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Music.
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Three, two, one. Welcome back to another episode of Shit That Goes On Our Heads.
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I'm G-Rex with my partner, Dirty Skittles, and our famous guest,
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Regent. Welcome, Regent. Hello.
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Hey, hey. How are you all? I'm so glad to be here and with two of my favorite people.
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So this is just awesome. Thanks for having me. You're welcome. I'm so excited. Yeah.
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I'm having like a little bit of a fangirl moment. I have to tell you.
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Well, honey, have it. I need autographs later and photos are $10 a pop. Love it.
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Is this the same fangirl you had with Viv and Cecile also?
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And you know, I got to make a little money for good shoes too. So send it away.
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I heard you need some new hats and new shoes. I need it all.
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I need a Botox facelift. These rubber bands and duct tape are about to fall
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forward and we're all in trouble.
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We just see one snap and it is like, Bam! Off it goes.
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Oh my God. This is two-way and everything. Yes.
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I am so glad to be able to be here with you today because fear is a subject
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really that weighs on my heart.
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And it's about having really good, deep conversations with people.
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It's about having conversations with our friends and our loved ones and people
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that we work with and people that sometimes we don't,
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we want to have in our lives and they don't always want to have us in our lives.
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And it's about a time to either have those conversations or sometimes even,
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I'm going to tell you, let the conversation go.
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I mean, you have to find that space in your life to say,
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you know, I'm okay with letting the conversation go,
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but I want to focus today on those conversations that we want Those conversations
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that are so good and rich and sometimes not always easy to talk about, you know?
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Yeah. I'm so happy. Like the shit that goes on in our heads literally is all about conversations,
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emotional intelligence, emotional capital that comes into these conversations
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and really the fear that holds us back from having them.
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Right. And just the impact it has on your mental health, holding that shit back. Oh my God. I know.
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The shit that goes on, yes, the shit that goes on in our head.
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So, you know, the stuff that holds us back from conversations,
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I always think about like, what's the other person going to say?
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How are they going to react? Will I lose a friend?
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Am I going to be loved by my family when I have these conversations? All of that.
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And what I find in conversations, conversations, some of those hardest ones
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are sometimes the easiest ones that we don't have and we should have had.
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I read a book about 14 years ago from Susan Scott. It's called Fierce Conversations.
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And if you download that book or you get a paper copy of that book,
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it is one of the most phenomenal books.
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It's a little older. It's been around for a while. But I will tell you, if you haven't read it.
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And if you read it, re-read it again. Mine is tattered and torn and highlighted
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and dog-eared and underlined.
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That's the sign of a good book to me. You know what I'm talking about?
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Just a real good, juicy book. Yeah. This reminds me of when we first started, G-Rex and I would record with
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our friends and our family first. And I think just subconsciously we were doing it because we could be vulnerable
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with those people and not be scared to just kind of be ourselves and dive into something new.
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But what I discovered in that was, surprisingly, these friends that I've had
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for many years, I never had deep conversations with.
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We never talked about life and things that really matter to them and resonate with them as a person.
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And I just thought, that's so interesting because I've known them for years. I love that you say that.
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You know, Fierce Conversations talks about, Susan says in her book,
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that there's mineral rights. And she said, so many conversations are like surface level. We go in with feedback. We go at surface level.
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We are so scared to move past the deeper resonating issues that will go surface.
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And she's like, if you want to go deep. And Susan, I consider Susan a personal friend of mine.
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I've keynoted for her and I've spoke with her personally.
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She's a fun lady. I got to give her some really big kudos.
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But she said, when you mine deep in conversations, mineral rights is what she calls it.
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And you can read about that in the book. But she said, get below the surface.
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And I think like digging down deep, it's in those deeper conversations that,
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like what you just said, really matter. They're not always easy. They're not always ones that we want to have,
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but they're ones that we know that we need to have.
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She calls them Mookitas, that which everyone knows, but no one speaks about.
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It's the elephant in the room, if you will. It's the big, you know, elephant.
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And when you tell people, don't think about the elephant in the room.
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Well, what are you thinking about right now? Right? Elephant. It's that big elephant that's left a turd in your proverbial universe.
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And it's like, are you going to take care of this or not? and
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sometimes we do and sometimes we don't
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my dad used to say that and he's
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no longer here but he would call it we would have conversations of lipstick
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on a pig he said eventually that lipstick
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wears off and you're just stuck with a pig you know and i'm like i'm tired of
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being stuck with all these pigs i don't know what to do with them how many pigs
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can one herd i'm not a shepherd i'm not a farmer i don't want a lot of bacon
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man a lot of bacon it is a lot of bacon and i mean i I love bacon,
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but not like that, you know? It's the turd bacon. Nobody wants it. It's the turd bacon. Nobody wants it.
