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states. I'm Gretchen Rubin,

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and this is a little happier. It

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has been years since I saw

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the movie before Sunrise, but I

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often find myself thinking about a snippet of

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conversation from the movie. I finally

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went back to look up the exact words.

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The movie is about two twenty somethings

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played by Ethan Hawk and Julie

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Delphi, who meet on a train in

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Europe and the one night they spend

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hanging out together. The

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character Celine says, I

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always have this strange feeling that

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I am this very old woman laying

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down about to die. You

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know that my life is just

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her memories or something. And

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Jesse responds That's

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so wild. I mean, I

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always think that I'm still this thirteen year

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old boy, you know? Who just doesn't

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really know how to be an adult? Pretending

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to live my life. Taking notes for

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when I'll really have to do it. Kinda

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like I'm in a dress rehearsal for a junior

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high play. I've

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never forgotten this scene because I know

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exactly what both of them are talking about.

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On the one hand, I often have the feeling that

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Jesse described. A strange era

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of dress rehearsal of make believe

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that I and the people around me are

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playing elaborate games of pretend

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I find myself at an airport and as I

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pull my carry on bag along with

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me, I think, hey, I

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must look just like a grown up

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person going to a cop. Friends. And

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I am. In

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a way this feeling is comforting because it

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makes life less serious, it gives

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everything a faint air of the ridiculous. But

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it also takes away from my appreciation

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of this moment, this

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time. I also sometimes

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have the feeling that Celine describes. I'm

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far in the future looking back

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on the present moment with deep

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nostalgia. A

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few weeks ago, I knocked on the door of my daughter,

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Eleanor's room, to make sure that she was awake

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and getting ready for school. Suddenly,

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I felt as though I'd been transported back

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from decades in the future. To

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reenact an unfamiliar gesture that

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I hadn't made in years. Have

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you ever this kind of feeling?

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Which character do you identify with?

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Celine or Jesse or both?

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I'll post a link to a clip of

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sunrise of that scene. I'm

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Gretchen Rubin, and I hope this makes your

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week a little happier.