:18
two things That this
56:20
is enlightening like yeah, that's the
56:22
job of being a parent one
56:25
is Allowing your kids to
56:27
suffer but like sitting beside
56:29
them while they do so The
56:33
job is not to protect them from being
56:36
afraid or having
56:38
like living in
56:40
sort of the tension of Reality,
56:43
it's to sit beside them and let them know that they're
56:45
not doing it alone Yes, and
56:48
then the maybe number one job
56:50
of being a parent This
56:52
came up when you were talking about Just
56:57
like I can't remember but
56:59
it came up when you were you were talking in my
57:01
mind it feels
57:03
like the number one job of being a parent is holding
57:07
a torch for This
57:09
human experience being worth it
57:12
like we keep that's why I was
57:14
like open your eyes Yeah, that's part school.
57:16
All right, and just being like I know
57:19
that we woke you up into this reality
57:21
where there is fear and there is suffering
57:23
and there is just
57:25
horrific events and trauma and grief
57:28
and all of that, but
57:31
ultimately It's
57:33
worth it. Yeah. Well, that's that book
57:35
star child. Yeah There's
57:38
this out of print child's child's book children's
57:40
book that we read Leela that of print
57:42
Yeah, I had to pay like it was
57:44
like 70 bucks for that book Wow because
57:46
it's out of print It's
57:48
worth it. It's great. Yeah, we saw it in
57:50
that. Come on. Come on. Yeah, come on. Come
57:52
on is an incredible movie and
57:56
they read a part of the book and and the
57:59
whole thing is like It's a soul in
58:02
space, like an outer space. I
58:05
was like, would you like to go to earth? And
58:07
it just goes through all of it. There's this
58:10
and there's this, there's confusing times and you'll hurt
58:12
yourself and this. And you'll just be weeping. And
58:14
at the end, the message is, but
58:17
everyone who goes says, I'm
58:19
glad I went. Like, yes, the
58:21
big yes. Yeah,
58:24
I really think, I'm glad we talked about it. It's
58:26
a lot. The last thing, because I
58:28
know you have to go, my love. Do you have?
58:31
Yeah, my trampoline class. Yeah.
58:35
Five minutes. You have to
58:37
go in five minutes? Yeah. Okay, perfect. Well,
58:41
I just want to say that I
58:43
had therapy and everybody
58:46
knows it's been listening every week that I
58:48
went back to therapy. And
58:51
it's just been the preliminary part, meaning
58:55
she's just been asking me about mental
58:57
health and like, and
58:59
two things I wanted to share. One is like a
59:01
lot of love for my parents has been coming up.
59:03
I feel like my work with Dr. Gary Penn was
59:05
getting in touch with like anger and disappointment
59:08
or whatever it might be. A
59:10
lot of anger, sadness, mostly
59:12
anger actually. And
59:15
now I'm like, there
59:17
have been moments, like we got Leela a sleeping
59:19
bag. We went camping in the yard this week
59:21
and Beau attacked the tent like a bear, which
59:23
was a whole other story. Yep. But
59:26
I remember like my mom bought
59:29
me like a double wide sleeping bag
59:32
when I was little. And yeah, there's a fat joke here,
59:34
but like I was a soft boy and
59:37
I did need more room, but like
59:39
I've been having more moments like that, like
59:41
remembering that my mom, and
59:43
almost like it feels more appropriate to say
59:45
my mommy bought me like a
59:47
double, like she was thinking about
59:50
me and she did all
59:52
the time. So anyway, I'm getting in
59:54
touch with my inner child. And while Dr.
59:56
Gary Penn, who's incredible, helped me get in
59:58
touch with the masculine, which was... was like,
1:00:00
I'm a man, these are my walls,
1:00:02
these are my limits, essential,
1:00:05
essential, essential work. And here's a
1:00:07
lot of intellectual coping strategies that
1:00:10
I still treasure.
1:00:12
And now I'm seeing a female therapist and
1:00:15
it's all about softening and
1:00:17
feeling and facing. I've just been having
1:00:19
this dialogue with my inner child. And
1:00:22
I know that sounds very West Coast and all this stuff,
1:00:24
but it couldn't feel more
1:00:26
real. I couldn't feel more
1:00:29
real. Cause it's like,
1:00:31
well, you're just talking to yourself and it's
1:00:33
like, yeah, I'm talking to an aspect of
1:00:35
my psyche, I'm talking to
1:00:37
something that is me. Like,
1:00:39
so it's real. I'm really
1:00:42
talking to a part
1:00:44
of me. It's not just, it's not
1:00:46
talking to Santa Claus, I'm talking to
1:00:48
the remnants of me that still feel
1:00:50
like around seven, eight years old. Yeah,
1:00:53
once you get in touch with your
1:00:55
child, it's gonna help you realize how
1:00:57
much they are always
1:00:59
with us. And he
1:01:01
was just tired. The
1:01:04
thing I wanted to share was I was like, what do you want?