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Right. And in 2014, I got gifted a book.
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I went to an ATD conference and Fierce Conversations was there and Susan was actually there.
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And ATD is Association of Training and Development, if you don't know what that acronym means.
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And a lot of trainers go to it from around the world.
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And sometimes they have really great classes and sometimes they have some really
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boring stuff. and I saw fierce conversations on the title and I was like,
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boo, I got to sign up for this. It's a bunch of cats scratching.
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Let's see some blood on the wall. I'm thinking WWF wrestling here is going to go on.
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And I walk into this room and I am flabbergasted at just the presentation and what they say.
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I'm going to, well, I'm not going to give Susan's, you know,
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good juice away from what's in the book.
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I want to give her, you know, kudos because she says, while no single conversation
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is guaranteed to change the trajectory of a career, a company, or a relationship,
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or a life, any single conversation can.
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And I think that's the most powerful statement when I think about it.
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I'm like, any single conversation can. I think of sliding door moments. I'm like, very, think of a movie,
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The Matrix, those sliding door moments, whether you get on the train or you
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get off the train and you meet your person that you love in your life and you don't meet them.
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Like, what happens if you don't have the conversation? But what happens if you
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do have the conversation and it turns out really well?
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I mean, those are the phenomenal things. Yeah. It's kind of like how this podcast started, right? It was a conversation.
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It was more about anything else, but it was a conversation.
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And every subsequent conversation we've had since the beginning, I learned so much.
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And I'm so glad that we asked the questions and we let our guests talk and we
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interject like questions that we want to know.
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And I'm a richer person because of it.
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And I have more self-help books than I've ever had in my entire life. Right?
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I'm telling you, this is a great self-help book. It's got some instructional
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design in there that asks you some questions.
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I picked up that book and I took it home. And I was in, at that time,
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that was like 2014, 2015, the years that escaped me.
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I'm a little grayer than I was in my beard and in this hair.
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But I took that book home and I left that class changed.
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I hadn't read her book yet, but I literally left the class changed because they
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gave some tips and tricks and tools. And I was like, damn, this is common sense, right? You know,
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it's common sense to have a good conversation.
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But our common sense gets in our way. I think about many times when I might,
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you know, I shouldn't have salted my baked potato.
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My common sense tells me don't salt it that much or take your fat butt to the gym, Reject.
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Your common sense tells you get your butt to the gym.
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And common sense also tells us to have those conversations and we ignore them.
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You know, I am a PCC coach, which is a professional certified coach with ICF.
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And I never come to these things trying to preach at people.
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I try to talk with people and be an awakener.
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Because just as much as I believe in fears, I also have to live it every day.
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Does that make sense? Like, I mean, I have to drink my own champagne,
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Dr. Pepper coffee, whatever your drink of choice is.
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But it's hard sometimes being a human in the world. It's hard.
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I went home and I took that book home and I'm going to get vulnerable with you.
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I was in a 14 year relationship, probably four years too long in that relationship.
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And though I love this person fanatically before, we hit some bumps and roads in our life.
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They couldn't have come at a more poignant time.
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Let me get my tongue wrapped around my brain there. And I had,
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I went home on that plane and I dog-eared pages,
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I highlighted stuff, I underlined things that could exclamation points between
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things, you know, what you do to a really good juicy book.
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And I got home and I put that book down on the counter. And about two days later,
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I was looking for my book in my house and I couldn't find that book anywhere.
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It was gone, literally gone. The book was gone.
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I found the book later in my bedroom on my nightstand, but it was on my partner's nightstand.
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And I opened it up and all the dog ears were gone.
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All the highlights were gone. All the exclamation points that I put in there were gone from the book.
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And I'm like, God, are you speaking to me? Like, what the hell happened to my book?
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And probably an hour later, I get a text message from the person I was in this
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relationship with and things weren't going so hot.
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Why did you write all in my book and highlight it and dog ear it and do all
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these things to the book? Crazy thing is, he was working for Starbucks and Fierce is out of Seattle,
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Washington. That's where Susan lives. We were reading the same damn book at the same darn time.
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I got his book and he got my book. Is that not crazy?
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So when you think that fate or destiny or divine intervention doesn't occur.
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Sometimes that shit happens. Yeah. And the shit that goes on in our head,
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like I love the title, is the shit that we need to have conversations about.
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And I said, I go, I guess I'm reading the same book that you are.
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He worked at Starbucks. I was working at a company at that time in human capital
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management. We were reading the same damn book.
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So crazy. me to was the fierce conversation that we need to have.
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We had that conversation and though it was really tough and it was hard and
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we talked about things that were probably never fathomable before in 14 years,
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we were both reading that same book. We were saying things like, oh, I hate you. Don't look at me.