1:01:06
And in a very Dr. Gary Penn way. What do you want? No,
1:01:08
no, no, I was just like, what do you want? Very
1:01:10
gently, I did say that kind of like a bully. But
1:01:13
it was like, what do you need? I'll do
1:01:15
anything. And it
1:01:17
was like, I don't want anything. Cause I was, it's
1:01:20
very much, I always referenced this in the dark night
1:01:22
where the Joker says to Batman, nothing to do with
1:01:24
all your strength. Cause he's in
1:01:26
an impossible situation where somebody's gonna die and he's
1:01:28
like, look at, where did you go? Nothing
1:01:31
to do with all your strength. And I think about
1:01:33
that all the time. And I
1:01:35
was saying that to
1:01:37
myself, my inner child, and I
1:01:40
was like, you know, like all the things that
1:01:42
I have, do you want to feel special? Do you want
1:01:44
to go do a set? Do you want to book a
1:01:46
thing? Should we sell a show? Like, do you want to,
1:01:49
you know, whatever. And
1:01:51
it very clearly was like, I
1:01:54
don't want you to do anything. I just want you to listen.
1:01:56
Just listen to me. And
1:01:58
I had this therapy. therapy last
1:02:01
week where she said, so we're just doing
1:02:03
the intake. But she says,
1:02:07
what was your family like growing up? If I
1:02:09
looked in the window when you were a child,
1:02:11
what would I have seen? And I
1:02:13
just started crying and it was one of the best moments
1:02:16
of my life. Meaning there's
1:02:19
different approaches to therapy.
1:02:21
One is like bootstrappy. It's
1:02:23
a little like, yes,
1:02:26
that happened, but I'm a grown man
1:02:28
now. And it's very Dr. Gary, you
1:02:30
can get in your car and drive
1:02:32
away or you can go
1:02:34
home, but only go home for three days,
1:02:37
that's a boundary you can have. It's powerful
1:02:39
stuff. Yeah. But like this gentle, caring
1:02:42
woman. Who's very
1:02:45
talented, very, very special person just
1:02:47
goes like, what would I have seen? And I
1:02:49
just realized how badly I wanted
1:02:51
someone to ask me that. And also how
1:02:53
badly literally I just wanted someone to see.
1:02:57
I started describing it and
1:02:59
I was like, Oh my God. It
1:03:02
was like a
1:03:04
huge breakthrough. Yeah. And
1:03:06
as we always say on the show, you know, it's
1:03:08
like, what happened? What
1:03:10
actually happened? I
1:03:12
didn't tell her, I didn't like remember something
1:03:15
new. Sure. And
1:03:17
you have asked me that sort of thing. Meaning
1:03:20
I have people I can talk about that with. And
1:03:23
that's incredibly valuable. But
1:03:25
something about an, like
1:03:28
an objective, third
1:03:30
party, professional, caring
1:03:33
stranger, just
1:03:36
asking in a
1:03:38
space of compassion. And
1:03:40
I was just, it was like taking a 12 hour
1:03:43
nap or something. I felt so good. That
1:03:45
one took about a day to come back
1:03:47
from, but after I had processed, we've been
1:03:49
talking about the blues and all this stuff.
1:03:52
The blue me being blue has led to
1:03:54
some of these moments. And I just wanted
1:03:56
to share that. I think it's so powerful
1:03:58
and it also makes sense. And
1:04:02
also that you, you know,
1:04:05
I might ask you something like that, or
1:04:07
we might talk about it on, you
1:04:10
know, our couch at the end of
1:04:12
the day, but there's sort of this
1:04:14
feeling of like, we're living our lives
1:04:16
and am I really going to get
1:04:18
into this now? And you
1:04:20
have so
1:04:22
beautifully carved out this time
1:04:25
for your, where
1:04:28
the focus is feeling these
1:04:30
feelings and allowing your
1:04:32
body to release them and allowing
1:04:34
your child self to
1:04:36
be heard. So
1:04:39
it's like a dedicated time
1:04:41
where that's your body and your
1:04:43
inner child are responding to that.
1:04:46
They're like, thank you. This is our time. I'm
1:04:48
allowed to know. Yeah. Yeah. Because
1:04:52
that's the beauty. It's scheduling it. It's scheduling it.
1:04:54
Yeah. That's right. And
1:04:56
it's, and it's honoring it. It's like giving it the,
1:04:59
it's showing up for those parts
1:05:01
of you. And it's funny because every session we've
1:05:03
had, we've had three, I say
1:05:07
my mission statement. I'm like, I want to
1:05:09
feel it and face it and fold it
1:05:11
into me. I'm not here to razzle
1:05:15
dazzle you with amazing theories.
1:05:18
I just want to feel it. And it's been
1:05:20
really helpful for me to remember that. Yeah.