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Even when he looked at me, I was like, don't look at me. And he looked at me, I was in the same thing.
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And we were being really ugly with one another because of the fear and the the
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resentment and the animosity, the things that were going on in our relationship.
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But we both decided that we really needed to have this really good, fierce conversation.
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I want to remind you, while no single conversation is guaranteed to change the
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trajectory of a career, a company, a relationship, or a life,
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any single conversation can. And it did.
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That's the power. where we found a way to have a really damn good conversation.
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Our relationship ended, but we
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could have spent two more years in the four years that we shouldn't have.
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And we left instead of saying like, I hate you and I don't like you and get
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out of my face to, this is right for us and I've loved you and I still love
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you and I will always love you.
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And that's what changed the conversation. There were a lot of stuff that happened in between.
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Being let me tell you it wasn't glamorous it was not anything really pretty
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but it wasn't like we threw grenades at each other anymore we really listened
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to what the book had to say and we started really listening to people Susan
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says in her book let silence do the heavy lifting,
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she goes it's the most important part of the conversation in between the words and I was like,
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We should have had this conversation years ago.
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And even when I think about it now, it chokes me up because that's the power
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of really deep and good communication is when you have those.
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And though we're several degrees of separation between us and our lives have
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moved different trajectories in our life,
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those conversations allowed us to get out of the depths of where we were and
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move forward. and was very freeing.
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And so I look at that and I said, God, I wonder if I had all these conversations,
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if I just applied some fierceness to most of the conversations that I was scared
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of having, could it really change?
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Could it change the trajectory? And I'm telling you, from 2014 until 2024 today,
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it has. It's made a huge difference.
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That's awesome. It's emotionally freeing, right? Right. Because it's not just
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work conversations. It's personal conversations.
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It's people at the speedway. Right. It's those conversations.
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And communication is key.
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You know, learning how to open up. And when I finally was able to open up about
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my own shit that I was going through, and as terrified as I was,
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it opened doors for people that they didn't know they could open. Right.
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People reached out to me and thanked me profusely because now they didn't feel
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so alone in their own journey. And it's really like where the podcast stem from is I wanted to share my story,
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but I wanted to share it with my best friend and laugh about it.
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Because, OK, depression is not funny, but we have to laugh at some of the shit.
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Right. Because you're not laughing, you're dying.
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I think also like besides having that conversation with other people,
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like when I'm hearing you talk, I'm also thinking of like the moments in my
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life that changed because I had that conversation.
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But it started i can remember
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like one pivotal moment it started with
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me having a conversation with myself and not
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shying away from the shit that was
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in my head or the things i was afraid to admit to or dive into like i had to
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sit there with myself and be like okay i have to acknowledge what's happening
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and then figure out how to ask
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for help yeah or how to ask to have that conversation with my loved ones.
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Oh my God. I love that you say ask for help. There is no weakness in asking for help.
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And something that you said too. All conversations start with ourselves. And sometimes they involve other people.
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But we hold back. We believe context in our head. We make up stories.
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We believe them to be true. Sometimes the stories are true.
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A lot of times the shit isn't true. I mean, I think about times that I was sad
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and depressed and I would sit in bed or sit on my sofa and I would make up all
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these fictitious stories and then I'd leave them to be true.
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And that's how I live my life. life so
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you know when i think of like seconds and minutes and
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hours days and weeks and
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months i'm like am i making good choices
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because how we spend that amount of time in our lives is how we're living our
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life and i just did not want to live a shitty life i did not want to live i
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don't want to live a shitty life i still have to come back to myself every once
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in a while don't get it wrong I got to check in with myself every once in a
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while. Today, I woke up in a sour mood. I told you about the story that I, on my plane and all this other stuff,
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and I woke up really sour. And then I had to go back and have a conversation with my partner,
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Kyle, and I had to apologize for some of my behavior. It's a choice.
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You know, if it is to be, then it's up to me. And I put my finger on my nose.
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I know that you might not be able to see this right now in the podcast,
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but I'm putting my finger on my nose. It says, if it is to be, then it's up to me. I make that choice.
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I make a really good effort to make that choice. And it's not always easy.
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It's not always easy today to try to get out of my funk.
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I mean, I was just at that airport and I was chomping nails and just mad.
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And I thought, what the, what's wrong with you? And you get down in there and
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sometimes you just got to pull your head out of your arse and say,
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okay, I'm going to stop this.
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And when you got a good partner that's with you, listen to them.
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I don't always listen to the person that I love.
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People that come to you and have good stuff, give them the space to listen.
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I have to be really cognizant of that. I kind of listen to the people, you know, who my partner in life that I walk
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with is not always what I think in my head against me. They're really with me.
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And how do we walk in this life together with really good conversations?
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It's not easy. It's not easy. Susan says another quote that I'm going to quote from her book.
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If you ever listen to this, Susan Scott, don't ever get mad because I am quoting you, my dear.
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She said, that which goes unspoken and undealt with normally comes back to haunt
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us as fate. And I'm like, what?
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I got the goosebumps i got the goosebumps do
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i just want fate to have you know i believe
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in destiny i believe in karma and i believe in all that but
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i also have a control over how i show up and how i appear and what i'm doing
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success in love and relationships and at work is an accountability part on me
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too we can push it off on somebody and say that the universe backed up and took a proverbial dump on us.
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Or we can look at it through different lenses and say, it feels a little dumpy.
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It smells a little dumpy. I'm going to make compost out of this and grow flowers. You know,
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it's lemons to lemonade. But it's still not always easy to the person that's there in that moment.
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And I want people to recognize that and understand that. I'm not just saying
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that you just, like a light switch, turn on and off, but you can start gradually.
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You can start gradually with one conversation.
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Good conversations don't normally always just happen all at once. They happen gradually.
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And then suddenly you're like, hey, this isn't so bad, but it takes an effort.
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Yeah. And also takes like taking a big deep breath before you say what you want to say.
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Oh, don't go into it. Don't go into it. Let me tell you, don't go into a conversation
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heated and mad. and throwing grenades. Because when you do that,
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and you've been amygdala hijacked, your limbic brain has literally taken your rational thinking.
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You're talking shit that goes on in your head. You're talking shit that's going
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on in your head, and that shit's coming out of your mouth.
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And I truly believe that. I say that from me to everyone that's listening to
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this with a lot of love. Cool your jets.
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Watch out for your triggers. Tell people about your triggers.
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When you don't want to be triggered, tell people about your triggers.
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Kyle loves to tell me, calm down.
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I am calm. I am calm. Stop it.
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This is my call page. If you don't know who Linda Blair is, look up Linda Blair.
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My head spins around and I'm like, what? Don't tell me to calm down.
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And he's all saying that from a loving standpoint.
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But words matter. Words matter in conversations too. I always say it's a conversation.
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Susan says that in her book. It's C-O-N, con, conversare, to associate with.
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Not versate. Don't versate at somebody because if you're having conversations, you're one-sided.
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It sounds like you're being firehosed, but if you invite somebody to talk with
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you, then the conversation is really better.
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And don't say things like calm down and be quiet. Just...
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Or shut the fuck up and let me talk. Because those are not...
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We're on a hiatus from using that word.
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Hey, it's not my hour to do that, okay? I said an hour a day to do that. It's not today.
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Oh, man. Sometimes it just feels good to say that word. You know,
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I just want people to know if you're going through a hard time.
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And you're struggling, find somebody that you love and trust.
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A fierce conversation is not cat scratching. It's not ugly.
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It's not mean. It's about love and respect and honesty and loyalty.
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And the truth, it's about the truth. And sometimes the truth hurts.
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So don't be mad when the truth hurts. If you're having a conversation and the conversation stings a little bit,
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you're like, damn, think about the reality.
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And if you got to step in front of the mirror and take a good look Look in the
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mirror. God knows I have. I wouldn't want to today. Look at my face.
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I'm a little haggard. But sometimes we need to.
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Sometimes we need to have a good realization. Is the problem me?
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Or is the problem someplace else? And that's accountability.
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Yeah. It's like that metaphorical, like your dog earring that moment.
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That's usually like if me and my husband are getting into a tiff and he says
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something that triggers an emotional response to me instead of,
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you know, saying, shut the fuck up. I will kind of dog ear it. Like I need to come back to that and figure out what that's about.
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Because it's oftentimes not an attack or how I'm interpreting it or what he's saying necessarily.
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But there's something behind that part of the conversation that I need to revisit,
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figure out what's going on. Yeah.
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I think about this even from, you know, from not just a personal standpoint,
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but, you know, at work, the conversation is the relationship.
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Susan says that in her book too. That's not a quote from me. That's from her.
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You know, our conversations are a lot of what our culture is and our organizations
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that we work in and the people that we work with. And if we're frustrated,
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it's not about saying that you did something wrong.
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It's about having the understanding around it. We're all diverse in thought.
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You got to think about so many things. I think about all the people that I work
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with around the world and people that I coach around the world and companies
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that I work with around the world.
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It's not just how we view and see things that's right.
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Right there's so many things that come
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into play with being right context and ethics and morals and values and religions
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and where you brought up and how you view the world whether you were brought
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up you know i'm sure oprah winfrey look at oprah winfrey she was brought up
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very poor and she's a billionaire now how she views the world is differently than somebody who.