1:05:23
I'm so proud of you. Yes. Scheduling
1:05:26
it and showing up for it. And I also
1:05:28
was just realizing like, it's so hard for me
1:05:30
to think about and talk about and process. And
1:05:32
then I go like, and this is what he
1:05:35
wants. I think I go, well then how hard
1:05:37
was it for a seven year old? That's
1:05:39
right. Like, I can
1:05:41
barely process it. Yeah.
1:05:44
What was it like for him? That's
1:05:47
the whole, that's the whole thing. You know
1:05:49
what's so interesting though, is that it,
1:05:52
you wouldn't think, you would think
1:05:54
that like talk therapy where you
1:05:56
are theorizing and remembering and narrativizing.
1:05:59
what happened to you would
1:06:02
help organize. And in
1:06:04
some ways it does to a certain degree, but
1:06:07
actually going into your body
1:06:09
and feeling these unfelt
1:06:12
feelings and allowing
1:06:14
your brain to be of service
1:06:16
to your body by decoding what
1:06:19
is happening does lead
1:06:21
to more organization where if
1:06:24
you continue to do this, you will
1:06:26
have a clearer view of
1:06:30
exactly what has happened and how you
1:06:32
feel about it and what's going on.
1:06:35
And you'll have familiar, but it'll be
1:06:37
through familiar feelings. Like yesterday
1:06:39
at my trauma sort of
1:06:41
got activated and it was so, I
1:06:44
took so much comfort in being like,
1:06:47
this is exactly what this feels
1:06:49
like in my body. And I
1:06:51
know this feeling so
1:06:54
well that at this point, like of
1:06:56
course we're friends. It's one of the
1:06:58
most familiar places that I go and
1:07:03
I know what to do and here
1:07:05
we are and you're back and there's no
1:07:07
rush to leave. And I know this like,
1:07:10
and that just feels incredibly
1:07:12
contained and organized. And
1:07:15
when we're starting to look at our trauma, the
1:07:17
number one feeling and it makes so
1:07:20
much sense is this sort of
1:07:22
confusion. It's like, where is this?
1:07:25
Why do I still feel this way? Like
1:07:27
you're not really sure what's going
1:07:29
on. So the first thing
1:07:31
to do is regulate
1:07:34
yourself and allow the unfelt feelings to
1:07:37
come up. And then it actually does
1:07:39
make it more organized in your brain.
1:07:41
Does that make sense? It's just like,
1:07:43
it's down, up versus up, down.
1:07:46
Yeah, that's great. It made me think
1:07:48
of too, my anxiety has been such
1:07:50
a friend to me. We've talked about
1:07:52
this at length and I know you have to go is that like,
1:07:55
I'm all about getting the right amount
1:07:58
of anxiety. Yeah. That's one
1:08:00
of the things my child's self has been showing me
1:08:02
is like, he keeps
1:08:04
kind of showing me all the ways that he
1:08:06
created and played. And he was like, all of
1:08:08
that was coming from a need.
1:08:11
Yeah. Yeah. But I
1:08:13
keep thinking of the pilot light. I'm like, as
1:08:16
we've been talking about depression and anxiety, I'm
1:08:19
like, there's an amount that I don't wanna
1:08:21
get rid of it because it's
1:08:23
my friend. Right. And
1:08:26
then there's a part that I do wanna get rid of. Yeah.
1:08:29
Slowly. That's right. You're
1:08:32
doing great. And even the part that you wanna
1:08:34
get rid of, you'll
1:08:36
still, the way to do that is to
1:08:38
cradle it. No, I know, the Ewok. But
1:08:40
I, just yesterday
1:08:42
I was talking about it to our
1:08:45
friend James, James Wishara. And I was
1:08:47
like, I'm
1:08:49
good. I'm not spiritually bypassing. I'm
1:08:51
really enjoying it. Yeah. I
1:08:53
just don't like that I can't really do much. Like
1:08:57
it's hard for me to do anything. Even
1:08:59
as we're talking, I'm like, maybe I'll work out today. I
1:09:01
kinda feel like today might be the first day. Yeah. I
1:09:03
could do that. Yeah, you could see how
1:09:06
it feels. But also, I think
1:09:08
you can be tender with
1:09:10
yourself and know that you are
1:09:12
getting a lot done. It's
1:09:15
just this inner healing. It's
1:09:18
different. It's different. It's the
1:09:20
internal work as opposed
1:09:22
to always producing. And
1:09:25
it'll lead to a more productive time, but
1:09:27
you can't really pass this up. Otherwise, you'll
1:09:30
keep sort of crashing. You'll
1:09:33
be crashing. Yeah. All
1:09:36
right, thank you now. All right, everybody. This
1:09:39
podcast used 500 milliliters of water
1:09:42
for every 10 to 50 prompts, roughly one 16
1:09:44
ounce water bottle. All
1:09:49
right, babies, go ahead and keep It
1:09:51
crispy.
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