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Kardashian no offense to you kim if you're listening to and i'm sure she is
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that her life was a little different than somebody who grew up a different way.
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So context in how we're brought up, I think there's diversity of thought that needs to be brought in.
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But we should respect it all. You know, one of the things, and I'm going to
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get very fierce for a moment. You fierce? Never. Can I be fierce? Can I be fierce with you?
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You know, people say shit like, perception is reality.
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I'm just like, oh, stop. Perception is reality. I think that's the biggest bunch
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of bullshit that there is. If your perception is reality and you want to find out if it's reality,
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then you'll go and interrogate reality with the person that you're talking to, meaning this.
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Don't think that I'm doing something if you don't know. Don't make up a story
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in your head and believe it to be true. And if you really want to know the truth, have a fierce conversation with me.
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Ask me, did I see you texting on your phone over there during the meeting?
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I saw you texting people and I saw you smiling and laughing.
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Well, I actually wasn't texting during the conversation.
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I was taking copious note and I was smiling because all of it resonated with
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me and I thought it was a powerful conversation.
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Do you see where perception and reality get a big disconnect?
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And a lot of times we live our lives, our personal lives, our professional lives,
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just around perception as reality. And I'm like, if you really want to know, go freaking ask, go find out. I saw you texting.
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Were you texting and being crazy on your phone? No, boo, I was taking copious notes.
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Look, I got 16 pages in there in Excel. spreadsheet that I can send to you afterwards.
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But I had a leader literally do that to me one time. And I was like,
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she goes, my perception is that you're not paying attention during this meeting.
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And that's the voice that I hear in my head. You know what I'm saying?
27:06
My perception is that you're not paying attention. I was like,
27:09
well, your perception's wrong. And here's my notes.
27:14
And I think about that in relationships too. Sometimes my perception of Kyle
27:19
is not always the right Kyle that I have in my head.
27:23
And then when I go and I talk to him, he's like, boo, that's not what I, that's not me.
27:28
That's not what I was doing. And I was like, well, my perception that you were
27:31
just being an ass. And he was like, boo, that wasn't being an ass.
27:34
You know what I mean? You ever have that shit happen? Yes. All the time.
27:39
Question, did Daryl ever do that to you? What time is this at?
27:43
I need to make sure we, because... 5.59.
27:45
Okay. And do you ever do that to her? And, you know... You mean Lisa the lesbian? Yeah.
27:51
We do it all the time. We all do that. But I'm like, that needs to stop.
27:56
That's where part of the problem, I think, is really beginning,
28:01
is that we make up the stories, we believe in to be true, and then we never validate it.
28:06
And then sometimes we get passive-aggressive in those conversations too,
28:10
right? Yeah, you had said something earlier.
28:13
I've never been passive-aggressive ever in my life. I don't know what the hell
28:16
you're talking about. Oscar. For me, if I don't, there's one thing I know about myself.
28:22
If I keep that bottled in and just interpret something and then just assume
28:27
that's what it was, and I know that will aid in me developing resentment.
28:32
And once I have resentment, that's a bad place for me.
28:37
So I can't do that. I'm like, I'll ask everybody anything.
28:41
I get that. And that's Susan's quote, that which goes unspoken normally comes back to Honda.
28:47
That's faith. Faith, I'm here in South Florida. I saw a little gecko come in my apartment earlier.
28:54
And I think, where the hell did you go? Because you're probably going to come
28:57
back and hunt me as Godzilla at 3 a.m.
29:00
I need to find this little part before it comes back.
29:04
And I think, do I put it off and ignore it?
29:07
Because it normally is going to come back to hunt me. And I think those are
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conversations and relationships that we have. We think that it's not a big deal.
29:13
We sweep it under the carpet. We have all these things. these things these beautiful things that have trickled
29:19
down from generations to generations it'll come out in the laundry what's the
29:24
one that you've heard like it'll all work its way out it'll all come out the
29:29
yarn will unravel somewhere at the end and then we'll make a sweater of it.
29:34
Yeah it comes out and then you've already made a grave mistake you know either
29:39
through doing waste of text on your phone and accidentally things send.
29:44
Yes! And quit having conversations through text. Thank you.
29:49
Don't have conversations through text and email. It's the worst part. That's awful.
29:55
I sent a conversation the other night to a family member and I was like,
29:59
it was a long... I did my best to be very fierce and kind.
30:05
And I literally got the the K back.
30:09
The link K. And that's the worst. When you, those are, that's,
30:14
you just did, I just did it to myself.
30:16
I sent it, I should have had picked up the phone and had the conversation.
30:19
I sent the text, I got a K back and then I thought,
30:23
Oh, my gosh. And then I was mad. Well, I didn't have the right conversation
30:27
at the right space at the right time. Shame on me. I was part of that. I become an enabler to that bad conversation.
30:35
And then I had to deal with it because for about three days I was pissed off.
30:39
What the F is wrong with you? You're the shitter. And then I literally said,
30:44
oh, my God, there's such a shitter. Well, were they the shitter or was I?
30:49
I don't know. Because I replied back with take. like really
30:53
that's all you have to say is hey i want
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to reach through the phone and grab their neck i i
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know that's awful to say but that's i'm
31:04
being candid in in
31:07
my response and those are where conversations get
31:10
ended so i have to ask you is that
31:13
conversation you had via text and what
31:16
you wrote is that something that you would actually say to their
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face because a lot of times we write shouldn't text
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or an email that you would never say to somebody's face
31:25
well because we haven't grown the go the cojones to
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say it to their face and i will tell you probably yes
31:31
i would have from that text said it to their face i just thought the text was
31:35
an easier way to say it and it wasn't i think sometimes i think you're spot
31:40
on you know sometimes anonymity from the standpoint of a text or an email gives
31:45
us a little bit more power in our thoughts.
31:50
But the person who's picking up and reading that message is reading it the way they hear it.
31:56
So just like I made fun of my leader that said to me, are you looking at that?
32:01
What are you doing over there? You're smiling and you're texting people.
32:04
That's what I hear in my head. She probably did not say it that way. She probably said like,
32:11
what are you doing over there? Are you texting? I see you smiling,
32:14
but in my head, I hear the Wicked Witch of the West.
32:16
So we make that shit up.
32:21
And to anyone, we're like, we put any conversation is emotionally charged. I truly believe that.
32:27
But when we have those conversations that are in text and email,
32:31
we'll add exclamation points and capitalization.
32:35
Stop doing that too. Stop putting things in capitalization. But we put caps
32:39
into things that don't even have caps on it. And you're like,
32:41
exclamation point. And then that's how we respond.
32:44
And I'm like, and have you ever had a conversation where somebody said,
32:48
I just wanted to say, just wanted to give you my piece, my thought story.
32:53
And you're like, damn, well, why was I so, so mean?
32:57
I know. Have you ever had that happen? Yes.
33:00
And then you have to be humble pie and you're embarrassed. You're like,
33:03
well, I thought you was being kind of rude or something.
33:08
Like it can't possibly be me. No, that's exactly right. It can't be me.
33:13
It's my context is right. All conversations are with myself.
33:18
And sometimes they involve other people. And when you don't involve other people,
33:22
Maslow's theory comes to play here.
33:26
Self-actualization. We come up with things, we put them into action,
33:31
we live them, we believe them, and therefore we are.
33:34
That's what I say to people I'm not perfect I don't know anybody who is I won't
33:40
be perfect tomorrow but one of the things that I will tell you is that the guidance
33:45
of Fierce Conversations has allowed me to course correct.
33:50
Highly effective people watch for trends and course correct before arriving
33:54
at an undesired suddenly. And I still have them. I still have undesired suddenlies, but there are fewer
34:01
and far between than what they were before.
34:04
If you think that reading a book or listening to this podcast is going to change
34:08
the trajectory of your life without some type of self-actualization and behavioral
34:13
change on your part, you're setting yourself up for failure.
34:16
I want you to know that. I want you to hear me say that to you.
34:20
It takes dedication. It takes being intentional and it takes work.
34:26
Working hard on yourself is hard. It's never easy.
34:31
If it was easy, we would all be just living hard lives, right?
34:38
But it's not. It takes a lot of work. There's going to be tough days and there's
34:41
going to be bad days and there's going to be really good days.
34:44
But I think that you can change the dichotomy of where that pendulum flows if you're awake.
34:51
If you stay awake and you're intentional.
34:54
And a good life deserves intention.
34:58
Your good life on the shit that goes on in your head deserves intention.
35:05
Meaning, are you yes everyone's
35:08
struggling and everyone deserves a moment to be
35:11
down i get it but are you digging yourself
35:14
up out of that are you dusting your knees
35:17
off i had a woman tell me one time my mentor she said
35:21
to me in life i go i am so far down in this cesspool of life i am just choking
35:27
on literally garbage and she said then pull yourself up out of that garbage
35:35
and she goes And if you're looking for somebody to extend you in a hand,
35:38
I'm here, but don't wait for it. Dig yourself out of that dumpster.
35:43
And I was like, where were you 14 years ago when I needed you?
35:52
Sometimes people just need to hear yourself. It's going to be okay.
35:59
And do you think that those fierce conversations, that's an awesome example
36:05
of self-care and self-love? That is taking care of yourself. Yeah.
36:09
Because if you don't take care of yourself, listen, I sat on a plane today and
36:12
I listened to the Southwest Airline flight attendant. Cute as a button, he was.
36:19
And he said, if you're with a child, you put your oxygen mask on first before
36:25
assisting other people. Wow. To be fierce, you have to put your oxygen mask off on first.
36:32
And if you want to be fierce and help other people, it has to be on their terms.
36:36
You can't coach somebody who doesn't want to be coached. You can't love somebody
36:42
who doesn't want to be loved. You can't inspire somebody who doesn't want to be inspired.
36:49
Pick and choose your battle. Stop wasting time on people who don't want to have
36:55
the goodness that you're going for. And sometimes that means severing relationships for now.
37:00
Doesn't mean that they can't be cultivated and grown back. But I've had to say
37:04
to people before in my life, even through fierce conversations,
37:08
come back to me when you're ready. I'm here. I'm here. I'm ready.
37:13
But I can't do this anymore. And that's how fierce these can be.
37:18
You know, you got to self, there's self-preservation. And I believe in that.
37:22
But don't let it be a one-sided self-preservation where you just cocoon yourself
37:27
or you armor up for battle against people.
37:31
Armor up for your goodness to people.
37:35
There's a difference. I'm going into battle in this conversation.
37:40
I'm ready to be fierce. Well, you're doing it the wrong way, boo.
37:44
Armor up to be kind and gentle and good and caring.
37:48
That's the good armor that you want to have. Anybody can be nasty and gross
37:52
and mean. We can all do that. That's easy.
37:55
But when we dig down below the surface of what's infecting us in the relationship
38:01
and we course correct, and that's where the power of potential lies.
38:06
But I do believe that sometimes relationships sometimes need to be severed. They need to be ended.
38:12
It doesn't always mean that it's bad. It just means I've chosen to go my way
38:16
and I wish you well and I love you. But maybe I like you. My mom said that to me one time. She told me,
38:22
she said to me, she goes, Regent, I love you so much.
38:25
And this was that cantankerous time in our lives. And remember her saying,
38:28
I love you so much. I will always be here for you.
38:32
But today I do not like you. And it's okay not to be liked in that moment.
38:37
But if you want a relationship to be lasting, you want a work relationship to
38:41
be lasting, then put in the effort to make it last.
38:46
If it is to be, then it's up to me. it really is
38:49
yeah and you have to have those
38:52
conversations otherwise what are
38:56
we doing there's something you said where it's like is this how i want to live
39:01
my life are these is this how i want to spend my time and my energy and if the
39:05
relationship is worth it then you have that conversation yeah i'll put the work
39:09
in out of seattle there they have pike's place fish market Okay.
39:13
So here's a little plug for Susan in Seattle. I'm really plugging Seattle today.
39:19
Ice Place Fish Market. You ever been? Yes.
39:23
They play, they have fun. But there is a philosophy. It says,
39:27
choose your attitude, make their day, play and have fun.
39:30
And these people who schlep ice around and stinky fish, this man,
39:34
there was a guy on a video and he was like, yeah, I got up and he smelled like
39:38
he smoked like 12 packs of cigarettes. I get up and I work at 4 a.m.
39:42
And I schlep ice all around. I deal with stinky fish, but every day I choose my attitude.
39:46
And I'm like, that's what I want to be around.
39:50
That's where I want to embrace my life. My dad used to say to me,
39:55
and God rest his soul, he's been gone for five years, but I hear his voice emphatically in my head.
40:01
He said that if you lay with dogs, you're going to get fleas. Pick your pack.
40:07
I love that. And that, what I try to do every day, you know,
40:12
I love just about everyone. There's some people that I, unfortunately, that love relationship isn't there.
40:20
But the majority of the people I try to love and give kindness and grace.
40:25
Gretchen, I always think of Greg Toronto. And Greg Toronto, if you ever listen
40:29
to this podcast, I'm giving a shout out to you.
40:33
And he said this, and I listened to him as a mentor to him, he said,
40:37
Regent, just err on the side of grace and that will help you with your conversation.
40:46
You know? Yeah. Yeah, I know. That's like my favorite word. You got to give
40:51
not only other people grace, but yourself grace.
40:55
I love it. Yeah. Wow. What an awesome conversation in just such a short time period.
41:02
You all are mad. I know. Unicorns.
41:07
They don't call you Skittles for nothing, girl.
41:12
I know, right? Yeah, I can't believe we're here.
41:15
I mean, thank you, Regent. This has been... I mean, I will fangirl after this.
41:19
I'm going to go upstairs to tell my husband. I just talked to Dr. Regent. Are you going to ask me any of your crazy questions?
41:27
I do. Oh, God, ask away. If I don't get the answer, I will make up something.
41:33
No, these are like the brain-tingly ones.
41:36
So, Regent today, Regent now. If you could go back in time to a younger version
41:42
of yourself and give yourself a fierce conversation, what would you say?
41:47
And at what age would you travel back to?
41:50
It's so funny. I had something come up on my Facebook the other day. It was me in Honduras.
41:56
And I did a little stint with a wellness program in Honduras where we inoculated kids.
42:02
And I see this little boy who is 19 years, 18 years old, and he's feeding a monkey.
42:08
And I said, I would whisper in his ear, be fierce, go into it brave,
42:14
and never have any remorse and regret.
42:17
I had not come out at that time. I'm probably gay. I am who I am.
42:21
I was suffering at that time, but I would tell that young man in that picture
42:26
as I looked at it and whisper in his ear, be your true authentic self,
42:33
and carpe diem, seize the day. I think I seized the day.
42:38
I think sometimes I was scared of seizing the day, but damn,
42:41
I probably would have seized it even more. I just would have taken life by the cojones and just did.
42:47
And I think I did a darn good job back then too with what I had and where I had it.
42:52
But man, would I wrap my arms around him and just give him love.
42:56
Things were different back then coming out. This is back in 1990.
43:02
Age was at its highest. Wait, you're gay? I had no idea. You're gay?
43:07
I had no idea. Oh, girl, please.
43:10
I opened up my mouth and a purse falls out. What the hell?
43:17
But I would tell that young man just stand
43:21
by proud and strong and I
43:24
think I have but I would have whispered that in his ear and gave him even more
43:29
inspiration to be as good as he could be and I think I've done a pretty darn
43:35
good job in my life but I I would have really wrapped my arms around him and loved him hard. Yeah.
43:44
What lesson are you looking forward to learning in the future?
43:50
God, what retirement feels like. Fuck. Yeah. Do you have plans?
43:54
Oh, I do. I have big plans. You know, I don't think I'll ever like retire, retire.
44:00
I just think that we all need to be challenged and stimulated.
44:03
I have so much that I have on. I have a book that needs to be written.
44:07
I have, I am a PCC. I'm a coach. I'm a life coach.
44:11
You can find me on LinkedIn. You want to talk to me? I'm a PCC.
44:15
I want to coach people in their life journey. I want to coach people in their
44:19
professionalism. Right now with my full-time job, it doesn't always allow me to do that.
44:23
But I want to be that when I grow up. And I just want to do that at a pace that's sustainable to me.
44:32
I feel like sometimes I have my foot on the gas pedal going about 100 miles an hour.
44:37
And I'm ready to take that down to at least 95.
44:41
Just a little. Five miles makes a difference. You ask any speed.
44:44
It sure does. Ask a police officer.
44:47
Five miles makes a difference. It sure does.
44:50
Durex, do you want to ask your infamous? What do you do for self-care?
44:54
So my question for you, Regent, is what do you do for self-care and self-love on a daily basis?
45:00
You know, I believe in writing things down of gratitude. I have a notebook. Okay.
45:08
And I've got one here. And you're not seeing it on film, but I have one here.
45:15
And I write down things of gratitude every day that I'm happy for.
45:21
Sometimes I miss a day. Sometimes, most of the time I don't,
45:23
but I write things down that I'm really happy and grateful for.
45:27
I work out. There is cortisol in our body. Get it out of your system, work out.
45:32
Even if you go for a 30 minute walk or a 15 minute walk, get off your arse and
45:36
get the shit out of your head. Go for a walk, eat healthy, drink water, and just be kind.
45:43
I try to find myself being kind to someone.
45:47
Even today, the woman at the airport, the flight person, rearranged my flight. She did it.
45:53
And then I walked back up to the counter and I said, afterwards,
45:56
I was getting on my flight and I said, thank you so much for just treating me
46:00
kind and getting me back on this flight because I had screwed up my flights.
46:04
And she goes, no problem. She goes, hardly anybody comes back up and says thank you like that again.
46:08
And I thought, well, okay, I'm a little different. I'm a different bird.
46:13
Be the different bird. Be that person.
46:17
Stop doing random acts of kindness and paying for coffee for people behind you.
46:21
Take coffee to a homeless person. Do something, random act of kindness for somebody who really needs it instead of behind you.
46:26
There's nothing wrong with buying somebody coffee behind you.
46:29
I mean, I get that. I want to sound like a curmudgeon, but do a random act of
46:33
kindness outside of the scope of somebody who might need it as opposed to somebody
46:37
who really desperately needs it. Yeah. I love that.
46:42
I love you, Regent. We love you. Oh my God, I love you too. We needed this.
46:49
I know. Hi all, thank you so much for listening to this episode. I'm G-Rex.
46:55
And I'm Dirty Skittles. Don't forget to subscribe, rate, and review this podcast.
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